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I Used to Be a Cutter

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 35 People

    6 Years 'Clean'

    I used to be a cutter at 13. I had a new stepfather, a new house in a different town, and now I had to make new friends. Honestly, school turned out great! I loved the school, the teachers, and even the new friends I was making. But it wasn't so great for me at home. I was angry...
    JeTadoreCherie JeTadoreCherie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2012

    Scars Dont Heal

    i used to cut myself alot sometimes i would just do it without even thinking about it. i didnt feel any pain even though i cut real deep. usually i felt better afterwards, relieved and kind of tired but then in the morning i would see the cuts and feel sick. i had to always wear...
    heidi2 heidi2
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 21, 2008

    People Don't Understand...

    People don't understand that this is an addiction and an escape as much as drinking or drugs... That sweet release when a blade touches your skin. Yes, it hurts. But, it takes that emotional pain away for that moment and it's heavenly. If you want to understand cutting, read...
    avenkas avenkas
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 20, 2008

    I Fight

    I fight almost daily not to cut...but I haven't cut in a good while.  I know people don't understand why I did such things and well there were many reasons...I use to do it to feel, then I would do it because I felt too much.  I would cut when I got people angry at me...
    bloomerbear bloomerbear
    41-45
    2 Responses May 17, 2008

    Sanity At Its Finest

    My world was out of control so used to cut to relieve the pain. I have hundreds of scars on my stomache that I now call battle wounds. Now that I am older and I feel that I am sane " I think". Some times I still get the urge but I put that thought away. I am much...
    NOTSOSICK NOTSOSICK
    26-30
    4 Responses May 21, 2008

    Ex Cutter Who Can't Get Over the Embarassment and Shame

    Hi, I'm new to this website. I am 22 years old and I used to be a cutter. I used to cut as a coping mechanism when I had real bad depression. I still get depressed but I learned to cope in different ways and don't want to cut anymore. It's not that I don't have the desire or...
    cowardlykamikaze cowardlykamikaze
    22-25
    May 26, 2009

    Everyday Battle

    I started when I was around 13. It made me calm whenever I felt that my world and my mind were getting to loud and noisy. At the beginning I used to only do it whenever me and my mom fought, we had these terrible violent fights that would used to go on for hours... It came as a...
    Yayale Yayale
    22-25, F
    Jun 30, 2012

    I Was Once a Cutter

      I started cutting at the age of 10 it was just after my grandfather passed away, for over half my life he was sick, so every weekend I was traveling to Melbourne to either take him to the hospital, take him to see a specialist or to visit him in the repat hospital, so I...
    bubble24 bubble24
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2009

    For Quite A While.

    I cut myself all through middle/high school... not deep cuts, I never got to that point, but I cut myself just enough to bleed a little.  I didn't do it a lot, only when I really felt overwhelmed with emotions.  I never really told anyone, and I never cut...
    HisONEnOnly HisONEnOnly
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2009

    Ex Cutter Who Can't Get Over the Embarassment and Shame

    Hi, I'm new to this website. I am 22 years old and I used to be a cutter. I used to cut as a coping mechanism when I had real bad depression. I still get depressed but I learned to cope in different ways and don't want to cut anymore. It's not that I don't have the desire or...
    cowardlykamikaze cowardlykamikaze
    22-25
    May 26, 2009

    I Used To Cut.

    I used to cut and have recently stopped. I've been clean for 3 months now and I've been doing really well :] I'm really proud of getting by my problem. I still get urges every once in a while but they've calmed down, and are less hectic. I now help people who are cutters and...
    xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56
    18-21, F
    Jul 22, 2010
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