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I Thought About Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 33 People

    I Thought About Suicide

    It was about a month ago. I was in my room just browsing on the internet, when I had the idea of Googling the name of this woman I dated years ago. (I fell hard for her at that time, and acted childishly which is what ultimately lead to us not being together anymore; but that's...
    ipanemaguy ipanemaguy 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2012

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    The Desert Of The Painfully Real

    This has happened a while back, while I was in the Military Service and deployed. I may have touched upon this before, but because of a friend on this site, I need to be able to post my story on here. Reveal a bit of my soul. Maybe it'll cause healing for her. Maybe, even for...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    Frightening Thoughts

    I used to get so depressed I would think about suicide but every time I did my children's faces would flash in my mind and I would stop. I couldn't do that to my kids. Leaving them without a mother would be so cruel . I knew they needed me so I sought help so I could get better...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2011

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    If I Don't Come Here More Than 6 Months!

    More than 6 months of my absence will tell you that I've committed suicide..I've been thinking of suicide a lot lately. Either I'm going to jump off my terrace or I'll take all the medicines at once. I'm telling it here so that my EP friends know if I die.
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    My Thought On Suicide

    When I was 4-5 years old I though about suicide the first time. Perhaps it was the near death experience when I swallowed that coin? My mind had become so differently, and I somehow decided that I would die once I had become 20 years as soon as I fullfilled my only goal in life...
    Barlong Barlong 22-25, F Dec 26, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    It took me long enough to share this but I felt I had too. The recent death of the late Robin Williams brought back memories of own biological fathers' suicide. I was ten at the...
    ChristyyS ChristyyS 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 26

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    I have been thinking about suicide but I'm so in depth about it I have soo many questions about the pros & cons. Why do one think about commiting suicide? How to they feel about...
    djdwtw17 djdwtw17 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 31

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    Suicide is on my mind 24/7 a lot has happened recently and I'm at my friends house but I don't want to go home because I know I will commit
    QueenOfFire212 QueenOfFire212 26-30, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Fail. There's no way category of "suicide is okay" I think some people should be allowed to choose suicide as a way out. It is a mentality. It is a quick fix to a problem...
    Sacryfice Sacryfice 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year, and I wrote a book that's being published in 2015 about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 29

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    I still remember the time I tried, 5 years ago when I was 12. I popped 60 over pills into my mouth and tried to swallow them, of course eventually I did. I remember feeling sick...
    Verasayshi Verasayshi 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    By the time I was 24 years old, I long ago passed that line between social drinking and alcoholism and, in that nebulous alcoholic fog and exaggerated egoism, smirked at relatives...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    My teen daughter committed suicide last year, and I wrote a book that's being published next year about it : "Once The Storm Is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F Aug 29

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    I don't know if it can be said that I lost someone to suicide, when I didn't know her at all. You can't loose what you never had. My mother killed herself exactly two weeks after...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    Less than 10 months ago my life changed drastically, it was a sun shining day but yet a horrible day. Around 4 or 5 pm my sister found my mother dead in her bed. We had a clue on...
    ninja6152 ninja6152 13-15 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I remember all the threats he made of committing suicide and I realized he was asking for help in his own way. The time he stopped talking about it, he actually did it. So I...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    I wrote a book that's being published: "Once The Storm is Over: From Grieving To Healing After The Suicide of My Daughter." I'm interested in connecting with those who have been...
    ninabingham ninabingham 46-50, F Aug 23

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    After losing my best friend to suicide three years ago I have made it my goal in life to help others. Whether it be just sending someone an encouraging message while they seem down...
    PrincessKayleigh PrincessKayleigh 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 2

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    Some info for your quest: Numerous studies indicate that the single most helpful thing you can do for someone experiencing suicide ideation... Listen. The likelihood that you can...
    o0capricious0o o0capricious0o 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I would really appreciate some feedback and advice. I don't really know what to do. My younger brother, he's 19, is depressed. He has been for a fair while. He's secluded himself...
    JohnFaith93 JohnFaith93 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    So I wanted to commit suicide in the past, so this girl in class said ( if my bro killed himself I wouldn't care ) then I got up and walked out of class and 10mins later I went...
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M Aug 27

