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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,051 People

    iv been fighting it for years.

    my family doesnt notice. my friends are tired of it. i should just get it over with and stop bothering everyone.
    crystal188 crystal188 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 25, 2015

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    When you're so depressed

    that hardly anything tastes good anymore.
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F Jan 24

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    Whether or not you, who ever is reading,

    believes in past lives I have struggled with memories of suicide and don't understand, and memories of the life I live now. All those times I never spoke up to take a stand for myself. Never saying enough is enough to people. Never expressing myself in fear of ridicule and...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    My life is falling apart.

    I can't do this no more. I don't want to. Worst part I'm pregnant, and regardless of how much I want to die, I can't do it now. My life is so very complicated, and I am hanging onto a thread. I want to die, I wanna cut, and starve myself. If I wasn't pregnant, I would be downing...
    dirtyxxxwhore dirtyxxxwhore 18-21 5 Responses Jan 16

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    Wel) i have tried overdosing hanging myself

    and cutting my wrists but i got caught everytime for me the easiest thing was overdosing or cutting my wrists but only if you have taken something like xanax or a valium to help you sleep last the sick feeli you get (atleast what i felt the first time i did it sober) anyways im...
    wichita316 wichita316 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I have lost count of the number of times i have

    been told i am "Selfish" I am selfish am i? Really? Oh i apologise how selfish of me to smile everytime i see you even though i just want to scream and cry how selfish of me to only cry in the shower because i don't want to upset those i care about i am so dreadfully apologetic...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I don't think I ever will kill myself.

    but oh God I think about it constantly. I was in a car wreck on new years eve. a few days later, my friend died. he was supposed to live. I should be dead. I don't want to die for my boyfriend's sake, but apart from that I really just want to eat a bullet 24/7. it's all I think...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 15

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    I am so done with life.

    I almost killed myself last night. I almost stabbed myself but my dad saved men I don't have ANY true friends and some people from high school ditched me and wont even talk to me anymore. I live ON disability and still live at home because of my condition and violence temper. I...
    MissThickGirl MissThickGirl 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    Suicide isn't about dying.

    I don't want to die. I want to feel alive. But I also want the pain to stop.
    DoneAnd0ver DoneAnd0ver 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    about everyday lately.

    Idk why there's so much I could feel happy about. I also still have very good days sometimes, the joy that gives me than lasts for about 2 days. There are a lot of good people on here who make me feel better as well. Still I have very low lows and thats so crazy. A few years...
    toughbaby toughbaby 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Been in bed for over a week

    as I can think of no reason to go on for another day. Haven't felt joy or happiness in for long I can't remember what it's like. I hope that by the time anyone has read this I will be gone for good.
    HReardon HReardon 56-60, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I so want to do it right now.

    I can't bear the thought of losing my mum to this ****** disease so soon after losing my step dad to it.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I'm not safe anymore.

    Why do I have to be like this?
    gt989 gt989 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Lately, my writing stints have been fan

    fictions of myself being thrown in a fictional universe with the power of immortality. My skeleton cannot break apart from itself, but I can feel all sorts of pain through my flesh. Being a humble person, I try to keep to myself and be noble when I can afford it, struggling to...
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F Jan 18

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    People's accomplishments make me sick,

    especially when I will accomplish probably nothing but being a first suicide in my family tree in decades.
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Ive been living with my partner

    for more than 7 years now. We have 3 boys under 5 years old and we met when i was 18. 3 years ago we found out he has an Asperger, type of autism. But i dont want to blame everything at it as he might also have a conflict in his personality. He has done a lot of abusive and...
    superkates superkates 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I am so ready for it to end.

    I have some arrangements to make regarding my children. then the time will be right. Finding out my husband that I loved so much cheated on me was the last heartbreak I could take. No one should be forced to live in this kind of torment. I only hope I can find the peace on the...
    nothingandno1 nothingandno1 31-35, F 24 Responses Jan 26

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    Why am I even living?

