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I Think About Dark And Twisted Things

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    I am twisted a bit more

    than your average girl for one my first job was/is an exotic dancer I'm not really afraid to show my body mainly this is most likly due to the abuse I suffered as a kid
    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 18-21, F May 4, 2014

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    At some point, don't we all?

    I know that I certainly do, and I'm not ashamed of that just so long as it remains within my mind only. Of course, there are certain dark thoughts that fuel my imagination and inspire stories for me to create, and that is most definitely pleasant.
    InexplicableKy InexplicableKy 18-21, F Jan 21, 2014

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    Im Very Messed Up

    Sometimes when i see a random person i like to sitdoen and imagine what their death would be like. Sometimes it comes true.
    walkingXwolfXthatXdied walkingXwolfXthatXdied 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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    I Don't Want This To Happen Anymore.

    On occasion, I catch myself thinking what certain people would sound like as they're on their knees in front of me, begging and sobbing for me to spare them from death. Death at my hand.
    Unboxed Unboxed 13-15 Dec 16, 2012

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    Darkness

    In always thinking about killing people or killing something.. My eyes sometimes turn black and when. That happens I feel like killing.. What is up with that?.
    Therealwolfblood44 Therealwolfblood44 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    I Wonder

    I wonder at times how long it would take for someone to discover my death were I to die in my dorm room. I do not get close to people easily and like to keep to myself, so, even if some people would notice me being missing, it might still be a few weeks...
    yukiry yukiry 18-21 Dec 4, 2012

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    endmypainn endmypainn 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    I'm not going to settle for anything less then what I want or need, and I can't commit to something I know isn't good for me. I don't feel the need to be with someone only to find...
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    I don't want to lose. I need to keep going. Stop making me think about suicide (note to self) I need to keep going. I want to be able to see if things do get better.
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    He is all I think about and it's making me all sad and things, I always thought it was stupid being sad over boys but look at me now
    BMTH26 BMTH26 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    this might freak some people out so if you don't want to read about death I would click off. when I was younger I did not talk to a lot of people or have a lot of friends so I...
    awesomea16 awesomea16 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 5

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    For years, many many years I have thought about suicide nearly everyday. I don't remember a day I haven't thought about it. When I was younger I would look at a length of rope or I...
    LifeIsBeatingMe LifeIsBeatingMe 26-30, M 5 Responses Feb 14

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    Lying in bed, listening to Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding and for some reason I can't stop thinking about you tonight. I miss you so much and as much as I hate to admit it I...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F Feb 17

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    I'm thinking about it right now... someone told me to kill myself today. but it wasn't like "oh go kill yourself" it was more like "oh you think you're so smart and so pretty...
    jayissosadlike jayissosadlike 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    Does anyone have any advice on dealing with this irrational fear I have? I worry about how others see me based on how I act and what I wear. I don't act like I would with someone...
    MarioT96 MarioT96 18-21, M 5 Responses Feb 22

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    Missinterpret Missinterpret 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Here recently it's not that I actively seek ways to die anymore but I still think about death and ways to die. I'm a pretty screwed up person :/
    Sxculent Sxculent 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Even now all I can think about is suicide. I've even read about ways to do it from this app and I don't know what's stopping me, I guess I'm scared but I want to do it. I don't...
    whispers04 whispers04 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Some of us married men like to think about our wives having hot passionate sex. Most of us men with such a fantasy are men who are denied sex with our wives because our wives are...
    drlesmoore drlesmoore 56-60, M 3 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm thinking about whether Colorado is a good place for me. This place makes me sick and I feel as if it's time to move on.
    onecutebubbles0729 onecutebubbles0729 22-25, F Feb 15

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    Do I need to go any further with this???? If only you weren't such a sweetheart. A man that every female dreams of.... Gorgeous as hell, yet sexy within. Fun. Hilarious. Touch of...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I cannot get you off my mind!! You've stolen my heart and I think about you and me all the time...
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    I don't expect anyone to care, but I am thinking about deleting my account. Enough said.
    Harper101 Harper101 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    I am thinking about leaving EP. Any of the girls I met on here I feel like don't even care about me. I haven't heard from them in forever and feel like I'm just a nobody:'( . Feel...
    BrandonVidya2014 BrandonVidya2014 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 18

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    Most days of the week I think about suicide, there's rarely a happy moment. I dreamed about killing myself last night, it was wonderful but brought me down so low... because other...
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    still thinking about you.. **sigh**
    TrueLove213 TrueLove213 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    I'm thinking about the day I felt like a princess because of a woman for the first time. The day we walked passed each other and stared into one another eyes, unknowingly...
    jellyrolls34 jellyrolls34 18-21, F a week ago

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    Anyone else thinking about sex? Posting a pic
    racerxxxx69 racerxxxx69 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Love Films That Make Me Think About Life
    god1011 god1011 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Is it weird to think about death? Honestly, is it bad? Most people seem to not do that so much...
    alexthebass alexthebass 18-21, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hi I don't really no we're to start. I have been with my husband since I was 17 now 27, got 3 beautiful children a few yeArs ago we started having problems, I met a guy and one...
    claire8787 claire8787 26-30, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Today is one of those days. A snow where I did absolutely nothing but think. Sometimes I don't even know whether or not I can consider certain things that happened rape. I just am...
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    “Life is such unutterable hell, solely because it is sometimes beautiful. If we could only be miserable all the time, if there could be no such things as love or beauty or faith...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I don't think this is the place for me any more.
    bowlofsurreal bowlofsurreal 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I'm getting tired of this. I'm getting tired of my life. I need to do something about my life.
    imandynation imandynation 13-15, F 17 hrs ago

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