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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,597 People

    why I'm so **** so stupid

    why I can't let her alone why I always try talk to her even she want her free room now I should kill me go get a knife and cut my hands that I don't bolder her more I just love her so much I can't live without her I need she I miss her so much ;-; ;-; ;-;
    jassikitty jassikitty 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    why is it that I find out more stuff about me

    and I just want to end it? It's like I'm the one always wrong. I'm just done with everything. and I find this out during therapy and I didn't say anything. just me being silent as always...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    Moved to Ca after 1 month my wife of 10 years

    had an affair and is now pregnant. We are no longer together but I'm so lost I've lost my family my wife my daughter there's so much more 2 this story.. I'm just sick of feeling empty being alone and all the lies.
    Suriyan13 Suriyan13 41-45, M Jul 6

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    I have always wanted to die,

    since I was a kid. I fantasise about how to do it, how to make it somewhat beautiful even~ at what time of the night to do it~ whether it be a full moon or a stormy evening~ and I'm dressed in a long white gown and jump off the cliff of an ocean somewhere~ let the ocean take me...
    immortellecapture immortellecapture 31-35, F 8 Responses May 5

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 18-21, M 416 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    About Facing Your Demons

    From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in the river.I changed alot since then, I am 21 now and see things in a whole new light.The diference is that my old demons never...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2008

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    I can't drive down the road without fantasizing

    about driving my car into a tree or something in hopes that it'll kill me. I don't trust myself at all anymore.
    sweettlc sweettlc 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    211 is a phone number you can dial

    wherever you live to talk to someone if you're thinking of committing suicide or having other problems. I used to volunteer at the local 211 where I live. They can also help to give you references to mental health services or other resources you may need.
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I've been feeling incredibly unhappy &

    rather empty inside. The thought of suicide has started to creep in. Fortunately, I speak to my therapist tomorrow, online... Still, I wish this mental fog will leave me. I know killing myself will really hurt my mom, but... I don't know what to do.
    k4rri3w0lf12 k4rri3w0lf12 26-30, T 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I was only a child when I started to fantasize

    about suicide. Whenever I felt overwhelmed I would think about ending my life and it would bring about a calming effect on me. As the years went on I would go through bouts where I wouldn't think about it as much, mainly because I tried very hard to push it to the back of my...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    How could death be worse then living in this

    world. This age of technology. This world that's supposed to be more connected through computers and mobile devices when actually it couldn't be more disconnected. Is it social networking sites that's suppose to connect us? The only thing those websites are good for is peoples...
    bfsd150 bfsd150 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I would never do it! But I hate

    that I think about it so much....I should be happy.
    L0ST1 L0ST1 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I'm thinking about suicide right now

    and how much better I would be dead. I just feel as if I should kill myself. People would be better off without me and wouldn't miss me. I'm just done with stress and being depressed all the time. I want it to all go away and if I do it, it will. Permanently.
    lgbtprideeee lgbtprideeee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    On Saturday I spent the day with a girl

    who actually likes me, a girl who actually made me feel happy for the first time in years... Saturday night was also the closest I've ever been to killing myself, I didn't understand at the time but I think now that it was because I've finally seen what I was missing and now I...
    trashleigh trashleigh 18-21, M Jun 29

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I just want it to stop.

    Make it stop.
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I think when my depression first started a

    couple of years ago is when my faith began to diminish. People with a strong sense of faith handle depression a lot better I think. They know they can come out of it and they know there will be help. For me... I'm just lost. I don't get life right now; it's like I'm in a...
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917 18-21, F Jul 19

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    I can't kill myself because I don't want to

    ruin my little brother's life. But I can't live like this anymore. Everyday is a living hell to me, and I constantly wish for death from natural causes of some sort. The only thing I look forward to everyday of my life is sleeping at night- where I am out of this ****** world...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16

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    Senior year of High School dragged on.

    My friends were terrible. I mean, for my Senior Project in my Theater Class, I formed a group with my two ex-friends Daniela and Sophia and I basically made the whole play. From the writing to the movements to the costumes. You know what I wrote about? Depression and suicide...
    sabertigersab sabertigersab 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    Even though I would never kill my self I die a

    little bit every day on the inside
    L0ST1 L0ST1 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I wish I was dead. I wish I had the strength to

    do it myself, but I don't. I pray that something happens to me everyday. I feel empty alone numb.
    trhsmh trhsmh 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    A helpful quote posted

    as a picture is here.
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M 10 hrs ago

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    Yea..

    It's wrong yea, but it's eternal relief... nothing really else to say..
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2013

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Why is it that my brain is killing me.

    ..???? constant thoughts. so exhausted... sorry everyone. I had a great night last night and it's been awhile since I was so happy. woke up this morning and it seemed like last night didn't happen...back to feeling like I have been depressed and still getting these horrible...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 6

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    Sometimes I feel like my job stresses me out to

    no end and I want to take something cold or sharp and ending it all because I've already failed my own life
    Thelonelyasian Thelonelyasian 22-25, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm so depressed lately

    that when I'm upset I don't even cry anymore
    Lonelygirl517 Lonelygirl517 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    i feel like theres nothing left

    for me in life . i got clean of a 10 yr heroin addiction, but still am a0 worthless stupid junkie no matter what i do. someone i love dearly calls me that,but its true tho : (? all ive ever wanted was a loving and caring family or at least 1 best friend that would be there for...
    foxyoxy123 foxyoxy123 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I think it is my best option to escape this life

    that I no longer want to live.
    MentalDarkness MentalDarkness 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 18

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    I don't know whats wrong with me.

    Sometimes I can't even get out of the bed. I try to look at the bright side of things but its hard an I can't.
    arestlesssoul arestlesssoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I'm a 34m, with serious depression.

    I have aspbergers autism and I make social mistakes all the time. I've worked very hard and with my parents support got my Bachelors degree in Nursing. I spent 7 years getting that degree and with my depression and difficult concentrating I struggled so so hard. I spent $34000...
    solitas777 solitas777 26-30 1 day ago

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    There were the small things.

    Being talked OVER and not TO. Being pushed to be the third wheel. Being used by my (now former) friends. Then there were the big things. The things that meant something like a shot through the heart. Theater class. Another Senior Project assignment was required. It was the...
    sabertigersab sabertigersab 18-21, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    For years, many many years I have thought about

    suicide nearly everyday. I don't remember a day I haven't thought about it. When I was younger I would look at a length of rope or I'd find a rattler or a moccasin in the woods and think, "This could end it pretty soon." I always had a knife that I kept sharp. I would just hold...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Feb 14

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 18 Responses May 7, 2010

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    Yes, I think about it.

    I'm thinking about it right now. I can almost feel the steel against my skin. The blood flowing out of my veins. I can see it happening. And no one will know until dinner the next day.
    Mordacai Mordacai 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I want to help others going through what I am

    going through. I have been struggling with mental illness and suicidal thoughts for years. I have social anxiety, so even going to therapy is stressful to me. I found a lot of ways to help me cope with my feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that are completely free, and...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30

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