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    I'd like to think I'm happy- I'm in a wonderful

    relationship, GPA is nearly perfect, jobs are going well... But I still feel so unfulfilled. And empty. I realize that the work I do doesn't feel important to me and I feel expendable- my significant other could easily find another (even upon insisting I am the one in the...
    demonicgoldfish demonicgoldfish 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 9

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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    RMDk RMDk 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 18

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    I wanna put my family threw the pain of having

    to bury me. Maybe then they will realize how much I ment to them. But my dad will probably just look at is as just another "expense"
    bradman1390 bradman1390 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    I don't even know myself anymore,

    let alone any others. I'm living for the sake of it. Judgemental society that thinks people like us are just plain attention-seekers. But no, we're just trying to express ourself because we know in real life if we were to talk about suicidal thoughts, people will just say you...
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    I try my best not to,

    It scares the absolute *** out of me. Knowing to the best of my beliefs that there is nothing there, you are gone, you cease to be. But even if I was to believe all that religion pabulum, the thought of ever lasting life is just as scary. Seriously try grasp the concept...
    iwantacar98 iwantacar98 16-17, M 4 Responses Sep 16

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 7 Responses Aug 26

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    People don't seem to take death seriously death

    and whatever happens afterwards is permanent. We are only here for a second and in the grand scheme of things, that matters
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    I Have A Positive View Of Death

    Death, when looked upon while alone, seems safe and secure, like an old friend. But while in the company of others, Death seems like no more than a selfish end. Like the dark side of the moon who I have never seen, I will never know Death until the world and I are nothing but...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    You know what's so fascinating/scary to think

    about... Death... You're gonna be gone FOREVER, forever is a long time.. A very long time. What's death like? Can you watch people from heaven? Will we come back? What do we look like?... Seriously tho., FOREVER! We will see the world end.. Then, we will be in that same...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 9

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    I always will be thinking about death.

    I saw my life ending too close,I know how does it feel to be lost or think these are your last thoughts.Death is brutal and poetic at the same time.Acknowledging the end of everything can be the start of something worthy in your life.I thank everyday given,good or bad,because it...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F Aug 31

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    Ugh. Im going to sleep.

    Lets hope i dont wake up 👏✌
    bitchhtripinnXD bitchhtripinnXD 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    you know why I don't like reading

    so much and this reading culture? First I think the writer is not smarter than me, I don't have to be told what to do to start thinking or doing something. I have my own thoughts and personality. second it bothers me the fact that people consider the author more important than...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M Sep 22

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    Tick Tok

    i have a hard time dealing with life and trying to make it more meaningful as i've written many times here on EP - in my blogs and in my stories. I like sleeping with my windows open at night . I turn off all the lights in my room and stare outside at the trees and the sky before...
    luvdrunk luvdrunk 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 15, 2011

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    Sometimes I Do. ...

    Sometimes I do. I used to all the time...or more I used to be suicidal but a lot has changed in my life and I don't think like that anymore. Now I just kinda wonder about death ya know. Like when and how it'll happen for me. Like where I'll end up and what it'll be like. You...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 21-25, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2007

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    I think about death also i think about ways of

    death,,i think i dont deserve to be alive ,,every day i fighting these ideas amd i cant stop thinking about death,,i have a daughter and now i am student to fill my time but i cant stop that,,i think my daughter to be a good without me i am bad mother although i love her so much...
    Maryam75 Maryam75 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    RnsWithScissors RnsWithScissors 41-45, F Sep 13

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    When I was fifteen, I got caught in a riptide

    in Costa Rica and was swept fifty yards out to sea. I fought the current for awhile, but I was tired, and I wasn't any closer to the shore. The faces of loved ones flashed through my head, as I came to terms with the face that I was never going to see them again, and just as I...
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    I used to work in a hospital.

    I have seen so many people die. Some died slowly like cancer and some died suddenly like a heart attack. The worst thing is when u can hear their loved ones cry out in agony for their loss and theirs nothing u can do because ur a stranger... These memories haunt me. I close my...
    misery313 misery313 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 22

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    My parents just told me I better stop listening

    to this kind of music (muse, radiohead, etc) because it's to depressive "for my age", and because I am just writing lyrics like this for my songs. They said i have no reason to be like this, and should write happier lyrics. i just said no Here's the lyrics that i wrote...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M Sep 20

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    I think about my family's death cuz I miss them

    so much they passed away when I was like 4years old then I went to a "friends" house to stay
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 13-15, F Aug 26

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    Most of the time i'm fine.

    I guess I just have triggers that make me think about death.. I just wonder what its like. Is it going to be a relief for me? When will I die... Etc I just wonder. Lately I have been thinking about it on a daily basis. I have moments when I think "This is it.."
    Raven628 Raven628 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 16, 2010

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    I Think About Death Since I Am 12

    I dont mind if I die today or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! I would like to controll how and where I die! Thats all! Yes you can say " whats with your loved ones"...but fact is: when your time has come you have to go! If you like it or not! I would not wish to...
    MiriamOfManassis MiriamOfManassis 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    Sometimes I have a hard time wanting to be

    alive. I wish people in my life would stop messing with my head. I wish they would leave me alone when I say leave me alone. I am suicidal. I have depression. I have severe anxiety. I used to be on meds. I got off of them when I overdosed on my Lorazepam. I feel like I'm...
    Livvy2 Livvy2 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    My godfather suffered a heart attack

    and died for 7 mins he said theres nothing no bright light no flashing of his life just like your asleep just the blackness behind your eyelids thats it....the thought of nothing really scares me the thought of not even being aware of nothing scares me you just die your...
    firecat23 firecat23 22-25, F Sep 9

