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I Used To Be Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 240 People

    It's Creeping Back

    When I was 16 - 20 I was anorexic/bulimic. It started in high school with just overall weight obsession and diet pills. After high school I became severely depressed and the obsession grew. I started a "food" journal (which barely had any food listed) and started taking...
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    1 Response Oct 9, 2012
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant
    18-21, F
    Mar 18, 2015

    It happened in the middle of sixth grade.

    I was seriously overweight and was teased all the time but it never really bothered me until I started getting....jealous. I did everything I could to stop eating and there was even one day when I only had about 9 or 7 little sips of water. I disconnected from my friends. A lot...
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    Sep 22, 2015

    I developed anorexia

    when I was 14 and continued to lose weight for over a year. I've had a healthy body weight since I was 15 and Im now 17. However I suffer from depression and have done for over three years, one of the primary physical symptoms of depression is weight loss. Over the past 6 weeks...
    DreamsOfDrowning DreamsOfDrowning
    18-21, F
    Feb 24, 2015

    half the world is starving,

    the other half is trying to loss weight
    Differentisgood Differentisgood
    18-21, F
    Jun 26, 2014

    I've fallen back into my anorexic mind set

    after I started to realize my body wasn't gaining wait.
    rosebudkitten rosebudkitten
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 16, 2015

    I Have to See My Mom On Monday

    My mom IS my ED... I feel bad saying that! I have to see her Monday, and I know she will dissapprove of my healthy weight.  She's been bulimic since I can remember... I lack the gag reflex dispite her attempts to train me. I avoid going home, just to get away from that...
    TheOtherMe TheOtherMe
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2008

    Not My Body...but It Is.

    Sometimes I look into the mirror and think I am still fat and unattractive. I am healthy and have been for six years. But sometimes I miss my old body. I miss being skinny. I was sick during this time, mentally and phsically, but from the outside I looked perfect. This is such a...
    Linszw5v Linszw5v
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2007

    Anorexic Memories...

    I was nine years old when it started. Now, ten years later, I can finally say it's behind me. Ana not only took ten years of my life due to 21 hospitalizations, 4 tube feedings, among other things, but she also took my family and made them think I was worthless, took my health...
    AnorexicMemories AnorexicMemories
    18-21, F
    Nov 19, 2009

    I'm not going into details

    because someone asked me to pose this and it's a super long backstory and I don't think most people want to read an essay. However, I made awful choices and had low self-esteem issues. I tricked others into believing I was actually not hungry even though I was starving and felt...
    mckenziexoxo mckenziexoxo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2015

    I use to hate my body.

    But now I'm learning to love it, I'm learning that no one is perfect. I've learned that I am beautiful and so is the person next to me. I sometimes freak and panic over my weight and size, but I am still learning how to control my emotions. I am at a perfectly normal size. I'm...
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    Jul 9, 2015

    Attention All Anorexics

    Dear all anorexics, I understand what you're going through. Life is hard, we all struggle. I was anorexic for 2 years, but i recovered a little over 3 months ago. You need to hear this, so please, don't just brush off everything i say or ignore the fact that you read this...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2013

    boys: i don't understand

    why girls are so obsessive about their weight. boys: ew shes fat
    Differentisgood Differentisgood
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2014

    When I was like 5 years old I was.

    I never ate anything and was terribly skinny. It wasn't my fault tho, it was because of my tonsils. They were too big to the point where I couldn't swallow. But now that I got them removed I've gainef a lot of weight and now since I've been bullied and hate my body; I want to be...
    osnapitzama osnapitzama
    18-21, F
    Jun 12, 2014

    My Dad's Affair Made Me Anorexic

    Standing topless in a dressing room, trying on yet another size 6 that inevitably would be far too big and baggy for my tiny body, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. My ribs were easily visible through my skin and I was dangerously thin. Two months previous to this I...
    LittleMissFaustus LittleMissFaustus
    1 Response Nov 9, 2010

    *sigh* I don't know if it's

    because I've been down in the dumps lately or stubbornness. But I don't want to eat anymore, I'm trying to be happy with my body but it's hard... not eating makes me feel better
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    Jul 28, 2015
    Differentisgood Differentisgood
    18-21, F
    Jul 11, 2014

