I Think About Death

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2010

    sometimes, thoughts about death comes to my

    mind. what's the point of continuing living feeling hollow inside, feeling unwanted, unloved, feeling betrayed again and again. recently, these thoughts are becoming much regular..
    mistfox mistfox
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 16

    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 7, 2014

    "When you die, the whole world suddenly loves

    you." There was a girl from my school who got cancer. She had tried to fight it for three years before her body gave up. She wasn't very popular, so i don't know if she had many real friends. But i noticed how fake people wrote about her on facebook. Even if they felt really...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

    I have been thinking About death quite a bit

    lately... I am so ******* unhappy. I have no drive to do anything I'm in school and its impossible to make friends or even do group work I have acne and braces which makes me look like I'm hitting puberty all over again at the age of 21.. it makes it hard to talk to people...I...
    sonsofanarchyy sonsofanarchyy
    18-21
    2 Responses Feb 18

    I fantasise being raped,

    tortured, prepared, cooked and eaten
    Christuner666 Christuner666
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 19

    Its a easy thing to do,

    especially when I almost died 3 different times in one year!! 1) Car accident, was hit while sitting at a red light (at least that's what I was told & read in the Police report, since I was knocked unconscious) as a IDJIT decided to use my car and myself as his brakes instead of...
    tazmanlvnv tazmanlvnv
    46-50, M
    1 Response Feb 28

    Throughout my life I have always pictured

    and planned my funeral more than my future wedding.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 11

    I don't even know myself anymore,

    let alone any others. I'm living for the sake of it. Judgemental society that thinks people like us are just plain attention-seekers. But no, we're just trying to express ourself because we know in real life if we were to talk about suicidal thoughts, people will just say you...
    KathLyz KathLyz
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    Death is inevitable. Our fear of it makes us

    play safe, blocks out emotion. It?s a losing game. Without passion, you are already dead.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 16

    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Jun 9, 2014

    How can I not when I feel

    so close to death all the time. I have been told all my life that right as I enjoy things I'm getting to old for it and I'm always getting old to where I feel death is constantly staring at me. Then the amount of friends and family I've had pass away recently. It's a crazy start...
    XxRazorbladeRomancexX XxRazorbladeRomancexX
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 17

    I don't know what to do.

    .. Lately I just been feeling sad and I want to just end it all. I have friends but I don't even think they care about me😪 yesterday I felt like hurting myself really bad and I asked if any of them wanted to hang out and they just laughed and then I said never mind and then...
    xoxcaliforniaa xoxcaliforniaa
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 18

    Probably more than I should at my age.

    I see it as a great escape most of the time. I am either very depressed or I am just being practical. Either way, it weighs heavily on my mind often.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 21

    the other day I had one of those existentialist

    moments where I became fully aware that I'd someday meet the end of my life. it frightened me at first, like always, but after that faded it became a reminder to live authentically and never waste a second. I am me. I'm the only me that the world has or ever will have.
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2015

    We all need to realize

    that death will come. We can't live forever. We know it, but it's hard to be aware of. It's also important that we do not fear it, because that would be pointless.
    Iwishtoremainunknown Iwishtoremainunknown
    18-21, M
    Mar 2

    I think death is something

    that should be respected and taken seriously (like life.) Death is permanent in the sense we will never have another shot at this mortal life. We have to take full advantage of the life we are given. Laugh hard, Cry hard, and feel everything fully. Some people fear pain. But...
    MommaTequila2 MommaTequila2
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2015

    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

    I think of death as as old friend.

    I have seen him take away my parents and loved ones. Its too difficult to imagine life without your loved one. Especially parents. I would say that death should come as a surprise but not a bad one. I would love to die in the arms of my loved ones. I know its all in future. No...
    VarshaJ VarshaJ
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 2

    I am not scared at the thought of dying.

