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I Thought About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 31 People

    If I Don't Come Here More Than 6 Months!

    More than 6 months of my absence will tell you that I've committed suicide..I've been thinking of suicide a lot lately. Either I'm going to jump off my terrace or I'll take all the medicines at once. I'm telling it here so that my EP friends know if I die.
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    The Desert Of The Painfully Real

    This has happened a while back, while I was in the Military Service and deployed. I may have touched upon this before, but because of a friend on this site, I need to be able to post my story on here. Reveal a bit of my soul. Maybe it'll cause healing for her. Maybe, even for...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I Thought About Suicide

    It was about a month ago. I was in my room just browsing on the internet, when I had the idea of Googling the name of this woman I dated years ago. (I fell hard for her at that time, and acted childishly which is what ultimately lead to us not being together anymore; but that's...
    ipanemaguy ipanemaguy 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2012

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    My Thought On Suicide

    When I was 4-5 years old I though about suicide the first time. Perhaps it was the near death experience when I swallowed that coin? My mind had become so differently, and I somehow decided that I would die once I had become 20 years as soon as I fullfilled my only goal in life...
    Barlong Barlong 22-25, F Dec 26, 2011

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    Frightening Thoughts

    I used to get so depressed I would think about suicide but every time I did my children's faces would flash in my mind and I would stop. I couldn't do that to my kids. Leaving them without a mother would be so cruel . I knew they needed me so I sought help so I could get better...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Once upon a time I was on whisper ( an app that let's you tell secrets with out people knowing who you are)and I was looking up posts about suicide .One was of a girl/boy who was...
    rachelmu22 rachelmu22 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Okay i have been thinking about suicide again for about a week or so now. I dont have the guts to acctually kill myself. I feel so selfish i dont even know ehy i want to. I know...
    kyleee099 kyleee099 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 13

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    i think about suicide a lot ..... i feel so alone..im so worthless....
    1stayingstrong 1stayingstrong 16-17, F Jul 15

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    1. Auriol P. is my soulmate, 2. I'm a teacher, 3. I was a high school dropout, 4. I have a master's degree in education, 5. I have three sons, 6. I am divorced, 7. I am allergic to...
    hysgirl hysgirl 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been suicidal in my life and also attempted it in my past. It was no cry for help or any desperate act to receive attention. I am grateful I did not succeed at the attempt...
    Auntieloco Auntieloco 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Questions About God These are my thoughts.... when you pray for your sins... god will throw your sins into the sea as if it never happened... but memory is the consequence... as...
    ChessHottie ChessHottie 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    When I was little, my mom and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11

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    I know there is a lot of pain in this world which causes people to do some horrific things... Some hurt themselves, some hurt others, while some do a combination of both and kill...
    SirCabbage SirCabbage 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 11

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    I used to have all this sympathy for people who commit suicide, but after yesterday, that's greatly lessened; I know now, without a doubt, that is the most selfish act a human can...
    GoldButterfly GoldButterfly 18-21, F Jul 4

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    June 2002 - my cousin, who I grew up with and was close to, was suddenly shot one time in the chest at 4 AM... He was 26 and it was labeled suicide... He had spoke to his aunt that...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 14

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    I am a 45 years ago I attempted suicide. To this day I regret doing it. The way I did was painful when It happened and painful every time somebody looks at me that knows my story...
    Upforit45 Upforit45 51-55, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Starting at the 7th grade and lasting until the late 9th grade yearly 10th grade I suffered with depression and several suicide attempts. I thought I was alone..because you know...
    MacKenzie31113 MacKenzie31113 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    Suicide has killed many people even someone I knew, it's not a thing to mess around with. I understand why people want to do it because they're at their lowest point in life. But...
    faithmonyai faithmonyai 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I was 15 when I lost my best friend to suicide. She was in Foster Care because her dad beat her numerous times and her mother just didn't want to be a mother. About every other day...
    Skinnylove99 Skinnylove99 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I get really ******* **** off when people make fun of suicide. Because I was like that. People say it's a joke unlit the person commits suicide.
    dominick5 dominick5 13-15, M Jul 18

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    Suicide doesnt just mean killing yourself, it also means ending the chances of life ever getting better for yourself. People out there care about you, whether theyre right next to...
    MeeeKazz MeeeKazz 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    On EP he was my friend and I was helping him stop cutting I knew that he committed suicide yesterday . It was horrible .he posted a suicide letter when he was ding and after that...
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F Jul 24

