I Truly Hate Who I Am Sometimes

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    Stitches #2

    2 years later....it was the first day of school. Aparently, the reason i dont remember the time since a week ago and below is because i was in a comma for a year. And i was told that my name is Vivian and that i am 16. Well, thats what i was told by my "so called" parents...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Oct 10, 2011

    I Always Wonder

    When I wake up in the morning, I wonder. I wonder how I'm going to look at myself I wonder how I can change my future I wonder if people talk about me behind my back I wonder if life is really even worth it I wonder why I don't look like everyone else I wonder if any guy has a...
    NerdzGotSwag NerdzGotSwag
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Oct 11, 2011

    Stitches #4

    Oh, i almost forgot to mention. i have a sister.her name is Hanna. she is thirteen and has the exact opposite of my personality.Happy, Giddy, and full of life. I wish i could feel that way. But i'm cursed with curiosity to learn more about myself and my family. so i have no time...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2011

    Just Not Feeling It.

    Honestly I gre up a child that new exactly what they were gonign to do when thye weer going to do it and how it was going ot be done. No questions. I was going to be a divorce attorney or a marriage counselor. I figured I would either break the marriage up or put them back...
    Sugarfree Sugarfree
    26-30, F
    Feb 19, 2008

    Stitches #1 (my First Series!)

    "No, dont sew her there, i want her to be perfect. Dont mess this up for me, you hear!?!?""yeah, i'm sorry ok. I'm trying my best so just calm down.""One last stitch and......done! She is finally done.""Great. Now for my plan to fall into action."TO BE CONTINUED!!! OH AND THIS...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Oct 10, 2011

    Stitches #6

    Vivian's POVI tried to escape....it was useless. I was so numb i couldn't feel my hand when i punched the doctor in the face. once i did that i ran. i ran out the door, and all i saw was Hanna's scared little face. she knew what was happening. i looked behind me and saw the...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Nov 3, 2011

    Stitches #10

    "Uh, Miss Vivian, you have a call from your parents" the doctor walked slowly towards me and handed me with my cell phone which i forgot i had left in my coat pocket in the hall. Oh great. just great. i have to deal with these messed up people again."What do you want." i said...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2011

    So Much For Me

    Looking in the mirror anymore seems more of a struggle. Why can't I see what everyone else claims they see? There's something not right about not liking anything about who you are in every aspect. Why am I holding myself back? I fear one day I will change all unnecessary things...
    WorkItMami WorkItMami
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2013

    Stitches #9

    *Sorry guys that this is late coming out. i just was REALLY busy*today is my birthday. but It got very lonely while Hanna was sleeping. but i was always there by her side. i read her stories and talked to her. also, i frequently chatted with Chance. i found out that she was a...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

    Lost Love Part 2

    Damian wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me close to him. I cried on his shoulder. The mascara on my eyes ran down my face. I believe I was taking this the hardest. Now I had to watch him do his exit song "Keep Holding On" "C'mon let's get ready," Samuel got up. He...
    NerdzGotSwag NerdzGotSwag
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2011

    Sometimes

    I think people mistake the crying and self-harm for self-pity.  It's closer to self-loathing.
    SisBoomBah SisBoomBah
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 7, 2008

    Mabe If I Met Someone New

    i think its because i dont really have any friends. im starting to hate the person i am because im stuck alone by myself for soo long.mabe if i had a friend to distract me from these thoughts it would be easier to like the person i am. if someone would give me the chance to show...
    chelseanicole18 chelseanicole18
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2012

    Not Sometimes, Always

    I don't wanna live anymore. I just don't feel like living, walking down this road full of struggles...and maybe possibilities? But I don't wanna care anymore! I don't wanna think. I hate my past, dread my present, fear my future. I could never make friends, fit into the crowd. I...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2012

    Self Improvement; So Much Easier Said Than Done.

    Too fat. Too unattractive. Too stupid. Too socially awkward. Too lazy. Too stubborn. Too shy. Too cynical. Too bitter. I'm just too.......too me. =(
    PhonyMcRingRing PhonyMcRingRing
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 26, 2012

    Lost Love Part 1

    this is a short story with a possibly happy ending. I don't think I can fit anyone in I'm sorry. I have the story all planned out. So here it goes. "You were absolutely terrible. You just aren't good," Ryan said. "I'm so sorry! Ryan kinda was partying before this don't-" Robert...
    NerdzGotSwag NerdzGotSwag
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2011

    Stitches #3

    as we were walking down the hallway i spotted a teacher."Excuse me, do you know who Mrs.Kirsty is?" i asked politely "thats me!!!!" she said ecstatically, i could already tell she was a fun person to be around!!!"You must be  Vivian, so glad to meet you!!!" she vigorously...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Oct 20, 2011

    Stitches #5

    Hanna's POVAs i saw the doctor's face, i knew something wasnt right. along with Vivian, i also dont believe what mom and dad tell me. and the REALLY weird thing is that i have cat ears and a tail. i just tell people that i'm wearing a costume. and whenever i ask my parents what...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2011

    Very Defective.....

