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I Tried to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 127 People

    Helpp!!!!!

    I Wish I Could Sleep Forever And Not Have Too Ever In Life Wake Up. Nothing Is Ever Enough And I Do Get Tired!!!!
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103 18-21, F Aug 26, 2013

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    I Have Tried To Commit Suicide More Than 30 Times In The Last 3 Years.

    I over dose on drugs (otc and prescriptions) and alcohol. I do it so much now that I don't even go to the hospital... I don't call a distress line... I don't tell my therapist or my psychiatrist. I am more afraid of ending up in hospital than I am of dying. I research...
    absolom absolom 36-40 Oct 15, 2013

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    Title?uh...i Tried To Kill Myself?

    I'm a second semester freshman in college.When I first got here,I thought I would be fine.I'm only two hours from home.My dad was just a phone call away.That didn't matter though.A few weeks prior to moving to college,I told my doctor the anti-depressants I was taking were making...
    Rachalsaurusrex Rachalsaurusrex 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2012

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    It's Been A Year.

    I can't remember the date, but the day was Tuesday, January 2012. I had an okay day, until the ending. I was in school, about to get signed up for my driver's license class. My parents were on their way, unsuspecting of anything. But I mean, no one expected it. Not even me. But...
    decembersnow decembersnow 18-21, F Jan 22, 2013

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    I never thought this would be me.

    Suicide. The word holds pain. Suicide. Suicide. Suicide. I'm here like you. I tried to kill myself. Before, I would never talk down on suicidal people, never. But I would always lack sympathy for them. I just figured that suicide is not the only answer. And I'm now a...
    IWillMakeYouThink IWillMakeYouThink 18-21, F Jun 15

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    Coming Up To Anniversary

    Coming up to the anniversary of the overdose. Seventeen years ago, another Christmas, another winter, short hollow days and long ink-spill nights. A Christmas like any other - father hurling blows and curses at me, told me he wished I had never been born, looked forward to me...
    lostnotyetfound lostnotyetfound 36-40 1 Response Dec 26, 2012

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    Sometimes It's O.k. to Be a Failure, Or Why You Should Lay Out Your Clothes the Night Before...

    The sun was shining, it was beautiful outside.  I had to get ready for work!  Hurry, hurry, don't be late.  I dreaded sitting in traffic with the pain inside me.  Pain was my constant companion. I had called and wished someone a very happy birthday.  I...
    aftermath aftermath 61-65, F 10 Responses Jul 1, 2008

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    This Is How It Goes

    When I was 14 years old, I tried to commit suicide twice. My parents got divorced, and my dad was out of my life for a while, and I got deeply depressed. That was 10 years ago. A lot has happened since then. I graduated high school, graduated from art school, and pursued my dream...
    citylightsdb citylightsdb 22-25 Jul 20, 2013

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    Still Crying For HELP

    I Want Too Start My Short Srory Off By Saying Im Physically Emotionally Spurtually And Etc Depressed! I Feel Like No One Ever Listens Too Me Or Anything I Have Too Say. I Cry So Much I Give Myself A Headache Every Two Seconds. Not Even The People Close Too Me Understands How I...
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103 18-21, F Aug 21, 2013

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    I told my therapist that I wanted to commit

    suicide, it was the first time I ever confessed. I didn't know how to react after I told her. What are anyone's thoughts on this subject?
    det913 det913 22-25 Jul 15

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    To This Day: I Still Have Scars But No More Cuts.

    My dad was really abusive not just verbally but physically too, when ever we got into a fight he would threaten me and then hit me. My mum was always at work so she was never home to do anything about it and when ever she finished work she was always too tired to notice. My...
    shanelly shanelly 16-17, F Jan 28, 2012

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    I Almost Died

    I am almost 30 years old now, but a year and a half ago I almost died. I was going through some major depression and the guy I was with made me feel really bad about myself. He made me believe I didn't have a reason to live and so that is how I ended up thinking. I ended...
    theprincess2009 theprincess2009 26-30 5 Responses Feb 9, 2009

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    I Tried

    It's been months since I tried committing suicide. I was in the back of my great grandfather's van with most of the seats down, hose connected from the exhaust pipe to the window with the cracks taped down. I just laid there listening to "My redeemer" on my Ipod. Before I set up...
    2young4marriage 2young4marriage 18-21, F Sep 4, 2013

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    All The Time

    I can't remember how many times. The first time I was seven. In high school, freshman year, tried 19 times in 7 months. When I was 17 I tried once a week. I was abused at home and by my boyfriend. I tried a whole bunch of different ways. I made a list of 500 ways. I tried all of...
    Flags67 Flags67 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Several Suicide Attempts

    to make a long sory short ive overdosed on klonopin prozac depacote and litium to try to end my life. the worst was when i shot myself in my main artery. ended up loosind lots of blood two tranfusions ans a major surjury to repair my artery. and havind a blood clot from surjury...
    suicideking1 suicideking1 31-35 Aug 18, 2012

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    I Tried To Commit Suicide When I Was 14 And 18 Years Old

    i was born march 10, 1991 i am now 21 years old and my abusive ********* father was sexually molesting me and was physically abusive, verbal abuse and emotional abuse. i over dosed on my fathers blood pressure pills because i was trying to get away from the psycho that was...
    AppleCherry2013 AppleCherry2013 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    December 16,2011

    It's Been A Year And Three Months That I Have Been Struggling With Depression.Ever Since The Whole Thing With Kalin,I Totally Lost All Control Of Me.Everything Just Seemed To Fall Apart After That.I Started Failing,Having Bad Nightmares,Becoming Aggresive And Extremely Emotional...
    BlackroseVsWhiterose BlackroseVsWhiterose 16-17, F 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    My Time...

