I Tend to Lock Myself Away When Things Get Bad

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    Hibernation Time

    when things start going crazy, i tend to go to bed and stay there.  it practically takes an act of Congress to get my butt out of my apartment at those times.  i just want to feel "safe" and i know for sure that home is one place that i will be.
    SunnyKris SunnyKris
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2007

    In A Literal Sense...

    I get depressed, stay away from people, lock myself in my room and hardly eat. All of this makes it very hard to be happy, but live social interaction sucks the life out of me.
    ashleyxxpiano ashleyxxpiano
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2010

    Time Are Bad...

    It's something natural for me, when something goes bad, I lock myself away. When all the things are messed, I'm in total hibernation. It happens when I'm not getting along well with a friend, I just move away, temporarily. When things are bad with family, I stay inside my bedroom...
    beyondrepair beyondrepair
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jul 25, 2010

    Isolation

    I dont like to open up when im upset I never want to make myself vulnerable to anyone because i dont want them to be able to use it against me ... and i can turn my emotions off and on ...I dont think i could deal with things any other way .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    Jan 12, 2008

    Sleeping In The Dog House

    I hate conflict, and I always have. As a child I would hide away when voices got raised, glass got thrown, and divorce got threatened. My favorite hiding spot? Our Spitz's dog house outside. I would run out there when no one was looking, and curl up with our dog. She kept me warm...
    SeptembersSapphire13 SeptembersSapphire13
    16-17, F
    Aug 16, 2012

    Aaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh

    why is it people think  just coz they ring or knock on the door you feel like talking to them. Some days i like to just veg out in front of the tv in my pyjamas all day and shut the world out i'm normally a happy go lucky person on the surface but underneath im screaming...
    thenuttyone thenuttyone
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2007

    Don't Want To Be A Burden...

    This is why I vent online. There are only 2 people in real life that I can talk to about my problems. They can't help me, they can only listen. When I have serious issues going on, I don't like to show or tell everyone. I close myself off until I am ready to show myself to the...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    22-25
    4 Responses Mar 31, 2011

    Lock Down Already In Progress!

    I'm starting to lock you out!  The things you once told me never rang true!  I had decided that there would be no mistakes this time around.  Why is it you lied to me?  Was it because you thought I wouldn't love you as you are.  I would have but now...
    tks tks
    36-40, F
    15 Responses Aug 12, 2008

    Im Sick of Myself.....

    in other words I'm a procrastinating chika that will dig her head in the sand until there just isn't any other option but to face what eve it may b...i didnt think I'm too proud to ask for help but the only way i will is if its for the kids and not for myself...i grew up the...
    Jny Jny
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2007

    I Ponder

    That's me all over. Lay low and fly under the wire.  When things are bad ,  I need to think. I make better decisions &  decision making can be  final . I'd like to make a good.    I'll do something but it's on my time & it need to be quiet time...
    wiseowl wiseowl
    61-65, F
    4 Responses Jun 24, 2010

    I Ponder

    That's me all over. Lay low and fly under the wire.  When things are bad ,  I need to think. I make better decisions &  decision making can be  final . I'd like to make a good.    I'll do something but it's on my time & it need to be quiet time...
    wiseowl wiseowl
    61-65, F
    Jun 24, 2010

    The Literal Lock

    Sometimes it gets so bad at home and when voices start getting raised I just leave the scene and lock myself in my room. If that doesn't muffle the noises, I plug in my headphones and turn up the volume. Then I will stay there until I am sure everything is over. I sometimes think...
    frootiee frootiee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2011

    Magic Trick

    *swallows key* Ta-da!
    Sylphy Sylphy
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2013

    Disappearing Act

    When I need help the most, I tend to disappear from the face of the earth. I isolate myself because I can't talk about it. Sometimes it gets so bad I can't even be on the computer. I know I am depressed a lot, and it seems like that is how I love my life, but when I'm pretty...
    eyes eyes
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2007

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