I keep telling myself I won't drink tonight. I'm always wrong. I happen to function quite well drunk most people don't ever notice and at times I feel it makes me move with grace, like my feet are barely touching the ground. Then I wake up feeling sad and helpless because I can...
i use drugs to relive pain but only the ones my doctor prescribes, i am on very heavy dose of 4 different pain medication as my back was broke in the 70's and i have been told they can operate on it but as it is broke in 3 places they would have to fuse 5 of the bones together...
In any where or when -
I'll always try, with all my heart,
To make you whole again.
. But if you choose to fall behind,
And break and shake to bits
- The day may come where I won't find
A single piece that fits.
liquor,white powder and hash
is it wrong ? perhaps
but its the only way i can cope
smoking diamonds so i wont mope
gives me a false sense of hope
alcohol for the memories that bring misery
drugs for the emotional pain from my history
a false sense of salvation
Otherwise everything hurts so badly its impossible to keep faking otherwise. Can't let people see me broken because they get frustrated and then make me feel worse about my depression and other issues. Victim blaming?