    It all started with this girl... It usually does. We were together for about 5 years and I thought we where very happy. Well let me rephrase that, I thought she was happy. I was at the time. I was going to ask for her hand in marriage. Well on our fifth year anniversary I waited...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2010

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    A Few Times

    I tried on several occasions. Would I do it again, I'd like to say no, but the honest answer is probabaly yes. When I do it, it's like a compulsion, an urge, I can't fight it...I have tried. Most of the time I know as soon as I have done something that I have made a mistake and I...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 30, 2007

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    I Tried Lots

    I guess the first time i tried was when i was about 13. I had come out of a year long relationship and all my friends. I really did feel alone, being mocked and teased by everyone in school. I couldn't deal with it. I thought that i would just end it. So i tried. I grabbed every...
    tomb33 tomb33 18-21, M Jun 28, 2013

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    Suicide Sucks....

    I've tried different ways all unsuccessful, today im greatful it didn't work, since, then i had two little boys who i love millions. They are the reason i fight this horrible depression.
    OutsideLookingIin OutsideLookingIin 22-25, F Nov 10, 2013

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    I tried to commit suicide 9 times.

    I tried to kill myself twice with a rope, once trying to stab myself in the chest, another time attempting to choke or drown myself. There were other times I had close contact with purposely getting into car accidents. My life is really ****** up.
    AdamBinx AdamBinx 18-21, M Mar 19

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    I Hid It So Well

    Some days all I want to do is fall asleep and I fall asleep praying that I won't wake up. Shaking with fear as I hold this gun to my head The last things I remember Were all the lies you said I go into the kitchen Quietly steal a knife I press it against my chest hoping to end...
    HoldontoHope HoldontoHope 18-21, F May 10, 2012

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    Honestly I Still Wish I Suceeded

    Okay, so first of all, my life is wonderful when you get down to it. Sure I grew up in a home where my parents went from madly in love to about ready to claw each others eyes out. That's love, the highs are incredibly high, but so are the lows. Obviously I heard lots of screaming...
    CatTH63 CatTH63 22-25, F Jul 31, 2013

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    Not The Highlight Of My Life

    Everyone has challenges in their life. I have had my fair share. I am not great at letting go of emotions, or allowing any person close enough to me to actually let them in, trust them enough to confide. Each person I have chose to let in - I do not think they were mistakes, I...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    I joined this site a few months ago in November.

    If you look at my account, you'll see two posts dated November 12th, and maybe a bit of activity that day and the next. It helped to share those stories; they're a deep part of me. It's also pretty evident that I was profoundly depressed when I wrote them. More so than I...
    mercrutio mercrutio 18-21, M Feb 27

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    My Story

    The day I attempted, I never once had in my mind 'I'm going to kill myself today'. I didn't plan it out, it just happened. I had been struggling a lot and had resorted to pretty serious self harm to get by, and one day in particular school was really stressful. I came home and...
    keanudante keanudante 18-21, F Jan 8, 2013

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    On April 13, 2013, I made my third attempt to

    commit suicide. I overdosed on my anti depressants, regretted it, and called an ambulance. I went to the hospital where I tripped balls for almost 24 hours, in an agonizing stupor. After that, I was sent to a psychiatric institute. In a five day time, I slept more than I was...
    Reven676 Reven676 18-21, M Feb 23

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    It Went Badly.

    Everyone says you're not supposed to hurt myself. A few traumatic events and some alcohol helped me decide to try something I'd been thinking about for years. The bad part wasn't the attempt. It wasn't even finding out I was unsuccessful. It was, and still is, dealing with the...
    Ericacea Ericacea 22-25 1 Response Mar 12, 2011

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    Wrong frame Of Mind...

    I really can't sit here and write and tell everyone that it's all going to be OK, because it's not. I am in a terrible frame of mind right now and probably shouldn't be writing this at all. I do understand the fact that emotions pass and we won't always feel this way. But then I...
    hkascia hkascia 31-35, F Oct 15, 2012

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    Still Crying For HELP

    I Want Too Start My Short Srory Off By Saying Im Physically Emotionally Spurtually And Etc Depressed! I Feel Like No One Ever Listens Too Me Or Anything I Have Too Say. I Cry So Much I Give Myself A Headache Every Two Seconds. Not Even The People Close Too Me Understands How I...
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103 18-21, F Aug 21, 2013

