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I Use to Be a Self Mutilator

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    Escape

    When i first started self mutilating it was out of anger and i was depressed, my father being an alcoholic and my parents always constantly fighting making my sister and i feel so out of place, my sister became bulimic and between watching my parents and my sister struggle and...
    blackskys blackskys 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12, 2012

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    Endurance- Poem

    Endurance A knife lays beside me, Robbing my veins, My ghost lies inside me, Bringing me pain. My soul is reaching for happiness,but it is too far- So my fingers are leaving me with yet another scar. My eyes aren't crying, There searching for hope- My blood is draining, To help...
    TheSunshineheart TheSunshineheart 18-21 1 Response Nov 23, 2011

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    Too Old to Be So Messed Up!

    To say that I used to be a self-mutilator isn't 100% accurate. I sort of still want to.  I just realized that picking at scabs is considered to be self-mutilating.  And I am a picker.   I started self mutilating when I was very young.  It stopped...
    toooldforthis toooldforthis 51-55 1 Response Nov 29, 2008

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    Scars of Betrayal

    Well the first time I cut myself was after I read a book about a girl who cuts. I was fully intrigued for some reason and wanted to do it, so the next time I was angry or sad I did. And it was the worst thing I have ever done to myself. Because I was hooked. I did it...
    BlazzinBebe88 BlazzinBebe88 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 21, 2008

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    Maybe?

    I do it time to time... like years in between so does that count as I used to be? Probably not... oh well
    CrazyHappySad CrazyHappySad 22-25, F Jun 12, 2012

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    I

    its still so tempting i dont know how long i will last. when i started cutting i guess i kind of built myself up to it, got brave enough. one day i stepped on a mirror in my room and instead of cleaning it up, i left it there. it layed there on that floor for a month...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 3, 2009

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    A Long Short Story

    The first time I cut was the first time I heard that no one cared about me. All the family and family friends we're talking around me but would never offer me any criticism. It wasn't the only reason but it was the final push. I didn't even know what I was doing, like I was...
    SequoiaCM SequoiaCM 18-21 3 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    Used To

    I used to cut my self about 4 months ago. Thanks to one of my good friends, I quit. I used to take long baths, and go in there with a plastic knife, and cut my self. I still have scars to this very day, but always stressed of people finding out. Every once and a while I cut my...
    toughchick101 toughchick101 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2010

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    8-|

     I used to do it almost every night when i was 12. I stopped at the age of 16, and sometimes I do miss it. It was just so calming for me at the time, but it now breaks my heart to see it on other people. I feel ashamed for putting my mum and dad and my little sister through...
    thegirlwiththefatcat thegirlwiththefatcat 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    When I Was Younger

    I started cutting after breaking up with my boyfriend of two years, I'd kinda been curious and it made me feel better, after that i would whenever i was sad or angry at myself. I haven't in a while and now i look down at my leg and i hate my scars i never know...
    hotmess713 hotmess713 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Last night, I cut open the same scar I used to constantly dig into with a pencil sharpener blade. It had been over a year since that scar was open. Then I cut the toe out of a sock...
    blackspikex blackspikex 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    Soooooo.....I had stopped cutting myself for two months. But than things started to get bad again. My aunt was yelling at me more and calling names,and me and my brother hated each...
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    Yesterday I was 6 months self-harm free...today, new cuts burn my thighs. I let ana and mia let me cut myself again. I love ana and mia, but cutting wasn't supposed to happen again...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    Selfies are dripping with attention and and acceptance of appearance. Rather it be from Facebook, instergram and EP it's just plain annoying 1. No one forgets what you looked...
    XwonderlustX XwonderlustX 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    So at night Bert says he can't sleep bc his back hurts(due to his back injury) and so he's gonna play a little Xbox until he gets tired enough to fall asleep no big deal right? I...
    AiymaSnikies AiymaSnikies 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    1:30am in the morning, here I am sat in a dark, silent house reflecting on my past, my regrets, my guilt and the ‘what I would have done differently’ scenarios. However...
    deathfromabove1066 deathfromabove1066 22-25, F Jan 18

