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I Tried to Commit Suicede

Share your suicide attempt(s) with others. You are not alone. 3,977 People

    I've tried so many times.

    I have yet to succeed.
    KidnapandBeat KidnapandBeat 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    It's hard admitting that I'm not

    as strong as people think.. I don't know how to feel. I'm so tired but at the same time, I don't want to put my mama & my best friends (2) through the pain of me killing myself. I'm just so deep into this I don't know if I'll ever resurface. I'm seeking professional help to see...
    aunaturaleee aunaturaleee 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Foiled in my attempt: Weak,

    severely depressed, in agony and unable to get out of bed I googled how many pills it would take to end my life. (Having a large supply of narcotic painkillers made this a real possibility and an "easy" way out ) As I lined the pills up, overwhelmed by the sheer pain I felt...
    SteelButterfly SteelButterfly 41-45, F 8 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    baileebae baileebae 16-17, F 73 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Feeling Guilty

    Hello everyone. I decided to finally talk about it. One of my closest friends just lost his dad and well it came as a shock to all of us because he never told us something was wrong. Anyway this was a catalyst to what follows: I cried a lot for my friend's sorrow,he tries to hide...
    IcedPhoenix IcedPhoenix 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    So in my last post, I said I was going to

    commit suicide. I'm still here obviously, so this is just an update on what happened. On Friday, school was terrible. Everything and everyone were pushing my limit. When I got home my family pushed me too. They pushed me over my limit by a mile. It was a lot of emotions bottled...
    Ashleyyyb Ashleyyyb 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 3

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    I reached my breaking point this morning,

    & downed a whole handful of my sleeping pills. I slept the whole day. I'm just now waking up, and I'm disappointed.. I'm just ready to go..
    aunaturaleee aunaturaleee 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    GUYS I JUST REALIZED THAT SUICIDE IS SPELLED

    WRONG IN THE EXPERIENCE title. I'm so sorry. I had to say something. It was bothering me.
    SavingLucy17 SavingLucy17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    i am sat here knife in hand trying to find the

    courage to jab it into my neck...... i need to do this. i need the release
    enoughnowitstimeforachange enoughnowitstimeforachange 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 12

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    Long Story Short...

    When people look at me, they think " Oh, she's a model, she must have such a great life. " Wrong. My life hasn't been complete sunshine and rainbows, though it hasn't been complete **** either. I've had a bit of bad luck in life with different things happening that I don't need...
    Sassberry Sassberry 26-30 3 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    I have attempted suicide 3 times.

    All of the times I attempted drowning. I never was hospitalized and no one knows. I have been bullied for a long time and I just chose that I wanted to die. I went underwater for so long that when I finally realized that I was about to die I honestly thought I might be dead. It...
    IamSCARED123 IamSCARED123 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    A few years ago I made it

    that far before I actually grew a pair and put the pistol down. I stuck it out, I stopped caring what people I hated thought about me, and most importantly: I actually began to try to feel better. This are great now, I'm a very happy, healthy person! I couldn't have done it...
    TK1153 TK1153 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I tried 2 times,first at 3rd grade,

    and second at 8th grade.At 3rd grade I tried to kill myself by cutting my arms but then I got scared and stopped.At 8th grade there was nothing to stop me,I was going to jump from the balcony of my room.But my parents realized and run into my room and hold me back.I can't stop...
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Every night I think about it.

    . I remember the first time, I took 4 times the legal dose.. I slept for nearly two days.. I'm not living for me. I'm scared that one day I'll succeed, but but I want to be free if this pain and I see no other way to do so.. I don't know what to do.
    aunaturaleee aunaturaleee 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    ItsM333 ItsM333 13-15, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    I wanted to kill myself a couple of hours ago

    but something happened that made me not do it I told my sister she won't see my tomorrow because I was going to do it She stood there and stayed still with tears in her eyes she ran to me and hugged me and said "don't go who would sleep in the bottom bunk I'll miss you" I couldn...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 12 Responses 2 days ago

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    Failed Attempt...

    Today, I skipped school, I was trying to get away from all the bullying, at least for the day. Well, one guy who bullies me, lives near me... HE stayed home too... I guess he wanted to break into my house or something, because he went into my house through MY window at about 9...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 19 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    Yeah. I failed at dying.

    Again. I'm starting to think I don't deserve to die. Whatever. Bite me.
    Darktooth41 Darktooth41 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I've attempted suicide on several accounts,

    but none have worked. I think I'm actually starting to find a purpose in life! (My first attempt was at 12 years... Yeah. I probably didn't succeed because I can't even afford a gun.) God damnit, now I have Justin Beaver's 'Baby' stuck in my head! I don't even like him!
    SilverTheWolf SilverTheWolf 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    i tried about 5 times already.

    the first two times were because of bullies. the next two were because i just gave up on life. the last one was for two reasons first reason i fought with my parents on that night and the second reason was because i was just hurting in more ways than one so i just wanted to...
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 22 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I killed myself on my sixteenth birthday.