    Sometimes this world is just too cruel for the meek and nice people and the world just destroy us.
    Sajebeauty Sajebeauty 26-30, F Sep 28, 2015

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    Sometimes I feel this is the only choice I got

    really. I don't wanna die, I just want the pain to stop.
    LONELYGUY95 LONELYGUY95 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 25

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    i feel like theres nothing left

    for me in life . i got clean of a 10 yr heroin addiction, but still am a0 worthless stupid junkie no matter what i do. someone i love dearly calls me that,but its true tho : (? all ive ever wanted was a loving and caring family or at least 1 best friend that would be there for...
    foxyoxy123 foxyoxy123 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 6, 2015

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    Isn't it peculiar...

    when you already know or rather have a tiny sampler of the afterlife, if you had NDE... and still thinking of suicide. After 15 years of suicidal depression I think in this way... it is possible to quit, just any time any place, but then it looks like you aren't giving this...
    AmethystCluster AmethystCluster 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Disclaimer: I'm not actually going to commit

    suicide, this was just my thought process after I messed something up with someone I care for. I thought about suicide today, looked up on ways to do it, even though I knew of all of the ways to do it. Spent a good hour thinking how I could do it and succeed with ease. I live...
    EvoKinevil EvoKinevil 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    You have to hold on to the hope

    that it gets better. God promises that it does. So put the pills down. Put the knife down. Eat something and drink water. Go outside and get some fresh air. Go out of your room. If you are stuck in a bad situation find help if you can't, message me I can help. I promise that you...
    Beautifullybeloved Beautifullybeloved 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27, 2015

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    I just want to die. I can't take this horrid

    life anymore. What's the point? I'm useless. This is useless.
    Searchingforanswers5789 Searchingforanswers5789 18-21, F 25 Responses Aug 24, 2015

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    I've cut a LOT on my wrists

    and ankles and I have a scars but people think I do it for attention. its just making me feel like a price of ****. my best friend even said it to me. idk I want to committee suicide but I never follow through with it.
    lexielexielexie4 lexielexielexie4 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    Sajebeauty Sajebeauty 26-30, F 20 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    OK! It is hard as just being in a depression

    and even thinking much about dying not intentionally. It happens that i think how to stop eating and take insulin shot and let myself die. It is hard as depression hunt you like a shadow and keep dragging you down. I think that they should make it a legal thing to kill your own...
    joemane36 joemane36 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I'm not allowed to vent my feeling

    or they will remove me again
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    Nearly every day. How does one escape an

    emotionally abusive spouse? They turn the children against you, and take from you the very core of your self so that you don't even know who you are. Doubting yourself and your capabilities becomes second nature even though you carry on because the delicate little daughters...
    esohgee esohgee 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 4

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    I want this pain to stop.

    I want to fall asleep and never wake up.
    MakishimaShougo MakishimaShougo 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    Tomorrow is my birthday

    and all I can think of is ending it tonight.
    cleartext cleartext 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    It has been a drama filled month

    and next month has all the mixings for just as much drama if not more. I don't know I can handle more. It may be twisted thinking, but I've already accepted the consequences of suicide as a coping strategy. I started a fast that will not end until I feel less stress. It is kind...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Jaderuby Jaderuby 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2015

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    I can't drive down the road without fantasizing

    about driving my car into a tree or something in hopes that it'll kill me. I don't trust myself at all anymore.
    sweettlc sweettlc 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2015

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    I have complex ptsd from multiple traumas from

    childhood. I got out of an abusive marriage last year after I attempted suicide then my history came out and they diagnosed me with c ptsd. Things were looking up but went through a horrible experience recently which brought all my symptoms back. I am feeling worse then last...
    Angel8090 Angel8090 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 5, 2015

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    I've been thinking about suicide quite a bit.

    Two weeks before Christmas I was Baker acted. Almost when through with it. Tried again a week later. My friends family took me in to help me get through it. I never got any really support growing up, and I was abused. And I didn't even start tackling the effects of that until...
    Robeta Robeta 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    it is horrible right

    now with no escape i think i hshould just cut my losses and give up
    warcraftlover16 warcraftlover16 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Because there's nothing to look forward to in

    my life. I'll definitely die alone without any friends or family around me. I have nothing to lose.
    hreinn hreinn 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 25

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    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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