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I Tried to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 218 People

    Suicide Infatuation

    When I was a bit younger I was a lost, depressed and fearful individual. I never felt worthy of the good things around me which made me a very suicidal individual. I felt like a compleat waist of space and a total burden to my few friends and family. To numb myself from the...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch
    26-30, M
    Jan 15, 2012

    Forget Life

    As Of Now I Feel Like My Life Is Completely OVER!!! I Dont Have Family Or Friends Too Depend On. My Heart Is In Pieces And The Only Thing Im Able Too Turn Too As Of Now Is Death!! Im Thanking God For Everything He's Helped Me With And LettingMe See This Much Of My Life. THANK YOU...
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103
    22-25, F
    Aug 23, 2013

    Wrong frame Of Mind...

    I really can't sit here and write and tell everyone that it's all going to be OK, because it's not. I am in a terrible frame of mind right now and probably shouldn't be writing this at all. I do understand the fact that emotions pass and we won't always feel this way. But then I...
    hkascia hkascia
    31-35, F
    Oct 15, 2012

    I have tried several times.

    Still think about it alot. If my youngest daughter wasnt in my life I wouldnt be here. Im not happy at all. I act like I am all the time. Im lonely, I have so many regrets, and no one truely cares about me. Ive always been the black sheep of the family. My mom has always been...
    momof3grls2015 momof3grls2015
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2015

    Still Crying For HELP

    I Want Too Start My Short Srory Off By Saying Im Physically Emotionally Spurtually And Etc Depressed! I Feel Like No One Ever Listens Too Me Or Anything I Have Too Say. I Cry So Much I Give Myself A Headache Every Two Seconds. Not Even The People Close Too Me Understands How I...
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103
    22-25, F
    Aug 21, 2013

    Honestly I Still Wish I Suceeded

    Okay, so first of all, my life is wonderful when you get down to it. Sure I grew up in a home where my parents went from madly in love to about ready to claw each others eyes out. That's love, the highs are incredibly high, but so are the lows. Obviously I heard lots of screaming...
    CatTH63 CatTH63
    22-25, F
    Jul 31, 2013

    It was a close one. I was at the point

    when the idea didn't frighten me, in fact i felt deathly calm. It was all planned. No body found by anyone in my family. Just "gone" without a trace. It has culminated in years of suicidal idealization , mainly focused around bridges, knives, overdose and pretty much every...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 25, 2014

    All The Time

    I can't remember how many times. The first time I was seven. In high school, freshman year, tried 19 times in 7 months. When I was 17 I tried once a week. I was abused at home and by my boyfriend. I tried a whole bunch of different ways. I made a list of 500 ways. I tried all of...
    Flags67 Flags67
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

    It's not just one thing.

    It's life compounded. Is there not a limit to how much one can take? No end to suffering? I've heard live in the moment. Just as there is pain today, it will be gone tomorrow. I do understand that this is not the literal today, I can't help but think these people have not known...
    ktjade ktjade
    31-35, F
    Nov 24, 2015
    monatonie monatonie
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2015

    I tried to commit suicide 9 times.

    I tried to kill myself twice with a rope, once trying to stab myself in the chest, another time attempting to choke or drown myself. There were other times I had close contact with purposely getting into car accidents. My life is really ****** up.
    AdamBinx AdamBinx
    22-25, M
    Mar 19, 2014

    I Hate Looking Back

    I always wondered what would be the most painful feeling you could expirance. The feeling of dying slow or the worst kind of depression there is. I feel like ive battle some really hard times that im glad I made it through. I was either 16 or 17 when I tried to do it, I had a...
    Unique19 Unique19
    18-21, F
    Dec 5, 2011

    I Tried

    It's been months since I tried committing suicide. I was in the back of my great grandfather's van with most of the seats down, hose connected from the exhaust pipe to the window with the cracks taped down. I just laid there listening to "My redeemer" on my Ipod. Before I set up...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 4, 2013

    Helpp!!!!!

    I Wish I Could Sleep Forever And Not Have Too Ever In Life Wake Up. Nothing Is Ever Enough And I Do Get Tired!!!!
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103
    22-25, F
    Aug 26, 2013

    To This Day: I Still Have Scars But No More Cuts.

