I Think I Have a Eating Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 202 People

    My Story ....

    so i have always thought that i am too fat , im not huge and maybe not even overweight but i feel like im huge most of the time . i cant describe to you how much it hurts me , sometimes i hit myself when i see myself in the mirror , or cut myself or something like that , i...
    ElisTheme95 ElisTheme95
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 10, 2010

    Im not sure if i have an eating disorder

    but i dont eat alot & when i do eat i throw up...
    TahirC TahirC
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2015

    The meds I'm on for ADHD

    and depression suppress my appetite so much. But even when I try to eat I hear myself think 'how could you want that? You fatass. You'll never look good with that waste occupying your already huge body.' 'do you really need that? Of course you don't.' 'Youre gonna get fat' 'haha...
    underageloner underageloner
    13-15, F
    Apr 1, 2014

    Day 5

    Ok so today was horrible, I feel like crap... When I yoke this morning I felt so sick and weak. I jumped out of bed and ran downstairs to the kitchen eating everything in site I had: 2 bowls of cereal, 4 crackers, a glass of orange juice AND an apple.. I felt disgusting and I...
    Sarahoc Sarahoc
    18-21, F
    Sep 30, 2013

    3 years ago I was diagnosed with an anxiety

    disorder and put on medication for it. My life's changed since then and I've since stopped taking it because it made me depressed. I've lost the depression almost entirely, but the anxiety is back. This is not shocking, I've been off my medication for almost a year now. I'm...
    Mystickitty Mystickitty
    18-21, F
    Mar 6, 2014

    Start Of An Eating Problem

    Okay so I've been obsessing about my weight since I can remember about 12.I've never done anything drastic maybe skip a meal here and there but now I've been feeling so fat&gross looking to myself.I feel like I weigh 200lbs and I barely way 120lbs and I'm 5'4.I skip meals...
    notreadytomakenice notreadytomakenice
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 25, 2011

    ...

    Food scares me. Food makes me want to cry half the time. I hate food, it makes me hate myself so much more. Food is my own worst enemy next to myself. I hate food, I hate when people make me eat. I just want to be skinny. I don't want to be fat and ugly no more :((
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 17, 2009

    Is it possible to have a eating disorder

    and have a normal weight? some days I eat hardly anything and their are some days I eat everything in sight but I'm normal weight I lost 15-20 pounds in a month or two I gained some of it back but my weight is constantly up and down and it gets to the point where people say I'm...
    booboo157 booboo157
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

    It's Not That...

    I don't think I'm fat. No, it's quite the opposite. You see, I think I'm waaay to skinny to be healthy. That's just the way I'm built, though. Tall and thin. It's just... Ever since I moved here, I haven't eaten the way I used to. I could spend entire days eating when I lived in...
    forgetmyname forgetmyname
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2008

    I Don't Know What To Do...

    Four years ago, in my freshman year of high school, I don't know how, why or when exactly, but I started to cut back on what I ate and I liked it. I felt like I had control when there was little in my life at the time. That hungry feeling that I grew to love was a great...
    mandycat992 mandycat992
    18-21, F
    Apr 9, 2012

    Help Please

    I am 15 years old, 5' 8'' and weigh around 122 pounds according to the school scale. my home one reads about 3.5 pounds heavier. if the fact that I know that doesn't tell you how obsessive I am about my weight, I don't know how I could ever explain it. At the end of the summer, I...
    YourVictim YourVictim
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 5, 2009

    I sit around wondering

    if I truly do have bulimia but I don't at the same time. It hurts to know I may have it. The constant battle with food just kills me.
    babybree527 babybree527
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2014

    When I was younger I never ate.

    Not because I was scared to gain, but because when I was hungry I never felt like actually eating. The thought of it even made me nauseous at times. As I got older, it went away and I started eating a lot more. My family would even get surprised at how much I ate. Yesterday...
    Prettylildyke Prettylildyke
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    Started From Stress

    When I got dumped I wasn't able to eat. I would munch through out the day. Little ity bity things. But if I ate big meals I'd throw it up. Not on purpose, but because I was so stressed out I'd get sick to my stomach. Slowly I began to loose weight and I'd eat 1 meal a day...
    Seyon Seyon
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2009

    I go on periods of starving myself

    and working out secretly(and hating my body,negative thoughts,anxiety around food etc) and periods of somewhat normality(able to eat SOME junk foods without guilt till much later,sometimes even guitless) and lapse between the 2 rather often
    khloesaffron khloesaffron
    16-17, F
    Apr 10, 2015

    I Think...

