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I Thought About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 32 People

    My Thought On Suicide

    When I was 4-5 years old I though about suicide the first time. Perhaps it was the near death experience when I swallowed that coin? My mind had become so differently, and I somehow decided that I would die once I had become 20 years as soon as I fullfilled my only goal in life...
    Barlong Barlong 22-25, F Dec 26, 2011

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    Frightening Thoughts

    I used to get so depressed I would think about suicide but every time I did my children's faces would flash in my mind and I would stop. I couldn't do that to my kids. Leaving them without a mother would be so cruel . I knew they needed me so I sought help so I could get better...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2011

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    If I Don't Come Here More Than 6 Months!

    More than 6 months of my absence will tell you that I've committed suicide..I've been thinking of suicide a lot lately. Either I'm going to jump off my terrace or I'll take all the medicines at once. I'm telling it here so that my EP friends know if I die.
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    The Desert Of The Painfully Real

    This has happened a while back, while I was in the Military Service and deployed. I may have touched upon this before, but because of a friend on this site, I need to be able to post my story on here. Reveal a bit of my soul. Maybe it'll cause healing for her. Maybe, even for...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I Thought About Suicide

    It was about a month ago. I was in my room just browsing on the internet, when I had the idea of Googling the name of this woman I dated years ago. (I fell hard for her at that time, and acted childishly which is what ultimately lead to us not being together anymore; but that's...
    ipanemaguy ipanemaguy 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    So ever since I've joined EP I've seen dozens and dozens of posts about suicide, depression, and about people having lost the will to live. This really made me reflect on my past...
    SiriusJT SiriusJT 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Look. I am seeing a lot of people talking about how bad theyre life is and how they want to kill themselves. Well guess what? None of you ever think about how that effects everyone...
    toms420 toms420 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I felt peace when I think about suicide. It's not actually a bad option but to others it is, no one understands me or my situation.
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 30

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    I have just started college, I have been bullied for the past 6 years at primary school and high school, I have experienced terrible moments. My girlfriend left me during February...
    SidneyCoughlan SidneyCoughlan 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Suicide or Murder Four years back I heard news about a suicide. He was a famous actor and about 50 years old. His name was Srinath. He had been depressed for a while. Had been...
    aproudwoman aproudwoman 46-50, F Oct 9

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    today I have been thinking about it a lot so I decided to share. I am 18 years old, when I was 13, my oldest sibling and only brother Zac (16) committed suicide. The weekend he...
    lorettah lorettah 18-21, F 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I know that there are people out there who will think of me as being rude but that's alright. I think suicide is the most selfish thing you could do but as to drive someone to the...
    stajapandabear stajapandabear 13-15, F Oct 12

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    I'm that mother. And all that's keeping me from opening and downing every pill bottle in the house is the thought of my children having to live saying these words - "I lost my...
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    my first suicide was my worst, I was 14. I was staying the night at my friends house with 4 other people. Every single one of them knew I was suicidal and had several bottles of...
    theperksofbeinghayden theperksofbeinghayden 16-17, T 1 day ago

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    My best friend since the third grade committed suicide when we were twenty. Then my best friend from 17-22 committed suicide a couple years ago. My first boyfriend committed...
    dreaminghope dreaminghope 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4

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    ever since I turned 14 my life feels like I'm on a downward spiral because of suicide. I remember my first suicide attempt was really stupid. I overdosed and didn't die I felt...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I have attempted suicide multiple times. All when when I was in a very dark place over numerous years, I'm glad to say I'm now at a place in life where I'm no longer bothered by...
    Ciara1001 Ciara1001 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When ppl sees me they think I got it all...but the truth is I was depressed since I was 16 yrs .. No one of my family knew about it. I kept hiding it with "the mask of smiles...
    88hanan 88hanan 22-25, F Sep 24

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    Someone messaged me and asked to post 15 things about myself, so here it goes. 1.) I'm super independent, I don't like asking for help. 2.) But I will go out of my way to help...
    kay5262 kay5262 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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    Right I dot care of every time I come on this website something happens I need to rant about this **** I HAVE A VERY HIGH TOLERANCE LEVEL BUT WHEN SOMEBODY SAYS ANYTHING ABOUT...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F Oct 1

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    A year ago tomorrow, on Thanksgiving, my sister will have been gone for one year. She killed herself. I haven’t opened up to anyone about it because I feel ashamed and am...
    kimberlyyy00 kimberlyyy00 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 12

