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I Used to Cut

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    When people ask about it I say I stopped around

    high school but honestly I've only really stopped about a year ago. Also, It's easier to lie about scars and cuts when you have a cat.
    TinkerTuner TinkerTuner 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 3

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    NO MORE FOR ME!!!!!!!

    MINE SO HAPPY NOW!!!!!;)
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I've lived with depression

    since I was 9 years old, I grew up thinking it was the ultimate norm and everyone was just expected to keep it under wraps. I didn't start with cutting, at first I just poked and scratched myself with needles, then I started to punch walls so hard I broke my hands a couple of...
    missjae93 missjae93 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    Self Injury

    I started when i was in high school at the time i didnt really know why i was doing it.  By the time i was in my senior i had stopped.  Then when i was a junior in college i was sexually assulted.  After that i started cutting again and often.   Whenever...
    clancyfan clancyfan 21-25, F 4 Responses Oct 23, 2006

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    Here's To That...

    For many years I hid from my family and friends that I was a cutter. Most of you already know the many trials I endured as a child. (If not feel free to go ready my stories on rape, abuse, etc....) There is something about physical pain that for a moment erases the mental agonies...
    Blackbarbie1987 Blackbarbie1987 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 23, 2013

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    Sometimes i feel like I'm never going to be

    completely better. I was better but then I just get an overwhelming urge to release my pain with cutting. I have lasted okay haven't relapse yet. But I am worried. That my anxieties are going to get the best of me and the only way to let them out is to make scars on myself...
    anonomous435 anonomous435 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    I was 13 years old when I started to cut myself

    and now I'm 21 years old I still think about it
    unhappygirl21 unhappygirl21 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I'm a swimmer. so it was really hard to find

    areas to cut that would not be visible. i used to cut my fingers and my wrists. i would cover them with bracelets. one day when i was cutting and crying, i asked my self why i was doing this? And truthfully i could not answer that question. I believed i was doing it cause of the...
    punkpanda3 punkpanda3 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    For those who have self harmed

    and stopped, I just wanna say I'm so proud of you, you guys make me stronger when I'm just about ready to relapse and cut or kill myself, your confidence and urge is the reason why I've stopped for good. Sorry if it seems like I'm trying to get attention. (I'm not I promise) I'm...
    Appleslices69 Appleslices69 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 6

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    It Just Took One Cut.....

    One cut is all that it took, and I was hooked. I wasย 11ย when I first began to cut. I remember it like it was yesterday.... I have went through so muchย pain in the past that I guess cutting seem to make all my problems go away. I remember I came home from a rough day at school...
    Ice95 Ice95 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2013

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    For almost 20 years. Recently stopped.

    It's a constant struggle but I'm staying strong :)
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I stopped 34 days ago.

    I write in Arabic on my arm as a reminder to not do it. But lately all I can think of is my friend who left me. All I can think of is the rape. And all I can do is cry without really someone there to support me. I resorted to cutting when I had no one. Know I have no one again...
    champdetrefle champdetrefle 16-17, F 1 Response May 10

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    No i have never done this

    and i won't do it :) iam writting this is because guys please try n understand that self harming and hurting yourself won't releif the pressure of tension and things you worry about try and sort things rather than cutting yourself and self harming :) stay strong guys and girls...
    ronnyCool ronnyCool 18-21, M May 21

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    I Can Finally Say Used To!! :d

    I can finally say USED TO!!! I used to cut. Period. I USED TO! I am so proud to say that it isn't even funny! :D So yes I used to cut. I cut for 2 years. And I finally got up the feeling to stop completely 2 months ago. I'm finally done! I do a special kind of therapy that my...
    xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    I'm not allowed to have a xacto knife.

    If I have one I will use it on myself. Since that would not be a socially acceptable way of release... I am not allowed to have a xacto knife.
    WholesomeGirl WholesomeGirl 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I used to cut myself all the time

    when I was in my teens and early twenties. I am now middle aged (40ish) and I still at times will push a razor blade into the skin of my arms. It sucks to feel so bad inside that the only way to make it better is to feel pain on the outside.
    desiree2877 desiree2877 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    Urges!!! It helped my with anxiety

    but it made me loose my friends and my 2 best friends in this world so I'm alone now
    fashionanxiety fashionanxiety 16-17, F Jun 27

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    I don't cut anymore, because,

    1. it didn't work very well 2. I got caught I used to cut my legs because I was being stalked by a boy who had the full intent of raping me. This is also the same boy who forced me to send him *********** on death threats. my parents believed the story that he was going to...
    SystemShutdown SystemShutdown 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Because of Him....

