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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,056 People

    Let's face it, I don't have any real friend

    and I dont see a purpose in my life. I am always surrounded by annoying as duck people that always have the good life. I was put on this earth in prepared and with flaws that made it seem impossible that I survived. I always try to make it like the last thing I am doing and yet...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 15

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    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    The thought has crossed my mind before

    but i feel i would never do it just because it would be too much of a hassle for my family. But if i really could do it with all my loose ends tied, i would. times like this when i feel down , is when i wouldnt mind doing it.
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    lately I consider leaving more often

    than not. I've had a miserable year, I hate the way I look, I hate that I have no one who shares my passion in anything. I hate that I'm so negative and that I try to change but my efforts go unnoticed, instead I'm annoying people close to me for even existing. I'm too afraid I...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 16

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    I've never thought about killing myself

    as much as I do now. I feel like there's no way to get around the fact that not a person around me believe anything positive about me. I don't understand why it's okay to tell me everything that I do wrong and every wrong thing about my character... I feel beat down I feel...
    wtftodo51 wtftodo51 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    Bipolar Freak

    dduuhhh!! Have tried on more than one occasion but never completed the task. Scared I guess, young perhaps, but I think if/when I get to that point again that I won't be afraid anymore. I've come to grips with it and promised myself that if I do hit THAT low, that place of no...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Sep 22, 2007

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    I really hate to be that person

    who comes across as an attention seeker. I'm far from it. But I have nobody to talk to and I'm so close to doing this... I figured someone should know
    xlovelykittyx xlovelykittyx 18-21, F Nov 15

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    Have already tried, guess wasn't the right time.

    But it really seems the only solution sometimes..
    everybodywantshappiness everybodywantshappiness 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    I think about this every single day.

    I'm broken-hearted and I don't think there's a point for me to live any longer. But does it worth it? Sacrificing my life for the sake of people who don't even love you or care bout you? After you die, he barely even know you already gone. I won't allow love to take me out that...
    TheLonelyDude TheLonelyDude 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 7

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    The Only Reason Why I Havent

    ... Is because of my girlfriend. I know that if I do, she will think it wad her fault and would start to cut and eventually commit suicide also. I have cut before, and I hurt people because of it. Back to suicide. I have tried to a few times, but chickened out before I did. AKA I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    I have struggled with depression

    for upwards of 5 years now. It comes and goes, sometimes I can go for weeks without feeling especially down, but once it starts again, it doesn't go away for months on end. Each day seems to get progressively worse, and it becomes harder and harder to pull myself out of bed in...
    meandthemoon13 meandthemoon13 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Lately I've been thinking suicidal thoughts

    but don't try to attempt it is there something wrong with me?
    SuicideMascara SuicideMascara 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I think about suicide a disturbing amount.

    It's ****** up because I can still remember a time when it never crossed my mind. I remember being a little kid and being so happy, worry free. I would have been so sad as a child if I saw the person I would grow up to be. Somebody who never stops worrying, somebody who would...
    WhyUgh WhyUgh 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 9

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I think about it pretty much daily.

    Like I think most teens do, except meow I'm 21. Although I never talk about it with Anyone in person or online. The first time I wanted to talk about it online, a few days later the opp emailed me and then found the hotel I was at the time and forcibly came into my room and...
    JessicaCD20 JessicaCD20 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 14

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    From a Friend....

    Hey you- tell me what has got you down. There’s no need to cry or wear that frown.   You dont have to commit suicide Because I will be by your side. I’ve been there and I understand you Lean on me and I’ll carry you through. I’m not going...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I am going to do it, I don't see the point

    anymore since I put my trust in my friends and they killed my trust. I should of known they would never believe me and now they left me. I tried, this means my life, and they abandon me... so what's the point if I fail. This meant my life and I know its going to end bad. I give...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's The Confusion Of It All

    I have been thinking about suicide of a while now. I lie in bed listening to songs like "mad world" and "fade to black" and think about the beauty of death, the beauty of my death. I see now that that was just a coping mechanism, it helped thinking about an alternative ...
    astrix37 astrix37 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2010

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    Right now I am a freshman in college.

    I've never had a girlfriend but I am trying. This one girl hugged me after helping her with a lab report all night! I am a Biology major and doing Pre-med. I'm literally going into the third month of a college life and my depression becomes exponentially worse each day. I failed...
    solotuv solotuv 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 2

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I'm thinking it right now.

    I feel as if nothing is good anymore. That I should just curl up and die. It's not like anyone would miss me.
    dracobane dracobane 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 15

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    Back And Fourth

    I have been really depressed for the last year. I have thought about suicide in the past, but its never been this strong. I look up ways to kills myself completing what is the best method. I keep going back and fourth do I really want to kill myself? If this would get better I...
    boo864 boo864 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 19 Responses May 7, 2010

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 9

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    I am in a suicidal period of my life

    and I can't get it out of my head. I am in my mid-forties am the happy father of a 12 year old boy and an unhappy husband of a wife who love me very much. I also am in the process of a career setback at work. The weight of this is crushing me right now and I hate feeling this...
    seftomsic seftomsic 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 8

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    I Hate My Life

    I have ever since I was 12 and my life was ruined by my step-father. For a couple of years now I've been wanting to kill myself, even more so now that I can't go to college or get a job. It wouldn't be hard either. My mom has some painkillers that I could take. I can just fall...
    Chiazu Chiazu 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2009

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    I don't know what else to say.

