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I Tried to Commit Suicede

Share your suicide attempt(s) with others. You are not alone. 4,109 People

    They Told Me Its A Miracle Im Still Alive

    I'd rather not get into the details.... I don't know for sure if i was really trying to kill myself or not to be honest. I just wanted to be done with everything... I snorted half a pill of oxycodone, i popped 2 ambien, and took 25 benadril. It was such a rush for me, that i dont...
    coltonconley coltonconley 13-15, M 25 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    I'm going to kill myself.

    I have nothing to live for. Im sorry to everyone I let down
    gottapeepee1232 gottapeepee1232 22-25, F 5 Responses May 30

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    i have good days i have bad days i have the

    worst days. good days are few and far between now and i dream of death, wish for it, long for it. i want a quick, easy death with no mess, no fuss, no hassle. ive taken pills and can never take enough before my body rejects them and im sick. i have cut myself, hung myself and am...
    whendoesitgoaway whendoesitgoaway 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 9

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    When i was 13 i tried suffocating myself with a

    pillow, with no luck When i was 15 i tried hanging myself but i was too scared to let go When i was 16 i tried cutting my wrists but was too afraid of the pain When i was 17 i tried overdosing on sleeping pills to no results At 18, i had given up, perhaps there's a reason i...
    yourpetmuzzie yourpetmuzzie 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    So my life has been ******.

    It really has. But I spend it by helping other people to make sure that they don't go through what I did. I know that all people are not like me. But I've seen so much and gone through so much, it's just hard not to worry. Just this year, I was hospitalized for multiple suicide...
    immakittyrawr immakittyrawr 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Yesterday I was in school

    and I had a razor blade. I went into the bathroom and cut my throat. It bled. But I didn't die, which Is why I'm trying again to kill myself.
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 29 Responses May 27

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    PikachuIsPikachu PikachuIsPikachu 18-21, F May 30

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses May 8, 2014

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    I am in the hospital right now

    because I just recently tried to kill myself because I hate my life
    Hottim101 Hottim101 18-21, M 20 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    6 times. And when I woke up again,

    I realized that no one, not even death, wanted me.
    24wildroses 24wildroses 13-15, F 9 Responses Mar 8

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    I often hear stories of people losing others to

    suicide, what they go through. It's almost an unintentional pain. Nobody wants it to happen, not even the person doing the deed. I don't think people would mean to hurt the people they love, but at the same time they don't understand how much other people love them. I can...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 1 Response May 17

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    I'm coming up on a year next week

    since my first attempt... and I've tried one other time since the. :/
    ThatOneNerdGirl ThatOneNerdGirl 16-17, F 3 Responses May 22

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    2 weeks ago, I woke up

    and decided I dont want to be me. I grabbed sleeping pills and my bros pills. I swallowed only to wake up and a few hours later and have a massive headache. im still trying to get it right.
    ramdomgirl02 ramdomgirl02 13-15, F 9 Responses a week ago

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    I've tried a few times,

    and each time before I realized I didn't want to die I just wanted the pain to end. Now I want to die.
    MissJessieGurl MissJessieGurl 18-21, F May 30

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    Feeling Guilty

    Hello everyone. I decided to finally talk about it. One of my closest friends just lost his dad and well it came as a shock to all of us because he never told us something was wrong. Anyway this was a catalyst to what follows: I cried a lot for my friend's sorrow,he tries to hide...
    IcedPhoenix IcedPhoenix 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    i tried about 5 times already.

    the first two times were because of bullies. the next two were because i just gave up on life. the last one was for two reasons first reason i fought with my parents on that night and the second reason was because i was just hurting in more ways than one so i just wanted to...
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 22 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I have a question for everyone who's lives have

    improved since your attempt. Does anyone still worry you'll try again? If yes, does it bother you when they almost obsessively make sure you're okay?
    justfloatingby2day justfloatingby2day 18-21, F 3 Responses May 27

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    Tried and thought about 2 weeks ago.

