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    I think about dying almost every day of my life.

    It's usually about suicide. The problems I create for myself seem to pile heavier and heavier on my shoulders to the point I feel I can hardly move or function. I often think how unfair it is that we are born without being consulted first and now I'm stuck in my life. How...
    TRP92 TRP92 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    I think about getting out a lot,

    a whole lot. I wonder if I will make it through the summer, some how I already know the answer to that, only if I choose to, and I think I have already made that choice...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F May 4

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    Why doesn't death want me

    as much as I want it?
    introverteddementor introverteddementor 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I'm scared to die. ..

    ..................
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles 18-21, F 15 Responses Mar 3

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    I will wish for a release.

    ...occasionally how to do it..darkness, wrapping me up..holding me and then nothing
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 29

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    Human existence itself is sinister,

    macabre is in its essence. The human being, by occasion, encounter himself in this universe, without an apparent purpose, without a sense or greater significance, without consolation, without greater protection, guided only by occasion. He observes the universe, realize his...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Death sounds more appealing

    than life can ever be. I don't believe in an afterlife. But even nothingness is better than this.
    Littlegirlblue22 Littlegirlblue22 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    i'm just waiting for the day of my death to

    come. and while i'm waiting, i wanna make the most out of everything in my life.
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 15

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    There's a thing that actually made me wonder.

    ...why havent I blown out my last breath....and then this picture quote came up it read..."Embrace the life you have...there are thousand that's fighting to survive there's"
    alotharder alotharder 16-17, F Apr 25

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    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare 16-17, F 7 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    im happy with life and hopefully whats to come

    im a christian yet i still wonder what happens to us after our vessel dies. our soul will live on so after earth life-whats next?
    kyanitestone186 kyanitestone186 18-21, F Apr 9

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    Deep in the abyss of light slumber,

    we sway with half-closed eyelids. Smiling, the gods of dreams and fantasy elegantly impart death, while the chains of karma, which dictates time and space, are becoming tangled. It's a fantasy program bestowed by the gods. We shall become one. We shall evade death. We'll...
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    I think about death to much I'm not scared of

    death I'm scared of what will happen to my soul I don't want to go to hell But I don't want to spend all my life believing in God who might not even exist
    jessydx jessydx 16-17, F 2 Responses May 4

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    Life sucks, I wish I was never born.

    I look at death as the best escape from all problems and I look at suicide as like a giant middle finger to all the vile, disgusting, vomitrocious, physical pain, heartache and all the nightmares in life. What's the point?
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    The only thing I fear about death is the thought

    that I won't be at peace when I go. There's nothing that scares me more than thinking I'll be filled with terror and fighting it until the bitter end.
    Nero82 Nero82 31-35, M May 6

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    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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    Most of the time i'm fine.

    I guess I just have triggers that make me think about death.. I just wonder what its like. Is it going to be a relief for me? When will I die... Etc I just wonder. Lately I have been thinking about it on a daily basis. I have moments when I think "This is it.."
    Raven628 Raven628 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2014

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    jessydx jessydx 16-17, F 2 Responses May 5

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    Let's try to have a good day.

    ...:/ It's Friday and tomorrow is gonna be the first year with ought my older brother....my brother Travis, was texting me...then he wasn't answering me when I needed to talk to him. I ended up blowing up his phone, I was breaking down and crying and he was trying to cheer me up...
    angellove19 angellove19 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    mekaxoxo mekaxoxo 16-17, F 1 Response May 12

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    When I think about some near death experience

    happening to me I think I will not fight it but just go with it. But still waiting for something like that to happen.
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F May 18

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    TrainzRFun TrainzRFun 13-15, M 1 Response May 9

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    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    It may sound stupid,

    but I panic when I think about dying. Since it is inevitable, it is not a fear I can get over. Well, except for dying, of course. :P
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 4 Responses May 19

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    Sometimes I Do. ...

    Sometimes I do. I used to all the time...or more I used to be suicidal but a lot has changed in my life and I don't think like that anymore. Now I just kinda wonder about death ya know. Like when and how it'll happen for me. Like where I'll end up and what it'll be like. You...
    pepsi21addict pepsi21addict 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2007

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    An existential crisis just hit me like a bus.

    I was in the the bathroom and BOOM. Yay gotta love it. ;(
    Autumn02 Autumn02 13-15, F May 11

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    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 11

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    I have been tormented by the feeling

    that i could die any second now. And it wont go away. When i try to fall asleep, i feel that someone is outside my door. I have never felt this bad about death. It has gotten worse over the past few months because i now have a really stable relationship with most people in my...
    Foxfish Foxfish 16-17, F 8 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    iRot iRot 13-15, F Apr 8

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    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    princess42089 princess42089 22-25, F 7 Responses May 26, 2014

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    I think today might be the day.

    .... I can't keep doing this .. I've given up
    Laurenlovesyou1000 Laurenlovesyou1000 18-21, F 1 Response May 3

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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    RMDk RMDk 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    I dont mind if I die today

    or tomorrow, what I dont want is a painful death! Nobody deserve that.. It would be great if we just pass away while sleeping +..+
    Intothestorm Intothestorm 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    In the last month or so,

    I've been getting a strange feeling that I don't have much longer to live. I'm fourteen, so logically I could expect another 60 or 70 years, but I feel like I'm going to die sometime soon- in the next few months, sort of. Not like a premonition- I'm not pretending that God...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    It's so weird to think about,

    and confusing as ****. After we expire, is it just darkness and quiet for the rest of eternity? Do our spirits move on, but remain here on earth? Or is there actually a heaven and hell? Know one really knows, there's no answer. It's so ****** up lol. So many questions, but no...
    KNIFEvsFACE KNIFEvsFACE 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I wonder what it's like to die in your sleep.

    I have this idea that you become one with your dream world, and your consciousness ascends. To die in your sleep is seen as the most peaceful way to go, we're satisfied (all things considered) when our loved ones die like that. So maybe...I don't know, maybe those people really...
    MayaKing MayaKing 31-35, F May 16

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    I'm considering dying.

    After all, I don't have any attachement to life and I feel the need to escape my body so badly.
    SpecialButReal SpecialButReal 18-21, F 12 Responses May 3

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    I fantasize about jumping off the Golden Gate

    Bridge and many other bridges. I hate being alive and having to worry about trials and tribulations and human issues. I wish I was never born. I wish my mom had loved me a little bit or at least enough to abort me. I can't stand waking up in the morning having to face the facts...
    Derrick1987 Derrick1987 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    I think about it and desire it

    so much I wonder how no one else seems to notice how much I don't want to be a part of this life. I can't really be surprised I put on a good front and I don't think anyone really knows the extent to which I am so far gone from this life already, just a little while longer and I...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 1 Response May 19

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    Thinking of it right now.

    Wondering if I should kill myself or not and if I actually have the balls to do it.
    LoveIsInTheBlood LoveIsInTheBlood 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 8

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    "When you die, the whole world suddenly loves

    you." There was a girl from my school who got cancer. She had tried to fight it for three years before her body gave up. She wasn't very popular, so i don't know if she had many real friends. But i noticed how fake people wrote about her on facebook. Even if they felt really...
    ESMatricX ESMatricX 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I'm not scared of death itself,

    in fact, it seems peaceful. The part that bothers me is how much people will miss me, I have a feeling I'm going to die before my mother. And just thinking about her standing at my funeral, crying. It hurts me, because I don't want people to cry when I'm gone, I don't want...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like I am dying inside.

    I am almost reluctant to sleep for knowing the darkness which envelops me each night. It was bet