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    It's a every day,minute,

    second kind of thing. I look to my first attempt and wish I had succeeded. I would take back the novels I read, seeing a favorite comedian ,trip to six flags meeting this awesome guy I meet etc to just go back and have died. Something just came to me. I've said I don't regret...
    Hannarose Hannarose 22-25, F Sep 12

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    I have been fascinated by death

    for many years and I contemplate death and try to seek the truth beyond death Are the dead living in a spiritual form And are the living dean and not living This is my favourite pain by Khalistan Gibran Life and death are one ,even as the river and sea are one In the depth...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Sometimes I think I'm worth more dead

    than alive. As stupid as all of it may seem to be organ donation seems to be the only thing I could do to pay back to this world.
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    DISNEY & MCDONALD'S ... KINGDOM OF CHILD LABOUR

    A DEADLY LIFE Included in the Happy Meals sold at McDonalds are small toys based on characters from Disney films. According to McDonald's senior vice-president Brad Ball, the Happy Meals characters from the "101 Dalmatians" movie were the most successful in McDonald's history...
    THEMADHATTERXXXX THEMADHATTERXXXX 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    I know once it arrives it'll be nothingness.

    Which is why I remind myself to enjoy life while I can. Though difficult it's the only way I get myself out of those really down moments.. Or I overdose on pills that make me sleep for a few days.
    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F Oct 9

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    I think about death all the time.

    I am not afraid of it. I don't waste my time thinking what happens when we die. I am too busy living each day to the fullest. But I do have my beliefs that when I die I will make it to Valhalla.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 8

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    Death Seems So Sweet

    Death seems like such a wonderful thing. A place where there is no more pain or injustice. All fades away in death; We are all in the same state when we die. That can never be said about life. Why do people prefer life to death then? Death is the achievement of all the noble...
    LoftyDreamer LoftyDreamer 22-25, M 5 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Death. Perhaps the biggest

    and darkest mystery of all time. What happens to people who lived, laughed, loved? Forever banished to the dark void. What about an afterlife? Have I been good enough to be accepted, or will I roast molten lava with the rest of the damned. After all, if I take my own life after...
    CJCA CJCA 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    If I Died Today

    I've thought long and hard about death. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal, but I've always wondered what it would be like if I died. I'm not afraid to die; dying is easy, you just slip away and you don't have to worry about anything. It's hardest for the people around you...
    Katsumi33 Katsumi33 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2013

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    I do. It's fascinating

    and scary at the same time. What happens to the human body the moment we die and then the question of an afterlife. Is there anything I don't know. I don't think any of us do. But I do believe that our energy goes on. What scares me about it, is not knowing. For some reason I...
    raedavis raedavis 31-35, F Jul 17

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    There was a quote that really stuck with me

    that went: “When do you think people die? When they’re shot through the heart with a pistol? …No. When they have an uncurable disease? …No. When they drink soup made from a poisonous mushroom? No! When they are forgotten! Even if I die, my dream will come true. The...
    MovingOnWithTaintedHands MovingOnWithTaintedHands 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 28

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    Thinking about life itself

    as i use to do i realized a magnificent interior revelation. I will try to explain in writing form this feeling that i had. All of us came to existance not of a matter of occasion, we have been put in The test. The real test. Do not see life, Your life as a common, generic and...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M Sep 4

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    I'm so ready to just end it.

    I have so many pills I've been collecting for so long I'm so ******* done
    justw0rthless justw0rthless 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I think about how will life without me go on I

    wanna feel and see myself dead...or whatever,who really cared for me even though they didnt show it
    hellokitti hellokitti 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    I dont mind if I die today

    or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! Nobody deserve that.. It would be great if we just pass away while sleeping +..+
    Intothestorm Intothestorm 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 27

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    princess42089 princess42089 22-25, F 7 Responses May 26

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    So how will it end, after all?

    Will I end my journey, all by myself? Will I simply take away the long road, my self? If so, how would I do it...? Would I take a bottle of sleeping pills and fall asleep with in a matter a minutes, but only, never wake up from my deep slumber? Or shall I find the all too...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    Yes, I think about death.

    However, dying does not bother me at all. In a strange way, I find it something to look forward too.
    CharlotteKitten CharlotteKitten 22-25, T 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I think about killing myself.

    Some days the only thing stopping me is I don't want to hurt my family. I just want the pain to stop... and I'm feeling more and more like they wouldn't miss me for long.
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9

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    I think about it more

    than I should and sometimes it concerns me.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    My grandma passed away today.

    .. We didn't have a close relationship but it's still very sad. Although, I do believe she is on a much better place.
    stargazer2468 stargazer2468 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    Determening Death

    I am confused as to why I always think about death.... the many ways I can die, terminal, car crash, again.....downding, murdered being lost with no food in the wild... I know it sounds crazy but I think about the many ways I can die... at leaste 5 times a day, and the other...
    dreamergirl dreamergirl 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 12, 2007

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    I was Recently a Witness ...

    I was recently a witness to the death of two family members that I was very close to.  This experience was extremely humbling.  It change my life, my relationships, my faith, my short-term and long-term goals. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 21-25, F 2 Responses Feb 14, 2007

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    Its something that has crossed my mind a couple

    of times as I feel like I am dying, not emotionally but actually dying. I have been sick since earlier this year and I am desperately trying to stay alive, the reason why I am here right now is because I want to meet people who I can talk to and distract myself from it to...
    Prevaricator Prevaricator 16-17 1 Response Sep 8

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    unknowngirlvasquez unknowngirlvasquez 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 28

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