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I Tried to Commit Suicede

Share your suicide attempt(s) with others. You are not alone. 3,596 People

    I was in a deep depression phase in my life,

    it still goes on till this day, but I just had to realize that the more I dread life the less I'll live it. I try to make the positives count. I feel my antisocial-ness gives me time to think to myself . I keep striving to out branch depression each day.
    lonelygypsy lonelygypsy 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 24

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    I have that feeling again like it's time to end

    my life. I am lonely all the time, have no friends, and don't talk to or see family much. I'm also overweight and I feel ugly. My dad was verbally and emotionally abusive when I was a kid and I never realized how much it affected me. I have a lot of debt already and am just a...
    heyymeliss heyymeliss 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 31

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    After my mom died my dad kept some of her pain

    killers and I found them so I took a bunch and kept them aside. Then when the timing was right I took 3 of them and a few sleeping pills, hoping to overdose. I researched it and the amount I took should have been enough. But I woke up the next morning puking. I actually couldn't...
    sidorska sidorska 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    I've had 5 attempts before 15?

    And they say there's nothing wrong with society,
    smellingtheroses smellingtheroses 13-15, F 14 Responses Jun 25

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    Today was probably one of the most suicidal

    days of my life , I felt really unwanted and I don't know why I didn't go through with it I don't know if it's because I wasn't upset enough or because I love him but he kinda hurt me bad ... Idk if I'll recover or not but I'll try .
    juliewatts juliewatts 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 9

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    This one is a hard one

    for me. I was sitting there beside a grave of the one person I could always count on no matter what. I had my gun and I was ready to end my life. The biggest gust of wind I have ever felt hit me so hard I almost fell over. I know it was her. She was trying to tell me to stop...
    GoodGuy40 GoodGuy40 41-45, M Jan 29

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    I Just Kept Failing

    Their has been many times in my life where I have attempted killing myself, whether it's by trying to hang myself, starving myself, overdosing on many drugs and pills, slicing my veins up, and ect. but each time I fail, I'll either faint and wake up as if nothing had happen, or...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 22 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    I have never felt so low in my life ever before.

    .. January 22nd, 2014 I tried to take my own life.. I slit my wrists 18+ times and almost bled out on my bedroom floor. Is it sad that I wish I hadn't have woke up? People found out that night because of a comment I made on Twitter and my cheer coach found out and asked me to...
    swtchks97 swtchks97 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 5

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    Death Is No Longer A Thing To Be Feared.

    I guess this is a follow up to my other story 'These are my confessions.' Within it, I say how I have tried to commit suicide... and I guess I'm writing this to enable people to understand what drives people to try and take their own life. Within my life, there is a lot of...
    Dinnis04 Dinnis04 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    I lost the closest and most important person

    person in my life (And she'l be the only person to have ever done so, I'll never allow that ever again), and due to many things she's told me that I still believe about myself (things ranging from "you're a guy so you'll never get close with me or women" or like "you don't...
    LetsRunForever LetsRunForever 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 27

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    October 7th 2013

    I tried to kill myself on October 7th 2013. I was sitting in my room with my gun to my head when my bro walked in. He didn't say a word he just took then gun and embraced me. That's why I'm still here today he saved me.
    musiclover1997 musiclover1997 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    I killed myself on my sixteenth birthday.

    I am 17 now. I am still dead, but how can I be typing this right now? Simply because I am the hollow shell that exists afterwards. I am the body without soul, nor spirit. I am dead, yet I am alive. Welcome to the world of suicide.
    TheSmartestManOnEarth TheSmartestManOnEarth 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I just want to go but it's

    so hard to leave some people behind. no one cares. though.
    CeleBB CeleBB 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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    I haven't tried to commit suicide

    but I think about it everyday
    jasmine2016 jasmine2016 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I just want to die. I don't want to live

    another day. It's not worth it. I'm at a low today .
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 8 Responses Nov 11

