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I Tried to Commit Suicede

Share your suicide attempt(s) with others. You are not alone. 4,162 People

    Tried. Tried, and it didn't work.

    I even fail at killing myself. Didn't take enough pills. 3 months ago. This was only three months ago. Now here I am. Finally out of that stupid mental hospital. I get home, everything is locked away. Anything I could possibly hurt myself with, can't find it anywhere. I don't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses a week ago

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    Ever wondered what it's like up there in Heaven.

    .peaceful..no one judging you that's my happy place and someday I want to be there sooner rather than later
    XxBabyGirlKaydenxX XxBabyGirlKaydenxX 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    I'm not suicidal, and I haven't ever been.

    But I know what depression is like and I don't want anyone to go through it alone. I know I'm pretty much a randomer, but I'm a good listener and here If anyone wants to talk, male or female. I won't judge anyone for anything, Because I've done some pretty unforgivable stuff...
    skittlequeen skittlequeen 16-17, F 1 Response May 31

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    I often hear stories of people losing others to

    suicide, what they go through. It's almost an unintentional pain. Nobody wants it to happen, not even the person doing the deed. I don't think people would mean to hurt the people they love, but at the same time they don't understand how much other people love them. I can...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 1 Response May 17

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    I was so done with life

    and I wanted to die
    chimpapoo chimpapoo 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    Take Me Seriously

    Depression isn't a joke. Cutting isn't a joke. Anorexia isn't a joke. Suicide definitely isn't a joke... But why is it that when i scream "I wish i was dead" you tell me im attention seeking or yell at me? Why dont you take my words and actions seriously? What will it take? Maybe...
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 9 Responses May 20, 2013

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    GUYS I JUST REALIZED THAT SUICIDE IS SPELLED

    WRONG IN THE EXPERIENCE title. I'm so sorry. I had to say something. It was bothering me.
    SavingLucy17 SavingLucy17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    When i was 13 i tried suffocating myself with a

    pillow, with no luck When i was 15 i tried hanging myself but i was too scared to let go When i was 16 i tried cutting my wrists but was too afraid of the pain When i was 17 i tried overdosing on sleeping pills to no results At 18, i had given up, perhaps there's a reason i...
    yourpetmuzzie yourpetmuzzie 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    I tried to suffocate myself once.

    I tied thick cloth around my face, and passed out. Then I woke up with an awful headache and sort of just continued my day. I learned online that for people who want to take my route, it's best to use helium or some other form of gas to reduce panic. I used nothing, but didn't...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 Jun 12

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    jtran315 jtran315 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses May 8, 2014

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    They Told Me Its A Miracle Im Still Alive

    I'd rather not get into the details.... I don't know for sure if i was really trying to kill myself or not to be honest. I just wanted to be done with everything... I snorted half a pill of oxycodone, i popped 2 ambien, and took 25 benadril. It was such a rush for me, that i dont...
    coltonconley coltonconley 13-15, M 25 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    I can't believe I'm telling this to strangers

    but back when I was 14 I was diagnosed with Bipolar and I've been on strong antipsychotics for about 4 years well back in September I tried to commit. I overdosed on Ibuprofen (it was the only I had) I took about 30 pills which was about 2,000 milligrams over the recommended...
    AvaDay AvaDay 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I tried to kill myself with drugs .

    If you are here it means you probs have tried too . How did you do it ?
    lauraknightsoto lauraknightsoto 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 14

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    I've tried so many times.

    I hate myself to infinity and beyond I don't know why I keep bitching out right before I make my final move. I'm angry at myself for not ending my life long ago but I just can't bring myself to do it. I look in the mirror and cry because of the hate that I have for myself. I'm a...
    sm63796 sm63796 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've actually had suicidal thoughts cause I

    found out my "friend" doesn't like me. He hates me, everything I like and he thinks I stalk him, which killed me on the inside.. One day, I was straightening my hair (my hair is long enough) and listening to music but then I stopped for a good few minutes, looking at it...
    ThatOneGayKid1900 ThatOneGayKid1900 13-15 1 Response Jul 10

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    Long Story Short...

    When people look at me, they think " Oh, she's a model, she must have such a great life. " Wrong. My life hasn't been complete sunshine and rainbows, though it hasn't been complete **** either. I've had a bit of bad luck in life with different things happening that I don't need...
    Sassberry Sassberry 26-30 3 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    i have good days i have bad days i have the

    worst days. good days are few and far between now and i dream of death, wish for it, long for it. i want a quick, easy death with no mess, no fuss, no hassle. ive taken pills and can never take enough before my body rejects them and im sick. i have cut myself, hung myself and am...
    whendoesitgoaway whendoesitgoaway 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 9

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    6 times. And when I woke up again,

    I realized that no one, not even death, wanted me.
    24wildroses 24wildroses 13-15, F 9 Responses Mar 8

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    Once Upon A Time

    Once upon a time there was a girl that was very sad. She lived in a dark, cold, ugly place. She wanted to sleep and never wake She didn't want to feel anything anymore... Everything was too much to deal with. She wanted to end it all No one knew She just smiled... everyone...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 14 Responses Jan 31, 2012

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    Yesterday I was in school

    and I had a razor blade. I went into the bathroom and cut my throat. It bled. But I didn't die, which Is why I'm trying again to kill myself.
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 29 Responses May 27

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    after my grandma who was basicly my mom died

    and my girlfreind left me I cut my right arm 15 times was about to slit my throat but I couldent go threw with it
    jeff225 jeff225 16-17, M 7 Responses Jun 17

