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I Think I'm Bipolar

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    So Depressed Right Now

    I've been on Abilify and Prozac for 3 weeks now, but I'm depressed again. I say again because last week I was up. Flying high, over the moon, etc. At first, three weeks ago, I was so happy to be feeling better after months of depression. I was exercising, happy, motivated, but...
    DawnKitten420 DawnKitten420 26-30, F Oct 29, 2011

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    Anyone who has seen all of my posts today

    and yesterday might get a glimpse of all my personalities! I have extreme highs and extreme lows with not much in between. Its like a roller-coaster of romantic emotions! Not lovey romantic, the one that means exaggerated.
    Xychorite Xychorite 16-17, M Dec 14, 2014

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    This is my first post here,

    I may sound a little boring, but I have been depressed for a while. I'm 21, female and unable to analyze my feelings and state of being right now. I have extreme mood swings, between the gap of a few hours, when I am most affected by some thoughts. This has been going on for...
    Springbreakdown Springbreakdown 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    How can someone be okay

    for a moment then breaking down the next, caught between trying to improve themselves or destroying themselves? This royally sucks.
    Yummchi Yummchi 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I've been having serious mood swings

    since I started college. I would feel like I'm on top of the world and I own the place one second, then the next would feel like I'm a complete loser with nothing to gain or give. My friends said that they find it disturbing how I'm happy and goofy in the morning and later in...
    HowArtThou HowArtThou 18-21, F Mar 1

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    EdibleSplinters EdibleSplinters 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 26

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    I'll Probably Never Get Checked

    I've always had a really hard time with emotions, I jump quickly, I panic easily, and rarely think before reacting. My mom, 48, recently was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, Her father was bipolar and commited suicide when she was young, My grandmother on my father's side was the...
    Xipyps Xipyps 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2008

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    Initially I was diagnosed with depression

    and "adjustment disorder" but now when I think about how on a daily basis I am an "emotional roller coaster" and match up the symptoms of bipolar disorder. There is no doubt in my mind that this is what I'm suffering from. I've taken Zoloft for many years followed by Paxil and...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 12, 2014

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    It's hard to explain.

    Obviously I'm not going to diagnose myself, I shall maybe see someone if it gets worse. However, I can have certain episodes where I completely shut off, I zone out of nearly all conversations I am in and I just end up feeling genuinely down. This can happen for a few days up to...
    Stillnotbroken Stillnotbroken 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 3, 2014

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    I Hate Myself

    I just don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why, but I just hate myself. I'm like my own worst enemy. All of my life I've been like this. I'm constantly conflicted, or constantly switching between things. I can be happy one second, and pissed off the next. I can be calm...
    Devin55 Devin55 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 23, 2012

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    My mood changes all the time

    and doesn't just fade from good to bad it can go from on the verge of wanting to commit suicide to being overjoyed. Sometimes I'm really happy and positive, sometimes I lose almost all hope. I looked it up and they're called mania's; periods of time where one mood just takes...
    dessertqueen dessertqueen 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I've always thought I have this to some extent,

    though not fully; I can sometimes control letting my emotions show. But they change so quickly with one little thing that happens that shouldn't even be a big deal. They're always so intense that I feel physical pain often from them. I can't breathe often when I feel angry or...
    WolfyWillow WolfyWillow 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4, 2014

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    I have never been professionally diagnosed,

    however, and I'm too afraid to mention it to my parents. I exhibit the usual "symptoms" I suppose you could call it. At times, sometimes for multiple weeks I feel fantastic! I have plenty of motivation to get things I need to be done finished, I can feel more social and outgoing...
    Derse Derse 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2014

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    My Emotions Are Off The Charts

    My mood changes constantly. My therapist says that bipolarity is where you're extremely happy for no apparent reason for a couple of days then you're pissed for no reason. I sometimes feel that way, sometimes I don't. I don't get it.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    My mood changes when you open up your mouth

    and nothing but stupidity come out.
    tfoy tfoy 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I'm not sure what being bipolar is

    but my friends say I'm bipolar.
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F Feb 24

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    My mood changes randomly.

