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I Tried to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 144 People

    I Almost Died

    I am almost 30 years old now, but a year and a half ago I almost died. I was going through some major depression and the guy I was with made me feel really bad about myself. He made me believe I didn't have a reason to live and so that is how I ended up thinking. I ended...
    theprincess2009 theprincess2009 26-30 5 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    I Hate Looking Back

    I always wondered what would be the most painful feeling you could expirance. The feeling of dying slow or the worst kind of depression there is. I feel like ive battle some really hard times that im glad I made it through. I was either 16 or 17 when I tried to do it, I had a...
    Unique19 Unique19 18-21, F Dec 5, 2011

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    Not The Highlight Of My Life

    Everyone has challenges in their life. I have had my fair share. I am not great at letting go of emotions, or allowing any person close enough to me to actually let them in, trust them enough to confide. Each person I have chose to let in - I do not think they were mistakes, I...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    I Tried

    It's been months since I tried committing suicide. I was in the back of my great grandfather's van with most of the seats down, hose connected from the exhaust pipe to the window with the cracks taped down. I just laid there listening to "My redeemer" on my Ipod. Before I set up...
    2young4marriage 2young4marriage 18-21, F Sep 4, 2013

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    Here I am. Scared to face the world,

    tired of living and with complete hatred towards myself. What's the point of trying anymore? I just want to give up. But how? How do I end it? Once, I just had enough and I wanted it all to just come to an end. I drank the pills one-by-one, each time followed by a sip of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    A Few Times

    I tried on several occasions. Would I do it again, I'd like to say no, but the honest answer is probabaly yes. When I do it, it's like a compulsion, an urge, I can't fight it...I have tried. Most of the time I know as soon as I have done something that I have made a mistake and I...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 30, 2007

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    I Hid It So Well

    Some days all I want to do is fall asleep and I fall asleep praying that I won't wake up. Shaking with fear as I hold this gun to my head The last things I remember Were all the lies you said I go into the kitchen Quietly steal a knife I press it against my chest hoping to end...
    HoldontoHope HoldontoHope 18-21, F May 10, 2012

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    To This Day: I Still Have Scars But No More Cuts.

    My dad was really abusive not just verbally but physically too, when ever we got into a fight he would threaten me and then hit me. My mum was always at work so she was never home to do anything about it and when ever she finished work she was always too tired to notice. My...
    shanelly shanelly 16-17, F Jan 28, 2012

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    i planned it three times.

    on time, last year in the beginning of February 2013, i tried it. i failed. And now i know how difficult it is. I guuess nearly impossible for one who is absolutely scared of pain. So i dont think i try it again. But every evening, when i go to bed, i hope that i wont wake up...
    Crown63 Crown63 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 15

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    In Another Life

    I don't talk about this era of my life. It was so long ago that when I look back, it's almost like looking at someone else's life. Yet, it was't someone else...it was me. A very lost, dark, disturbed, and suicidal me. My initial depression didn't begin as such a heavy oppression...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 16 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    Sometimes It's O.k. to Be a Failure, Or Why You Should Lay Out Your Clothes the Night Before...

    The sun was shining, it was beautiful outside.  I had to get ready for work!  Hurry, hurry, don't be late.  I dreaded sitting in traffic with the pain inside me.  Pain was my constant companion. I had called and wished someone a very happy birthday.  I...
    aftermath aftermath 61-65, F 10 Responses Jul 1, 2008

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    My Story

    I was getting emotionally drained by the abuse of a neighbor above me for 4 years-no joke! I was desperate to move out after 7 years of living there. I also have mental illness and I was heading for another mental breakdown that took me 6 months to fully recover. I became...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Dec 9, 2012

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    I never thought this would be me.