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    Suicide Infatuation

    When I was a bit younger I was a lost, depressed and fearful individual. I never felt worthy of the good things around me which made me a very suicidal individual. I felt like a compleat waist of space and a total burden to my few friends and family. To numb myself from the...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch 26-30, M Jan 15, 2012

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    When i was 15 i grabbed my dads gun

    that he had in his cabnit i put it to my head and prayed i go to heaven but when i was about to pull the trigger my sister maria saw me and tackeled me to the ground and threw the gun on the bed i begged her with tears in my eyes to give me the gun but she said no crying she...
    Nikki978 Nikki978 18-21, F Apr 5

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    It was a close one. I was at the point

    when the idea didn't frighten me, in fact i felt deathly calm. It was all planned. No body found by anyone in my family. Just "gone" without a trace. It has culminated in years of suicidal idealization , mainly focused around bridges, knives, overdose and pretty much every...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 25

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    Forget Life

    As Of Now I Feel Like My Life Is Completely OVER!!! I Dont Have Family Or Friends Too Depend On. My Heart Is In Pieces And The Only Thing Im Able Too Turn Too As Of Now Is Death!! Im Thanking God For Everything He's Helped Me With And LettingMe See This Much Of My Life. THANK YOU...
    CryingOutForHELP1103 CryingOutForHELP1103 18-21, F Aug 23, 2013

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    Why I Bother

    For me lack of friends I am emotionally close to or that I can hang out with often gets me down and triggers my depression. At times I feel like I will never find people that want to be around me that I can really be close to. Thoughts like this don't take long to develop into...
    nother nother 22-25, F Jul 1, 2012

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    My Story

    I was getting emotionally drained by the abuse of a neighbor above me for 4 years-no joke! I was desperate to move out after 7 years of living there. I also have mental illness and I was heading for another mental breakdown that took me 6 months to fully recover. I became...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Dec 9, 2012

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    Such a Failure

    July 4th weekend I tried. I went to the pharmacy, picked up my Rx for ambien, went home and downed the whole thing. I slept for 3 days, woke up, realized it was Monday and I had to get to work - to the job that just days earlier I found out I was being laid off from. I...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 30, 2008

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    Just Got Out

    I was trying to explain how the desire to kill yourself makes you feel. I said it was like that scene in the Incredibles where Mr. Incredible sneaks into the room where the computers are to find out what's going on on the island and when he escapes, black balls of sticky mess get...
    PursyMarr PursyMarr 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 9, 2011

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    My Suicide Attempts

    My personal experience with mental illness is the worst pain I have ever felt, and probably will feel in my life. I never lived my 20's. I became ill when I was 20, and am now 29. I've been in the hospital 4 times. Three for suicide attempts. Trying to commit suicide was a...
    miked4948 miked4948 26-30, M 4 Responses Jun 14, 2012

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    Here I am. Scared to face the world,

    tired of living and with complete hatred towards myself. What's the point of trying anymore? I just want to give up. But how? How do I end it? Once, I just had enough and I wanted it all to just come to an end. I drank the pills one-by-one, each time followed by a sip of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    In Another Life

    I don't talk about this era of my life. It was so long ago that when I look back, it's almost like looking at someone else's life. Yet, it was't someone else...it was me. A very lost, dark, disturbed, and suicidal me. My initial depression didn't begin as such a heavy oppression...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 17 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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    I Hate Looking Back

    I always wondered what would be the most painful feeling you could expirance. The feeling of dying slow or the worst kind of depression there is. I feel like ive battle some really hard times that im glad I made it through. I was either 16 or 17 when I tried to do it, I had a...
    Unique19 Unique19 18-21, F Dec 5, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    When I was 13 years old my friend John was about to commit suicide because another friend of his committed suicide. I was on the phone with him and another mutual friend and we...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jun 30

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    On EP he was my friend and I was helping him stop cutting I knew that he committed suicide yesterday . It was horrible .he posted a suicide letter when he was ding and after that...
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    My older sister Nancy committed suicide last year she was struggling a lot with her studies she wanted to be a doctor sometime I feel really sad I miss her a lot I can't accept...
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    "She will not come out of her room" her mother cried to me on the other end of the phone that fate full day so many years ago...... A month before this sad day....seeing how...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    My friend texted me and said: goodbye dude I asked what he meant and he didn't text back I went to his house and the doors were locked so I banged on the door but he didn't answer...
    AustinLoverBoy AustinLoverBoy 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I keep having flashbacks of when I found my best friend unconscious with a ribbon tied around her neck. She was purple and not responding and I thought she was dead. I had to cut...
    icyelsa icyelsa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    This is a weird piece in my history.... I vaguely recall my late father going on about a cousin of his who killed himself by sticking a pillow case/ slip or whatever, over his...
    cpthaddock cpthaddock 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    Hello, my name is David, and I will be telling you about my SUICIDE EXPERIANCE. It started when I was 11, my friend Cat was moving, we through h goodbye party, and we would all...
    DjN1234 DjN1234 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I used to have all this sympathy for people who commit suicide, but after yesterday, that's greatly lessened; I know now, without a doubt, that is the most selfish act a human can...
    GoldButterfly GoldButterfly 18-21, F Jul 4

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