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I Think About Suicide

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    A Response To Therealwoman - Nothing I have ever read on EP -- not even badly-disguised kiddie **** by paedophiles -- has triggered or upset me as much as the story which...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 41 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong - Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    Unwelcomed - I have already told my story a couple of times and im not sure if someone has read the last one I wrote in this group..it's been 3 months since I moved to another city...
    Monicalaguapa Monicalaguapa 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    A Coward's Indulgence - All the meds did was make me realize that I’m still in the EXACT ******* place I was 3 years ago, albeit in a different (lesser) school and with less hair...
    SirMugatu SirMugatu 22-25, M Oct 27, 2012

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!) - The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    I Give Free Theripe On Ep - You can ask me anything just look up I give free Theripe on ep
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 18-21, M Oct 12, 2012

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    There Is No Point - It breaks my heart, but I see no point in going on. Bye, you all, yes ALL have been great. Great for laughs, cries, support and be supported. But it really...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    I Can't Get Away From It. - I was 9 when I first found out what suicide is.  My mom slit her wrists but she didn't go deep enough and just wound up in a mental hospital. ...
    CandyTeeth CandyTeeth 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2007

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    I still think killing myself in the future is still within the realm of reason.
    Thomasjcox Thomasjcox 18-21, M Feb 18

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    Thinking, Not Doing. - I've been in a moderate to severe depressive state for over a month now, the really debilitating half of the bipolar spectrum. It isn't like going to go...
    SensiStar3 SensiStar3 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2012

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    Loss And Pain -   Eight years ago I had to take a medical retirement from teaching. I loved teaching so it was a great loss.  The Global Neurological Damage has caused...
    Dewduster Dewduster 66-70, M 3 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    I Just Want To Be Free Of It - I am feeling so overwhelmed..... I don't know how to... feel. How do you be a nice person? How do you relate to others? How do you get others to...
    stillthinkingofyou stillthinkingofyou 22-25, F Apr 5, 2013

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    From a Friend.... - Hey you- tell me what has got you down. There’s no need to cry or wear that frown.   You dont have to commit suicide Because I will be by your...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I Want To End My Life So Bad It Hurts - Im a college student, I never really wanted to go but I wanted to make my mother proud of me. For me... I hate myself so muchhh because...
    markiejean markiejean 18-21, F Oct 19, 2013

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    Hi Basically im from North Karnataka. I completed BE MBA with better family background. Now i'm 29yrs old working as a Manager in one of MNC Bangalore with handsome salary. I loved...
    manjuanthjm manjuanthjm 26-30, M Feb 20

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    Tired - I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes.. - i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 20 Responses May 7, 2010

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    Bipolar Freak - dduuhhh!! Have tried on more than one occasion but never completed the task. Scared I guess, young perhaps, but I think if/when I get to that point again that I won...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Sep 22, 2007

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    Im Not Think About Death I Love Me Even More - I haven't been cured but i have a solution a very small one i need to build but ive gotten a small collection that gets me off and by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 5, 2013

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    Back And Fourth - I have been really depressed for the last year. I have thought about suicide in the past, but its never been this strong. I look up ways to kills myself...
    boo864 boo864 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    4 My Friend - As you know when I get upset I write and this is the poem on my heart after our conversation. It saddens me that you would give up so easily but I want you to know...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 10 Responses Dec 4, 2009

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    Life's Just Not Worth It Anymore. - All my life things have been bad. I'm a Christian so I keep thinking things will get better and God will deliver me but things just keep getting...
    joyelle00 joyelle00 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2013

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide - Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get...
    Alejandro Alejandro 19-21, M 388 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    The Long Blackened Walk - I wrote this letter a while ago but I am sharing in hopes that others will seek help and know that they can move forward one step at a time. I still feel...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Sep 6, 2009

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    I Hate My Life - I have ever since I was 12 and my life was ruined by my step-father. For a couple of years now I've been wanting to kill myself, even more so now that I can't go...
    Chiazu Chiazu 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2009

