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I Tried to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 162 People

    A Few Times

    I tried on several occasions. Would I do it again, I'd like to say no, but the honest answer is probabaly yes. When I do it, it's like a compulsion, an urge, I can't fight it...I have tried. Most of the time I know as soon as I have done something that I have made a mistake and I...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 30, 2007

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    I tried to commit suicide 9 times.

    I tried to kill myself twice with a rope, once trying to stab myself in the chest, another time attempting to choke or drown myself. There were other times I had close contact with purposely getting into car accidents. My life is really ****** up.
    AdamBinx AdamBinx 22-25, M Mar 19, 2014

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    i planned it three times.

    on time, last year in the beginning of February 2013, i tried it. i failed. And now i know how difficult it is. I guuess nearly impossible for one who is absolutely scared of pain. So i dont think i try it again. But every evening, when i go to bed, i hope that i wont wake up...
    Crown63 Crown63 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 15, 2014

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    Just Got Out

    I was trying to explain how the desire to kill yourself makes you feel. I said it was like that scene in the Incredibles where Mr. Incredible sneaks into the room where the computers are to find out what's going on on the island and when he escapes, black balls of sticky mess get...
    PursyMarr PursyMarr 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2011

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    Why I Bother

    For me lack of friends I am emotionally close to or that I can hang out with often gets me down and triggers my depression. At times I feel like I will never find people that want to be around me that I can really be close to. Thoughts like this don't take long to develop into...
    nother nother 22-25, F Jul 1, 2012

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    Sometimes It's O.k. to Be a Failure, Or Why You Should Lay Out Your Clothes the Night Before...

    The sun was shining, it was beautiful outside.  I had to get ready for work!  Hurry, hurry, don't be late.  I dreaded sitting in traffic with the pain inside me.  Pain was my constant companion. I had called and wished someone a very happy birthday.  I...
    aftermath aftermath 61-65, F 10 Responses Jul 1, 2008

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    On April 13, 2013, I made my third attempt to

    commit suicide. I overdosed on my anti depressants, regretted it, and called an ambulance. I went to the hospital where I tripped balls for almost 24 hours, in an agonizing stupor. After that, I was sent to a psychiatric institute. In a five day time, I slept more than I was...
    Reven676 Reven676 22-25, M Feb 23, 2014

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    Not The Highlight Of My Life

    Everyone has challenges in their life. I have had my fair share. I am not great at letting go of emotions, or allowing any person close enough to me to actually let them in, trust them enough to confide. Each person I have chose to let in - I do not think they were mistakes, I...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    December 16,2011

    It's Been A Year And Three Months That I Have Been Struggling With Depression.Ever Since The Whole Thing With Kalin,I Totally Lost All Control Of Me.Everything Just Seemed To Fall Apart After That.I Started Failing,Having Bad Nightmares,Becoming Aggresive And Extremely Emotional...
    BlackroseVsWhiterose BlackroseVsWhiterose 16-17, F 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    I Hate Looking Back

    I always wondered what would be the most painful feeling you could expirance. The feeling of dying slow or the worst kind of depression there is. I feel like ive battle some really hard times that im glad I made it through. I was either 16 or 17 when I tried to do it, I had a...
    Unique19 Unique19 18-21, F Dec 5, 2011

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    All The Time

    I can't remember how many times. The first time I was seven. In high school, freshman year, tried 19 times in 7 months. When I was 17 I tried once a week. I was abused at home and by my boyfriend. I tried a whole bunch of different ways. I made a list of 500 ways. I tried all of...
    Flags67 Flags67 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I joined this site a few months ago in November.

    If you look at my account, you'll see two posts dated November 12th, and maybe a bit of activity that day and the next. It helped to share those stories; they're a deep part of me. It's also pretty evident that I was profoundly depressed when I wrote them. More so than I...
    mercrutio mercrutio 22-25, M Feb 27, 2014

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    I Tried Lots

    I guess the first time i tried was when i was about 13. I had come out of a year long relationship and all my friends. I really did feel alone, being mocked and teased by everyone in school. I couldn't deal with it. I thought that i would just end it. So i tried. I grabbed every...
    tomb33 tomb33 18-21, M Jun 28, 2013

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    I Hid It So Well

    Some days all I want to do is fall asleep and I fall asleep praying that I won't wake up. Shaking with fear as I hold this gun to my head The last things I remember Were all the lies you said I go into the kitchen Quietly steal a knife I press it against my chest hoping to end...
    HoldontoHope HoldontoHope 18-21, F May 10, 2012

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    To This Day: I Still Have Scars But No More Cuts.

