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I Used to Be a Goth

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    I Dont Know That I Can Really Say All I Need To Say About It In One Coherent Storyline

    I was a goth in high school. I loved every part about it. A lot of it for me was the romance about it. Being in love with death is "safe" and manageable. In a lot of ways i still am in love with death. Now i dont write crappy poetry about it (anymore) though i still write...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    Vampires Took Me To The Dark Side...and It Was Hella Fun!

    Thanks to all the vampire stuff that was starting up a few years ago, it stirred up the goth in me. I didn't do all black clothes and makeup like most. So if you looked at me you really couldn't tell I was a goth. But in my head and the things I did I was a natural. lol That...
    Serabi Serabi 18-21, F Dec 25, 2010

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    Still Am Really

    I say "used to be" because most people looking at me would never know. I still have the regalia. I still have the lipstick and the nail polish, and the the eye liner. I just don't need it any more. Likewise...I don't always wear black, I don't write bad poetry (too...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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    And I Will Be Again

    When I lose weight and get through my social anxiety and this annoying lack of self-confidence, I am going back to my goth roots. The hair, the clothes, the jewellery, the make-up, the boots, the attitude, everything. I'll have to wait to get my old hair back until...
    sugarburn sugarburn 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    I used to be a goth in my early teens.

    It was a phase but it still lingers on every now and then. I just wish I could still fit my skelanimals jacket and a few other clothes I use to wear! I still love punk stuff, that being afropunk! But yeah it was definitely 1 of those phases that I like. I wouldnt go back now, as...
    dubstepsweetheart dubstepsweetheart 18-21, F Jan 10

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    Only Satan Knows Why

    -black clothes  -skinny puppy -cutting -boots &all that bullshit.       why is my question. whats the point of being goth? when did acting dead suddenly become attractive in society? so theatrical too. haha.
    acceptthis acceptthis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2009

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    I Used To Be A Goddess Of The Night

    Oh how I miss those days! From 7th grade to 10th grade I was Goth, and for once in my life I felt as thought I found something that felt right. Everyday I'd wake up and spend at least an hour getting my outfit together. Everything I owned was black & purple and usually Nightmare...
    WheresMySanity WheresMySanity 18-21, F Nov 11, 2012

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    Goth Is Dead, Undead Undead Undead

    Hello ex-goths, fogey-goths, lurkers alike! I love the people who say that it is all just a phase.  After twenty-three years, I still love all of the old music I listened to in High School (Bauhaus, Mish, Sisters, Siouxsie!) but I rarely ever dress the part anymore except...
    erosatros erosatros 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2010

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    Ages Ago

    still like most of the music etc but don,t dress like a goth . That was 22 years ago when I was a teen. Don,t forget I USED to be a goth!! NOT anymore! !!I leave all that stuff with the younger generation now. I am tired of it.
    blondiesindy blondiesindy 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    Use To Be.. Kinda Am Kinda Not Anymore But Great/Weird Phase In My Life

    Goth.. hmm, everyone has their own interpretation of what "goth" is I always thought it was the pale faces bright *** red lipstick (or darker maybe black) and wearing all black, heavy makeup. Well I did that middle school and a bit of high school (though on and off) I would be...
    23gorillaz 23gorillaz 18-21, F Aug 12, 2013

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    In College....

    .....I was too. I was into voo doo and witchcraft and wore ALL black ALL the time even in July. The odd thing is that I'M A BLACK GUY!!! Very odd to see me walking around campus with eyeliner and 666 shirts LOL. I was laughed/gawked at by both black and white kids I was truly...
    Air6 Air6 36-40, M Dec 5, 2012

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    Maybe I Still Am

    I was a goth from ages 14-17. I loved it. I truly felt like myself, and if I could still dress that way and still be taken seriously, I would. But my jobs never allowed me to have facial piercings and such, and people never took me seriously. Like all adults, my parents said it...
    TheRealJade TheRealJade 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2011

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    So Now I'm A Goody Goody :p

    But i still have my dark side. On the surface I'm really quiet, even sweet. But there are times when my inner beast comes out and I can be really scary and dominating. I was really into goth clothes (still am at times) and hung around the emos and candy kids, my school was full...
    katniss93 katniss93 18-21, F Jan 15, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I used to wear all black and used to weigh a bit less. So I'm gonna try and get back to that old me that didn't give a **** about what people thought and was super confident. I don...
    dyingalittleinside97 dyingalittleinside97 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I semi used to be happy. I used to laugh with my friends but now I shut them out. I once could smile for no reason but a true smile has only crossed my lips when I thought I was...
    sluggo111 sluggo111 16-17, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I'm a little bit goth/punk/emo/alternative etc. but people bully me with that. I think it doesn't matter how you look like but it makes me so angry if people bully me because I...
    lucy707 lucy707 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I wear gothic clothes but some people say because I'm blonde I can't... Is this true do I have to dye my hair black or something?
    DGCalum99 DGCalum99 13-15, M 3 Responses Jun 26

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    So finally got myself back to the old me :) not only was I goth, but I was also a skater chick. Finally got my life back. DC and Osiris shoes and black clothes and makeup and music...
    dyingalittleinside97 dyingalittleinside97 16-17, F Jun 29