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    This suicide is of my own. Sometimes i just want to just get everything over with, take the quick exit. Life's problem can be so overwhelming. The pressure, the stress and the...
    s3gur0 s3gur0 22-25, M Jul 8

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    Pretty sure I'm about to lose someone to suicide and no matter what I say or do its not changin their mind. :/
    SpilledTea SpilledTea 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    I lost my closest and best friend. He was the best thing in my life. He had come out to his father( a homophobic *****) who had chucked him out of home. He then went to live in...
    Il0veandre Il0veandre 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    1. I'm Asian 2. I'm a guy 3. I love paintball 4. I love football 5. I am a wrestler 6. I like older women 7. I also like younger women 8. I used to cut 9. I have think of suicide 1...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M Jul 22

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    I lost the love of my life to suicide.... I was 16 and he was 18. It was a rainy depressing ohio day like always. I went over to his house to get ready and go on vacation. When I...
    Cta112 Cta112 18-21, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    I'm 16 years old. I've been depressed since i was 13. I attempted suicide at age 15 after being raped and beaten by different people. I cut extremely deep and they told me I was...
    teenagetragedy teenagetragedy 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I lost my friend in 2005 to suicide We were supposed to go on what would have been our first cruise He took his life on the train tracks He was only 23 Iwas devastated and...
    Stanray Stanray 61-65, M 6 Responses Jul 7

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    My own brother committed suicide. it really sucks that he felt that was his only way out. He didn't realize the kind of damage it would leave on the people who loved him. It really...
    eeeosborne eeeosborne 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    It's honestly not funny. If I ever see or hear someone make a joke out of suicide, depression, self harm I automatically have no respect for them.
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F Jul 18

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    My older sister Nancy committed suicide last year she was struggling a lot with her studies she wanted to be a doctor sometime I feel really sad I miss her a lot I can't accept...
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I lost a good friend on Friday. I found out as I was walking into work. It was one of those moments when time stopped. Everything just stood still. And it hasn't started back up...
    loveandlight29 loveandlight29 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    I just recently lost a friend to suicide and I'm still not over it. I'm not sure how to cope :/
    Raelyn13 Raelyn13 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    sometimes i have the feeling of doing so and i have really been feeling to do so, i need a doctor. i need someone to help get out of suicide thoughts, and thoughts of death to...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M 4 days ago

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    My cousin Amalric committed suicide when he was fifteen. He jumped off a cliff. His girlfriend of two years threw him over for his friend Pedro, so he killed himself!
    Catram21 Catram21 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    We as spirit are much stronger than we think. If we all were more in touch with our spirits God gave us and turned to him in the good and in the bad there would be no suicide...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    This is a weird piece in my history.... I vaguely recall my late father going on about a cousin of his who killed himself by sticking a pillow case/ slip or whatever, over his...
    cpthaddock cpthaddock 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    I remember when I thought about overdosing.. I still do.. I'm thinking about it right now. Most people when I tell them this they say stop being selfish and trying to take your...
    lovemehatemeidca lovemehatemeidca 13-15 1 day ago

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    I lost a dear friend. It started quite innocently. I got his e-mail and he got mine. We started as pen-pals as we lived too far apart. I would return from school happy and...
    Lurikan Lurikan 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    1) My name is Chris. 2) I have Schizoaffective Disorder. 3) I am left handed and do everything left handed except playing guitar. 4) I play bass guitar. 5) I love being...
    AnAutumnWind AnAutumnWind 36-40, M Jul 22

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    The First Time Many times...along my life: - First time was in a major change.I had it all,I was happy kid with a family.Suddenly,I lost it all.My mom died.Days without sleep...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    I was fourteen. He was fifteen. I was a freshman. He was a sophomore. I was awkward and swooning. He was lost in thought and pain. That first day when our relationship started, and...
    TeddyBearTweaker TeddyBearTweaker 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    My uncle Greg killed himself yesterday. He had been in a car accident two years ago and was in constant pain. He was the youngest of my father's brothers. I lost my dad when I was...
    random619 random619 41-45, M 3 Responses Jul 3

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    1. What's your favourite candle smell? ...clean linen 2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister? ... Chelsea Handler 3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother...
    xoHrabina xoHrabina 26-30, F Jul 4

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    I feel like the devil. I have secrets that no one knows about. I have feelings of suicide and the urge to cut all the time. My boyfriend is there for me, but he is only one person...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    1. I'm a rapper and singer 2. I feel like no one truly understands me 3. I'm sick of loving a girl that doesn't care 4. I'm really smart but I have bad grades 5. Iv contemplated...
    SYDtropical SYDtropical 16-17, M Jul 17