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I Think About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,109 People

    Trying to Cope

    It was Dec 11 2006 when my life was turned upside down. I was injured at work. Since then I have been treated like a liar, my friends form work have stopped calling, I'm in pain 24/7 and the Workers Comp and Social Security system has striped me of all dignity and made me...
    HurtAtWork HurtAtWork 41-45, M 5 Responses Dec 12, 2007

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    I think about it pretty much daily.

    Like I think most teens do, except meow I'm 21. Although I never talk about it with Anyone in person or online. The first time I wanted to talk about it online, a few days later the opp emailed me and then found the hotel I was at the time and forcibly came into my room and...
    JessicaCD20 JessicaCD20 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 14

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    Yea..

    It's wrong yea, but it's eternal relief... nothing really else to say..
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 3 Responses Oct 12, 2013

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    Thanksgiving today was terrible!

    I saw so much pain in the faces of my family. my sister's kids cried for 30 minutes because she had to go back to her third job. my mom is so tired from trying to fix everything for everyone. I see so much pain around me. it makes the pain inside me grow. I am so tired and there...
    beautybehindthefat beautybehindthefat 18-21, F Nov 27

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    It Doesnt Work

    I've battling suicide since 5th grade. It's horrible. I used to cut to remind myself that i was alive..and then i got addicted to the feeling. lol... I've tried suicide 3 times..and still woke up ok later. No one knows except for my ex. and he's talked me out of it a few times...
    Vamp1416 Vamp1416 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 1, 2009

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    Thanksgiving today was terrible!

    I saw so much pain in the faces of my family. my sister's kids cried for 30 minutes because she had to go back to her third job. my mom is so tired from trying to fix everything for everyone. I see so much pain around me. it makes the pain inside me grow. I am so tired and there...
    beautybehindthefat beautybehindthefat 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 27

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    Lately I've been thinking suicidal thoughts

    but don't try to attempt it is there something wrong with me?
    SuicideMascara SuicideMascara 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    So I don't know what I want to do.

    I dont want to kill myself but I dont want to be around. I feel like everything I do causes a problem for those around me, I feel like I am a terrible burden, I have absolutely no self worth, I have no drive to do anything. I know killing myself isn't the answer and besides I...
    SumireLythrum SumireLythrum 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I really don't know anymore what to do.

    I am going trough ****** up **** for like three years. I just don't think I'm going to be able to live through it. Even my friends abandoned me for making a single mistake. And now every single day of my life I am being bullied and I can't do **** about it. I cry in my sleep...
    suicidegirl123 suicidegirl123 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 11

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    Words that should have come by ep somehow but wanted to share...

     This is similar to something i read -i changed it a bit to share it... i wanted ep to do it but i share it .. Don't encourage other members to harm themselves We are here to talk and share feelings and thoughts. Endorsements of suicide are counterproductive. It can...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses May 16, 2010

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    Why... Why Not...

    I've had this hurt in the stomach for so long. No one should live with that daily. I sleep very bad, and I think it doesn't make my jugdement clearer, far from it. But i have to functionate like if nothing was wrong. that's what our society is. A friend here posted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 3, 2009

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    I'm a Failure and I Want to Commit Suicide

    Every time I get into my car I wish to get into an accident and die.  I am 19 years old and am a virgin.  I will never get laid or have a girlfriend because I am an incompetant **** who can't do anything right.  I've only had one girlfriend in my life and that was...
    Alejandro Alejandro 19-21, M 406 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    Go Away

    I don't want to ponder you any more. Leave.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    The thought has crossed my mind before

    but i feel i would never do it just because it would be too much of a hassle for my family. But if i really could do it with all my loose ends tied, i would. times like this when i feel down , is when i wouldnt mind doing it.
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 19

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    lately I consider leaving more often

    than not. I've had a miserable year, I hate the way I look, I hate that I have no one who shares my passion in anything. I hate that I'm so negative and that I try to change but my efforts go unnoticed, instead I'm annoying people close to me for even existing. I'm too afraid I...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 16

