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I Tried to Commit Suicede

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    I almost tried just 10 minutes ago.

    I don't even know what I'm doing anymore, I don't know why I got up on that chair and tied the rope, or why I didn't go through with kicking the chair away and letting myself die. I just don't know anymore
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F 4 Responses May 9

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    Long Story Short...

    When people look at me, they think " Oh, she's a model, she must have such a great life. " Wrong. My life hasn't been complete sunshine and rainbows, though it hasn't been complete **** either. I've had a bit of bad luck in life with different things happening that I don't need...
    Sassberry Sassberry 26-30 3 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    I hate it.I hate myself.

    I tried many times but I couldn't.When I cut anywhere with box cutter and it's bleeds a lot.Then I get scared and drop the knife.I want to die but I can't.I feel so weak and I can't do anything about it
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 18-21, F 8 Responses May 7

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    I have a question for everyone who's lives have

    improved since your attempt. Does anyone still worry you'll try again? If yes, does it bother you when they almost obsessively make sure you're okay?
    justfloatingby2day justfloatingby2day 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I took around 30 paracetamol in class last

    Wednesday and had to spend two nights in hospital on the antidote. obviously I failed... it's worse when you go back to school to find that your teaching has asked your friend if you are faking it
    horses4ever horses4ever 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Paracetamol doesn't work i took 24

    and 3 days later im okay even the hospital said so lol
    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 2 Responses May 19

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    What else can I do with my life.

    ... I Lost everyone I could count on. My parents and my sister in a car accident..... WHY?????? Now I'm thinking about ending my life to be up there with them.
    RestInPeaceSister RestInPeaceSister 13-15, F 2 Responses May 20

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    not long got my computer

    and phone e.t.c back I ****** up and I can't take it anymore so I tried to take the easy way but I never thought that I would be found I wish I found a better place than a woods
    Pedro1202 Pedro1202 18-21, M 5 mins ago

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    So in my last post, I said I was going to

    commit suicide. I'm still here obviously, so this is just an update on what happened. On Friday, school was terrible. Everything and everyone were pushing my limit. When I got home my family pushed me too. They pushed me over my limit by a mile. It was a lot of emotions bottled...
    Ashleyyyb Ashleyyyb 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 3

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    I Tried. And I Still Consider.

    Exactly one year ago yesterday, which happened to be my 16th Birthday, I tried to kill myself. I was going through a **** time in life, and, after one year, still am. I still have suicidal thoughts to this day, but I realize I now have a couple of things to live for. I remeber...
    dearveronica dearveronica 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 5, 2012

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    GUYS I JUST REALIZED THAT SUICIDE IS SPELLED

    WRONG IN THE EXPERIENCE title. I'm so sorry. I had to say something. It was bothering me.
    SavingLucy17 SavingLucy17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    Sometimes I wish I didn't have a girlfriend,

    so i had no one to hurt. So I could end my life. I've already written my will.... It's not very long, i don't own much. I've always wondered why people hate me so much; I know 100% why now. The only people who I believe actually love me are my girlfriend (I still don't know why...
    Futuresdiary Futuresdiary 13-15, M 1 Response May 10

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    I was about 14 I had the noose ready

    and was in it dieing. Slowly and painfully. The noose snapped I was alive and had 5 minutes to hide it from my parents. And in those 5 minutes I thought "no I won't do this again because they'd win the bullies all those bastards would freaking win I wont let them". Haven't sense...
    KelsonTheDragon KelsonTheDragon 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 29

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    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 27

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    i tried about 5 times already.

    the first two times were because of bullies. the next two were because i just gave up on life. the last one was for two reasons first reason i fought with my parents on that night and the second reason was because i was just hurting in more ways than one so i just wanted to...
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 22 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    Failed Attempt...

    Today, I skipped school, I was trying to get away from all the bullying, at least for the day. Well, one guy who bullies me, lives near me... HE stayed home too... I guess he wanted to break into my house or something, because he went into my house through MY window at about 9...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 19 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    Probably the hardest thing to admit I'm a world

    full of judge mental people. I did attempt it. I remember the feeling, how hard my heart beated and how much I wanted to be gone.
    JustMe0923 JustMe0923 16-17, M 1 Response May 16

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    I have attempted suicide 3 times.

    All of the times I attempted drowning. I never was hospitalized and no one knows. I have been bullied for a long time and I just chose that I wanted to die. I went underwater for so long that when I finally realized that I was about to die I honestly thought I might be dead. It...
    IamSCARED123 IamSCARED123 13-15, F 18 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    I still want because I overthink

    and my feelings are killing me I am having panic attacks and I can't breath what's the point of living if you have this curse following you :(
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 37 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    Sunday will be 2 weeks

    that I tried to commit suicide... today I'm take a **** load of pills that make me feel so sick . effexor is my new pill that make my thoughts worse ... made me loose q pounds feel bloated I don't eat if I do I vomit it all up ... my life went from bad to worse.. but now I no I...
    sanchez13 sanchez13 13-15, F 2 Responses May 16

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    baileebae baileebae 16-17, F 72 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Feeling Guilty

    Hello everyone. I decided to finally talk about it. One of my closest friends just lost his dad and well it came as a shock to all of us because he never told us something was wrong. Anyway this was a catalyst to what follows: I cried a lot for my friend's sorrow,he tries to hide...
    IcedPhoenix IcedPhoenix 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    Foiled in my attempt: Weak,

    severely depressed, in agony and unable to get out of bed I googled how many pills it would take to end my life. (Having a large supply of narcotic painkillers made this a real possibility and an "easy" way out ) As I lined the pills up, overwhelmed by the sheer pain I felt...
    SteelButterfly SteelButterfly 41-45, F 8 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    Once Upon A Time

