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I Think About Killing Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 211 People

    Sick Of Pain

    i have bad knees 'heart high blood pressure bad back depressed lonely and fat i'm just tried of trying to lose weight i'm 56 and what do i have to live for i was born all messed up married for 28 yrs he died leaving me nothing but . bills and a house that needs so much work...
    upallnight23 upallnight23
    May 15, 2012

    I'm A Joke

    Hi my name is matt and my case isnt probably worth telling but this feeling of emptiness is overwhelming and I need someone to talk to don't have any friends very anti social. get very tense I dont enjoy things like I use to not even the holidays seem to cheer me up Im not gonna...
    matt500 matt500
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2010

    I never stop thinking about it.

    I'm just so miserable and unhappy with this life.I'm alone and in so much suffering and that's all my life is just suffering and pain.I'm ashamed of who I am as well. this probably how my life will end.
    deleted deleted
    Nov 20, 2015

    Sometimes Consiously, Sometimes Not

    I have always had a self-loathing mantra...I Hate Myself.  I have often thought that my actions over the last 25yrs of my life have been an attempt at a slow suicide.  When I stopped those particular things, I thought things would get better.  They didn't. ...
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    9 Responses Jan 19, 2008

    I'll Never Attempt It, I Bet...

    but i think about killing myself all the time.  i think about the most pragmatic ways.  i think about the ways that i don't have the balls to do (cutting veins in wrist, sleeping pills, etc.) it's why i've never bought a gun despite my fascination with them.  i...
    DyingInLove DyingInLove
    1 Response Jan 21, 2009


    Everyday I wake up and it starts horrible from there wishing that God would stop torturing me with that so called gift. I try not to look in the mirror anymore because most of the time I always wind up crying. I go through my day at school like usual. Not talking to people and...
    ChrisIsAwesome ChrisIsAwesome
    18-21, M
    Aug 29, 2011

    One of These Days.

    I think about it often. I think it's cause I got dumped.  Then I remind myself I probably got dumped because I was always acting like a suicidal jerk. I drink too much and don't care. I don't really take care of myself too much. It's funny because I have a lot to live...
    MyDreamGirlDontExist MyDreamGirlDontExist
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2008

    Not Often

    I have quite a few times in the last year, but I don't think I'd ever do it, that just seems to stupid to me, but I always wondered if things would be better if I was gone. This was more so when I was trying to deal with my ex and her mental abuse. It just seems that everyone is...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay
    36-40, M
    5 Responses Jun 4, 2008

    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mikexx22123 Mikexx22123
    18-21, M
    Aug 11, 2012

    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mikexx22123 Mikexx22123
    18-21, M
    Aug 11, 2012


    I honestly don't want to, but the thought crossess my mind. Rather often these days. God, and my relationship with him is what keeps me here on this world. He has done so much for me, and I know it would hurt him so much... I just cannot do that. So why does the...
    VincentValentine VincentValentine
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2009

    Kill Me Now. Just Do It. I Don't Want To Deal With This.

    I beg you all to kill me NOW. I cannot keep dealing with this stress EVERY FREAKING DAY. I had the most perfect dream ever about my "friends" and I hanging out. I wake up from a coma, and what is this? I was blocked by my "friend" who was supposed to be "my friend forever." WELL...
    trueheartis2cool trueheartis2cool
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Mar 15, 2012

    It's Not Worth It

    I think about killing myself, I've had this thought off and on since I was about 12.  I've tried twice, failed twice, ended up in the psych ward once.  I have depression, panic disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, agoraphobia, anxiety disorder.  I also have an...
    keyna keyna
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2008

    Its Pretty Much Over

    on the 26th of june I will turn 31,also i plan on killing myself by jumping from a carpark roof. I was born and raised in london to my parents.my father was a violent alcholic who beat my mum in front of me when I was 5 years old because they got in to argument about how I should...
    goodbyeihatemyself goodbyeihatemyself
    26-30, M
    Jun 24, 2012

