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I Think of Killing Myself Every Day

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 67 People

    lost my direction. feel like it is inevitable.

    some weird feeling in my head. just feel like it. know i shouldn't. it all doesn't matter anyway.
    despratethinking despratethinking
    31-35, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    Garbage

    I joined the military, falling for the recruiting propaganda that I would gain confidence, self esteem, and "brotherhood." The truth is I have never felt more alone and worthless. I have old injuries that cause me constant pain so i am not good at pt and because of it I am...
    Khgtm23 Khgtm23
    22-25
    1 Response Nov 28, 2012

    Help

    Well my life is complicated! I have attempted suicide more times than I care to think of! I honestly don't know why I am still here cause I should be dead most days I see myself as a failure because hell I can't even kill myself and that's what I most want is to be free from this...
    Karolboo Karolboo
    26-30, F
    Sep 16, 2012

    Unseen All In Your Face

    Where to start i Look at everyones Blog to get an Idea we Must all Havea Dark Past that will stay in the Back of your Mind Feeding on the Pain or Hate Luckly I got So Much my Past Is a Beast that Walkes. Yea sounds crazy but When i fill i cant take enuff he hands me the Gun...
    GeneUnseen GeneUnseen
    31-35, M
    Jul 13, 2010

    the oldest trees on earth are the best

    tombstones, life comes full circle
    miimii0069 miimii0069
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2015

    I Cant Have His Baby

    im really in like with this guy. i care about him so much and really want to be with him. we had unproteted sex and i could be pregnant. hes freaking out about it. i honestly dont think i am. he says he wants a kid just not now. he wants to be a good provider and i can respect...
    roulette roulette
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Aug 29, 2008

    I Don't Understand It

    For quite some time now, I've thought about killing myself every day. It's weird, because I don't really have anything to complain about. I've got good friends, I'm finally in a curriculum I love, with great coursemates and teachers, I'm not poor or malnourished, I have a secure...
    eter eter
    18-21
    1 Response Feb 3, 2011

    Idk

     When I was young my slow uncle tried to molest me . He locked me int the bathroom until I played with him. I was used to getting yelled at . I thought I'd get in trouble I said nothing. When I was ten she told me , she hates me my mother that is. She goes to work to get...
    pennylanesmith pennylanesmith
    26-30
    Jun 16, 2010

    That's How You Know I'm Fighting

    It's not even a thought either,it's more like a ... consideration.I should say I consider killing myself every day. It is very hard for me to walk away from that and turn away.See how nice I am to me? I am good to myself even when the rest of the world isn't!!
    WiltingBlossom WiltingBlossom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 28, 2011

    It...

    It ******* hurts to be living and I realized a few years ago that life doesn't slow down it just keeps coming full force and hard...I feel like I'm stuck in a ****** up stalemate....my life has been **** thus far and I think about killing myself everyday all day...I've...
    blue4u2009 blue4u2009
    18-21, F
    Oct 21, 2009

    Why Bother?

    This feeling haunts me continually, it is there when I wake up, there throughout the day, there when I go to sleep.  It has been for as long as I can remember.  The pain, the loneliness, it has worsened if anything over the years.  The only time this urge hasn't...
    FranzJosef FranzJosef
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jul 6, 2007

    Feels like everyone talk bad about me

    and i cant even tell my family im bi . I hate having to think that my family will hate me like everyone does . Ppl constantly call me bad names all the time and half of them know im bi i cant deal with it anymore k know. Im a guy and guys dont get TOO emotional but. I cant...
    dduon1 dduon1
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 18, 2014

    I Try To Keep It Inside

    Ever since I can remember I've always thought about killing myself as early as 6 or 7 years old I hate my life just absolutely hate it, always have. At 7 I got raped by my brother(he is only a year older then me) but according to my mom I didn't know what I was talking about...
    Erazula Erazula
    22-25, F
    Feb 28, 2013

    I Dont Wanna Die

    i have sucidal thoughts almost everyday since i was 11, and its not some much that i wanna die, i just want the pain to go away. i feel like im suffering everyday, no matter what i do i to relive it im still in pain and death to me seem like the only solution sometimes does any...
    roulette roulette
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 11, 2007

    I Cant Have His Baby

    im really in like with this guy. i care about him so much and really want to be with him. we had unproteted sex and i could be pregnant. hes freaking out about it. i honestly dont think i am. he says he wants a kid just not now. he wants to be a good provider and i can respect...
    roulette roulette
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 29, 2008

    Not no mores. ϵ( 'Θ' )϶ //_o

    ▽・x・▽ (=^ェ^=)(=゚ω゚)ノ
    CaseyLeCuteUn CaseyLeCuteUn
    22-25, M
    Mar 18, 2014

    My sons are addicts and it's killing me!

    Can't take life anymore!!
    exbunner exbunner
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2014

    Homicidial/suicidal

    i to am deeply depressed, i have not been able to find any work, any loves, not even a friend and i am homeless, i have had deeply depresive feelings since the age of 14, when my so called father sat me down and told me i was the sole reason his life turned to ****. he then told...
    ClockWorkRed ClockWorkRed
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 7, 2009
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