I Think I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    I have always been more sensitive

    than most. I cried EVERY time my mom left me any place until I was about 5, whether it was when she dropped me off at daycare/school, a relative's house, sometimes even a friend's house. I remember waving goodbye to her out the window, and if I wasn't allowed to I would scream...
    Jujubee45 Jujubee45
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2014

    Maybe, Maybe Not

    Well once I hit puberty at 13 MAN did I go insane! Literally, freakin' NUTS!!! Talk about drama queen!!! I personified it. When I first saw a psychiatrist, though, (at age 18), I was diagnosed as Bipolar and treated for Bipolar Disorder for years. Sometimes the medicines worked...
    afreimann afreimann
    41-45, F
    May 17, 2011

    Too Much Drama

    i am crazy. That is what most say. Crazy. Detached from reality is the psychiatrist's point of view. I fluctuate. A monster has lived inside me most my life. I like to try to kill it. Mostly with alcohol. Or sometimes it comes out , like when I drove off the road and smashed into...
    smartie10 smartie10
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2009

    There Is No Beginning To This Story. I’m Working With A Puzzle Here, And I Don’t Have All Of The Pieces

    I told my mom the other day – you know why I’m so unhappy when I’m in a good mood? It’s because I know how infrequent they are, I know that good mood is bound to change, and I don’t know when it will change. As soon as I said that I got a phone call from someone that...
    PlasterBowl PlasterBowl
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2012

    This is what it's like

    when a fight with my bf makes me panic... My thoughts are racing My heart hurts When you talk It makes it worse Can't you see I'm panicking Please stop Please think I need you to hold me I need your love Do you love me? Am I enough? Let me inside your head I won't stop...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 29, 2014

    I Don't Even Know Anymore.

    I'm going to write this while my head is clear, but I don't know how long this bit of sanity will last, so I apologize in advance if I start rambling like a lunatic. As of late, I have felt completely pyschotic. Just these last 2 months, I've lost it. I'm 16, so I don't know...
    jinkxthewolf jinkxthewolf
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 6, 2012

    I Am Concerned.

    Lately i have been doing research in to Borderline Personality Disorder. I have been compairing my triats along with those who suffer from BPD. I am concerned because I believe I may have it. Ever since I was a teenager I have had depression come and go periodically. I never...
    Inkdblondie67 Inkdblondie67
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 19, 2012

    I Just Don't Know What To Do Anymore...

    I feel ******* crazy. When I used to consider myself bipolar....turned out I was just looney and it wasn't that. But I never stuck with therapy for them to see if I may be borderline as they suspected my mother was. But I'm reading into it because I'm scaring myself. I just get...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2012

    there are so many personalities disorders

    and I think I fall into more than one,I think it's possible that I might have bpd as well but I just don't know honestly.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 23, 2015

    I Truly Think So.

    After multiple hours of research, I honestly think I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I have taken quizzes and they all say that I'm very likely to have it. I'm not 100% sure on what BPD is, but the description of the disorder matches me perfectly: constant instability in...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 28, 2011

    So i posted here earlier today,

    and i have so much i want/need to say but i have no idea where to put it and im pretty sure this is bpd related so here goes 7 years ago i fell in love with someone. One day i told her i loved her and she laughed at me. I felt like i had just died. I hurt so much that i just...
    TheWanderingWarrior TheWanderingWarrior
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2014

    I'm in hospital trying to figure out

    whether I have BPD or what the heck is going on with me. What's been going on with me since I was a kid. I'm so grateful for this site to have helped me remember that I was given a (slight?) diagnosis of this in the past. Once I started looking into it I came to see that it's...
    Ilovehavingbraces Ilovehavingbraces
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2014

    I lash out for hours at a time,

    then I might get depressed for hours at a time. others I'm really happy. sometimes super excited over nothing. I started looking at symptoms of personality disorder and I matched all of them. I might bring it up to a doctor or therapist and see what they say. I've been like this...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 2, 2015

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    ClazzyGalXO ClazzyGalXO
    31-35, F
    Jan 8, 2015

    I Think I Have Bpd.

    I can't afford a counselor. I have never been to one either. I need to know what is wrong with me, I feel like I am dying. I feel like I don't even care if I die. I am 33 years old. I grew up between my mom and dad (I could 'choose' where I spent the night, so I played them...
    hurtinggirl hurtinggirl
    31-35
    1 Response Nov 14, 2009

    How I Think BPD Affects My Life

    My name is Crystal. I am an Asian American living in Japan. I believe that BPD has been making be suffer and putting extreme strains and dents in my relationship. I was emotionally and sometimes physically abused by my stepfather. My mom was never around. My dad and I weren't...
    drowningdolly drowningdolly
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2013

    so im here again. i almost lost a close friend,

    well my only friend really, today because of a misunderstanding. She never actually left but the thought of her leaving filled me with me with so much grief it felt as though somebody just told me she died. i was literally crying. i don't know how ive made it this long, or how...
    TheWanderingWarrior TheWanderingWarrior
    26-30, M
    Nov 17, 2014

    I am going to start counseling

    for the umpteenth time next week. i always give up after a few sessions because i never feel like the counselor understands what i am saying. like really empathizes with what i am going thru. i was diagnosed as bipolar 5 years ago. i didn't pay any mind to that diagnosis because...
    jennilynn24 jennilynn24
    26-30, F
    Feb 20

    I'm really scared and depressed.

