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    Death has dyed my brain black it started out

    as a little dot and then it grew as I got older into a thick vine it made a wrap around my head I try and try to made it stop but can't every time I try to get it off It grows more and more and I have given up let it take me if it wants I'm not afraid oh how much I wish I...
    sealare sealare 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I feel like I'm always losing people to death

    like 7 alone for 2015 and it has no discrimination I lost anything from my 9 month old niece to my best friend its crazy
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I just want to kill myself Kuz

    there's no joy in my life. Just to end my pathetic existence. No one would really miss me or they would forget me in a hurry.
    ladyxena97 ladyxena97 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I think of it often. My own death

    and the death of others too. I often feel my death is near, and there were many nights when I slept feeling that I won't wake up again and my heart felt crushed for not saying good bye to many. There were many other times when I felt very sick and alone and I thought I am gonna...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 5, 2015

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    "I think about just the idea of getting old,

    the idea of dying. Death isnt just this thing we have to stop talking about and make awkward, like its going to happen why are we so afraid to talk about it. So I think taking that inevitable fact that we are going to die and realizing that I have a body, I have a life, I have a...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F Dec 20, 2015

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    I do knot feel sorry

    or morn for the dead as to me it seem one should be great-full they even exited at all and lastly the reason i do knot feel sorry for the dead at least there struggles pain and sorrows are over. No longer do need worry about stress and bills and work np for them it no longer a...
    CandiceMarieAllcoxx CandiceMarieAllcoxx 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    I try to imagine my death at least

    once a day, in that Stoic sort of way. Just to try and feel more appreciative to be alive.
    AlaricSilvertongue AlaricSilvertongue 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    What would happen if i were to die tomorrow?

    How many people would come to my funeral? Would they miss me, or would i just fade into nothing? I veer towards the latter. I make little impact on others lives and feel i have nothing to offer the world. I have complied a suicide note- I wonder if i'll ever have to use it.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    Ever find yourself thinking about the darkest

    things, in this case it's death. We could die at any moment, think about how many people have died as i am typing this up, it's crazy right. The crazy part is you don't know when it's going to be YOU, but life goes on right...
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone 13-15, M a week ago

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    I've somewhat planned how i want my funeral

    almost as much as I've planned for my future wedding to mystery guy out there. I know what songs I want played the color of the flowers. I don't want it to be a sad moment but a celebration of life and i want to be cremated. I've always thought it was morbid to sit around a dead...
    EmaMisery EmaMisery 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've struggled with suicidal thoughts

    for a long time and only now after years of intensive therapy, high dosages of medications and being sectioned under the mental health act, are these thoughts now quietening. Sometimes I think about death but not in the way where I want to actively impose death upon myself but...
    thisisjuno thisisjuno 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I don't even know myself anymore,

    let alone any others. I'm living for the sake of it. Judgemental society that thinks people like us are just plain attention-seekers. But no, we're just trying to express ourself because we know in real life if we were to talk about suicidal thoughts, people will just say you...
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I was in the hot tub at this hotel last night

    and met a guy who works with my bf. I could tell he was drunk and acting funny but I didn't think much of it. hours later I look out my hotel window and he's still in there looking pretty messed up. the jets had gone off and he hadn't bothered to turn them back on. I went down...
    TheDevilHerself TheDevilHerself 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 25, 2015

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    I'm more afraid of living

    than of dying.
    sighselly sighselly 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2015

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    Death is nothing at all.

    I have only slipped away to the next room. I am I and you are you. Whatever we were to each other, That, we still are. Call me by my old familiar name. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M May 27, 2014

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    once I had a very vivid dream

    that I had been asleep and woke up to see flowers all around me. I was in a white bed in a white room with lots of flowers and people were in the room, staring at me like I'm an alien on an autopsy table. then the dream ended and I woke up confused about it. then a huge weight...
    TheDevilHerself TheDevilHerself 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2015

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    Why wouldn't we, it's

    such a mysterious and unknown thing and it's so intriguing. To me it almost seems romantic, how does it even work? Is religion right or science? Nobody knows, except those who have died. I guess we'll have to wait until my time comes for my questions to be answered.
    lilacadventures lilacadventures 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I want to stop my pain.

    I want to die. And this is pretty handy.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 5 Responses Oct 27, 2015

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    I have been suicidal in the past.

    I always wondered how it would be to die. How is it like on the other side. I miss my grandma a lot and can't wait to see her. I don't fear death that's one thing I just don't want to die a painful death.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Not Only Do I Think About It....

    But I hope for it. I wish for it, and not amoung others. I know some people will say "I hope so and so dies" well for me, its "I hope I die" i've never wished death on another soul but mine. I think about death, and how peaceful I will be, and how I won't have to hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 16, 2010

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    I saw a dead pigeon by the road today.

    I thought it has been a really bad day for it: it was the last day of its life... and then around it, life continues: people passing by without even noticing a dead pigeon is on the road. I thought to myself one day it's going to be the last day of my life, exactly like the...
    DearMartian DearMartian 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 6, 2015

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    If you think the world is banal

    or bland, unoriginal, lacking... then come alive to the death element. Come to terms with the friction of death. Errrr the feeling of deadness inside of you, all pervasive deadness (nothing happening)
    laura40404 laura40404 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2015

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    One Day,You Will Just Be A Memory To Some

    People, Do Yourself Some Good and Be A Good One
    isanda888 isanda888 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    stress, anxiety, depression with Aspergers

    syndrome. worst combo i could want in my lifetime. i have lots going on and recently i feel like i dont want to be here anymore. like remove myself from existence.
    shadowgothicgirl shadowgothicgirl 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm considering dying.