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    I Hate My Life

    I have ever since I was 12 and my life was ruined by my step-father. For a couple of years now I've been wanting to kill myself, even more so now that I can't go to college or get a job. It wouldn't be hard either. My mom has some painkillers that I could take. I can just fall...
    Chiazu Chiazu 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2009

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    I have struggled with depression

    for upwards of 5 years now. It comes and goes, sometimes I can go for weeks without feeling especially down, but once it starts again, it doesn't go away for months on end. Each day seems to get progressively worse, and it becomes harder and harder to pull myself out of bed in...
    meandthemoon13 meandthemoon13 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    yes I've gone through a **** load of ****.

    yes loved ones have died. yes I've been abused manipulated used. but that's not an excuse to not try. work on yourself and get over some bullshit. do things even though you don't want to you might grow a taste for it. just never give up and get over yourself.
    MooreVandervale MooreVandervale 18-21, M Dec 10

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    been thinking about taking my life

    for a little while. trying to think of anyone it would inconvenience and the fact I have to think for a good few hours, says it all. I have a hard time opening up to people and it cost me everything I didn't realise until it was to late meant the world to me. I've felt this way...
    soonthepainwillgo soonthepainwillgo 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Tired

    I get very frustrated with my inability to change and being bogged down in depression.  I certainly consider the possibility of ending my life.  If I can't change and I'm miserable where I am why not just shut it all down.  It's all a futile effort so why even try...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton 36-40, M 27 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    No Prince Charming Came to Save Me

    I have been through so much, and the only person who came to help me was me. If I didn't do it, it didn't get done. I've tried killing myself before, and those feelings are coming back. My body was too strong and I woke up, no one came to my aide. I'm tired of being nice to...
    Readerblackchic Readerblackchic 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2009

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    maryamtssn24 maryamtssn24 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    Last night, I prayed

    that I wouldn't wake up this morning. But I am here. I wish I felt happier about that.
    thevioletblue thevioletblue 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 2

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    It's The Confusion Of It All

    I have been thinking about suicide of a while now. I lie in bed listening to songs like "mad world" and "fade to black" and think about the beauty of death, the beauty of my death. I see now that that was just a coping mechanism, it helped thinking about an alternative ...
    astrix37 astrix37 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2010

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    I Can't Get Away From It.

    I was 9 when I first found out what suicide is.  My mom slit her wrists but she didn't go deep enough and just wound up in a mental hospital.  I hated her because I thought she didn't care about me anymore.  I didn't understand the depth of the matter. Around...
    CandyTeeth CandyTeeth 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2007

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    I'm thinking it right now.

    I feel as if nothing is good anymore. That I should just curl up and die. It's not like anyone would miss me.
    dracobane dracobane 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 15

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    I think about it all the time.

    I am conflicted. I really want to do it, but I am afraid to.
    SecretGaygent SecretGaygent 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    i know it's not the answer.

    Death seems peaceful.i can not hurt my family,this is why i stay.I have lost so much,my house ,all my income,my mom is very ill.I was diagnosed mentally ill,along with my 3 children.Now i have no clue how i will pay decembers rent ,this is only a couple things,so much more...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 14 Responses Nov 9

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    I just wanna blow my brains out.

    There are memories that just keep taunting me and I feel like a worthless burden and everyone would be better off if I was gone.
    Tinchi Tinchi 22-25 Dec 12

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    Life...

    this whole year has just been horrible since school started. i've lost so many of my good friends. i never really felt like i belonged here. i know i don't. i am so self concious about everything, i compare myself to people way to much and it makes me miserable. i try to stop but...
    sweetxheartxo sweetxheartxo 16-18, F 4 Responses Jan 13, 2008

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    so 10 more days till suicide.

    i've written some stuff for all those i've i'm gonna leave behind. my heart feels heavy thinking bout my pets. but hell or heaven where i'm going those places sounds better then being where i am. i
    iSuicidal iSuicidal 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    Lampshade86 Lampshade86 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I am going to do it, I don't see the point

    anymore since I put my trust in my friends and they killed my trust. I should of known they would never believe me and now they left me. I tried, this means my life, and they abandon me... so what's the point if I fail. This meant my life and I know its going to end bad. I give...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 21

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    Loss And Pain

      Eight years ago I had to take a medical retirement from teaching. I loved teaching so it was a great loss.  The Global Neurological Damage has caused pain that only gets worse and worse.    I am usually at home because it hurts too much to go out. Ha! I...
    Dewduster Dewduster 66-70, M 3 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    The Compassion Of A Complete But Caring Stranger (there Is Hope!)

