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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,114 People

    For those that did not get the information EP

    is going to be shutting their doors in mid-April. I am sending this out to certain groups that I have been apart of for the last four years. This is my contact information because now on Facebook we can start personal private groups if we want. My facebook name is Mitchell...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Mar 23

    I am back on my meds,

    still not interested though but at least it's a little more tolerable now.
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 30

    I am so ready for it to end.

    I have some arrangements to make regarding my children. then the time will be right. Finding out my husband that I loved so much cheated on me was the last heartbreak I could take. No one should be forced to live in this kind of torment. I only hope I can find the peace on the...
    nothingandno1 nothingandno1
    31-35, F
    20 Responses Jan 26

    I can't kill myself because I don't want to

    ruin my little brother's life. But I can't live like this anymore. Everyday is a living hell to me, and I constantly wish for death from natural causes of some sort. The only thing I look forward to everyday of my life is sleeping at night- where I am out of this ****** world...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 16, 2015

    "SUICIDE DOESN'T REMOVE PAIN,

    IT GIVES IT TO SOMEONE ELSE." I've read this after a video I watched and I realize, yes, it is true. I'm not in your position or situation and I can only imagine it, what you're going through but I know that in every person there's someone atleast one caring for them... maybe...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 2

    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

    I don't know if I actually would ever do it.

    I tried once long ago, but it didn't work. I woke up in my over vomit the next day. I continued to vomit for 2 more days. My mother accused me of being pregnant at 17. She would have never known. I bet she wouldn't have discovered my body until it began to stink if I had been...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 23

    I can't drive down the road without fantasizing

    about driving my car into a tree or something in hopes that it'll kill me. I don't trust myself at all anymore.
    sweettlc sweettlc
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 2, 2015

    I really am none too sure

    why I am pondering suicide at the moment... it could possibly be due to the fact that I can hear the train passing close right now; that was always my idea of a foolproof method of bringing about my death. It would be as simple as standing on the tracks and closing my eyes, just...
    ginaramone ginaramone
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    I have thinking of killing myself

    for years. It's not because of bullying it's that i feel like i'm nothing in my family. I'm a middle child which I hate. My sister gets all the attention like always. my family is always saying why am I always looked in my room. Well don't they love my sister more than me?
    ItzelCookieStar ItzelCookieStar
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 12

    It sounds pretty tempting,

    because I have nowhere to turn and my presence is really not wanted around any longer. Seems like the easiest solution for the problem, which is me.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Mar 21

    The clarity that comes to you

    when you realise you aren't the crazy one but the rest of the world is, apart from a small group of close friends. How ******* dare people make me feel like I've done something wrong. If you think I'm wrong then you should get your head checked out and get the **** away from me...
    LosingHope24 LosingHope24
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 25

    It's all I'm thinking about.

    I attempted it just before New Years Eve but unfortunately I wasn't successful. I tried to overdose on methadone. I took 2 weeks worth at once plus drank a bottle of bourbon. I honestly thought that would have been enough but this time I'll make sure of it.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 10

    i feel like theres nothing left

    for me in life . i got clean of a 10 yr heroin addiction, but still am a0 worthless stupid junkie no matter what i do. someone i love dearly calls me that,but its true tho : (? all ive ever wanted was a loving and caring family or at least 1 best friend that would be there for...
    foxyoxy123 foxyoxy123
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 6, 2015

    So i have been feeling really suicidal

    and i came across a website and a disclaimer was "If you can't take a joke" okay no we can take a joke but Suicide is nothing to joke about ever and i mean never and people need to stop using the word selfish when it comes to Suicide because do you know how much a person who...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ
    18-21, F
    Feb 11

    It feels like no matter how hard I try,

    I either fail or it's never enough. My whole life has just been me trying to be accepted so that I could maybe stop hating myself but I keep trying and I always fail. I feel like a disappointment and a waste of space. I am not intelligent or pretty and I'm not as kind as I would...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 21, 2015

    Whether or not you, who ever is reading,

    believes in past lives I have struggled with memories of suicide and don't understand, and memories of the life I live now. All those times I never spoke up to take a stand for myself. Never saying enough is enough to people. Never expressing myself in fear of ridicule and...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 7

    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2010

    I've cut a LOT on my wrists

    and ankles and I have a scars but people think I do it for attention. its just making me feel like a price of ****. my best friend even said it to me. idk I want to committee suicide but I never follow through with it.
    lexielexielexie4 lexielexielexie4
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 15, 2015
    skinimin12345 skinimin12345
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 28

    I just want to die. I can't take this horrid

    life anymore. What's the point? I'm useless. This is useless.
    Searchingforanswers5789 Searchingforanswers5789
    18-21, F
    21 Responses Aug 24, 2015

    I committed suicide 5 times.