    I tried to kill myself last weekend but someone walked in on me. I just want someone to talk to but I'm too embarrassed to speak to anyone who knows me personally...
    sunpope sunpope 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 6

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    i feel something is wrong with me.

    .. this dreams and the fear go out or meat ppl ....... if someone want talk with me i will be thankfull
    jassikitty jassikitty 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    About Facing Your Demons

    From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in the river.I changed alot since then, I am 21 now and see things in a whole new light.The diference is that my old demons never...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2008

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Yea..

    It's wrong yea, but it's eternal relief... nothing really else to say..
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2013

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    Many times I've thought about it

    and how I'd finish it off. Not that I would but sadly it creeps in more and more with everyday life and thoughts. Everyone says it the easy way out but really how the **** would they know without knowing. I feel so lost in this world now and so alone , my ( partner gf ) it...
    LittleRose23 LittleRose23 36-40, T 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I put myself in ****** situations

    so often that I question my sanity and that in return makes me want to not be alive. I worry about insignificant things people don't even realize exist. when you can read inbetween the lines of everyday conversation, or so you think you can, is when suicide becomes more and more...
    MooreVandervale MooreVandervale 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 14

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    The Basket Case's Lament

    I'm a failure in every definition of the word. Everything I do goes wrong, no matter what it is. I have little to no social skills and no discernible talents. My friends aren't interested and I spend my time scouring the internet, trying to find ways to kill myself painlessly, or...
    Patronusmagic Patronusmagic 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16, 2013

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    Life's Just Not Worth It Anymore.

    All my life things have been bad. I'm a Christian so I keep thinking things will get better and God will deliver me but things just keep getting worse. I have hirsutism so I used to get picked on all the time at school until I became antisocial and dropped out. Now my whole...
    joyelle00 joyelle00 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2013

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    It Doesnt Work

    I've battling suicide since 5th grade. It's horrible. I used to cut to remind myself that i was alive..and then i got addicted to the feeling. lol... I've tried suicide 3 times..and still woke up ok later. No one knows except for my ex. and he's talked me out of it a few times...
    Vamp1416 Vamp1416 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 1, 2009

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 19-21, M 405 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I Can't Get Away From It.

    I was 9 when I first found out what suicide is.  My mom slit her wrists but she didn't go deep enough and just wound up in a mental hospital.  I hated her because I thought she didn't care about me anymore.  I didn't understand the depth of the matter. Around...
    CandyTeeth CandyTeeth 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2007

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    I Just Don't Know.

    Well, I don't know were to start.I don't have a bad life, I don't think I'm ugly, I know I'm not stupid, I have a mother and two sisters who love me very much.My dad walked out when I was 14 but this stuff happens, I have never thought of it ever since.I've never really had...
    n3gr0fi3r n3gr0fi3r 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    Trying to Cope

    It was Dec 11 2006 when my life was turned upside down. I was injured at work. Since then I have been treated like a liar, my friends form work have stopped calling, I'm in pain 24/7 and the Workers Comp and Social Security system has striped me of all dignity and made me...
    HurtAtWork HurtAtWork 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 12, 2007

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    I can't help it. I'm never good enough

    for the people around me and I'm just so tired of everything. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm to scared of what might happen.
    lmaddsl lmaddsl 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Life...

    this whole year has just been horrible since school started. i've lost so many of my good friends. i never really felt like i belonged here. i know i don't. i am so self concious about everything, i compare myself to people way to much and it makes me miserable. i try to stop but...
    sweetxheartxo sweetxheartxo 16-18, F 4 Responses Jan 13, 2008

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    Hi Basically im from North Karnataka.

    I completed BE MBA with better family background. Now i'm 29yrs old working as a Manager in one of MNC Bangalore with handsome salary. I loved one girl from 2006-10 but in 2010 we departed and i suffered like hell and i taken 1year time to come out and i decided to lead a single...
    manjuanthjm manjuanthjm 26-30, M Feb 20

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    I can't stop wanting to kill myself.

    It's all I think about. I've been hospitalized quite a few times. Almost once every month for the past year. I never leave feeling any better. I don't know how to stop it. I guess I just don't have enough willpower.
    SimiRayea SimiRayea 22-25, T 2 Responses Nov 9

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    I Hope This Helps Someone In This Group...

    Thinking about suicide is a human thought, pondered over more than we would like to think about for some people..but there is always hope.  After my accident [you can go to my stories to read the details of it], I thought many times about ending my life...what was I going...
    UnperfectAngel UnperfectAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2008

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