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    Today I got my exam results

    and I cried so hard because in my 12 years school journey I've never failed , and I've always been one of the first in my class This year, the year were my next step will be in college I failed in math and it's hurt so bad because I have to wait 5 months tell my next exam so I...
    jazara jazara 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2015

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    Maybe it's the way she made me feel alive.

    That's the conclusion I've some how managed to boil out. Whether it's true or not is indifferent, but nevertheless I'd have to do more reflecting to confirm that anyways. There are a lot of things in life that are mediocre, love shouldn't be one of them. I think that's why I...
    smoothvibe smoothvibe 22-25, M Feb 12, 2014

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    Feel like I can't control myself.

    I keep doing things I know aren't beneficial to me, but I like the momentary pleasure they bring. Sometimes I do things I don't care for just to avoid the important things I ought to be doing. Why bother doing important things anyway? I'm hopeless, a terrible investment that won...
    postrattling postrattling 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2014

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    I think so ,because

    whenever something amazing happens to me ,I only give a small smile or a fake big smile.No-one knows about this side of me,I bet they must all be thinking"that girl is always in a good mood, why doesn't she ever get sad?"but the thing they don't know is that in the...
    Marcysonline Marcysonline 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

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    I've been feeling really messed up the last few

    days (more than usual). I decided to write down how I feel and it sounds like a suicide note. I'm not sure what I want to do about it.. save it? burn it? I don't know. All I know is I'm scared and alone and don't know how to tell anyone.
    keke8714127 keke8714127 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 16, 2015

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    Think it's about time I post this :S.

    Please do not judge me this is veryyyyyyyyy hard for me. I know it's long sorry ha. About 2 years ago when I was 13/14 (underage and a minor) I was forced to send pictures to a guy who was 26 he had a fake picture and made a fake account who he called his girlfriend to hide the...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm miserable! Lately i don't

    even know myself.. I have never been this depressed! It's affecting my senior year at college, my grades aren't good! Plus i've lost 2 close friends! Nobody from my family stands by my side! I need motivation to keep working out because if i skip one workout i become more...
    lara15 lara15 22-25, F Oct 13, 2014

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    Think it's about time I post this :S.

    Please do not judge me this is veryyyyyyyyy hard for me. I know it's long sorry ha. About 2 years ago when I was 13/14 (underage and a minor) I was forced to send pictures to a guy who was 26 he had a fake picture and made a fake account who he called his girlfriend to hide the...
    deadspiritied deadspiritied 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    I Was Depressed

    A lot of people get depressed because of loneliness, homeless, longing for love, no friends, bad grades, dropping out from school, fired from work, accidents, etc. Every year that happens to all of us, each time we get depressed, because of what happened to us and our life. I...
    Vikusha Vikusha 16-17 2 Responses Nov 11, 2008

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    Actually, I am almost positive

    that I am depressed. Lately, I can't find even the littlest motivation to get me to do my daily activities. I used to be so bubbly... I'd wake up with my dancing shoes on, eager to start my day. Perhaps it's miserable of me to disregard the things I should be grateful for...
    tiffanyandasaltshaker tiffanyandasaltshaker 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    And it's so ******* annoying,

    I don't know if I am or not someone please help
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 28, 2015

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    I feel like **** all the time.

    I think about suicide all the time. I don't know how long I can do this. I tried to reach out but my mom doesn't give a ****. I need help.
    WildCoyoteGirl WildCoyoteGirl 13-15, F Sep 13, 2015

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    I Just want to cry...

    ... Everyday I go home and sit for hours thinking about my life thinking of ways to end it
    ZFACE101 ZFACE101 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2015

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    For the past few weeks I've felt

    so alone, my grandmother passed away and she was the person I always talked to. It's been almost a year and my mom has changed she's always either crying or yelling at my brother and I. Her boyfriend never listens to her and doesn't treat her right not abuse or anything but it's...
    Alone00 Alone00 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2015

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    I'm not really sure whether to embrace it

    or fight it. I'm not sure I have the strength of will to fight it. Mentally I can, physically I can, but emotionally? I'm not so sure. I think I'd rather be stoic and bottle it up. After all, I can't even cry. I haven't in years, even if I want to. Maybe I'll embrace it and turn...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 31, 2015