    Now, don't get me wrong. I know I have good points. People say I am being too hard on myself but if I can say I have good points then that isn't harsh surely? I know I am sensitive, thoughtful, sweet, kind,and fairly resilliant. However, my bad points overpower these and the past...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 18, 2012

    Lost Love Part... Was It 3 Or 4??? Yeah I Think It's 3

    When I fell asleep I woke up in this dream I had. I was standing on stage and I looked in the audience of one. Cameron. He smiled with his guitar in his hand. He walked up beside me and took the microphone. He started strumming on his guitar. "Blackbird singing in the dead of...
    NerdzGotSwag NerdzGotSwag
    13-15, F
    Oct 22, 2011

    What's To Say?

    I just usually feel that I'm a massive waste of time as a person. I'm working on this right now.
    LukeMitchwest LukeMitchwest
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 4, 2012

    Most Of The Time I Wish I Was Somebody Else..i Hate Who I Am

    I cant seem to be able to love myself for who i am. I really hate who i am sometimes...i wish i was a different person. If i could change everything about myself i would go for it without giving it a second thought. I look in the mirror and i cant stand how i look. ive even...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 1, 2010

    Ughh

    i have a boyfriend and an alright life. im 5'7 and 120lbs, i feel over weight, everything i wear makes me look fat(i think). i just dont feel good enough for anyone anymore. idk. i wish i could accept my self for who i am but its really hard/
    TheOne124 TheOne124
    16-17
    Mar 3, 2012

    My Looks

    I feel ugly everytime I look at the mirror. everytime I see a pretty , tall and skinny girl , my first thought would be " I wish I was her" people always talk about the importance of inner beauty and stuff , but sometimes , inner beauty doesn't really count. at the end of the...
    lalamh lalamh
    13-15
    May 27, 2012

    That 1 Thing I Really Hate About Myself....

    There are things about me that I dont mind, and there are things in my life that I am greatful for. But there is one thing about me, that I cannot stand. One thing that has botherd me for many years. One thing that I think about every day, one thing that I've talked about in many...
    DeathstalkerScorpion DeathstalkerScorpion
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 28, 2012

    Sometimes I wanna chances myself.

    A new look inside, you Can get new clothes but not a new personality. Does somebody know a shop where you can buy a new personality?
    VanjaBraat VanjaBraat
    13-15, F
    May 2, 2014

    Stitches #8

    All i could remember was Hanna jumping in front of me. Apparently she had jumped and took the bullet for me. what a stupid thing to do. She fell onto my lap and the silver stuff was going every were.  we swerved off the road and hit a couple of trees. and when i woke up in the...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2011

    How Can I Love Someone If I Don't Even Love Myself.

    So here I am once again writing in this website so I can take out this feeling that is killing me right now. Well I met a guy two months ago and I really like him, he is the guy I always dreamed of, he is understanding, funny, attractive; to make it short, he is special and...
    Cassy77 Cassy77
    26-30
    Jul 7, 2013

    Dont We All...1 (series)

    Everyone wants to change something about themself.Fat, ugly, disabilitys. Well i want to change my past. Im addicted to drugs,a bully, im failing school,iwant to kill myself,and i have no friends.Im Paris and i killed my father. My mother, in jail for tha last 10 years. Im 15...
    jay107 jay107
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Oct 8, 2011

    I hate my personality.

    I wish I could just change, but sadly it really is a hard thing to do. I would often curse myself 'Why am I born like this?' Sometimes I would just cry all by myself hoping that I would be different, but even if I try my best I just go back to square one. I don't know. Maybe my...
    SecretsNeverHidden SecretsNeverHidden
    22-25, F
    Mar 26, 2014

    Stitches #7

    Finally. a chance to drive without a parent. "Hold on Hanna." i said pulling out of the driveway like speed racer! were almost on the high way when all of a sudden we saw this black van following us really fast. That must have been Mom and Dad and that so called doctor. When i...
    taboo221 taboo221
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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