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I Think About Death

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    Every night before I sleep,

    I hope that I won't be able to wake up.
    marticles marticles 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    I can walk this world alone,

    doesn't mean I have to though.
    switchy28 switchy28 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    Would you commit suicide

    when you reach a certain age or will you allow yourself to die naturally?
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 6

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    There isn't really a good experience to post

    this under, so I'll put it here. I do not mourn. When people die, no matter how close I was to them or how much I cared about them, there's no sadness in me for their death. I don't know why this is, but I want to change it. Yesterday morning, my cousin, whom was also living...
    FluffyStuff FluffyStuff 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    Determening Death

    I am confused as to why I always think about death.... the many ways I can die, terminal, car crash, again.....downding, murdered being lost with no food in the wild... I know it sounds crazy but I think about the many ways I can die... at leaste 5 times a day, and the other...
    dreamergirl dreamergirl 21-25, F 2 Responses Jan 12, 2007

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    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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    I fantasize about jumping off the Golden Gate

    Bridge and many other bridges. I hate being alive and having to worry about trials and tribulations and human issues. I wish I was never born. I wish my mom had loved me a little bit or at least enough to abort me. I can't stand waking up in the morning having to face the facts...
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I was Recently a Witness ...

    I was recently a witness to the death of two family members that I was very close to.  This experience was extremely humbling.  It change my life, my relationships, my faith, my short-term and long-term goals. 
    emericklisa emericklisa 21-25, F 2 Responses Feb 14, 2007

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 16, 2010

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    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M Dec 31, 2014

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    I sometimes find myself pondering thoughts

    about life after death. What happens next? Is there something more? Or does it just end? Where do our souls go? Do we just disappear as if we had never existed? Or do we really end up in a place where people who pass away reunite?
    Realitea Realitea 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2014

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    MY VISION OF THE UNIVERSE,

    LIFE AND GOD. The universe and life are the most logical and rational manner of existence of reality, and it is precisely what happened. While life is almost impossible to happen because, taking into consideration all possible variables, the laws of nature, the formation of...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    They say that "all good things come to those

    that wait," and "patience is a virtue." My patience is wearing thin; I'm getting pretty damned tired of waiting.
    DarkestDespair DarkestDespair 36-40, M Feb 5, 2014

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    Every time I think about death,

    I smile. Death is extremely selfish, yes. But I really want it. I'm 20. Another 20 years would still be a mess like now. Life is meaningless. How could I possibly survive this boring crap life anymore? I do wanna die.
    Katherine084 Katherine084 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    "When you die, the whole world suddenly loves

    you." There was a girl from my school who got cancer. She had tried to fight it for three years before her body gave up. She wasn't very popular, so i don't know if she had many real friends. But i noticed how fake people wrote about her on facebook. Even if they felt really...
    ESMatricX ESMatricX 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    sadly. death can be so peaceful,

    but what was on their mind when they are passing away? was it peaceful, were they scared? I struggle strongly with accepting death. breaks my heart to see my great grandmother this way.
    mekaxoxo mekaxoxo 16-17, F Dec 20, 2014

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    i think about death every night

    before i go to sleep. i pray that he will come to take me away from this nightmare we call life. i pray that i won't wake up the morning. But i do, and i think death again, wondering why he has neglected me yet another night and left me here to suffer
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun 22-25, M 7 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    I Have A Positive View Of Death

    Death, when looked upon while alone, seems safe and secure, like an old friend. But while in the company of others, Death seems like no more than a selfish end. Like the dark side of the moon who I have never seen, I will never know Death until the world and I are nothing but...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    Everyday actually. Dying sounds really nice,

    I would love to just get off this planet away from everyone. I do hope my time comes soon, but I guess I'll have to continue to wait. There's no ******* point, I don't know what I could even do to contribute to society but society is ****** up so I'm kinda screwed either way. I...
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I'm attracted towards death,

    and I know its not okay, but I can't control it! I hope I die soon so I don't do anything ill regret or hurt anyone else, or continue to be such a freak
    nthohny nthohny 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    Let's try to have a good day.

    ...:/ It's Friday and tomorrow is gonna be the first year with ought my older brother....my brother Travis, was texting me...then he wasn't answering me when I needed to talk to him. I ended up blowing up his phone, I was breaking down and crying and he was trying to cheer me up...
    angellove19 angellove19 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    Sometimes I Do. ...

    Sometimes I do. I used to all the time...or more I used to be suicidal but a lot has changed in my life and I don't think like that anymore. Now I just kinda wonder about death ya know. Like when and how it'll happen for me. Like where I'll end up and what it'll be like. You...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 21-25, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2007

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I heard this story a

    while I can not say if it is true or not but there is a lot of people who tell this story but anyway here it is this young couple was getting ready for bed one day around Christmas time they had a two month old in his crib their bedroom was on the third floor from problems with...
    mrloweco mrloweco 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 22, 2014

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    I think about how I'll die,

    and when it should be.
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    I think about dying almost every day of my life.

