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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,320 People

    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 18-21, M 406 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M a week ago

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    I don't want to lose.

    I need to keep going. Stop making me think about suicide (note to self) I need to keep going. I want to be able to see if things do get better.
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I am so tired of feeling miserable all the time.

    I have a beautiful son who i love more than life itself, a husband who loves me (but doesn't really help, sometimes he is mean bc he can't understand why i am the way i am), my parents are so supportive of me and most of the choices i have made so far, everyone complements how...
    jandn1873 jandn1873 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I have very strong intrusive suicidal thoughts.

    I've had this most of my life. I'm getting help because I don't want to die; I choose life. I'm currently seeking out support people and groups.
    suzannenderekh suzannenderekh 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    So I don't know what I want to do.

    I dont want to kill myself but I dont want to be around. I feel like everything I do causes a problem for those around me, I feel like I am a terrible burden, I have absolutely no self worth, I have no drive to do anything. I know killing myself isn't the answer and besides I...
    SumireLythrum SumireLythrum 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    Day after day, night

    after night it follows me like a shadow. Silently stalking. All I want it some peace. I am exhausted. So tired of the crap life has handed me. From the start things were never easy but I handled it. Lately, however, it seems like I just can't keep it together and I want out. I...
    js246 js246 22-25 Feb 24

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    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    katielovespeeingherpants katielovespeeingherpants 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    How can I sit here with a straight face

    and think rationally about killing myself.
    dinosaurlovesongs dinosaurlovesongs 22-25, M a week ago

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    bas001 bas001 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 2

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    Every day I think about suicide just don't know

    why I haven't gone through with it yet
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    Darkness is hard to go up against,

    especially when it consumes you. It turns all the positivity into negativity. It puts out every light. And at the end of the tunnel there's no light, there's a hole you fall into. And you take years to climb back up, until something or someone comes along and kicks you off the...
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 3

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    From a Friend....

    Hey you- tell me what has got you down. There’s no need to cry or wear that frown.   You dont have to commit suicide Because I will be by your side. I’ve been there and I understand you Lean on me and I’ll carry you through. I’m not going...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    Yes, I think about it.

    I'm thinking about it right now. I can almost feel the steel against my skin. The blood flowing out of my veins. I can see it happening. And no one will know until dinner the next day.
    Mordacai Mordacai 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I have been a transgender female

    for many years now and ive always been alone and scared to do anything about it, at the same time i've always been scared to kill myself, until now. I feel like i will any day now if I dont transition but im absolutely clueless where to start. I also live alone with my mother...
    TSerenity TSerenity 26-30, T 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    For years, many many years I have thought about

    suicide nearly everyday. I don't remember a day I haven't thought about it. When I was younger I would look at a length of rope or I'd find a rattler or a moccasin in the woods and think, "This could end it pretty soon." I always had a knife that I kept sharp. I would just hold...
    LifeIsBeatingMe LifeIsBeatingMe 26-30, M 5 Responses Feb 14

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    No Prince Charming Came to Save Me

    I have been through so much, and the only person who came to help me was me. If I didn't do it, it didn't get done. I've tried killing myself before, and those feelings are coming back. My body was too strong and I woke up, no one came to my aide. I'm tired of being nice to...
    Readerblackchic Readerblackchic 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2009

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    I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.

    I don't know what people like about me. There's that one saying of "You shouldn't care what people think about you because it's about you and what you want" or "This isn't about them. It's about you". Should I agree? I don't want to hurt anyone, even though I know I already have...
    JK7448 JK7448 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Trying to Cope

    It was Dec 11 2006 when my life was turned upside down. I was injured at work. Since then I have been treated like a liar, my friends form work have stopped calling, I'm in pain 24/7 and the Workers Comp and Social Security system has striped me of all dignity and made me...
    HurtAtWork HurtAtWork 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 12, 2007

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    Bipolar Freak

    dduuhhh!! Have tried on more than one occasion but never completed the task. Scared I guess, young perhaps, but I think if/when I get to that point again that I won't be afraid anymore. I've come to grips with it and promised myself that if I do hit THAT low, that place of no...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Sep 22, 2007

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    What id i just ended it all?

    No one would probably be phase, maybe happy even. Maybe i should
    Crawfdawg95 Crawfdawg95 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm 30. I live alone.

    But yet my parents control me. I can't drink, self harm or see my husband. I have a mental illness, I have been in hospital many times. My parents threaten to take legal action and use it against me if I do any of the mentioned above. This is why I want to die. I am unhappy...
    sarahk85 sarahk85 26-30, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Tonight's the first time

    where I don't care if I love anymore.
    IllusionaryGentleman39 IllusionaryGentleman39 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 19 Responses May 7, 2010

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    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica in April... Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... I am 47 years old male ... If you want we can discuss further... you can directly contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com.. Is there any company...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    it's good to know there's other people

    that knows how it feels to not wanna be alive anymore has anyone ever tired the suicide prevention hotline like the 1-800 number ? I honestly don't even wanna talk to any one about it sometimes cause I feel like they won't understand or laugh about it. or say I'm just doing it...
    lovermaker21 lovermaker21 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    I am miserable. I can't go on like this.

    I don't want to eat or sleep. I don't know where to go from here. I just want to die.
    Tiffanyportelli Tiffanyportelli 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    Sweetgirl41 Sweetgirl41 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 1 day ago

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    My so called friends in my real life don't care

    anything about me. How am I supposed to make it alone? Day after day with no support. A solitude life. I just want to end all my pain right now.
    Sweetgirl41 Sweetgirl41 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 12

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    I am pregnant. 27 weeks.

    Thought I was happy about it but as time has gone on I feel indifferent to the bump. No connection to it. I think it is going to make life harder. I think I'm going to be more stressed than usual. I have a long history of depression and suicidal thinking. I am medicated. Have...
    abouttosnap abouttosnap 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    srhmc srhmc 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    Let's gatecrash gods party,

    I wanna ask the big fella what exactly his plan was for me. everybody accomplishes something in their life so why not me? fact is I have a life less ordinary and since it's no stage production there's no chance to put the wrongs right tomorrow. there's no pause or rewind, just...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I'm 31, single, never been in a relationship,

    no kids, only friends I have are at work. Had the same job since I was 20. 10 years ago I tried to end my life twice, both by overdose. I thought I was better and not had bad thoughts for several years. I don't feel depressed like I did then but still think about ending my life...
    trayas83 trayas83 31-35, M Mar 14

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    I don't know whats wrong with me.

    Sometimes I can't even get out of the bed. I try to look at the bright side of things but its hard an I can't.
    arestlesssoul arestlesssoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7