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I Thought About Suicide

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    I Thought About Suicide

    It was about a month ago. I was in my room just browsing on the internet, when I had the idea of Googling the name of this woman I dated years ago. (I fell hard for her at that time, and acted childishly which is what ultimately lead to us not being together anymore; but that's...
    ipanemaguy ipanemaguy 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2012

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    The Desert Of The Painfully Real

    This has happened a while back, while I was in the Military Service and deployed. I may have touched upon this before, but because of a friend on this site, I need to be able to post my story on here. Reveal a bit of my soul. Maybe it'll cause healing for her. Maybe, even for...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont 26-30, M 7 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    If I Don't Come Here More Than 6 Months!

    More than 6 months of my absence will tell you that I've committed suicide..I've been thinking of suicide a lot lately. Either I'm going to jump off my terrace or I'll take all the medicines at once. I'm telling it here so that my EP friends know if I die.
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    My Thought On Suicide

    When I was 4-5 years old I though about suicide the first time. Perhaps it was the near death experience when I swallowed that coin? My mind had become so differently, and I somehow decided that I would die once I had become 20 years as soon as I fullfilled my only goal in life...
    Barlong Barlong 22-25, F Dec 26, 2011

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    Frightening Thoughts

    I used to get so depressed I would think about suicide but every time I did my children's faces would flash in my mind and I would stop. I couldn't do that to my kids. Leaving them without a mother would be so cruel . I knew they needed me so I sought help so I could get better...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I'm not going to lie. I have thought about suicide. I didn't do it for attention. I honestly wanted to commit suicide that day. I didn't tell anyone cause they would think I'm...
    IDontKnowAnymore13 IDontKnowAnymore13 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    It's about my dad. He has high blood pressure, diabetes and chronic kidney disease stage 5 and he's very hot tempered, egoistic and perfectionist. His anxiety just drive me and my...
    bubblyeater bubblyeater 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    I have thought about suicide and I still continue to think about it. Every night. It seems like it's the only way out of this sadness that I feel. I'm not motivated to get my self...
    Glo59 Glo59 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Let me just let it all out. 1: my nickname is Sam. 2: I have a mild case of bi-polarism. 3: I don't think I'm really bipolar, doctors just don't understand my mind. 4: I've never...
    BlankCanvas22 BlankCanvas22 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I'm thinking about suicide still, even right now when I'm at my happiest. It's actually hilarious when I really think about it.
    nepineph nepineph 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    Do you guys ever get so used to thinking about suicide that it comforts you? Knowing it can all be over whenever you want? Im so done with physical life im excited to finally be...
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Hello Ladies and Gentlemen, How are you? 1. I am patient 2. I volunteer with kids at my brother's Sunday school, and I work with kids at a school holiday program 3. I have a...
    MyLifeJourney3 MyLifeJourney3 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I've been feeling like I need to share this experience because I have been struggling with it occasionally since I have found out about it. This experience is because of a guy I...
    betweenlustandlove betweenlustandlove 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    This is what someone else posted on FB: "Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up...
    phoebegolde phoebegolde 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I lost a friend that was as close as a brother to suicide. We had been friends since we were in cub scouts. We pretty much did anything and everything together. We had girlfriends...
    bluefireball4949 bluefireball4949 31-35, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I lose my aunt to suicide about 7 months ago. She was a very happy person always laughing but when her fiancé cheated on her she went down into a deep depression and got back into...
    ashleyboo33 ashleyboo33 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I lost my 18 year old son to suicide on September 09, 2012. IT has been a very emotional experience for me. I have my moments of sadness and then my moments of just good memories...
    esanchez5195 esanchez5195 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    I have lost family members to suicide.Thinking about them gives me nightmares.Yesterday night ,some one told me he wanted to commit suicide.I told him that I have had troubles in...
    mona87 mona87 46-50, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    My 31 year old son Scott had been having marital problems. He talked with his dad and me for the whole month before that horrible day he took his life about his failing marriage...
    ustheis ustheis 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    When I was in 4th grade, my dad and stepmom adopted a girl my age. It was honestly a horrible experience in the beginning. But as time went on, it got better and she looked up to...
    wizardofwhack wizardofwhack 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Three people now actually.... When i was 7, i lost my Grampy to suicide. He hung himself while intoxicated... November of 2011, My eldest brother, James, ended his life with me...
    TeganLynne TeganLynne 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    My half-brother committed suicide the week of March 19, 2014. This is the third half-sibling of mine that has killed themselves - the other two were sisters, and their deaths were...
    TxParalegal TxParalegal 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    My husband has been battling depression for our entire 10-year relationship. It's become a third member of our marriage; a wedge pushing us apart. And I don't know what to do. I...
    FakeIsTheNewReal FakeIsTheNewReal 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 24