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    I am conducting an experiment,

    a social experiment of sorts. I am going to fake my suicide death. I will run away, but will come back later, maybe a day or two. Just long enough to see how my classmates and family would react. Specifically. I will write a suicide note, make some ultra realistic fake blood...
    futurediary futurediary 13-15, M 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    imjackandimdark imjackandimdark 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 10

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    Last year, I tried to kill myself by overdosing

    on pills. I had to be rushed to the hospital. I stayed there for about 10 day.
    CureDonut CureDonut 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Take Me Seriously

    Depression isn't a joke. Cutting isn't a joke. Anorexia isn't a joke. Suicide definitely isn't a joke... But why is it that when i scream "I wish i was dead" you tell me im attention seeking or yell at me? Why dont you take my words and actions seriously? What will it take? Maybe...
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 13-15, F 7 Responses May 20, 2013

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    They Told Me Its A Miracle Im Still Alive

    I'd rather not get into the details.... I don't know for sure if i was really trying to kill myself or not to be honest. I just wanted to be done with everything... I snorted half a pill of oxycodone, i popped 2 ambien, and took 25 benadril. It was such a rush for me, that i dont...
    coltonconley coltonconley 13-15, M 26 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    I've tried 2 times First time I slit my wrist

    but I didn't do it right Second time I tried to overdose but somehow I failed I believe I deserve to die I'm such a failure I can't even kill myself. Why don't I just carve failure on my forehead so everyone can know that I'm such a failure.
    GoodbyeLife GoodbyeLife 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Tried. And I Still Consider.

    Exactly one year ago yesterday, which happened to be my 16th Birthday, I tried to kill myself. I was going through a **** time in life, and, after one year, still am. I still have suicidal thoughts to this day, but I realize I now have a couple of things to live for. I remeber...
    dearveronica dearveronica 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    I was probably five or six the first time I

    tried to kill myself through hanging myself. I was too young to understand how to do it properly. after that I was 15 the next time I tried to slice my wrists before my boyfriend at the time restrained me. I was 16 the next time I planned to do it and you wouldn't imagine how...
    pikapup17 pikapup17 18-21 1 Response a week ago

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    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 25

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    babel123456 babel123456 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 19

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    Last year I tried to commit suicide

    because of abuse when I was a child. I failed and ended up in the psych ward. Being there changed my life in a good way. When you're down like Eeore from Winnie the Pooh, find what makes you happy. Be like Winnie the Pooh :)
    babykaykez19 babykaykez19 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I tried to kill myself last night.

    It obv didn't work out since I'm still here. I want to disapear and never come back.
    amandapanda2498 amandapanda2498 16-17, F 9 Responses Apr 9

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    I tried killing myself.

    . I'm broken inside
    hayhaytaytay hayhaytaytay 13-15, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have attempted suicide 3 times.

    All of the times I attempted drowning. I never was hospitalized and no one knows. I have been bullied for a long time and I just chose that I wanted to die. I went underwater for so long that when I finally realized that I was about to die I honestly thought I might be dead. It...
    IamSCARED123 IamSCARED123 13-15, F 20 Responses Jul 30

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    Once Upon A Time

    Once upon a time there was a girl that was very sad. She lived in a dark, cold, ugly place. She wanted to sleep and never wake She didn't want to feel anything anymore... Everything was too much to deal with. She wanted to end it all No one knew She just smiled... everyone...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 15 Responses Jan 31, 2012

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    Foiled in my attempt: Weak,

    severely depressed, in agony and unable to get out of bed I googled how many pills it would take to end my life. (Having a large supply of narcotic painkillers made this a real possibility and an "easy" way out ) As I lined the pills up, overwhelmed by the sheer pain I felt...
    SteelButterfly SteelButterfly 41-45, F 8 Responses Feb 17

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    I tried cutting my, I tried to OD

    but nothing worked. I guess I'm a bigger failure than I thought. My mom was right.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I was about to stab myself.

