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I Used to Cut

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    hii, my name is eirin,

    i have cut my self around 200times, and i have quit now
    eirin01 eirin01 22-25, M Apr 11

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    I Can Finally Say Used To!! :d

    I can finally say USED TO!!! I used to cut. Period. I USED TO! I am so proud to say that it isn't even funny! :D So yes I used to cut. I cut for 2 years. And I finally got up the feeling to stop completely 2 months ago. I'm finally done! I do a special kind of therapy that my...
    xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    Hold On To What You Have- Its Long But It Has A Point

    First there was the boy I'd had a crush on for nearly a year. That lasted four weeks before I broke up with him because we were both too young to know how to be in a relationship (young 14). Then there was the second guy, who'd fancied me for almost a year and a half, who I...
    LonelyFirefly LonelyFirefly 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2013

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    Running through my old playlist " Breathe Into

    Me" by Red.... I remember cutting for the first time with that song playing over and over again,get this crazy flashbacks when I hear that song, it´s like that feeling is almost back in my skin,even though it´s a bad memory, I accept it, I can´t believe I used to be so...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M Jun 4

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    ***LONG STORY*** I didn't cut deep.

    I've stopped with the help of my best friend. But today in language arts, we were talking about a book. The main character was so depressed she wanted someone she loved to punish her. We had a discussion about it. (I wasn't paying attention. I was doing science homework.) Well...
    Autumn02 Autumn02 13-15, F May 15

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    Self Injury

    I started when i was in high school at the time i didnt really know why i was doing it.  By the time i was in my senior i had stopped.  Then when i was a junior in college i was sexually assulted.  After that i started cutting again and often.   Whenever...
    clancyfan clancyfan 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 23, 2006

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    I used to cut just over a year ago

    but then I injured myself really badly. I now walk with a permanent limp because I cut too deep and tore a muscle and they couldn't fix it. If you've ever watched "House" then you probably can understand how I walk.
    PanicAtTheBlink PanicAtTheBlink 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    There are times, like right now,

    where I'd give anything to cut. When my anxiety is so bad. And I can't shake the feeling that everyone hates me and I'm a worthless piece of sh!t. I'd love just one cut. Slow and deep with a serrated blade, like old times. And then cut until I just disappear. Until I stop...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    I Hate To Admit...

    Almost 2 years ago i used to cut.. i still wear some of the scars, almost like a faded memory of my past. I wasn't trying to get attention at all... i used to hide it by wearing a jacket all the time... but nobody knew the story behind it. I hate people that judge they only know...
    MaxWilleatyourbrains MaxWilleatyourbrains 16-17, F 4 Responses May 19, 2012

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    I'm throwing my blades

    and glass away today
    yeahohwell yeahohwell 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 12, 2014

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    Guess who hasnt cut herself in a long time?

    ??? This girl :)))) its been a few months :o Weed is my new therapy. Don't know if thats good or bad. O well XD
    Slowlydying16 Slowlydying16 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    These Are My Scars

    I used to cut. Am I proud of it? No. But do I hate myself for it? Absolutely not. I have 3 pretty noticeable horizontal scars running parallel to each other on my left arm. They're there, and they will be there every day from now on, but they don't hold me back from anything...
    ojhstudent ojhstudent 18-21 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    I'm a swimmer. so it was really hard to find

    areas to cut that would not be visible. i used to cut my fingers and my wrists. i would cover them with bracelets. one day when i was cutting and crying, i asked my self why i was doing this? And truthfully i could not answer that question. I believed i was doing it cause of the...
    punkpanda3 punkpanda3 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 23, 2014

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    Almost 4 months clean.

    I'm proud and I know I won't go back ever again! Not this time.. After a full year I got the strength to stop.
    hhannahhbabe hhannahhbabe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Hey I'm Josh :) I use to cut quite often

    but thanks to my girlfriend I managed to stop doing it and have been clean for 3months 4days now :) but everyday it's getting harder and harder and the urges are getting stronger and I don't know how long I can last :(
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jun 24

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    camasf camasf 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 24

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    This past year has been the most difficult year

    of my life. And it all came from problems that weren't even mine. I fell in love with a girl whom had major problems. She has depression and was sexually abused by her own father. I got dragged into all her issues and became depressed for some time. I had mixed feelings about...
    mytroubledboo mytroubledboo 18-21, M May 25, 2014

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    I know it might be hard to blieve

    that I would ever do that for myself. Everyone sees me as the awalyse happy one or the up beat type. But I hide all my feeling behind a fake smile. I say im fine when its not awalyse true. I say im all good and just act like I brush the feelings off my sholder. When I am...
    Kiki145 Kiki145 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I want to cut so bad.

    I've got a lot of anger pent up. I want to cut to release some of the tension. I love the pain. I haven't cut in years, but it's getting bad; I want to have some control over something.
    DramaBabe94 DramaBabe94 13-15, F May 23

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    I've been clean for 6 months

    and somehow, my bf thought that we should have a celebration of some sorts and I'm just like "What?" I mean come on, it's no big deal and he's being super cheesy.... :p
    johannesc4 johannesc4 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Today is a real achievement

    for me. Today marks a year since I last cut myself. I've been clean for a whole year and I'm incredibly proud of myself. I've been tempted so many times. Within this year I've been through some difficult times and wanted to cut but I refused to let myself do it. I also binned my...
    CeBeY1 CeBeY1 18-21, F May 15

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    I've been clean for almost a week now.