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    I Give Free Theripe On Ep - You can ask me anything I can help you with anything just look up I give free Theripe on ep
    Mike12322xx Mike12322xx 18-21, M Oct 12, 2012

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    Im Not Think About Death I Love Me Even More - I haven't been cured but i have a solution a very small one i need to build but ive gotten a small collection that gets me off and by...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 4, 2013

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    Today Is The Day I Will Be Commiting Suicide - I am so sick of my life. today I will be eating a bunch of oleander leaves to commit suicide. I'm sick of people not having enough...
    AconiteOleanderEater AconiteOleanderEater 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2010

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    Suicide Hotline - Suicide hotline, are you in crisis? I think so. I made the call. Are you alone? Quite. Have you harmed yourself? You  mean like, is there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    I Want To Die - I'm 20 years old and I wish I could just die.... everyday I'm thinking of new ways to die but I just don't have the strength to do the final blow so I just stay...
    mitsos8 mitsos8 18-21, M Aug 19, 2013

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    Many times I've thought about it and how I'd finish it off. Not that I would but sadly it creeps in more and more with everyday life and thoughts. Everyone says it the easy way...
    LittleRose23 LittleRose23 36-40, T 4 Responses Apr 6

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    From Someone Who's Been There... -    For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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    I Think About Suicide - But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    Sometimes... - Yes I do sometimes, but **** that ****. I'm not a coward and I am going to face my problems head on. Coming out with my Guns blazing and ****.   My *** isn't...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    About Facing Your Demons - From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2008

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    Trying to Cope - It was Dec 11 2006 when my life was turned upside down. I was injured at work. Since then I have been treated like a liar, my friends form work have stopped...
    HurtAtWork HurtAtWork 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 12, 2007

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    I Am Such A Mess, I Don'T Even Know - The bullying in 7th grade triggered these thoughts, and they have not gone away. I have depression, and random times of sadness where I...
    CassiaDream CassiaDream 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2013

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    I Used To Alot - i used to always think about doing it just taking a knife and slicing my throat and ending it all so easy, but then right when i couldnt take it anymore and was...
    bnana666 bnana666 18-21 Dec 28, 2012

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    I Feel Bad* - I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    Go Away - I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    The Basket Case's Lament - I'm a failure in every definition of the word. Everything I do goes wrong, no matter what it is. I have little to no social skills and no discernible...
    Patronusmagic Patronusmagic 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2013

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    Pls Read This If You Care About People Who Think Of Suicide - This article by Paul Steinburg, a psychiatrist and a former director of the counseling and psychiatric service at...
    AndrewPenney AndrewPenney 41-45 10 Responses Dec 12, 2009

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    The Only Reason Why I Havent - ... Is because of my girlfriend. I know that if I do, she will think it wad her fault and would start to cut and eventually commit suicide also. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    A Poem For the Dying.... -   AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share... -  This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    On Multiple Occasions. - I think bout suicide alot. I had a bad past where i was raped abused molested and thrown around in DSS. I have had a dozen guys lynch me and rape me at one...
    kinkyjunebug13185 kinkyjunebug13185 26-30, M Apr 6, 2013

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils -  Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    All I Do Is Cause Trouble. - Everywhere. It's everwhere. Spilling... It festers from the past, the smelly odor of reeking havoc upon everyone. It follows me.. And latches onto my...
    JeuneCirque JeuneCirque 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2012

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    A Wall. - Every time I think I may have something figured out, a course of action, a way to better my life, the negative voices scream at me until I pick apart and destroy the idea...
    SanguineDreams SanguineDreams 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2012

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    I'm Dead In Life - I'm 15 years old an I already think I've lived enough,I hate all the changes I have had in my life recently, I'm very proud of being Mexican and I just moved to...
    Monicalaguapa Monicalaguapa 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2012

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