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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I saw a dead pigeon by the road today.

    I thought it has been a really bad day for it: it was the last day of its life... and then around it, life continues: people passing by without even noticing a dead pigeon is on the road. I thought to myself one day it's going to be the last day of my life, exactly like the...
    DearMartian DearMartian 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    I'm scared to die. ..

    ..................
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles 18-21, F 14 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    I have been tormented by the feeling

    that i could die any second now. And it wont go away. When i try to fall asleep, i feel that someone is outside my door. I have never felt this bad about death. It has gotten worse over the past few months because i now have a really stable relationship with most people in my...
    Foxfish Foxfish 16-17, F 7 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I want to stop my pain.

    I want to die. And this is pretty handy.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 5 Responses Oct 27, 2015

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    today i was in a car with a friend

    and her boyfriend, he was driving very dangerously as they were arguing. and i thought to myself... whats the point of being alive? Im sure many people will be better off without me. if its my time to go, i cant cause anymore pain to myself or others. i swear i need some...
    shadowgothicgirl shadowgothicgirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2015

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    I think death is something

    that should be respected and taken seriously (like life.) Death is permanent in the sense we will never have another shot at this mortal life. We have to take full advantage of the life we are given. Laugh hard, Cry hard, and feel everything fully. Some people fear pain. But...
    MommaTequila2 MommaTequila2 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2015

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    I don't know if I'm afraid of death

    or afraid of the few seconds BEFORE the death and the fact that it's going to eventually come in my lifetime. I think about this way too much and I know anxiety has alot to do with it.
    everlastingwinter everlastingwinter 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 24, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 20, 2015

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    I can think about death in any situation.

    I can be walking with my mom, riding in a car, shopping, doing homework, and I find a way of dying. It has always been like this. it's normal to me
    MeloTail MeloTail 13-15, F Dec 2, 2015

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    just Because we are young/old

    and healthy doesn't mean death won't come to us,Death Has No Age,We should always be prepared.... Lets Try And Add Life To Our Years Not Years To Our Lives... Have a Good Day Y'all
    isanda888 isanda888 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 19, 2015

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    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    Sometimes I just want to kill myself Kuz

    there's no joy in my life. Just to end my pathetic existence. No one would really miss me or they would forget me in a hurry.
    ladyxena97 ladyxena97 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I don't even know myself anymore,

    let alone any others. I'm living for the sake of it. Judgemental society that thinks people like us are just plain attention-seekers. But no, we're just trying to express ourself because we know in real life if we were to talk about suicidal thoughts, people will just say you...
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    Here's another poem The poem

    before this is what I was asking about in the question I posted, but you can read this as well haha (They have a similar topic, and the same first couple words) When I am dead, you will soon forget me I am nothing but a passing memory Hold not into the past Humans aren't meant...
    AngelAmongClouds AngelAmongClouds 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I am not scared at the thought of dying.

    It's the sadness of all the things I wanted from life and the regrets of things I never got to experience. Some things are once in a lifetime and there is no rewind button or no making up for it. Also, since I am a loner with no friends, my funeral will be one with a few family...
    LonesumnTx LonesumnTx 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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    Aside from the craziness of

    after death I have been thinking of how I'm most likely to go and I have concluded on the fact that I'll attempt illegal experiments on myself and end up killing myself in the process great thought for a Monday evening
    QuantumBradyShift QuantumBradyShift 18-21 Oct 26, 2015

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    Both my parents passed away.

    My father when I was two years old. My mother a couple months ago. I do not feel strength or positivity coming out of the idea of them living in heaven. The idea of them, disconnected from me, waiting till I die too. What a grim perspective. There is no suffering in not...
    HiLuuk HiLuuk 22-25, M Jul 10, 2015

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    I think about dying almost every day of my life.

