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I Think About Past Alot

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 737 People

    In The Past...

    I was unstoppable, was confident and things seemed to come easy. Now in my middle forty's I seemed to have lost it all. I can't seem to connect with any job, even some of my old friends... Just no fire??
    anotherdayanotherjob anotherdayanotherjob 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    Lost In My Memories

    I keep going back to the past...It keeps coming back to me...I can't get rid of it...i can't get it out of my mind...I'm losing people because i am so sad all the time...They think i don't want to get better and i like being sad and upset and cutting all the time...I hate being...
    VampreEmoNeko VampreEmoNeko 18-21, F May 30, 2013

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    I wish I could just go back in time.

    I wish things were different. I wish you were mine. Still. Not a day goes by I don't think about you. When I see you instead of just saying hi and bye I would kiss you.
    nancyramos94 nancyramos94 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2014

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    Boyfriend

    I cant get over my boyfriends past? hes never cheated or anything.. nor been unfaithful he loves me so much, i think i am ruining our relationship.. i was a virgin.. he was quite down with the boys.. i cant het over his past.. any advice?
    tawoods1 tawoods1 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    You Raise Me Up And I Drag You Down...

    I've just recently been diagnosed with depression. Apparently my doctor says I've had it since I was fifteen; I'm now twenty-one. It's nothing new. My mother always suspected I was mental. The fact that it's depression and not something more serious (apparently mental disorders...
    xrainaxwolfx xrainaxwolfx 18-21, F Aug 3, 2012

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    Scars

    I think about the past a lot... probably to much. It really affects the way I am today. My childhood kind of haunts my mind at times. I usually can block it out almost like I didn't have one but everyone has a trigger. Its very vague but the smell of old beer on his breath still...
    LauraEmily LauraEmily 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 10, 2012

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    kbabe0181 kbabe0181 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2014

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    The Past

    i find myself thinking about my past a whole lot. i think of all the good times that i'll never get back. i think of all the bad times that i wish never would've happened. i think of all the things i wish i would've done but never did. i think of all the things i shouldn't have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 14, 2012

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    Will The Future Ever Measure Up To The Past?

    So many beautiful memories from the past, sometimes I wonder if the future will ever measure up. I miss so many people who used to be dear to me but they do not wish to be in my life anymore. Nor should they. What's over is over, but I always have this urge to reach out. To go...
    AcrosstheGreatDivide AcrosstheGreatDivide 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2012

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    We Can Change The Way We Look At Our Past

    We cannot change our past, but we can change our present and future. I over think a good majority of things, especially my past. What I have come to terms with is that our past cannot be forgotten and that we cannot change it. But, we can change the way we look at it. All my life...
    supernovaChic supernovaChic 22-25, F Apr 10, 2013

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    Help!!!!!!!!!!!!

    i cant forget about my pass it like the more i grow the more i remember my pass
    shebrina shebrina 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2012

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    Because it was, and still does,

    make me who I am today. :)
    Sheismybestfriend Sheismybestfriend 31-35, M Sep 16, 2014

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    I Do Not Know Why

    Sometimes the things that I have done or been through is all that I can think about. Most days are okay, but some days it becomes all consuming. Thankfully I haven't had a flashback in some time though.Sometimes I think about when I was a child and sometimes I think about last...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Mar 15, 2013

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    I Miss My Past

    Why do things in the past haunt me so much....why do I miss so much? People who I loved are in my past, but I don't want them to be there. Maybe I grew up different then other people in a different place. I know what it s like to have to hang on to something special when you find...
    Abeautifulheart Abeautifulheart 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2012

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    Change?

    I think about my past a lot when things in current events turn negative, and as cheesey as it sounds, I wish somebody would come along and change me into someone beautiful and likeable, approachable and confident. Life isn't that awful right now, I'm not depressed, sad or in a...
    emily65 emily65 18-21, F Dec 30, 2012

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    It Comes Back Too Many Times

    Everyone once in a while my past comes back to haunt me, when it does i just completely break down and loose myself. I think so much about it the more i think about it the more i cry, the more i cry the more i feel alone and worthless. Is it normal for me to feel like this? Or am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 7, 2012

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    How Do You Forget?

    How do you let him go when he was your first love?How do you forget all the pain someone has put you through? How do you forget someone telling you to be better everyday, because your worthless? How do you move on and be happy with other guys after that first love broke...
    bittersweetlullaby bittersweetlullaby 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I keep going back to the past.

