I Use Depressing Poetry As a Gateway to My Feelings

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    Ana's Voice

    Do not even think, About the food you crave, You cannot even blink, You must stay strong, be brave. Just think about your weight, You wouldn’t want it to go up, Take all that food off your plate, If you eat you must throw it up. I’m doing this out of love, I want you to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    The Voice In My Head

    The voice in my head points out the worst, Reminds me of my faults and never puts me first. The voice in my head hates everyone, It shows me my flaws and always tears me down. The voice in my head hates me the most, It eats at my self esteem till I feel like a ghost. The voice in...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 9, 2011

    Anorexia..... You Don't Know What It's Like.

    You don’t know what it’s like Trust me you don’t You can say that you do But believe me you won’t Unless you have been me Or at least come pretty close, Then do not judge me Or think I am gross. I don’t do it for attention I don’t do it for you I do it for control Not...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Why Poems

    when i was going through my stages of bipolar disorder and cutting, i turned to writing my feels down, in poetry form, i have now lost my ability to write poems because i cant think of anything worthy enough to write about, so i have taken to reading others poems because i feel...
    timetolive timetolive
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2007

    My Hole

    I’m stuck in a great big black hole, I’m trying to get out, But I’m just making the hole deeper, I can’t even see the top now. I can’t see anything but darkness, Everything is tinged with black. The black of hate, mistrust and anger, Fear, abuse and despair. I cannot...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Your Parasite

    separates fact from feeling, excusing failures as they pass unable to puncture words you want just sitting in your horrid glow waiting to be overthrown at last and you bear the rubber crutch and moan because the days go on and on, and bore their seeds inside your...
    hateithere hateithere
    18-21
    Jan 4, 2010

    Inside

    Sometimes it feels like I’m just going with the flow, With no real control of where my life goes. Sometimes it feels like I’m doing nothing at all, Watching everyone else pass by while I fall. I hide because I think people see all my flaws, I hate myself too so how can...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Today

    Today was the worst day of my life. The feeling unparagoned, deeper than the core of Earth itself. Anger churned, heated by the fiery pits of hell, Today branded itself in history - as the worst. day. ever. Today was the worst day of my life. This worldly sphere displayed a...
    Helpleaz Helpleaz
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 14, 2013

    Dear Alex

    Dear Alex, I don’t know how to cope. Dear Alex, I can’t make myself be happy. Dear Alex, I think I need some help. Dear Alex, I’m feeling really crappy Dear Alex, I don’t know what I’m feeling, Dear Alex, I know that it’s not good Dear Alex, I can’t seem to start...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 9, 2011

    You Can't See The Fat I See

    You don’t see me when I cry, You don’t know the tears I hide, You don’t hear what’s in my head, You don’t hear all that is said, You can’t feel the pain in me, You can’t see the fat I see, You can’t know how hard it is, You can’t judge me at all for this. If...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Given Up

    I've been kept in line for as long as I can remeber. Tired of it I turned to dark poetry to avoid cutting, I can't help but feel there's nothing left. Sure the good things in life are good, but what do they accomplish?... I had a good relationship a while back...
    Missentitled66 Missentitled66
    16-17
    Oct 2, 2009

    :,(

    I have totally collapsed I just give in Kill me already I have commited so many sins I slit my wrists And can not stop I have strawberry gashes Up and down I scream inside If you cared you would know If you cared you would take some time To see into my mind You could help me...
    alpacapunch alpacapunch
    18-21, M
    May 30, 2013

    In The Rain

    The only time I’m happy, Is when I walk in the rain, Cause in the rain if cry, The drops might not be mine. No one can tell, Not even me if I try, If I am simply enjoying a walk, Or having a serious cry
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    I Still Get Hungry

    I still get hungry, I still get weak, I still want food, I still like to eat, But now I count, each calorie, I plan each days meals, very carefully. It still takes discipline, I find it as hard as you, To go the entire day, without a bite of food. But unlike you, I’m scared to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Weigh Less

    1 kilo, 2 kilos, 3 kilos, 4, 5 kilos, 6 kilos, 7 kilos more, Once I get to 50 kilos it will be enough So I will get there even though it will be tough. I know 50 kilos is where I should be, So I will get there and then I will be happy It will take hard work, it won’t be easy...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    The Latest Poem I Wrote

    i fell hard on my butt i keep falling again and again i certainly have a gut still getting up everyday even though depression strikes and there's always only pain i put on my usual mask and keep fighting till the end when this end is gonna be? where this life will lead me to? you...
    lovelessbutterfly lovelessbutterfly
    26-30, F
    Mar 6, 2013

    Man In The Moon

    hid away from the day, sputtering like a dirty gear trying to obscure what you knew to be completely clear just watching the pendulum swing in its tired tedium repeating its heavy motion all hard and dumb in delirium now the ball room's filling fast, the double doors are open...
    hateithere hateithere
    18-21
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2009

    Another Poemi Wrote

    There is no beauty in me. Im just a lonely person on this street. Pay no attention to me. For I will just ruin your dreams. So caught up you will get. In all my shallow ****.  No hope there is for me to seem pretty again. Extra pounds bring me down. Your...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 9, 2009

    I Am Crying

    I am crying, without a sound, I am dying, with no one around. I hate myself, I don’t want to be, The f****** fat cow that is all I can see. I want to be beautiful, I want to be thin, I want to control something, I want to win I want to obey, let her control me, I never want her...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    quite sad, isn't it? the process of it - -

    first your heart dies, and you never see joy. then go your eyes- & the light, and the sparkle. next is you. you rip apart your body, wound by wound, slit by slit, gouge by gouge - each time losing a little piece of yourself. Until you run low and the things that are dead...
    maezombiie maezombiie
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2013

    In My Bed

    In my bed no one can see me. In my bed I am safe and warm. In my bed, if I need to cry, The sheets will be there, And they’ll dry my eyes. But out in the world I can never relax. Out in the world I wear a mask. Out in the world, I smile and wave, Cos out in the world, I have to...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Some Is

    Not all my poems are depressing but I can say been there, done that. I look back at things I've written as a teen and wonder how I made it this far. The fact that no one saw that darkness and found me help earlier on is just a wonder. It does act as a way of venting and...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2009

    This Patch Is Quite Rough

    you don't understand, you don't even try, so forgive me if I don't, want to let you see me cry. I'm not going well, this patch is quite rough, I feel like I'm fat, and I'm never good enough. I used to be fine, then you tried to fix me, now I'm ****** up, and I can't do...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Preferences

    Some people like birds and butterflies, Hot summer days and bright blue skies. But I much prefer a day in my room, With darkness to comfort me and no need to move.
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Protection

    Hiding beneath the cover of darkness, Wrapped up in the folds of tears and crushed hope, Shielded by the strength of hate and anger, This is where I lie. Protected by the mystery of fear, Held by the sting of rejection, Comforted by the fear of failure, This is when I rest...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    Fine

    I’m fine, I’m freaking out, I’m fine, I’m insecure, I’m fine, I’m feeling neglected, I’m fine, I’m empty inside, I’m fine, Freaking out, Insecure, Neglected, Empty, Fine.
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011

    What Happens In The Night...

    The smell of iron fills the room, The scent of blood my sweet perfume. The crimson tears seeping from my skin, The remains of a rose lying in the bin. No one knows what’s happened here tonight, No one will ever see this awful sight. Tomorrow morning the sun will rise, On a...
    mellorabbit01 mellorabbit01
    18-21, F
    Sep 9, 2011
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