I Think About What Could Have Been

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    If Only...

    I think about what could have been If I hadn't tried that first cigarette... If I hadn't quit the swim team... If I hadn't let her down... If I hadn't left him... Maybe I would be happy.
    Sherbear83 Sherbear83
    26-30, F
    May 17, 2012

    If Only

    If only I had finished highschool, if only I hadn't left home at 16, if only I had gone to college, if only I hadn't been a teen mom, if only I had stayed skinny, if only I had left....
    LS1985 LS1985
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2013

    What If?

    What if Eve hadn't eaten that fruit? What if Jesus had never been born? What if no wars had never happened? What if Hitler's mother had gotten the abortion she had originally wanted? What if my ancestors had never come to this country? What if Martin Luther King hadn't been...
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    Jul 18, 2011

    I Think About What Could Have Been

    I think I am finally over her and starting to truly appreciate the beautiful man I am with now. But not going to lie memories from the past come raging back sometimes, and I catch myself wondering what could have been, if things went differently. I can't even tell you what would...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 2, 2013

    I Wonder Sometimes

    often times i wonder what if... what couldve happened if i didnt do this... if he had did that... and so on. then i jus say to myself, maybe that's how things should be. What's meant to be will be. I often wonder where would me and my ex be right now.. would we be living together...
    ItWasJustADream ItWasJustADream
    22-25, F
    Dec 6, 2010

    What If My Parents Belived In Me

    I wonder what my life would have been like if my parents belived in me, if they were there for me.. I used to wonder so may things.. and now I know that even though my past was far from what I would wish on anyone, it is because of that past that I am here today and I am who I...
    baiely25 baiely25
    31-35
    Jan 2, 2011

    I am plagued at times with wondering what if.

    That last night we spent together just might of saved his life. Yet, I had to be cold and heartless, because I listen to another's lies. To this day it still haunts me. How could your best friend (now ex friend) lie about sleeping with your boyfriend? It destroyed two lives. How...
    ScarlettAngelica ScarlettAngelica
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2014

    Only one thought for regret

    that could have changed all my life...to have said yes to that cute insecure but brave shy girl. It seems we pay hard our mistakes.
    4biandu 4biandu
    31-35, F
    Jul 15, 2014

    I wonder how many people really know,

    little things could have, and can make made a large difference in life. For example, what if my Dad never left Mom? I know him. He's a good person, and a good paying job at that. He's also cleaned himself up from when I was young, a completely better person. Wouldn't it mean...
    RoddyB7589 RoddyB7589
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 3, 2014

    I Had The Chance To Kiss Him

    I used to really like this one guy. He was my best friend. At a really low point for him, I was the only one around to comfort him. He told me he wanted to kiss me, and I REALLY wanted to kiss him. But I didn't. He had a girlfriend. I didn't, but he did. So, I hugged him and...
    MyUnspokenWord MyUnspokenWord
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 15, 2012

    you can go thru life second guessing

    and wondering this or that. The problem with that is, you'll never be truly happy with what you've already done or have. It's good to strive for the best for yourself, but once you get there be thankful and be stoked that you made it. For those of us that came up short of our...
    Rc831 Rc831
    51-55, M
    Aug 19, 2014

    Just Too Late...

    We been really close and good friends for years now. He's my best friend and I can tell him anything. He's been there for me when I was going through a really hard time in my life. We met in church and I had a major crush on him, but didn't tell him as he was older than I was...
    Vix3n Vix3n
    26-30, F
    Sep 22, 2010

    I think about what could have been

    if the Pilgrims were a bunch of hippies instead of a bunch of stiff necked christians. I think about what could have been if the colonists had integrated with the Native people instead of conquering them. I think about what could have been if the USA didn't send a bunch of...
    Mossonarock Mossonarock
    41-45, M
    1 Response Dec 15, 2015

    What If'S And Could Haves...

    The what ifs and could haves will feed on your mind. Unfortunately this is all too true. I have a place in a dusty back corner of my brain to store them. I admit that a few may escape sometimes and run rampant for a while...feeding and growing into something monstrous... I’m...
    kittysoftpaws kittysoftpaws
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2013

    All The Time...

