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I Think About Death

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    After all the suicide contemplation,

    wouldn't it be ironic to die from natural causes.
    TheGirlFromJupiter TheGirlFromJupiter 18-21 1 Response Jul 3

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    I fantasize about jumping off the Golden Gate

    Bridge and many other bridges. I hate being alive and having to worry about trials and tribulations and human issues. I wish I was never born. I wish my mom had loved me a little bit or at least enough to abort me. I can't stand waking up in the morning having to face the facts...
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I had been dying for years from a blood

    disorder. I used to dream about meeting the actual grim reaper. It seemed nice. Still does. Life is built up by *** holes to be this great and awesome thing. It's not. It's filled with ****** people, strife, chaos, sadness, and other horrors. I welcome it. With open arms.
    onimusha11234 onimusha11234 22-25, M Aug 13

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    I think about death as very normal thing

    and loves to have death.. In a way it's way to get free from everything and move on from this world full of mess.. The fact is death is reality and it happens what may one think or do.. From healthiest person to the weakest person can die on a given moment .. So what's the point...
    Ravidesai Ravidesai 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    Sometimes my own, but.

    ..mostly others.
    Fuzzybear79 Fuzzybear79 36-40, F Aug 1

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    I am obsessed with the Grim Reaper

    and the concept of it and I have an OC that is a female Reaper (not like one of those barely dressed anime kinds) and I want to be a Reaper after I die and be there when other people die too (in my 'real world headcanon' there's multiple Reapers). I want to walk around outside...
    JaeKirrl JaeKirrl 13-15, F Aug 11

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    I'm considering dying.

    After all, I don't have any attachement to life and I feel the need to escape my body so badly.
    SpecialButReal SpecialButReal 18-21, F 12 Responses May 3

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    Life sucks, I wish I was never born.

    I look at death as the best escape from all problems and I look at suicide as like a giant middle finger to all the vile, disgusting, vomitrocious, physical pain, heartache and all the nightmares in life. What's the point?
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    A 9 yo girl from my wife's class died in a car

    accident 2 days ago. It's hard for all involved.
    Soniador1963 Soniador1963 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 14

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    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    Both my parents passed away.

    My father when I was two years old. My mother a couple months ago. I do not feel strength or positivity coming out of the idea of them living in heaven. The idea of them, disconnected from me, waiting till I die too. What a grim perspective. There is no suffering in not...
    LawlessLuuk LawlessLuuk 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 1

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    Finding it to be harder

    and harder to get out of bed when I feel like I just want to die every. single. morning.
    TrainzRFun TrainzRFun 13-15, M 5 Responses Jul 2

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    I dont mind if I die today

    or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! Nobody deserve that.. It would be great if we just pass away while sleeping +..+
    Intothestorm Intothestorm 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 24

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 16, 2010

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    chimpapoo chimpapoo 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I have been tormented by the feeling

    that i could die any second now. And it wont go away. When i try to fall asleep, i feel that someone is outside my door. I have never felt this bad about death. It has gotten worse over the past few months because i now have a really stable relationship with most people in my...
    Foxfish Foxfish 16-17, F 7 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    Most of the time i'm fine.

    I guess I just have triggers that make me think about death.. I just wonder what its like. Is it going to be a relief for me? When will I die... Etc I just wonder. Lately I have been thinking about it on a daily basis. I have moments when I think "This is it.."
    Raven628 Raven628 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2014

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    I have met someone and I really like him

    and think I could have a really good future with him. The thing is, how do I tell him that I want to die, that its always in the back of my head and that if things go bad I might go ahead and just die. What's worse is that he has children that I would eventually be a mother...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    I was in the hot tub at this hotel last night

    and met a guy who works with my bf. I could tell he was drunk and acting funny but I didn't think much of it. hours later I look out my hotel window and he's still in there looking pretty messed up. the jets had gone off and he hadn't bothered to turn them back on. I went down...
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 25

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    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 Jul 29

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    To be or not to be?..

