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I Try Not to Cut Myself Anymore

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    I...

    wanted to cut SO badly yesterday that I could even 'see' My thighs covered in blood and gashes but I told My Love so that I didnt do it as last time I did, He got very upset. :-(
    alabastardragon alabastardragon
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jul 16, 2007

    I Said I Would Be Totally Honest On This Site.

    So I thought I should be honest in this group and say in the past 3 weeks I have slipped back in to a familiar old habit. On four separate occasions I have SIed. The past year has been extremely hard due to many different things that have been happening. I am confident that I...
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
    22-25, F
    Dec 6, 2007

    And Again.

    it's been incredibly hard the past three days. it may not seem like a long time, but coming from the years of cutting, i'm almost proud. almost. until today. i can not control the urge. i'm so tired of not being able to help myself. nothing works. i was doing so well, and then...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 2, 2007

    Trying Not to Cut

    I chose this group over 'I used to be a cutter' because while I haven't cut for 2 months I don't fully trust that I have given up so it still feelings like I am trying not to cut rather then I have successfully stopped.
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2007

    This Time I Got Creative...

    One Tuesday, June 16th I cut myself for the first time in 5 months. I used a sharpped letter opener because I turned in my razor to my therapist. I cut my arms about 20 times. They are never too deep...mainly just scratches. They usually burn a little more.  I tried to call...
    DarkMoon3 DarkMoon3
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2009

    I...

    wanted to cut SO badly yesterday that I could even 'see' My thighs covered in blood and gashes but I told My Love so that I didnt do it as last time I did, He got very upset. :-(
    alabastardragon alabastardragon
    36-40, M
    Jul 16, 2007

    Life...

    Just happens in a bad way sometimes... Sometimes all the bad things happen in the same week. I have been trying to stop, but I cut myself last night. I finally made a choice in life to quit being a doormat for people to walk on. Everyone I know is happy and...
    VincentValentine VincentValentine
    31-35, M
    1 Response Aug 29, 2009

    2 Months Down the Drain

    I had been cut free for 2 whole months until tonight. I'm so mad at myself! I thought id never cut again, it's just so hard! The urge was so strong. I feel so useless and hate myself even more now. 2 months achievment gone in a matter of seconds.  I need a hug. I havent...
    thesoundofsilence thesoundofsilence
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 19, 2007

    Stupid Me

    I threw my razor away a few weeks ago. I just kept thinking about it & thinking about it yesterday. And then I got home yesterday & reached in my pocket for my key & discovered a hole & no key. *sigh* So, I called the land lady who of course was not home...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jan 17, 2008

    Slipping.

    I use to cut in high school here and there...when things got to be unbearable...... I didn't do it everyday or anything like that....  but it helped when nothing else would.....I haven't really done it for years .... Lately though ....as things have been bad...nothing...
    jessabellcool jessabellcool
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2007

    I Think I'm Over It..

    Last time: June 6th. I haven't had such a long period without cutting since about a year.. But I had a period of about 6 months without cutting..So I guess there's always a little chance to start again. But I try hard. And I hope I'll get it done. edit: end of august and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 29, 2007

    Feeling Low

    Hello. I'm just on here looking for someone to talk to really. It'd be good to have pm but either is good. I have been depressed for years. I used to cut myself for about a year. I stopped when I was taken to the doctor about it. I have always been ashamed about it and never...
    foolishlyfamous foolishlyfamous
    22-25, F
    Jan 22, 2008

    Started Two Years Ago

    i started cutting about two years ago, i'm 26.  i feel like that's a little late to start the self mutilation but whatever. my current boyfriend who i live w/ now & have been w/ for 8 months caught me once. he told me if i ever did again he'd do it to himself. well, i...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2007

    Damn

    I was doing so well.  I hadn't cut in months.  A week ago I was just sitting at work & all of sudden I had the most demanding urge to cut. Painfully demanding. I don't know what triggered it; I just felt hugely sad all of a sudden. I felt like the bottom of my world...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 31, 2007

    He Wants to Know

    My live in boyfriend wants to know how I can give up meat completely, give up cokes & ranch for Lent but cannot give up cutting. I can't answer him because I don't have any idea.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 11, 2008

    And I'm On It

    ..But I'm having a hard time Its so dificult, all I think about, all I want, is to give up. Give up, give up, give up.. Stop existing, stop having this pain, this phisical answers of my body to thoughts and memories, and my finger hurts. I bit myself, just a few minutes ago...
    lsabel lsabel
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2009

    Oops I Did It Again...

    not to make something like this into a joke but i find humor makes things easier. anyway... i used to cut myself all the time. It was literally an addiction. I did it all the time, even when I wasn't extremely depressed. My dad battled cancer for 3 years and I did it the...
    kendypew23 kendypew23
    26-30, F
    Apr 4, 2008
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