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    My BOYS with a SUPER BOWL selfie!! I LOVE them!!!! GO PATRIOTS!!!
    Donna717 Donna717 36-40, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    My friend Gina sent me this selfie of herself boot shopping. She did buy new boots dying to see her this weekend to see if these are the leather boots!
    Donna717 Donna717 36-40, F 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    The only way life can get any better for you, is I you do it on your own. No one can just do nothing and expect life to magically be perfect. Effort makes perfect, Id you don't try...
    GuuIsAwesome GuuIsAwesome 18-21, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Selfies are fun and i love em
    gayboynick gayboynick 13-15, M 4 hrs ago

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    A role is a role why must we be a self troll? What means will help us get beyond this strange looking toll? So Just wonder with us please I'm sitting on the bus and this...
    tantralad tantralad 22-25, M Jan 12

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    Ryan2693yly2 Ryan2693yly2 31-35, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I used to. Sometimes I still want to.. But I can't. I've tried many times to kill myself but thankfully no success. My 2 little sisters self harm as well. (They're 12&13!!) I'm...
    Gabrielaaaa99 Gabrielaaaa99 13-15, F Jan 16

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    I Used To Be Bulimic I developed bulimia when I was 12. My father was having an affair, but my mother is Catholic, which means she doesn't believe in divorce. My mother began to...
    EvaSmith EvaSmith 18-21, F Jan 4

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    So here comes the day in which i feel like sh*t. I use the tinder app, you know, but i dont really use it for dating, which is ironic, i know. But, i use it because i want to know...
    kindahipsta kindahipsta 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    I have only met a handful of people who aren't self obsessed or selfish people. Especially at my school. I can tell you that I had a friend who used to be so happy and joyful but...
    Lilwillbe Lilwillbe 16-17, F Jan 2

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    I've self-harmed ever since I was a small child really if I get to thinking about it. This is a list I found in an online psychiatric journal for types of self-harm in children...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F Jan 17

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    Corporal punishment is so cruel. Why it is still used? Its illegal in so many countries.
    germanlisa germanlisa 13-15, F 6 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Hey, there. I just changed my username and avatar from FirstEvening. This isn't about changing my EP identity. Rather, today has been a day for introspection, and I liked this...
    ElectricLife ElectricLife 31-35, F 7 hrs ago

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    I'm so different from who I was last summer. I am really pursuing a relationship with God like never before. I used to just live life day by day, mildly concerned at the very real...
    1forHIM 1forHIM 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    I'm a 52 year old woman and I've known self defense for a long time. Today was the first time I had to use it. I was at yoga with my daughter who is a gorgeous girl in her early 2...
    lindatheworkoutmom lindatheworkoutmom 51-55, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    Should Cells be used in class? ---------------------------------- Well... it depends. It depends on what you're using it for. Yeah, there are quite the plethora of us who sneak a...
    HannahMarieX HannahMarieX 18-21 Jan 14

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    I use to be so confident. I use almost be over confident. But ever since being cheated on four years ago, falling into wage garnishment three years ago, and getting laid off two...
    Foenix Foenix 36-40, M Jan 16

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    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door...
    Theguy0298 Theguy0298 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    I had/ have a boyfriend of two months shy from being three years. I don't know if I love(d) him.. I don't know what love is to be honest. I used him.. maybe not at first but as...
    Gardengnome55 Gardengnome55 16-17, F Jan 20

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    I used to self harm. Today **** went down that reminded me of the farmers part of my life. I did it again. I feel bad now. I managed to stop myself half way. Help I don't want to...
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    10 years from now I keep having an image pop up, in my mind. I'm sitting down at a computer, it seems, or maybe I'm writing something on a piece of paper. I look occupied, but...
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    I have subconsciously been working toward self sufficiency my whole life. Needs must. I've always preferred to spend my money on fun things so I scrimp and save on anything I can...
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