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    I'm new to this thing

    and I just need someone to open up too please. I feel like I won't be here much longer. 😔
    suicide2 suicide2 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I feel like popping 100 pills to stop all this

    pain. To fall asleep and not see a tomorrow.
    GiraffeXOXO GiraffeXOXO 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 10

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    So in my last post, I said I was going to

    commit suicide. I'm still here obviously, so this is just an update on what happened. On Friday, school was terrible. Everything and everyone were pushing my limit. When I got home my family pushed me too. They pushed me over my limit by a mile. It was a lot of emotions bottled...
    Ashleyyyb Ashleyyyb 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 3

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    I tried to OD but my parents found me

    and got me to the hospital fast enough. I didn't write a note or anything because I thought it was too cheesy. I honestly had this huge debate in my head before I committed to trying to kill myself. I thought about how it would make my family feel but then I realized I needed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just self harmed again

    and put pen ink into the open wound and I've taken 6 of my pills... I don't want to live anymore not like this I'm never ever ever happy. Help me!
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    I am in the hospital right now

    because I just recently tried to kill myself because I hate my life
    Hottim101 Hottim101 18-21, M 20 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    I made a pathetic attempt a few years ago using

    sleeping tablets. I'm an intelligent guy and knew that the risk of death was minimal. To this day I don't know what I was trying to achieve in reality. I have thoughts these days that I don't want to be around any longer but guess that's somewhat natural. I feel up and down all...
    Toon009 Toon009 31-35, M Jul 9

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    Time after time I get told to go kill my self

    its be the best thing to do. And time after time I sit there creating a plan. I've got as far as attempting it these past few months. But the other day I got over whelmed I wrote my 8 yr old sister a letter she would open when she was 17. It explained it wouldn't be her fault if...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 12

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    BrokenInnocence BrokenInnocence 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Few weeks ago I texted my mom I wanted to die

    she called the cops and they came I had already cut myself and they asked me why its because I'm weak and very emotional and not happy in life!! I am still very depressed about it and very down!! So now you all know I'm not as strong as every one think I am.
    Allstar1993 Allstar1993 22-25, M Jul 7

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    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    Death Is No Longer A Thing To Be Feared.

    I guess this is a follow up to my other story 'These are my confessions.' Within it, I say how I have tried to commit suicide... and I guess I'm writing this to enable people to understand what drives people to try and take their own life. Within my life, there is a lot of...
    Dinnis04 Dinnis04 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    i tried about 5 times already.

    the first two times were because of bullies. the next two were because i just gave up on life. the last one was for two reasons first reason i fought with my parents on that night and the second reason was because i was just hurting in more ways than one so i just wanted to...
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 21 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    Putting on a fake smile always fooled everyone.

    But really I was so upset. Trying to commit suicide many times never really helped but that doesn't stop me from trying. Running away and self harming doesn't help anything but I don't stop. How come I do all these attempts and never succeed because I know people want me gone. I...
    bluewolfspirit bluewolfspirit 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    My mom yells at me, I feel like I'm useless,

    I can't ever leave the house, I feel so bad about my scars on my arms from cutting myself. I wrote "gay" on my arm, because I like a girl. I want to overdose on my Zoloft pills. I have 21 of them, I want to take them all
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    It's my brothers birthday soon,

    he would have been 33. He committed suicide before his 30th birthday. He died once. But the loved ones he left behind have to die a little everyday. It is hard to be the one left alive and have to grow older without them. You might think your family and friends don't care...
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Just Kept Failing

    Their has been many times in my life where I have attempted killing myself, whether it's by trying to hang myself, starving myself, overdosing on many drugs and pills, slicing my veins up, and ect. but each time I fail, I'll either faint and wake up as if nothing had happen, or...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 22 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    I have actually only attempted once.

    I tried to drown myself by drinking water. And it was a legit attempt. I ran for 5+ years and I have run everything from a mile to a marathon. I KNOW how to drink a lot of water, but I've also had to research it a lot because I can overdo it. When training for the longer races I...
    Chrossy Chrossy 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My friend recently killed himself.

    . I found him hanging in his room with his wrists slit. My mum didn't even care and continues to treat me badly. Things just keep getting worse
    Icyshadow0 Icyshadow0 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 15

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    I Tried. And I Still Consider.

    Exactly one year ago yesterday, which happened to be my 16th Birthday, I tried to kill myself. I was going through a **** time in life, and, after one year, still am. I still have suicidal thoughts to this day, but I realize I now have a couple of things to live for. I remeber...
    dearveronica dearveronica 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    Foiled in my attempt: Weak,

    severely depressed, in agony and unable to get out of bed I googled how many pills it would take to end my life. (Having a large supply of narcotic painkillers made this a real possibility and an "easy" way out ) As I lined the pills up, overwhelmed by the sheer pain I felt...
    SteelButterfly SteelButterfly 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    So my life has been ******.

    It really has. But I spend it by helping other people to make sure that they don't go through what I did. I know that all people are not like me. But I've seen so much and gone through so much, it's just hard not to worry. Just this year, I was hospitalized for multiple suicide...
    immakittyrawr immakittyrawr 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Bloody Wrists✂️ I'm sitting here on the

    floor Making sure I lock the door Tears flowing down my face As I try to erase the pain I'm taking a risk I'm clenching my fists Biting down on a rag Wondering why I feel so sad I have a blade against my skin I slide it as I bite my lip Red blood dripping down Now I can't hear...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    I still want because I overthink

    and my feelings are killing me I am having panic attacks and I can't breath what's the point of living if you have this curse following you :(
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 37 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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