    It's usually about suicide. The problems I create for myself seem to pile heavier and heavier on my shoulders to the point I feel I can hardly move or function. I often think how unfair it is that we are born without being consulted first and now I'm stuck in my life. How...
    TRP92 TRP92 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    Why wouldn't we, it's

    such a mysterious and unknown thing and it's so intriguing. To me it almost seems romantic, how does it even work? Is religion right or science? Nobody knows, except those who have died. I guess we'll have to wait until my time comes for my questions to be answered.
    lilacadventures lilacadventures 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    If you think the world is banal

    or bland, unoriginal, lacking... then come alive to the death element. Come to terms with the friction of death. Errrr the feeling of deadness inside of you, all pervasive deadness (nothing happening)
    laura40404 laura40404 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2015

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    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    I want to die and i can't wait

    for itbto just happen and that i dissapear forever. So no one will seee me ever again i hate happiness i cant feel it without being depressed i am 22 and i have been feeling this way since i was young it stresses me out when i get this happy feeling or when somone wants to help...
    Soups Soups 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    "I think about just the idea of getting old,

    the idea of dying. Death isnt just this thing we have to stop talking about and make awkward, like its going to happen why are we so afraid to talk about it. So I think taking that inevitable fact that we are going to die and realizing that I have a body, I have a life, I have a...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F Dec 20, 2015

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    I dont mind if I die today

    or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! Nobody deserve that.. It would be great if we just pass away while sleeping +..+
    Intothestorm Intothestorm 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    Life sucks, I wish I was never born.

    I look at death as the best escape from all problems and I look at suicide as like a giant middle finger to all the vile, disgusting, vomitrocious, physical pain, heartache and all the nightmares in life. What's the point?
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    "When you die, the whole world suddenly loves

    you." There was a girl from my school who got cancer. She had tried to fight it for three years before her body gave up. She wasn't very popular, so i don't know if she had many real friends. But i noticed how fake people wrote about her on facebook. Even if they felt really...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Sometimes I Do. ...

    Sometimes I do. I used to all the time...or more I used to be suicidal but a lot has changed in my life and I don't think like that anymore. Now I just kinda wonder about death ya know. Like when and how it'll happen for me. Like where I'll end up and what it'll be like. You...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2007

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    I try to imagine my death at least

    once a day, in that Stoic sort of way. Just to try and feel more appreciative to be alive.
    AlaricSilvertongue AlaricSilvertongue 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    I'm not scared of death itself,

    in fact, it seems peaceful. The part that bothers me is how much people will miss me, I have a feeling I'm going to die before my mother. And just thinking about her standing at my funeral, crying. It hurts me, because I don't want people to cry when I'm gone, I don't want...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 27, 2015

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    If I can't get this restraining order,

    I'm going to kill myself. I'm done being scared about life. It's either I get to feel safe or I die. I'm not going for any "in between" options.
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 12, 2015

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    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    once I had a very vivid dream

    that I had been asleep and woke up to see flowers all around me. I was in a white bed in a white room with lots of flowers and people were in the room, staring at me like I'm an alien on an autopsy table. then the dream ended and I woke up confused about it. then a huge weight...
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2015

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    Okay now that I'm in a sleep mode,

    I want to talk about death. Like I dream of him. Like one time I dreamed he showed me how I died( which is drowning in a water park in a water slide btw) and i told my mom which she told I can't go anymore to water parks. And there many more. but I don't dream of him everyday...
    OmegaLove OmegaLove 13-15, F Oct 11, 2015

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    I think society should be more open to talking

    about death. People fear it so much they would kill, steal and do all kinds of **** to avoid. If we take away some of that fear we can stop some of the crimes that happen. I personally don't want to die, but I know that death will come my waaaayyyyyy! all naw but really its...
    RVJohnny RVJohnny 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 31, 2015

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    Almost constantly. Not always my own,

    just death in general. Death. Killing. I need something to occupy my mind.
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446 13-15, T 2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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    One Day,You Will Just Be A Memory To Some

    People, Do Yourself Some Good and Be A Good One
    isanda888 isanda888 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    the other day I had one of those existentialist

    moments where I became fully aware that I'd someday meet the end of my life. it frightened me at first, like always, but after that faded it became a reminder to live authentically and never waste a second. I am me. I'm the only me that the world has or ever will have.
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2015

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 16, 2010

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    I do knot feel sorry

    or morn for the dead as to me it seem one should be great-full they even exited at all and lastly the reason i do knot feel sorry for the dead at least there struggles pain and sorrows are over. No longer do need worry about stress and bills and work np for them it no longer a...
    CandiceMarieAllcoxx CandiceMarieAllcoxx 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    I wonder what it feels like,

    I mean assuming my body is so old one day that it just gives up the ghost :P I plan to live as long as I can, so obviously I'm not all that eager to find out. I am just curious about what the process of death will be like.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

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    I definitely am suicidal again.

    . I kind of just want it to be done now. I can't fix my life. There's nothing I could have ever done..
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 1, 2015

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