I Think Thats It Is Luck Of The Draw

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    I Keep Having A Nightmare Of My Death

    in this dream I see I am looking up at a mural of myself. My hands are our forwards as if I am telling myself to come home. I see words on the right side I see pain , suffering, death. On the left side I see sadness, alone, hopeless over my head I see worthless, useless, alone...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    Aug 18, 2013

    As Of Today This Is My Vow

    With all that is new and old . with all that is past and present I am no longer straying from my plans. I have had a suicide plan since I was 18 I never went through with it in hopes that things would get better even now I still I walk though the same lines of hell I have been in...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2013

    I Think Tonight I Will Put Effort Into Dieing

    I guess I always chicken out but I am so tired and in so much pain. I will try again . I think death will make things better because life is breaking me.
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    Aug 23, 2013

    The Question. Sorry To Long To Ask

    Is it ok to hate someone? A year and a half ago I met a guy and yes a guy. we talked and we flirted it was cool. 1st time someone flirted with me. So I asked him out about 3 weeks after that ... a week later I introduced him to a friend... 2 weeks later they tell me they are in...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Feb 2, 2013

    I Think That Its Luck Of The Draw

    So once again I feel ignored. Rejected and just plain not wanted. I made these friends but in at the same time I feel like the way my old friend treat me. They talk to each other and they play around and I'll say it they hit on each other and once more I feel left out.I'm so...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 17, 2011

    Only When I Sleep

    Only when I sleep does the pain of the world wash away. Only when I sleep does it all vanish. Only when I sleep does my mind go quiet . Only when I sleep does my heart feel at ease. Only when I am sleeping do I feel any peace Only when I am sleeping do I feel free I am so tired...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    Dec 26, 2012

    All I Hear Is Lies

    You're are great. You're awesome. I would totally date you. You're so sweet. I need you in my life. Lies. People say these things to control me. To keep me in there bubble. But it's all a lie isn't it .
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 6, 2013

    No One Gets It Really Do They

    I don’t I have never had real friends. Just them. They were my real friends and family. No one else. everyone else is just a liar. No one cares.. No one would care if I died. Or even cry. It’s so funny we get sad over a person you met 30 seconds ago me I tell how I feel...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    Jun 9, 2013

    50 Way I Have Been Told I Am Not Good Enough.

    1) I am to you young. 2) I am to old (yep got this at 21) 3) I am black 4) I am not black enough (yep this was said to me) 5) I show lack of emotion (changed) 6) I show to much emotion (sigh) 7) I am not smart enough 8) I am funny but they can't take me seriously 9) I am fat 10...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 16, 2013

    This Is The Worst Month Of My Life And My Life Is Pretty Bad

    On Saturday I had a my bosses basically tell me that they hate me and the only reason the keep me around is because I do good work. Well hate is a strong word they say i'm very anti social and way to submissive which is a short list of what they said. I was so mad and looking...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Oct 4, 2011

    GRIN AND BARE IT

    I am trying to be happy. I am trying to take all the negative and just smile. But I see everything getting worse and I am having a hard time breathing. I'm scared and I think I am going to have to really end soon because finding reasons to keep going is more painful than...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 5, 2013

    How Broken Is My Heart

    I don't have a fancy cell phone to show myself being sad. I don't have a good cam to catch myself crying. I don't have the mental ability to explain my self in full detail and I don't have the time to keep feel this in every aspect of my life. I don't have someone in my life to...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 15, 2013

    Everyone Is Avoiding Me...

    Not even sure what I did.... People leave when I say hi. I get weird stand offish stuff when I say Hi.........I get WTF looks ... Ugh...
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    Jun 1, 2013
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 10, 2013

    I Am Actively Trying.

    It's getting harder and harder to keep from going back to sad depressed gonna end it me and whoa is it tough. Not sure if I can keep this up.
    NsprDash NsprDash
    26-30, M
    Aug 21, 2011
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