    Its been affecting me and my relationships on a severe level, I think this last time, this last relationship I was truly happy and it ended up failing and I still can't let go. I finally broke, and I don't know if I can come back. I know I should see a therapist, but insurance...
    Becauseitsjustme Becauseitsjustme
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 22, 2014

    so i get really really frustrated

    and angry over the littlest things (i.e. someone interrupts me and i scream at them, an app crashes and i punch a wall) and recently i found out that's a symptom of bpd. it also could be bipolarity, i really don't know. i have really severe mood swings constantly and i'm really...
    imaginecolors imaginecolors
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Sep 27, 2015

    I had a panic attack Friday night

    and was suicidal, I went to the hospital and the psychiatrist told me he thinks it's likely I have borderline personality disorder. If this is true it would explain so much. I am a mess these days.
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

    I think I have known

    that I had borderline personality disorder since I was in my teens. My, then, therapist diagnosed me with disthymia. After thirteen years of cognitive behavioral therapy, she retired. I did very well until I had my child. Then I had very severe suicidal thoughts. My doctor...
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub
    31-35, F
    Jun 23, 2015

    Can someone describe to me what it's like to

    have bpd? How does it affect you? What exactly is it? Thanks so much
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    Sep 22, 2014

    Ive never shared anything like this with anyone

    before so im just gonna write as it comes to. Im in my late 20s and ive spent the majority of my adult life feeling this way. Only after reading something here did i even consider i might have bpd. Everyday is a constant struggle, an epic battle. I am afraid to get close to...
    TheWanderingWarrior TheWanderingWarrior
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2014

    Yo. I think I have BPD.

    All the things people talk about experiencing and the symptoms of borderline are things I experience. Eating disorder, self harm, self-hatred, etc. Any other borderline people want to talk to me. I'm really sad. Let's be friends. Thanks.
    Emilyyyyy Emilyyyyy
    18-21
    3 Responses Dec 6, 2014

    Attempted suicide Wednesday night.

    I'm not feeling very well these days..
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 26, 2014

    I think I may have borderline personality

    disorder. It's a little hard to deal with. I know something is wrong with me and I don't want to live my life thinking that and not doing anything about it. I am 17 years old and I know some people say you can't be diagnosed until you are 18 but I am certain of this. I am...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Nov 26, 2014

    If you're in Northern New Jersey

    and have a high degree of empathy, join my meetup group. Http://meetup.com/NNJ-Empathy-Meetup/ We already have over 40 members. Our next Meetup is June 10 in Fairlawn, NJ and over 10 people have RSVPed. Why should you join our group? So that you can connect with similar...
    Roxvox Roxvox
    31-35, F
    May 23, 2015

    The Madness That Goes On Inside Of Me - It's A Never Ending Battle

    After multiple hours of reasearch, I honestly think I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I'm not 100% sure on what BPD is, but the description of the disorder matches me perfectly: constant instability in self-image, self-worth, behavior, and mood. While doing research, I also...
    TheNotSoAverageGirl TheNotSoAverageGirl
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 23, 2011

    I Think I Have Bpd.

    I can't afford a counselor. I have never been to one either. I need to know what is wrong with me, I feel like I am dying. I feel like I don't even care if I die. I am 33 years old. I grew up between my mom and dad (I could 'choose' where I spent the night, so I played them...
    hurtinggirl hurtinggirl
    31-35
    Nov 14, 2009

    I will be 40 this year

    and can no longer cope. I fly into rages, have ragged depression, lie over ridiculous things, and have major fear of abandonment. I also have dermotillomania as well. I am tired of living this way. I used to work in the mental health field but have secured a job in IT and...
    MissB74 MissB74
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 12, 2014

    Am I Crazy?

    I feel crazy! Not as crazy as normal today though. I don't feel angry, or sad, or manic. i should write this before I go crazy. So when I get manic, or sad, or angry, it's weird because I don't always remember what happens or what I did. And when I'm somewhat normal and not crazy...
    CourtneyChaos CourtneyChaos
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 1, 2013

    I feel like I'm on a roller coaster,

    I'm constantly going up and down. I feel confident and raring to go one minute and I'm feeling despair, desperate and empty the next. I hate not knowing how I'm going to be from one day to the next. Sometimes I experience rage, sorrow, shame, panic, terror and I'm nearly always...
    dte21 dte21
    22-25, F
    Feb 19, 2015

    I think I might have borderline personality

    disorder. I am bulimic and am also diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. I am taking medication to help my mood but it seems to not work well with my other problems. I tend to get angry at myself and others if I get critiqued or something. My...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Nov 26, 2014

    I think (know, really)

    that I must have BPD. But I still wish someone would validate me by telling me that I do... Any takers? This is desperate, I know...-I fly into a rage at my bf when his friends are mean to me.. I mean violent rage. Screaming, hitting, crying. It's bad.-I always end up in...
    phoenixsfire phoenixsfire
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2014

    I Think I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

    With me you never know what you're going to get. I'm so all over the place. I have battled depression for the last 15 years, attempted suicides, lost friendships, relationships, issues with self worth, I am very self destructive. I can be so sad sometimes but then I get pretty...
    Canadian45 Canadian45
    22-25
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2013

    Idk if this is something that's typical of

    someone with bpd. But There's this guy and I've been seeing him for about 4 months. Things are getting more serious between us and I like him a lot. And... I can't stop pushing him away. I told him I want a break for a few weeks. I have no idea why because I actually want to be...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2014

    Im so emotionally unstable.

    My mood fluctuates for no apparent reAson. I feel like I'm going insane.
    ImelissassilemI ImelissassilemI
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 15, 2014
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