    I am 17 now. I am still dead, but how can I be typing this right now? Simply because I am the hollow shell that exists afterwards. I am the body without soul, nor spirit. I am dead, yet I am alive. Welcome to the world of suicide.
    TheSmartestManOnEarth TheSmartestManOnEarth 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2014

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    I tried to kill myself

    when I was 13, last year. I put rope round my neck and tried to hang myself but unfortunately the rope wasn't tight enough as around the light shade and it can down once I let go. Instead of trying suicide I just cut I thin I'd rather live now but yet I'm still in pain
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    2 times already... wondering

    if I should try again..
    SubmissiveDaddiesGirl SubmissiveDaddiesGirl 13-15, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Tried. And I Still Consider.

    Exactly one year ago yesterday, which happened to be my 16th Birthday, I tried to kill myself. I was going through a **** time in life, and, after one year, still am. I still have suicidal thoughts to this day, but I realize I now have a couple of things to live for. I remeber...
    dearveronica dearveronica 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    Response To A Question

    I am actually quite proud of this. There was a question that asked, " Is it possible to kill someone through the internet?.. I decided to respond to this because I felt that it was finally time to do something about all this bullying against those pleading for help or saying they...
    Sassberry Sassberry 26-30 2 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Death Is No Longer A Thing To Be Feared.

    I guess this is a follow up to my other story 'These are my confessions.' Within it, I say how I have tried to commit suicide... and I guess I'm writing this to enable people to understand what drives people to try and take their own life. Within my life, there is a lot of...
    Dinnis04 Dinnis04 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    I really feel like trying again.

    I have several extremely good reasons not to, but i feel like i'm supposed to. Like i need to. I think i'm starting to spiral again.
    Futuresdiary Futuresdiary 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I guess this is it. In under an hour i'll be

    dead. I'm sorry to those i've met on here, please don't blame yourself. Goodbye everyone, things are better this way.
    Futuresdiary Futuresdiary 13-15, M 5 Responses Apr 6

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    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 20

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    I still want because I overthink

    and my feelings are killing me I am having panic attacks and I can't breath what's the point of living if you have this curse following you :(
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 37 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    I've had 5 attempts before 15?

    And they say there's nothing wrong with society,
    smellingtheroses smellingtheroses 13-15, F 13 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    I've attempted 3 times now.

    . my parents would never know . I make statements abt how I wish I was dead in front of them. my counceler at school called when someone saw my leg scrawled with cuts in pe. the act like its a cold and if you ignore it its gone... but my last attempt was so close to a success I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am in the hospital right now

    because I just recently tried to kill myself because I hate my life
    Hottim101 Hottim101 18-21, M 21 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Last year I had: Bipolar (still have

    that) Autism (still have that) A Verbally abusive mother And an non understanding father (still have that) I attempted suicide 3-11-14
    PsychoticPsychologist PsychoticPsychologist 13-15 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I started a YouTube channel hoping to share my

    story of depression and my suicide attempt story.I want people to know death isn't the answer. That your worth it. Life is a struggle the road gets hard sometimes, but I believe god has a plan for all of us. Please be strong.Here's the link if you would like to check out the...
    hopeliz hopeliz 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I was in a deep depression phase in my life,

    it still goes on till this day, but I just had to realize that the more I dread life the less I'll live it. I try to make the positives count. I feel my antisocial-ness gives me time to think to myself . I keep striving to out branch depression each day.
    lonelygypsy lonelygypsy 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    I can't believe I'm telling this to strangers

    but back when I was 14 I was diagnosed with Bipolar and I've been on strong antipsychotics for about 4 years well back in September I tried to commit. I overdosed on Ibuprofen (it was the only I had) I took about 30 pills which was about 2,000 milligrams over the recommended...
    AvaDay AvaDay 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    Tried it in January, I obviously failed.

    But I feel like I'm getting better
    angelkinzz angelkinzz 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    havent posted anything in a while.

    been restabilizing myself, i attempted suicide again and almost didnt make it. i can honestly say i am so glad to still be here.. i know i ****** up again.
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    i've tried many many times

    since i was 8 years old (yes i said 8) to kill myself but obviously it didn't work so at the age of 16 i decided to give life a chance. i mean there must be a reason why i didn't die right? things in my life are not all sunshine and rainbows and i still think allot about...
    missnicething missnicething 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I tried to kill myself last night.

    It obv didn't work out since I'm still here. I want to disapear and never come back.
    amandapanda2498 amandapanda2498 16-17, F 9 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    Take Me Seriously

    Depression isn't a joke. Cutting isn't a joke. Anorexia isn't a joke. Suicide definitely isn't a joke... But why is it that when i scream "I wish i was dead" you tell me im attention seeking or yell at me? Why dont you take my words and actions seriously? What will it take? Maybe...
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 8 Responses May 20, 2013

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    6 times. And when I woke up again,

    I realized that no one, not even death, wanted me.
    24wildroses 24wildroses 13-15, F 8 Responses Mar 8

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    Tried and thought about 2 weeks ago.

    . Me being foolish I told my counsellor and now I have to go for mental health assessment on Wednesday. Not only didn't I want anyone to know she told my mum and a safe guarding officer rang my granny! So now I can't eat without feeling sick I've thrown up from pure nerves and...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 13-15, F 27 Responses Apr 12

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    Tried it and failed I'm

    now being hospitalized and I have to take pills that make me dizzy and tired.The nurses are nice and I have a bodyguard watching my every move in case I try anything I made a new friend here though her name is Lisa and I have Nathan with me too.So the only downer is I have...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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