    One minute I could be happy and joyful, but the next I'll be in tears sobbing. This has been going on for 2 years straight. I've never thought of seeing someone because didn't think it was a big deal, but my close friends and family are noticing it.
    disneylover3 disneylover3 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2014

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    I need help. I just don't feel normal at all.

    All I do is worry about anything and everything. Sleepless nights, poor appetite etc. but my biggest problem is my mood. I can flip at the smallest of things, like dropping something. I usually am more down and depressed then up days. I'm slowly pushing all my friends away to...
    shells1911 shells1911 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    Basically the only way I can explain how I feel

    is, There will be periods when I'm happy and just completely hyper and I feel completely fine and nothing bothers me and I feel like I'm on top of the world and no one can ever bring me down and then the next day or moment, my whole body could just shut down. Like I'll feel so...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2014

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    Never had myself diagnosed but.

    .. I may have it.. the symptoms seemed to be there... living inside me, crawling aching withdrawing. i read about its promiscuity... i am one... but never feeling bad about it because sex to me is just a need... like feeling hunger, so we need to eat. There is no emotional...
    lovetilyouhate lovetilyouhate 26-30, F Oct 20, 2014

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 6

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    Lucid, But Drunk

    After smoking pot daily for months on end, I've hit a three day stretch while at home from college (I know it doesn't sound like much). But I haven't felt this clear headed in ages. It feels liberating in a sense. Because bud is so accessible at college I always buy it ( no...
    mccaslin mccaslin 18-21, M Mar 6, 2013

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    Is It Valid? Need Feedback~~

    H ey guys, I am a grad student who is trying to create a public campaign to make people understand bipolar syndrome and people who have it better in order to eliminate/fight with the stigma. I just revised my storyboard and in the stage of needing feedback from who ever...
    Niplus777 Niplus777 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 17, 2008

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    What is it like to live in my head?

    Everyone thinks they're a special little snowflake and I am no different. I'm sure other people must experience the things I experience and yet I feel some need to try to explain it as if noone could possibly understand them without me putting it into words. Being in my head...
    taylorC92 taylorC92 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    Here are top 10 home remedies

    for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder. In fact, those suffering from bipolar depression must consume it on daily basis. Fish oil improves the functionality of brain and...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 3, 2014

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    I have so many mood swings

    and I looked up symptoms. I think I really am bipolar.
    hn6653 hn6653 16-17, F Mar 3, 2014

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    Me Too...

    I am 46 years old, married for 27 years and have 3 kids...for 15 years from the time i was about 28  i was depressed..drank alot and screwup up finances until i cracked and took some pills..i went on antidepressents which i still am on.. once again..i have screwed up...
    copper80 copper80 46-50, F Jan 7, 2008

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    Long Story Short

    there are times where i can be as cool as ice, and with not a single care in the world but a slight change or something i said goes unheard can get me going into mad zone, and get trerribly angry till i get my way, or as it it supposed to be, just the same i can be terrubly...
    cogliostro cogliostro 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 10, 2011

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    So, I've been really reluctant to post anything

    here but I'm just taking a leap of faith I guess. Two years ago, I was extremely depressed and was getting suicidal and I wrote a note which was found by my old band teacher who then had me talk to her about what I'd been feeling. She was confused because I had been fine, fine...
    BryannaC BryannaC 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    I was diagnosed as a kid.

    .. So many people say their bi-polar yet they have no I sea
    Thatgy Thatgy 18-21, M Jul 4, 2014

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    I'm most of the times depressed.

    ...but i also find myself going from depressed to insane quite quickly
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M Jan 25

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    Not Diagnosed, But I Think I Am...

    This is how my mood goes throughout the day: Irritable. Numb. Okay. Annoyed.Apathetic. Happy.Bitchy. Angry. Depressed. Hyper.Empty.Suicidal. Numb. It's a different pattern everyday, and the moods can last an hour to 30 seconds. 
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5, 2011

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    Trying To Understand Who I Am And Why I Do What I Do ...

