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I Tend to Lock Myself Away When Things Get Bad

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    Im Sick of Myself.....

    in other words I'm a procrastinating chika that will dig her head in the sand until there just isn't any other option but to face what eve it may b...i didnt think I'm too proud to ask for help but the only way i will is if its for the kids and not for myself...i grew up the...
    Jny Jny 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2007

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    Magic Trick

    *swallows key* Ta-da!
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2013

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    Lock Down Already In Progress!

    I'm starting to lock you out!  The things you once told me never rang true!  I had decided that there would be no mistakes this time around.  Why is it you lied to me?  Was it because you thought I wouldn't love you as you are.  I would have but now...
    tks tks 36-40, F 15 Responses Aug 12, 2008

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    In A Literal Sense...

    I get depressed, stay away from people, lock myself in my room and hardly eat. All of this makes it very hard to be happy, but live social interaction sucks the life out of me.
    ashleyxxpiano ashleyxxpiano 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2010

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    Hibernation Time

    when things start going crazy, i tend to go to bed and stay there.  it practically takes an act of Congress to get my butt out of my apartment at those times.  i just want to feel "safe" and i know for sure that home is one place that i will be.
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2007

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    Aaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh

    why is it people think  just coz they ring or knock on the door you feel like talking to them. Some days i like to just veg out in front of the tv in my pyjamas all day and shut the world out i'm normally a happy go lucky person on the surface but underneath im screaming...
    thenuttyone thenuttyone 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2007

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    I'm Sorry.

    This is who I am and who I used to be. I tend to lock myself away from everybody. When I was in school, I sometimes look my friends from a far. They don't see me but I see them, I may be silent but I was listening, lurking, following them with my eyes. But I am invisible, I can't...
    CallmeCamille CallmeCamille 70+ Apr 9, 2012

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    I Ponder

    That's me all over. Lay low and fly under the wire.  When things are bad ,  I need to think. I make better decisions &  decision making can be  final . I'd like to make a good.    I'll do something but it's on my time & it need to be quiet time...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 5 Responses Jun 24, 2010

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    Isolation

    I dont like to open up when im upset I never want to make myself vulnerable to anyone because i dont want them to be able to use it against me ... and i can turn my emotions off and on ...I dont think i could deal with things any other way .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 12, 2008

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    Would You Prefer The Alternative?

    I usually lock myself in my room whenever I get into a argument with someone, so I don't do or say anything I'll regret later.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 22-25, M Nov 26, 2011

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    Disappearing Act

    When I need help the most, I tend to disappear from the face of the earth. I isolate myself because I can't talk about it. Sometimes it gets so bad I can't even be on the computer. I know I am depressed a lot, and it seems like that is how I love my life, but when I'm pretty...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 4, 2007

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    Don't Want To Be A Burden...

    This is why I vent online. There are only 2 people in real life that I can talk to about my problems. They can't help me, they can only listen. When I have serious issues going on, I don't like to show or tell everyone. I close myself off until I am ready to show myself to the...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Mar 31, 2011

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    I Ponder

    That's me all over. Lay low and fly under the wire.  When things are bad ,  I need to think. I make better decisions &  decision making can be  final . I'd like to make a good.    I'll do something but it's on my time & it need to be quiet time...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F Jun 24, 2010

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    Time Are Bad...

    It's something natural for me, when something goes bad, I lock myself away. When all the things are messed, I'm in total hibernation. It happens when I'm not getting along well with a friend, I just move away(not breaking up, though). I disappear from that friend's life like I'm...
    beyondrepair beyondrepair 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 25, 2010

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    Sleeping In The Dog House

    I hate conflict, and I always have. As a child I would hide away when voices got raised, glass got thrown, and divorce got threatened. My favorite hiding spot? Our Spitz's dog house outside. I would run out there when no one was looking, and curl up with our dog. She kept me warm...
    SeptembersSapphire13 SeptembersSapphire13 16-17, F Aug 16, 2012

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    The Literal Lock

    Sometimes it gets so bad at home and when voices start getting raised I just leave the scene and lock myself in my room. If that doesn't muffle the noises, I plug in my headphones and turn up the volume. Then I will stay there until I am sure everything is over. I sometimes think...
    frootiee frootiee 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    I just want to be alone at that time and sometimes I do it without noticing.
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    I used to think I was flawed because I couldn't get my peers to understand me. Now I just know that I'm very different. I'm a bit weird. But that's ok. I still get frustrated when...
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    It isn't something I am proud of, I'm not one of those teenagers who try to take their lives over pointless reasons. What I am about to say is my reason why, don't judge someone...
    SaveYourWords SaveYourWords 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yes I do. If somebody hurts my feelings by something they said or did I retreat into myself away from them. Also if somebody I care about ignores me then I draw away from them. It...
    1SweetL 1SweetL 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 13

