I Think About Death Often

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 606 People

    I have believed in Religions all my life,

    but what makes me Atheist is the presence of God, and what God has said... never was there any God to help people. It is the people who help each other... I believed in Devil though, that causes me fear walking on a road in forests in dark night. I fear looking in the mirror at...
    Voina Voina
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    Ah yes. The universal finality

    that is death. There's few human emotions that can't be related to death. Sorrow, anger, despair, fear and the likes is the ones normally coming to mind. There is however deathly solace and hope in troubled lives, joy and relief with the demise of our antagonists, admiration and...
    Vumsy Vumsy
    22-25, M
    Apr 14, 2015

    Ivory Mask

    When i die;    each time i am a mask carved of ivory... chipped and dirty, slightly misshapen   with one eye larger than the other.        And in this death.....   I hide my mask twisted into an awful grin...
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    Nov 4, 2008
    TheMadProfessor TheMadProfessor
    41-45, M
    Jan 16, 2015

    What will it feel like?

    What will it sound like? What will it look like? I hope it comes soon
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    I lost so many people these past few years

    and I still suffer without anyone knowing or understanding? 3 of my friends committed suicide and one in a car accident and my grandma and my uncle passed away from cancer and my dog had to be put down in October and now my grandma has cancer and only has 3 months to live I know...
    NatillaconTortilla NatillaconTortilla
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 2, 2014

    After finding finding someone dead I think

    about death way to often... It scares me now... Trauma I gues : /
    AnOtHaJaZzYDrEaMeR AnOtHaJaZzYDrEaMeR
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    I was supposed to die.

    Every one gave up on me. But now I have an out look on life no one else has, it is unique to me. So death, fear of death is useless. Death is going to happen. Some earlier than others. It is unpredictable. And some things Are best left in answered.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    Pulmonary Embolism

    I told my husband if I die ~ make sure he meets me at Heaven's Gate, I will be there waiting!  I don't have any idea why I thought of this.  Out of the blue.  Holiday weekend we had my best friend and her family here camping.  I had severe chest pain...
    Neveah Neveah
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Sep 9, 2009

    F, 28. Looking for someone

    who also plans on committing suicide. Please private message.
    jlg813 jlg813
    26-30, F
    Jan 29, 2016

    Life Or Death??? It Doesnt Really Matter to Me

    i think about death all the time. i have dreams where i die or friends and family members have died quite often. death is not a big dark scary thing to me. it just seems like something that will inevitably happen the only question is how and when? this sounds kind of...
    gottabesome1 gottabesome1
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2009

    Every day and night..

    just like now. It's so precious
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2015

    Well I watch sad strories more,

    where they lose a close relative or a close friend. Then I get sad and think about how it may affect me if my dad or brother died then I get sad and start crying. I actually imagine a whole scene of how my sister would die etc. Just why do I do that?! Sometimes I do that with me...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    Maybe Too Often...

    It's kind of a paranoia of mine. I always think about all the possibilities of my own demise through out my day. And, damn, there is a lot of creative ways to die from simply walking to and from school. I freak myself out a lot. Even when I'm just sitting around, sometimes I...
    autosuggestion autosuggestion
    18-21, F
    Apr 26, 2008

    The lord is close to the brokenhearted.

    He saves those whose spirits have been crushed. Psalm 34:18
    Pierce7891 Pierce7891
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    I think of death a lot.

    I am not obsessed with it and I don't think I fear it in an unrealistic kind of way, I fear it just like anyone else. One of the things that occur to me when I think of death is the reaction of the people around me. Some people may think that I want others to remember me, to...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 28, 2014

    Sents 1995

    my dad passed in 1995 and ever sents then ive been taking my own invitory thinking about my actions or what ive said things like that i still think of death i get a panic atack thinking about death becalse i dont want to die i dont know if its the act of dying or whats...
    lunnas lunnas
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jul 20, 2009

    Twenty one pilots- HeavyDirtySoul.

    Death inspires me like a dog inspires a rabbit~
    aliveness aliveness
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2015

    I Think About Death All the Time and I Hate It.

    I think about death daily. I have nightmares about my own death. I Don't know why but i constantly think of different ways i may die.  Death scares me. I worry about what afterlife is like or if there even is a afterlife. My dad used to tell me when the world ends we would...
    bigred2008 bigred2008
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 29, 2008

    More Than One Should?

    i think about death very often, its just something that is always on my mind, and I just can't shake it off at times. sometimes i will just be laying around, and the next thing i know, i am thinking about death, and its hard to deal with i guess. its not that i want to think...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 26, 2009

    I used to lead a happy life,

    I had friends, we acted silly, we were super close... Then we moved... I am unhappy here I hate myself. Now almost every where I go I "plan" out a way I could kill myself, stabbing , jumping off something, starvation, etc. I became very anti social since the move, however I am...
    AyomiNakamura AyomiNakamura
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 6, 2014

    When I close my eyes I Imagine a place

    so peaceful so serene and magnificent. A scene where I can just let go and be done . I imagine the wind blowing in my hair as I stand at the top of a skyscraper, as I breathe in before taking my last breath . I breath in the most peaceful moment of my life . The only time...
    undeterminedd undeterminedd
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2016

    I Can't Stop Thinking About It.