    The video below is of a suicide attempt on a bridge in in Shenzhen City, Guangdong Province, China.  A 16 year-old boy holding a knife is threatening to kill himself as emergency workers attempt to talk him out of hurting himself. As emergency workers are working to resolve the...
    social02 social02 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Tru3nigmax Tru3nigmax 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 10

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    I can't help it. I'm never good enough

    for the people around me and I'm just so tired of everything. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm to scared of what might happen.
    lmaddsl lmaddsl 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    There Is A Point, I Was Wrong

    Did you ever crash with the speed of light? Did you ever feel, all came tumbling down, on top of you? I did, yesterday. And I almost did something stupid. There is this spoof Airport movie, Airplane!, with Lloyd Bridges. In it, there is this running gag, that Bridges' character...
    Idonwannadie Idonwannadie 46-50, M Oct 9, 2012

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    A Poem For the Dying....

      AS THE TIME NEARS    The time is near to say goodbye to the pain and fears. And this cold lonely place filled with heartache and tears.     I write the note and place it on the door. Notifying all they won’t find me here anymore.  ...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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    Bipolar Freak

    dduuhhh!! Have tried on more than one occasion but never completed the task. Scared I guess, young perhaps, but I think if/when I get to that point again that I won't be afraid anymore. I've come to grips with it and promised myself that if I do hit THAT low, that place of no...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 12 Responses Sep 22, 2007

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    I want to commit suicide.

    What are some quick, easy, and painless was to do it?
    shanzehrizvi shanzehrizvi 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 21

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    I Think About Suicide

    But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. Lately I get these really vivid thoughts of me sticking a 12 gauge in my mouth.  It's starting to freak me out.
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Dec 13, 2007

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    jman6609 jman6609 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    I think about suicide a lot.

    I'm scared one day I might act on it
    lawrence23 lawrence23 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I Feel Guilty For My Feelings Sometimes..

    i know i ll never try again but when i have thoughts and then someone sais ''u r important'' ,''is because i care for  u''or sais something i feel guilty ..because many times i know im not important ,maybe for me ,coz i dont like myself,coz i have many thoughts...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 19 Responses May 7, 2010

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    Sadly, I Do.

    I have tried to commit suicide three times before, and came quiet close twice but It never happened. I still think about it often because I am not satisfied with my life at all. But In reality, I'm not actually sure If want to die or If I just want to end my unhappiness. For now...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    I Feel Bad*

    I feel really bad for thinking about suicide, I know how selfish it is, I know how much damage it can do to the ones left behind, I know the pain, and the guilt, and the questions, the victim of a suicide feelings. Its terrible, but yet, tonight, I can't help but feel this way...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 1, 2010

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    The two main deterrents still holding me back

    from buying that CZ82 are (1) my little sister, and to some extent (2) the people who look up to me. The people who look up to me - or who I was, to be precise - see me as a role model, a vivacious spirit always finding ways to have a good time no matter how tough things get...
    FryyM FryyM 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Let's face it, I don't have any real friend

    and I dont see a purpose in my life. I am always surrounded by annoying as duck people that always have the good life. I was put on this earth in prepared and with flaws that made it seem impossible that I survived. I always try to make it like the last thing I am doing and yet...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 15

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    twelves twelves 22-25 Dec 11

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    From Someone Who's Been There...

       For all of you thinking about suicide, let me tell you about something from someone who’s been there. I contemplated suicide in my teens. Gawky and loserish, I had zero friends and no prospects for a fun high school life whatsoever. My mom used to get drunk and...
    readnwritewithwine readnwritewithwine 31-35, M 4 Responses Nov 7, 2007

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    From a Friend....

    Hey you- tell me what has got you down. There’s no need to cry or wear that frown.   You dont have to commit suicide Because I will be by your side. I’ve been there and I understand you Lean on me and I’ll carry you through. I’m not going...