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I Think About Killing Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 207 People

    hmmm.... i'm stuck...

    . i'm unstuck... i'm stuck.... i'm unstuck... i give up on myself too easily, i think too much, i get lost in my thoughts, i am not motivated.... i hate myself... so much that i just don't give a **** anymore... but then i try again... i try to get it right.... it's been 28...
    youngs28 youngs28 26-30, M Jan 17

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    I'll Never Attempt It, I Bet...

    but i think about killing myself all the time.  i think about the most pragmatic ways.  i think about the ways that i don't have the balls to do (cutting veins in wrist, sleeping pills, etc.) it's why i've never bought a gun despite my fascination with them.  i...
    DyingInLove DyingInLove 22-25 1 Response Jan 21, 2009

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    Not Often

    I have quite a few times in the last year, but I don't think I'd ever do it, that just seems to stupid to me, but I always wondered if things would be better if I was gone. This was more so when I was trying to deal with my ex and her mental abuse. It just seems that everyone is...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay 31-35, M 5 Responses Jun 4, 2008

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    No One Care

    I thick about kill myself because my boyfriend said he dose not love me and we date for11 mouth and he stop love me is the middle of it i amd i did thing that he want me to do like sextext and he did not live me and my BFF dose wont to hang out with me because she has friend she...
    Lizzie1997 Lizzie1997 13-15 Jun 2, 2012

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    Overwheled With The Thought Of Suiside Today

    a co worker informed me that i have ruined a lot of freindships at work becuase i am giving my husband another chance once again.  His wife is one of my sons teachers and she told him that he is so excited that his daddy is home forever.  I think my kids are going to be...
    want2bfreefinally want2bfreefinally 36-40 2 Responses Oct 21, 2010

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    Everyday

    I think about it every single day - even on my best days. Having attemted suicide several times I have come to accept that these feelings will always be with me, I just have to try not to act on these feelings, some day's it's not so hard, other days it's near impossible. If I...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 17 Responses Nov 15, 2007

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    Young Drama

    I'm 13 years old.. I have so much drama.I feel like killing myself will solve everything.. I let people get to me easilyidont
    idontknow0 idontknow0 13-15 Apr 20, 2012

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    A Recommendation

    Feeling Good, by David Burns It took years of seeing my psychiatrist for him to recommend this book; I think it should have been one of the first things that he did.  Although I don't think it was the solution to what ailed me (for me, my symptoms appeared to just...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    Everyday

    Everyday all i do is come home and cut or think about cutting no one really cares i have told people i do it and all i get is 'stop' thats not gonna fix it. my parents dont care they are too into worrying about their parents they just tell me im selfish. my best friend is barely...
    Cheergirl1013 Cheergirl1013 18-21 1 Response Aug 11, 2008

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    Its Scary

    I have struggled with thoughts of killing myself since I was a young teenager, but I never seriously considered completing the action because I couldn't put my loved ones through that kind of pain. In 2007 my Dad killed himself, he was my best friend and my rock, the only one who...
    DownerD DownerD 22-25, F 1 Response May 21, 2009

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    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mikexx22123 Mikexx22123 18-21, M Aug 11, 2012

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    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mikexx22123 Mikexx22123 18-21, M Aug 11, 2012

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    Right Now

    I just want to get it done. NOW!!!
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2012

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    Im On My Way

    i have attempted suicide five times seriously, and have adopted a life style of risk taking in the hopes of "dying on the job" i have set a date, i have chosen a method, and i am building the device. within one year i will have used my knowledge of...
    ClockWorkRed ClockWorkRed 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2009

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    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 13-15, M Aug 13, 2012

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    1 Bad Apple

    i was sexually abused aged 4 by my brother who also abused a younger family member i'll call X, it was our special secret so when X spoke up about it happening i was asked if there was any opportunity when it could of been done i said No and it never happened again because he...
    bluehed bluehed 26-30 Mar 11, 2011

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    Why Me

    I've been in loveless and meanningless relationships for most of my life. They all do nothing for me but get my hopes up and then break it down. My last girlfriend left me for my friend and the one befor that left me for another girl, the list goes on and on.
    XxFxMxLxX XxFxMxLxX 18-21, M Jan 25, 2012

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    They Say Life Gets Easier (lies)

    I'm tired, I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being needed rather than being Wanted  People say that life gets easier, life gets better when you have children, I beg to differ I'm 30 years old now, and i'm so miserable, I hurt everytime I move, everytime i think, the...
    DeathBecomesme09 DeathBecomesme09 26-30 1 Response Jun 24, 2010

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    Everyday

    i want it to end right now. the one person i thought would understand what i feel actually said that i choose to be sad. how could i choose this? i hate it. i hate it so much that i want to die just to make it stop. i try to smile and laugh when im around people but the second im...
    kinnie86 kinnie86 26-30, F Aug 28, 2012

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    Depression, Suicide, Bleh

    I've been depressed since I don't know when... probably 7th or 8th grade( I think?). I used to cut and have tried suicide a couple of times. I've done all kinds of medication treatments and therapy over the years to no real avail. Now I'm in my second year of college yet I feel...
    Zedp989 Zedp989 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4, 2010

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    I think about this a lot.