    Suicide. The word holds pain. Suicide. Suicide. Suicide. I'm here like you. I tried to kill myself. Before, I would never talk down on suicidal people, never. But I would always lack sympathy for them. I just figured that suicide is not the only answer. And I'm now a...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    On April 13, 2013, I made my third attempt to

    commit suicide. I overdosed on my anti depressants, regretted it, and called an ambulance. I went to the hospital where I tripped balls for almost 24 hours, in an agonizing stupor. After that, I was sent to a psychiatric institute. In a five day time, I slept more than I was...
    Reven676 Reven676 22-25, M Feb 23

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    I tried to commit suicide 9 times.

    I tried to kill myself twice with a rope, once trying to stab myself in the chest, another time attempting to choke or drown myself. There were other times I had close contact with purposely getting into car accidents. My life is really ****** up.
    AdamBinx AdamBinx 22-25, M Mar 19

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    Don't really remember

    when it happened. It was probably when I was 6-9 years old? I remembered that I went to the kitchen and took the kitchen knife. I pointed the knife towards my stomach and tried to stab/kill myself for no reason. Weirdly, I had never been exposed to images or ideas of suicide or...
    Dove06 Dove06 18-21, F Nov 29

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    i don't really talk about this

    because it still upsets me that it didn't work. i took what i had left which was 14 200mg naproxen pills. i swallowed them all and went to sleep hoping i wouldn't wake up after , but i did i woke up in the morning in time for school with a headache and my stomach just burned. no...
    rosechild rosechild 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    My Time...

    It all started with this girl... It usually does. We were together for about 5 years and I thought we where very happy. Well let me rephrase that, I thought she was happy. I was at the time. I was going to ask for her hand in marriage. Well on our fifth year anniversary I waited...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2010

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    Such a Failure

    July 4th weekend I tried. I went to the pharmacy, picked up my Rx for ambien, went home and downed the whole thing. I slept for 3 days, woke up, realized it was Monday and I had to get to work - to the job that just days earlier I found out I was being laid off from. I...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 30, 2008

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    I joined this site a few months ago in November.

    If you look at my account, you'll see two posts dated November 12th, and maybe a bit of activity that day and the next. It helped to share those stories; they're a deep part of me. It's also pretty evident that I was profoundly depressed when I wrote them. More so than I...
    mercrutio mercrutio 22-25, M Feb 27

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    I Tried Lots

    I guess the first time i tried was when i was about 13. I had come out of a year long relationship and all my friends. I really did feel alone, being mocked and teased by everyone in school. I couldn't deal with it. I thought that i would just end it. So i tried. I grabbed every...
    tomb33 tomb33 18-21, M Jun 28, 2013

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    It's Been A Year.

    I can't remember the date, but the day was Tuesday, January 2012. I had an okay day, until the ending. I was in school, about to get signed up for my driver's license class. My parents were on their way, unsuspecting of anything. But I mean, no one expected it. Not even me. But...
    decembersnow decembersnow 18-21, F Jan 22, 2013

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    When i was 15 i grabbed my dads gun

    that he had in his cabnit i put it to my head and prayed i go to heaven but when i was about to pull the trigger my sister maria saw me and tackeled me to the ground and threw the gun on the bed i begged her with tears in my eyes to give me the gun but she said no crying she...
    Nikki978 Nikki978 18-21, F Apr 5

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    Just Got Out

    I was trying to explain how the desire to kill yourself makes you feel. I said it was like that scene in the Incredibles where Mr. Incredible sneaks into the room where the computers are to find out what's going on on the island and when he escapes, black balls of sticky mess get...
    PursyMarr PursyMarr 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2011

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    All The Time

    I can't remember how many times. The first time I was seven. In high school, freshman year, tried 19 times in 7 months. When I was 17 I tried once a week. I was abused at home and by my boyfriend. I tried a whole bunch of different ways. I made a list of 500 ways. I tried all of...
    Flags67 Flags67 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    December 16,2011

    It's Been A Year And Three Months That I Have Been Struggling With Depression.Ever Since The Whole Thing With Kalin,I Totally Lost All Control Of Me.Everything Just Seemed To Fall Apart After That.I Started Failing,Having Bad Nightmares,Becoming Aggresive And Extremely Emotional...
    BlackroseVsWhiterose BlackroseVsWhiterose 16-17, F 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    Why I Bother