    Well, when I graduated the 8th grade I started to date a guy from my class who I really liked. We dated until our Junior year of high school and he was very controling and when ever he hurt me I found a place where no one could disturb me and I would find anything sharp and just...
    Mouse Mouse 19-21, F 4 Responses Oct 23, 2006

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    It's been 1 month that I didn't cut

    and right now what's on my mind is "should I cut again? Or nah" ๐Ÿ˜” my depression is killing me ๐Ÿ˜” my mind says cut cut cut... Ugh.. Hate this felling...
    abbyiser16 abbyiser16 16-17, F 1 Response May 28

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    Hold On To What You Have- Its Long But It Has A Point

    First there was the boy I'd had a crush on for nearly a year. That lasted four weeks before I broke up with him because we were both too young to know how to be in a relationship (young 14). Then there was the second guy, who'd fancied me for almost a year and a half, who I...
    LonelyFirefly LonelyFirefly 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Knife Vs. Friends

    Ok so I started cutting last year, in November actually so its not that long ago. Anyways, I started cutting because I was always so furious, so angry with my family, I felt so trapped beneath them and there was nothing I could do about it. I don’t really talk to anyone...
    Vampprincess568 Vampprincess568 16-17 May 29, 2010

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    "Never be ashamed of a scar.

    It simply means you were stronger then whatever tried to hurt you." ~Unknown A friend sent me this, I liked it so I figured I would share :) Stay strong y'all! If you ever need advice, support, someone to talk to, all of the above or anything else always feel free to...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F Jun 3

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    I'm officially one year clean today

    and couldn't be happier :) I do still get urges to cut but I call a friend to distract me which helps a lot c:
    aurorad19 aurorad19 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 2

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    It's been over 6 months

    since I cut all thanks to skye house hospital though I hated every minute there it got me better and I made the greatest of friends!:)
    IWishThatIWasOlder IWishThatIWasOlder 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Getting Out Of A Habbit

    The last time I cut was about 6 months ago. So i shouldn't really say i 'used' to because its still early days. i started at 12, when my mum was drinking heavily everyday and i was being sexually abused. A 'cry for help' was how it started. After continuously doing it for 4 years...
    leannepatpat leannepatpat 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    It now been a month since the last I cut I'm

    so proud I'm slow making process
    AmyAnn112 AmyAnn112 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I used to cut. I had a knife in my room

    that I would use. My parents never caught me, and they never saw the cuts. I was in my room away from my mom most of the time because she was the reason I had originally started. But I haven't done anything for about three months. I'm slowly making progress.
    TeenSpartan TeenSpartan 13-15, M Jul 21

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    It Was Like A Drug...

    I haven't cut in years, I mostly did it from ages 12 to about 15. My parents fought verbally and physically ever since I was born. Mostly my dad physically hurting my mother, saying the most obnoxious things you can imagine. I grew up with that, and when I was old enough I...
    sillyginger sillyginger 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 25, 2013

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    Is There A Gray Area?

    The first time I cut I was thirteen or so. Believe me, I know how cliche this sounds, but it was after my first boyfriend broke up with me. I was angry and it was a way to make all of that anger and pain literal and visible. Eventually, my mom found out about it because I did...
    distractedgirl distractedgirl 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2013

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    I tried it long ago and it was horrible

    so never thought of it again. I cut into my navel and bled a lot but I lied when I was hospitalised and said I fell on the knife. I would of cut my arm had all my tops not been short sleeved.
    whattodo32 whattodo32 18-21, M Jun 3

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    I've actually had more thoughts about doing it

    again, but the cutting only really began a few months ago. At first it'd be on the creases of my fingers, so nobody would know....but then I figured I wanted to see MORE blood. So, as of today, I have like 4 scars on my wrist. Funny thing is? It wasn't as what the movies depict...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F Jun 10

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    This past year has been the most difficult year

    of my life. And it all came from problems that weren't even mine. I fell in love with a girl whom had major problems. She has depression and was sexually abused by her own father. I got dragged into all her issues and became depressed for some time. I had mixed feelings about...
    mytroubledboo mytroubledboo 18-21, M May 25

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    for the longest time,

    i tried and wanted to be bulimic and/or anorexic. I don't know why i wanted it, but I did. It doesn't make me messed up, but it does make me horribly confused on my priorities. I don't wish to be anymore, but I do wish to be more motivated to get out there and exercise. I used...
    eddyskittles eddyskittles 16-17, F 1 Response May 24

