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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,004 People

    No Prince Charming Came to Save Me

    I have been through so much, and the only person who came to help me was me. If I didn't do it, it didn't get done. I've tried killing myself before, and those feelings are coming back. My body was too strong and I woke up, no one came to my aide. I'm tired of being nice to...
    Readerblackchic Readerblackchic 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2009

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    Life's Just Not Worth It Anymore.

    All my life things have been bad. I'm a Christian so I keep thinking things will get better and God will deliver me but things just keep getting worse. I have hirsutism so I used to get picked on all the time at school until I became antisocial and dropped out. Now my whole...
    joyelle00 joyelle00 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2013

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    Hi Basically im from North Karnataka.

    I completed BE MBA with better family background. Now i'm 29yrs old working as a Manager in one of MNC Bangalore with handsome salary. I loved one girl from 2006-10 but in 2010 we departed and i suffered like hell and i taken 1year time to come out and i decided to lead a single...
    manjuanthjm manjuanthjm 26-30, M Feb 20

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    4 My Friend

    As you know when I get upset I write and this is the poem on my heart after our conversation. It saddens me that you would give up so easily but I want you to know that I understand.  Harsh words, many tears, and violent blows I keep my secrets hidden so nobody knows...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 10 Responses Dec 4, 2009

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    Unwelcomed

    I have already told my story a couple of times and im not sure if someone has read the last one I wrote in this group..it's been 3 months since I moved to another city after my parents and my sister passed away when some people shot them in our own home,now I live with my cousin...
    Monicalaguapa Monicalaguapa 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    A Response To Therealwoman

    Nothing I have ever read on EP -- not even badly-disguised kiddie **** by paedophiles -- has triggered or upset me as much as the story which TheRealWoman just posted in this group: [QUOTE] This story may get me banned. I think suicide is the bravest thing a Human can...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 41 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    Carry On, Carry On... 'cause Nothing Really Matters

    Yes, I do think about it all the time.  Now more than ever... I just think the world is a pile of bullshit on more levels than any mathematician can calculate, and I'm tired of it.  Living itself has become a chore to me, and on my good days everything's barely...
    SirDeividdo SirDeividdo 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 10, 2010

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    Pls Read This If You Care About People Who Think Of Suicide

    This article by Paul Steinburg, a psychiatrist and a former director of the counseling and psychiatric service at Georgetown University, explains very clearly why the topic of suicide has to be handled very responsibly: http://www.nytimes.com/2009/12/12/opinion/12steinberg...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 10 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 19 Responses May 7, 2010

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    The Only Reason Why I Havent

    ... Is because of my girlfriend. I know that if I do, she will think it wad her fault and would start to cut and eventually commit suicide also. I have cut before, and I hurt people because of it. Back to suicide. I have tried to a few times, but chickened out before I did. AKA I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    I Want To End My Life So Bad It Hurts

    Im a college student, I never really wanted to go but I wanted to make my mother proud of me. For me... I hate myself so muchhh because there are people who would love to be in my place, be able to go to school, have a loving mother, grandparents. But then I cant help by be...
    markiejean markiejean 22-25, F Oct 19, 2013

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    Many times I've thought about it

    and how I'd finish it off. Not that I would but sadly it creeps in more and more with everyday life and thoughts. Everyone says it the easy way out but really how the **** would they know without knowing. I feel so lost in this world now and so alone , my ( partner gf ) it...
    LittleRose23 LittleRose23 36-40, T 3 Responses Apr 6

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    From a Friend....

    Hey you- tell me what has got you down. There’s no need to cry or wear that frown.   You dont have to commit suicide Because I will be by your side. I’ve been there and I understand you Lean on me and I’ll carry you through. I’m not going...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Sometimes...

    Yes I do sometimes, but **** that ****. I'm not a coward and I am going to face my problems head on. Coming out with my Guns blazing and ****.   My *** isn't going down without a good muthafucking fight. Besides too many people would like to see me dead so as a big...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    There Is No Point

    It breaks my heart, but I see no point in going on. Bye, you all, yes ALL have been great. Great for laughs, cries, support and be supported. But it really ends. I give up. I gave it my all, and it is at the and of reserves. My ex was right, **** her. Bye all. Be safe Edit...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    The Long Blackened Walk

    I wrote this letter a while ago but I am sharing in hopes that others will seek help and know that they can move forward one step at a time. I still feel the blackening of my soul and I have a huge hole in my heart but I am still here to type this introduction so I must still be...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 18 Responses Sep 6, 2009

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    The Basket Case's Lament

    I'm a failure in every definition of the word. Everything I do goes wrong, no matter what it is. I have little to no social skills and no discernible talents. My friends aren't interested and I spend my time scouring the internet, trying to find ways to kill myself painlessly, or...
    Patronusmagic Patronusmagic 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2013

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    Loss And Pain

      Eight years ago I had to take a medical retirement from teaching. I loved teaching so it was a great loss.  The Global Neurological Damage has caused pain that only gets worse and worse.    I am usually at home because it hurts too much to go out. Ha! I...
    Dewduster Dewduster 66-70, M 3 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    All I Do Is Cause Trouble.

