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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,054 People

    Yesterday there was poison gas in my flat.

    During I put my boiler off where it came out I thought about how easy I could end my life. I donĀ“t have anything else to live for. I am just wasting my time and I want my pains to go to end.
    Loretta78 Loretta78 36-40, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    :( Thought crossed my mind again today.

    I'm exhausted. Tired of how I am ...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2015

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    I'm not safe anymore.

    Why do I have to be like this?
    gt989 gt989 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I want this pain to stop.

    I want to fall asleep and never wake up.
    MakishimaShougo MakishimaShougo 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 29, 2015

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    I can't kill myself because I don't want to

    ruin my little brother's life. But I can't live like this anymore. Everyday is a living hell to me, and I constantly wish for death from natural causes of some sort. The only thing I look forward to everyday of my life is sleeping at night- where I am out of this ****** world...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 22-25, F 4 Responses May 16, 2015

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    I am so done with life.

    I almost killed myself last night. I almost stabbed myself but my dad saved men I don't have ANY true friends and some people from high school ditched me and wont even talk to me anymore. I live ON disability and still live at home because of my condition and violence temper. I...
    MissThickGirl MissThickGirl 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    Nearly every day. How does one escape an

    emotionally abusive spouse? They turn the children against you, and take from you the very core of your self so that you don't even know who you are. Doubting yourself and your capabilities becomes second nature even though you carry on because the delicate little daughters...
    esohgee esohgee 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 4

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    Sometimes I feel this is the only choice I got

    really. I don't wanna die, I just want the pain to stop.
    LONELYGUY95 LONELYGUY95 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 25

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    about everyday lately.

    Idk why there's so much I could feel happy about. I also still have very good days sometimes, the joy that gives me than lasts for about 2 days. There are a lot of good people on here who make me feel better as well. Still I have very low lows and thats so crazy. A few years...
    toughbaby toughbaby 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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    When you're so depressed

    that hardly anything tastes good anymore.
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F Jan 24

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    My life is falling apart.

    I can't do this no more. I don't want to. Worst part I'm pregnant, and regardless of how much I want to die, I can't do it now. My life is so very complicated, and I am hanging onto a thread. I want to die, I wanna cut, and starve myself. If I wasn't pregnant, I would be downing...
    dirtyxxxwhore dirtyxxxwhore 18-21 5 Responses Jan 16

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    Tomorrow is my birthday

    and all I can think of is ending it tonight.
    cleartext cleartext 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    Wel) i have tried overdosing hanging myself

    and cutting my wrists but i got caught everytime for me the easiest thing was overdosing or cutting my wrists but only if you have taken something like xanax or a valium to help you sleep last the sick feeli you get (atleast what i felt the first time i did it sober) anyways im...
    wichita316 wichita316 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    About Facing Your Demons

    From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in the river.I changed alot since then, I am 21 now and see things in a whole new light.The diference is that my old demons never...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 20, 2008

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    i'm ready for committing it.

    i have diagnosed major depressive disorder. i have been like this since my childhoold. now i'm aware of that this cannot be solved completely because it is my personality and a bit part of genetics. i can continue like this. but i can be just regular person. i couldnt use my...
    judarl judarl 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 18-21, M 421 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I can't living this way.

    ... I'm sorry I'm so sorry
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    My mother would say to me 'if abortions were

    legal, I would have washed you away.'
    cleartext cleartext 41-45, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sajebeauty Sajebeauty 26-30, F 19 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    i feel like theres nothing left

    for me in life . i got clean of a 10 yr heroin addiction, but still am a0 worthless stupid junkie no matter what i do. someone i love dearly calls me that,but its true tho : (? all ive ever wanted was a loving and caring family or at least 1 best friend that would be there for...
    foxyoxy123 foxyoxy123 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 6, 2015

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    After my good friend's wedding,

    I think it's going to be over. I don't have much else to live for.
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why am I even living?

