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I Used to Be a Goth

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    So Now I'm A Goody Goody :p

    But i still have my dark side. On the surface I'm really quiet, even sweet. But there are times when my inner beast comes out and I can be really scary and dominating. I was really into goth clothes (still am at times) and hung around the emos and candy kids, my school was full...
    katniss93 katniss93 18-21, F Jan 15, 2012

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    Maybe I Still Am

    I was a goth from ages 14-17. I loved it. I truly felt like myself, and if I could still dress that way and still be taken seriously, I would. But my jobs never allowed me to have facial piercings and such, and people never took me seriously. Like all adults, my parents said it...
    TheRealJade TheRealJade 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2011

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    I used to be a goth in my early teens.

    It was a phase but it still lingers on every now and then. I just wish I could still fit my skelanimals jacket and a few other clothes I use to wear! I still love punk stuff, that being afropunk! But yeah it was definitely 1 of those phases that I like. I wouldnt go back now, as...
    dubstepsweetheart dubstepsweetheart 18-21, F Jan 10

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    I Dont Know That I Can Really Say All I Need To Say About It In One Coherent Storyline

    I was a goth in high school. I loved every part about it. A lot of it for me was the romance about it. Being in love with death is "safe" and manageable. In a lot of ways i still am in love with death. Now i dont write crappy poetry about it (anymore) though i still write...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    In College....

    .....I was too. I was into voo doo and witchcraft and wore ALL black ALL the time even in July. The odd thing is that I'M A BLACK GUY!!! Very odd to see me walking around campus with eyeliner and 666 shirts LOL. I was laughed/gawked at by both black and white kids I was truly...
    Air6 Air6 36-40, M Dec 5, 2012

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    Still Am Really

    I say "used to be" because most people looking at me would never know. I still have the regalia. I still have the lipstick and the nail polish, and the the eye liner. I just don't need it any more. Likewise...I don't always wear black, I don't write bad poetry (too...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    Goth Is Dead, Undead Undead Undead

    Hello ex-goths, fogey-goths, lurkers alike! I love the people who say that it is all just a phase.  After twenty-three years, I still love all of the old music I listened to in High School (Bauhaus, Mish, Sisters, Siouxsie!) but I rarely ever dress the part anymore except...
    erosatros erosatros 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2010

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    Vampires Took Me To The Dark Side...and It Was Hella Fun!

    Thanks to all the vampire stuff that was starting up a few years ago, it stirred up the goth in me. I didn't do all black clothes and makeup like most. So if you looked at me you really couldn't tell I was a goth. But in my head and the things I did I was a natural. lol That...
    Serabi Serabi 18-21, F Dec 25, 2010

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    Only Satan Knows Why

    -black clothes  -skinny puppy -cutting -boots &all that bullshit.       why is my question. whats the point of being goth? when did acting dead suddenly become attractive in society? so theatrical too. haha.
    acceptthis acceptthis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    Ages Ago

    still like most of the music etc but don,t dress like a goth . That was 22 years ago when I was a teen. Don,t forget I USED to be a goth!! NOT anymore! !!I leave all that stuff with the younger generation now. I am tired of it.
    blondiesindy blondiesindy 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    I Used To Be A Goddess Of The Night

    Oh how I miss those days! From 7th grade to 10th grade I was Goth, and for once in my life I felt as thought I found something that felt right. Everyday I'd wake up and spend at least an hour getting my outfit together. Everything I owned was black & purple and usually Nightmare...
    WheresMySanity WheresMySanity 18-21, F Nov 11, 2012

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    And I Will Be Again

    When I lose weight and get through my social anxiety and this annoying lack of self-confidence, I am going back to my goth roots. The hair, the clothes, the jewellery, the make-up, the boots, the attitude, everything. I'll have to wait to get my old hair back until...
    sugarburn sugarburn 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    Here's a fun fact that some people need to understand: Not all goths are depressed! I know, shocker right? I love wearing my black skirts, black boots, black sweaters, and ughh...
    Sydny1330 Sydny1330 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I miss the old me who I used to be. wide eyed, playful, kind i even miss how gullible i was used to see the world so different used to be so different I miss the way I spoke...
    tostai tostai 18-21, F 56 mins ago

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    I love goth girls there so hot wish I could be friends with some and had a gothic gf
    scottishbigguy scottishbigguy 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Any punk/goth people from Australia? :)
    Zaada Zaada 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    Yup I am and two of my friends are also models :DI work as a gothic model since I'm 16 years old, it makes fun and I earn good money. It's more a hobby than a job for us...
    Xiara666 Xiara666 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 18

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    I used to be happy. A child with zero cares and 100 reasons to love life, but now 10 years later I cannot think of a single one. I used to think i was pretty, until they started...
    darknesssweetnesssadness darknesssweetnesssadness 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I used to be a happy kid, i was a tomboy, i was friends with all the boys and girls, and i was happy! Suddenly things changed, like everything of the past didnt matter anymore. I...
    staystrongsu staystrongsu 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I forget my self in nowhere..I want to turnback time where I used to know my self well..where we used to be friend..Now..nothing I will do will change my life..sometimes I forget...
    denez denez 22-25, F Aug 3