    It's usually about suicide. The problems I create for myself seem to pile heavier and heavier on my shoulders to the point I feel I can hardly move or function. I often think how unfair it is that we are born without being consulted first and now I'm stuck in my life. How...
    TRP92 TRP92 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    And on I read until the the day was gone .

    And I sat in regret for all the things I've done. For all that I've blessed and all that I've wronged . In dreams until my death I will wonder on.
    cartwright66 cartwright66 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Life sucks, I wish I was never born.

    I look at death as the best escape from all problems and I look at suicide as like a giant middle finger to all the vile, disgusting, vomitrocious, physical pain, heartache and all the nightmares in life. What's the point?
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    sometime I think about death

    and how beautiful and quite it would be for the rest of my life
    nayimaalie nayimaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2014

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    Death Seems So Sweet

    Death seems like such a wonderful thing. A place where there is no more pain or injustice. All fades away in death; We are all in the same state when we die. That can never be said about life. Why do people prefer life to death then? Death is the achievement of all the noble...
    LoftyDreamer LoftyDreamer 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    It's Death again - He's always there - Watching,

    waiting - e'er the stare! Every time I look behind or reach to pull the window blind, I catch a glimpse of grubby hood - A little clue to where he stood; The glint of light that caught the scythe. Perhaps if I could pay a titheā€¦ But O! no use, he'll never go. The adamant...
    ajkasher ajkasher 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M Jul 23, 2014

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    In today's media suicide is considered a

    negative thing but if it isn't hurting anyone else then why is it another persons decision. One person ending their life does nothing to affect the other. The only reason other I could imagine is unless they have a child or someone to care for. But if a person honestly wants to...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M 18 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    On February 23 it will be the 1 year mark of my

    cousins death, and her brother just got hit by a car and is unconscious. Things are not going to well.
    chhmcguire4 chhmcguire4 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Dear God, I'm still here!

    What are you waiting for. I just need it to stop.
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    RMDk RMDk 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    Most of the time, I just want to give up

    and vanish into the air...death sounds pretty nice right about now.
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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    I don't even know myself anymore,

    let alone any others. I'm living for the sake of it. Judgemental society that thinks people like us are just plain attention-seekers. But no, we're just trying to express ourself because we know in real life if we were to talk about suicidal thoughts, people will just say you...
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    It's so weird to think about,

    and confusing as ****. After we expire, is it just darkness and quiet for the rest of eternity? Do our spirits move on, but remain here on earth? Or is there actually a heaven and hell? Know one really knows, there's no answer. It's so ****** up lol. So many questions, but no...
    MusicJunkie666 MusicJunkie666 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare 13-15, F 7 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I Think About Death Since I Am 12

    I dont mind if I die today or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! I would like to controll how and where I die! Thats all! Yes you can say " whats with your loved ones"...but fact is: when your time has come you have to go! If you like it or not! I would not wish to...
    MiriamOfManassis MiriamOfManassis 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    I work in a hospital.

    I see death all the time. I always wonder who will hold my hand when I take my last breath
    StellaNoir StellaNoir 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    Most of the time i'm fine.

    I guess I just have triggers that make me think about death.. I just wonder what its like. Is it going to be a relief for me? When will I die... Etc I just wonder. Lately I have been thinking about it on a daily basis. I have moments when I think "This is it.."
    Raven628 Raven628 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2014

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    i ofter walk into my closet,

    and look at the rail. theres almost nothing on it, just a few sweat-shirts and a book bag; there's definitely enough space for me. i have hanged on it for more then 10 seconds on it with all my weight, it can hold me. im 5'4" and its 5'7" 5'8"ish high; im a perfect fit. i go in...
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    and death is the warm open arms

    that I so desire. my family will leave on Friday and i will be alone for new years. I will play out my final dance with death then and as the ball drops and brings in the new year I shall fall into the warm embrace of death alone and pathetic.
    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M 8 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I have been tormented by the feeling

    that i could die any second now. And it wont go away. When i try to fall asleep, i feel that someone is outside my door. I have never felt this bad about death. It has gotten worse over the past few months because i now have a really stable relationship with most people in my...
    Foxfish Foxfish 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    this is my final goodbye.

    hope everyone had a great year next year. farewell to all.
    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    toady I broke my new years resolution of not to

    self mutilate I feel like s#1t. And just want to give up. on everything and everyone but I know better than tp just end it. I just am lost I feel like kurt cobain in his last days I had lost interest in everything. I fear nothing and I just wish I could be a better person.