    ... Then I chickened out. Then my mom and brother came home and I instantly regret not doing it.
    Matthews14 Matthews14 70+, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I tried to commit suicide earlier this year in

    January, sometimes I can't tell whether I am still happy to be here or not, it's just so hard to know what is actually going on inside me sometimes. I don't know who to turn to, I feel like I'm finding it that hard to find a person to talk to that isn't a professional, because...
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F a week ago

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    I still want because I overthink

    and my feelings are killing me I am having panic attacks and I can't breath what's the point of living if you have this curse following you :(
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 39 Responses Jan 5

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    I lost count of how many times I've tried to

    kill myself but I tried recently and ended up staying at a mental health facility for two damn weeks and it was ******* torture, I thought it was supposed to help me but while I was in there I actually self harmed and planned my suicide and they knew that i self harmed and I...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 2

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    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I am not putting this experience on here to put

    anyone in a depressive mood, I'm putting this on here to advise you NOT to commit suicide, I was planning to, and then I stopped. I was 17 years old, (3 years ago) and I considered my life to be a complete mess. It was at the time, and there was only 2 ways to go, I could end my...
    Ryanholmes20375 Ryanholmes20375 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I took like maybe ten Adavan

    when my parents were in Florida for two weeks and I just did not feel like living anymore I was having after effects from chemotherapy. That wore me down a lot and I didn't have many friends to talk to. But the Adavan just made me sleep for two days.
    Harold87 Harold87 26-30, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    My mentor the only person

    who ever cared for me joined the marines and got killed by an ied I felt like I had no one who cared about him or me I couldn't bring myself to do it
    awesomeboy98 awesomeboy98 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Goodbye everyone, this will be my last living

    day, i wanted it to be halloween because i love it so much. No one will see my ugly face ever again, goodbye, forever.
    futurediary futurediary 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 31

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    We kill flowers because we think they are

    beautiful.. yet I tried killing myself because I thought I was not.
    ashthenerd ashthenerd 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    About a year and a half ago I tried to end my

    life. I was in a tough spot dealing with abuse, and I didn't see a way out. I failed, and I'm thankful I did. My life has gotten much better. But recently my mom died and I've found myself reverting back into that dark area of my mind. I won't do it, but its hard knowing that...
    Ashleyy2 Ashleyy2 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I never understood what pushed people into

    committing suicede till i tried to take my own life away. I was 14 and it was the around the end of march. I had been verbally abused constantly day after day by my own mother the one person thats suppose to love me unconditionally. The person that brought me into the world was...
    Jewels2145 Jewels2145 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    Bloody Wrists✂️ I'm sitting here on the

    floor Making sure I lock the door Tears flowing down my face As I try to erase the pain I'm taking a risk I'm clenching my fists Biting down on a rag Wondering why I feel so sad I have a blade against my skin I slide it as I bite my lip Red blood dripping down Now I can't hear...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 3 Responses May 14

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    The feeling is coming back,

    the ability to see how i could kill myself from anything is coming back. I have no reason to feel this way, none, i have a girlfriend (a perfect one at that) school is going relatively ok, nobodies died that i love recently, my self confidence is ever so slightly higher. Why the...
    futurediary futurediary 13-15, M Oct 30

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    Feeling Guilty

    Hello everyone. I decided to finally talk about it. One of my closest friends just lost his dad and well it came as a shock to all of us because he never told us something was wrong. Anyway this was a catalyst to what follows: I cried a lot for my friend's sorrow,he tries to hide...
    IcedPhoenix IcedPhoenix 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    i tried about 5 times already.

    the first two times were because of bullies. the next two were because i just gave up on life. the last one was for two reasons first reason i fought with my parents on that night and the second reason was because i was just hurting in more ways than one so i just wanted to...
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 22 Responses Jan 2

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    I just tried to lull myself

    for the 3rd time today. The next I will try harder for it to happen
    RestInPeaceSister RestInPeaceSister 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    I have tried and failed.

    Just like I have failed at everything else. I always push everyone away... I make everyone hate me just like I hate myself.
    livelifefully73 livelifefully73 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 3

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    Currently in hospital

    because I attempted suicide last night through overdose , struggling to eat & drink fluids , I'll keep you all posted but would appreciate not being messaged till I'm home , hugs amee X
    princess2121 princess2121 16-17, F 5 Responses May 22

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