I Think Thats It Is Luck Of The Draw

It's getting harder and harder to keep from going back to sad depressed gonna end it me and whoa is it tough.
Not sure if I can keep this up.

You're are great.
You're awesome.
I would totally date you.
You're so sweet.
I need you in my life.

Lies.
People say these things to control me. To keep me in there bubble.
But it's all a lie isn't it .

Not even sure what I did.... People leave when I say hi. I get weird stand offish stuff when I say Hi.........I get WTF looks ... Ugh...

On Saturday I had a my bosses basically tell me that they hate me and the only reason the keep me around is because I do good work.
Well hate is a strong word they say i'm very anti social and way to submissive which is a short list of...

So once again I feel ignored. Rejected and just plain not wanted. I made these friends but in at the same time I feel like the way my old friend treat me. They talk to each other and they play around and I'll say it they hit on each...

Is it ok to hate someone?

A year and a half ago I met a guy and yes a guy. we talked and we flirted it was cool. 1st time someone flirted with me.
So I asked him out about 3 weeks after that ... a week later I introduced him to a...

I don’t I have never had real friends. Just them. They were my real friends and family. No one else.

everyone else is just a liar. No one cares.. No one would care if I died. Or even cry. It’s so funny we get sad over a person you...

Only when I sleep does the pain of the world wash away.
Only when I sleep does it all vanish.
Only when I sleep does my mind go quiet .
Only when I sleep does my heart feel at ease.

Only when I am sleeping do I feel any peace
Only when...

I LOVE YOU BACON!!!!

1) I am to you young.
2) I am to old (yep got this at 21)
3) I am black
4) I am not black enough (yep this was said to me)
5) I show lack of emotion (changed)
6) I show to much emotion (sigh)
7) I am not smart enough
8) I am funny but...