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I Used to Be a Goth

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    I Used To Be A Goddess Of The Night

    Oh how I miss those days! From 7th grade to 10th grade I was Goth, and for once in my life I felt as thought I found something that felt right. Everyday I'd wake up and spend at least an hour getting my outfit together. Everything I owned was black & purple and usually Nightmare...
    WheresMySanity WheresMySanity 18-21, F Nov 11, 2012

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    I Dont Know That I Can Really Say All I Need To Say About It In One Coherent Storyline

    I was a goth in high school. I loved every part about it. A lot of it for me was the romance about it. Being in love with death is "safe" and manageable. In a lot of ways i still am in love with death. Now i dont write crappy poetry about it (anymore) though i still write...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    So Now I'm A Goody Goody :p

    But i still have my dark side. On the surface I'm really quiet, even sweet. But there are times when my inner beast comes out and I can be really scary and dominating. I was really into goth clothes (still am at times) and hung around the emos and candy kids, my school was full...
    katniss93 katniss93 18-21, F Jan 15, 2012

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    When I was in my late teens/early 20s,

    I was a goth. Well, I was never a stereotypical goth - I went through phases. I discovered rock and metal bands such as Evanescence, Marilyn Manson, Tool etc. as a teenager. I had a very miserable, lonely and unhappy adolescence, and the music kept me sane. I then went away to...
    spacepixie spacepixie 26-30, F Oct 21

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    In College....

    .....I was too. I was into voo doo and witchcraft and wore ALL black ALL the time even in July. The odd thing is that I'M A BLACK GUY!!! Very odd to see me walking around campus with eyeliner and 666 shirts LOL. I was laughed/gawked at by both black and white kids I was truly...
    Air6 Air6 36-40, M Dec 5, 2012

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    And I Will Be Again

    When I lose weight and get through my social anxiety and this annoying lack of self-confidence, I am going back to my goth roots. The hair, the clothes, the jewellery, the make-up, the boots, the attitude, everything. I'll have to wait to get my old hair back until...
    sugarburn sugarburn 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    Ages Ago

    still like most of the music etc but don,t dress like a goth . That was 22 years ago when I was a teen. Don,t forget I USED to be a goth!! NOT anymore! !!I leave all that stuff with the younger generation now. I am tired of it.
    blondiesindy blondiesindy 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    Maybe I Still Am

    I was a goth from ages 14-17. I loved it. I truly felt like myself, and if I could still dress that way and still be taken seriously, I would. But my jobs never allowed me to have facial piercings and such, and people never took me seriously. Like all adults, my parents said it...
    TheRealJade TheRealJade 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2011

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    Still Am Really

    I say "used to be" because most people looking at me would never know. I still have the regalia. I still have the lipstick and the nail polish, and the the eye liner. I just don't need it any more. Likewise...I don't always wear black, I don't write bad poetry (too...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    Vampires Took Me To The Dark Side...and It Was Hella Fun!

    Thanks to all the vampire stuff that was starting up a few years ago, it stirred up the goth in me. I didn't do all black clothes and makeup like most. So if you looked at me you really couldn't tell I was a goth. But in my head and the things I did I was a natural. lol That...
    Serabi Serabi 18-21, F Dec 25, 2010

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    I used to be a goth in my early teens.

    It was a phase but it still lingers on every now and then. I just wish I could still fit my skelanimals jacket and a few other clothes I use to wear! I still love punk stuff, that being afropunk! But yeah it was definitely 1 of those phases that I like. I wouldnt go back now, as...
    dubstepsweetheart dubstepsweetheart 18-21, F Jan 10

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    Goth Is Dead, Undead Undead Undead

    Hello ex-goths, fogey-goths, lurkers alike! I love the people who say that it is all just a phase.  After twenty-three years, I still love all of the old music I listened to in High School (Bauhaus, Mish, Sisters, Siouxsie!) but I rarely ever dress the part anymore except...
    erosatros erosatros 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2010

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    Only Satan Knows Why

    -black clothes  -skinny puppy -cutting -boots &all that bullshit.       why is my question. whats the point of being goth? when did acting dead suddenly become attractive in society? so theatrical too. haha.
    acceptthis acceptthis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.. I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 27

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    So, I used to identify with my good side and project my bad side onto others... This is deep stuff, which took me thirty years to fathom... I used to think I wanted to be happy...
    Loufree Loufree 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I sit and I listen to the words you speak to me out your mouth. The continue to break me down with every syllable. I look at you as though I don't know who you are anymore. You...
    crafty36 crafty36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I used to have a love. He came to me when I least expected it and blindsided me. Somehow, he got past all my defenses and went straight for that secret place in my heart I'd...
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 24

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    I used to be those happy people, like always smiling and sharing good thoughts and helping everyone. I used to like to see the sun when I woke up and there was no bad mood, I liked...
    beabjones beabjones 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    its a terrible feeling. knowing you've been used be someone. knowing that they don't really care, they never did, you were just around. a pawn in their little game. anyone else...
    debonaireash debonaireash 16-17, M Dec 3

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    This heading is true regarding my personal experience. However, I refuse to put myself in boxes...I will not limit my thinking to believing that I should be used to it. We attract...
    SpanishRose10 SpanishRose10 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    meyassa meyassa 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 19

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    depressedgirl0601 depressedgirl0601 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    In the last two years, I have severed ties with my relatives (after years of emotional abuse from them--I won't even call them "family") and most of the people I once thought were...
    themoodymuse themoodymuse 56-60, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    Should I use corporal punishment? I have volunteered to teach in a school in Swaziland for two years. I arrived just over a week ago and have spent the last few days shadowing...
    RichardMoly RichardMoly 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 20

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    I feel totally used by quite a few guys
    stupid28 stupid28 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    My Ao DaiIn my late teens my cross-dressing was limited to wearing lingerie. Going in the military didn't make it any easier. Then I volunteered for Nam and I was captivated by the...
    AlbertSAT AlbertSAT 66-70, M 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I used to be funny and carefree and happy just a few months ago but now I just lost all that's happened over the past few months. The people who made me feel where I belonged left...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F Nov 22

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    Call it thrift therapy. I am a hardcore treasure hunting junkie. With the exception of mattresses and undergarments – I’ll buy anything used. I’d say about 95% of the stuff...
    sls84 sls84 26-30, F Nov 23

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    wish I could say used to again
    kittykittyoxc kittykittyoxc 18-21, F Nov 23

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    I used to be innocent and I can't go back because my old life has gone forever.
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    Stephiternal Stephiternal 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    4 years ago - I had a career - confident woman, I have some kind of authority where I worked. I worked hard always give 110% and I never neglect my responsibilities at work. I've...
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    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    Hey guys, I know I haven't been on in ages. I'm here now. Hehe. As you can tell, I am doing better than I previously was. I realized that I was all depressed, needy, mopy, and...
    HayellsDorion HayellsDorion 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Trying to marry together and make sense of the person you used to be with the person you currently are has proven far more difficult than imagined. I wish someone warned me about...
    tabbi123 tabbi123 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    I don't know what's happening to me. I have a good job. Family. A home. Yet when I'm not working I'm crying. I used to really care about helping others and doing good. I still do...
    Sunny352 Sunny352 41-45, F 12 Responses Nov 27

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    Feeling lost. However i do have a great wife and a fantastic daughter. So i don't understand it. Ive been to the docs as i am getting loads of headaches, and going through dissy...
    Benidict33 Benidict33 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 27

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    I used to be this little shy kid with not many friends but now I'm working in a kitchen full time swearing and having a laugh with all my friends at work, life changes quickly, let...
    Tomm3y Tomm3y 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 27