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I Used to Be a Goth

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    When I was in my late teens/early 20s,

    I was a goth. Well, I was never a stereotypical goth - I went through phases. I discovered rock and metal bands such as Evanescence, Marilyn Manson, Tool etc. as a teenager. I had a very miserable, lonely and unhappy adolescence, and the music kept me sane. I then went away to...
    pixieowl pixieowl 26-30, F Oct 21, 2014

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    In College....

    .....I was too. I was into voo doo and witchcraft and wore ALL black ALL the time even in July. The odd thing is that I'M A BLACK GUY!!! Very odd to see me walking around campus with eyeliner and 666 shirts LOL. I was laughed/gawked at by both black and white kids I was truly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 5, 2012

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    Ages Ago

    still like most of the music etc but don,t dress like a goth . That was 22 years ago when I was a teen. Don,t forget I USED to be a goth!! NOT anymore! !!I leave all that stuff with the younger generation now. I am tired of it.
    blondiesindy blondiesindy 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    Only Satan Knows Why

    -black clothes  -skinny puppy -cutting -boots &all that bullshit.       why is my question. whats the point of being goth? when did acting dead suddenly become attractive in society? so theatrical too. haha.
    acceptthis acceptthis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    Still Am Really

    I say "used to be" because most people looking at me would never know. I still have the regalia. I still have the lipstick and the nail polish, and the the eye liner. I just don't need it any more. Likewise...I don't always wear black, I don't write bad poetry (too...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    So Now I'm A Goody Goody :p

    But i still have my dark side. On the surface I'm really quiet, even sweet. But there are times when my inner beast comes out and I can be really scary and dominating. I was really into goth clothes (still am at times) and hung around the emos and candy kids, my school was full...
    katniss93 katniss93 18-21, F Jan 15, 2012

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    I Dont Know That I Can Really Say All I Need To Say About It In One Coherent Storyline

    I was a goth in high school. I loved every part about it. A lot of it for me was the romance about it. Being in love with death is "safe" and manageable. In a lot of ways i still am in love with death. Now i dont write crappy poetry about it (anymore) though i still write...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    Maybe I Still Am

    I was a goth from ages 14-17. I loved it. I truly felt like myself, and if I could still dress that way and still be taken seriously, I would. But my jobs never allowed me to have facial piercings and such, and people never took me seriously. Like all adults, my parents said it...
    TheRealJade TheRealJade 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2011

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    Vampires Took Me To The Dark Side...and It Was Hella Fun!

    Thanks to all the vampire stuff that was starting up a few years ago, it stirred up the goth in me. I didn't do all black clothes and makeup like most. So if you looked at me you really couldn't tell I was a goth. But in my head and the things I did I was a natural. lol That...
    Serabi Serabi 18-21, F Dec 25, 2010

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    Goth Is Dead, Undead Undead Undead

    Hello ex-goths, fogey-goths, lurkers alike! I love the people who say that it is all just a phase.  After twenty-three years, I still love all of the old music I listened to in High School (Bauhaus, Mish, Sisters, Siouxsie!) but I rarely ever dress the part anymore except...
    erosatros erosatros 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2010

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    I used to be a goth in my early teens.

    It was a phase but it still lingers on every now and then. I just wish I could still fit my skelanimals jacket and a few other clothes I use to wear! I still love punk stuff, that being afropunk! But yeah it was definitely 1 of those phases that I like. I wouldnt go back now, as...
    dubstepsweetheart dubstepsweetheart 18-21, F Jan 10, 2014

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    And I Will Be Again

    When I lose weight and get through my social anxiety and this annoying lack of self-confidence, I am going back to my goth roots. The hair, the clothes, the jewellery, the make-up, the boots, the attitude, everything. I'll have to wait to get my old hair back until...
    sugarburn sugarburn 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    I see Gotham as a gigantic game of connect the dots here's my list Gotham connect the dots Viper --> Venom --> Bane Poison ivy --> dad's death --> Falcone Hush --> tommy...
    smitlord smitlord 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I used to be a sweetheart I used to be kind, I used to be independent, I used to have my own mind. I used to like to smile, now all my smiles are fake I used to have great...
    criimson criimson 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    The person I used to be. I canĀ“t even really remember who that was? I see pictures of it and I see the things I used to write and the way my mind worked. I know that was me. But I...
    xBambi xBambi 22-25, F Apr 5

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    Most recent cut deep this time. Sadly you turned out like the rest. Even though i think you are still the fairest of them all even though i still care. I wish you didn't use me. I...
    dropitnow52 dropitnow52 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I did. It is true. And some people only get that part. I either cannot or will not elaborate. The entire statement is: I used to do drugs. I still do....do drugs. But I used to do...
    smokingrocks1 smokingrocks1 56-60, M 22 hrs ago