    After all, I don't have any attachement to life and I feel the need to escape my body so badly.
    SpecialButReal SpecialButReal 18-21, F 10 Responses May 3, 2015

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    Honestly, the thought of killing myself is one

    thing that curbs my panic attacks. It makes me feel calm and relieved, like the fight is finally over. By no means would I call myself suicidal. I know people love me, I know suicide is unacceptable, but it is somewhat like a fantasy with me. I would never kill myself...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 18, 2014

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    Death Is Not Virtual

    So we have seen many deaths through movies video games, but who actually saw a real one? It is really when you start thinking about death. I also wonder, why people come to watch the execution in Iran, where extra judicial execution happens. (im not saying this for really quilty...
    atakan34 atakan34 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    When I was a little boy,

    every night I would lay in my bed thinking about death, and I always wondered, "what happens if I die? where do I go? whats next?". I actually used to fear death when I was little, I would always be afraid because I was always curious, and I was afraid something like this might...
    Tagstar2000 Tagstar2000 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 1, 2015

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    Both my parents passed away.

    My father when I was two years old. My mother a couple months ago. I do not feel strength or positivity coming out of the idea of them living in heaven. The idea of them, disconnected from me, waiting till I die too. What a grim perspective. There is no suffering in not...
    HiLuuk HiLuuk 22-25, M Jul 10, 2015

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    It's so weird to think about,

    and confusing as ****. After we expire, is it just darkness and quiet for the rest of eternity? Do our spirits move on, but remain here on earth? Or is there actually a heaven and hell? Know one really knows, there's no answer. It's so ****** up lol. So many questions, but no...
    PopulaceInOne PopulaceInOne 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    When I imagine myself growing old I can't help

    but afraid of what to come after death. It's not the thought of dying that's scary but the fact that my conscious cease to exist(everyone move on without me & unable to think or feel anymore scared me the most) I once dream that I died, only to wake up as myself but everything...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 20, 2015

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    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    I'm not scared of death itself,

    in fact, it seems peaceful. The part that bothers me is how much people will miss me, I have a feeling I'm going to die before my mother. And just thinking about her standing at my funeral, crying. It hurts me, because I don't want people to cry when I'm gone, I don't want...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 27, 2015

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    just Because we are young/old

    and healthy doesn't mean death won't come to us,Death Has No Age,We should always be prepared.... Lets Try And Add Life To Our Years Not Years To Our Lives... Have a Good Day Y'all
    isanda888 isanda888 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 19, 2015

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    I can think about death in any situation.

    I can be walking with my mom, riding in a car, shopping, doing homework, and I find a way of dying. It has always been like this. it's normal to me
    MeloTail MeloTail 13-15, F Dec 2, 2015

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    I wonder what it feels like,

    I mean assuming my body is so old one day that it just gives up the ghost :P I plan to live as long as I can, so obviously I'm not all that eager to find out. I am just curious about what the process of death will be like.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

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    I think death is something

    that should be respected and taken seriously (like life.) Death is permanent in the sense we will never have another shot at this mortal life. We have to take full advantage of the life we are given. Laugh hard, Cry hard, and feel everything fully. Some people fear pain. But...
    MommaTequila2 MommaTequila2 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20, 2015

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    We work so hard, race too fast

    and always grant tomorrow as possibility for more work or more life, its like we made a contract with god that our lives would last long as we grant our dreams not knowing that by any day all this work can be a swept of ashes, when we are gone. Would we ask for more hour to work...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    I am not scared at the thought of dying.

    It's the sadness of all the things I wanted from life and the regrets of things I never got to experience. Some things are once in a lifetime and there is no rewind button or no making up for it. Also, since I am a loner with no friends, my funeral will be one with a few family...
    LonesumnTx LonesumnTx 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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    the other day I had one of those existentialist

    moments where I became fully aware that I'd someday meet the end of my life. it frightened me at first, like always, but after that faded it became a reminder to live authentically and never waste a second. I am me. I'm the only me that the world has or ever will have.
    TheDevilHerself TheDevilHerself 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2015

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    Aside from the craziness of

    after death I have been thinking of how I'm most likely to go and I have concluded on the fact that I'll attempt illegal experiments on myself and end up killing myself in the process great thought for a Monday evening
    QuantumBradyShift QuantumBradyShift 18-21 Oct 26, 2015

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    Death Is...

    ...no big deal. Or is it? Really now, why do we make such a fuss about death? I won't go with the 'it's inevitable, why worry about it' argument, though that line of thinking does have its benefits. I was thinking more about why we feel uncomfortable about death in the first...
    junjunjun junjunjun 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 20, 2008

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    Deep in the abyss of light slumber,

    we sway with half-closed eyelids. Smiling, the gods of dreams and fantasy elegantly impart death, while the chains of karma, which dictates time and space, are becoming tangled. It's a fantasy program bestowed by the gods. We shall become one. We shall evade death. We'll...
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2015

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    Today is so bad, I just want to wake up

    and not think about suicide or death, but I just don't want to do this anymore, any of it. I keep waiting for my hormones to get regulated or whatever it is that happens when I don't feel like this but its going on three months now and I am ready to end it. It's so frustrating...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    There is life in death.

    I definitely believe that there is life in death. In a literal sense, a metaphorical sense, and obviously for some people a spiritual sense. When someone close to you dies you rethink your life. You face your own mortality. You try to find more meaning in your own life. In...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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