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I Used to Be a Goth

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    I used to be a goth in my early teens.

    It was a phase but it still lingers on every now and then. I just wish I could still fit my skelanimals jacket and a few other clothes I use to wear! I still love punk stuff, that being afropunk! But yeah it was definitely 1 of those phases that I like. I wouldnt go back now, as...
    dubstepsweetheart dubstepsweetheart 18-21, F Jan 10, 2014

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    And I Will Be Again

    When I lose weight and get through my social anxiety and this annoying lack of self-confidence, I am going back to my goth roots. The hair, the clothes, the jewellery, the make-up, the boots, the attitude, everything. I'll have to wait to get my old hair back until...
    sugarburn sugarburn 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    I Used To Be A Goddess Of The Night

    Oh how I miss those days! From 7th grade to 10th grade I was Goth, and for once in my life I felt as thought I found something that felt right. Everyday I'd wake up and spend at least an hour getting my outfit together. Everything I owned was black & purple and usually Nightmare...
    WheresMySanity WheresMySanity 18-21, F Nov 11, 2012

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    Ages Ago

    still like most of the music etc but don,t dress like a goth . That was 22 years ago when I was a teen. Don,t forget I USED to be a goth!! NOT anymore! !!I leave all that stuff with the younger generation now. I am tired of it.
    blondiesindy blondiesindy 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    So Now I'm A Goody Goody :p

    But i still have my dark side. On the surface I'm really quiet, even sweet. But there are times when my inner beast comes out and I can be really scary and dominating. I was really into goth clothes (still am at times) and hung around the emos and candy kids, my school was full...
    katniss93 katniss93 18-21, F Jan 15, 2012

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    Still Am Really

    I say "used to be" because most people looking at me would never know. I still have the regalia. I still have the lipstick and the nail polish, and the the eye liner. I just don't need it any more. Likewise...I don't always wear black, I don't write bad poetry (too...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    I Dont Know That I Can Really Say All I Need To Say About It In One Coherent Storyline

    I was a goth in high school. I loved every part about it. A lot of it for me was the romance about it. Being in love with death is "safe" and manageable. In a lot of ways i still am in love with death. Now i dont write crappy poetry about it (anymore) though i still write...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    Goth Is Dead, Undead Undead Undead

    Hello ex-goths, fogey-goths, lurkers alike! I love the people who say that it is all just a phase.  After twenty-three years, I still love all of the old music I listened to in High School (Bauhaus, Mish, Sisters, Siouxsie!) but I rarely ever dress the part anymore except...
    erosatros erosatros 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2010

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    Only Satan Knows Why

    -black clothes  -skinny puppy -cutting -boots &all that bullshit.       why is my question. whats the point of being goth? when did acting dead suddenly become attractive in society? so theatrical too. haha.
    acceptthis acceptthis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    Vampires Took Me To The Dark Side...and It Was Hella Fun!

    Thanks to all the vampire stuff that was starting up a few years ago, it stirred up the goth in me. I didn't do all black clothes and makeup like most. So if you looked at me you really couldn't tell I was a goth. But in my head and the things I did I was a natural. lol That...
    Serabi Serabi 18-21, F Dec 25, 2010

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    When I was in my late teens/early 20s,

    I was a goth. Well, I was never a stereotypical goth - I went through phases. I discovered rock and metal bands such as Evanescence, Marilyn Manson, Tool etc. as a teenager. I had a very miserable, lonely and unhappy adolescence, and the music kept me sane. I then went away to...
    spacepixie spacepixie 26-30, F Oct 21, 2014

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    In College....

    .....I was too. I was into voo doo and witchcraft and wore ALL black ALL the time even in July. The odd thing is that I'M A BLACK GUY!!! Very odd to see me walking around campus with eyeliner and 666 shirts LOL. I was laughed/gawked at by both black and white kids I was truly...
    Air6 Air6 36-40, M Dec 5, 2012

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    Maybe I Still Am

    I was a goth from ages 14-17. I loved it. I truly felt like myself, and if I could still dress that way and still be taken seriously, I would. But my jobs never allowed me to have facial piercings and such, and people never took me seriously. Like all adults, my parents said it...
    TheRealJade TheRealJade 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2011

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    Here's a list of some really awesome bands. The music styles include Gothic, Industrial, Progressive Trance, Synthpop, Futurepop, New Wave, Dark Wave, Ethereal Wave, and EBM...
    HonorTheTrickster HonorTheTrickster 31-35, F Feb 10

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    I like everything dark and evil and my inner demon is gothic to but I am more than gothic I worship Satan,Lucifer,Leviathan, and Belial. I am the crow that will torment your soul...
    PrinceofDeath666 PrinceofDeath666 26-30, M a week ago

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    I have changed a lot I went from a depressed (but well hidden depression) naturally red head that was fat and with really great self a steam to a what my parents would call goth...
    XXbloodisforeverXX XXbloodisforeverXX 13-15, F Feb 1

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    I'm type guy that thinks gothic woman are s-xy.
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M Jan 27

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    Im emo and I love just dark and Gothic or emo things
    miranda12345awesome miranda12345awesome 13-15, F Jan 29