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    I used to. Not so long ago i was there,. I used to cut, i used to scratch my skin off, pull or cut parts of my hair off. It was a way to destruct myself from the emotional pain...
    MayaMoonShadow MayaMoonShadow 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    This is super long but I just needed to get it off my chest. You used me. You first told me that having the label of "boyfriend and girlfriend" would ruin our relationship so you...
    lunalight21 lunalight21 18-21, F Aug 12

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    Actually, I used to pastor an entire church, not just the youth. But I am posting this experience from the EP app, and for the life of me, I cannot figure out how to add an...
    YourFriendRyan YourFriendRyan 36-40 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I'm not the person I used to be, I've gotten better in some things but some things have turned out to be worse.. I have learned to keep hurtful thoughts to myself, no matter how...
    ginawexler ginawexler 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I used to be very social, too kind and caring to everyone. I used to smile almost always because no matter what happened, the people that I love and care about were always there...
    StupidM StupidM 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used to be a fun happy person but now I'm depressed I cut myself and I just don't want to live. I'm not the person I used to be and I hate it.
    laserabe1 laserabe1 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 30

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    I lost who I was when I was about 14-15, things went downhill from there. I used to be pretty focused and determined on doing things, I used to be a lot happier and strong. I think...
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19 18-21, F Aug 5

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    2Years later and I still think about it... I didn't start until I was 13 and had never even heard about it my childhood was a very painful one filled with abuse and neglect as...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    DEPRESSION: It made me start cutting my thigh. I stopped for 7 months before starting again. Never in a million years, as a kid, had I though that I would cut as a teen. I used to...
    AmyGhotra AmyGhotra 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 10

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    Hi. I found myself upset tonight because I am lonely. I realized that I am in a better situation now because I am sober (almost 3 years!) & I just started a job I like, but there...
    meghank1975 meghank1975 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 12

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    Run to come and meet you...tell you I am sorry. You really don't know how special you are, I had to find you to tell you I need you, I miss what we used to have..... Tell me...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Aug 20

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    My ex bf made me go through depression.. I loved him, but he just used me all along. He was still in love with his ex gf. After timed passed, I began to forget him.. My heart...
    EmmaParsons EmmaParsons 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    If you used to self-harm, what are the strategies you used that helped you stop?
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    More like all the time and its weird. Im used to feel used
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I am not the person I used to be. I survived his grasp. I broke free of his psychological hold. I crawled out of the depths of hell on my hands and knees not knowing where to...
    Mm8335 Mm8335 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    It gets on my nerves, when I realise that somebody has been keeping in touch with me only because I could be useful. Most of the times I already have this feeling of being used...
    kikinators kikinators 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I don't know but..... I really changed a lot. I don't know how I used to be before.... I got betrayed by friends. I betrayed friends. I cried for them. I miss the people I had met...
    hooncaramello hooncaramello 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just feel broken. Not used. I'd have to be acknowledged to be used. He just walked out and left again. Always going. He always says where to. But never who with or when he'll be...
    tristaspuella tristaspuella 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I used to hate the thought of getting older, watching these grey haired seniors hobble down the street, or elderly couples hanging onto each other for dear life... I finally came...
    westwoman westwoman 56-60, F 8 Responses Jul 30

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    I wanna say about a year and a half/ two years ago, I was a completely different person. I had started seeing this guy, thought he was great, 3 months into the relationship we got...
    brandijade92 brandijade92 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 30

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    I used to be very mean and spiteful in my early-teen years. Very uncaring and inconsiderate. I would have no understanding and I was always quick to judge. Yes, I changed as I got...
    nemophilist8 nemophilist8 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 31

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    I cant really say used to. Im still recovering and am only around 12-14 weeks clean. I just really wish I had someone to talk to about this stuff. That maybe recovering would be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 1

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    I still do a little but .. But definitely not like i used to ...I can actually do do speeches. and talk in front of a group of people.. even though i hate doing so.I think only...
    cbeneath cbeneath 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    It happened over and over again .. it wasn't really anyone's fault but my own. It's a part of me to never say, No. The thing is I'm just afraid to loose people,but aren't we all to...
    hulkgirl hulkgirl 18-21 1 Response Aug 1

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    Back then, I used to be very passive. Whether I felt a certain way or not, I would always try to keep a straight face. By doing this I was stacking bricks of anger, frustration...
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 16-17, F Aug 2

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    Well...I used to cut with my unscrewed pencil sharpener. I would cut my thighs and scrape the words softly "cut the fat" , my parents believe that I over-eat and eat all of the...
    genesisramos13 genesisramos13 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    Being a nice guy and very giving and understanding comes at a price. Usually I end up being used and taken advantage of. I know that I have no one to blame but myself for this but...
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I used to cut bad. A couple months ago was the time I did. I cut "**** up" on my arm. It's pretty visible when I don't have brackets covering it up and pulling attention away from...
    brandijade92 brandijade92 18-21, F Aug 3