    .... Not to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 2

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    I'm not scared of death itself,

    in fact, it seems peaceful. The part that bothers me is how much people will miss me, I have a feeling I'm going to die before my mother. And just thinking about her standing at my funeral, crying. It hurts me, because I don't want people to cry when I'm gone, I don't want...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses May 27

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    princess42089 princess42089 26-30, F 7 Responses May 26, 2014

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    I just want to die...

    ..it's been on my mind for the longest time ever. Since last year
    disturbedArtist disturbedArtist 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    Sometimes I Do. ...

    Sometimes I do. I used to all the time...or more I used to be suicidal but a lot has changed in my life and I don't think like that anymore. Now I just kinda wonder about death ya know. Like when and how it'll happen for me. Like where I'll end up and what it'll be like. You...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2007

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    Contemplating death is i think one of the most

    rewarding things you can do. Everyone you ever see will die soon. Try to imaging what it will be like to go to sleep and never wake up. Thinking about that is kind of like putting manuer in your garden, it seems like it stinks but it can really help you blossom
    guitarspro guitarspro 18-21, M Jul 26

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    I literally was thinking about offing myself

    while I was shopping with my parents and grandmother but then I was like no there is still so much I haven't gotten to do yet and the thought faded away.
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 26

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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    RMDk RMDk 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    Deep in the abyss of light slumber,

    we sway with half-closed eyelids. Smiling, the gods of dreams and fantasy elegantly impart death, while the chains of karma, which dictates time and space, are becoming tangled. It's a fantasy program bestowed by the gods. We shall become one. We shall evade death. We'll...
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Every night before I sleep,

    I hope that I won't be able to wake up.
    marticles marticles 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    I remember the first time I read Neil

    Gaiman’s Sandman volumes and encountered the girl known as Death. I remember thinking how fitting it seemed that Death was a woman. Because I’d often thought that Death was a “*****”. Mostly because of the number she seems to do on people. I have a big problem with the...
    Sarahbellas Sarahbellas 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    I'm scared to die. ..

    ..................
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles 18-21, F 14 Responses Mar 3

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    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I think everyone's thought about suicide

    once in their lifetime. Everyone reaches that low point where they feel they can't get back up and they're stuck. You don't just wake up one day and say "Hey, I think I'm going to hang myself this afternoon." It's something you've been considering for a good minute. I feel like...
    Hitlersdoter Hitlersdoter 18-21, F Jul 1

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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    I think death is absolutely beautiful.

    Me and my brother went and visited my little brothers grave a few days ago and he bent down beside his grave and to me, The sight it was just beautiful.
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    the other day I had one of those existentialist

    moments where I became fully aware that I'd someday meet the end of my life. it frightened me at first, like always, but after that faded it became a reminder to live authentically and never waste a second. I am me. I'm the only me that the world has or ever will have.
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    I was done with 2015 right

    when it started... To many friends and family passed this year. RIP to every single one of them. RIP to anyone else who has lost someone this year. So over 2015
    Nick7571 Nick7571 22-25, M Aug 4

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    I don't know if is just me

    but I do think about death and what would happen if I did die !! My story I got in trouble like big trouble and someone found me when I was trying to hide and tired my legs together in my arms together in handcuffs and tied a gigantic boulder to it ! Then they tossed me into...
    livvie22 livvie22 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    It's so weird to think about,

    and confusing as ****. After we expire, is it just darkness and quiet for the rest of eternity? Do our spirits move on, but remain here on earth? Or is there actually a heaven and hell? Know one really knows, there's no answer. It's so ****** up lol. So many questions, but no...
    xGNFx xGNFx 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    A lot, now the very thought helps me sleep.

    When you think about death it's easier to forgive. For instance "I'm going to die one day, the ones whom hurt me will also die one day. Why hold on to a grudge?".
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jun 27

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    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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