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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,696 People

    I do think about it every day.

    Even now, I have it all planned out in my head. How I'm going to do it, when, where, how long it will take. And I want to, but somewhere inside me there's this hope, hope that someone will come and save me from myself before it's too late. And prevent me from thinking about it...
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I can't kill myself because I don't want to

    ruin my little brother's life. But I can't live like this anymore. Everyday is a living hell to me, and I constantly wish for death from natural causes of some sort. The only thing I look forward to everyday of my life is sleeping at night- where I am out of this ****** world...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    AnxiousAndAlone AnxiousAndAlone 26-30, M Aug 19

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    I'm taking 20 credit hours (technically 18.

    5 hours of regular classes and 9 hours in Marching Band, so 27.5 hours in class every week) and I'm worried that sticking with this schedule is going to trigger more suicidal thoughts. I spend a lot of time thinking about death, but I don't want that to be my excuse for dropping...
    A0129 A0129 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I want to die. I can't handle it anymore.

    I just don't know how. I can't leave a mess for someone else to clean up and I want it to actually work this time. someone please tell me how.
    sweettlc sweettlc 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    Cold hard truth. Cutting tendencies

    since i was 6, anti social behavior since i can remember but i know i had emotion at one point. It was during the period that the other anti social behaviors emerged, that i contemplated suicide. you can say your going to do it, cut yourself and cry for attention and tell...
    krowbar krowbar 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    I have been thinking about it

    for years now.... I don't know how to get out of the mindset every time one thing is going good in life another goes bad.. it stems from a lot of childhood **** once one thing goes bad all my inner demons come back... I already have it completely planned out if I ever decide...
    hiddenuser187 hiddenuser187 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I wish I would just not wake up anymore.

    I am far too much of a chicken to take action anymore.
    fitmom808 fitmom808 41-45, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    Do you think if i go to dangerous places is it

    gonna add up the chances of me to die? But still scared to be raped cause i am a girl. I want to die in my bed but i am a coward to suicide,
    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I just want to die. I can't take this horrid

    life anymore. What's the point? I'm useless. This is useless.
    Searchingforanswers5789 Searchingforanswers5789 18-21, F 24 Responses Aug 24

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    saying to yourself one more day only works

    if at least one small part of your life shows any kind of improvement. why not today?
    adzmay adzmay 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 18 Responses May 7, 2010

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    I recently started college

    and my parents are pressuring me to get a 4.0 GPA because my University's nursing program is very competitive. Like most people, I don't do very well under a lot of pressure. I'm afraid of not reaching a 4.0 and disappointing my parents. Sometimes whenever I'm driving to school...
    Morzz Morzz 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I haven't tried to end my life in a while

    and i don't plan on it.that being said i don't think i can give up on suicide entirely when youve been in the hospital as many times as i have for this and it's got to the point were it's a habit to try suicide you cant simply just call it quits because bad habits are hard to...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 5

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I want to end it now.

    .. I can't handle it anymore...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    Unfortunately, I do. More times

    than not. By, the time I was 18, I had "succeeded" 8 times. As, of now, I am almost 27 years old now, and I've only contemplated it about 3-4 times since 18. I'm grateful that I did not fail at life. Think what you want, but that's the way I see it.
    BelievingButterfly BelievingButterfly 26-30, F 22 hrs ago

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    Feeling super lonely.

    I just want people to like me, I think I'm a good person yet it still isn't good enough!
    NicoleeBearx28 NicoleeBearx28 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I think about suicide often,

    though just now have I thought of attempting something a little serious. I find myself considering buying certain pills or liquids to overdose with. Sure it's a low success rate but if it does work it won't be that painful or bloody. I know, it's a stupid thing to say...
    aeinhardt aeinhardt 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm at a new low. Is it

    even a question anymore ??
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses May 13

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    BonnieParker2607 BonnieParker2607 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    I just want it to stop.

    Make it stop.
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I think when my depression first started a

    couple of years ago is when my faith began to diminish. People with a strong sense of faith handle depression a lot better I think. They know they can come out of it and they know there will be help. For me... I'm just lost. I don't get life right now; it's like I'm in a...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    it's good to know there's other people

    that knows how it feels to not wanna be alive anymore has anyone ever tired the suicide prevention hotline like the 1-800 number ? I honestly don't even wanna talk to any one about it sometimes cause I feel like they won't understand or laugh about it. or say I'm just doing it...
    lovermaker21 lovermaker21 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I want to die right now I want to go on an

    adventure I no longer wish to live on this earth
    whateverfam whateverfam 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I really like this app.

    I wish i explored this app before 6 months or 8 months so I wouldn't do my biggest mistake. I would be asking and consulting with you guys damn
    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman 26-30, F Aug 22

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    Its not so much that I think about suicide

    rather just wanting out of this endless tirade that is called life. In a very general sense life is stupid, you are born just to die and all this crap in between, they call it life. I just wonder what is it all for. I mean if I were working towards something other than death...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 2 Responses May 1

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    I really want to end my life peacefully,

    I do not see the point. I want some partners to discuss the method options and procurement of things necessary. Do message me if someone would like to help.
    fulkfulk1 fulkfulk1 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 21

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    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I always want to die.

    In 2012, rumour said the world was going to end on 21st of December. When everyone was fussed about it, I expected its come. As I had no idea to have a good future so all I wanted was just ending my life. Unfortunately it just didn't come true. So then I prayed it would be my...
    Suthysloth Suthysloth 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    Thinking on using a shotgun to blow my head off.

    I hate my family to the point I don't care if my corpse traumatize them. Well, atleast fallout 4 is coming out.
    irishhen irishhen 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 27

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    I really got fed up, nothing working,

    no one seems to care, even if I died they won't notice. I tried before but I didn't succeed but perhaps tonight is the night.
    Redinpain Redinpain 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I feel so hated by everyone at home

    and at work. They've finay realized after a few years that i am extremely unhappy for along time. They say stupid things like "its just a thing / life isnt always happy. I know it isnt always happy, but i never get that Little Bit im expect. Now they look down on me, treat me...
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 3 Responses May 11

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    Sometimes I walk down this dark path of despair

    and sadness. I wonder if I will be pulled from this dark path into the light but that is not gonna happen to me anytime soon. All I do is **** up friendships and relationships. That's why I guess I'm always in the friend zone. If I kill myself will this make the people that hate...
    Dominantslavefucker Dominantslavefucker 22-25, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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    I can't drive down the road without fantasizing

    about driving my car into a tree or something in hopes that it'll kill me. I don't trust myself at all anymore.
    sweettlc sweettlc 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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