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    I'm throwing my blades

    and glass away today
    yeahohwell yeahohwell 13-15, F 9 Responses Apr 12

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    Reason For My Scars

    When I was about nine years old I was raped an molested on an almost daily basis for about a year. The man who did it was my moms 43 year old boyfriend, i felt that no one would believe me so i told absoultly no one for four years wich was the biggest mistake. By the time I was...
    mentalpatient mentalpatient 16-18, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2006

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I used to cut just over a year ago

    but then I injured myself really badly. I now walk with a permanent limp because I cut too deep and tore a muscle and they couldn't fix it. If you've ever watched "House" then you probably can understand how I walk.
    PanicAtTheBlink PanicAtTheBlink 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    I'M Finally Ok With People Seeing My Self Injury Scars

    I work at a health clinic as a clinic assistant. While I was getting ready to draw a patient's blood, she said, "I have the same scars that you have on your arm." I stupidly hold out my arm, the only one that has visible scars on it, and look at it like I've never looked at it...
    jenbuff jenbuff 22-25, F 1 Response May 19, 2013

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    These Are My Scars

    I used to cut. Am I proud of it? No. But do I hate myself for it? Absolutely not. I have 3 pretty noticeable horizontal scars running parallel to each other on my left arm. They're there, and they will be there every day from now on, but they don't hold me back from anything...
    ojhstudent ojhstudent 18-21 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    Used To

    I think back to a time when I held myself prisoner. I longed for a razor to slice open my skin, that did so much for me at that time. It allowed me to deal with emotions I had not been taught to deal with appropriately. For so long it was all I had and even when I wasn't cutting...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F Jul 9, 2013

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    I'm 14 and I was cutting

    for 1-2 months but I stopped before it was to late. I haven't cut for 2-3 weeks but sometime I want to cut but I stop before I could do anything that I will regret. I just hope I can keep it up.
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I never managed to actualy cut,

    never got past that automatic defense reaction. So I used to bang myself against stuff, or try hurt myself in other ways. I managed stop but now I feel like I have to go smash my head against the wall. My mother just died and Im in so much pain. I have such an urge but I'm not...
    pippadwight pippadwight 13-15, F 2 Responses May 25

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    I used to cut and punch myself in middle school.

    .I have emotional problems, I'm a sophmore now and honestly, I get so tempted to cut myself but I never do..i just don't like my school
    creepypastafan creepypastafan 13-15, F Jul 1

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    I was never able to explain why.

    I stopped when I left my childhood home and found peace.
    Madnificent Madnificent 22-25 1 Response Jun 18

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    http://www.experienceproject.

    com/stories/Cut-My-Self/4403506
    VolleyBallPrincess14 VolleyBallPrincess14 18-21, F Jun 17

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    Fighting The Urge

    Every time I pick up a knife images flash through my head, snapshots of me bloodying my arms. I have to pause to regain focus. Scissors cut, scissors can cut flesh as well as they do paper. My blade hides in its safe place, only I know where to find it. About a year "clean" but...
    thereisnothingwrongwithyou thereisnothingwrongwithyou 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2013

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    I Hate To Admit...

    Almost 2 years ago i used to cut.. i still wear some of the scars, almost like a faded memory of my past. I wasn't trying to get attention at all... i used to hide it by wearing a jacket all the time... but nobody knew the story behind it. I hate people that judge they only know...
    MaxWilleatyourbrains MaxWilleatyourbrains 16-17, F 4 Responses May 19, 2012

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    I kinda got forced to stop cutting

    when the police showed to my house since I was on a suicide hotline and my parents found out but I really miss cutting and the escape it would give me like it felt I wasn't even alive and it gave me a rush that made me feel alive
    lonelinessneverfades lonelinessneverfades 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    There are times, like right now,

    where I'd give anything to cut. When my anxiety is so bad. And I can't shake the feeling that everyone hates me and I'm a worthless piece of sh!t. I'd love just one cut. Slow and deep with a serrated blade, like old times. And then cut until I just disappear. Until I stop...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I did it to deal with my clinical depression

    and anxiety. Although it is still tempting sometimes, I'm proud to say I'm going on 3 months clean :)
    VicLucyCole VicLucyCole 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Related Experiences

    I wasn't alone. I was just fighting depression. This girl, lets call her "Y" told me that cutting was the key to everything. I was confused because she used to be my bes friend...
    luv4ever24 luv4ever24 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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