I Think I'm Starting to Understand My Father

So I guess that if I was going to say my dad had an excuse for saying stupid, hurtful things to me growing up it would be that his fatherly intuition was never really established. He was given up by his mother and sent to...

It's nights like these where I just want to scream at him, "WHY WERE DRUGS SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME?!?"
I am sitting here, all alone.  I used to be with him on Friday nights.  Many, many moons ago.  There...

I think im beginning to understand why my father acts the way he does. Alot of it stems back to his own childhood and the way his parents brought him up, I guess it cant have been easy and I can see where some of his actions stem from.

I am beginning to understand my father but just a little. I don't think anyone could really understand my dad completely. When I was young and lived in the house with him and my mom. I couldn't stand him. We fought all the time. We had...

And it breaks my heart. We are very alike, but I will be happier than him. I'm so sorry, he's really an amazing person, he deserves it as much as I do. Unfortunately this illness led him to drink, denial and anger. That won't be me.

As I approach his age, I get him better and better.

I'm at the doorway between my child days and adulthood. I guess now as I talk to him and grow up i can see where he is coming from.

Dead dad,
                  I apologize for not visiting you today, but I'd end up crying as I always do when I go to see you....because sorrow is the...

In the beginning......there was Mom, Dad, and the three of us. Then it was Mom and the three of us. Dad was gone, making a new family.....it is what he does best!! I didn't say anything about taking care of us, he just makes us. And...

But not so much these days. i wonder if he's the reason I don't like going home, and I think he is definitely a big part of that.
Maybe one day I'll share some stories about our epic battles, about him bashing down the...