    I flatlined twice when i tried to the first time. the machine stopped beep booping. the frist tyme wuz win i descuvereed i wuz warewulf. my peepaw wuz a wulf and he maid me h8 myslef. i not wanna live anymore sence i killed someone. bye bye (sliver bullot gunshot)
    TakumiSilentpaw TakumiSilentpaw
    46-50, T
    2 Responses Mar 22

    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro
    18-21, M
    421 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    I don't know what kind of existence I have now.

    I just want to go home from work and take Nyquil and sleep until I have to get up for work the next day. And really I don't want to go to work but I suppose I need some kind of structure in my life while I am trying to get things figured out. I don't want to be here any more and...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 24
    Glitterd Glitterd
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 28

    Some of us think that holding on makes us

    strong, but sometimes it is letting go
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 26

    In case you did not know,

    dead people do not bleed. If you can bleed-see it, feel it-then you know you are alive. It is irrefutable, undeniable proof. Sometimes I just need a little reminder.
    heartless0000 heartless0000
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 13

    For the past couple of months,

    I tried to commit suicide 14 times in a row. The reason as to why I never did it was because I never had the courage. I have zero support. No friends, family so on and so forth. I have been damaged soo much that I never want to even leave my room ever again. I would like to...
    WalterKo WalterKo
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Mar 22

    Sometimes I wonder what life is about,

    then I think of you and I know.
    LosingHope24 LosingHope24
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 29

    Why isn't this easy, I thought I could force

    myself to cope but I can't. Can't do this for much longer, I really want to go, so badly, I just don't have the guts, someone please help me. If I jump into ice cold seawater from a height how will it feel? Will the shock paralyse me enough to make it painless or will it be...
    LosingHope24 LosingHope24
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Mar 22

    the saddest part about suicide.

    No one truly cares about what the person is going through, or what it's doing to them, until after they have killed themselves.
    yomirizer yomirizer
    26-30, M
    7 Responses Mar 6

    People's accomplishments make me sick,

    especially when I will accomplish probably nothing but being a first suicide in my family tree in decades.
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 22
    WhoseMe WhoseMe
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 5, 2015

    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

    I cannot do it. I cannot.

    I feel so miserable, I don't know what is the meaning of life. Everyone is fake, they cannot love, everything is temporary, we are temporary. What's the point to live in this cruel world to suffer?
    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 26

    your life is your life don't let it be clubbed

    into dank submission. be on the watch. there are ways out. there is a light somewhere. it may not be much light but it beats the darkness. be on the watch. the gods will offer you chances. know them. take them. you can't beat death but you can beat death in life, sometimes. and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 16

    it hurts so much watching the person you love

    drifting away, everday I can see her loving me less and less, and there's nothing I can do to stop it, if I lose her I don't know what im gunna do.
    someoneelsee someoneelsee
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 15

    :( Thought crossed my mind again today.

    I'm exhausted. Tired of how I am ...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    I want this pain to stop.

    I want to fall asleep and never wake up.
    MakishimaShougo MakishimaShougo
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    This is a video I relate to

    so much from my recovery of having a mood disorder (though not bipolar). I really have come to see so-called mental illness is not an illness, but a different form of operating system for the mind, and that someone like us needs to be reminded that this is a gift, because if it...
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 22
    Jaderuby Jaderuby
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    Sometimes I wish I could be like normal people

    and get caught up in this life. I see so many people involved in so many different things, tv shows, lifestyles, jobs, etc. The thing with me is that I can get caught up but only for so long, then I become bored and uninterested. I used to love taking pictures and cropping them...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 17

    I am so done with life.