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    I would love to meet goths on here and less emos lol
    darkness1989 darkness1989 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    In high school many years ago I was gothic. When i was 20 I got a real job. Now I look like a boring librarian or teacher. But on the inside... well that never changed.
    Recklessdesires Recklessdesires 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 4

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    I am most definitely goth, but the clothing is sooooo expensive. I honestly look like a cheap emo kid :( not that there's anything wrong with emo, its just not me haha
    TianaKittieCore TianaKittieCore 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    Yeah I'm goth xD but because I'm "blonde" not allowed to and I have to dye my hair black? Lol ok bro👍
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M Jul 8

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    I am goth/emo/grunge . I love wearing jokers and evanescence and nirvana are my favorite bands. I'm also a cutter I'm fascinated with blood. I enjoy the dark and cloudy dreary days...
    Grunge17Goth Grunge17Goth 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I used to be happy and cheerful about 6 years back. 2 years later, i became quiet and reclusive and distant from most people and my family sometimes. It got worst and worst as time...
    Letsdothiss Letsdothiss 18-21, M 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Ive been thinking about this (me being the thinker i am) & i cant figure out how to word it. Here goes.. 14,party,roofied,stuffed in a trunk,beaten senseless by 6 military guys...
    twodeadbrothers twodeadbrothers 22-25, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Used A Booster Seat as a kid and I think that booster seats can save lives and stop deaths
    michigan11 michigan11 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    Used A Plastic Mattress Cover
    michigan11 michigan11 22-25, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Used commercial gym equipment is truly the last thing in the mind of someone who wishes to get fit. Many folks will frequently venture out into a big box store and get a brand new...
    ZCeason ZCeason 22-25 Jul 6

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    I just realized how easy it would be to just be sarcastic to most every one of these experiences! But I won't, I will be authentic! I have lost most of my close family over the...
    RaverFan RaverFan 41-45 1 Response Jul 7

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    There are times when I remember who I was... I used to be nice, used to be calm, used to be patient and used to be forgiving... But my love, betrayed me... lied to me... fooled...
    elemenohpi elemenohpi 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I loved wearing tight shorts. It used to accentuate my round bums and I love the way people look at me then. With a cute and beautiful boyish face I used to be teased by everyone...
    spankyboy100 spankyboy100 31-35 Jul 9

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    I used to be a kind, considerate, compassionate, loving, caring person. But now... Admittedly, I'm a jaded and sometimes bitter & selfish human being. It used to be that I would...
    dukelostboy25 dukelostboy25 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I am so glad I'm not the person I used to be . Although at the same time I'm not. I used to be really rude but one day I snapped out of it and realized what I was doing . But I...
    CynthiaxLisette CynthiaxLisette 70+, F 1 day ago

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    I don't cut anymore, because, 1. it didn't work very well 2. I got caught I used to cut my legs because I was being stalked by a boy who had the full intent of raping me. This is...
    SystemShutdown SystemShutdown 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    I feel like I'm being used all the time, it makes me feel worthless like I don't mean anything. That I'm just a maid or a babysitter or a hooker. I'm just being used, but that's...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    Looking through old notes on my phone, found one that said "It was the only pain I could control." Obviously I was referring to the pain I used to inflict on myself when I was...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I feel down. Something has sucked my energy out of my body, and my mind is empty. I can’t focus on work, feel like coming back home and sleeping for long time after taking...
    Forouzan Forouzan 36-40, F Jul 5

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    I used to be so happy and care free. I used to have faith in my marriage...faith in my husband...faith in myself. I just want to run away with my kids and start over...
    MyLifeIsNow MyLifeIsNow 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I used to cut myself. It started when I was in 7th grade (I'm 18 now and just recently graduated), and continued up until a few months ago. I'm not proud of it but I like to share...
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I have a friend, she switches from friend to friend constantly. Whenever she loses friendship with this one girl, she begins being friends with me. And then again. The one girl she...
    BloodProjectile1 BloodProjectile1 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    When I was still in primary school i used to wet the bed and my knickers mainly. I had week muscles or something. Mum or dad used to punish me for it. Why dont parents know it...
    JennyMason2 JennyMason2 13-15, F Jul 12

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    Well it's true. I used to be skinny but I got injured in baseball and then I stopped working out daily like I used to. Eventually I gained some weight, I only put on a few pounds...
    Johnnysicks Johnnysicks 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    I used to be very passionate and emotional. Some days would be full of pure elation and joy and I would marvel at small things, like the sound of wind through the trees or the feel...
    TeamFreeWill TeamFreeWill 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I was the tattle tale when I was younger. "Little Miss Perfect" and "Miss Goody Two Shoes" were a few of my nicknames within my family (all in good fun, of course). Now I am going...
    HappyHart5 HappyHart5 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I'm definitely not the person I used to be. I was married for 20 years. I thought I was happy, and I really did love raising my kids. They are 18 and 21 now, and they are awesome...
    lovesandybeaches lovesandybeaches 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    I used to be happy and enthusiastic all the time, but now I'm sad and angry all the time. My friend asks me what happened and I told him I don't know
    awsomedude13 awsomedude13 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    My siblings have always used me. I was sexually abused when I was younger and that was the only time they would want to be around me. They still try to abuse me but I left home...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Top pic me now, bottom is me in 2007I used to be really skinny. This was me in spring of 2007. I'm 5'2" and probably weighed about 105 lbs here. I wore a size 0 and was a 34b. I...
    Env06 Env06 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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