    For me lack of friends I am emotionally close to or that I can hang out with often gets me down and triggers my depression. At times I feel like I will never find people that want to be around me that I can really be close to. Thoughts like this don't take long to develop into...
    nother nother 22-25, F Jul 1, 2012

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    My 52 year old brother committed suicide on Monday leaving my 88 year old mother alone and heartbroken. He lived with her, took care of her and they were very close. I am grief...
    elsak3 elsak3 56-60, F Dec 4

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    There was this girl in the town I used to live in. She wasn't always the nicest but a lot of the times she was. I wasn't good friends with her, its weird because I watched her from...
    cristinaluciana cristinaluciana 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Why? I don't see why death should be a solution. Can someone please explain it? **** off to whatever person that has left you. Is life boring or just sad? Take medicines or drugs...
    AcidBrain AcidBrain 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 4

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    My mom killed herself in front of me when I was 15 said was my fault before she did it she abused me all her life so I would expect nothing less from her I have never felt anything...
    unspankablebrat80 unspankablebrat80 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    I'm mad at him. My brother quit and left me with anger, resentment, and grief. Thanks a lot **** head.
    justmeandmydreams justmeandmydreams 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Not me, but my best friend have tried committing suicide more than once but i know he won't do it because he is the only friend i have and i am the only the friend he has and we...
    iamjustbeingme iamjustbeingme 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 10

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    Ok ... So I just saw this person post an experience about them being in the hospital because they tried to commit suicide . How stupid can our society be ? 😒 To Be Honest...
    CalmYourShit CalmYourShit 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    many times In my past I have 'tried to commit suicide" then I realised. "if I really wanted to commit suicide, I'd be dead by now.."
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I tried to commit suicide once. Earlier on this year in January 2014. My depression just became that bad that I didn't feel that I could cope anymore:( I wanted the people who...
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 11

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    I tried to commit suicide twice this year, 4 times in my entire life. I joined this group to get a perspective on why we try this. I normally don't talk about it because talking is...
    IzBroken IzBroken 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 11

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    People shouldn't take it lightly. I remember when I was in Middle school I was on the phone with this girl I used to talk to and I can't remember what I said but I think I said...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    A couple months back I tried to commit suicide by overdose on Fioricet. I didn't take enough and blacked out for a few hours, was passed out for I don't know how long, and went to...
    MaddiElise MaddiElise 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    Its been a year now and everyday I am thinking about committing suicide.
    maryamtssn24 maryamtssn24 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I want to prevent it with all my heart.1 guess I'm a hypocrite then since I want to commit suicide..
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F Dec 7

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    This is my first Christmas without my son who committed suicide on June 1. So far so good. Thank you vodka :-)
    everydaysteph everydaysteph 46-50, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I did, a long time ago, a REALLY long time ago but that's not why I'm here. My dad is great and all but there's just those "what the fudge are you thinking?!?!" Moments. He said...
    Mixedemotions2k Mixedemotions2k 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Please call the suicide hotlines if you are thinking this:
    divinegimp divinegimp 22-25 1 Response Dec 10

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    I tried more than once.. first time the rope broke, second time the bullet didn't kill me. I have a lot of these moments... I tried and I tried again... Nothing every time...
    Lind4421 Lind4421 18-21 1 Response Dec 4

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    Sometimes I ask myself, "What's the point of this existence?" My general response is, "Why does there have to be a point? Isn't it enough to be aware at this moment?" and usually...
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 1 Response Nov 29

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    The thoughts in my head and the voices within... It's all too much... I've damaged you and dragged you down.. But you shouldn't need to worry about that soon... Cause there'll be...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 18

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    I have tried to kill myself 2 times this month. 2 weeks ago i picked up a hand gun and i was going to shoot myself in the head, but when i pulled the trigger the ******* gun wouldn...
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1 16-17, M 7 Responses Dec 13

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