    . Me being foolish I told my counsellor and now I have to go for mental health assessment on Wednesday. Not only didn't I want anyone to know she told my mum and a safe guarding officer rang my granny! So now I can't eat without feeling sick I've thrown up from pure nerves and...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 16-17, F 25 Responses Apr 12

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    Its been almost 6 years

    since my serious suicide attempt. i say serious because the first time i had no idea what I was doing and only took about 20 ibuprofen. (what an idiot!) It was July 2009, I was started a mini summer semester to catch up on my classes at Uni. I was overwhelmed in that moment...
    Mynewleafsparkles Mynewleafsparkles 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Putting on a fake smile always fooled everyone.

    But really I was so upset. Trying to commit suicide many times never really helped but that doesn't stop me from trying. Running away and self harming doesn't help anything but I don't stop. How come I do all these attempts and never succeed because I know people want me gone. I...
    bluewolfspirit bluewolfspirit 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I Just Kept Failing

    Their has been many times in my life where I have attempted killing myself, whether it's by trying to hang myself, starving myself, overdosing on many drugs and pills, slicing my veins up, and ect. but each time I fail, I'll either faint and wake up as if nothing had happen, or...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 22 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    Foiled in my attempt: Weak,

    severely depressed, in agony and unable to get out of bed I googled how many pills it would take to end my life. (Having a large supply of narcotic painkillers made this a real possibility and an "easy" way out ) As I lined the pills up, overwhelmed by the sheer pain I felt...
    SteelButterfly SteelButterfly 41-45, F 8 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    GUYS I JUST REALIZED THAT SUICIDE IS SPELLED

    WRONG IN THE EXPERIENCE title. I'm so sorry. I had to say something. It was bothering me.
    SavingLucy17 SavingLucy17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    Alright so I have came back to EP.

    .. it's been awhile lol... I really didn't have much to say here the first time I joined... Alright so I'll just tell you...I attempted to kill myself... I wanted to die so badly that I couldn't take it... it's funny...when I decided to do it to...I stopped crying. I stopped...
    drowningPenguins drowningPenguins 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    Failed Attempt...

    Today, I skipped school, I was trying to get away from all the bullying, at least for the day. Well, one guy who bullies me, lives near me... HE stayed home too... I guess he wanted to break into my house or something, because he went into my house through MY window at about 9...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 19 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    The pain feels goo when you want to die

    but still it never works like it's not suppose to happen. I don't know why I always get the hardest life. In everything. I can give you 100 examples, even 1000 if I had the time. My life feels so useless. Every heartbeat is another tick on the clock of my life wasted. Don't try...
    Xyis Xyis 13-15, M 1 Response May 30

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    I've attempted an overdose 3 times,

    all failed and thank **** they did! honestly anyone out there who is trying to take their life, don't do it. think of the people around you. it hurts them just as much. I was unwell for weeks, one of the worste feelings ever and not worth it at all. At that moment I thought it...
    aimsdisneyox aimsdisneyox 18-21, F 1 Response May 26

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    I still want because I overthink

    and my feelings are killing me I am having panic attacks and I can't breath what's the point of living if you have this curse following you :(
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 37 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    10 months ago I was laying in a resus bay

    asking the nurses if I was going to live which they replied with "we're trying our best" that was the possibly the scariest moment of my life. Realizing I may have actually succeeded this time and there was no going back and I realized I didn't truly want to die. I then spent 3...
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F Jun 21

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    I killed myself on my sixteenth birthday.

    I am 17 now. I am still dead, but how can I be typing this right now? Simply because I am the hollow shell that exists afterwards. I am the body without soul, nor spirit. I am dead, yet I am alive. Welcome to the world of suicide.
    TheSmartestManOnEarth TheSmartestManOnEarth 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    Ever wondered what it's like up there in Heaven.

