Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device
If you are in a crisis, please call for help: 1-800-273-8255, or 1-800-784-2433 (available 24/7). More resources available here.

I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,276 People

    I don't know whats wrong with me.

    Sometimes I can't even get out of the bed. I try to look at the bright side of things but its hard an I can't.
    arestlesssoul arestlesssoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7

    Your Response

    Cancel

    At this point in my life,

    I'm 23 years old and have absolutely no friends. I sit at home, all day, imagining over and over again what it would be like if I wasn't alive anymore. I can't find a job that pays me more than 12 dollars an hour (even though I have experience), have dropped out of school more...
    Aunore Aunore 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    leex1234 leex1234 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 5

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Loss And Pain

      Eight years ago I had to take a medical retirement from teaching. I loved teaching so it was a great loss.  The Global Neurological Damage has caused pain that only gets worse and worse.    I am usually at home because it hurts too much to go out. Ha! I...
    Dewduster Dewduster 66-70, M 3 Responses Dec 7, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I think part of my problem is I have no friends.

    I suspect I have Aspergers and I am not sure how to start conversations with people. I'm not shy really but I just don't know how to make friends and it's made it hard for me. I am depressed all the time and no one understands because I guess on the surface my life doesn't look...
    nothingandno1 nothingandno1 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Every day I think about suicide just don't know

    why I haven't gone through with it yet
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    No Prince Charming Came to Save Me

    I have been through so much, and the only person who came to help me was me. If I didn't do it, it didn't get done. I've tried killing myself before, and those feelings are coming back. My body was too strong and I woke up, no one came to my aide. I'm tired of being nice to...
    Readerblackchic Readerblackchic 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm currently lay on my bed looking at my

    ceiling wishing there was a god so that he would make my next breath my last wishing so hard that my heart would stop that it was was my last breath
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The thoughts had been gone

    for 15 years hidden deep within my mind. One of my worst nightmares came to life almost 1 year ago which have awaken the lost and broken me I had put away for so long. It is a daily struggle and I am tired of fighting but fighting is what I shall do bc my weakness is somehow...
    kaigeshadow kaigeshadow 31-35, F Jan 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I don't want to lose.

    I need to keep going. Stop making me think about suicide (note to self) I need to keep going. I want to be able to see if things do get better.
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My best friend committed suicide

    which is why I could never. But I don't wanna feel anything anymore and I don't know what to do
    leex1234 leex1234 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I just did that. What's in the cover photo.

    That literally took one half of a second. I'm still working on my issues. One year ago, feeling the way I do at this moment, I probably would've finished the job. Just know, the things you say to people have more weight than you will ever know.
    LifeIsBeatingMe LifeIsBeatingMe 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    About Facing Your Demons

    From 16 to 18 I'd had many suicide atempts; the most serious one was when I took 37 sleeping pils and slpet for 3 days and the time I've thrown myself in the river.I changed alot since then, I am 21 now and see things in a whole new light.The diference is that my old demons never...
    ruedecascades ruedecascades 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 20, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Even now all I can think about is suicide.

    I've even read about ways to do it from this app and I don't know what's stopping me, I guess I'm scared but I want to do it. I don't feel like I have anything to live for.
    whispers04 whispers04 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So I don't know what I want to do.

    I dont want to kill myself but I dont want to be around. I feel like everything I do causes a problem for those around me, I feel like I am a terrible burden, I have absolutely no self worth, I have no drive to do anything. I know killing myself isn't the answer and besides I...
    SumireLythrum SumireLythrum 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have massive suicidal thoughts.

    I don't cut myself but have other ways of brutalizing my body. I'm extremely inadequate with women and socializing with people, and it makes me feel worthless. I'm not pro-masculine at all, which adds to my depression. I am a complete embarrassment who doesn't deserve to live. I...
    AquariusXV AquariusXV 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 1

    Your Response

    Cancel

    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I can't do this anymore I'm crying my eyes out

    and cutting myself I'm hurting so bad i just wanna go I just wanna go I hope lightening strikes me tomorrow cause idk how much farther I can go. The pain I cause my self doesn't compare to the pain inside all I want to do is just die. I'm reaching out reaching out with no one to...
    JohnDivine JohnDivine 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have start hate myself

    now agine I don't know the reason but it start today all frainds that I know don't like me more (so I feel ) I remember agine at my past I cut me agine now feel so wordless I just need a person that I can trust ;-;
    jassikitty jassikitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

