I Think I'm Starting to Understand My Father

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    my dad is a addict and achoholic.

    . and now im understanding why he could never be here for me. not because he didnt want to its because he cldnt. his lifestyle, his choices prevented it. he kept me away because he knows none of its right. he doesnt want me to see that life. well now i understand. last year i...
    Zaquoya Zaquoya
    18-21, F
    Nov 10, 2014

    As I Approach His Age, I Ge...

    As I approach his age, I get him better and better.
    numisiro numisiro
    36-40, M
    Jan 5, 2009

    I Guess He Does the Best He Can

    So I guess that if I was going to say my dad had an excuse for saying stupid, hurtful things to me growing up it would be that his fatherly intuition was never really established. He was given up by his mother and sent to an orphanage on Christmas morning when he...
    arnoldisabstract arnoldisabstract
    22-25, F
    Apr 10, 2009

    I Think I Really Do

    And it breaks my heart. We are very alike, but I will be happier than him. I'm so sorry, he's really an amazing person, he deserves it as much as I do. Unfortunately this illness led him to drink, denial and anger. That won't be me.
    ocelia ocelia
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2009

    Will Never Happen

    not sure what else to even say on that issues all the wordsin the would will never help me understand them or how i was treated as far back as i can remereber
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Sep 26, 2011

    Growing up, I thought

    that my dad never really liked me. He constantly verbally, mentally and emotionally bullied me way more than my siblings and I feel those effects to this day. I have real "man" issues which I won't go into here as well as a load of other problems. I now understand that my dad...
    ThunderWaffles ThunderWaffles
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    Maturing

    I'm at the doorway between my child days and adulthood. I guess now as I talk to him and grow up i can see where he is coming from.
    otaku588 otaku588
    16-17
    2 Responses Feb 4, 2009

    A Letter to My Father

    Dead dad,                   I apologize for not visiting you today, but I'd end up crying as I always do when I go to see you....because sorrow is the only emotion that overcomes me this day...
    numisiro numisiro
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2009

    Only a Little

    I am beginning to understand my father but just a little. I don't think anyone could really understand my dad completely. When I was young and lived in the house with him and my mom. I couldn't stand him. We fought all the time. We had nothing in common. The biggest problem was...
    HurricaneLeia HurricaneLeia
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2008

    I Never Will.

    It's nights like these where I just want to scream at him, "WHY WERE DRUGS SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME?!?" I am sitting here, all alone.  I used to be with him on Friday nights.  Many, many moons ago.  There are so many things that would be different...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2009

    I Understand My Biological Father, It’s the Step-dad That Stumps Me.

      But not so much these days. i wonder if he's the reason I don't like going home, and I think he is definitely a big part of that. Maybe one day I'll share some stories about our epic battles, about him bashing down the bathroom door when I tried to get my own space...
    smebro smebro
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 1, 2007

    After Years of Pain

    I think im beginning to understand why my father acts the way he does. Alot of it stems back to his own childhood and the way his parents brought him up, I guess it cant have been easy and I can see where some of his actions stem from.
    NiRiada NiRiada
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2008

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