    Overwheled With The Thought Of Suiside Today

    a co worker informed me that i have ruined a lot of freindships at work becuase i am giving my husband another chance once again.  His wife is one of my sons teachers and she told him that he is so excited that his daddy is home forever.  I think my kids are going to be...
    want2bfreefinally want2bfreefinally
    2 Responses Oct 21, 2010

    I'm Lost....

    i think about killing myself all the time. i think the world would be a better place with out me. i feel lost between the walls of fire under the roof of pine above the floor of sadness, i can't think right, i can't laugh i can't do anything. I AM SO SO SO SO LOST.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 24, 2009

    As I lay here alone I wish I could just say

    goodbye to everything but it's only my son and brother what is stopping me doing it. my life messed up and I just feel like I can not cope with things anymore I felt like this for a long time now and I just don't have the energy to want to go on. I will but for how long this I...
    Leylandlad Leylandlad
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jan 9

    People say it's selfish,

    cowardice, etc. But if you really have nobody that cares, how can it be selfish? I genuinely don't want to kill myself, but I don't want to live either, so what's left? Actually, let me rephrase that... I don't want to live LIKE THIS. I have tried for years and years and years...
    DLAndyOhio79 DLAndyOhio79
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Jan 27

    Should I Or Shouldnt I...?

    Im 21 currently in college going for ech/ sped minor in coaching. the classes can be very stressful. im also trying to find a job ontop of my summer classes and the state mandated tests i have to take in the summer. i just dont know....some days i wake up ready to start the day...
    Woody140 Woody140
    May 10, 2012

    Living A Lie

    In one year my life has turned. The lies I tell today were the truth twelve months ago. I was well off, had money in the bank, and not a care in the world. Now all I think about is ending my life. The sad part is I've done it to myself. Everything is lost, I borrowed, begged, and...
    ap5092 ap5092
    Jan 27, 2012

    Right Now

    I just want to get it done. NOW!!!
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2012

    No Real Reason

    Today was quite bad, i dont often think about killing myself, or at least I try not to. i have tried in the past, just landed me in hospital and in counselling. I'm not sure what happened today, i felt like one of my low moods was coming on so i went outside for cigarette...
    thetasig thetasig
    Mar 28, 2012

    Funny How Life Goes

    Good afternoon to all who reads this. My name is Michael, and at 27 years old, my life ceased to be worth living. I write that in the past tense, but it is a current hardship that I am going through. Over the course of the next several minutes, I am going to share the depths of...
    ziggieisrael ziggieisrael
    1 Response Apr 18, 2012

    Thoughts Fairly Come And Go....

    I think of killing myself a lot and i cant help it i just dont understand the point of life... I work i make money to survive basically then once i get paid the thoughts start rolling in why are you doing this its pointless your going to die and leave everything so why do it...
    gizmo888 gizmo888
    Mar 18, 2012

    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mikexx22123 Mikexx22123
    18-21, M
    Aug 11, 2012

    Depression, Suicide, Bleh

    I've been depressed since I don't know when... probably 7th or 8th grade( I think?). I used to cut and have tried suicide a couple of times. I've done all kinds of medication treatments and therapy over the years to no real avail. Now I'm in my second year of college yet I feel...
    Zedp989 Zedp989
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 4, 2010

    On and Off

    It started a couple of years ago, when I became "depressed," and I still think about it everyday. Sometimes it will just be in passing, and other times I dwell on it for a while. I've had very specific ideas about how I would kill myself. I would stab myself or slit...
    paperalias paperalias
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2008

    My Stupid Life

    My life is horrible. I get straight A's but thats not enough for my family . They keep comparing me to my sister  and compare me to kids that invented things that took them too the whitehouse. they say im worthless and stupid and i get bad grades and do not realize i am one of...
    sunnylive85 sunnylive85
    3 Responses Feb 18, 2012


    i want it to end right now. the one person i thought would understand what i feel actually said that i choose to be sad. how could i choose this? i hate it. i hate it so much that i want to die just to make it stop. i try to smile and laugh when im around people but the second im...
    kinnie86 kinnie86
    26-30, F
    Aug 28, 2012