    I don't want to but it just consumes me. I want to be happy and live life like other people but I feel like everything would be so much easier if I just died. I feel like I'm going no where and I'm stuck. Please help me I don't know what to do.
    Alys92 Alys92 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    Fight!!!!

    I never thought to die, but .... like anyone told me not to tell it like it is. He said I had lived a life desperately wants whatever I choose but ultimately I do not want to die then you guys who want to die should have a zest for life ya!!! use the rest of your life to keep on...
    Ashila Ashila 18-21, F Apr 7, 2013

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    Living A Lie

    In one year my life has turned. The lies I tell today were the truth twelve months ago. I was well off, had money in the bank, and not a care in the world. Now all I think about is ending my life. The sad part is I've done it to myself. Everything is lost, I borrowed, begged, and...
    ap5092 ap5092 41-45 Jan 27, 2012

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    I'm A Joke

    Hi my name is matt and my case isnt probably worth telling but this feeling of emptiness is overwhelming and I need someone to talk to don't have any friends very anti social. get very tense I dont enjoy things like I use to not even the holidays seem to cheer me up Im not gonna...
    matt500 matt500 18-21 3 Responses Dec 27, 2010

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    My Life

    I have thought about killing myself many times I am always questioning if there is a God because my life is such hell and have been for years now... I'm 26 with one child I love her so much I just can't take care of her I been looking for work and nothing is coming my way... I...
    Mylifesucks26 Mylifesucks26 26-30 Dec 13, 2012

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    Thoughts Fairly Come And Go....

    I think of killing myself a lot and i cant help it i just dont understand the point of life... I work i make money to survive basically then once i get paid the thoughts start rolling in why are you doing this its pointless your going to die and leave everything so why do it...
    gizmo888 gizmo888 22-25 Mar 18, 2012

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    On and Off

    It started a couple of years ago, when I became "depressed," and I still think about it everyday. Sometimes it will just be in passing, and other times I dwell on it for a while. I've had very specific ideas about how I would kill myself. I would stab myself or slit...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 23, 2008

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    Everyday

    Everyday I wake up and it starts horrible from there wishing that God would stop torturing me with that so called gift. I try not to look in the mirror anymore because most of the time I always wind up crying. I go through my day at school like usual. Not talking to people and...
    ChrisIsAwesome ChrisIsAwesome 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 29, 2011

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    What to Do

    I dont mean how but what do you do when life is all its going to be and nothingm ore.  Since I joined this group I have thought abuot it, dont know if Im brave enough.   Tom
    RobbieMissesTom RobbieMissesTom 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 6, 2008

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    Why Me

    I'm 13 I go to school was kicked out of school cuz that think I was going to kill myself but I never said that and they think I'm going to San some one with sicsors and school starts In a few days and Im not in a school there trying to put me in on and I was made fun of in my...
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 13-15, M Aug 27, 2012

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    It's Not Worth It

    I think about killing myself, I've had this thought off and on since I was about 12.  I've tried twice, failed twice, ended up in the psych ward once.  I have depression, panic disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, agoraphobia, anxiety disorder.  I also have an...
    keyna keyna 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2008

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    Kill Me Now. Just Do It. I Don't Want To Deal With This.

    I beg you all to kill me NOW. I cannot keep dealing with this stress EVERY FREAKING DAY. I had the most perfect dream ever about my "friends" and I hanging out. I wake up from a coma, and what is this? I was blocked by my "friend" who was supposed to be "my friend forever." WELL...
    trueheartis2cool trueheartis2cool 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    Should I Or Shouldnt I...?

    Im 21 currently in college going for ech/ sped minor in coaching. the classes can be very stressful. im also trying to find a job ontop of my summer classes and the state mandated tests i have to take in the summer. i just dont know....some days i wake up ready to start the day...
    Woody140 Woody140 18-21 May 10, 2012

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    I Don't Know Why?

    I always think about killing myself, self-harming etc! My life isn't great, but I know it's not the worst compared to people I've met! But these feelings of wanting to die have been with me for at least 5 years, I tried to 3 times 2010, my mum said she'd section me if I tried...
    Zelda13 Zelda13 18-21, F Oct 5, 2012

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    Mylife

    i think about killing myself everyday i just cant do it some times i dnt know why but anyway the reason being my parents dont care for me they are out doing drugs or drinking ect. so i live with my grandparents who claim they love me but they all ways want me out because they say...
    calebriddle calebriddle 13-15 1 Response Mar 17, 2012

