I Think About Suicide

I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for over 12 years. It began when I was around 16 so I'm now 28. I'm close to finally finishing college but I've been plagued by apathy. It's difficult to have the motivation and energy to...

I think about suicide, most of the time, watching people around me smile and laugh, Joke about Everything when even a real smile for me is a huge effort.
One day things gone to far, my thoughts about suicide became more than a thought...

I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down...

For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school...

Everywhere. It's everwhere. Spilling... It festers from the past, the smelly odor of reeking havoc upon everyone. It follows me.. And latches onto my ankle to never leave... It's toxic. It kills everyone around me.. At all the wrong of...

I am feeling so overwhelmed.....

I don't know how to... feel. How do you be a nice person? How do you relate to others? How do you get others to like you... to love you? How do you feel grateful? How do you keep loving someone...

I was out of town on a project for work with a few coworkers.  The day started out fine but depression, loneness, and thoughts of suicide crept into my head.  This had happened in years past but instead of being separated by months it...

I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's...

From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in the river.I changed alot since then, I am 21 now and see things in a whole new...

The bullying in 7th grade triggered these thoughts, and they have not gone away. I have depression, and random times of sadness where I overthink things. Such as, I think people hate me, that I annoy them, etc. Sometimes I think I was...

But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal.

Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.

i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i...

AS THE TIME NEARS 
 
The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears.
And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.
 
 
I write the note and place it on the door.
Notifying all they...

Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant fuck who can't do anything right.  I've only...

I think bout suicide alot. I had a bad past where i was raped abused molested and thrown around in DSS. I have had a dozen guys lynch me and rape me at one time. I have been raped by my stepdad. I have no family that cares anything bout...