    I never thought to die, but .... like anyone told me not to tell it like it is. He said I had lived a life desperately wants whatever I choose but ultimately I do not want to die then you guys who want to die should have a zest for life ya!!! use the rest of your life to keep on...
    Ashila Ashila
    22-25, F
    Apr 7, 2013

    Up All Night Thinking

    Hi I'm 17 and iv been thinking of killing my self for seen grade 5 I can't beleve that I'm still alive. The problem I think I have is my self I hate who I am, I'm one of the stoner kids of the school iv smoked for years but all I smoke is weed and cigerets, that's it and...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Jan 11, 2010

    I Dont No Wat to Do

    its hard dealing with this pain i dont no wat to do iv tried killing myself many times i cut because i like pain i cant stand my dad and mom to them im nothing nobody cares anymore i cant talk to anyone because i dont trust anyone i cant deal wit this stupid **** im soo tired of...
    it1992 it1992
    1 Response Sep 2, 2008


    i think about killing myself everyday i just cant do it some times i dnt know why but anyway the reason being my parents dont care for me they are out doing drugs or drinking ect. so i live with my grandparents who claim they love me but they all ways want me out because they say...
    calebriddle calebriddle
    1 Response Mar 17, 2012

    I Do It To Ensure Them A Good Life...

    I am 15. I have been being raped by the same man for three years but I can't tell anyone about it. You see, the man is my mother's boyfriend. We live in the same house and almost everyone is gone a lot. I hate it but I feel I can't tell anyone about it because my family is so...
    theagonyoflove theagonyoflove
    1 Response Nov 8, 2011

    Im On My Way

    i have attempted suicide five times seriously, and have adopted a life style of risk taking in the hopes of "dying on the job" i have set a date, i have chosen a method, and i am building the device. within one year i will have used my knowledge of...
    ClockWorkRed ClockWorkRed
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 9, 2009

    They Say Life Gets Easier (lies)

    I'm tired, I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being needed rather than being Wanted  People say that life gets easier, life gets better when you have children, I beg to differ I'm 30 years old now, and i'm so miserable, I hurt everytime I move, everytime i think, the...
    DeathBecomesme09 DeathBecomesme09
    1 Response Jun 24, 2010

    Young Drama

    I'm 13 years old.. I have so much drama.I feel like killing myself will solve everything.. I let people get to me easilyidont
    idontknow0 idontknow0
    1 Response Apr 20, 2012

    I Don't Know Why?

    I always think about killing myself, self-harming etc! My life isn't great, but I know it's not the worst compared to people I've met! But these feelings of wanting to die have been with me for at least 5 years, I tried to 3 times 2010, my mum said she'd section me if I tried...
    Zelda13 Zelda13
    18-21, F
    Oct 5, 2012

    All The Time...

    Every single ******* day is the same old fuucking thing! Thinking about it, wanting to do it, occasionally slightly overdosing to make myself really sick, and doing even more damage to my organs. They have been long term damaged since the age of 14-15 when i was overdosing a lot...
    JustKeepFighting JustKeepFighting
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 18, 2012

    Its Scary

    I have struggled with thoughts of killing myself since I was a young teenager, but I never seriously considered completing the action because I couldn't put my loved ones through that kind of pain. In 2007 my Dad killed himself, he was my best friend and my rock, the only one who...
    DownerD DownerD
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 21, 2009

    I think about this a lot.

    I don't want to but it just consumes me. I want to be happy and live life like other people but I feel like everything would be so much easier if I just died. I feel like I'm going no where and I'm stuck. Please help me I don't know what to do.
    Alys92 Alys92
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 12, 2014

    A Recommendation

    Feeling Good, by David Burns It took years of seeing my psychiatrist for him to recommend this book; I think it should have been one of the first things that he did.  Although I don't think it was the solution to what ailed me (for me, my symptoms appeared to just...
    zenandi zenandi
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

    Just A Little Venting.