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    Funny, in life, you think once you get something you'll be fine. You'll be happy and it'll all fall in to place. Ahhh nieve innocent youth. "Treasure what you have because one...
    Bonnienz Bonnienz 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    You would always use some kind words. Little names - cute jokes. You used to be so blunt about how you felt about me and how you wanted me next to you just to hug you after a long...
    askmorenow1 askmorenow1 22-25, F Apr 8

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    used to be a little **** at school, was so confident and couldn't give a ****. now I'm aiming to go to uni and make something of myself. lost a lot of my loud personality but if I...
    anniethe27th anniethe27th 16-17, F Apr 8

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    I don't know who I am anymore. I just had a baby six weeks ago and she's the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. They always say there has to be a storm to get a...
    ChloesMommy15 ChloesMommy15 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I have/had a friend who I used to be very close to. There was a time a few years back when she didn't have a lot of friends and she used to always ask to hang out with me. Now she...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    Things that happened totally changed the person I used to be. I am not cheerful anymore, I am losing my enthusiasm, I am not as smart as I used to be in academic and I am always...
    tangoecho0893 tangoecho0893 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I used to be carefree and vibrant and fun to be around. Now that I've had my heart broken I am none of those things. I'm just a shell of a person who used to smile and trust and...
    joyfulcloudofsorrow joyfulcloudofsorrow 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 23

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    I want be used by older men, forced to do anything for their pleasure! I crave to be dominated, I wanna be taken by surprise and used roughly! Pm if you wanna talk! :)
    slavegirlshelbs slavegirlshelbs 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 26

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    I used to read all the time, even with school in the way, I would always find time to read. I haven't finished a novel in almost a year, which is extremely depressing. I have a...
    idontknowwhatusername idontknowwhatusername 18-21, F Apr 5

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    I was a guy who used to hang out with friends and would always be happy and down to party. Now I'm just an empty shell who doesn't care about anything anymore. I just shoot drugs...
    XxDazzle XxDazzle 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 5

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    I used to be a human named steve. An accident happened and now im a blue dog. I sometimes jump into paintings now and my only friends are a salt and pepper shaker...yes my mail box...
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 1 Response Apr 6

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    Used to hate myself for thinking liking guys was wrong and horrible. Now it's the best thing that has happened to me.
    DLaPratt DLaPratt 13-15, M Apr 7

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    I really have to keep focused on keeping my mind busy these days. when my mind isn't busy, it quickly wanders. I start remembering the good times , the bad times. and right now any...
    angelaarron angelaarron 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I used to love school and got good grades. I was really good at math and everyone knew that. I was so interested I it, and proud that I had the highest grade in it.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Being used is one of the worst feelings in the world especially when its someone you love but there's always a light in the darkness. There are people out there who won't use you...
    LoganCW LoganCW 16-17, M Apr 11

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    It feels sad when my old friends tell me I am not the strong, friendly, confident, adventuruous, and strong person that I used to be. Lately, I have just been this morose, sad...
    elphy407 elphy407 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    I used to candy coat my words, agree with the majority, and not express how I really feel or think... I was insecure. Now I am able to be ME, able to voice my opinion, agree to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 17

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    I used dance until my company closed and that was the saddest thing that happened to me
    InfiniteTearDrops InfiniteTearDrops 13-15, F Apr 17

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    The amount of confidence I've been able to gather for myself. It's still not as high as it could be, it's damn near amazing compared to where it used to be. Can't even tell you how...
    Beijodeabacaxi Beijodeabacaxi 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I had been cutting myself since highschool, the las time I did it was like a year ago, I am now in my fourth year of university. I remember it being so hard to cover up the scars...
    Margarott Margarott 18-21, F Apr 22

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    This experience I'm writing about I'm sure has happened to many other guys and gals. During my early part of my career in the military we lived in a co-ed dorm (early 1980s). Many...
    badcom55 badcom55 56-60, M Apr 22

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    I used to be mean not to mention straight
    keyonte4853 keyonte4853 13-15, M Apr 22

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    I used to be looking forward to life but now on looking forward to ending it
    iwantusobad iwantusobad 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 22

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    Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much that you can finally say "I'm used to it"
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F Apr 25

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    Good morning , today my cousin texted me and asked me if I can take care of her child I didn't mind , I said yes but as I'm here I can't help but to wonder why I didn't say no...
    justmexox justmexox 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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