I Think About the Past Too Much

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    Burnt Eyes

     People say "Don't live in the past."  but how do you walk away from a trail that you see so littered with chaos?  Throw out the excuse that you're leaving a trail to follow in case you get lost?  Guess my OCD kicks in sometimes and I just want to walk back...
    concreteardrop concreteardrop
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2010

    Doesn't Everyone?

    you may think you don't...but the way I see it people are either regreting the past, accepting it, or running away from it..it's not always concious but it's only natural I guess cause, how much are you gonna go forward without knowing where you came from...In my case I was...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2010

    So True

    I think about school. I think about university. I think about running away. I think about trying to shrink my world down to something I could contain. I think about past attempts at failed emotional connections. I dream about distant lands. I don't miss the people. I miss myself...
    sadWaste sadWaste
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 16, 2013

    Sometimes i don't like myself

    for holding on to the past so much, especially to that certain feeling that i know i should be over with, to the people who have so much influence in my life, and especially to that people i've left behind.... sometimes, it is so easy to convince myself that i should leave what...
    eternallight351 eternallight351
    31-35, F
    Apr 27, 2014

    Way Too Much

    i always feel pathetic for still dwelling on things i didnt do from as far back as high school. i always think that maybe i wouldnt be a painfully lonely recluse at this point in my life if i could have somehow not be ridiculously shy and went for it. it keeps me up at night.
    EdgeCrusher EdgeCrusher
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 5, 2011

    It Used To Be Bad..

    ...but facebook just makes it worse. All those faces from the past. Failed relationships you wish you could rekindle. Relationships you wanted,but never had. People you hope will turn up but never do (and possibly wouldn't talk to you if they did). It brings out the rose-tinted...
    RedSlider RedSlider
    36-40, M
    Jul 2, 2010

    Turn Back Time

    Wishing I could go back about 35 years and get a second chance w/ my life to it right this time!
    sandysneakers sandysneakers
    Mar 24, 2012


    Everyone has pain in their past.... Most of my dragons as I call them I have slain I beleive.  Sometimes though....especially over the holidays....some little thing can stir it all up and make me fight back the tears... Sing that song by the Eagles to myself...."...
    Lexus Lexus
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 26, 2007

    Why Do I Torture Myself?

    There are days when I catch myself thinking about things from the past. The things about my childhood that should never have happened.  It's been years since I have allowed my mother into my life because of the things she did and allowed to happen to me as a child.  I...
    Cheleanne Cheleanne
    66-70, F
    6 Responses Oct 16, 2007

    All Too Often

    Here lately I have found myself thinking about my past and what it would have been like if I had made just one decision or another.  Sometimes it scares me to think what I have done in my life and still be breathing.  The should haves, would haves are too many to think...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 1, 2008

    What Gets Me Is

    the stuff that i can't change..the stuff that i SHOULD HAVE said/done. Situations i should have handled more intensely..even simple stuff just haunts me from day to day..Seems like i spend more time thinking about the past than focusing on now. I either think of the past or plan...
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2010

    I get so sad when I think about the great times

    I use to have, and yet now I am here in this terrible place. When I think about the bad stuff, I feel happy that I got through it, but when I think about good things that have happened to me, I just want it all back. I want to be happy again. It hurts...
    Iamstillstanding Iamstillstanding
    16-17, F
    Apr 27, 2014


    I always like to go through old photos of me and my friends, and watch the old videos I would record and just remember how much fun I used to have. Like this time last year was soooo different then it is now and I'm not exactly sure if I like that. I don't really feel as though...
    x0xocx x0xocx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2013
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