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    Just because people know im goth, they instantly make an assumption that i "Want to die" or that "Self harming is the way forward" but not all of us do that - For example - I just...
    MorticansDaughter98 MorticansDaughter98 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    I love goth girls, scene girls and emo girls! They're so hot! I really hope to get with one, one day!
    CasualSphinx CasualSphinx 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I don't even in the saying "people can change".... Once you become a rapist your always going to be a rapist. Once you start beating on women, your always going to be beat up on...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Sometimes it's hard seeing girls I used to work with.... not that I don't love them or I don't love the time that I put in at the club we worked at together (cage dancing) because...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    I allow men to use me. I get asked how I feel about that. honestly I don't always know. I love sex and have been so used to men treating me how they want and I only ever want to be...
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 17 Responses Feb 8

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    I've been very interested in weapons for several months now. I've been looking at guns, knives, pepper spray, and big dogs. I've also been looking at security systems, locks, and...
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 10

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    People used to always say I was "innocent" and "a good guy" but after the last 3 years I think I've kinda changed my outward appearance to this "bad boyish thing" lol I never drank...
    TedInstead TedInstead 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I used to be a very sweet, cheerful, and loving person. I was often complimented on my personality and told that I was full of light. Now, though, I am definitely not as sweet as...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 5 Responses Feb 10

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    I used to be happy. And I used to be at a normal weight of about 140lbs. And I had a lot of friends and I was motivated. But now I'm depressed and exhausted and I weigh 300lbs and...
    Thatonegreyeyedgirl Thatonegreyeyedgirl 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I used to be so fun to be around. Joking with people, be spontaneous and have a random adventure w friends. I had energy but now.... at 28, I'm drained. I hide my true feelings...
    khushali11 khushali11 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I used to be a boy , restless and frustrated with everything then I started to cross dress , I fell in love with looking like and acting like girl. It was not long before I...
    MAXINE1313 MAXINE1313 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 9

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    I am not the person that I used to be. Growing up I used to make friends so easy. Everywhere I went I made a friend. Now I can't even go,up to someone. I am afraid they are going...
    themagijudal themagijudal 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I am no where near the person I used to be. Sadly, the person I used to be was bad but I still if I could go back to then I would Before my parents split up. Life would be a whole...
    madi01 madi01 13-15, F Feb 13

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    I used to be so naive and innocent , I used to be a sweet little girl , but everything started to change when I enter 9th grade , I realized everything that had happened...
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I really used to hate my boobs. They felt overly large and got in the way of everything. I guess as I've gotten older, I've just gotten used to them, so it's now less of a 'OMG I...
    TheDorkyOne TheDorkyOne 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've never really said it but I now I think about it, it might be helpful. Until last year I used to cut. A broken piece of pen was my sharpie but I would do it everywhere and I'd...
    thedimone thedimone 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    After taking on a job that has had me locked in a room for 12hrs a day/night shift for 2 years , I feel like relationships with my friends and family have become tense. I find...
    dannidontdothat dannidontdothat 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    As you grow up, as life ****** you over, you changed. You changed. You're not the person you used to be. You grow up. You became wiser. You are now a new person. Take pride in that...
    Ohheyteddy Ohheyteddy 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 28

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    I used to self harm. Today **** went down that reminded me of the farmers part of my life. I did it again. I feel bad now. I managed to stop myself half way. Help I don't want to...
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I hate my job. My boss used to be my best friend, but she's changed ALOT, and for the worse. Ever since she was promoted the power is going to her head and she treats me like...
    Somethinglikethat4 Somethinglikethat4 18-21, F Jan 28

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    I feel used, people whom i love most make use of me then they discard me. I live with people who give more importance to outsiders than family. I live in a such a family where each...
    preeti2012 preeti2012 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    first time user as of yesterday didn't have the money for a ***** so i used a home made one out of saran wrap and paper towels put a spar in bottom so it wouldn't slide in...
    Donpi Donpi 18-21, T Jan 28

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    well yes I changed a lot I mean I used to be a really nice guy but I'm going thro a rough time and I get stressed by a small thing!
    kaiovinicius kaiovinicius 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    My body was once used as a canvas to paint my pain away. Now my skin is nothing but a fragile scar that will forever be a reminder of how broken I once was. It's not something I...
    hayleecharms hayleecharms 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I'm so different from who I was last summer. I am really pursuing a relationship with God like never before. I used to just live life day by day, mildly concerned at the very real...
    1forHIM 1forHIM 22-25, F Jan 30

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    I want to be ****** until I can't move. I want to be beaten and broken and used for your pleasure. I deserve anything you'd want to do to me.
    ThatBitch15 ThatBitch15 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    I used to make killer mix tapes. The song selection, the order the songs go in, the story they tell. And no audible clicks between tracks - very important! I recreated a few of...
    sarabear7 sarabear7 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I'm not too sure who I used to be, but I know who I am right now. I spent the first 39 years of my life trying to be who and what I thought people wanted me to be. Trying to be a...
    silvera73 silvera73 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 3

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    when I was a little kid, I used to have the worst case of shyness, to the point where I barely spoke to my own family, as I got older, it's gotten better though now i'm only shy...
    DayzEvenden DayzEvenden 16-17, F Feb 3