    I am totally against anorexia and bulimia! But lately I had noticed that maybe I kinda have an eating disorder... I don't eat like I should.
    Melzz Melzz
    16-17
    Nov 16, 2011

    My Story

    I guess, officially, I've always been 'skinny'. I never saw it. I still don't see it. I doubt I ever will. It seems like my eating disorder developed when I was 15... maybe before then. I weighed 109 pounds, standing at 5'1". Looking back, I always had this thing about...
    UnspokenWords UnspokenWords
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2009

    All I Think About Is Food

    Ever since I became a mom, I have a constant tug of war with food.  (7 yrs and 3 kids later now)  I am at the top of my weight for height and know I need to lose weight but I am going from one day eating nothing, just hoping I can go days...
    bryan6791 bryan6791
    26-30
    Mar 29, 2009

    I haven't been eating a lot

    and when I do eat . I feel guilty and fat . The other day I ate a shortbread Cookie and a piece of steak. Today I ate a turkey sandwich chips and five grapes . I've lost ten pounds so far . Even when I'm hungry I don't eat I just let my stomach growl or I'll drink juice should...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 25, 2015

    I Don't Know What's Wrong With Me

    I grew up in a household where food was scarce. When we had it, I ate heartily. I loved food.  As a teen, I never had any weight issues. I didn't diet.  I was happy with my size - I was about 5'4 or 5'4 1/2, and I wore juniors 5, 7, or sometimes 9. My problem began after I had...
    ComputerBlue ComputerBlue
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 20, 2012

    Do You Think I'm Having An Ed?

    hey everyone! so, here's the thing. everytime when i feel like i have just eat waaay too much food, i purge. as far as i can remember, it first started at least about 1 year ago. well i have to say that at the first several months, i didnt do it regularly. it was only about 2...
    seeker04 seeker04
    18-21
    1 Response Apr 12, 2011

    I feel as if I am really chubby.

    My family and friends say I am the right size. I have been skipping meals, and limiting calories. Then exercising even when I am sick. I end up depressed and really fatigued. I have been feeling really dizzy lately. I got down to under 700 calories. But every once in a while...
    puppylove16 puppylove16
    18-21, F
    Feb 14, 2015

    I...

    won't eat all day, and if I do eat, it wil be after school, and I will just binge.... I hate it.
    wewantcowbell wewantcowbell
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2007

    Idk, i guess i've always been this way.

    ..it simply got worse with time. I'm not anorexic, or bulimic or a binge eater or anything along those lines. I don't have issues with my weight or my body or anything like that. In fact, I loathe exercise and abhor puking, so no worries there. My 'problem' is that my eating...
    IAmOptimusPrime IAmOptimusPrime
    22-25, F
    Nov 30, 2014

    Is It Worth Is It...

    I just cant eat anymore. im losing weight I cant tell people I don't want people to think im weak. I have had to deal with everything on my own. I was raped and I cant even speak about it. no one knows anything about me. I have started cutting again and im afraid im falling apart...
    Takemeaway91 Takemeaway91
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2013

    Afraid Of Food

    When I was younger (about 9 or so) I was diagosed with Esophagitis. I was very very sick as a girl, if I ate the wrong thing I would spend a week on the couch with the worst stomach bug. Throwing up was a common occurance. When my body had purged everything in my system I began...
    EyesOfSeraphim EyesOfSeraphim
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 16, 2011

    I just lost 10 pounds in 11 days.

    I'm also having health issues. I don't know how I feel...
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse
    22-25, F
    Nov 16, 2014

    Starving In New York City

    People, we get it, obesity is unhealthy, and not very attractive either. But here's a news flash. Anorexia is pretty unhealthy and ugly too. Pretty much everyone knows that a healthy mind, body and soul involves living squarely within your BMI (body mass index). Well everyone...
    MaxineR MaxineR
    36-40, F
    Feb 23, 2012

    All I Think About It Weight

    When I first meet someone, the first thing I do is try to guess how much they weigh. I judge anyone and everyone on their weight. I feel beautiful when I'm hungry and guilty when I eat. But I do eat, so I'm not really qualified as having an actual eating disorder, but it sure as...
    better345 better345
    16-17
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2009

    I Don't Know Where I Stand.

    I turned 24 three days ago. I was made redundant from my job a month before. People always talk about having a love/hate relationship with food, but I've always just had a hate relationship. I don't have a comfort food, or even a favourite food, it's just never interested me...
    KismetWave KismetWave
    22-25
    2 Responses Jun 25, 2010

    I have a feeling I'm forming an eating disorder.