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    Suicide prevention week is coming up and I'm really looking forward to making a video to raise awareness. I'm really good at editing, I've now been editing for about 3 years and so...
    zennarts zennarts 13-15, F Sep 2

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    I remember thinking about her while sitting on the sidewalk. Of course, I can never think too hard about her without breaking down, so I have to keep it at a minimum. When a close...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27

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    My name is Jessica I lost my mother to suicide May 17 th 2009 but wasn't found until the 19 th . It still feels like it just happened yesterday she left behind her three children...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F Aug 27

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    I hated not being accepted for who I was. And to those who tried to help initially, I was seen as a mental problem, not a person. I looked around and my whole world seemed to be...
    CauseImMrBrightside CauseImMrBrightside 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 30

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    Why is suicide so wise spread josh marks September 5 2014 2 weeks after his baby sister committed suicide
    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I was 14-15 at the time. And he was my ex. I never knew he was suicidal. Until my mom told me he shot himself in the head. He had been drinking and wrote a suicide letter. I...
    Inherownwords Inherownwords 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    I still remember what she wore to school that day. I don't know why I can't forget. I have an image scratched so deep into the back of my mind, it's impossible to forget. Other...
    aknownothing aknownothing 13-15, F Sep 14

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    I am writing this post to hopefully save someone who is considering suicide. I know that life can be so hard, lonely, and scary sometimes, for some of us we never seem to catch a...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I just don't understand why someone commit suicide. God gave us a free will to know what's best for us. Our life is precious and we are created with purpose. I can't imagine how...
    Yojj13 Yojj13 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I just found out that my best friend who supposedly commit suicide a few months ago might not be dead... I'm about to find out for sure and I'm not sure if I'm readys
    emgg emgg 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 8

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    Always! Even on my good days it's in the back of my mind, scratching and clawing. I have tried to suicide 4 times in my life now. I can never envision life to a ripe old age....as...
    mmissy1012 mmissy1012 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    July 6, 2014. My brother committed suicide. Worst day of my life. I miss him so much. I think about him all the time. I'm always going to wonder if there was something I could have...
    NaNeenah NaNeenah 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Suicide doesn't keep it from getting worse, it keeps it from gettin better..
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I lost my closest friend to suicide
    horneyteen88 horneyteen88 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    To the many, many teenagers whose thoughts turn here when life gets sucky: i know you're obviously hurting and you feel suicide is a potential option to stop that but this has got...
    walkonthewildside walkonthewildside 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Suicide just eliminates the chances of anything getting better. :c
    Stare0fDeath Stare0fDeath 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    Some post on instagram said "This account has been comprimised... Im joking put the gun down and the blades away its still me im here haha" I commented on it saying how...
    Theheavyheart Theheavyheart 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I had this amazing best friend, the kind that you see in movies that you always wish you had but never find. We found each other when we were 16, he was working at the hospital i...
    crazyinbama86 crazyinbama86 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    ahahahaha. Just ****. I need someone to hug me right now. I need lots of hug. I meed lots of ice cream. I need to stay away from the pills or from the balcony. Come on, can someone...
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    I lost my mum to suicide in May 2012. She was my world. I still pretend she's just in holiday or something. I'll never except it. If i did I would never be able to cope
    jaimeleigh98 jaimeleigh98 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    My friends suicide note dedicated to me
    stevencollett stevencollett 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Today is the 9th anniversary of the death of my best friend... my soul mate... to suicide. Time does not heal...I hate being here without him.
    skk1966 skk1966 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    "World's Greatest Dad" starring Robin Williams counselor to Robins character Lance "Lance, suicide is a permanent answer to temporary problems" true, and Robin will be and is...
    piercethemack piercethemack 13-15, M Sep 6

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    I'm not going to lie, suicide prevention week is especially hard after the year I've had...
    panikki panikki 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Suicide Prevention Week is this week. It might bring up some painful memories, but remember, you're still here for a reason. And be someone else's reason to why they're still here...
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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