    Freshman Fifteen

    For those of you who don't know "Freshman Fifteen" is the expression used to describe the average amount of weight a college freshman gains: between stress, unhealthy eating, and lack of exercise. I gained that freshman fifteen (well, fourteen), and because of it, I now weigh a...
    wannabewriter42614 wannabewriter42614
    22-25, F
    Jun 13, 2013

    The Circus Mirror

     I used to tell myself, it's just this outfit. THEN I would proceed to try on every thing in my closet. look in every mirror. To me noothing looked good. Half the time I looked at myself I wanted to throwup. Jump on the cardio machine. Everywhere I lookedmy fingers, My...
    PorcelainDoll PorcelainDoll
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 9, 2008

    I was pretty normal as a kid,

    I really didn't care about my weight. But when I reached 10 years old, it had began to get out of control. I had done gymnastics, and I was 10 5'2" and weighed 145 pounds. Everyone thought I was so skinny, but hiding behind the uniform hid so many feelings. I fit in with...
    MickaelaLovesZachLin MickaelaLovesZachLin
    18-21, F
    Aug 8, 2014

    I Was All My Life, Untill the ...

    I was all my life, untill the last few years...but i still always think im fat
    furiousangel furiousangel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2007

    some days I feel so confident

    and wonder why I ever had a problem, and other days, it's so tempting to fall back into it.. today is one of those other days.. I don't have much will to eat today. words of encouragement please?
    darkinferno darkinferno
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2015

    150 To 85 To 140

    My sophomore year of highschool I began working out to get in real good shape for softball. I began to lose weight. I had weighed around 150 before I began working out and quickly lost weight. I got around 120 when people started with the compliments. I then got to 115 pounds and...
    brigal25 brigal25
    18-21, F
    Dec 25, 2010

    My Ana tendencies started in 5th grade.

    I happened to read this book series called california diaries I think, and this girl in them named Maggie had an eating disorder. Her parents fought a lot, and I felt for her character. My own parents were less than parents, fighting, drinking, doing drugs, and I began to skip...
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    Jan 8, 2015

    I was really depressed,

    and suddenly stopped eating. I ate only 600 calories or less. I lost more then 40 pounds in about 3 months. Nobody saw the change. Nobody cared. Not even my own mother. On my own, I started eating more. :)
    jennamarie210 jennamarie210
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2013

    I Used to Be Anorexic

    Okay...First I'll say that I do not encourage anybody to "go anorexic" I was a freshmen in high school and I was lost and I thought that if I got a bf I would be happy. Well I dated this guy and he was jerk so we broke up. Then a few weeks later I started talking to...
    missthang308 missthang308
    1 Response Jun 12, 2009

    Diagnosed With Anorexia

    2 years ago i was diagnosed with anorexia, after finally relenting and going to the doctor.  I was extremely underweight, my health was at fatal point, and my immune system was starting to reject everything, yet i still saw a fat me, everytime i looked in the mirror. ...
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    5 Responses May 23, 2008

    I Still Have A Lot Of Disordered Thought

    For me, I had a mother who was bulimic when she was younger and throughout my childhood I always remember her being unhappy with her weight and trying to lose weight. She still is now. I started developing at age eight and was larger and taller than other children, so as young as...
    Susannahjade Susannahjade
    26-30, F
    May 4, 2013

    I USED to be anorexic.

    But lately I haven't been eating much and I've been working out until I throw up.. I thought I was done with this ****.. I'm so sorry I came back.
    makaiajane makaiajane
    18-21, F
    Jun 12, 2014


    I was the weird quiet kid in school. I never had a lot of friends and people made fun of me a lot. When I was 16 I became a model and suddenly I was more accepted. There's a lot of stress to be thin, and instead of just being healthy I stopped eating all together. I lived in the...
    mollydoesntmind mollydoesntmind
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2013

    Still Emotionally Anorexic

    While in undergrad I was very interested in becoming a psychologist of abuse... food, physical, emotional, drug, etc. The sad thing was that I was in a relationship that was emotionally abusive, became physically abusive and with what he would say I became Anorexic to please him...
    GoddessNakiBean GoddessNakiBean
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2008