    It's the sadness of all the things I wanted from life and the regrets of things I never got to experience. Some things are once in a lifetime and there is no rewind button or no making up for it. Also, since I am a loner with no friends, my funeral will be one with a few family...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2015

    All the time, I am consumed by thoughts related

    to death. I find myself constantly plotting my own death, by natural causes like illness or by unnatural causes. I would play out events in my head, like some sadistic show feasting upon my insecurities. Even when I'm not thinking of my death, I ponder how others would die...
    MewmentOfCatitude MewmentOfCatitude
    22-25
    2 Responses Feb 16

    Most of the time i'm fine.

    I guess I just have triggers that make me think about death.. I just wonder what its like. Is it going to be a relief for me? When will I die... Etc I just wonder. Lately I have been thinking about it on a daily basis. I have moments when I think "This is it.."
    Raven628 Raven628
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 1, 2014

    peace will be mine no need to suffer

    for anybody, you've got to put yourself first.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 21

    I think about dying almost every day of my life.

    It's usually about suicide. The problems I create for myself seem to pile heavier and heavier on my shoulders to the point I feel I can hardly move or function. I often think how unfair it is that we are born without being consulted first and now I'm stuck in my life. How...
    TRP92 TRP92
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 16, 2014

    Life sucks, I wish I was never born.

    I look at death as the best escape from all problems and I look at suicide as like a giant middle finger to all the vile, disgusting, vomitrocious, physical pain, heartache and all the nightmares in life. What's the point?
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2014

    I'm jealous of everybody.

    I want to kill myself. And I don't want to. I don't know how to. Can anyone help me?
    aarmstron aarmstron
    16-17, M
    7 Responses Apr 15

    Just for a moment today I thought about getting

    out, however the thought was not fleeting and I actually stuck with it for a moment longer. I imagine this is due to my lack of sleep, and cannot make any major decisions, when I am tired, hungry, or angry. That's not quite how that saying goes but I can get the gist of it...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    Apr 18
    Killmecat Killmecat
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Mar 29

    Everyday.... although I don't want to die

    now that I have found bensgirl95 it's just something that always crosses my mind the thought of leaving this world.....
    Isaokomori22 Isaokomori22
    18-21, M
    Mar 4

    I have been thinking About death quite a bit

    lately... I am so ******* unhappy. I have no drive to do anything I'm in school and its impossible to make friends or even do group work I have acne and braces which makes me look like I'm hitting puberty all over again at the age of 21.. it makes it hard to talk to people...I...
    sonsofanarchyy sonsofanarchyy
    18-21
    2 Responses Feb 18
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    I have been suicidal in the past.

    I always wondered how it would be to die. How is it like on the other side. I miss my grandma a lot and can't wait to see her. I don't fear death that's one thing I just don't want to die a painful death.
    roselani2005 roselani2005
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 11

    I have been tormented by the feeling

    that i could die any second now. And it wont go away. When i try to fall asleep, i feel that someone is outside my door. I have never felt this bad about death. It has gotten worse over the past few months because i now have a really stable relationship with most people in my...
    Foxfish Foxfish
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    I'm not scared of death itself,

    in fact, it seems peaceful. The part that bothers me is how much people will miss me, I have a feeling I'm going to die before my mother. And just thinking about her standing at my funeral, crying. It hurts me, because I don't want people to cry when I'm gone, I don't want...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 27, 2015

    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

    Dad is still trying to change me going on

    another kick of changing how I dress in relation to my skinny jeans. I wish I could be accepted for who I am. I'm afraid that he will eventually pull of the deal of until you're independent you'll do what I say...**** this economy and this world. I just am going to continue to...
    XxRazorbladeRomancexX XxRazorbladeRomancexX
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 9

    I'm more afraid of living

    than of dying.
    sighselly sighselly
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    Hello old friend. Here we are.

