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I Tried to Kill Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 443 People

    The Toughest Time Of My Life!! - i stood there, feeling sad, depressed , angry and scared!!! i waited and i waited, but i just couldnt do it!! woooosh, the train went right before...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 6, 2010

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    I haven't tried to kill myself. But I Always think of killing myself. I self harm. And I need help. I just feel so alone in this world and I want to have people I can rely on...
    Iamsolonely96 Iamsolonely96 18-21, M Mar 24

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    I Tried In Hospital - I tried to relocate with out my abuser(S) knowing. I had a attack of PTSD a flashback, and a mental break down. I was take to a mental hospital. I was...
    dyinginsidefawna dyinginsidefawna 26-30, F Dec 2, 2012

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    Never Again. - It has now been 10 years since I tried to kill myself.  I have since been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder resulting from what could be classified as...
    Supposed2Bhere Supposed2Bhere 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    My Last Attempt - I was 28 years old and life held no meaning for me. Haunted by my past though nightmares and fear that just tore at my soul until I didn't even feel...
    college101 college101 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2009

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    Why Can'T I Get This Off Of My Mind?! - So I'm not a depressed person, and I'm a firm believer in the fact that everybody has been through some bad **** and there's no excuse for...
    Feb 7, 2013

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    I Want To End It All - I am sick of life. I hate the fact that I can't do anything right. Even when I try my best it's still not good enough. 'I want to end it all.' that thought...
    Cantoiii Cantoiii 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 21, 2012

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    Pop rocks and soda. I spent 10 years in a coma, then 2 years in a cave.
    PraiseTheSun PraiseTheSun 18-21, M Mar 19

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    I Was 13 - I couldn't deal with being picked on in school, being sexually abused, being myself. I took a bottle of Tylenol and went to bed. I woke up about 24 hours later feeling...
    emmy emmy 19-21, F 7 Responses Oct 6, 2006

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    I Just Tried To Hang Myself - I feel like no one wants me or needs me anymore. She just said she hates me. I took a cord and wrapped it around my neck. I eventually took it off...
    karlito2794 karlito2794 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    I Finally Made It.. - A year ago, I was going through clinical depression and psychosis. I was falling apart, I was removed from school, my social contact was removed, I just...
    Cantoiii Cantoiii 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    3times - not sure where to start,so i will just wade ini have always had a sense of being on the outside of things,even at school being popular+all that sort of stuffi had on...
    geekoftheweek geekoftheweek 26-30, F 21 Responses Feb 14, 2011

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    I Tried To Kill Myself, And Thank God It Didn't Work - Many times in the past I tried to kill myself. It got to the point where I was trying once a week.   Obviously...
    sabergirl08 sabergirl08 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    Failed Twice - Gave Up - Tried twice ... First time at thirteen ... Tried to slit my wrists and bleed to death ... Didn't work ... Just caused my parents a whole lot of...
    shreem75 shreem75 36-40, M Nov 15, 2012

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    Last Night - I took an overdose. My boyfriend took me to hospital. I failed. Im so selfish.
    Tori91 Tori91 22-25, F Apr 22, 2013

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    {Survivalist} Back when I was between the ages of 12 and 15, I was diagnosed with severe depression. It was strongly suggested that I take medication for it, see a therapist every...
    luminescentdanger luminescentdanger 22-25, T Feb 11

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    I really didn't care. Life just kept pushing me. My response was "who cares.screw it. I'll die then." I wish I had succeeded (over the course of trying). I wish I was normal, and...
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor 18-21, M Mar 26

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    Hate My Life. - Hello. I am a disabled man. I don't see that well. And i am a diabetic. I tried to kill my self last night. But i phoned samaritans. I talked and it helped. I...
    2012blueboy 2012blueboy 18-21, M 6 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    I'm Trying. - A few months ago I took an overdose. It's not something I find easy to talk about-I struggle to discuss most things anyway but I've really tried to talk as little...
    Debaser85 Debaser85 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    I Can't Make It Without Him - Two months ago, I made a huge mistake and cheated on my boyfriend of 4 years. He found out about it and I confessed to him what had happened, sparing...
    AuntieNaytalist AuntieNaytalist 22-25 2 Responses Oct 30, 2010

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    Embarrassing - Took a bottle of Paxil a little over a year ago, just wanted to die. Felt like such an *** when I woke up like 2 hours later with the worst pain I had ever felt in...
    TheEvilCouncil TheEvilCouncil 18-21, M Feb 26, 2013

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    Warning: Graphic - Sometimes it feels like you have never once in your life had a good night's sleep. That for twenty-four years you have been constantly shaken into consciousness...
    casettetapes casettetapes 21-25, M 6 Responses Nov 15, 2007

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    Somebody Died That Night - It is hard to explain when people try to understand and ask the WHY? of such act. I can't even call it a desire because everything has left you when you...
    OutOfBreath OutOfBreath 26-30 Jun 11, 2013

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    And I -  Don't regret it! Because by failing to die got the message loud and clear. And i feel like i'm stronger now, because all this things aren't powerful, i am and god...
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2008

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    Like A Bird - My arms swing free.. i feel the air around me.. my eyes are closed, my head totaly back.. the wind blows around me.. fresh and cold.. its november so its cold.. i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    I Cheated On My Wife. - And I regret it for the rest of my life and she found this out from my best friend who I loved for 19 years. It's a she and I tried making my wife happy...
    freddy411 freddy411 36-40 May 9, 2009

