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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,537 People

    I can't drive down the road without fantasizing

    about driving my car into a tree or something in hopes that it'll kill me. I don't trust myself at all anymore.
    sweettlc sweettlc 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    So I don't know what I want to do.

    I dont want to kill myself but I dont want to be around. I feel like everything I do causes a problem for those around me, I feel like I am a terrible burden, I have absolutely no self worth, I have no drive to do anything. I know killing myself isn't the answer and besides I...
    SumireLythrum SumireLythrum 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    i almost was admitted today due the the

    suicidal thoughts and urges I have been having. i just need to speak up the next time I have them. my husband is home and making sure I'm okay. I'm so exhausted.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I feel so hated by everyone at home

    and at work. They've finay realized after a few years that i am extremely unhappy for along time. They say stupid things like "its just a thing / life isnt always happy. I know it isnt always happy, but i never get that Little Bit im expect. Now they look down on me, treat me...
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 3 Responses May 11

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    Everyday I want to die!

    Everyday I want to just end everything! I always try to do right, I always put my family, friends&loved ones
    xocmaxo xocmaxo 22-25 Jun 16

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    I'm thinking about suicide right now

    and how much better I would be dead. I just feel as if I should kill myself. People would be better off without me and wouldn't miss me. I'm just done with stress and being depressed all the time. I want it to all go away and if I do it, it will. Permanently.
    lgbtprideeee lgbtprideeee 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    xXsailorXx xXsailorXx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    LayWithFate LayWithFate 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    On Saturday I spent the day with a girl

    who actually likes me, a girl who actually made me feel happy for the first time in years... Saturday night was also the closest I've ever been to killing myself, I didn't understand at the time but I think now that it was because I've finally seen what I was missing and now I...
    trashleigh trashleigh 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I'm so depressed lately

    that when I'm upset I don't even cry anymore
    Lonelygirl517 Lonelygirl517 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There is so much hurt in me I don't know how

    much longer I can hold this in. I've already been abandoned by friends one by one and been lied to. May just use a knife and bleed
    Thelonelyasian Thelonelyasian 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    I just wanna die I hope I die in my sleep

    tonight and not wake up in the morning
    kev1254 kev1254 26-30, M 4 Responses Jun 14

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    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses May 13

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 18-21, M 414 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    I don't want to lose.

    I need to keep going. Stop making me think about suicide (note to self) I need to keep going. I want to be able to see if things do get better.
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I want to help others going through what I am

    going through. I have been struggling with mental illness and suicidal thoughts for years. I have social anxiety, so even going to therapy is stressful to me. I found a lot of ways to help me cope with my feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that are completely free, and...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    taking in others pain Don't know the difference

    between mine and there's anymore. constantly everywhere
    mundinger1992 mundinger1992 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    i Fall back in memory's i remember my history

    and cry now for 2h I have a knife at at side and think about to do it now someone can help me by do it ?
    jassikitty jassikitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    My parents are taking their "princess" to visit

    our relatives. They miss her soooooo much.. Bla bla bla.. I think about doing it tonight. I'm so hurt and I just can't do this anymore. I don't know.. I wish I never existed, I wish these feeling go, but....
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I really wish I wasn't unhappy with my life.

    Things are going pretty well for me but he just want to die. I want to so bad. I'm conflicted between killing myself and not wanting to hurt my family by leaving them. But I can't take the pain and suffering anymore. I'm slow self destructing. And I have been for awhile. I just...
    emyay emyay 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I was only a child when I started to fantasize

    about suicide. Whenever I felt overwhelmed I would think about ending my life and it would bring about a calming effect on me. As the years went on I would go through bouts where I wouldn't think about it as much, mainly because I tried very hard to push it to the back of my...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Yes, I think about it.

    I'm thinking about it right now. I can almost feel the steel against my skin. The blood flowing out of my veins. I can see it happening. And no one will know until dinner the next day.
    Mordacai Mordacai 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 12

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    Just wanted to officially say ive marked my

    death date my time has come.
    sethperoth sethperoth 18-21, M 22 hrs ago

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    I've been thinking about committing suicide a

    lot lately, and was reading a lot of your stories. I just want to tell you all that you matter, that it is always better to keep on going. I know I don't know all of your struggles, but I am going through it to and just want you to know that I am here for you, even if I don't...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just want it to stop.

    Make it stop.
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't know whats wrong with me.

    Sometimes I can't even get out of the bed. I try to look at the bright side of things but its hard an I can't.
    arestlesssoul arestlesssoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    why is it that I find out more stuff about me

    and I just want to end it? It's like I'm the one always wrong. I'm just done with everything. and I find this out during therapy and I didn't say anything. just me being silent as always...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I wrote a note tonight.

    I take it that I am ready. I hope it is not so bad, I pray I wake up in the 20's.
    insulator88 insulator88 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    Since I'm less Important to people

    now Let me just go die somewhere quietly and disappear
    Thelonelyasian Thelonelyasian 22-25, M Jun 23

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    If suicide is for losers,

    then count me as one. I'm so tired and hurt. Things got worst for me and I feel so tired. I hate myself, I hate the person I'm. I miss home. Sitting on the bathroom floor, listening to them giggling, they have no idea how I'm feeling. Like they care.. No one does. And I'm all...
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 18 Responses May 7, 2010

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    when it rains it pours.

    ...I'm so upset....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F Jun 25

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    I have always wanted to die,

    since I was a kid. I fantasise about how to do it, how to make it somewhat beautiful even~ at what time of the night to do it~ whether it be a full moon or a stormy evening~ and I'm dressed in a long white gown and jump off the cliff of an ocean somewhere~ let the ocean take me...
    immortellecapture immortellecapture 31-35, F 8 Responses May 5

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    still thinking about things

    and just wanting to disappear. just wish life wasn't so complicated. i wish I was perfect. I'm hating myself so much. my thoughts aren't well right now. sorry...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Yea..

    It's wrong yea, but it's eternal relief... nothing really else to say..
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2013

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