    ...but today in school a guy that sits right next to me accidentally cut himself during class...and honestly after seeing that blood I want to cut again...I spent the rest of the classes today just playing with this razor blade...staring at it and touching my skin with it...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 13

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    I remember the pain when i cut my arm,

    but the pain was to ease my anger. Now that i think about it, it actually save me from being crazy.... Unless i was already crazy then it saved me from being weak or broken down Again.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 14

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    Well i used to, i stopped

    because of my best friend, he had this problem with his throat and he can't drink anything else other than mineral water. He said that once he saw a scar either on my wrist or anywhere else, he would drink a soda. Which he said drinking it feels like its burning in his throat...
    sabrinabryn sabrinabryn 13-15, F Jun 19

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    It's been about three months

    since I last cut.. And the dark circle in the middle is when I accidentally burnt myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I've actually had more thoughts about doing it

    again, but the cutting only really began a few months ago. At first it'd be on the creases of my fingers, so nobody would know....but then I figured I wanted to see MORE blood. So, as of today, I have like 4 scars on my wrist. Funny thing is? It wasn't as what the movies depict...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F Jun 10, 2014

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    I was forced to quit.

    Now I'm in intensive therapy and I could be sent to a mental institute at anytime if I screw up.
    tabi1334 tabi1334 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I use to do this back in junior high

    but now that i look back at it, i realize how selfish i was. I pitied myself cause no one else would and complained about things i could actually change, and my life was decent. Cutting doesn't help solve issues, talking about it does
    stephanieleon34211 stephanieleon34211 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I used to cut about 2-3 years ago

    because of the lifestyle my mom put me through. Her boyfriend at that time was a drug addict and has a record. He would beat my mom every other day if she didn't get him money to buy drugs. She was close to death many times. He tried to run her over, pushed he down on concrete...
    cutemonkey cutemonkey 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    My friend wanted to start cutting.

    She actually asked me which razor I thought was best. Luckily I stopped her! But I don't think I will stop her forever. Any advice?
    Autumn02 Autumn02 13-15, F 1 Response May 20

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    I did it to deal with my clinical depression

    and anxiety. Although it is still tempting sometimes, I'm proud to say I'm going on 3 months clean :)
    VicLucyCole VicLucyCole 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 12, 2014

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    It's officially been 2 clean months

    for me💕 For anyone struggling with cutting you are always welcome to talk to me💕 keep fighting loves😘
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I'm officially one year clean today

    and couldn't be happier :) I do still get urges to cut but I call a friend to distract me which helps a lot c:
    aurorad19 aurorad19 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    I use to cut but not bc I wanted to end my life.

    if was to take away the pain I felt or anger. it was a distraction from those feelings that I didn't know how to handle. I'm trying to never do it again and haven't for a year now. ...guess it's slightly like an addiction. I can do it though!
    pandaangel pandaangel 26-30, F Jun 19

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    yes i used to cut. when i think back i don't

    even know why. i stopped awhile ago. at first i was so embarrassed of my scars. but now it's like it's something i can't change, it's over with, a part of me.
    trashspice trashspice 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I'm having some trouble.

    I cut from the time I was 11 up until I was 16. I'm 18 now. I've slipped up a couple of times since but never really relapsed. The recent stress of my mother's medical problems, my medical problems, my family's current financial situation and starting college (among other things...
    suddenliberty suddenliberty 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    BloodRunsSlow BloodRunsSlow 13-15, M May 26

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    I had been cutting myself

    since highschool, the las time I did it was like a year ago, I am now in my fourth year of university. I remember it being so hard to cover up the scars, I used to wear long sleeves all the time in the super hot weather, and my friends being like, "aren't you toasting?" and I...
    Margarott Margarott 22-25, F Apr 22

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    Yeah, a very long time ago.

    But I'm starting to have urges again...I don't know why...
    GreenDayIsBae GreenDayIsBae 16-17, M 2 Responses May 29

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    bribaby43 bribaby43 18-21, F Jun 4

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    Yes....as a teenager/twenty-something I used to

    cut. It was a long time ago and the urge has loooong passed.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2014

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    For those who have self harmed

    and stopped, I just wanna say I'm so proud of you, you guys make me stronger when I'm just about ready to relapse and cut or kill myself, your confidence and urge is the reason why I've stopped for good. Sorry if it seems like I'm trying to get attention. (I'm not I promise) I'm...
    Appleslices69 Appleslices69 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 6, 2014

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    I'm getting so close to turning again,

    I can feel it. I feel like anything could push me over the line right now, I don't wanna cut again; I don't want to go back to that dark place. That dark place where none but few can reach you, and this time there's no one to pull me out. I'm not looking for sympathy from...
    randomboy42 randomboy42 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I used to cut, I really still don't know

    why I did it, I feel so stupid... But cutting myself has show me to be stronger, more confident and more mature. Yeha maybe you will think that I have just wasted my childhood, but now I know how f*cked up the world is, so cutting myself was a stupid thing to do but I will never...
    HikikomoryAndy HikikomoryAndy 13-15, F 1 Response May 22

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    Because of Him....

    Well, when I graduated the 8th grade I started to date a guy from my class who I really liked. We dated until our Junior year of high school and he was very controling and when ever he hurt me I found a place where no one could disturb me and I would find anything sharp and just...
    Mouse Mouse 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 23, 2006

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    I'M Finally Ok With People Seeing My Self Injury Scars

    I work at a health clinic as a clinic assistant. While I was getting ready to draw a patient's blood, she said, "I have the same scars that you have on your arm." I stupidly hold out my arm, the only one that has visible scars on it, and