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    My best friends sister committed suicide about three years ago... I can still remember the day it happened. It was June 21. We had just gotten done with our play practice and I...
    sarahjade123 sarahjade123 13-15, F Mar 26

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    My brother was 21 when he committed suicide. He hung himself in his house. Apparently you can tell when someone has regretted their decision before they die and they move their...
    OverThinker123 OverThinker123 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    On October 19th 2012 I lost my boyfriend to suicide. After a long journey of trying to help with his ever deteriorating behaviour he took his life. I am still struggling to...
    Nats07 Nats07 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him...
    shylainey shylainey 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 6

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    It has almost been a year now since I got the news that my friend had commuted suicide, he was clinically depressed for a while, he went home from school on suicide watch but me...
    projectgwyn101 projectgwyn101 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    My little brother was 11 years old and he got tired of being bullied so committed suicide. I have been keeping him from killing himself. But I had to leave for the week because my...
    Rosey61354 Rosey61354 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    There are many different reactions to suicide. Some think it's selfish, some think it's sad, some blame theirselves, and others just can't bare to process it. But no one should...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Why do people just casually say "i wana kill myself" no offense but thats just plain stupid... you wana suicide cause things are hard?? it just proves your weakness. people who...
    midnight001 midnight001 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hi my name is Julie, I am here because I dont know where else to go.............In May 2012 I lost my dad he was 82 years old, 6 weeks later my mother died of a broken heart, they...
    julesmcj3 julesmcj3 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I didn't actually attempt. There is no attempting with guns, not really. I sat down and wrote my note. It was sweet, apologetic, to the point. I told everyone I was sorry for...
    TryingFailing TryingFailing 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next...
    sambfh sambfh 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I feel like suicide is the only answer, people say that they care about me but in reality they don't
    amylola55455 amylola55455 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    A long time ago, I tried to commit suicide about five times. I was depressed, I felt like no one cared, and I was all alone. I still have the scars of my past. Both visual and non...
    halieghnicole halieghnicole 16-17, F Apr 2

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    I'm in Girl Scouts at my school, and this is a combination of 6th, 7th, and 8th grade students. Since eighth graders are allowed to be president and vice pres. of the troop, my...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    When I was 12 years old I tried to kill myself three times and almost died 2 out of the three times. When I was 13 I tried to kill myself multiple times and loss count. I am now 14...
    allytoledo allytoledo 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    My husband was 32 when he committed suicide I was 23
    uniqeuliv uniqeuliv 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    I lost my dad to suicide when I was 12...
    mariahann88 mariahann88 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    I just talked my boyfriend out of suicide I hope. He said he took the rope off. And he promised me he will see me again. Then he said he had to go. And I had to trust him. </3 I...
    Daylejess Daylejess 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Suicide is never the solution. It's egotistical. So many people suffer - parents, friends and partners. Why end your own pain to cause other people a life time of guilt and...
    oslo1967 oslo1967 46-50 3 Responses Mar 30

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    So I attempted suicide yesterday. It was scary. It didn't work. I took a bunch of sleeping pills and took a nap on the train tracks. Then I tried poisoning myself after waking up...
    DancingWithFire DancingWithFire 16-17, F Mar 31

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    She committed suicide on March 3rd and my wife and I found her on March 4th. I'm lost and don't know what to do.....This is just so unreal......
    ToliverLyons ToliverLyons 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nSCxTaKypaQ this movie is French but i really like it, it's called Suicide Room. It touched me deeply o:
    cindykaatt cindykaatt 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I actually dont know anyone close to me who committed suicide but i do know this one girl who will do it tomorrow yes that girl, is me... Ive nervous but im prepared, i dont know...
    Xcinderella Xcinderella 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 8

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    Im haunted by the sight of seeing my friend take suicide
    ILYBlackVeilBrides ILYBlackVeilBrides 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I lost my brother at 33 years old a couple of weeks ago to suicide. His death certificate says March 24, 2014 but we aren't exactly sure of the exact date which kills me. They...
    aimj1979 aimj1979 31-35, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    April 27th 2013, my best friend and unbiological brother Mark stepped onto the train tracks and killed himself. Flat out. No details, no nothing. I take almost full responsibility...
    XrealityXisXprisonX XrealityXisXprisonX 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Please grow up Self harm is not a trend Anorexia is not a phase Depression is not an act Homosexuality is not a choice Sexual assault is not provoked Suicide is not a result of...
    ILYBlackVeilBrides ILYBlackVeilBrides 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    The thoughts about trying to commit suicide are just more real yet less intense. I mean I cry about it and it scares me but it seems more like a job to be done. There are moments...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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