    I think about what could have been nearly every minute.... I think about you almost daily.... I think about what could have happened if I just told you the truth.... I think of what could have happened if I never left town... I think of what could have happened if we stayed...
    ladyzantorian ladyzantorian
    18-21, F
    Feb 5, 2012

    I knew a girl years ago

    and we used to hang out as friends. Things progressed and we eventually became boyfriend and girlfriend. It was all going pretty well until one day her father died suddenly. It was really tough for my girlfriend. She worked so hard trying to take care of her mother and her...
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    May 16, 2014

    Junior year of high school I hit

    that crossroads. sometimes I wonder what would've happened if I didn't choose the military.. I would still be with my high school sweetheart. still be close to all my family and friends. I would want to be a cook! Things would be so insanely different.
    jacob3171 jacob3171
    22-25, M
    Mar 17

    Not a day in the past 8 years do i not think

    about it, i should have said yes and not cared about who got hurt then, it wouldve been less people hurt then if i took you up on your offer now. I miss you...
    MunecaTrizte MunecaTrizte
    26-30, F
    Feb 3, 2014

    Could Of Been A Mom

    I had a miscarriage last year. I always wonder what would've happened if I would've had it. I know I would of been the best mom ever. And i see all these ignorant people that do drugs while there pregnant, or just make the most ridiculous parenting choices. And all I can think...
    uNiTRIPx uNiTRIPx
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 7, 2012

    "What if the one that got away came back" I've

    wished for that every day for nearly two months.
    xSundip xSundip
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 19, 2014

    Cast Aside And Left Adrift

    When there is someone in your life that you have grown attached to and you spend a lot of time with them, talking every day, and then one day they just start to pull away, it leaves you feeling like all of it had been unreal. The time you spent together and the thoughts and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2012

    Why Bother Though?

    You can't change time... But It really makes me sad to think about things that might have happened If you didn't do this, or you did that... Ughh.. It would be so nice If I could go back In time and do a few things differently, because my present is pretty suckish right now =/
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 3, 2011

    But not in the way that I wish things were

    different. More in a wondering what would have happened in my life if I had made different choices. It's interesting to contemplate the possibilities. But I don't want to change the way things actually are. "One small decision can change your life! That's why I always let...
    TKD1 TKD1
    51-55, F
    Feb 17, 2014

    Forget it! It's soul destroying!

    !! Life's full of second chances. You never know!!!
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    May 16, 2014

    Regrets...

    What if..... You had never walked out the door that night? What if.... We had stayed home together and snuggled up in bed? What if.... We had fallen asleep in each other arms? Instead.... You broke your promise, You destroyed the trust You shattered my heart.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2013

    Would My Life Be Different?

    If my dad didn't beat our family, would my life be different? If my mom hadn't left us, would my life be different? If my dad hadn't made me and my brother run away, would my life be different? If I had gone to school and had a proper education, would my life be different? If I...
    XxLoneFoxxX XxLoneFoxxX
    18-21, F
    Sep 4, 2011

    Most Of All...

    I spent a lot of my life wondering about what if things turned out differently. How would things have been if I was closer to my parents? How would things have been if I wasn't so heavy? What would it be like if I had been able to truly finish college? So many things. The one I...
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 1, 2010
    lss0807 lss0807
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014

    We all do this...it is counterproductive.

    ..and won't change he present or the future... But it's human nature... The key is to learn from our choices and keep moving forward.
    amisfitlady amisfitlady
    41-45, F
    Mar 7

    Everyday

    I have wasted too many days thinking about what could've, should've, would've etc, etc if I said this, or I did that. Ehh, I always say I'll change and actually go through with what I really want but I am so scared. I'm scared of rejection, I'm scared I'm not good enough, and I'm...
    Retrokid Retrokid
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 9, 2011

    I play the story over

    and over in my head. I remember when he made me laugh and that's when I realized that he was all I ever wanted. It didn't matter how he looked or how he awkwardly tried to talk to me, I really liked him for him. He was one of the only guys in my grade who ever talked to me or...
    sammichs sammichs
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2014

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    kerenccaa kerenccaa
    26-30, F
    Dec 15, 2015

    When I think about what could of been,

    there are many things that come to mind. The number one thing though is not trying harder to be a professional singer. I know there was a good chance I wouldn't of made it,or if I did I might of got into drugs. That's why I didn't try harder,but still it was always my dream.
    Willpeace Willpeace
    41-45, M
    Dec 18, 2015

    I always think back to

    when I was 5 years old and daydreaming of what I thought life would be like as a 15 year old. I'd thought I'd be thin and drop dead gorgeous and very very smart. I never thought I'd go through depression, anxiety, ematphobia, self- hate, and self-harm. I never thought that I...
    Violingal15 Violingal15
    16-17, F
    May 19, 2014

    Possible Hook-up?