    I was anorexic on & off

    for years, and I think the anorexia is coming back. I refuse to eat unless someone forces me to & then I cry afterwards. I also have been obsessively weighing myself to the point where my sister had to hide the scale from me. I'm really scared that I don't have the strength to...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 11, 2015

    But You'd Never Know It Now

    I look back on the craziest time of my life, including a hospitalization and poor physical condition and wish I could be that thin again.
    summertime summertime
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Dec 13, 2006

    I Used To Be Anorexic.

    it started when i was 13. looks and my body shape was all i really cared about and one day i got called 'a fat pig' i know it sounds pathetic right? but i was young. i looked in the mirror and i can just remeber thinking god i am fat! and thats when it started really. i would...
    radicalgirl radicalgirl
    1 Response May 20, 2012

    95 Lbs...down to 80 Lbs

    I was 95 for about 5 years.  I went up to it in pre-puberty for that pre-puberty weight, then I just stayed that weight forever.   I 8th grade I was TERRIFIED to go over 100 Llbs.  I thought that was fat.  I was also approached by modeling agencies to start...
    BlackbirdAlly BlackbirdAlly
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2008

    Not Doing That Well Right Now

    I'm working through a workbook for people with eating disorders NOS because I can't afford therapy, and I realized that off the top of my head, I can think of 64 negative thoughts about body, weight, and eating I have regularly. Even if I don't carry them all out all the time...
    Susannahjade Susannahjade
    26-30, F
    May 18, 2013

    I honestly HATE people

    who say I know nothing about anorexia, because I do. I had it, and to this day my parents didn't even know, I went through that torture ALL by myself! Nobody was there with me. Not even a friend, I understand what it's like, it's not a diet, it's a disease, and people think that...
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    4 Responses Jan 2, 2015

    Sculpting Me

    When I was in 8th grade, I started spending time with a new group of girls.  They were beautiful and fun, and we all were in the same dance school.  We went shopping together a lot and had sleepovers frequently where we would tell each other secrets and gossip.  ...
    irishmusicqueen7 irishmusicqueen7
    Sep 26, 2010

    Not Anorexic Just Have Anorexic Traits

      my husband used to  come home from work telling me  that different girls hit on him and  blah blah blah ( he worked in a gym ) so i felt as if i wasnt  good enough for him because i didnt go to the gym we had barely anything in common  and...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2007

    Anorexia... the illness of a person

    who eats but barely, no matter how thin they are, they still want to get thinner. It can be an addiction. I was anorexic, at the time I wanted to be like the other girls. I wanted to be thinner, to be perfect. If I kept trying enough then maybe they would ignore the sadness and...
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    Feb 21, 2015

    You Can Make A Difference

    Hi my name is , Briana Lee. I’m a sophomore in college I am 19. I am doing a school Project on Anorexia. AND I NEED YOUR HELP. I am creating a Public Heath Message. This Project is supposed to help girls and women just like you see the struggles Anorexic Women go through. I...
    babiibrii babiibrii
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2012

    I really used to be stupid,

    I was that typical, 11 year old girl who thought I was fat, the typical "I want a pro Ana buddy" I got a pro Ana buddy, me and her messaged everyday, we scolded each other if we said we had eaten much. Our everyday meal was a little bit of cottage cheese, fruit, and water...
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    1 Response Jun 5, 2015

    When I met Ana, like a breath of fresh air,

    She blew into my life to chase away the nightmare, she was my only friend when I swore I had none, She tried to take my pain, but i still felt so alone. she dragged me along, promised better days. Kept me under blinds, so in the dark I stayed. Ana was a selfish friend who...
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    1 Response Dec 29, 2014

    When I met Ana, Like a breath of fresh air,

    She blew into my life to chase away the nightmare, she was my only friend when I swore I had none, She tried to take my pain, but i still felt so alone. She dragged me along, Promised better days, But kept me under blinds, So in the dark I stayed Ana was a selfish friend who...
    rainbowmuffins rainbowmuffins
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2014
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