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I Use Marijuana to Combat My Borderline Personality Disorder

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    To Quit Or Not To Quit That Is The Question

    Ok, so I just found out I have bpd, I was told it was bipolar for my whole life. I have since I was younger than I would like to share smoked weed. It has helped me with MANY things along the way. Now as an adult I use it to help controle my mood swings as it is fast and always...
    jitterbuggg83 jitterbuggg83 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2010

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    Been Diagnosed With A Lot Of Stuff & Prescribed Alot Of Meds But.......

    From depression to generalized anxiety disorder, from wellbutrin, zoloft, celexa, prozac, klonopins doctors are quick to throw out the basics on diagnosing you then packing you full of meds. Meds that make you gain weight, feel weird, and are not the right thing. So, I self...
    sarassober sarassober 31-35 2 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    Happiness Is A Choice

    Although i have had worse symptoms of bpd in 2012-11 than i do now, i am only now accepting that i have it. I have been smoking since late 2009 and even though i had a crisis, i think smoking weed kept me out of more trouble than i would have gotten into if i didnt smoke. I was...
    karmacomatose karmacomatose 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    Marijuana In My Soul

      I use marijuana on a daily basis. Both for recreation, and as an alternative to the prescribed medication. In the last 8 months there hasn't been a day that I haven't smoke herb. When the writhing emotional torment engulfs me. Marijuana rescues me from myself. I have...
    Iamtweny5 Iamtweny5 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 8, 2009

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    Yep

    If we all hit the bong we would get along.
    chelsmaskee chelsmaskee 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    And I Love It.

    I use marijuana for almost 6 years now, for me it really helps with my BPD. It relaxes me and makes me feel happier by forgetting all the bad things for a while. After I smoke marijuana i feel like I just live in the moment itself . I live in Amsterdam, so its not hard for me...
    eex813 eex813 18-21, F Sep 12, 2012

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    Doing Much Better Without...

    I smoked weed for several years and it did help me through the toughest times I have yet had being a Borderline. But after several years I became even more paranoid and accusing of everyone around me. My aggressive behavior was also harder to control. I'm not saying that weed is...
    amelie78 amelie78 26-30, F Dec 14, 2011

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    Thank You!

    So glad to see this is a group. I have BPD and feel marijuana is the only thing that truly helps me to get through my days. It helps with anxiety and anger, and gives me motivation to get things done. Thank you to the people that created this group.
    MentalMemoirs MentalMemoirs 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2013

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    Smoking Instead Of Popping

    Well it's nice to find 18 people that also chose Marijuana, over a normal mood stabilizers and antidepressants associated with Bpd. I was diagnosed with major depression at 13, bipolar type 2 or bipolar depression at 20, and at 21 bipolar depressions with Borderline Personality...
    Kssunshine Kssunshine 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    New Here, Hi And Help

    I have been smoking cannabis for 19yrs on and off, for the last 4 yrs only very good weed will do it. It’s been a daily thing.  I have Borderline personality disorder, anxiety, ocd, severe depression. The only thng that helps me, and it does, is marijuana.  I have to...
    alena1306 alena1306 36-40, F May 17, 2012

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    Blurring The Edges Of Reality

    I'm still opposed to taking medication, even though I know I need it. I have two seperate meds I havent taken in weeks. Intead I smoke every other night. As a matter of fact I am high right now. Its a wonderful 'down time' coping mechinism. It makes the severity of my BPD less...
    EyesOfSeraphim EyesOfSeraphim 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    Pot Saved My Life

    It's like a mirracle drug, It is truly the plant from God.  I found it early in my twentys and have been enjoying it for the past 15 years.  I would smoke to get high and escape my reality at first but as time goes on I have been using it to calm my reality instead...
    wtbiv73 wtbiv73 31-35 12 Responses Nov 28, 2008

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    Smoke Out The Pain

    Marijuana helps me to not think. That's what i need, to not think. I can feel myself severing the bonds with all the people i care about, I can see them trying to get away from me. I don't want to be abandoned so i try to get them back and end up severing the lines even more...
    flyingabyss flyingabyss 18-21, F 3 Responses May 31, 2011

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    BPD 20 Year Old

    Who knows when I actually "got" Borderline Personality (I also have bipolar, anxiety, depression). All I know is that it has helped me a lot with my anxiety and has lifted my spirits and my energy (I am often lethargic, due to nothing but my medication...
    katpunkhippiegirl katpunkhippiegirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2008

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    Me Too..for Cptsd

    Marijuana balances me out like nothing else, as long as I don't overdo it, and doesn't make me sick. I don''t know of any other people who do this, which is why I joined this site. :) I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels the benefit of Green for Medicinal Use.
    Jezonwheels Jezonwheels 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2012

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    Why I'm Benefitting From Legal Marijuana Right Now (redxdawn Spark 20)

    I understand a part of therapy is to dig deep and see issues. Also, writing things down helps me alot. So here goes... I'm so scared that I'll never be normal. I remember the times in which I felt normal. I was dating a girl who I was giving everything to, I loved her so much. I...
    deftonesfan4l1fe deftonesfan4l1fe 22-25 1 Response Jul 29, 2010

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    Thank You All For Making Me Not Feel Alone!

