I Used to Be

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 99 People

    Open

     A lot more open and a little less troubled by the world outside.
    luka309 luka309
    46-50, M
    Feb 6, 2009

    Sure

    I used to be so sure about things. I thought I had the greatest friends and everything was going my way. I did well in school and performed in athletics. Most people liked me. I was sure that that was happiness and all I would ever need. But then things changed. My boyfriend...
    turbur turbur
    18-21, F
    Aug 1, 2013

    An easy catch. Taken

    for granted. Pushed around - not anymore. My intuition is so much stronger that I can already tell who my friends are, and who's not. I can easily recognize real from fake. I'm not perfect, but I'm well on my way to becoming a better person.
    DiamondPrincess89 DiamondPrincess89
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

    Straight

    Well, I guess I was never really straight, but I used to date men.  Hell, I slept with them and had lots of pretty wild and satisfying sex, too.  But I was never really happy.  I see now that I was trying to convince the world, and mostly myself, that I was...
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Apr 8, 2009

    Those Were The Days.

    I used to be a super hero ballerina. =(I could fling my tu tu at bad guys and sever their heads.Those were the days.
    Punk1n Punk1n
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2011

    Mean

    and hatefulbut then Jesus healed my heart and filled me up with so much love that it just spills out to everyone else around me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :Dso no more am i hateful and bitter towards ppl who abused me and stuff bcuz God is love and he's inside of me so i can't...
    ursomeoneworthdying4 ursomeoneworthdying4
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2011

    Whole. I used to be whole.

    It was something like a cup filled up to the brim, and running over with life and things of good. Yea, I used to be a full cup, a quilt strong enough to fight off the polar ice caps, a radiance of warmth. Now I'm holding on for dear life to my loose and tattered strings...
    SleepyHead2123 SleepyHead2123
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 1, 2014

    Depressed

    And now I'm not. Somehow one day I just woke up and it was like a cloud lifted and I could finally see my feelings. Like all that time they were buried or cast away with a spell of some sort. And I could feel again. Anything, everything but pain, which was my reality for more...
    elenaki elenaki
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2013

    Unsure

    I used to be sure of what I had to do. I had this role and it was hard sometimes but at least I knew what to do and who I was in some sense. Now I don't know, and I'm struggling to be that sure and happy.
    thatsamo thatsamo
    18-21, F
    Oct 5, 2013

    I have thousands of people underneath my skin,

    How did they get there? Where to begin, I suppose as a child, a long time ago, I was told I was different, I knew it was so, I had SO much energy, and my mind would race, I could reason with clarity, I could think with grace, I asked so many questions, I always asked why, I...
    AeonClock AeonClock
    26-30, M
    1 Response May 30, 2014

    Happy

    I used to be happy. I used to care, I used to smile. I had faith, I had hope.Now all of my hope is gone. I no longer smile. I see the world in a different light. Infact, I see the world in all of it's darkness and tragedy.For me, there is no light. Rarely do I appreciate warmth...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2012

    Happy

    Feb 19, '12 was the last day I remember being truly happy........I don't remember what that feels like anymore. Some days I feel sad, maybe a twinge of anger when certain things come to mind.....but most days I just feel nothing. Recently my nightly panic attacks & anxiety...
    hadyourchance hadyourchance
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Apr 26, 2013

    Confused

    I never understood where all my emotions and feelings came from, until somebody turned on the light. After that I became a completely different person. I love the new me :)
    Quibbler Quibbler
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 5, 2013

    Happy

    I don't know why I've changed,now all I want to be,is at peace.
    Xavieran Xavieran
    18-21
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

    Many Things

    I used to be outgoing, but now I'm a mouse. I used to consider myself beautiful, but now when I look in the mirror all I see is ugly. I used to feel safe, but now I live in fear. I used to be happy, but now I feel sad. I used to be trusting, but now I trust no one. I used to be...
    Katryan Katryan
    22-25, F
    Mar 11, 2013

    Confident

    I used to be confident. I used to feel good about myself, and when flashes of this past come back to me, it always surprises me. I always think about what has changed the person I was. One of my many memories includes a friend I once had. We were always stuck to the hip. We...
    CreamPanda CreamPanda
    16-17, T
    Jun 8, 2013

    My name is patrick stella,

    I have been through hell and pain,looking for a good and real spell caster who can help me get my husband back.I have been scammed so many times,by some who claimed to be real spell casters.until i found the real and great spell caster (DR.cuba) who helped me,and solved all my...
    spellcasterejoe spellcasterejoe
    22-25
    Feb 24, 2014

    Friendly

    I used to be friendly. I had a lot of friends. But now I've lost it all. I was depressed and I pushed them away from myself. And now I regret it. All of them away from me now and I miss them a lot. Different cities and I'm no longer seeing any of them. Now I understand the...
    HoneySakura HoneySakura
    18-21, F
    Oct 3, 2013

    A Mouse...........

    Quiet, Introverted, Shy, & Above All Else............Agreeable. I just assumed that was what made me a good girl. It was what kept people loving me & it would keep people from leaving me or hating me or learning the dark truth about me............That I was truly a bad...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 8, 2009

    My List.

    a child innocent a virgin fearless a criminal idealistic a soldier optimistic a student in shape a musician idealistic a dreamer
    CopperCoil CopperCoil
    36-40, M
    Apr 20, 2011

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