    I went on a celebrity cruise a couple of years back. It was absolutely amazing, and I'd never experienced anything like it. On the first night there, the group was throwing a party out on the lido deck. The entire ship was there. I somehow managed to snag a spot next to the pool...
    VendettaVita VendettaVita
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2012

    What if? I do think back

    and wonder what wouldve happened if I did the opposite and what life be like if i chose another direction but then where I am now would not happen!I know I over analyse my life and question everything when sometimes I should just let it go and live it without contemplating!But...
    LittleMilwee LittleMilwee
    22-25, F
    Jul 11, 2014

    What If?

    I think of this more often than I wish to. If I could just release the past and keep moving on, which I know is possible if I convince myself to do so, everything would be much better. The intrusive thought; "What if?" often keeps me awake at night. It also has the power to...
    BellaFairy BellaFairy
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2010

    I could have called a cab earlier,

    taken it to the bus, and saved ten dollars. Damn
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 22, 2015

    2014 it's off to great start financially

    but i have a setback,, the girl who stole my heart years ago with her compassion and beautiful smile is more than likely getting back together with her ex, I don't mind if it makes her happy I truly want her to be happy, god knows I've seen her heart and with a heart like that...
    lambino lambino
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2014

    I can't help myself. It's the what if,

    could have been, and over thinking that gets me into trouble.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 7, 2014

    We met online and dated 3 months

    before breaking up over differences. He wanted to live with his parents until he could buy a house and I wanted to move out as soon as I finished school in Spring. I didn't see it working in the future if he wouldn't at least consider budging and moving in with me at some point...
    xienien xienien
    22-25, F
    Nov 27, 2015

    If Only You Didn't Hide

    I think about my days in high school and how insecure I had been. I may have gone to a arts school but the old staple of cliches and them vs. us was tried and true. I was the outcast of all outcasts never making many friends if any and staying as quiet as ever yet you seemed to...
    LilletBlan LilletBlan
    18-21, F
    May 7, 2011

    I Tried.

    "Leah... that is just what you were. just some random person who messaged me.. the only reason i sent you that song was because i was joking around. and still... you are nothing more to me then just a person behind a computer. that is all you will ever be to me. i just came along...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 8, 2013

    Where did I go wrong

    or get off track? I still want to live abroad and travel. Instead, I mother a teenager and share a very, very small office.
    zeeva70 zeeva70
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2015

    What Would Have Happened

    if i had told you? how did you really feel about me? if you returned my feelings, if i hadnt of given up on you, would we be together today? would i be happy instead of miserable? would i be a normal girl like i use to be? would i have married you? so many unanswered questions.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2010

    I Love 3 Girls

    3rd time im telling this i know but another ex has come into my life again , just recently ive ended ( on a break kinda ) my 2 1/2 year relationship its been over two weeks since being apart & she wants meee back :/ now my ex gf started to talk to me again we get along really...
    EjTwinty EjTwinty
    22-25, M
    Nov 3, 2013

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    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
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    Apr 20
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    26-30, F
    Apr 20
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    nocool nocool
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 20
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    priscilladillson100 priscilladillson100
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    This isn't I like to talk about mainly... So I guess it began last year. I met her and tbh she seemed like she couldn't cause any harm. I was 14, she was a bit younger. We just...
    DamageKey DamageKey
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    Think long and hard. Most that are thinking of having an affair only think of whether they could get away with it and how exciting it could be. Most never dream of just how...
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    56-60, F
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    It could be anyone. It could be your mother, your sister or somebody you know. It could be your friend, it doesn't even have to be somebody you know. You could react anyway! You...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    4 Responses Apr 19
    I have been told this so many times. "I love you forever" "I'll be there for you always" but none really stepped up to prove it. Either they get tired too easily or isn't really...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 19
    I have been told I do. I I don't find them to be spectacular. they are hazel so they change. I find that people with an agenda will talk about my eyes. I am suspicious of someone...
    DirtyRead DirtyRead
    36-40, M
    Apr 19
    I can't stop thinking about you so I will indulge myself and remember everything without trying to shut it out. I don't know what tomorrow brings but tonight I celebrate memories.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 19
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