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I Used to Cut

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    distractedcharms distractedcharms 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    These Are My Scars

    I used to cut. Am I proud of it? No. But do I hate myself for it? Absolutely not. I have 3 pretty noticeable horizontal scars running parallel to each other on my left arm. They're there, and they will be there every day from now on, but they don't hold me back from anything...
    ojhstudent ojhstudent 18-21 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    My friend wanted to start cutting.

    She actually asked me which razor I thought was best. Luckily I stopped her! But I don't think I will stop her forever. Any advice?
    Autumn02 Autumn02 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    This past year has been the most difficult year

    of my life. And it all came from problems that weren't even mine. I fell in love with a girl whom had major problems. She has depression and was sexually abused by her own father. I got dragged into all her issues and became depressed for some time. I had mixed feelings about...
    mytroubledboo mytroubledboo 18-21, M May 25, 2014

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    I want to cut so bad.

    I've got a lot of anger pent up. I want to cut to release some of the tension. I love the pain. I haven't cut in years, but it's getting bad; I want to have some control over something.
    DramaBabe94 DramaBabe94 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I've been clean for almost a week now.

    ...but today in school a guy that sits right next to me accidentally cut himself during class...and honestly after seeing that blood I want to cut again...I spent the rest of the classes today just playing with this razor blade...staring at it and touching my skin with it...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 13

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    For almost 20 years. Recently stopped.

    It's a constant struggle but I'm staying strong :)
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

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    I had been cutting myself

    since highschool, the las time I did it was like a year ago, I am now in my fourth year of university. I remember it being so hard to cover up the scars, I used to wear long sleeves all the time in the super hot weather, and my friends being like, "aren't you toasting?" and I...
    Margarott Margarott 18-21, F Apr 22

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    for the longest time,

    i tried and wanted to be bulimic and/or anorexic. I don't know why i wanted it, but I did. It doesn't make me messed up, but it does make me horribly confused on my priorities. I don't wish to be anymore, but I do wish to be more motivated to get out there and exercise. I used...
    eddyskittles eddyskittles 18-21, F May 24, 2014

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    Before I cut I would get this pain in the

    middle of my chest. In the time I was cutting I had no pain in my chest. I'm almost 2months clean now but I'm having that pain in my chest again...
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    Yes....as a teenager/twenty-something I used to

    cut. It was a long time ago and the urge has loooong passed.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2014

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    BloodRunsSlow BloodRunsSlow 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    Guess who hasnt cut herself in a long time?

    ??? This girl :)))) its been a few months :o Weed is my new therapy. Don't know if thats good or bad. O well XD
    Slowlydying16 Slowlydying16 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 16

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    yes i used to cut. when i think back i don't

    even know why. i stopped awhile ago. at first i was so embarrassed of my scars. but now it's like it's something i can't change, it's over with, a part of me.
    trashspice trashspice 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I used to cut a lot but I went to treatment

    for over a year. Now I am 18 months clean from cutting. I'm proud but I still miss it sometimes.
    jessy2341 jessy2341 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It's been 2 1/2 months

    but every time I think about it, my scars will hurt. Does this happen to others? Why does it happen?
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2014

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    I'm getting so close to turning again,

    I can feel it. I feel like anything could push me over the line right now, I don't wanna cut again; I don't want to go back to that dark place. That dark place where none but few can reach you, and this time there's no one to pull me out. I'm not looking for sympathy from...
    randomboy42 randomboy42 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I Hate To Admit...

    Almost 2 years ago i used to cut.. i still wear some of the scars, almost like a faded memory of my past. I wasn't trying to get attention at all... i used to hide it by wearing a jacket all the time... but nobody knew the story behind it. I hate people that judge they only know...
    MaxWilleatyourbrains MaxWilleatyourbrains 16-17, F 4 Responses May 19, 2012

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    I've been clean for 6 months

    and somehow, my bf thought that we should have a celebration of some sorts and I'm just like "What?" I mean come on, it's no big deal and he's being super cheesy.... :p
    johannesc4 johannesc4 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 22

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    It's officially been 2 clean months

    for me💕 For anyone struggling with cutting you are always welcome to talk to me💕 keep fighting loves😘
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    No i have never done this

    and i won't do it :) iam writting this is because guys please try n understand that self harming and hurting yourself won't releif the pressure of tension and things you worry about try and sort things rather than cutting yourself and self harming :) stay strong guys and girls...
    ronnyCool ronnyCool 18-21, M May 21, 2014

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    I used to cut because on the inside I felt

    apathetic and I felt numb to everything. I thought that cutting would make it better, and for a time it did. But I have gradually stopped and I am glad to say in the past 2 months I have not cut.
    GrumpyNumnums GrumpyNumnums 18-21, F Nov 2, 2014

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    I'm a swimmer. so it was really hard to find

    areas to cut that would not be visible. i used to cut my fingers and my wrists. i would cover them with bracelets. one day when i was cutting and crying, i asked my self why i was doing this? And truthfully i could not answer that question. I believed i was doing it cause of the...
    punkpanda3 punkpanda3 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 23, 2014

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    There are times, like right now,

    where I'd give anything to cut. When my anxiety is so bad. And I can't shake the feeling that everyone hates me and I'm a worthless piece of sh!t. I'd love just one cut. Slow and deep with a serrated blade, like old times. And then cut until I just disappear. Until I stop...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    It Just Took One Cut.....

