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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    It was in 6th grade. At first,

    it started because I was too stubborn to eat what my aunt and uncle would feed me. After a while, it was a way of punishing myself. I didn't have any friends at school, and my family hated me. I remember being taken to the doctor and told to "eat anything, healthy or not". They...
    leggyshay leggyshay 16-17, F Jun 16

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    The thought of what I used to look like

    and be like bother me everyday. I am in therapy for it and I don't think anything will help. I look normal again but it's weird remembering how things used to fit me and how I used to look back then
    Happybri123 Happybri123 18-21, F Mar 16

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2, 2014

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2014

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a

    period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went through puberty and became borderline overweight. I was so miserable that I took measures that became drastic by age 11. Until age 14...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3, 2014

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.

    fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F Sep 7, 2014

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    admitting I'm struggling to my husband again was hard, but glad he knows. i been scared on telling him but became aware that the ED didn't want him knowing so I can continue in...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 17 mins ago

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    I feel like I'm falling into past problems. I've eaten about 210 calories today and already feel like it's too much.
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    how horrible is it that I want to be anorexic again. even though that stage of my life ruined me, this whole binge eating and bulimia is doing me way more harm. I need to just fast...
    yafeelmepenguin yafeelmepenguin 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    I need a friend for support when I want to binge and purge. and to help keep me from being consumed in eating disorder land
    yafeelmepenguin yafeelmepenguin 18-21, F 18 hrs ago

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    I haven't been eating much. Started getting really dizzy today. trying to eat and hoping this ED doesn't have me feeling guilty and huge afterwards . i'm just exhausted in fighting...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Hey guys. I had eating disorder. I was hating my body and everything about me. I made a decision that I will change my life. So I started doing exercises . My body is getting...
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Listen to me please, you reading this right now I know you're going through a very very hard time but you will get better you will get through this, you're growing as a person I...
    Itsgoingtobeokayipromise Itsgoingtobeokayipromise 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    so my bf's ex gf is so skinny... i'm the ugly fat new gf. i hate it!!! i've had an ED for about 6yrs, on & off on recovery... relapse, you know how it is. right now i'm on my fat...
    screambloodygore screambloodygore 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    The psychiatrist that I spoke with today also said that doctors who would have to do autopsies on people that they knew back in the day and they would have to depersonalize...
    Shadetree111 Shadetree111 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So I got to talk with a psychiatrist today about depersonalization disorder he said that it is part of a defense mechanism that your body uses when a great amount of stress is put...
    Shadetree111 Shadetree111 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I was just diagnosed with this today. So I'm trying to learn as much as I can. Anyone taking Topamax for it? My Dr prescribed it. We'll see how it works. What has ur experience...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I completely understand I've been wondering what is happening to me for a year and a half because I haven't been able to explain what is wrong with me. Then I was searching up what...
    Shadetree111 Shadetree111 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I am looking for a friend, gender/location/age doesn't matter as long as you won't hurt my feelings. I'm struggling with eating disorder and anxiety. I can be supportive and my...
    veronicarosy veronicarosy 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    im surrounded by amazing people and I found out that being skinny wouldn't make me happy, they would. that's what helped me.
    circledletters circledletters 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Hi I am 16. I have been ruminating for as long as I can remember, but always thought it was normal for everyone. Well when I realized it was not, I felt ashamed and tried to hide...
    Girlnamedgirl Girlnamedgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Again, another moment of struggling... Just been wanting to give up on trying to get better. just hate eating and feeling horrible afterwards. I don't know anymore... I hate...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I feel like I want to tell someone about my eating disorder but I think they will judge me and I'm not at my goal weight so I don't know what to do I just hate feel like this....
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Is there such a thing as an off day with dpd? Is there a day where you don't notice it, but then you have an off day where it just hits you? The stress of not trying to have...
    Flylikeabutterfly Flylikeabutterfly 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Accepting or loving my body is a daily battle. But the worst is being constantly self-conscious wherever I go and whomever I'm with. I'd pass a group and immediately feel like they...
    yxfx yxfx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. At that time my Dr assumed that I hear voices and see things but I don't. I went along with it and now it's out of...
    liar2000 liar2000 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    My mom and brother were talking about eating disorders and my mom looked at me and said Emily's the one I worry about she's the one who's always looking at thins proration and...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I feel like complete and utter crap. Everything hurts, and it's a result of me having this binge eating disorder thing for the majority of my life. Personally, I think it's kind of...
    philosocrastinator philosocrastinator 22-25 Jul 22

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    Everyone thought I was happy. Now that they know im not they try to help. They cant help me anymore. They shouldn't even try.
    brokenfeelings brokenfeelings 18-21, F Jul 22

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    this may sound bad but I don't want to recover at all I can't just stop starving it's hard I want to talk to be just like me trying to lose weight and trying to be skinny I can't...
    anaskitty anaskitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I have no idea what triggers it. Sometimes it's depression, sometimes it's happiness. Right now I cant seem to keep food down without feeling guilty or wanting to throw it back up...
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    people just need help and encouragement...sad some people do not understand and negative comments will only push a person further down the bad road. What's really disgusting is...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F Jul 19

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    while I do not have an eating disorder I can relate to these kind of people a little. when I was a teen I used to make myself puke on purpose after eating ( I think it's call...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F Jul 19

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    I haven't ate in forever which I know will make my boy best friend Amir mad at me but I'm sorry I love you Amir but I don't wanna eat
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F Jul 18

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    I don't like food!!! I don't want to eat, if I do it's only a very little... I'm very picky... A lot of foods make me sick... I don't know why.... I use to throw up every morning...
    auroradennen auroradennen 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I'm worried about my son who has depersonalization disorder but hasn't been formally diagnosed and won't go get treatment. He is antisocial and is uncomfortable talking to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Im not sure if i have an eating disorder but i dont eat alot & when i do eat i throw up...
    TahirC TahirC 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm struggling with my body Image a lot lately. I cringe just looking at food. Even my favorite foods. And when I do eat, I eat as fast as I can to get it over with because I feel...
    Runnergirl0722 Runnergirl0722 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I have been struggling with EDNOS for 20 years. I finally decided to get better. This is so much more difficult than I thought it would be! After restricting a few weeks ago...
    nrsjess nrsjess 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 14

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