    Sometimes this world is just too cruel for the meek and nice people and the world just destroy us.
    Sajebeauty Sajebeauty 26-30, F Sep 28, 2015

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    People's accomplishments make me sick,

    especially when I will accomplish probably nothing but being a first suicide in my family tree in decades.
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 5, 2015

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    It's one of those things

    that should never really be taken lightly, and I don't know why I don't think of it with a lot of weight in my own situation. I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder. I'm depressed year-round, but it really gets PARTICULARLY sensitive and dark during the winter. Which is...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I can't drive down the road without fantasizing

    about driving my car into a tree or something in hopes that it'll kill me. I don't trust myself at all anymore.
    sweettlc sweettlc 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2015

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    Been in bed for over a week

    as I can think of no reason to go on for another day. Haven't felt joy or happiness in for long I can't remember what it's like. I hope that by the time anyone has read this I will be gone for good.
    HReardon HReardon 56-60, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I really am none too sure

    why I am pondering suicide at the moment... it could possibly be due to the fact that I can hear the train passing close right now; that was always my idea of a foolproof method of bringing about my death. It would be as simple as standing on the tracks and closing my eyes, just...
    ginaramone ginaramone 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 15, 2015

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    Whether or not you, who ever is reading,

    believes in past lives I have struggled with memories of suicide and don't understand, and memories of the life I live now. All those times I never spoke up to take a stand for myself. Never saying enough is enough to people. Never expressing myself in fear of ridicule and...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I am so ready for it to end.

    I have some arrangements to make regarding my children. then the time will be right. Finding out my husband that I loved so much cheated on me was the last heartbreak I could take. No one should be forced to live in this kind of torment. I only hope I can find the peace on the...
    nothingandno1 nothingandno1 31-35, F 24 Responses Jan 26

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    I've been thinking about suicide quite a bit.

    Two weeks before Christmas I was Baker acted. Almost when through with it. Tried again a week later. My friends family took me in to help me get through it. I never got any really support growing up, and I was abused. And I didn't even start tackling the effects of that until...
    Robeta Robeta 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    Lately, my writing stints have been fan

    fictions of myself being thrown in a fictional universe with the power of immortality. My skeleton cannot break apart from itself, but I can feel all sorts of pain through my flesh. Being a humble person, I try to keep to myself and be noble when I can afford it, struggling to...
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F Jan 18

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I'm not allowed to vent my feeling

    or they will remove me again
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    I have lost count of the number of times i have

    been told i am "Selfish" I am selfish am i? Really? Oh i apologise how selfish of me to smile everytime i see you even though i just want to scream and cry how selfish of me to only cry in the shower because i don't want to upset those i care about i am so dreadfully apologetic...
    SophieSophLJ SophieSophLJ 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Associated card: Ten of Swords.

    Associated track: none. Isn't it peculiar... when you already know or rather have a tiny sampler of the afterlife, if you had NDE... and still thinking of suicide. After 15 years of suicidal depression I think in this way... it is possible to quit, just any time any place, but...
    AmethystCluster AmethystCluster 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    You have to hold on to the hope

    that it gets better. God promises that it does. So put the pills down. Put the knife down. Eat something and drink water. Go outside and get some fresh air. Go out of your room. If you are stuck in a bad situation find help if you can't, message me I can help. I promise that you...
    Beautifullybeloved Beautifullybeloved 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27, 2015

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    It has been a drama filled month

    and next month has all the mixings for just as much drama if not more. I don't know I can handle more. It may be twisted thinking, but I've already accepted the consequences of suicide as a coping strategy. I started a fast that will not end until I feel less stress. It is kind...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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    It's been a few days

    since I wrote a post on how much I want to die. Right after I finished that post, I finished listening to some music as I sat in the adult computer section of the library by adult fiction and the DVD section (you have to be 18 to use the computers there). Out of the blue, a...
    BloodMoonFlower BloodMoonFlower 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    It's so bad right now,

    I mean I don't feel good but not in the stay in bed all day way, but, in the I am having a bad day and want to end it way. I want to start over today because it just keeps getting worse. Bad things are not happening, just the yucky way I feel making it bad for me right now. I am...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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