    My dad was really abusive not just verbally but physically too, when ever we got into a fight he would threaten me and then hit me. My mum was always at work so she was never home to do anything about it and when ever she finished work she was always too tired to notice. My...
    shanelly shanelly
    16-17, F
    Jan 28, 2012

    When i was 15 i grabbed my dads gun

    that he had in his cabnit i put it to my head and prayed i go to heaven but when i was about to pull the trigger my sister maria saw me and tackeled me to the ground and threw the gun on the bed i begged her with tears in my eyes to give me the gun but she said no crying she...
    Nikki978 Nikki978
    18-21, F
    Apr 5, 2014

    It Went Badly.

    Everyone says you're not supposed to hurt myself. A few traumatic events and some alcohol helped me decide to try something I'd been thinking about for years. The bad part wasn't the attempt. It wasn't even finding out I was unsuccessful. It was, and still is, dealing with the...
    Ericacea Ericacea
    22-25
    1 Response Mar 12, 2011

    Why I Bother

    For me lack of friends I am emotionally close to or that I can hang out with often gets me down and triggers my depression. At times I feel like I will never find people that want to be around me that I can really be close to. Thoughts like this don't take long to develop into...
    nother nother
    22-25, F
    Jul 1, 2012

    It's Been A Year.

    I can't remember the date, but the day was Tuesday, January 2012. I had an okay day, until the ending. I was in school, about to get signed up for my driver's license class. My parents were on their way, unsuspecting of anything. But I mean, no one expected it. Not even me. But...
    decembersnow decembersnow
    18-21, F
    Jan 22, 2013

    I am currently in the hospital

    and have been for over four months with time To go. I broke almost every bone in my body. A homeless drug addict who attempted suicide.
    kpuff92 kpuff92
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    I joined this site a few months ago in November.

    If you look at my account, you'll see two posts dated November 12th, and maybe a bit of activity that day and the next. It helped to share those stories; they're a deep part of me. It's also pretty evident that I was profoundly depressed when I wrote them. More so than I...
    mercrutio mercrutio
    22-25, M
    Feb 27, 2014

    On April 13, 2013, I made my third attempt to

    commit suicide. I overdosed on my anti depressants, regretted it, and called an ambulance. I went to the hospital where I tripped balls for almost 24 hours, in an agonizing stupor. After that, I was sent to a psychiatric institute. In a five day time, I slept more than I was...
    Reven676 Reven676
    22-25, M
    Feb 23, 2014

    Today April 2,2015 @ 350 pm took 200 100mg

    Zoloft 1200mg ridaline liquor and huffed. as I write this I oddly feel only relieve and at this time tomoorw I will be fre
    destinedtodie94 destinedtodie94
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 2, 2015

    I am not looking for a soulmate

    as the post says I replied I'm in a amazing relationship with the love of my life for years . I'm not sure how the site works if u click on me too shouldn't that mean you are agreeing? I think it's backwards idfk know. Just here to listen and share friendships only
    fucker33 fucker33
    41-45, F
    May 24, 2015

    Sometimes It's O.k. to Be a Failure, Or Why You Should Lay Out Your Clothes the Night Before...

    The sun was shining, it was beautiful outside.  I had to get ready for work!  Hurry, hurry, don't be late.  I dreaded sitting in traffic with the pain inside me.  Pain was my constant companion. I had called and wished someone a very happy birthday.  I...
    aftermath aftermath
    61-65, F
    10 Responses Jul 1, 2008

    In Another Life

    I don't talk about this era of my life. It was so long ago that when I look back, it's almost like looking at someone else's life. Yet, it was't someone else...it was me. A very lost, dark, disturbed, and suicidal me. My initial depression didn't begin as such a heavy oppression...
    LG76 LG76
    36-40, F
    13 Responses Apr 22, 2012

    i don't really talk about this

    because it still upsets me that it didn't work. i took what i had left which was 14 200mg naproxen pills. i swallowed them all and went to sleep hoping i wouldn't wake up after , but i did i woke up in the morning in time for school with a headache and my stomach just burned. no...
    rosechild rosechild
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2014

    I have a very abusive mom

    that i love so much but she never respect either appreciate me.. Is it because her insecurities or love too much? I am thinking about suicide... Im so depressed. She never want to listen, she'd asked me to die. She said she never wanted me. Idk. Im so done.
    annegeorge annegeorge
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2015