    My dad was really abusive not just verbally but physically too, when ever we got into a fight he would threaten me and then hit me. My mum was always at work so she was never home to do anything about it and when ever she finished work she was always too tired to notice. My...
    shanelly shanelly 16-17, F Jan 28, 2012

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    When i was 15 i grabbed my dads gun

    that he had in his cabnit i put it to my head and prayed i go to heaven but when i was about to pull the trigger my sister maria saw me and tackeled me to the ground and threw the gun on the bed i begged her with tears in my eyes to give me the gun but she said no crying she...
    Nikki978 Nikki978 18-21, F Apr 5, 2014

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    i don't really talk about this

    because it still upsets me that it didn't work. i took what i had left which was 14 200mg naproxen pills. i swallowed them all and went to sleep hoping i wouldn't wake up after , but i did i woke up in the morning in time for school with a headache and my stomach just burned. no...
    rosechild rosechild 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2014

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    Such a Failure

    July 4th weekend I tried. I went to the pharmacy, picked up my Rx for ambien, went home and downed the whole thing. I slept for 3 days, woke up, realized it was Monday and I had to get to work - to the job that just days earlier I found out I was being laid off from. I...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 30, 2008

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    Don't really remember

    when it happened. It was probably when I was 6-9 years old? I remembered that I went to the kitchen and took the kitchen knife. I pointed the knife towards my stomach and tried to stab/kill myself for no reason. Weirdly, I had never been exposed to images or ideas of suicide or...
    Dove06 Dove06 18-21, F Nov 29, 2014

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    I Almost Died

    I am almost 30 years old now, but a year and a half ago I almost died. I was going through some major depression and the guy I was with made me feel really bad about myself. He made me believe I didn't have a reason to live and so that is how I ended up thinking. I ended...
    theprincess2009 theprincess2009 26-30 5 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    I never thought this would be me.

    Suicide. The word holds pain. Suicide. Suicide. Suicide. I'm here like you. I tried to kill myself. Before, I would never talk down on suicidal people, never. But I would always lack sympathy for them. I just figured that suicide is not the only answer. And I'm now a...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    My Story

    I was getting emotionally drained by the abuse of a neighbor above me for 4 years-no joke! I was desperate to move out after 7 years of living there. I also have mental illness and I was heading for another mental breakdown that took me 6 months to fully recover. I became...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Dec 9, 2012

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    In Another Life

    I don't talk about this era of my life. It was so long ago that when I look back, it's almost like looking at someone else's life. Yet, it was't someone else...it was me. A very lost, dark, disturbed, and suicidal me. My initial depression didn't begin as such a heavy oppression...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 16 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Here I am. Scared to face the world,

    tired of living and with complete hatred towards myself. What's the point of trying anymore? I just want to give up. But how? How do I end it? Once, I just had enough and I wanted it all to just come to an end. I drank the pills one-by-one, each time followed by a sip of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I Tried

    It's been months since I tried committing suicide. I was in the back of my great grandfather's van with most of the seats down, hose connected from the exhaust pipe to the window with the cracks taped down. I just laid there listening to "My redeemer" on my Ipod. Before I set up...
    2young4marriage 2young4marriage 18-21, F Sep 4, 2013

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    It's Been A Year.

    I can't remember the date, but the day was Tuesday, January 2012. I had an okay day, until the ending. I was in school, about to get signed up for my driver's license class. My parents were on their way, unsuspecting of anything. But I mean, no one expected it. Not even me. But...
    decembersnow decembersnow 18-21, F Jan 22, 2013

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    My Time...

    It all started with this girl... It usually does. We were together for about 5 years and I thought we where very happy. Well let me rephrase that, I thought she was happy. I was at the time. I was going to ask for her hand in marriage. Well on our fifth year anniversary I waited...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2010

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    Every time I feel weak because of a bunch of problems. All I think about as a solution is suicide. I have tried to commit suicide a looot of times but every time I stop and I feel...
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    My sisters make fun of me because I tried to commit suicide they say I did those things for attention and I would never do that and my mom has so many medical problems and my dad...
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    i tried to commit suicide after my dad did, because i was raped by one of his close friends growing up, he made me do meth
    madicakes123 madicakes123 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    I lost my uncle to suicide, he was driving somewhere and decided to end it all. I learned all of that from the radio, two days after, the local news repeated events that happen in...
    prettybombie prettybombie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I just lost my dad may 5th 2014, he committed suicide, he put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. His suicide note kills me everytime i see it. I miss him, he was my hero
    madicakes123 madicakes123 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    So I just witnessed someone have a mental breakdown because they couldn't smoke pot , someone so desperate that they said they would commit suicide because they couldn't get high...
    Goldeneye504 Goldeneye504 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 3

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    I just found out that my bestfriend committed suicide... Oh my god...
    xXxbrokenangelxXx xXxbrokenangelxXx 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    I just learned that a friend of mine committed suicide yesterday. it just feels unreal, I just don't know what to say.
    andrewD51 andrewD51 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 10

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    My best friend committed suicide which is why I could never. But I don't wanna feel anything anymore and I don't know what to do
    leex1234 leex1234 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I'm sorry no joke but is this supposed to mean you committed suicide but you survived? wouldn't this just mean you attempted to do it but failed? (which is a did thing you did not...
    Nicole0228 Nicole0228 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Recently I've been getting messages asking about my suicide attempts so instead of explaining it to ya'll through pm I thought I'd share my experience on here. I tried to kill...
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    This might sound really bad but........... When I went through this I was apart of a pro-suicide group and i'm wondering if anyone else was in that type of group..?
    NoahVolley NoahVolley 18-21, M Feb 9

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    How many suicides will it take to make people realize what you say ******* matters
    hippiesnow hippiesnow 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I attempted suicide today. An angel saved my life. I tied a noose and I secured a fishing knot at the other end. I tied it from a beam that can hold 300kg. I used rope that can...
    LostAngel89 LostAngel89 18-21 1 Response Feb 17

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