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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2014

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a

    period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went through puberty and became borderline overweight. I was so miserable that I took measures that became drastic by age 11. Until age 14...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3, 2014

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2, 2014

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    It was in 6th grade. At first,

    it started because I was too stubborn to eat what my aunt and uncle would feed me. After a while, it was a way of punishing myself. I didn't have any friends at school, and my family hated me. I remember being taken to the doctor and told to "eat anything, healthy or not". They...
    leggyshay leggyshay 16-17, F Jun 16

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    The thought of what I used to look like

    and be like bother me everyday. I am in therapy for it and I don't think anything will help. I look normal again but it's weird remembering how things used to fit me and how I used to look back then
    Happybri123 Happybri123 18-21, F Mar 16

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.

    fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F Sep 7, 2014

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    i had/have an eating disorder for about 6yrs, but the worst times were about 4yrs ago. it was a prison. i never went out because i thought i was ugly & that everything made my fat...
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    I don't like to say I have, or have had, an eating disorder because I feel it is somewhat unfair to those who's lives have been dangerously altered or taken by it. However, I'm...
    TeaspoonEm17 TeaspoonEm17 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I am bulimic. selfishly, stupidly, gluttonously bulimic. I binge on just about anything, even if I don't like it much. If it has a flavour and I can get my hands on it, I'm gonna...
    perrytctctc perrytctctc 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm currently underweight and have a low BF% but I still hate my body. I'm 30 yrs old and afraid I'll never find peace.
    Daninhell Daninhell 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Trigger Warning... ... .... ... I started restricting again and everything I been eating, I been wanting to purge - but fighting it. I can't stand feeling so huge!!! 21 years...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Is it normal to have chest pains when I'm anxious?
    k179 k179 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Please read with care, and take steps to keep yourself feeling safe and secure, if reading about body image and associated topics are triggering for you. I’m your stereotypical...
    ChocolateCurvesModel ChocolateCurvesModel 31-35, F Jun 26

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    Write about your experiencePlease read with care, and take steps to keep yourself feeling safe and secure, if reading about body image and associated topics are triggering for you...
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    Hi I am Cindy I have schizoeffective bipolar type and I'm suffering a lot I feel high to low and see a boy I am very in love with I was at a mental hospital recently and it was...
    amicrazyornot amicrazyornot 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    It's getting worse. The bulimia. And I'm not losing weight. So I'm gonna start working out again. A lot. And eating less. I just want to be thin. Is that too much to ask ?
    LoserMaterial LoserMaterial 16-17, F Jun 22

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    Hey. Today I woke up, and I felt so much depression and anxiety. My firsts couple thoughts were "why am I here?" "Why am I in this world when we are all just going to grow old and...
    allinsilent allinsilent 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    I was bulimic in the past, and in the past year I think I've only purged twice. But lately I haven't been able to keep any food down and went to the doctor to find out that it's my...
    itssmee itssmee 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I fight depression and while the campaign is going well at the moment I feel as if there is no end to the feelings and struggle of it all. College papers make me anxious. I don't...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 20

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    I only have an eating disorder to tackle now, losing weight even when I'm eating normally. Back then when I was losing weight rapidly my mother wasn't worried much the first time...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    I really don't know whether I have it or not, in all honesty. I'm at the point that although I do depersonalize a lot, it has yet to cause me too much stress/interfere with social...
    JohnneyBravo34 JohnneyBravo34 13-15, F Jun 18

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    Don't tell me I don't look like a binge eater. I'm 17, and have been a binge eater since I was 9. I'm 4'11 and 119LBs (well 111LBs since I started Vyvanse). Not all binge eaters...
    kenzieburr kenzieburr 16-17, F Jun 18

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    I have an eating disorder, message me
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 18

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    POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING.. I have been watching Supersize vs. Superskinny with my boyfriend a lot recently. He is instantly disgusted by both parties in the food exchange - the...
    littlelostfox littlelostfox 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    When I had it, I didn't even know I did. I spent hours reading articles on anorexia, taking online quizzes to see if I was. Even when all those quizzes said I most likely had...
    Anita467 Anita467 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    I have a compulsive disorder that revolves around my intake on food. I am constantly thinking about how much I intake because the fear of gaining weight weighs so heavily on me...
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    I think that living with mental illness is like experiencing life through more than one set of eyes, like when you are checking and when you aren't. you get more than one vantage...
    JaclynAisling87 JaclynAisling87 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 14

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    I starve myself (Only have a kiwi or an apple a day usually) and I always have dreams of eating a ton, does this happen to anyone else?
    Idontknowsometimes Idontknowsometimes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    i need a pro ana/mia buddy i can't be fat anymore
    vicxoria vicxoria 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa and I have been doing weekly check ups with a doctor and a psychologist. They check my weight but don't know that I drink a lot before they...
    ginawexler ginawexler 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    I have had anorexia since 6-7 grade going on 8th grade next year. It's summer break now and last summer my weight dropped to 100 down I'm 5ft 5in. I hate my weight I wanted to stay...
    PixelChibi PixelChibi 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    I honestly wake up every day wondering if everything around me is even real. It just looks so fake, artificial, like a simulation. I get out of bed, not feeling like I'm...
    ScheeleXx ScheeleXx 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 12

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    I feel bad for lying to my mom. She thinks I'm fine. I have been hiding this for 3 years. I'm sorry.
    dafttendirektt dafttendirektt 18-21, F Jun 11

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    www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/find-help-support I am currently in therapy for ednos. I have battled body image and disordered eating since I was 12 years old. I waited until I...
    taliakhaleesi taliakhaleesi 22-25, F Jun 11

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