    .peaceful..no one judging you that's my happy place and someday I want to be there sooner rather than later
    XxBabyGirlKaydenxX XxBabyGirlKaydenxX 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    I can't believe I'm telling this to strangers

    but back when I was 14 I was diagnosed with Bipolar and I've been on strong antipsychotics for about 4 years well back in September I tried to commit. I overdosed on Ibuprofen (it was the only I had) I took about 30 pills which was about 2,000 milligrams over the recommended...
    AvaDay AvaDay 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    Bloody Wrists✂️ I'm sitting here on the

    floor Making sure I lock the door Tears flowing down my face As I try to erase the pain I'm taking a risk I'm clenching my fists Biting down on a rag Wondering why I feel so sad I have a blade against my skin I slide it as I bite my lip Red blood dripping down Now I can't hear...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    What's the point in living.

    Some people treated me unfairly because of my Autism. Well I have Aspergers Syndrome and I get treated like **** because of it. I always get blamed for problems. Like when I stand up for myself that person gets mad and yells at me back. I might as well kill myself. **** life.
    maialove maialove 26-30, F 2 Responses May 28

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    Long Story Short...

    When people look at me, they think " Oh, she's a model, she must have such a great life. " Wrong. My life hasn't been complete sunshine and rainbows, though it hasn't been complete **** either. I've had a bit of bad luck in life with different things happening that I don't need...
    Sassberry Sassberry 26-30 3 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    I tried to kill myself with drugs .

    If you are here it means you probs have tried too . How did you do it ?
    lauraknightsoto lauraknightsoto 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 14

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    I tried to suffocate myself once.

    I tied thick cloth around my face, and passed out. Then I woke up with an awful headache and sort of just continued my day. I learned online that for people who want to take my route, it's best to use helium or some other form of gas to reduce panic. I used nothing, but didn't...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 Jun 12

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    I Tried. And I Still Consider.

    Exactly one year ago yesterday, which happened to be my 16th Birthday, I tried to kill myself. I was going through a **** time in life, and, after one year, still am. I still have suicidal thoughts to this day, but I realize I now have a couple of things to live for. I remeber...
    dearveronica dearveronica 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    What else can I do with my life.

    ... I Lost everyone I could count on. My parents and my sister in a car accident..... WHY?????? Now I'm thinking about ending my life to be up there with them.
    RestInPeaceSister RestInPeaceSister 16-17, F 2 Responses May 20

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    I just self harmed again

    and put pen ink into the open wound and I've taken 6 of my pills... I don't want to live anymore not like this I'm never ever ever happy. Help me!
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    I'm not suicidal, and I haven't ever been.

    But I know what depression is like and I don't want anyone to go through it alone. I know I'm pretty much a randomer, but I'm a good listener and here If anyone wants to talk, male or female. I won't judge anyone for anything, Because I've done some pretty unforgivable stuff...
    skittlequeen skittlequeen 16-17, F 1 Response May 31

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    My story started on 7/1/14.

    After school I invited one of my best guy friends. We were on my bed my bed when we started making out and we were getting kinda hot and heavy. He all of the sudden got up and left. The next day he posted a video on facebook of us and everything went downhill from there. I was...
    HiImCody HiImCody 16-17, M 4 Responses Mar 6

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    XxSuicidalKissesxX XxSuicidalKissesxX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 27

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    Nobody expected it from me.

    About two years ago I overdosed on anti depressants and was rushed to hospital and then I had to get my stomach pumped. I feel like I've changed so much since then. I'm a much happier person now. I'm proud of myself that I made it this far. :D
    KaiyaSantana KaiyaSantana 16-17, F May 31

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    So in my last post, I said I was going to

    commit suicide. I'm still here obviously, so this is just an update on what happened. On Friday, school was terrible. Everything and everyone were pushing my limit. When I got home my family pushed me too. They pushed me over my limit by a mile. It was a lot of emotions bottled...
    Ashleyyyb Ashleyyyb 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 3

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