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    Me Too

    There have been plenty of times when I thought of killing myself and many ways of doing it, jumping in front of a train, slitting my wrist, overdose, jumping out of a tall building etc. For some reason, I cant see myself living to a old age and dying peacefully. Honestly, the...
    Scratchmarkz Scratchmarkz 18-21 3 Responses Jan 31, 2009

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    Up All Night Thinking

    Hi I'm 17 and iv been thinking of killing my self for seen grade 5 I can't beleve that I'm still alive. The problem I think I have is my self I hate who I am, I'm one of the stoner kids of the school iv smoked for years but all I smoke is weed and cigerets, that's it and...
    Lifeornolife Lifeornolife 16-17, M 5 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mikexx22123 Mikexx22123 18-21, M Aug 11, 2012

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    No Real Reason

    Today was quite bad, i dont often think about killing myself, or at least I try not to. i have tried in the past, just landed me in hospital and in counselling. I'm not sure what happened today, i felt like one of my low moods was coming on so i went outside for cigarette...
    thetasig thetasig 18-21 Mar 28, 2012

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    My Stupid Life

    My life is horrible. I get straight A's but thats not enough for my family . They keep comparing me to my sister  and compare me to kids that invented things that took them too the whitehouse. they say im worthless and stupid and i get bad grades and do not realize i am one of...
    sunnylive85 sunnylive85 13-15 3 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    Just A Little Venting.

    So killing ones self is a wonderful and horrible thing all at once. I think about it often. There is a desire to stop the hurt but an equal desire to not hurt the ones that love you..  The greatest dilemma I have run into is how to stop the pain without infecting pain on others...
    Me1970 Me1970 41-45, F Jul 15, 2012

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    Its Pretty Much Over

    on the 26th of june I will turn 31,also i plan on killing myself by jumping from a carpark roof. I was born and raised in london to my parents.my father was a violent alcholic who beat my mum in front of me when I was 5 years old because they got in to argument about how I should...
    goodbyeihatemyself goodbyeihatemyself 26-30, M Jun 24, 2012

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    Sick Of Pain

    i have bad knees 'heart high blood pressure bad back depressed lonely and fat i'm just tried of trying to lose weight i'm 56 and what do i have to live for i was born all messed up married for 28 yrs he died leaving me nothing but . bills and a house that needs so much work...
    upallnight23 upallnight23 56-60 May 15, 2012

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    Life Is Worth It.

    I've thought about killing myself, countless times.But i've come to the conclusion that no amount of pain, loneliness, heartbreak, or even remorse is worth taking your ever so precious life. LIFE IS WORTH IT.It's worth every step, every tear, every thing, its worth everything.I...
    godblessvanessa godblessvanessa 13-15 May 28, 2012

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    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 13-15, M Aug 13, 2012

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    I Dont No Wat to Do

    its hard dealing with this pain i dont no wat to do iv tried killing myself many times i cut because i like pain i cant stand my dad and mom to them im nothing nobody cares anymore i cant talk to anyone because i dont trust anyone i cant deal wit this stupid **** im soo tired of...
    it1992 it1992 16-17 1 Response Sep 2, 2008

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    I've Become a Cancer In the Lives of Those Around Me.

    My life is in shambles and I am hurting everyone around me as a result. I have somehow lost all of my motivation and ambition in life. I just don't try anymore. I'm out of work, I'm broke, I'm in debt. I cause massive stress on the people that have been kind enough to help me...
    wastedpotential wastedpotential 31-35 Sep 11, 2008

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    Killing My Self

    killing my self next week everything is turning into **** see ya
    chaosbringer188 chaosbringer188 31-35 May 31, 2010

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    I'm Lost....

    i think about killing myself all the time. i think the world would be a better place with out me. i feel lost between the walls of fire under the roof of pine above the floor of sadness, i can't think right, i can't laugh i can't do anything. I AM SO SO SO SO LOST.
    sorouji sorouji 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 24, 2009

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    My Life

    Im a tenager in school but I got kicked out cuz there did not know how to stop me and this kid well he's was bullying me she thinks he was bullying me befor I was slap in the face on the bus thrown into the brink wall and I was sperd in the face with pufume I may have done some...
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 13-15, M Aug 13, 2012

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    I Want To Die

    **** EVERYONE WE ARE ALL DEAD MEAT WALKING.
    Cthr33po Cthr33po 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 17, 2012

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    One of These Days.

    I think about it often. I think it's cause I got dumped.  Then I remind myself I probably got dumped because I was always acting like a suicidal jerk. I drink too much and don't care. I don't really take care of myself too much. It's funny because I have a lot to live...
    MyDreamGirlDontExist MyDreamGirlDontExist 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 7, 2008

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    I Do It To Ensure Them A Good Life...

    I am 15. I have been being raped by the same man for three years but I can't tell anyone about it. You see, the man is my mother's boyfriend. We live in the same house and almost everyone is gone a lot. I hate it but I feel I can't tell anyone about it because my family is so...
    theagonyoflove theagonyoflove 13-15 1 Response Nov 8, 2011

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