    One cut is all that it took, and I was hooked. I was 11 when I first began to cut. I remember it like it was yesterday.... I have went through so much pain in the past that I guess cutting seem to make all my problems go away. I remember I came home from a rough day at school...
    Ice95 Ice95 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    I Can Finally Say Used To!! :d

    I can finally say USED TO!!! I used to cut. Period. I USED TO! I am so proud to say that it isn't even funny! :D So yes I used to cut. I cut for 2 years. And I finally got up the feeling to stop completely 2 months ago. I'm finally done! I do a special kind of therapy that my...
    xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    I did it to deal with my clinical depression

    and anxiety. Although it is still tempting sometimes, I'm proud to say I'm going on 3 months clean :)
    VicLucyCole VicLucyCole 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 12, 2014

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    hii, my name is eirin,

    i have cut my self around 200times, and i have quit now
    eirin01 eirin01 22-25, M Apr 11

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    A couple years ago, I was bullied.

    And Im not talking about the douchebag jocks who just **** with you a bit. No, these guys did some stuff to me that scarred me... both mentally and physically. I tried cutting first on my left arm, just to see if it really did help. I saw it helping, and moved to my hips so...
    AssylaAidyl AssylaAidyl 18-21, F Apr 20

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    Hold On To What You Have- Its Long But It Has A Point

    First there was the boy I'd had a crush on for nearly a year. That lasted four weeks before I broke up with him because we were both too young to know how to be in a relationship (young 14). Then there was the second guy, who'd fancied me for almost a year and a half, who I...
    LonelyFirefly LonelyFirefly 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Today is a real achievement

    for me. Today marks a year since I last cut myself. I've been clean for a whole year and I'm incredibly proud of myself. I've been tempted so many times. Within this year I've been through some difficult times and wanted to cut but I refused to let myself do it. I also binned my...
    CeBeY1 CeBeY1 18-21, F May 15

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    I used to cut, I really still don't know

    why I did it, I feel so stupid... But cutting myself has show me to be stronger, more confident and more mature. Yeha maybe you will think that I have just wasted my childhood, but now I know how f*cked up the world is, so cutting myself was a stupid thing to do but I will never...
    HikikomoryAndy HikikomoryAndy 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'M Finally Ok With People Seeing My Self Injury Scars

    I work at a health clinic as a clinic assistant. While I was getting ready to draw a patient's blood, she said, "I have the same scars that you have on your arm." I stupidly hold out my arm, the only one that has visible scars on it, and look at it like I've never looked at it...
    jenbuff jenbuff 22-25, F 1 Response May 19, 2013

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    It started when I was 15,

    after I was raped. Carried on throughout high school, throughout college. I actually lost track of the last time I cut, but I know if I keep it up for the next 5 months, I'll have made it to a year. A year without cutting after cutting for 8 years straight. Omg, I hope I can...
    n0nexisting n0nexisting 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    Almost 4 months clean.

    I'm proud and I know I won't go back ever again! Not this time.. After a full year I got the strength to stop.
    hhannahhbabe hhannahhbabe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Because of Him....

    Well, when I graduated the 8th grade I started to date a guy from my class who I really liked. We dated until our Junior year of high school and he was very controling and when ever he hurt me I found a place where no one could disturb me and I would find anything sharp and just...
    Mouse Mouse 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 23, 2006

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    And if I bleed, I'll bleed.

    Knowing you don't care.
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2014

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    It's been about three months

    since I last cut.. And the dark circle in the middle is when I accidentally burnt myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I know it might be hard to blieve

    that I would ever do that for myself. Everyone sees me as the awalyse happy one or the up beat type. But I hide all my feeling behind a fake smile. I say im fine when its not awalyse true. I say im all good and just act like I brush the feelings off my sholder. When I am...
    Kiki145 Kiki145 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    So I feel like I am foolish,

    because when I first cut into my skin it was out rage after what my little brother said, about my Keratosis Pilaris which is a skin condition that causes goose bumps that remain on skin till the age of 30. It was a foolish thing to cut over but after the first time I cut when...
    Porcelian Porcelian 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2014

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    So the topic says it all.

    I'm thinking of starting again because my life was recently uprooted and now all the people I love are thousands of miles away from me... Because my parents have split up and she thought it would be a great idea to move close to her boyfriend... I miss everyone so much already...
    racingpride8 racingpride8 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2014

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    I used to cut just over a year ago

    but then I injured myself really badly. I now walk with a permanent limp because I cut too deep and tore a muscle and they couldn't fix it. If you've ever watched "House" then you probably can understand how I walk.
    PanicAtTheBlink PanicAtTheBlink 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    I'm officially one year clean today

    and couldn't be happier :) I do still get urges to cut but I call a friend to distract me which helps a lot c:
    aurorad19 aurorad19 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    I'm throwing my blades

    and glass away today
    yeahohwell yeahohwell 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 12, 2014

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    I've been almost two years clean

    and still going strong <3
    walkedloyal walkedloyal 13-15, F Feb 1

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