    I almost killed myself last night. I almost stabbed myself but my dad saved men I don't have ANY true friends and some people from high school ditched me and wont even talk to me anymore. I live ON disability and still live at home because of my condition and violence temper. I...
    MissThickGirl MissThickGirl
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 3, 2015

    Nearly every day. How does one escape an

    emotionally abusive spouse? They turn the children against you, and take from you the very core of your self so that you don't even know who you are. Doubting yourself and your capabilities becomes second nature even though you carry on because the delicate little daughters...
    esohgee esohgee
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Jan 4

    I give up on my worthless existence.

    It is my time to go. I have thought about it for months and I have finally decided to move on with my plan. As I won't be leaving any impact on anyone (no friends or family), I wanted to make sure somebody knows, even when nobody cares. Goodbye friends, soo long.
    WalterKo WalterKo
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 9

    iv been fighting it for years.

    my family doesnt notice. my friends are tired of it. i should just get it over with and stop bothering everyone.
    crystal188 crystal188
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 25, 2015

    I don't know, I don't think I am trying to

    commit suicide today. I I am just so frustrated with feeling like this all the time, I am tired of people telling me I need help, I am not in a position to go get any right now. I am tired of waking up everyday. I am tired of living this life. Maybe, just maybe, I am trying to...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 18

    1035am I haven't slept.

    I've been thinking about killinf myself all night. Every day is a struggle and I'm losing hope each day. I cut myself instead to relieve all the pain.
    saveme26 saveme26
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 23

    To all who still think about suicide

    or have a depression. You don't have to be alone. we can be friends and I'll try to make you feel better and see the bright side of things. I hope you get well and never ever give up, alright? ^^,) respond here or pm me if you want to get in touch. Take care now. Have a nice...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    Apr 21

    All this time the most I've wanted is to die.

    To end it all. I can't stand it. Faking this smile day after day with that small hope I might actually feel it. But I never do. I just feel this want to make my heart stop beating. I don't see any point to this. Living. What's the point if you can't even enjoy it? I feel so weak...
    WondrousLeafi WondrousLeafi
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Apr 20

    Really want to commit suicide just keep getting

    scared and am unable to follow through. Just scared that it wont work and i'll just be in a lot of pain
    elizabethdd elizabethdd
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 10, 2015

    4/22 Earth day. Tomorrow I will be walking

    alone, along hwy 30 from Huntsville Texas going towards collage station. From there continuing on west towards heaven and home. Please come and find me... I want to hold you... forever... and we will never let go. No need for food anymore. No need to breath. Just to be...
    christydiablo christydiablo
    36-40, M
    Apr 21

    I'm not allowed to vent my feeling

    or they will remove me again
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 6, 2015

    Is suicide a valid option?

    I know it is the individuals right. But, I am also interested in your opinion on this matter. I understand that this can be a very sensitive subject matter. Lets suppose that someone have no friends or family. Not even one person who cares about him or her. Would you let that...
    WalterKo WalterKo
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Apr 1

    It's one of those things

    that should never really be taken lightly, and I don't know why I don't think of it with a lot of weight in my own situation. I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder. I'm depressed year-round, but it really gets PARTICULARLY sensitive and dark during the winter. Which is...
    Boulier Boulier
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 16

    Again suicidal thoughts running through my

    brain. Does the depression come and go? Ate a lot and want to die. I hate myself and i am so weak and stupid vulnerable girl.
    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 16

    I think about suicide many times a day.

    I cannot get out of bed. No job. No friends. Life sure sucks. I am better dead. But I'm too afraid of the act. :(
    lonelylifeindia lonelylifeindia
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Mar 28

    Well it is too bad i still have suicidal

    thoughts and i can not share my feelings anymore in EP. I am overly depressed and fighting but i am about to lose
    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 24

    my bf relapsed on opiates

    and my mom and grandpa are dying at the same time and i just want everything to stop i just want to find a time when everything seems alright and stop everything there. i dont want to be scared to wake up every morning i just want to rest, i just want to get off
    selkieteeth selkieteeth
    22-25, T
    2 Responses Mar 18
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