    Your last moments of life. Now you listen to me. You are not alone. You will not let go alone. All of time, all that we fought for and fought through. All the life times we lived. What do you say? Please, let's not end our book on this page. A whole new chapter. We get to live...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 1

    years ago when i worked at a store,

    the only two people i was close to there died very unexpectedly, less than a year apart. one was a woman in her 50's, and the other was a 19 year old male. out of everybody i worked with, i enjoyed seeing these two people the most... now here i am, almost 10 years later, and...
    VeritasAequitas VeritasAequitas
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17

    Ok so here are some morbid thoughts.

    .... I do not have any family (except my cat), and feel like my "friends" are short lived. (What I mean by that is once they get in relationships they then become MIA. So my friend count goes back to low numbers. I'm slowly becoming a hermit, and antisocial.... Anyhow here...
    Eric81975 Eric81975
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Mar 14

    I'm scared to die. ..

    ..................
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles
    18-21, F
    13 Responses Mar 3, 2015
    xxAlexBridgerxx xxAlexBridgerxx
    16-17, T
    4 Responses Apr 2

    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun
    22-25, M
    6 Responses Aug 20, 2008
    austun1 austun1
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 8

    - People seem to realize

    either you will cope with a certain crisis in your life or you will let that crisis control you. based on when I thought I had herpes a STD, I never felt so disgusted before in my life, in my own body. A mistake that would be made permanent in my body. In my body, thinking of...
    drico23 drico23
    18-21, M
    Mar 22

    I want somebody to hold a gun

    and just shoot me till I'm dead. I hate life and I hate people. Why do people look so much better than me? Why did God make me ugly? Is anyone feeling the same way I am feeling right now?
    aarmstron aarmstron
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Apr 15

    It's so weird to think about,

    and confusing as ****. After we expire, is it just darkness and quiet for the rest of eternity? Do our spirits move on, but remain here on earth? Or is there actually a heaven and hell? Know one really knows, there's no answer. It's so ****** up lol. So many questions, but no...
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I was in the hot tub at this hotel last night

    and met a guy who works with my bf. I could tell he was drunk and acting funny but I didn't think much of it. hours later I look out my hotel window and he's still in there looking pretty messed up. the jets had gone off and he hadn't bothered to turn them back on. I went down...
    ZenaMarie ZenaMarie
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Mar 25, 2015

    Both my parents passed away.

    My father when I was two years old. My mother a couple months ago. I do not feel strength or positivity coming out of the idea of them living in heaven. The idea of them, disconnected from me, waiting till I die too. What a grim perspective. There is no suffering in not...
    HiLuuk HiLuuk
    22-25, M
    Jul 10, 2015

    Why wouldn't we, it's

    such a mysterious and unknown thing and it's so intriguing. To me it almost seems romantic, how does it even work? Is religion right or science? Nobody knows, except those who have died. I guess we'll have to wait until my time comes for my questions to be answered.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 24

    I was sitting here reading my cousins obituary

    and asking myself....what will people say about me when I'm gone? I don't want to find out anytime soon....but I'm curious. I have talents that can get me everywhere, but fate doesn't seem to allow those talents to take me anywhere. They will probably say "He was born, He Lived...
    BronzeJamesBond BronzeJamesBond
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Mar 27

    I feel like I'm always losing people to death

    like 7 alone for 2015 and it has no discrimination I lost anything from my 9 month old niece to my best friend its crazy
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 11

    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc
    36-40, M
    May 27, 2014

    More and more it just seems like how this will

    end. There is a promise of peace and a painless existence whispering sweet nothings in my ear.
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 3

    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 23, 2014

    Sometimes I Do. ...

    Sometimes I do. I used to all the time...or more I used to be suicidal but a lot has changed in my life and I don't think like that anymore. Now I just kinda wonder about death ya know. Like when and how it'll happen for me. Like where I'll end up and what it'll be like. You...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2007

    Deep in the abyss of light slumber,

    we sway with half-closed eyelids. Smiling, the gods of dreams and fantasy elegantly impart death, while the chains of karma, which dictates time and space, are becoming tangled. It's a fantasy program bestowed by the gods. We shall become one. We shall evade death. We'll...
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2015
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