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    Suicide isn't the answer to being happy. Cutting isn't the answer to being happy. Starving isn't the answer to being happy. Doing drugs isn't the answer to being happy...
    burnedmemories burnedmemories 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    At age 13, I attempted suicide because I felt like everyone was against me, especially my family. I was always getting into arguments with my mom because we saw things differently...
    euphorian euphorian 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I had my hardship... When I was 15... Until I reached my 17. It was all real stuff. Cutting, crying all nights, suicide attempts, meds cocktails, depression and heck, lots of...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Another lost to suicide....... I'm in need of help :(
    mssmithy mssmithy 18-21, F Sep 29

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    I'll be another loss to suicide, help needed :(
    mssmithy mssmithy 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    I'm a gender fluid pansexual I've tried to commit suicide 4 times and succeeded once ( doctors revived me) I've talked more than half a dozen people out of suicide, I'm a...
    MrFoe MrFoe 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 29

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    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MUTcwqR4Q4Y WHAT A SAD STORY.READ IT.A MAN WHO WAS BORN A BOY BUT RAISED AS A GIRL CAUSE HIS PENIS WAS BURNED OFF.HE COMITTED SUICIDE ON MAY 4TH 2...
    Mihael122 Mihael122 18-21, T Oct 1

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    About to twelve years ago I attempted suicide. I was lucky to have survived the attempt, though I was left paralyzed from the shoulders down on a ventilator.
    silojin silojin 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've been through a lot but I no it's time to restart. It's time to leave the past thou I'll still have the memories. I believe I've tried suicide a couple of times, bad I no. I...
    JazLife21 JazLife21 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    In 5 days it will make one year. I remember the night like it's yesterday, because life changed forever after that moment. I woke up with terrible sharp pains in my head around 3...
    JacobsGirl360 JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 24

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    I had a friend from high school. She was a girl that held so much pain in her smile. She was a girl that never felt beautiful. She was a girl who had a handsome boyfriend, who she...
    livingwallflower livingwallflower 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    One girl in middle school, and then another in high school. The girl from middle school (I don't want to name names out of respect) I did not know her well, I just saw her around...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    I always hated the idea of suicide, I believed it was a stupid option to opted out but once you realise the people you love will eventually get over it, it could be the best thing...
    1prettyfly1 1prettyfly1 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    Today is 2 years since I lost my girlfriend to suicide. I miss her terribly. She was not only my girlfriend but also my best friend. And deep inside I feel as if it was my fault...
    CatySansom CatySansom 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 6

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    I got news today that my brother wants to commit suicide i cant stop crying i feel broke inside i dont want to one day get news that my brother isnt here any more
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    I lost my best friend Latasha to suicide in middle school. it was terrible. maybe one day I'll share the story again.
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    I lost my boyfriend to suicide. I still havent dealt with it, he was my best friend too. He hanged himself. It was completely unexpected even though we both had a lot of issues. We...
    featherdibs featherdibs 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I lost my son August 19th 2014 to suicide he was a good kid loved by so many but depression got the best of my 17 year boy my only son. I miss you so much buddy but you're pain...
    Hornydudetoo Hornydudetoo 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    I'm not sure all what to say, but I'll just introduce myself. I've attempted suicide more times than I can count, since the young age of three. I'm here to talk to people who we...
    elyayamama elyayamama 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    3 months ago was my most recent suicide attempt, not my first and probably not my last. I often wonder if I'm made for this world and when will I finally make it through to the...
    onlymetoday onlymetoday 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm going to have to be the one to say this, aren't I? Suicide, by definition, means taking your own life. Survival generally involves being alive. So... I'm going to go out on...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I'll keep saying this it until people get it through their heads that bullying is NOT okay. Nobody is perfect, everybody makes mistakes but don't you think the person knows that...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 10

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    I tried to kill myself about a year and a half ago. I have never told anybody - my friends, parents and SO have no idea. I still feel the way I did on that day, and still think...
    shawlhouse shawlhouse 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 5

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    He was the best roomate I ever had. We worked together a lot and shared stories about our cultures. He had a rich history and he'd tell about his life and how culture in africa was...
    FreezerDog1 FreezerDog1 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    My name's Chris. I'm 14, I turn 15 on October 30th. The day before halloween. I go to high school, 9th grade. I'm gay, closeted. I've been through things that no one that I know...
    ChrisLN99 ChrisLN99 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 9

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    I'm so flooded by memories. I call him my best friend, though im sure he hated me in the end. Funny how a few years can poison what could have been the best of friendships. I will...
    Musicthataltersyou Musicthataltersyou 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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