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I Think About Death

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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    RMDk RMDk 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    toady I broke my new years resolution of not to

    self mutilate I feel like s#1t. And just want to give up. on everything and everyone but I know better than tp just end it. I just am lost I feel like kurt cobain in his last days I had lost interest in everything. I fear nothing and I just wish I could be a better person.
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 23

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    It's so weird to think about,

    and confusing as ****. After we expire, is it just darkness and quiet for the rest of eternity? Do our spirits move on, but remain here on earth? Or is there actually a heaven and hell? Know one really knows, there's no answer. It's so ****** up lol. So many questions, but no...
    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    Death Seems So Sweet

    Death seems like such a wonderful thing. A place where there is no more pain or injustice. All fades away in death; We are all in the same state when we die. That can never be said about life. Why do people prefer life to death then? Death is the achievement of all the noble...
    LoftyDreamer LoftyDreamer 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Would you commit suicide

    when you reach a certain age or will you allow yourself to die naturally?
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 6

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    In the last month or so,

    I've been getting a strange feeling that I don't have much longer to live. I'm fourteen, so logically I could expect another 60 or 70 years, but I feel like I'm going to die sometime soon- in the next few months, sort of. Not like a premonition- I'm not pretending that God...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 29

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    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Is it weird to think about death?

    Honestly, is it bad? Most people seem to not do that so much...
    alexthebass alexthebass 18-21, M 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Most of the time i'm fine.

    I guess I just have triggers that make me think about death.. I just wonder what its like. Is it going to be a relief for me? When will I die... Etc I just wonder. Lately I have been thinking about it on a daily basis. I have moments when I think "This is it.."
    Raven628 Raven628 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2014

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    "When you die, the whole world suddenly loves

    you." There was a girl from my school who got cancer. She had tried to fight it for three years before her body gave up. She wasn't very popular, so i don't know if she had many real friends. But i noticed how fake people wrote about her on facebook. Even if they felt really...
    ESMatricX ESMatricX 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I think it has something attractive.

    The mystery of it. I contemplate it as a form of art.
    SpecialButReal SpecialButReal 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's Death again - He's always there - Watching,

    waiting - e'er the stare! Every time I look behind or reach to pull the window blind, I catch a glimpse of grubby hood - A little clue to where he stood; The glint of light that caught the scythe. Perhaps if I could pay a tithe… But O! no use, he'll never go. The adamant...
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    bleakharoun bleakharoun 22-25, M Feb 11

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    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun 22-25, M 7 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    I Have A Positive View Of Death

    Death, when looked upon while alone, seems safe and secure, like an old friend. But while in the company of others, Death seems like no more than a selfish end. Like the dark side of the moon who I have never seen, I will never know Death until the world and I are nothing but...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    6356kk 6356kk 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Every time I think about death,

    I smile. Death is extremely selfish, yes. But I really want it. I'm 20. Another 20 years would still be a mess like now. Life is meaningless. How could I possibly survive this boring crap life anymore? I do wanna die.
    Katherine084 Katherine084 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    What is life? Is life just a fault in The

    organization of matter? Is our consciousness just a mistake? Purely a illusion with no purpose at all? In my mind is The only place where i am truly free and i think to my deepest insurrections, but from what i perceive from people, i think they are kind of blind, with a limited...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M Feb 23

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    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    this is my final goodbye.

    hope everyone had a great year next year. farewell to all.
    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I think about dying almost every day of my life.

    It's usually about suicide. The problems I create for myself seem to pile heavier and heavier on my shoulders to the point I feel I can hardly move or function. I often think how unfair it is that we are born without being consulted first and now I'm stuck in my life. How...
    TRP92 TRP92 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    Hi all, This might be a little long message,

    but please find some time to read it. I want to find a solution for the brutal situation, which I am suffering because of my parents. I'm from Bangalore, our's is a middle class family and I don't hv siblings. I work in IT sector, which has lot of work pressure. My parents are...
    adarshbu adarshbu 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't even know myself anymore,

    let alone any others. I'm living for the sake of it. Judgemental society that thinks people like us are just plain attention-seekers. But no, we're just trying to express ourself because we know in real life if we were to talk about suicidal thoughts, people will just say you...
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Life sucks, I wish I was never born.

