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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a

    period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went through puberty and became borderline overweight. I was so miserable that I took measures that became drastic by age 11. Until age 14...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3, 2014

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2, 2014

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.

    fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F Sep 7, 2014

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2014

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    His words keep floating back into my mind. How ugly I am, fat, disgusting. I don't why I listen to the man who r.aped me, but I do. Why would he go to all that trouble if I wasn't...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I had an eating disorder onec or twice where I stopped eating but a little bit maybe a bit a day or nothing at all even if there was food infront of me. this would start fights...
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21, F Feb 11

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    i have a binge eating disorder. this is an eating disorder and i feel completely out of control of it. after going through a healthy weight loss i am back to binge eating and i...
    jermdbt80612 jermdbt80612 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    It sucks being a transguy with an eating disorder. I get viewed as a FEMALE with an eating disorder, and I'm too socially awkward to tell them I'm a male.
    drugsandscales drugsandscales 13-15, T Feb 18

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    I seem to restrict what I eat, only eating at the right times socially and often not eating anything all day until 7pm. I can then often overeat and lose control. EDNOS (Eating...
    Matineeidle79 Matineeidle79 31-35, F Feb 2

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    I feel as if I am really chubby. My family and friends say I am the right size. I have been skipping meals, and limiting calories. Then exercising even when I am sick. I end up...
    puppylove16 puppylove16 16-17, F Feb 14

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    I have a eating disorder but I'm getting better, and eating from once or twice a day, to about 3 times a day but I'm still skinny
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm 27, almost 28. I lost my grandmother to a heart attack in May 2013, and I lost my brother to suicide in August 2013. Ever since then, my appetite has severely diminished. Not...
    libbyslice libbyslice 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I have a weird eating disorder. I love to eat chalk especially after having spicy food.
    Samsalsa Samsalsa 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    My eating disorder feels like it's coming back to me and I don't want to have it anymore.
    RedDog123321 RedDog123321 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    I have Depersonalization Disorder for almost a year now.It never stops, I dont feel anything, my thoughts are racing In my head and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Hi,my names alex and i have schizoaffective disorder.i was working for 3 weeks as a phone operater and it didnt work out.i ended up getting to stressed out so i quit.keeping a job...
    weirdalex93 weirdalex93 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 20

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    Tbh I just joined this site ... So my struggle has been going on since I was little you see I was always compared or go called chubby that I began getting used to it growing up I...
    itsmagsdoe itsmagsdoe 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    So lately I've been restricting... And since I've been sick, it helped a lot because my appetite dropped, and I haven't let it come up much!! I've been eating a mostly vegan...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    i need to fear the consequences of WHAT i eat, yesterday i just ate ate, even when i was full i kept eating. and today was the same, i remmber i ordered a hot pretzel wenni dog and...
    TodayForay TodayForay 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    Just love the feeling of having to force food down my throat and then having the pains in my tummy cuz it's being stretched back to normal. Ugh! Not eating is just easier sometimes...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I get a free pizza at work... Pizza is amazing.... Until you're done eating... And then all you wanna do is cry. I'm hungry yet all I can think about is how hard im trying to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    I've dealt with Depersonalization on and off since I was 14. I'm 22 now and it's been back since November of 2014, it's February of 2015 now and it gets overwhelming sometimes...
    CEA1992 CEA1992 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 11

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    its harder to quit than smoking. I can't see myself as anything but fat and out of shape until I reach some unobtainable goal. I can't stop withholding, binging, and purging. my...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Feb 8

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    One of the reasons i want to loose a crap load of weight to have a tiny wrist and wear all my favorite band with out them not fitting and feeling tight
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 18-21, F Feb 13

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    I haven't told anyone that I am doing it. I would usually be working this out with my therapist but I don't have one right now. I just want to tell someone so that I don't think I...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I have relapsed back into anorexia/bulimia...the two crept back into my life and now worse then ever...I just want to be 103...I don't eat and if I do its healthy and exercise...
    proudmom16316 proudmom16316 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    After being bulimic for 2 years I went from 177lbs to 119lbs. 3 months and I've had urges but I've managed to keep my food down. But I've gained...so much, I'm up to 134lbs...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    It started at a young age...i would refuse to eat hide away in a dark corner an cry everytime someone brought it up....id scream when they would try an force the food down my...
    SweetGazePup SweetGazePup 18-21, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I have mia and Ana problems, but I have been doing better for a couple weeks. Then tonight I purged, im 135 I just want to be 110-115): anyone want to be my Ana,fit buddy?
    ahideekai1 ahideekai1 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Why is it that I want to cry when I have to buy a shirt in large? :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I can't believe this! My two best friends have REPORTED me skipping meals to my guidance teacher, and I had to survive through her giving me a two-hour lecture. They keep...
    zosienka777 zosienka777 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    During my senior year of high school was the first time I experienced my depersonalization disorder. I'm now 24 years old and still can say I'm suffering from this never ending...
    katejen2 katejen2 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    I've had panic disorder for 3 weeks now triggered by two traumatic events back to back. I've exhausted all my friends and families sympathy (I don't blame them), and I feel alone...
    ryukyuchamploo ryukyuchamploo 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I have had a panic disorder for a couple years now, but lately My panic attacks are getting worse. I feel hopeless every single day and I feel like I have no one to support me.
    myillmind myillmind 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm very confused about this... but I may have bipolar depression. or depersonalized disorder? still not sure of the accurate names but.. I might have these.
    lilybunny944 lilybunny944 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    ok so where do I start...... I feel as tho when I look back on something I have done during the day or anything in the past its like it's not me that was there? like I was in...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Okay, so I don't have a diagnosis, my doctor thinks it's a side effect of depression but I've only been depressed for a year and a half. My depersonalization has been going on...
    SuperLogan SuperLogan 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    Hello. I have been experiencing symptoms for 6 months now and I was very recently diagnosed with Rumination Syndrome. I am on 20mg of Amnitriptolyn to help cure but there hasn't...
    minmouse614 minmouse614 26-30, F Feb 9

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    I'm hearing a lot of negative things again. Specifically the devil telling me to cut myself. I want to call my therapist but she will just tell me to go into the er and I have a...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16

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    I have been struggling since I was 12 years old and I am 18. I have went to so many doctors and they all tell my its just anxiety. I know I have anxiety but it's not that. I know...
    Rozie996 Rozie996 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I have them as long as I remember myself, there is no logic or rhythm to it. My biological clock is not set to any default.
    axon1001 axon1001 41-45, M 3 days ago

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    I use to stutter when I was younger and now being slightly/completely (depending on who you ask) antisocial, I have had a hard time talking completely right. I tend to slur...
    TrojanPrincess TrojanPrincess 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Can someone help me please. I've just eaten a whole packet of digestive chocolate biscuits and couldn't purge it out as my mum was here. I feel ashamed and fat. I don't want to put...
    missann97 missann97 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I like the feeling of an empty stomach, even though it can be uncomfortable at times.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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