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I Think About Dark And Twisted Things

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 204 People

    At some point, don't we all?

    I know that I certainly do, and I'm not ashamed of that just so long as it remains within my mind only. Of course, there are certain dark thoughts that fuel my imagination and inspire stories for me to create, and that is most definitely pleasant.
    InexplicableKy InexplicableKy 18-21, F Jan 21, 2014

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    I Don't Want This To Happen Anymore.

    On occasion, I catch myself thinking what certain people would sound like as they're on their knees in front of me, begging and sobbing for me to spare them from death. Death at my hand.
    Unboxed Unboxed 13-15 Dec 16, 2012

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    Im Very Messed Up

    Sometimes when i see a random person i like to sitdoen and imagine what their death would be like. Sometimes it comes true.
    walkingXwolfXthatXdied walkingXwolfXthatXdied 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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    I am twisted a bit more

    than your average girl for one my first job was/is an exotic dancer I'm not really afraid to show my body mainly this is most likly due to the abuse I suffered as a kid
    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 22-25, F May 4, 2014

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    Darkness

    In always thinking about killing people or killing something.. My eyes sometimes turn black and when. That happens I feel like killing.. What is up with that?.
    Hellfire66 Hellfire66 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    I'm about to ask a serious question about

    myself, and i'd like your opinion as someone who doesn't know me. I'm not doing this for attention or to make myself look like a "psycho crazy emo" or whatever, i'm genuinely concerned about this... Ever Since i can remember, i've had this fictional world in my head. I'd often...
    Tikotacos Tikotacos 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    I Wonder

    I wonder at times how long it would take for someone to discover my death were I to die in my dorm room. I do not get close to people easily and like to keep to myself, so, even if some people would notice me being missing, it might still be a few weeks...
    yukiry yukiry 18-21 Dec 4, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Watched The Breakfast Club last night.. And it really made me think *_*
    pinklemonade800 pinklemonade800 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I really can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try I can't help it but it makes me smile when I think of you and happy my sis said to me what the hell are you smiling...
    susananngoga32 susananngoga32 31-35, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I am a thinker and when I read stories on EP I try to put myself in the author's position and try to imagine myself going through the experience that is written about :) Sometimes...
    workinggirlkelly workinggirlkelly 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I would never do it! But I hate that I think about it so much....I should be happy.
    L0ST1 L0ST1 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think I've gotten to the point that I care about my wife but don't love her. I don't feel loved so I'm not sure that I can love in return. I often wonder that even if I was...
    bgood79 bgood79 36-40, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was only a child when I started to fantasize about suicide. Whenever I felt overwhelmed I would think about ending my life and it would bring about a calming effect on me. As the...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I all ways think about sex maybe to much I need to get some soon as possible and cannot wait to have some ok a lot of sex
    dresscross dresscross 51-55, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It's like we live on a little island now. We like a couple miles out from a tiny town. Hear nothing but birds. We are surrounded by trees it really feels like we've got our own...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Sure I am ...but I am also thinking about fresh baked chocolate chip cookies with milk...DOH...here comes sex again......(it was the milk comment....you know jugs..milk..boobs...
    AwakenEdge AwakenEdge 41-45, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    I went sunbathing today and all the time I battled with thoughts of what the people around me might think about my body. Sometimes I think I'm f**king paranoid :(
    lindamerja lindamerja 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I love thinking about death everywhere I go I look at people and think of them dying and I love to think of me killing them it's very fun. Death is very exciting.
    Demon6666 Demon6666 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today. I typed her name into Youtube, subconsciously. I use to look at her Facebook all the time. Now, I just roll my eyes at the sight of her face. I tried to reach her...
    Loopiee Loopiee 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I'm thinking about suicide right now and how much better I would be dead. I just feel as if I should kill myself. People would be better off without me and wouldn't miss me. I'm...
    lgbtprideeee lgbtprideeee 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    The only thing that kills me to think about, is people missing me. My biggest fear, is having people cry when I'm gone, it hurts me. In a way, I hope people don't miss me that...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't know if is just me but I do think about death and what would happen if I did die !! My story I got in trouble like big trouble and someone found me when I was trying to...
    livvie22 livvie22 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I think about death as very normal thing and loves to have death.. In a way it's way to get free from everything and move on from this world full of mess.. The fact is death is...
    Ravidesai Ravidesai 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    I've been thinking about committing suicide a lot lately, and was reading a lot of your stories. I just want to tell you all that you matter, that it is always better to keep on...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My parents are taking their "princess" to visit our relatives. They miss her soooooo much.. Bla bla bla.. I think about doing it tonight. I'm so hurt and I just can't do this...
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    A lot, now the very thought helps me sleep. When you think about death it's easier to forgive. For instance "I'm going to die one day, the ones whom hurt me will also die one day...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    He is absolutely amazing. He ticks so many boxes that I've prayed about for years. The way he looks at me makes me want to run into his arms. He would never hurt me intentionally...
    aepteewS aepteewS 41-45 1 Response Jun 27

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    still thinking about things and just wanting to disappear. just wish life wasn't so complicated. i wish I was perfect. I'm hating myself so much. my thoughts aren't well right now...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    What if I could just stop breathing in my sleep? I don't think anyone would care. I don't bother opening up to anyone anymore.. I'm so numb all the time. I'm just alive but I'm not...
    PlanetGaia PlanetGaia 18-21, F Jun 27

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    I'm not afraid of death, I just think about it on a daily basis, like, "I wonder what it would be like if I were dead" It doesn't mean I want to kill myself I stopped thinking...
    SxuccessfuI SxuccessfuI 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    So all i think about are my mistakes and now im paying for them with my blood. i cant stop. and its bad. i use glass.i cant get rid of the glass either. please help me if you can...
    Sadiemay523 Sadiemay523 18-21, F Jun 25

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    So I am 30. I am female. And I have been thinking about joining the Australian Defense Force since I was 20. I'm thinking I will join the reserves just to see if I can do it...
    AnnieLouisez AnnieLouisez 26-30, F Jun 24

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    I really wish I wasn't unhappy with my life. Things are going pretty well for me but he just want to die. I want to so bad. I'm conflicted between killing myself and not wanting to...
    emyay emyay 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    Working on my behavior has been a great journey: I overcame thinking about people and situations who don't exist because If I'm not around not them they shouldn't be thought of...
    Brandnewhim2015 Brandnewhim2015 26-30, M Jun 23

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    my wife is the only woman I have every had sex with. sometimes I wish I had more sexual experiences. Most times I keep thinking about going on one of those sex sites and just go...
    Aaronns Aaronns 36-40, M 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I was with this wonderfully sweet man about 7-8 years ago he was sweet and would have done anything for me. He proposed at the time i was still in college and so young i had my...
    scarsofrelief scarsofrelief 26-30, F Jun 20

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    I was dating this person. I love them still but things got between us. Now we live 2 hours away from eachother and we're talking about getting back together but I want to get back...
    mvillevamp2013 mvillevamp2013 22-25, F Jun 20

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    I fantasize about my wife falling in love with another man and letting him take my role as the husband. It gives me a euphoric feeling thinking about the other man laying on my...
    Brian944 Brian944 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 20

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    To be honest I've been thinking about it this entire week. I mean this place is kinda great to find people who are like you but, then there comes the party crashers that lash out...
    rocketguy19 rocketguy19 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 20

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    I'm all ways thinking about sex but finding someone that thinks the same way I do is very hard
    dresscross dresscross 51-55, M Jun 18

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    i Fall back in memory's i remember my history and cry now for 2h I have a knife at at side and think about to do it now someone can help me by do it ?
    jassikitty jassikitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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