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    I want to die Hello, I'm nearly 16

    and I think I'm depressed. I'm a little ashamed to admit it as I have a very good life compared to other people and I have no reason to be depressed. I'm in a loving relationship, I have an understanding stepdad, etc. The problem is, I'm stressed with school. I get awful...
    mysteryteen mysteryteen 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    Today was my 17th birthday

    and just like last year, I did nothing on my bday, I was sad I didn't hangout with anyone and I was home with my family. I got presents and I'm grateful but I just felt so empty like something was missing. This year I've been so lonely, I used to be a social butterfly with sooo...
    itscarolina27 itscarolina27 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2015

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    I am not crying all day lying in my bed.

    I don't even know if this qualifies as depression. But there is something wrong with me. It has been a while since I feel excited about anything, I just go with the flow. But don't even get excited about the little things that made me happy before. What is this, I am not even...
    willil willil 36-40, M Jul 3, 2015

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    I'm Finally Getting Help

    This year was my freshman year of college. I had a complete and total meltdown during the second semester. I became withdrawn, not going to classes, not even leaving the room except to eat (and even then only sometimes). Finally, my family became worried and called the school. I...
    maladicta maladicta 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2011

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    I'm not sure exactly when

    or why I started feeling this way, but now that I'm thinking back, I've been dealing with problems of being really emotional, tired all the time and loss of sex drive for at least a year now... I ignored these symptoms, thinking they were side effects of a birth control I was on...
    knuxbbgrl knuxbbgrl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    I know i have friends,

    but we have never hanged out so i feel like i dont. I know i have family, but they have one by one lost my trust so it feels like i dont. I know people think im attractive, but i still hate myself more every night. I feel like i need to start cutting again and im so lonely and...
    Xychorite Xychorite 18-21, M Mar 12, 2015

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    So I decided to diagnose myself.

    Depression. that's the word. im depressed. and it's based on something that is so irrational. I'm blaming myself cause i have no one else to blame. it's all coming from my past. my failed relationships. I always want to be around someone or talking to someone. and when I'm alone...
    Jose020 Jose020 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2015

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    Hm. I feel hopeless and empty too much.

    I feel like crying but I can't bring myself to it. It's not being sad and morbid I feel, it's just the hopelessness of humanity and how I'm repeating the same life the majority of people do. Birth, work, die. Makes me feel pointless. When I try open up to people I just get...
    BeCautious1 BeCautious1 13-15, M Oct 10, 2014

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    Idk. Every little thing is getting me mad

    or sad. I feel empty. I dont want to hurt myself at all but i feel like crying
    Stressed14 Stressed14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    I Think I Am

    I get sad alot. I mean a whole lot like every day. Every morning is a struggle to get out of bed and get my day started. I kinda wish I could hibernate. You know, sleep 6 months. The only problem with that is having to stay up the other 6 months. That would be so horrible. 6...
    feelingmisplaced feelingmisplaced 22-25, T 6 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    I feel very unhappy, like a failure,

    and like there's no hope in my future. I'm mostly happy though well at least around people care about. People usually resort to cutting themselves, suicide, or drugs. To those three things I say what's the point. Suicide will only cause sorrow for your family I care about them...
    DexterPyro DexterPyro 13-15, M Nov 3, 2014

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    USED TO anyway. I don't want to be one of those

    people who claim mental issues but don't really have any, but about 5 years ago, I think I did have something going on in my head. I knew I had a good family, a pretty good life, there were times I did enjoys myself, and I didn't really want to die any time soon. But I had...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Jul 2, 2014

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    yeahohwell yeahohwell 13-15, F Apr 25, 2014

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    I don't FEEL depressed necessarily.