    Your Response

    Cancel

    For years, many many years I have thought about

    suicide nearly everyday. I don't remember a day I haven't thought about it. When I was younger I would look at a length of rope or I'd find a rattler or a moccasin in the woods and think, "This could end it pretty soon." I always had a knife that I kept sharp. I would just hold...
    LifeIsBeatingMe LifeIsBeatingMe 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I want to kill myself

    and be done with it
    rainyday10 rainyday10 22-25, M 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    it's good to know there's other people

    that knows how it feels to not wanna be alive anymore has anyone ever tired the suicide prevention hotline like the 1-800 number ? I honestly don't even wanna talk to any one about it sometimes cause I feel like they won't understand or laugh about it. or say I'm just doing it...
    lovermaker21 lovermaker21 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 12 Responses Nov 9, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    3.5 years ago I met a guy online.

    He was very nice and friendly and I really liked him maybe even love but he was very depressed and suicidal because he is gay. Since I feel the same way I was happy I could talk to him about similar things. But after a few months I lost contact with him. I'm really worried and...
    quattrodsg88 quattrodsg88 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    leex1234 leex1234 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Here recently it's not

    that I actively seek ways to die anymore but I still think about death and ways to die. I'm a pretty screwed up person :/
    Sxculent Sxculent 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

    Your Response

    Cancel

    right here right now will determine everything.

    I can't stand to breath or talk. I'm tired of crying all the time. I'm just done. goodbye....
    keke1432 keke1432 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Trying to Cope

    It was Dec 11 2006 when my life was turned upside down. I was injured at work. Since then I have been treated like a liar, my friends form work have stopped calling, I'm in pain 24/7 and the Workers Comp and Social Security system has striped me of all dignity and made me...
    HurtAtWork HurtAtWork 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 12, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate My Life

    I have ever since I was 12 and my life was ruined by my step-father. For a couple of years now I've been wanting to kill myself, even more so now that I can't go to college or get a job. It wouldn't be hard either. My mom has some painkillers that I could take. I can just fall...
    Chiazu Chiazu 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    For years now it's been up there.

    It's almost a comforting thought now. It's like, "Well, if things don't work out, you could always call it quits." I don't know why. I don't have a troubled past, my parents support me even now, in their way. I remember even when I was a kid, not even a teen, I thought, or...
    minatek616 minatek616 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 24

    Your Response

    Cancel

    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica at the end of March, maybe mid April and never come back... I prefer to be a "missing person" instead of a "suicide victim" ... what do you think? Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... This also...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I hate myself y can't stand living any longer!

    I have every thing but I have nothing. Am 19 and I have never experienced love not even a first kiss I never had a girlfriend. Am super shy and I have problems when it is about women. I am battling depression and am taking anti depressants, it work for a while but now it does...
    D4niel20 D4niel20 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Why not. Only a few people will actually miss

    me. Im not going to do anything important with my life. I am now and forever a nobody. I just want the pain to stop.
    lostandlonleysoul lostandlonleysoul 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Death seems better than living.

    my heart would no longer be sore,no longer be hurt,and no longer feel empty.neither do i have to pretend to be happy and strong
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 19 Responses May 7, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Darkness is hard to go up against,

    especially when it consumes you. It turns all the positivity into negativity. It puts out every light. And at the end of the tunnel there's no light, there's a hole you fall into. And you take years to climb back up, until something or someone comes along and kicks you off the...
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    From a Friend....

    Hey you- tell me what has got you down. There’s no need to cry or wear that frown.   You dont have to commit suicide Because I will be by your side. I’ve been there and I understand you Lean on me and I’ll carry you through. I’m not going...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Aug 8, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Day after day, night

    after night it follows me like a shadow. Silently stalking. All I want it some peace. I am exhausted. So tired of the crap life has handed me. From the start things were never easy but I handled it. Lately, however, it seems like I just can't keep it together and I want out. I...
    js246 js246 22-25 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Mysorrow Mysorrow 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 1

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I always wondered who would

    and would not miss me when I'm gone....
    doubletimeit doubletimeit 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm 18, no drivers license,

    no job. No friends. My father won't speak to me. I graduated early to save up for college but nowhere will hire me. I was denied all my government grants for college so I will never achieve my career goals. The only thing stopping me is my mom and brother and boyfriend. I have...
    Sxculent Sxculent 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 19-21, M 407 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel