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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,437 People

    There are a ton of very very heavy things going

    in my life right now and so it's tearing my relationship with my partner up .. The only hope right now is staying with her, if not then the happiest thing that will happen is killing myself without feeling guilty because all is already lost, I could say I'm just moving towns...
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus 70+, M Apr 29

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    Anyone read and search

    for suicide method? I want to discuss something Please I don't want anyone's interference
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 1 Response May 13

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    I wrote my first suicide letter yesterday

    why do people write them it only makes you think of the people you may leave behind who may care and it makes you think then by the time you finished writing it your mentally drained anyways and just wanna sleep or in my case cut.
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F May 10

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    Darkness is hard to go up against,

    especially when it consumes you. It turns all the positivity into negativity. It puts out every light. And at the end of the tunnel there's no light, there's a hole you fall into. And you take years to climb back up, until something or someone comes along and kicks you off the...
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 3

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    set4369 set4369 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 25

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    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses May 13

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I sit here now....aside a seemingly

    "normal"suburban local.... My heart heart's or soul or being...for it is quite complex what one does for love...yet, the tables turn..one is rejected and cast aside like chaff... Fool that I am !!! to seek safely,security...I am no thing to no one....be gone foolish naivety...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 1

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    Is there maybe someone

    who wants to be friends with me ? :( I'm 26 depressed have no friends think about suicide and am gay too ugh :( :( I wish I had the guts to lull myself :( :(
    quattrodsg88 quattrodsg88 26-30, M 2 Responses May 15

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    I feel so hated by everyone at home

    and at work. They've finay realized after a few years that i am extremely unhappy for along time. They say stupid things like "its just a thing / life isnt always happy. I know it isnt always happy, but i never get that Little Bit im expect. Now they look down on me, treat me...
    Zack607 Zack607 22-25, M 3 Responses May 11

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    Don't you look stupid

    or look like our just wanting attention if you tell someone your suicidal? Or text/call a hotline? I am asking a serious question , thanks!
    Howlingsoulofthewolf Howlingsoulofthewolf 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I can't kill myself because I don't want to

    ruin my little brother's life. But I can't live like this anymore. Everyday is a living hell to me, and I constantly wish for death from natural causes of some sort. The only thing I look forward to everyday of my life is sleeping at night- where I am out of this ****** world...
    crypticcrime crypticcrime 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Hi guys, The subject I want to talk about

    as a kind of delicate, so you know there is no way that I mention my real name here. I can't talk about it with anyone in my real life so I appreciate the anonymity and discretion of the forum is appreciated. As for the last few weeks I have been really feeling suicidal...
    ivanoff86 ivanoff86 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    searching 'reasons not to kill yourself',

    not finding convincing reasons. im so ******* close. clearly i dont want to but every day it digs deeper. soon i cant go any deeper
    inaweek inaweek 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    Death is the sweet forgiveness only given to

    the lucky. We all walk towards suicide like cattle to a slaughterhouse. We work everyday to try and pay for a life we can't afford but end up dying and in debt in the end of it all.
    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M 1 Response May 12

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    Its not so much that I think about suicide

    rather just wanting out of this endless tirade that is called life. In a very general sense life is stupid, you are born just to die and all this crap in between, they call it life. I just wonder what is it all for. I mean if I were working towards something other than death...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F 3 Responses May 1

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    biancaxxb biancaxxb 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    I have always wanted to die,

    since I was a kid. I fantasise about how to do it, how to make it somewhat beautiful even~ at what time of the night to do it~ whether it be a full moon or a stormy evening~ and I'm dressed in a long white gown and jump off the cliff of an ocean somewhere~ let the ocean take me...
    immortellecapture immortellecapture 31-35, F 8 Responses May 5

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    In my usual depression I was also considering

    the massive overpopulation problem. Some estimate a sustainable human population for Earth to be about 2 billion, our population is currently over 7 billion and growing rapdily. This means we, as a species, are consuming resources at several times the level that our planet can...
    minatek616 minatek616 22-25, M 1 Response May 4

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    Every day I think about suicide just don't know

    why I haven't gone through with it yet
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    Yea..

    It's wrong yea, but it's eternal relief... nothing really else to say..
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2013

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    As long as I can remember I have always had

    thoughts of suicide and it is getting worse. I thought everyone has those thoughts, but now I know that it is abnormal. Now I just feel even worse because I always think about dying and how I would do it and I have been feeling sadder and sadder and I think I need help, but I...
    Kebra725 Kebra725 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 18-21, M 413 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    To Shake Off The Mortal Coils

     Last entry into a diary - authorship unknown. "A permanent solution to a temporary problem" - that is what the wise and good people state to help. The way they make suicide look like a decision based on cowardice is remarkable, when in the end it is a clear statement...
    frostbittensoul frostbittensoul 41-45, M Mar 25, 2010

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    I don't know whats wrong with me.

    Sometimes I can't even get out of the bed. I try to look at the bright side of things but its hard an I can't.
    arestlesssoul arestlesssoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 19 Responses May 7, 2010

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    Occasionally my nightmares get

    so bad I want to kill myself. Sometimes it feels like I haven't slept in years, because my dreams are so long and intense I wake up exhausted.
    discman15 discman15 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't want to lose.

    I need to keep going. Stop making me think about suicide (note to self) I need to keep going. I want to be able to see if things do get better.
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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    I am going to a hospital

    and a mental onstitution to seek help. But i am scared that i wont make it.
    HoneyCue HoneyCue 31-35, M 3 Responses May 8

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    I'm getting divorced,

    loosing my family. I've experience one failure after another. I've never been good at living this existence called life. I'm so very tired of trying to no avail. I'm done, I think I might check out soon. I just want to tie some things up. Should only take a few days, and then I...
    Risin1 Risin1 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Man is born free but soon becomes a slave in

    cages of convention from the cradle to grave... Line form a brave new world in Jeff Wayne's musical adaption of war of the worlds. Death would bring about some form of freedom but there would be no turning back. Maybe a time will come when the living will envy the dead but I...
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 1 Response May 12

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    I'm gonna kill myself .

    .. Soon... I can feel it.. No need to live anymore
    haymorgan15 haymorgan15 18-21, F 2 Responses May 15

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I feel like it's a burden to have a family.

    I don't really wanna be here and I wish my family could just accept it. I don't want them crying and being depressed. I just want it to be peaceful. I wish they could understand that I would be happy in whatever the afterlife is. It sucks because I'm basically living for other...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 8

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    So I don't know what I want to do.

    I dont want to kill myself but I dont want to be around. I feel like everything I do causes a problem for those around me, I feel like I am a terrible burden, I have absolutely no self worth, I have no drive to do anything. I know killing myself isn't the answer and besides I...
    SumireLythrum SumireLythrum 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M May 3

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    For years, many many years I have thought about

    suicide nearly everyday. I don't remember a day I haven't thought about it. When I was younger I would look at a length of rope or I'd find a rattler or a moccasin in the woods and think, "This could end it pretty soon." I always had a knife that I kept sharp. I would just hold...
    LifeIsBeatingMe LifeIsBeatingMe 26-30, M 5 Responses Feb 14

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