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I Think About Dark And Twisted Things

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    I Wonder

    I wonder at times how long it would take for someone to discover my death were I to die in my dorm room. I do not get close to people easily and like to keep to myself, so, even if some people would notice me being missing, it might still be a few weeks...
    yukiry yukiry 18-21 Dec 4, 2012

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    I am twisted a bit more

    than your average girl for one my first job was/is an exotic dancer I'm not really afraid to show my body mainly this is most likly due to the abuse I suffered as a kid
    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 22-25, F May 4, 2014

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    I Don't Want This To Happen Anymore.

    On occasion, I catch myself thinking what certain people would sound like as they're on their knees in front of me, begging and sobbing for me to spare them from death. Death at my hand.
    Unboxed Unboxed 13-15 Dec 16, 2012

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    At some point, don't we all?

    I know that I certainly do, and I'm not ashamed of that just so long as it remains within my mind only. Of course, there are certain dark thoughts that fuel my imagination and inspire stories for me to create, and that is most definitely pleasant.
    InexplicableKy InexplicableKy 18-21, F Jan 21, 2014

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    Darkness

    In always thinking about killing people or killing something.. My eyes sometimes turn black and when. That happens I feel like killing.. What is up with that?.
    Hellfire66 Hellfire66 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    Im Very Messed Up

    Sometimes when i see a random person i like to sitdoen and imagine what their death would be like. Sometimes it comes true.
    walkingXwolfXthatXdied walkingXwolfXthatXdied 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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    I can't stop thinking about my coworker. I still like him. The sight of him at work, makes me think about him everyday. I miss hanging out with him. Miss the contact. Sadly he is...
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    I'm not depressed or suicidal or anything. But isn't it weird how, when you think about what dying is like, you must first become so much more aware of your self and your body?
    underlyinghonesty underlyinghonesty 22-25, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I'm not afraid of it but I do think about it a lot. Maybe I am afraid?
    NocheSombra NocheSombra 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Ah yes. The universal finality that is death. There's few human emotions that can't be related to death. Sorrow, anger, despair, fear and the likes is the ones normally coming to...
    Vumsy Vumsy 22-25, M Apr 14

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    I think about it both on a more general, impersonal level, and a personal level. Lately I've been more focused on the personal side of it.I can't remember the last time I've really...
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 2 days ago

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    I have wondered this for a while. What would it be like. Granted I know plenty of women, and get different answers each time I asked, but it's still something I'd like to know. I...
    Eikenmaster Eikenmaster 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    "Fallin' For You" I don't know but I think I maybe Fallin' for you dropping so quickly Maybe I should keep this to myself Waiting 'til I know you better I am trying not to tell...
    graciousindifference29 graciousindifference29 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    For a while I was thinking about my ex-boyfriend a little more than I should. He is my friend on Facebook, so when I posted "I wonder do you think about me as much as I sit and...
    Missinterpret Missinterpret 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    It's 2:30 in the morning and I'm stuck just thinking about him. Knowing for a fact he isn't thinking about me, and he will never think of me. He wont ever spend his nights thinking...
    luisaa337 luisaa337 13-15, F Apr 20

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    Does anyone know how to fix this? I don't know what happened to me, but a lot of my thoughts are about what people think about me. If they like me or not? Do they find me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 27

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    Its not so much that I think about suicide rather just wanting out of this endless tirade that is called life. In a very general sense life is stupid, you are born just to die and...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    many kids in this city have killed themselves. some by train. every time the train goes by, I think about it. trains go by every half hour or so.
    TheCroissant TheCroissant 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    how often do you guys think of ending your life.? how heavy does it feel to walk upon this earth.? i'm in depression and everything just feels downhill for me. whenever i am alone...
    iRoselyna iRoselyna 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I am a **** addict and I dont regret it. I usually think about sex and sexuality. And I am happy with that.
    neven85 neven85 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I think about it way to much it is stupid I wish it would all go away I can't feel anything anymore I just wunna die at this point
    deadgirlcutter deadgirlcutter 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I'm thinking about leaving EP. I haven't been here all that much but have made some good friends. I have enjoyed my time here, loved reading posts and enjoyed answering all the...
    Shi7 Shi7 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 13

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    i saw a movie "Lucy" and it was wonderful experience,loved the movies that make me think about life.I am fascinated by the human approach towards world ,human perspective about...
    deephuman deephuman 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I always think about suicide and being bipolar doesn't help the situation...it randomly hits my thoughts when ever I'm alone like "you should totally grab that knife and stab...
    TheresAPossibility TheresAPossibility 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    We came from the world. In a way, we are earth. So, me thinking about the planet... That's earth being self aware.. Right?
    steviehunt steviehunt 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    It's scary how much I think about dying. The saddest part is that I don't think I would even be missed. How ******* pathetic is that?
    guestno3 guestno3 41-45 Apr 17

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    I don't want to be here anymore. I want to disappear. I think about it all the time, I mimic putting a gun to my head and shooting myself. When I'm driving I imagine driving into a...
    theginger89 theginger89 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    Why, why, why, me. Why am I thinking about him?!?!?! Grrrrrrrrrrr
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    When I am angry with my husband I think about it a lot. But then I don't think i would ever be able to really lay with another man for a one hitter quitter. It would have to be a...
    aurismith aurismith 26-30, F 8 Responses Apr 19

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    What do you think about me? :D
    anthonysheriff anthonysheriff 13-15, M Apr 21

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    I had an outstanding sex experience today and I can't stop thinking about it and fall asleep... I am more attracted to this man then I have ever been to anyone before and he is...
    Malvan Malvan 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 23

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    I seriously can't stop thinking about this guy i used to like. I don't even know if I'm even really over him. I see him everyday at school and when we talk, I'm happy for the rest...
    Cutiepieadwoa17 Cutiepieadwoa17 16-17, F Apr 25

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    Cant stop thinking about him. The wonderful soul that he is. The gentleness of his touch the love in his eyes the warmth in his voice. There is nothing or no one more amazing than...
    solongago2 solongago2 31-35, F a week ago

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    I'm thinking about having an affair with a stranger tonight;)
    secrettCD secrettCD 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I keep thinking im over it but it always comes up in my mind. Yesterday i saw a picture of my rapist. Its been over a year since ive seen him and its made me worse than i have been...
    anonymous138 anonymous138 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Lately I've been thinking about a specific person who attempted to have sex with me. I was maybe 12 or 13 and he was 2 years older than I was. I remember not saying no, but knowing...
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    feeling really ****** up... 4 years ago I was kidnapped and raped by 4 guys. over and over.... its been 4 years and I can't get it off of my mind. every single day I think about...
    paotg paotg 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm always thinking about sex...
    AriTheTechie AriTheTechie 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I think about death to much I'm not scared of death I'm scared of what will happen to my soul I don't want to go to hell But I don't want to spend all my life believing in God who...
    jessydx jessydx 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think about getting out a lot, a whole lot. I wonder if I will make it through the summer, some how I already know the answer to that, only if I choose to, and I think I have...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    I was thinking about it for a long time (years in fact) and then on 20 April this year I did get cut. The story of the whole thing is on my blog, along with a load of pics...
    ben1815 ben1815 41-45, M 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    It's going to happen to us all. We should think about it. It's not sad but it's the beginning of our new home in the grave .
    Shawanda88 Shawanda88 31-35, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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