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    Suicidal Since 2nd Grade - All my life I've been picked on. In 2nd grade, I learned that you could kill yourself, but I didn't know how to really. I nearly drowned, and I hated the...
    tazpunkrocker tazpunkrocker 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 28, 2007

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    Bender - people used to ask me "what did you do last night?" I would often reply "tried to drink and drug myself to death again" Often they would laugh without...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 7, 2008

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    I Tried to Kill Myself? - So i tried to kill myself today... sort of. (apologies for length, i hope it doesn't put too many people off reading to the end) i've been depressed...
    4are8you15as16lost23as42me 4are8you15as16lost23as42me 19-21 1 Response Feb 27, 2008

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    The Ghost of March - My alarm clock woke up early that day because I had a doctor's appointment. I had run out of Xanax and needed to get a new prescription. When I got to the...
    AnAugustSunset AnAugustSunset 21-25, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2008

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    I Slit My Wrist... After Watching The Last Episode Of Lost. - I was watching lost and finally got to the last episode. I had drank a bottle of champagne that my landlord bought me...
    Mclrm Mclrm 26-30 1 Response Apr 18, 2013

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    A Long, Long Time Ago.... - ...but maybe not long ago enough. I won't be doing it again.
    MrsLalaninjacakes MrsLalaninjacakes 26-30, F 9 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    I Jumped Out Of A Car! - Hello my name is Lindsay I am 23, married with two beautiful little boys. when I was 14 I was taken advantage of by a 24 year old male and his girlfriend...
    lshearer62 lshearer62 22-25, F Nov 26, 2012

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    So Alone - im not sure where 2 start,but here goes i have always been shy+felt somehow on the outside,even in my own family,i used 2 drink heavily to compensate for this,it got so...
    happyukgal happyukgal 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 15, 2010

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    Me - I've attempted it 2 or 3 times, overdosing, but none of the times were severe. I ended up in hospital after the first one, however after that, when I made the 2nd and 3rd...
    sezy sezy 16-17, F Aug 8, 2007

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    24 Sinus Pills, 20 Sleeping Pills, And A Couple Sips Of Sherry - I tried to end my life a little over a week ago. I guess I knew I was getting to that point. I stopped caring...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 1 Response Aug 11, 2013

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    I've Been Alive For a Month Now... - I tried to kill myself a month ago, pills and alcohol. I just didn't feel worthy of being alive, a waste of life, unable to be happy even...
    Macas Macas 22-25 Jun 4, 2009

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    Twice - And both times just ended in massive medical bills, feeling even more alone than I did before and each time vowing that I would not fail the next time.
    arenaissancewoman arenaissancewoman 31-35, F Feb 12, 2013

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    Selfish - Well, I overdosed on paracetamol and sleeping tablets around 2 months ago, and ended up in A&E. It upset me that I couldn't even kill myself properly, and to make things...
    Blisseh Blisseh 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    The Actress - I was told that I'm a terrible actress. That's not true though. I got you fooled. I'm not happy as people see me. I'm not a bubbly person who tries to make the world...
    RachelTarver RachelTarver 18-21 Sep 24, 2013

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    Suicide Attempt - I can't sleep out of fear I hate it i have nightmares everytime I sleep I just got released from hospital for an attempt at my life mostly from lack of sleep...
    Applelovergod Applelovergod 22-25 5 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    I Just Kept Trying - My wife had left me a little more than a week before, I had a seizure the day before and didn't feel right the next day on the forth of July. I went to the old...
    MrMattSumner MrMattSumner 31-35, M Aug 6, 2013

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    Why Not?? - I started feeling depressed when I stared high school. I don't know why, but anyways, towards the end of my sophomore year I was sent to the hospital for suicidal...
    Unknown Unknown 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    Stopped By a Friend... - ...whom I had stopped from doing the same earlier 2 years earlier.  This was in high school.  I "saved" this friend from killing...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F Jun 20, 2007

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    Not Yet, But Im Close - My best friend in high school was depressed and I wondered how someone with so much Money, a beautiful girlfriend and the build of a professional athlete...
    allhopelost allhopelost 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 12, 2012

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    Bullying - It happened in high school. It happened in elementary school. It happened online. In elementary school I didn't understand it so it didn't get to me very much. at...
    Stormwind2 Stormwind2 18-21, F Nov 16, 2012

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    Feel So Lost - I have separated from my wife. I am 25 years old. I have two young children. Yesterday I tried to kill myself. I sat in my car and connected a hosepipe to the...
    Tim34planb Tim34planb 22-25, M Feb 20, 2013

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    Could Be Dead Right Now - About a month or so ago I took an overdose, I took 8 different types of tablets: Paracetamol, Anti-Depresants, Mood stablizers, Co-codamol, Day and Night...
    xEmilyStrangex xEmilyStrangex 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2009

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    If You Dont Die You F****** Wish You Did - ever since one day my life just went downhill dramatically.i couldnt stop it and didnt know how to handle it. so i began to cut and i...
    FreakOutLooseControl FreakOutLooseControl 16-18, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2006

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    A Freakish Mistake - I wrote this in an email to a friend a while ago...it kind of explains it... "I have had a really hard time the past couple of years that I have...
    stillbreathing stillbreathing 19-21, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2007

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    12 anti anxiety pills, 4 sleeping pills. boyfriend broke up with me after he found out, didnt even come to the hospital. apperently hes worried i will relapse, so leaving me when i...
    Gainingsmileslosingweight Gainingsmileslosingweight 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    Lately I've been feeling so depressed that at one point I thought to myself I've had it. I had a few of my old antidepressant medicine left and I just chugged it. Without thinking...
    VasilisaDra VasilisaDra 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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