    I Almost Died

    I am almost 30 years old now, but a year and a half ago I almost died. I was going through some major depression and the guy I was with made me feel really bad about myself. He made me believe I didn't have a reason to live and so that is how I ended up thinking. I ended...
    theprincess2009 theprincess2009
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 9, 2009
    andrewvickers andrewvickers
    22-25, M
    3 Responses May 23, 2015

    Just Got Out

    I was trying to explain how the desire to kill yourself makes you feel. I said it was like that scene in the Incredibles where Mr. Incredible sneaks into the room where the computers are to find out what's going on on the island and when he escapes, black balls of sticky mess get...
    PursyMarr PursyMarr
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2011

    I don't know anymore,

    sometimes I wonder what it all really means. Yeah I tried to take some poison this weekend. I'm the only that knows didn't work tho. I guess I am tired or maybe it's just that I'm hurting too damn much. Hell I ts hard to function in society, to be "normal" I make myself tho...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 6, 2015

    Here I am. Scared to face the world,

    tired of living and with complete hatred towards myself. What's the point of trying anymore? I just want to give up. But how? How do I end it? Once, I just had enough and I wanted it all to just come to an end. I drank the pills one-by-one, each time followed by a sip of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 22, 2013

    I Have Tried To Commit Suicide More Than 30 Times In The Last 3 Years.

    I over dose on drugs (otc and prescriptions) and alcohol. I do it so much now that I don't even go to the hospital... I don't call a distress line... I don't tell my therapist or my psychiatrist. I am more afraid of ending up in hospital than I am of dying. I research...
    absolom absolom
    41-45
    Oct 15, 2013

    i planned it three times.

    on time, last year in the beginning of February 2013, i tried it. i failed. And now i know how difficult it is. I guuess nearly impossible for one who is absolutely scared of pain. So i dont think i try it again. But every evening, when i go to bed, i hope that i wont wake up...
    Crown63 Crown63
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2014
    cial cial
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 28, 2015

    This Is How It Goes

    When I was 14 years old, I tried to commit suicide twice. My parents got divorced, and my dad was out of my life for a while, and I got deeply depressed. That was 10 years ago. A lot has happened since then. I graduated high school, graduated from art school, and pursued my dream...
    citylightsdb citylightsdb
    26-30
    Jul 20, 2013

    Suicide Sucks....

    I've tried different ways all unsuccessful, today im greatful it didn't work, since, then i had two little boys who i love millions. They are the reason i fight this horrible depression.
    OutsideLookingIin OutsideLookingIin
    22-25, F
    Nov 10, 2013

    December 16,2011

    It's Been A Year And Three Months That I Have Been Struggling With Depression.Ever Since The Whole Thing With Kalin,I Totally Lost All Control Of Me.Everything Just Seemed To Fall Apart After That.I Started Failing,Having Bad Nightmares,Becoming Aggresive And Extremely Emotional...
    BlackroseVsWhiterose BlackroseVsWhiterose
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 2, 2012

    Still Crying For HELP

    I Want Too Start My Short Srory Off By Saying Im Physically Emotionally Spurtually And Etc Depressed! I Feel Like No One Ever Listens Too Me Or Anything I Have Too Say. I Cry So Much I Give Myself A Headache Every Two Seconds. Not Even The People Close Too Me Understands How I...
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103
    22-25, F
    Aug 21, 2013

    What is Real ? What is?

    What am I doing !?
    monatonie monatonie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2015

    I never thought this would be me.

    Suicide. The word holds pain. Suicide. Suicide. Suicide. I'm here like you. I tried to kill myself. Before, I would never talk down on suicidal people, never. But I would always lack sympathy for them. I just figured that suicide is not the only answer. And I'm now a...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

    I know what its like guys.

    none of you have to do this. people care about you.
    cheycheybrumbrum cheycheybrumbrum
    26-30, F
    Dec 1, 2015

    Such a Failure

    July 4th weekend I tried. I went to the pharmacy, picked up my Rx for ambien, went home and downed the whole thing. I slept for 3 days, woke up, realized it was Monday and I had to get to work - to the job that just days earlier I found out I was being laid off from. I...
    Shonnie Shonnie
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2008

    My Suicide Attempts

    My personal experience with mental illness is the worst pain I have ever felt, and probably will feel in my life. I never lived my 20's. I became ill when I was 20, and am now 29. I've been in the hospital 4 times. Three for suicide attempts. Trying to commit suicide was a...
    miked4948 miked4948
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Jun 14, 2012
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