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I Think About Dark And Twisted Things

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    I Don't Want This To Happen Anymore.

    On occasion, I catch myself thinking what certain people would sound like as they're on their knees in front of me, begging and sobbing for me to spare them from death. Death at my hand.
    Unboxed Unboxed 13-15 Dec 16, 2012

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    Darkness

    In always thinking about killing people or killing something.. My eyes sometimes turn black and when. That happens I feel like killing.. What is up with that?.
    Therealwolfblood44 Therealwolfblood44 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    I'm Dark

    Im always thinking about death and people dying. I keep getting urges to bite myself really hard and just drink the blood. When I see a knife I can't help thinking that I could hurt myself with it. Is there something wrong with me?
    Wolf0278 Wolf0278 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9, 2012

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    Im Very Messed Up

    Sometimes when i see a random person i like to sitdoen and imagine what their death would be like. Sometimes it comes true.
    walkingXwolfXthatXdied walkingXwolfXthatXdied 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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    I am twisted a bit more

    than your average girl for one my first job was/is an exotic dancer I'm not really afraid to show my body mainly this is most likly due to the abuse I suffered as a kid
    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 18-21, F May 4

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    At some point, don't we all?

    I know that I certainly do, and I'm not ashamed of that just so long as it remains within my mind only. Of course, there are certain dark thoughts that fuel my imagination and inspire stories for me to create, and that is most definitely pleasant.
    InexplicableKy InexplicableKy 18-21, F Jan 21

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    I Wonder

    I wonder at times how long it would take for someone to discover my death were I to die in my dorm room. I do not get close to people easily and like to keep to myself, so, even if some people would notice me being missing, it might still be a few weeks...
    yukiry yukiry 18-21 Dec 4, 2012

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