    I dunno if this is what triggered my BPD but-When I was 14 I was molested by a close family friend. I told my mentor/godfather at the time what had happened, and after that he tried to molest me also. I never told anyone what had happened for almost 3 years. I wanted my family to...
    dosjaluvr dosjaluvr 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 14, 2009

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    nyikob nyikob 22-25, M Dec 18

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    Can't Believe I Found This

    Hey Everybody. I don't know exactly how to work this website, I don't even have a profile up or anything, but... I've had borderline symptoms until at least the age of twelve. I am twenty-three now and was only recently diagnosed as having BPD. Today was one of those...
    FlawInTheDesign FlawInTheDesign 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 19, 2012

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    Something Must Really Be Wrong With Me Lol

    I hear a lot of Borderlines say that smoking pot helps, but for me it makes me feel worse majority of the time. :-/
    EKB1227 EKB1227 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 12, 2013

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    I'm Not The Only One!!!

    My BPD behaviours started when I was about 4, so I've basically spent my whole life living with it. I started drinking at 11, and that didn't really help anything. I didn't start smoking pot until I was 20. I realized right away how it made my brain slow down enough that I could...
    thatgirl85 thatgirl85 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 17, 2012

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    Hey You Guys!

    So, I haven't been diagnosed with BPD... so yes, technically I do not have it. But when I read the symptoms and other stories of people with BPD, it was as if someone had taken everything in my head and explained it. Well.... to a point considering there is no good way to deal...
    GlassLace83 GlassLace83 18-21, F Jul 24, 2010

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    Love Is A Miracle....how I Escaped Hell With A Bpd Girl

    How I Escaped From HellI remember myself as a quite boy,very shy and I prefered always sitting alone or with 1-2 friends usually girls,I trusted.At highschool I still was quite,shy,had no girlfriend but my closest friend were always girls.Then I thought I prefered girls company...
    he4she2 he4she2 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    This Is My One N Only Life!

    I'm 22 and hv no insurance but, I'm in college and have been researching a lot! I've smoked pot daily for.... Lets just say a while. I was molested at 5 by a family member. Then treated badly and abused but not sexually until I ran away. I never said anything about the...
    Lpngypsy08 Lpngypsy08 22-25, F May 1, 2013

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    My BPD Story.

    I'm just going to get right to the chase, when I was a child I was sexually and physically abused almost everyday for a few years. Sometimes It would stop for a week or two, but I never actually escaped it. But I recall the day it finally came to an end so vividly.. But it never...
    desireemaraki desireemaraki 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 9, 2013

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    The Only Thing That Eases The Pain And Stops My Mind From Racing!

    I feel like a total jerk for saying that I NEED weed to make me feel better, because I don't consider myself a pothead and don't want to be labeled as one.... but honestly, weed is the only thing that makes me feel alive. Having BPD makes me overthink everything, get pissed off...
    cottoncandy88 cottoncandy88 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2013

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    Marijuana Vs. Borderline Personality Disorder

    I don't know if anyone is going to read this. But for my own sake, and anyone else in this group's sake I would like to share my story on Marijuana use to combat BPD.What the media tells you: Marijuana is bad on a long-term scale, makes you stupid and slow.What stoner's think...
    Mescudi Mescudi 16-17, M 9 Responses Jun 2, 2012

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    It is incredible the difference

    when I use marijuana to stop an 'episode'. It works almost instantly. And allows me to be who I am still.
    girvingtree girvingtree 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    Inspiration

    Wow - I can't tell you all on here how relieved I was to find your posts.  I do not have BPD nor do I use marijuana much, but I have a loved one who has very obvious BPD symptoms and using seems to be the key to calm and mellow moods. Quitting makes this person angry...
    openmindedjen openmindedjen 36-40, F 2 Responses May 3, 2010

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    Much Worse Without Mj..