    Once upon a time there was a girl that was very sad. She lived in a dark, cold, ugly place. She wanted to sleep and never wake She didn't want to feel anything anymore... Everything was too much to deal with. She wanted to end it all No one knew She just smiled... everyone...
    surrealreality surrealreality 31-35, F 15 Responses Jan 31, 2012

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    I've attempted an overdose 3 times,

    all failed and thank **** they did! honestly anyone out there who is trying to take their life, don't do it. think of the people around you. it hurts them just as much. I was unwell for weeks, one of the worste feelings ever and not worth it at all. At that moment I thought it...
    aimsdisneyox aimsdisneyox 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Two years ago, i was at my grandpa's with my

    cousins to spend the night. That day, we were riding the tractor and my cousin that is 1 year younger than me ( i was 13) started to jerk the wheele left and right. i was in the back a 2 wheeled trailer with his younger brother, and the trailer tipped fell out safely, but i...
    Rh1no16 Rh1no16 16-17, M May 7

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    I am in the hospital right now

    because I just recently tried to kill myself because I hate my life
    Hottim101 Hottim101 18-21, M 21 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Yesterday I was in school

    and I had a razor blade. I went into the bathroom and cut my throat. It bled. But I didn't die, which Is why I'm trying again to kill myself.
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 30 Responses 1 day ago

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    They Told Me Its A Miracle Im Still Alive

    I'd rather not get into the details.... I don't know for sure if i was really trying to kill myself or not to be honest. I just wanted to be done with everything... I snorted half a pill of oxycodone, i popped 2 ambien, and took 25 benadril. It was such a rush for me, that i dont...
    coltonconley coltonconley 13-15, M 25 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    My mom makes me want to kill myself.

    I can't ******* wait to move out.
    Futuresdiary Futuresdiary 13-15, M 3 Responses May 4

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    I Just Kept Failing

    Their has been many times in my life where I have attempted killing myself, whether it's by trying to hang myself, starving myself, overdosing on many drugs and pills, slicing my veins up, and ect. but each time I fail, I'll either faint and wake up as if nothing had happen, or...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 22 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    Quertal Quertal 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    I often hear stories of people losing others to

    suicide, what they go through. It's almost an unintentional pain. Nobody wants it to happen, not even the person doing the deed. I don't think people would mean to hurt the people they love, but at the same time they don't understand how much other people love them. I can...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 16-17 1 Response May 17

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    Death Is No Longer A Thing To Be Feared.

    I guess this is a follow up to my other story 'These are my confessions.' Within it, I say how I have tried to commit suicide... and I guess I'm writing this to enable people to understand what drives people to try and take their own life. Within my life, there is a lot of...
    Dinnis04 Dinnis04 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2012

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    I was a sophomore in high school.

    I was already a troubled kid. Lonely, depressed, borderline psychotic, you name it. One day... I guess I just couldn't take it anymore... I snapped. I went home and drank half a bottle of bleach. I still remember it vividly. I immediately started throwing up blood. The pain was...
    kingofmonroeville kingofmonroeville 18-21, M 1 Response May 4

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    Take Me Seriously

    Depression isn't a joke. Cutting isn't a joke. Anorexia isn't a joke. Suicide definitely isn't a joke... But why is it that when i scream "I wish i was dead" you tell me im attention seeking or yell at me? Why dont you take my words and actions seriously? What will it take? Maybe...
    15ShadesOfBlue 15ShadesOfBlue 16-17, F 9 Responses May 20, 2013

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    6 times. And when I woke up again,

    I realized that no one, not even death, wanted me.
    24wildroses 24wildroses 13-15, F 9 Responses Mar 8

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    If you’re feeling suicidal,

    please read this first. Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses May 8, 2014

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    its like every time you start planning

    and have no one, someone pops up out of nowhere and you just can't leave them. it happens over and over again tbh. sometimes I wish no one would pop up just one time so maybe I could leave without hurting someone.
    XxBonesExposedxX XxBonesExposedxX 13-15, F 3 Responses May 15

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    I've attempted multiple times.

    More than I can count... My now ex says, people who really want to commit suicide won't talk about it.. So they don't get help? And the attempts are always regardless the situation, to control somehow. Sigh...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 19

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    https://m.soundcloud.

    com/eriikaa/sucide Nah, don't suicide. It wasn't worth the try. I'm glad I didn't die. You wouldn't find it worthful either. Listen to the song, you'll know...
    RaZorr RaZorr 22-25, M 1 Response May 13

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    I tried to kill myself last night.

    It obv didn't work out since I'm still here. I want to disapear and never come back.
    amandapanda2498 amandapanda2498 16-17, F 9 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    I'm coming up on a year next week

    since my first attempt... and I've tried one other time since the. :/
    ThatOneNerdGirl ThatOneNerdGirl 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I can't believe I'm telling this to strangers

    but back when I was 14 I was diagnosed with Bipolar and I've been on strong antipsychotics for about 4 years well back in September I tried to commit. I overdosed on Ibuprofen (it was the only I had) I took about 30 pills which was about 2,000 milligrams over the recommended...
    AvaDay AvaDay 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    A couple of months ago,

    i thought about taking my life. Ever since my 3rd girlfriend dupmed me, it wasnt a bad relationship, but my cousin forgot to tell me that she wanted to see me before i went up north camping. When i got back, she said that she was disappointed in me and She would never forgive me...
    Rh1no16 Rh1no16 16-17, M 1 Response May 7

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    I tried to suicide once,

    when my boyfriend left me. I was 21. I then realised I didn't really wanna die after I saw some blood running out my wrist. I did what I saw on movies: looks cool and dramatically beautiful somehow.....but then I realised something. I was alone, in the bathroom, in my head...
    Aurelielavraie Aurelielavraie 31-35, F 1 Response May 17

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