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I Used to Be

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    Mean

    and hatefulbut then Jesus healed my heart and filled me up with so much love that it just spills out to everyone else around me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :Dso no more am i hateful and bitter towards ppl who abused me and stuff bcuz God is love and he's inside of me so i can't...
    ursomeoneworthdying4 ursomeoneworthdying4 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    Those Were The Days.

    I used to be a super hero ballerina. =(I could fling my tu tu at bad guys and sever their heads.Those were the days.
    Punk1n Punk1n 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2011

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    Confident

    I used to be confident. I used to feel good about myself, and when flashes of this past come back to me, it always surprises me. I always think about what has changed the person I was. One of my many memories includes a friend I once had. We were always stuck to the hip. We...
    CreamPanda CreamPanda 16-17, T Jun 8, 2013

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    Unsure

    I used to be sure of what I had to do. I had this role and it was hard sometimes but at least I knew what to do and who I was in some sense. Now I don't know, and I'm struggling to be that sure and happy.
    thatsamo thatsamo 18-21, F Oct 5, 2013

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    Straight

    Well, I guess I was never really straight, but I used to date men.  Hell, I slept with them and had lots of pretty wild and satisfying sex, too.  But I was never really happy.  I see now that I was trying to convince the world, and mostly myself, that I was...
    SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl 26-30, F 7 Responses Apr 8, 2009

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    Friendly

    I used to be friendly. I had a lot of friends. But now I've lost it all. I was depressed and I pushed them away from myself. And now I regret it. All of them away from me now and I miss them a lot. Different cities and I'm no longer seeing any of them. Now I understand the...
    HoneySakura HoneySakura 18-21, F Oct 3, 2013

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    Whole. I used to be whole.

    It was something like a cup filled up to the brim, and running over with life and things of good. Yea, I used to be a full cup, a quilt strong enough to fight off the polar ice caps, a radiance of warmth. Now I'm holding on for dear life to my loose and tattered strings...
    SleepyHead2123 SleepyHead2123 18-21 1 Response Feb 1, 2014

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    A Mouse...........

    Quiet, Introverted, Shy, & Above All Else............Agreeable. I just assumed that was what made me a good girl. It was what kept people loving me & it would keep people from leaving me or hating me or learning the dark truth about me............That I was truly a bad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 8, 2009

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    Many Things

    I used to be outgoing, but now I'm a mouse. I used to consider myself beautiful, but now when I look in the mirror all I see is ugly. I used to feel safe, but now I live in fear. I used to be happy, but now I feel sad. I used to be trusting, but now I trust no one. I used to be...
    Katryan Katryan 18-21, F Mar 11, 2013

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    An easy catch. Taken

    for granted. Pushed around - not anymore. My intuition is so much stronger that I can already tell who my friends are, and who's not. I can easily recognize real from fake. I'm not perfect, but I'm well on my way to becoming a better person.
    DiamondPrincess89 DiamondPrincess89 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Confused

    I never understood where all my emotions and feelings came from, until somebody turned on the light. After that I became a completely different person. I love the new me :)
    Quibbler Quibbler 18-21, F 1 Response May 5, 2013

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    I have thousands of people underneath my skin,

    How did they get there? Where to begin, I suppose as a child, a long time ago, I was told I was different, I knew it was so, I had SO much energy, and my mind would race, I could reason with clarity, I could think with grace, I asked so many questions, I always asked why, I...
    AeonClock AeonClock 26-30, M 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    My name is patrick stella,

    I have been through hell and pain,looking for a good and real spell caster who can help me get my husband back.I have been scammed so many times,by some who claimed to be real spell casters.until i found the real and great spell caster (DR.cuba) who helped me,and solved all my...
    spellcasterejoe spellcasterejoe 22-25 Feb 24, 2014

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    Open

     A lot more open and a little less troubled by the world outside.
    luka309 luka309 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 6, 2009

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    I Use To Be..

    i use to be proud .. Now , its all gone.
    Nesju16 Nesju16 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    My List.

    a child innocent a virgin fearless a criminal idealistic a soldier optimistic a student in shape a musician idealistic a dreamer
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M Apr 20, 2011

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    Depressed

    And now I'm not. Somehow one day I just woke up and it was like a cloud lifted and I could finally see my feelings. Like all that time they were buried or cast away with a spell of some sort. And I could feel again. Anything, everything but pain, which was my reality for more...
    elenaki elenaki 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 28, 2013

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    Happy

    Feb 19, '12 was the last day I remember being truly happy........I don't remember what that feels like anymore. Some days I feel sad, maybe a twinge of anger when certain things come to mind.....but most days I just feel nothing. Recently my nightly panic attacks & anxiety...
    hadyourchance hadyourchance 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 26, 2013

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    Happy

    I don't know why I've changed,now all I want to be,is at peace.
    Xavieran Xavieran 18-21 2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Sure

    I used to be so sure about things. I thought I had the greatest friends and everything was going my way. I did well in school and performed in athletics. Most people liked me. I was sure that that was happiness and all I would ever need. But then things changed. My boyfriend...
    turbur turbur 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2013

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    Happy

    I used to be happy. I used to care, I used to smile. I had faith, I had hope.Now all of my hope is gone. I no longer smile. I see the world in a different light. Infact, I see the world in all of it's darkness and tragedy.For me, there is no light. Rarely do I appreciate warmth...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 25, 2012

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    A guy I recently met decided we should hangout, he seemed really cool and so I agreed, considering he only lives right down the road, and I had nothing else to do. We are actually...
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    I used to take cocaine. and if I'm honest I miss it. but my current partner is absolutely against it. relationship breaking against it. I'm wondering is it all worth it. It's not...
    amberlise amberlise 22-25, F Feb 10

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    **** it. Pretending to be happy is much more easy than trying to get better... So that's what I'm gonna do. Shut my damn mouth and pretend that everything is fine and dandy. Just...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    Anomaly228 Anomaly228 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Used Pullups For Bedwetting
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 19

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    I don't even in the saying "people can change".... Once you become a rapist your always going to be a rapist. Once you start beating on women, your always going to be beat up on...
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    RyanWilliams704 RyanWilliams704 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    i used to sing all the time and i had a really good singing voice i even preformed a few times. it was pretty cool. i'm a Disney person so the songs that i would sing would have...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 3 days ago

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