    I look at death as the best escape from all problems and I look at suicide as like a giant middle finger to all the vile, disgusting, vomitrocious, physical pain, heartache and all the nightmares in life. What's the point?
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 16, 2010

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    It is amazing what the passage of time will do.

    When I was younger I feared death. The idea that I would cease to exist was terrifying to me. Today, I am approaching my 62nd birthday and I find myself at peace with the idea of my death. I wonder if I live another decade or so if I will actually welcome my death.’
    Tsuru1953 Tsuru1953 61-65 1 Response Feb 21

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    i find my life has been a roller coaster

    for things which are not great... I contemplate death because i fear i will never succeed in the career i have chosen. its sad to say think that i feel God is not there for me when i need Him. i wish life would be better for me if i didnt have so much stress. so if i end it then...
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    In today's media suicide is considered a

    negative thing but if it isn't hurting anyone else then why is it another persons decision. One person ending their life does nothing to affect the other. The only reason other I could imagine is unless they have a child or someone to care for. But if a person honestly wants to...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    princess42089 princess42089 22-25, F 7 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Death seems real once a mother

    or brother dies. Before that moment it seems like something that happens to others; it's distant. As a child it seems like something old adults do. As a teen death is something serene and mentioning it provides an edgy appearance, but it still lacks gravity. People fear death...
    Fidge3 Fidge3 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I dont mind if I die today

    or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! Nobody deserve that.. It would be great if we just pass away while sleeping +..+
    Intothestorm Intothestorm 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    I'm scared to die. ..

    ..................
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles 18-21, F 13 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I used to believe in reincarnation,

    but I don't anymore. And although it was a comforting idea, and every once and a while I miss that comfort, I've mooved passed it and need to be more realistic.
    alexthebass alexthebass 18-21, M Feb 20

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    Determening Death

    I am confused as to why I always think about death.... the many ways I can die, terminal, car crash, again.....downding, murdered being lost with no food in the wild... I know it sounds crazy but I think about the many ways I can die... at leaste 5 times a day, and the other...
    dreamergirl dreamergirl 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 12, 2007

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    And on I read until the the day was gone .

    And I sat in regret for all the things I've done. For all that I've blessed and all that I've wronged . In dreams until my death I will wonder on.
    cartwright66 cartwright66 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    Every night before I sleep,

    I hope that I won't be able to wake up.
    marticles marticles 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    Most of the time, I just want to give up

    and vanish into the air...death sounds pretty nice right about now.
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 4

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    All of the time.. Not suicide.

    Not a wanting of death.. Just death itself. I feel as if I have nothing to lose and I want to know who actually cares enough to think of me when I die.. When ever that may be.. I don't fear death. If anything, I think I deserve it.
    6356kk 6356kk 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    On February 23 it will be the 1 year mark of my

    cousins death, and her brother just got hit by a car and is unconscious. Things are not going to well.
    chhmcguire4 chhmcguire4 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 28

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    i think about death every night

    before i go to sleep. i pray that he will come to take me away from this nightmare we call life. i pray that i won't wake up the morning. But i do, and i think death again, wondering why he has neglected me yet another night and left me here to suffer
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    this might freak some people out

    so if you don't want to read about death I would click off. when I was younger I did not talk to a lot of people or have a lot of friends so I would just sit In my room and I would think about stuff. just random **** and I was thinking. what's going to happen after we die. I...
    awesomea16 awesomea16 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 5

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    I was Recently a Witness ...

    I was recently a witness to the death of two family members that I was very close to.  This experience was extremely humbling.  It change my life, my relationships, my faith, my short-term and long-term goals. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 21-25, F 2 Responses Feb 14, 2007

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    Let's try to have a good day.

    ...:/ It's Friday and tomorrow is gonna be the first year with ought my older brother....my brother Travis, was texting me...then he wasn't answering me when I needed to talk to him. I ended up blowing up his phone, I was breaking down and crying and he was trying to cheer me up...
    angellove19 angellove19 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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