    I find it weird that I think about death so often. It invades my thoughts constantly. I fear death just like everyone else but I'm also very fascinated by it. I'm afraid to die and afraid to think about what happens to you when you go but my curiosity gets the best of me. It's...
    Veronicaliz Veronicaliz
    22-25, F
    Sep 11, 2011

    I was in hospital earlier this year

    because of chronic heart failure. I nearly died in the emergency room and while in intensive care the lady in the next bed with the same condition did die. She let out a horrible noise as she died. Statistically 50% of people with chronic heart failure die within 5 years, the...
    Dropbear Dropbear
    46-50, M
    Aug 24, 2015

    Morbid Thoughts

    I don’t know why, but I seem to have thoughts about death/dying almost DAILY.  Often I think about my own demise, even though I am not old (OLD old, anyway!), I am healthy, and I am not depressed.  As far back as I can remember, I always wondered about death...
    grokster grokster
    36-40, M
    1 Response Mar 5, 2008
    wlanonymouslw wlanonymouslw
    18-21, M
    Jun 12, 2015

    Staring Death Down

    As a general rule in life, death bothers me least of all things. As a severe burn victim, death is something I am more familiar with than life. When you wake into consciousness with no words to possibly describe what you're feeling, what you're hearing, what you're smelling...
    PhilosphicalNonsense PhilosphicalNonsense
    18-21, M
    7 Responses Sep 9, 2009

    I Can't Stop Looking It Up

    I want to make this clear, I'm not suicidal and I don't want to hear people lecturing me about it. I don't want attention and I don't want concern. I had an episode at one point but I don't feel the same as I did then.Recently I keep researching things that I shouldn't and anyone...
    chrysalid chrysalid
    18-21, F
    May 29, 2012

    Some Thoughts On Death

    I see many people on here almost apologizing for thinking about death; either that or being very fearful. It is a natural thing to think about surely? And it leads us to evaluate our lives, purpose etc. It could be that Schopenhauer was correct in his thinking when he said...
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    3 Responses May 12, 2010

    I think about death as in how it will feel

    when I day and when I day what will happen to everyone around me and where or how I'll die
    iwastoldtodothis iwastoldtodothis
    13-15, M
    Aug 25, 2015

    My Dismay

    I feel the water dripping one sigh at a time, one warm drop- lending a flavor to the empty air dead and silent.   So people stare, this... I am used to. so i put on a show a grunt here and there.   The drops come quickly when i'm angry. so  ...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 24, 2008

    Yesterday I heard about an accident,

    8 people got lost while hiking a mountain.. Things got complicated .. and 3 of them got killed out of cold.. hypothermia and heart-attack.. Then I got shocked when I knew that one of them is a friend of mine.. not close one.. I actually met her while hiking last month.. she was...
    A3LD A3LD
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2014

    Not Usually In a Morbid Sense...

    I think of it in the sence that my time will be coming... so I need to live life to the best and fullest that I can. I stay healthy and active so the remaining years of my still long life are quality years. I respect and love my family... so when I've passed that...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 6, 2009

    My Music teacher died today in a crush.

    .. ****** dumbass drunk driving an texting 6mph
    Lololopj Lololopj
    16-17, F
    Mar 17, 2014
    Pierce7891 Pierce7891
    18-21, F
    Aug 31, 2014

    "the Reaper And The Flowers" By Vas

     There is a reaper, whose name is DeathAnd, with his sickle keenHe reaps the bearded grain at a breathAnd the flowers that grow between (2x)'Shall I have naught that is fair?', saith he'Have naught but the bearded grain?Though the breath of these flowers is sweet to meI will...
    Azoru Azoru
    Jan 21, 2010

    Wish I Could Stop The Death Thoughts

    Ever since my Dad died in 2008, I think about death all the time. I'd never lost anyone close to me before, so this was just surreal. I wonder what it was like for him, and I wonder where he is now. Then I realize, I'm going to find out someday, what it's like and where people...
    LC87 LC87
    22-25, F
    May 1, 2010

    Hay all, so last year I have a very awful

    experience of finding my step father passed away... Since then I'm fearful of everything really jumpy and anxious, I often sit home in bed feeling numb, and wonder who else is experiencing these terrible terrible emotions? :(
    AnOtHaJaZzYDrEaMeR AnOtHaJaZzYDrEaMeR
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 28, 2014

    I Think Too Much

    I think about my death daily. I could have an amazing day at school and come home and just think about it forever. That's what's happening right now. Got home a few hours ago and haven't stoped thinking about it. Death, death, death. I started searching Wikipedia about suicide...
    Jan 25, 2013

    All the Time

    I used to think about my death all the time... I don't even know why, just something in the pit of my stomach told me that my destiny was to die before my time... It was like I could feel death's hand on my shoulder. At times it got so bad that I couldn't even sleep at times. I...
    Dust329 Dust329
    18-21, M
    Sep 7, 2009
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