    So killing ones self is a wonderful and horrible thing all at once. I think about it often. There is a desire to stop the hurt but an equal desire to not hurt the ones that love you..  The greatest dilemma I have run into is how to stop the pain without infecting pain on others...
    Me1970 Me1970
    41-45, F
    Jul 15, 2012

    What to Do

    I dont mean how but what do you do when life is all its going to be and nothingm ore.  Since I joined this group I have thought abuot it, dont know if Im brave enough.   Tom
    RobbieMissesTom RobbieMissesTom
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Aug 6, 2008


    Everyday all i do is come home and cut or think about cutting no one really cares i have told people i do it and all i get is 'stop' thats not gonna fix it. my parents dont care they are too into worrying about their parents they just tell me im selfish. my best friend is barely...
    Cheergirl1013 Cheergirl1013
    Aug 11, 2008

    Life Is Worth It.

    I've thought about killing myself, countless times.But i've come to the conclusion that no amount of pain, loneliness, heartbreak, or even remorse is worth taking your ever so precious life. LIFE IS WORTH IT.It's worth every step, every tear, every thing, its worth everything.I...
    godblessvanessa godblessvanessa
    May 28, 2012

    Me Too

    There have been plenty of times when I thought of killing myself and many ways of doing it, jumping in front of a train, slitting my wrist, overdose, jumping out of a tall building etc. For some reason, I cant see myself living to a old age and dying peacefully. Honestly, the...
    Scratchmarkz Scratchmarkz
    3 Responses Jan 31, 2009

    I Still Think I Shud Die

    its xmas day ing 25mins nd i have jes finished talking to my nana but im still feeling like i want to die.it was a minute tlk as it was an international call to Zambia.mum was on the fone to her for an hr so didnt get much tym to talk to her. i really want to kill myself but i...
    bootyb bootyb
    18-21, F
    Dec 24, 2007

    No One Care

    I thick about kill myself because my boyfriend said he dose not love me and we date for11 mouth and he stop love me is the middle of it i amd i did thing that he want me to do like sextext and he did not live me and my BFF dose wont to hang out with me because she has friend she...
    Lizzie1997 Lizzie1997
    Jun 2, 2012

    My mom and dad divorced

    when i was 8. My stepdad started sexually abusing me when i was 10. When I was 12 I met a guy that was 23. I thought i loved him. I ran away from home numerous times, thinking life would be better with him than at home. Not long after i was with him. He started beating me...
    Owen97 Owen97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2014

    I've Become a Cancer In the Lives of Those Around Me.

    My life is in shambles and I am hurting everyone around me as a result. I have somehow lost all of my motivation and ambition in life. I just don't try anymore. I'm out of work, I'm broke, I'm in debt. I cause massive stress on the people that have been kind enough to help me...
    wastedpotential wastedpotential
    Sep 11, 2008

    I Want To Die

    Cthr33po Cthr33po
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 17, 2012

    Sometimes, I don't want things to get better.

    Sometimes, I want things to get really bad so I have a reason to kill myself. Sometimes, I wish people didn't care so I could kill myself without feeling bad (not that anyone would care anyway) Does that make me a **** person?
    beautifulgoodbye beautifulgoodbye
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 31, 2014

    Probably a little too often.

    Like when were on the highway and I'm just thinking about jumping out the car and getting hit but I remind myself it's too messy. Then I think of another way to off myself. I think about getting life insurance then planning my death to make it look like a murder so I can at...
    everythingisfallingapart everythingisfallingapart
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2015

    1 Bad Apple

    i was sexually abused aged 4 by my brother who also abused a younger family member i'll call X, it was our special secret so when X spoke up about it happening i was asked if there was any opportunity when it could of been done i said No and it never happened again because he...
    bluehed bluehed
    Mar 11, 2011

    My Life

    I have thought about killing myself many times I am always questioning if there is a God because my life is such hell and have been for years now... I'm 26 with one child I love her so much I just can't take care of her I been looking for work and nothing is coming my way... I...
    Mylifesucks26 Mylifesucks26
    Dec 13, 2012
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