    ...but I've haven't been going to class. Sometimes I don't do any of my homework and never leave my dorm. Sometimes I can't get out of bed. Sometimes I sleep all day. I don't really have an appetite but sometimes I want to binge eat until I can't eat anything more. I'll...
    inspirefyre inspirefyre 18-21, F Mar 18, 2015

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    I feel so fvcking helpless

    and sad and here's why. Everything. School starts tomorrow & i'm in shock. Summer really did go by , but then again it's only a couple weeks long. For me , school causes my depression . First off i have bad anxiety attacks every day every single day i go sometimes it's so severe...
    ThePrettyOnee ThePrettyOnee 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I'm sitting at the library in my university,

    I have to study for a test but my eyes hurt and I feel the tears in my face... My past is feeling like a present... I can't stop crying
    Anotherfailmatty Anotherfailmatty 18-21, M Dec 22, 2014

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    I'm probably not, and this is probably just me

    over reacting because i tend to do that. But I've noticed things about me, that I've been paying actual attention to lately. But i don't have a full understanding of what depression actually is, i want to know and yes I'm researching but can anyone tell me what is going on with...
    catchingyourclouds catchingyourclouds 18-21, F Jul 30, 2015

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    I can't do this anymore.

    I can't just keep acting like I'm OK. I'm not ok. I think about suicide every minute of every day. I wonder why people don't care anymore. I know I push them away. but I can't keep putting this fake smile on when I'm crying inside.
    Kelnea Kelnea 16-17, F 1 Response May 18, 2015

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    sommer02 sommer02 18-21, F Feb 25, 2015

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    If I died today would you notice somthing is

    wrong and worry tomorrow? Would you answer me if I called you at 3am? What would you tell me now if I was going to die tomorrow? If I told you I was going to commit scuicide what would you say? If I told u I was still a cutter what would you say?
    100BlackRoses 100BlackRoses 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2015

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    WHY?!

    I feel so depressed so angry like I just want to scream but nowhere is good enough :( I hate my life I hate school (a little) but most of all I hate myself. I've been bullied in primary school and now I'm in secondary. I HATE I repeat HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HORROR MOVIES. I...
    nobodynumbah8 nobodynumbah8 13-15, F Sep 14, 2013

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    You know that feeling?

    Like there's no such thing as fulfillment in life. I don't know why it's so apparent recently. I'll buy stuffs and want to buy more and more stuff and it continues this desire. It's the same with relationships too, I'll demand a lot from lots of people. And then there's a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 6, 2015

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    My Eyes Exposed Me!

    I'm not complaining, but I'm just tired of how much complicated my life is! It is not a normal life, it is not stable, it is not easy, thousands of issues are in my mind, and I'm so lonely, I have no one to turn to! I was thinking today about how I stopped being happy for a long...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 28, 2011

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    Why Not Start By Listening?

    Call it what you will, but there is this part of you – an innate wisdom, if you will – that has tried and tried and tried to get you to stop and fix a part of you that broke a long time ago but you've told yourself that you either don't have enough money, don't have enough...
    maxximiliann maxximiliann 36-40, M Mar 14, 2012

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    Someone please explain me; When I am at the

    house I either hang out in my room or in the living room. Especially when my grandparents come my anxiety increases and I literally spend 95% of the time in my room when I am awake. Even though I leave the door tiny bit opened, I keep isolating myself. And even without them I...
    Katerinafaith Katerinafaith 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2015

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    i feel just like curling up into a ball

    and just passing out. if i happen to wake. itd be so nice if life was totally different than it is right now.
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F Dec 2, 2014

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    I don't want to do anything at all.

    I never went out without wearing make up but the last few days I don't even want to get ready to go to work or go out. I started not wearing make up to go out. I don't want to chose clothes to wear, so wearing the same clothes. I'm just so sick of working long hours for the...
    purly purly 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    Back Again

    Last year, I suffered multiple eating disorders that I believe lead me to depression. Looking in the mirror and hateing what i saw EVERY day just took it over the edge and I noticed weird habits. I didn't feel happy when I would smile, ever. I didn't think anything was funny...
    xxDreamerXx88 xxDreamerXx88 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2011

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    Alone. Away to family

    and friends. Still no job. I'm starting to be hopeless. God help me... :'(
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 16, 2015

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    Ugh, i dont even know anymore,

    somedays ill be fine, the next ill be back to square one and feel horrible, random panic attacks like today, with no apparent provocation. Im thinking of going to a support group, maybe they can help, although i find it easier to open up without meeting someone. That, and im not...
    Ashley318 Ashley318 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 25

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