    ..It keeps coming back to me...I can't get rid of it...i can't get it out of my mind...I'm losing people because i am so sad all the time...They think i don't want to get better and i like being sad and upset and cutting all the time...I hate being miserable but i just can't get...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    I'm stupidly stuck slap in the middle frame of

    my life's past. It was the only place I truly loved; the land, the culture and people, the friends, just everything. It was my escape from a living hell. It was the only small window of 'freedom' I've ever had and have not yet retrieved back. I try not to forget or regret my...
    hitvl hitvl 18-21, F Dec 4, 2013

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    You're Right Here......my Past.

    Its something like 7 years now.I was 23 then.Madly in love with my girl.Nothing could make me feel that she wasn't in love with me too.I gave her all I could when I was with her....after I married her.Away from her I never thought of anyone but her.My passion for photography...
    bullseye111 bullseye111 26-30, M 14 Responses Sep 1, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I don't know what I did. But now this guy I used to care about is killing himself because of me. Because I have a bf? Idk. But now I'm crying and want to die because I have to live...
    osnapitzama osnapitzama 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I love Trainspotting! it makes me think about how even the worst person on earth deserves a second chance, and also it makes me think about how the worst and ****** up situations...
    anjunayorch anjunayorch 22-25, M 21 hrs ago

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    Thinking about it. I don't know
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I really can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try I can't help it but it makes me smile when I think of you and happy my sis said to me what the hell are you smiling...
    susananngoga32 susananngoga32 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I would never do it! But I hate that I think about it so much....I should be happy.
    L0ST1 L0ST1 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I think I've gotten to the point that I care about my wife but don't love her. I don't feel loved so I'm not sure that I can love in return. I often wonder that even if I was...
    bgood79 bgood79 36-40, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was only a child when I started to fantasize about suicide. Whenever I felt overwhelmed I would think about ending my life and it would bring about a calming effect on me. As the...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I all ways think about sex maybe to much I need to get some soon as possible and cannot wait to have some ok a lot of sex
    dresscross dresscross 51-55, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's like we live on a little island now. We like a couple miles out from a tiny town. Hear nothing but birds. We are surrounded by trees it really feels like we've got our own...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Sure I am ...but I am also thinking about fresh baked chocolate chip cookies with milk...DOH...here comes sex again......(it was the milk comment....you know jugs..milk..boobs...
    AwakenEdge AwakenEdge 41-45, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    I went sunbathing today and all the time I battled with thoughts of what the people around me might think about my body. Sometimes I think I'm f**king paranoid :(
    lindamerja lindamerja 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I love thinking about death everywhere I go I look at people and think of them dying and I love to think of me killing them it's very fun. Death is very exciting.
    Demon6666 Demon6666 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Today. I typed her name into Youtube, subconsciously. I use to look at her Facebook all the time. Now, I just roll my eyes at the sight of her face. I tried to reach her...
    Loopiee Loopiee 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I'm thinking about suicide right now and how much better I would be dead. I just feel as if I should kill myself. People would be better off without me and wouldn't miss me. I'm...
    lgbtprideeee lgbtprideeee 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The only thing that kills me to think about, is people missing me. My biggest fear, is having people cry when I'm gone, it hurts me. In a way, I hope people don't miss me that...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I think everyone's thought about suicide once in their lifetime. Everyone reaches that low point where they feel they can't get back up and they're stuck. You don't just wake up...
    Hitlersdoter Hitlersdoter 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't know if is just me but I do think about death and what would happen if I did die !! My story I got in trouble like big trouble and someone found me when I was trying to...
    livvie22 livvie22 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I want to help others going through what I am going through. I have been struggling with mental illness and suicidal thoughts for years. I have social anxiety, so even going to...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F a week ago

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    I think about death as very normal thing and loves to have death.. In a way it's way to get free from everything and move on from this world full of mess.. The fact is death is...
    Ravidesai Ravidesai 41-45, M a week ago

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    I've been thinking about committing suicide a lot lately, and was reading a lot of your stories. I just want to tell you all that you matter, that it is always better to keep on...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    My parents are taking their "princess" to visit our relatives. They miss her soooooo much.. Bla bla bla.. I think about doing it tonight. I'm so hurt and I just can't do this...
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    A lot, now the very thought helps me sleep. When you think about death it's easier to forgive. For instance "I'm going to die one day, the ones whom hurt me will also die one day...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    It just is very painful for me to think it will go on forever. Sometimes I get so into it I wonder if the world is really going to end, EVER. There has been so many theories of...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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