    I can say that i am very awkward but not a freak. I have friends and we all get a long but i still don't feel like i "fit in" with them. I always compare what i have to what they have and the way they act versus the way i do. I think i'm ugly and i always settle for less. It's...
    jennbomber jennbomber 18-21 Sep 29, 2013

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    I go from one extreme to another in two seconds

    flat. One minute I'm happy, next I'm in a murderous rage, next I'm sobbing like a baby. Sometimes I'm switching emotions so fast I don't know what I'm feeling. It's starting to ruin my relationships. My brother doesn't understand, my sister doesn't believe me, my best friend...
    cuteshyginger cuteshyginger 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    I don't know what's going on with me .

    i think I'm having a manic episode or something idk I just am a wreck I don't get this
    idkhby idkhby 13-15, F Jun 30, 2014

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    I change my mind so often that

    even I can't keep up with it. And i don't mean about simple things like clothing, or what I want for lunch. I go from wanting to be with my boyfriend forever, to wanting to break up with him and date someone else, all for no reason. We've been together for nearly a year, and I...
    Dodgey4 Dodgey4 22-25, F Feb 2

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    Being Unable To Explain Is What Gets Me

       Not being able to explain my problems is what gets me the most. These waves that keep occuring much too often finally took a toll on me. I began to type my symptoms into the google search engine and the first thing that pops up is borderline personality disorder...
    lehbam lehbam 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 30, 2010

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    Since getting alopecia i think i have bi-polar.

    I easily cry and am depressed all the time. I hate my life and i hate the way i feel. I hate wearing a wig as it makes my head itch and feel hot!!!!!
    AchingSoul AchingSoul 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    My Life Is a Rollercoaster Ride.

    I honestly feel like I have bipolar disorder. I have done excessive research on it because my mom suffers from bipolar disorder, but still denies it and refuses to take medication. Throughout the day, I experience a rollercoaster of emotions. The most common one is sadness. I am...
    SmartLady SmartLady 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 16, 2007

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    I Know Something Is Wrong(?) With Me But I'M Not Sure What It Is And If It Has A Name

    [EDIT: I'm definitely going to talk with a professional as soon as I make some extra money. I got really good and helpful answers here but some things can be really contradicting so I'm still confused] Hi everyone, first of all I want to make clear that I am not sure if I'm a...
    WeTurnToDust WeTurnToDust 18-21, F 5 Responses May 8, 2013

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    I have been alone for almost 5 years now,

    and my mental state is worsening. I have suffered from some form of depression and later bipolar disorder for almost all my adult life but now I'm beginning to see and hear my dead parents. I walk into the kitchen and sometimes I see my father sitting at the kitchen table...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 26, 2014

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    I've been getting these really intense mood

    swings, like one moment I'll be really angry at my friends and never want to see them again, and the next I'll love them and never want to leave them. Also with people. When I talk, we'll just be talking about some random thing, and I'll be happy and hyper, but then I'll get...
    LopsidedLollipop LopsidedLollipop 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I think I am bipolar.

    I feel depressed and angry easily over thoughts in my head, 99.9% on how people have treated me with rudeness, betrayal, indifference and unfairness. In another second when a normal person talks to me in a normal tone I can adjust myself instantly to normal state. Recently I...
    Ssslm Ssslm 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I dont have a diagnosis,

    but i know there is something wrong with me. Im tired of being so up and down, and confusing and frustrating the people around me. I have one friend who I can tell everything to and she is very close and dear to me but I can tell my mood swings are making her lose her patience...
    kendallllll kendallllll 18-21, F Feb 26, 2014

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    The Secret Of My Bipolar Boon!!

    I had been daignosed for bipolar disorder and what I think is Bipolar disorder is not a curse its in fact can prove to be a boon for the person if he learns to manipulate his mania and he learns to be patient while a depression phase.. Mania is like a boon for me..I feel so...
    freebirdbywill freebirdbywill 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 27, 2012

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