    Since I was a kid, as early as 12 years old, I've had symptoms of bpd, insecure, self harm, antisocial, back and forth moods, extreme anxiety, etc etc. I moved out on my own when I was 17, and started smoking when I was about 18, and I started feeling a lot better about myself...
    TheBurgergirl TheBurgergirl 22-25 1 Response Oct 22, 2012

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    Up In Smoke?

    Hi all,I'm pretty shocked to come across this group, and a part of me is happy because I've known all my life that cannabis cures something that nothing else could - the way I felt.I started self-harming when I was thirteen after the departure of my abusive alcoholic mother.  I...
    voiceofautumn voiceofautumn 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2011

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    Borderline Borderline

    so Ive seen a therapist and he believes i have Adhd and I'm borderline Borderline personality disorder. and I don't know, that doesn't feel like to me. I personally think i'm a psychopath but whatever. I stopped seeing him due to financial troubles but now im starting to think...
    Samara21 Samara21 22-25, F Aug 18, 2013

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    Hey Guys. I have only tried pot once

    and that was in a small dose but it helped me out like no other. I was in the NOW, my thought process calmed the **** down. I have been on 14 pills of xanax and that didn't touch me as what weed did in that small dose. That being said, there are of course problems with weed. It...
    blab21 blab21 18-21 1 Response Mar 10

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    I'm Not Sure It Is Helping But I Really Hope It Is...

    I don't feel very comfortable talking about what I have or how I feel, but I'm going to give it a shot, as it is has become very overwhelming to even wake up. I am 30 years old, married, and I live in The Netherlands, but I am brazilian, wich by itself makes very hard already...
    Madgirll Madgirll 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2013

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    I Use Marijuana For My Boarderline Personality Disorder Symptoms

    Ive suffered with the effects of BPD for years without knowing what it was. Just recently got diagnosed and it all made sense to me why i am the way i am. More recently ive noticed that cannibis helps me to slow down my reaction time so that i dont reach angry and violent. I can...
    RattleheadHarley RattleheadHarley 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    I'm Fighting My Bpd Naturally.

    I'm 22 years old, i was diagnosed with BPD when i was 15, normally dr.'s dont diagnose BPD in anyone under 18, but my distructive episodes were so intense by that point, they felt they needed to treat me as an adult. They put me on haldol. when i was on the medication, I felt...
    Gypsyash13 Gypsyash13 22-25 2 Responses Aug 24, 2011

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    Smoke Weed Everydayy//.

    i am  twenty. i got ptsd when i was little..and then i got a more severe case of ptsd when i was around 13 years old. ive also suffered from major depression, audio hallucinations, i have bi-polar and borderline personality disorder as well as psychosis. medicine doesnt...
    ashliik ashliik 21, F 8 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I happened to find a book in the bookstore about a year ago..."Borderline Personality Disorder for Dummies." I just opened it to read it some...and it was ME. Finally...something...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I grew up believing that I would be something amazing. I have a spotty history of divorced, absent parents; child abuse from a stepfather; social ineptness; and depression. When...
    hellaborderline hellaborderline 22-25, M Dec 2

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    Yo. I think I have BPD. All the things people talk about experiencing and the symptoms of borderline are things I experience. Eating disorder, self harm, self-hatred, etc. Any...
    Emilyyyyy Emilyyyyy 18-21 Dec 6

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    I had sex with my ex again and right after, he was texting HER, setting up plans for later. I feel so stupid and used. I just sat there and acted extremely cold like always until I...
    poodahpop poodahpop 18-21, T 1 Response Dec 1

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    I have several friends with BPD. My one friend I'm getting pretty close to she has distance herself somewhat from me however I talk to her in a language she understands. I do my...
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 18

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    I was holding my nephew today, little one year old sweet little thing. He fell asleep on my shoulder and I let him stay there for a while. When I went to go put him down in his bed...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Does anyone know of any borderlines being able to love? Or getting better and stopping the lies n cheating?
    superempath superempath 31-35, M Dec 2

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    I had an argument with my dad today. Made me want to kill myself. It it weren't for my brother I would've probably gone through with it. But he got in my car and managed to calm me...
    nuttyduck nuttyduck 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I just feel super crazy right now! I can't make it go away in my head. I feel like something is missing and empty but nothing to fill the emptiness. I don't even know what would...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I'm a dramatic person. I used to think its because I'm an artist but then I got diagnosed. It made everything so clear, all the pieces fell into place. When I love someone or...
    DustInTheWind92 DustInTheWind92 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 16

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    Don't know why I get so upset. My boyfriend is away for a lads night out and I'm left at his house. And I dunno why but I got so upset begging him not to leave me. What is wrong...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Today I have seen so many of my personalities come out. I hate it. I wish I could go back to being who I was before all my mental problems started. I love that personality.