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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2014

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    The thought of what I used to look like

    and be like bother me everyday. I am in therapy for it and I don't think anything will help. I look normal again but it's weird remembering how things used to fit me and how I used to look back then
    Happybri123 Happybri123 18-21, F Mar 16

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.

    fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F Sep 7, 2014

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2, 2014

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a

    period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went through puberty and became borderline overweight. I was so miserable that I took measures that became drastic by age 11. Until age 14...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3, 2014

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    Does everyone think eating disorders are a bad thing? It helps me lose weight for the first time so I don't see the problem...
    ElisabethH123 ElisabethH123 18-21, F May 8

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    Nobody loves me. Nobody cares about me. I eat because nobody likes me. I force myself to eat until I vomit. I vomit to lose weight because I'm too fat. Nobody loves me because I'm...
    oOoitslucyoOo oOoitslucyoOo 22-25, F 6 Responses May 9

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    I actually had anorexia for five years that included five inpatient/hospital stays for it; loads of medical/ nutritional counseling & even way more therapy. I was quote/unquote...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F May 10

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    Except for I do not have the eating disorder that most of you have. I have binge eating disorder. Binge Eating Disorder, for those of you who do not know, is kind of like Bulimia...
    brriittttaannyy brriittttaannyy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    eating disorders are much more difficult to cope with than your bad eating habits. eat less and exercise if you want to lose weight. it's sad that people actually WANT an eating...
    imverylost imverylost 18-21, F May 11

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    *posted this on I had an eating disorder." I thought and want to give people hope on here too!!! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I am basically fully...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    I told my bff meadow I have a eating disorder today when we were at school she kept asking me to tell her what was up so I wrote her a note telling her about my eating disorder and...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 day ago

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    I've always struggled with my body image. My mom began using MyFitnessPal to track her calories. At the same time my dad started dieting for his body building competition. So, I...
    lms2001 lms2001 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    My eating disorder was yesterday diagnosed as anorexia. I've fought against this horrible mental illness for half a year, which is way too long. I want to live a normal life again...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    I don't want to be skinny. I don't want to be called "skinny". I just want to be healthy. And I am healthy. I am recovered. 7 years without an eating disorder is wonderful. I look...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 23

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    I've decided today, that im going to fight this eating disorder... I'm not gonna let it win... I've talked with my sister and she's gonna help plan healthy meals for me. Taking...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses May 4

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    I need an Ana coach to help me lose weight...AND YES I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER...I just feel like the voices in my head aren't enough... Message me please if you are available!
    OriginalJuli3 OriginalJuli3 18-21, F May 5

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    I need an Ana coach to help me lose weight...AND YES I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER...I just feel like the voices in my head aren't enough... Message me please if you are available!
    OriginalJuli3 OriginalJuli3 18-21, F May 5

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    I need an Ana coach to help me lose weight...AND YES I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER...I just feel like the voices in my head aren't enough... Message me please if you are available!
    OriginalJuli3 OriginalJuli3 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    I want to give people hope!!! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F May 10

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    I want to give people hope!!! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    Eating disorders are not fun to have they are very hard to fix and sometimes they lead to depression
    mackenziep71 mackenziep71 13-15, F May 11

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    Hi, I have Schizoaffective Disorder, and I feel like I have split personalities, one is the Schizoaffective part of me, the one who talks about angels and demons, light and...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 7 Responses Apr 30

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    I believe i have... I am struggelning with these thoughts... Impulses. I could just end it, jump infront of that train.... Or it would feel so good to cut... To feel something...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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    I used to be really pretty and healthy a few years ago. I was getting bullied at school, I became anorexic. When I started to recover I was eating a lot, and it's been 3 years and...
    flyingvnc flyingvnc 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    Not like bullimia or anorexia or anything like that. I, am an extremely fussy eater. Its not like im saying that i dont want this to touch that blah blah etc. On the contrary, ive...
    imme163 imme163 13-15, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I'm not sure what to think right now. I've gained about five unwanted pounds this year. Nothing major, still thin. Just a little bit of excess fat that I recently gained. I wanted...
    Justventingg Justventingg 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 26

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    Well the fear of food is back. I have been struggling with weight my whole life due to a medical condition I was over 250 pounds at one point but had lost over a hundred pounds and...
    fractalpterodactyl fractalpterodactyl 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I have DDNOS1 (Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified) aka OSSD (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder) DIAGNOSTIC CRITERIA (Code 300.15) from DSM-IV: This category is...
    TheCynicalOne TheCynicalOne 22-25, F May 13

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    This nonesense of not wanting to eat and starve myself is getting old. The lost of complete appetite is ridiculous. I'm hiplogucemic I NEED to have my meals and my snacks and yet I...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I'm really scared. I tried to eat a few hours ago and bite after bite I just felt so disgusted big time (but I kept forcing me to eat. I couldn't manage to eat the whole plate...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F Apr 23

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    I still struggle on eating much or enough but hey I'm proud to say that atleast I haven't starve in like two weeks. I've been eating all three meals and some snacks. A few times I...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 29

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    I used to purge but now I don't but I'm concerned for my hearts health I was kinda still new to purging after I quite
    haleyolivas haleyolivas 13-15, F a week ago

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    I hate it. I really do. I always relapse back into restricting/fasting for up to a month, then I'll go back to normal. Why this ******* constant up and down thing? I am so...
    SilencesLullaby SilencesLullaby 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 29

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    Just ******* love it when my breakfast doesn't want to stay down -.- The pains I get from eating hurt so much, makes it worth just not eating.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    I struggle with my body image and what I eat all the time. I spend some days eating nothing, and others eating too much then forcing myself to puke.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F May 11

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    I think I started to have so. I started eating in much less amount and it actually satisfies me. Problem is, I lose weight easily so it drops by like 3-5 Kgs in 3 days so if I'm...
    Reema57 Reema57 16-17, F 4 Responses May 12

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    Going to start dieting... Forcing myself to exercise.. Stick to mostly liquids rather than food. I've started to put on weight and that makes me unhappy... I feel sick after...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me...
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    Know what's the best feeling? Eating one meal that's slightly more than "average".. And feeling that you've just ingested a weeks worth of food... FML.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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