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    I'm use to having negativity in my life. So anything that's suppose to be good for me, I tend to push away because I'm afraid and it's unfamiliar to me. It's irritating, but that's...
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    One day at school I was just in a strange mood so I went around yelling "p*enis!" At people and now people copy me...like wtf! That's my thing. I have no idea what's wrong with me...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    The belt, the wooden spoon, whatever my parents could get their hands on! LOL. I remember one time my mother chased me with a clog! She didn't catch me, I locked myself in the...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 15

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    It's always my fault. When I speak do my words just go through one ear to the next? Or do you actually understand what I am saying. I am trying to improve myself and make things...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    YOU came into my life at a period when I was drowning in a figurative sense of term. 16 years of lonely life, a life built on day dreams, a life of escaping from reality , a life...
    cherishuforever cherishuforever 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    For the longest time I have invested my time thinking about my friends and family and whether I have upset them. Whether I said something wrong. Whether I offended them. Whether I...
    moorelove3168 moorelove3168 18-21 Apr 15

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    I find it incredibly difficult to open up to people, especially lately because everyone I've ever been close to has left. Now I just keep the majority of my thoughts and feelings...
    hollylynn91 hollylynn91 22-25, F Mar 26

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    It will be a struggle~ Nobody's perfect, we each have out flaws and features or traits we don't like about ourselves. I've come to terms with the fact that there is always going...
    lifesize lifesize 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I don't like being surrounded by people, even those close to me cause my anxiety to rise. I shut myself away to get myself back together but lately I havent wanted to leave. The...
    JustBones JustBones 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't do it intentionally. Sometimes if I'm in a rut, I keep to myself and leave others alone. Its a fault I have, but no one's perfect. I rather dwell and deal with my own...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I am 15 years old and I want to die.. I've been depressed since a young age. When I was in my mothers stomach my real father tried killing me a number of times... Then after I was...
    MissThang69 MissThang69 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I don't know where to start, in my 36 years of existence my life has been complicated ever since. I have an unusual family to start, I have an adopted older sister which had been...
    jopet jopet 31-35, M Apr 4

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    I like learning how to do new things. I especially like challenging myself to do things that I'm not very good at and hands on things. I've been learning sign language lately.
    cunninlc cunninlc 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I hate myself for many things
    Empress14 Empress14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    She was like an angel. She passed away 4 years ago but the pain is stronger than it was when it happened. She passex away when i was 22 and to this day, i cry at night just wishing...
    Loer Loer 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I was working my way to becoming a whole person instead of a broken mess. I was fixing my life. Now I just feel like I'd deceived myself into thinking things were starting to be...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 70+ 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It took me a while to realize that somewhere along my path of life I actually managed to lose myself in reality. I lost old friends and gained new ones and realized I had changed...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I laugh a lot. There is hardly a day that I go without laughing. I'm pretty frank so what I say sometimes can be considered as sarcastic but people often laugh at what I do or say...
    Chirogymnast Chirogymnast 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    When people call me "Cute, your pretty." I just don't buy it. I don't have long hair but I did. I cut my hair in a pixie style and I've never felt more confident about myself. But...
    vanmaury vanmaury 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Russell. If there is one man who has literally become my worst nightmare, it's Russell *beeping* Brand. In real life i'm sure he's nice, but i'll NEVER forgive him for the...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M 55 mins ago

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    A lot of it has to do with not wanting to be a downer but also not having a lot of support. Honestly one of the things that most makes me depressed is the unreliability...
    Jaideiris Jaideiris 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    *UPDATED* 1. I dye my hair a lot. (Not much anymore) 2. My momma figure means EVERYTHING to me. 3. I have a cat named Hiccup! 4. I'm extremely pale, but have rosy cheeks. 5. I'm...
    ProudByChoice ProudByChoice 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel people should know these things about me Ps brownie points if you find all the song references and can message me with the songs and artists. So, my list: 1. I am gay 2. I...
    ZC343454 ZC343454 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I love my mom and my grandma but growing up was sometimes really hard for me. I remember waking up in the middle of the night when I was really little so i could bury my head under...
    bsmirror bsmirror 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    well it all started in my first primary school....it was all okay up till primary 6 then I turned into a 'loner' as people would say. One girl in particular really took a disliking...
    unknownperson6 unknownperson6 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There are times that I want to be alone, just left alone. People don't understand that. They don't understand when they are trying to suffocate me and it annoys me. If I told you I...
    BeingAnAnglophile BeingAnAnglophile 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I am, a bad liar. First because on important things, out of "I'm fine", to people you don't even know, or people you don't want to be worried, or, independence, and above all, self...
    WickedScullyOfTheWest WickedScullyOfTheWest 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    1. My name is Kaylynn 2. I'm bisexual and fvcking proud of it 3. I'm 14 years old from California 4. I have 6 sisters 5. I'm bulimic 6. I cut myself a lot 7. I think Miley Cyrus is...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    We just finished a school lock down drill. We are used to fire drills and tornado drills but we've never had a Lock Down drill. We have to have them now because alot of people have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 28

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