    I am suddenly preoccupied and aware of food, dieting, and exercising. My friends tell me to stop dieting because I look sexy. When guys tell me that I look fine and I should eat more... I get upset. If I do eat in a restaurant. I overeat... consuming thoughts about all the...
    Rambunctshezz Rambunctshezz
    22-25, F
    Dec 10, 2015

    I'm not even a real bulimic.

    All my life I was "skinny minnie" or "youre so tiny, I hate you" and i ate anything and  everything I wanted. But no matter what my weight, I have always felt like if i could just loose five or ten pounds my life would be so much...
    betterthanthis15 betterthanthis15
    18-21
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2009

    I Finally Notice The Fight

    I’ve been a bulimic for these past 3 years (as far as I can remember the intensive “episodes”). I never admitted the name ‘bulimic’ for myself, but since 2011, I’ve been admitting that yes, I am a bulimic. But still, I never admit that I need help, always think that I...
    seeker04 seeker04
    18-21
    Jan 5, 2012

    I Am Turning To Anorexia World

    hello everyonei had been bulimic for 7 years nowi hate every day of these yearsi look in a normal weight and for the people who live with me they always said that it's amazing cus they saw me eating alto butthey do't know that i throw up every thing goes down in my...
    malak227379 malak227379
    26-30
    May 4, 2012

    I'm not sure what to think right now.

    I've gained about five unwanted pounds this year. Nothing major, still thin. Just a little bit of excess fat that I recently gained. I wanted to lose it, and I've been thin my whole life and never worried about dieting at all. So I started looking things up about dieting. People...
    Justventingg Justventingg
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 26, 2015

    Eating Disgusts Me.

    Every time I eat I just can't finish everything or I'll take little bites. For the past three weeks eating hasn't really been with me. I know I'm hungry, I'm starved actually. I've been eating one meal (small portion) a day, if even. I don't know why... I don't know if I'm...
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 7, 2011

    Bulimic?

    I don't want to believe it. I took a test online to see if i was. I've always seen the word, never had experience with others or myself being one. I didn't know taking laxatives was considered bulimic. I tried telling my boyfriend, but he's a stick and he knows what bulimics are...
    greyscales greyscales
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2013

    Anorexia Or Just Stress?

    Life has been extremely stressful the past week or so, and I haven't really been able to eat properly- at least that's what I think. I'm also facing low self-esteem issues right now... And I recently "recovered" from a self-declared anorexia just a few months ago. I honestly can...
    simplestsecrets simplestsecrets
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 14, 2013

    Forget to Eat Sometimes

    i don't have any specific weight loss goals and i never have i mean i never wake up and say i'm not eating today it's just sometimes i don't get hungry and when i do i can only eat a few bites of food before i feel sick but then there are those days when i get these cravings for...
    DeadlyInnocence DeadlyInnocence
    18-21, F
    Jan 1, 2009

    Eating Chalk

    I eat 4-6 boxes of chalk on a weekly basis and i have been doing it since i was 14, now m 26 and i can't stop. i don't know how to. i eat only crayola chalk.when i have these cravings i feel like m going insane if i dnt get it. i really want too stop but i dnt knw how.i'm...
    addicted2it addicted2it
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2012

    I Think I Have An Eating Disorder

    First and foremost I first must say I donthave a problem with food, Food has a problem with me. I used to love food, and I still do, I just cant eat it. The thought makes me want to throw up. I went to the doctor and he didt even listen to me at all, gave me wierd pills that i...
    LifeIsWhatItIs7 LifeIsWhatItIs7
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2010

    I Think I Might Have a Problem

    So, I used to be on the Atkins diet and I was so so so skinny and I LOVED  it. Everyone told me how horrible it was for me. I got sick of it and I stopped doing it. I gradually started gaining more and more weight. Now I am HUGE (Or at least I feel huge). I am married and my...
    HCurry416 HCurry416
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2007
    larlarmmxii larlarmmxii
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2015

    Can someone message me please i think i have an

    eating disorder but im not too sure :/ somethings not right!!
    PreponLovato PreponLovato
    18-21, F
    Jun 5, 2015

    I ordered Chinese tonight,

    and I overate. But my roommate is home, and I can't purge. She's not doing anything, and the walls are thin, she'll definitely hear me. But I'll put on so much more weight of i don't...
    WhereThereIsHope WhereThereIsHope
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2015

    I'M Scared Of Eating! :/

    I'm a 21-year-old young woman from South Mississippi, & I have a confession to make. I will admit that when it comes to food, I eat like a rich person. I'm not lying! I'm actually scared of eating, & I have my reasons on why that is. It all started when I was 17 going on 18...
    evielovesrocknroll evielovesrocknroll
    18-21, F
    Feb 10, 2013
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