    Everywhere. It's everwhere. Spilling... It festers from the past, the smelly odor of reeking havoc upon everyone. It follows me.. And latches onto my ankle to never leave... It's toxic. It kills everyone around me.. At all the wrong of times. It makes me a puppet and I'm left...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 23, 2012

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    Today Is The Day I Will Be Commiting Suicide

    I am so sick of my life. today I will be eating a bunch of oleander leaves to commit suicide. I'm sick of people not having enough time for me and I'm sick of my self. I've been treated like **** my whole life and I'm ready to go. I'm 26 years old and I am very happy that I...
    AconiteOleanderEater AconiteOleanderEater 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    Back And Fourth

    I have been really depressed for the last year. I have thought about suicide in the past, but its never been this strong. I look up ways to kills myself completing what is the best method. I keep going back and fourth do I really want to kill myself? If this would get better I...
    boo864 boo864 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    I Hate My Life

    I have ever since I was 12 and my life was ruined by my step-father. For a couple of years now I've been wanting to kill myself, even more so now that I can't go to college or get a job. It wouldn't be hard either. My mom has some painkillers that I could take. I can just fall...
    Chiazu Chiazu 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2009

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    About Facing Your Demons

    From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in the river.I changed alot since then, I am 21 now and see things in a whole new light.The diference is that my old demons never...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2008

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    On Multiple Occasions.

    I think bout suicide alot. I had a bad past where i was raped abused molested and thrown around in DSS. I have had a dozen guys lynch me and rape me at one time. I have been raped by my stepdad. I have no family that cares anything bout me. They think I'm a retard and will always...
    kinkyjunebug13185 kinkyjunebug13185 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 6, 2013

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    I Want To Die

    I'm 20 years old and I wish I could just die.... everyday I'm thinking of new ways to die but I just don't have the strength to do the final blow so I just stay like that and hope for an accident to happen..... I am weak and pathetic..... I never had a girlfriend or someone who...
    mitsos8 mitsos8 18-21, M Aug 19, 2013

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    I Am Such A Mess, I Don'T Even Know

    The bullying in 7th grade triggered these thoughts, and they have not gone away. I have depression, and random times of sadness where I overthink things. Such as, I think people hate me, that I annoy them, etc. Sometimes I think I was shortchanged in life, and that I don't...
    CassiaDream CassiaDream 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2013

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I Give Free Theripe On Ep

    You can ask me anything I can help you with anything just look up I give free Theripe on ep
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 13-15, M Oct 12, 2012

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    I'm Dead In Life

    I'm 15 years old an I already think I've lived enough,I hate all the changes I have had in my life recently, I'm very proud of being Mexican and I just moved to the USA almost 3 months ago. The reason why I moved it's because my parents and my sister passed away when some people...
    Monicalaguapa Monicalaguapa 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2012

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    I still think killing myself in the future is

    still within the realm of reason.
    Thomasjcox Thomasjcox 18-21, M Feb 18

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    Bipolar Freak

    dduuhhh!! Have tried on more than one occasion but never completed the task. Scared I guess, young perhaps, but I think if/when I get to that point again that I won't be afraid anymore. I've come to grips with it and promised myself that if I do hit THAT low, that place of no...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Sep 22, 2007

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    Im Not Think About Death I Love Me Even More

    I haven't been cured but i have a solution a very small one i need to build but ive gotten a small collection that gets me off and by its like medicine but it keeps the hunger down but i haven't had a full meal deal in over a decade so it bring me here trying to meet othrrs like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 4, 2013

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    Finally

    I was out of town on a project for work with a few coworkers.  The day started out fine but depression, loneness, and thoughts of suicide crept into my head.  This had happened in years past but instead of being separated by months it was turning into weeks.  While working I...
    yndoendo yndoendo 26-30, M Jan 25, 2013

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    Understanding

    I realize this is going to sound like an an extremely controversial statement but I am going to say it anyway. I understand suicide; now that's not to say I could ever see myself doing it personally or that I support those who do it but I understand that everyone has a certain...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 8, 2012

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    Trying to Cope

    It was Dec 11 2006 when my life was turned upside down. I was injured at work. Since then I have been treated like a liar, my friends form work have stopped calling, I'm in pain 24/7 and the Workers Comp and Social Security system has striped me of all dignity and made me...
    HurtAtWork HurtAtWork 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 12, 2007

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    Suicide Hotline

    Suicide hotline, are you in crisis? I think so. I made the call. Are you alone? Quite. Have you harmed yourself? You  mean like, is there blood? Yes, are you okay? No blood. And...no. That's why I called. What is the problem? I am considering my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    Yea..

    It's wrong yea, but it's eternal relief... nothing really else to say..
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2013

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    I Used To Alot

    i used to always think about doing it just taking a knife and slicing my throat and ending it all so easy, but then right when i couldnt take it anymore and was gonna i had a friend who was there everytime i needed him, sadly weve grown apart and barly speak and now its all...
    bnana666 bnana666 18-21 Dec 28, 2012

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    I Just Want To Be Free Of It

    I am feeling so overwhelmed..... I don't know how to... feel. How do you be a nice person? How do you relate to others? How do you get others to like you... to love you? How do you feel grateful? How do you keep loving someone? How do you still feel desire? I feel so...
    stillthinkingofyou stillthinkingofyou 22-25, F Apr 5, 2013

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    A Wall.

    Every time I think I may have something figured out, a course of action, a way to better my life, the negative voices scream at me until I pick apart and destroy the idea. I think I find my 'calling', my 'path' then someone plants the seed of doubt and my mind blossoms it into an...
    SanguineDreams SanguineDreams 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2012

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    A Coward's Indulgence

    All the meds did was make me realize that I’m still in the EXACT ******* place I was 3 years ago, albeit in a different (lesser) school and with less hair on my head. I still haven’t found a “calling” or a passion in my life, I’m still a virgin and oh lord do I want to...
    SirMugatu SirMugatu 22-25, M Oct 27, 2012

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    I have been thinking about it again.

    The sad thing is I am not even motivated to do it, because I suck at trying to kill myself. I have tried before. I will probably just fail again. Not worth it. My self-esteem is too low to even try... :(
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Apr 6

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    I Give Free Theripe On Ep

    You can ask me anything just look up I give free Theripe on ep
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 13-15, M Oct 12, 2012

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