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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    101worthless101 101worthless101 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Gosh! Where to begin? So it’s fair to say that I haven’t been suffering for as long as some people with their eating disorders but I can’t dismiss the fact that I HAVE been...
    Thatgirl889 Thatgirl889 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Three years ago I developed an eating disorder. I barely ate anything and lost 10 kg. Then after a while I started bingeing and purging and gained back weight. I really wanted to...
    irisjuuu irisjuuu 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I was looking through some old pictures, deleting a lot of them and I saw how thin I was in my prime... Gah. I always aspired to be thinspo lol and it looks like I am, for myself...
    KilljoyKitty KilljoyKitty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    Anorexia and bulimia seemed so distant to me when I was growing up. It seemed completely irrational to me that someone could just not eat, and puking seemed impossible to force...
    rachelthedreamer rachelthedreamer 16-17, F Jul 27

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    .I'm 16, going into my junior year of highschool and I just want to be normal. I have been living with what I now realize is binge eating disorder for 2-3 years now and its been a...
    jezziw98 jezziw98 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Each day more n more i think about it i think im starting to get my eating disorder again i feel so worthless and disgusting,self hate i feel like i don't want to be strong i don't...
    desitor desitor 16-17, F Aug 11

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    exercising because I want to. Not because I want to lose weight. I will not let my eating disorder control me
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm a very level headed teenager. And then I got told I had an eating disorder and now it controls my life... Every day I think about food constantly, I don't eat it but I...
    justsmile1990 justsmile1990 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Message me if you want to chat, if anyone's going through/been through an eating disorder I'd appreciate talking to someone who understands
    justsmile1990 justsmile1990 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not sure where to start, but I guess I'll start off by saying I'm positive I have Depersonalization Disorder, but I am not officially diagnosed. I would like to share my...
    faithinmyself faithinmyself 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I get so scared of gaining weight. And I've been told many times by my step mom that I am fat. I used to think I was so pretty. I didn't think I was fat. I actually looked very...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    .. I'm so used to saying that "something is wrong with my stomach, I just can't hold food down".. For years that I think I actually believed it. Realizing recently that I don't...
    YupThatsMee YupThatsMee 22-25, F Jul 31

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    When I was very young, I'm talking 10 years old. I was bulimic. My mothers boyfriend would always say "she's getting hefty." So I would get so nervous, that I would vomit. It went...
    MaddyAlexis MaddyAlexis 13-15, F Jul 24

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    Worst part of my disorder is that i feel i have to socially isolate myself to protect the disorder. Its painful 😔
    7405me 7405me 18-21, F Jul 28

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    Okay , it's been so long I didn't write anything , so I thought I would just update it up a little bit with what's happening with me nowadays. It's been like five months now I...
    CrushednBroken CrushednBroken 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I'm still in recovery and I relapsed a few times already about a week ago I think. Sometimes I want to be fully recovered and other times I never want to end my ednos. School is...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    I used to have Ana and Mia and I was 100lbs but now I'm 132lbs and back with Ana. I'm scared about purging cos it ruins it teeth and also I love food. If my mom asks me to eat what...
    julescraycray julescraycray 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 9

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    During my sophomore year of high school I suffered from ENDOS. In my sophomore year, I realized that I wasn't happy with my body, and I was gonna do something about it. It...
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Ive been dealing with panic disorder since last year... I dont know and i must admit i really gathering my courage to share this story to you guys. After i was diagnose with panic...
    qijae qijae 18-21, F Jul 25

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    All I ever want to do is eat!! I'm not even hungry all the time I just do it from being bored, stressed, and because well food is just delicious! I am definitely a binge eater and...
    kortskat kortskat 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    When and why did eating become so hard? :/
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    Does anyone else always feel guilty every night at this time after eating and worry about how many calories and weight gain! Just wanna be skinny
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    I recovered for a while, but emotionally and mentally I felt much more out of control and it wasn't really worth it, I've stopped eating again, and things seem to be much better...
    reachingforthesun reachingforthesun 16-17, F Aug 6

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    My mom asked why I looked so pale I'm like ummmm not staying in the sun then she's like no have u been eating I'm like uhhhh ya duh she looked at me and said what u want for dinner...
    Sprinklesnstuff Sprinklesnstuff 13-15, M 5 Responses Aug 6

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    I feel so fcken fat like no joke i seriously need to stop eating fml
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    I'm freaked out that I'm eating too much sugar.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been finally diagnosed after 35 years of trying to find out what was going on with me. It started when I was 5 years old. I used to get terrible chest pains and being the...
    VeritasAeterna VeritasAeterna 36-40, F Jul 28

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    I haven't had a panic attack over food in a while. I maintained the weight of 92 for two weeks and now I don't have to see my doctor for month......well I started math camp at my...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    I am sufferibg from bulimia. I don't have body image issues. This was a trained behavior. I feel like I walk a tight rope trying not to slip . I feel the urge to purge all the time...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    BlueHeartSong BlueHeartSong 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I was trying to get over this relapse by myself but I really need someone to talk to that doesn't know me. All my family and friends just make me feel guilty and are too worried...
    DigitalBlue DigitalBlue 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    cj911 cj911 26-30 Aug 1

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    So this is going to be a TMI post. So if you care read on but be warned I'm about to share an issue I've had for about a year and four months now. I used to work at a Transport...
    Mcgregor117 Mcgregor117 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 10

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    To preface, I'd like to say HELLOOO i'm new to EP and just signed up today. I'm an 18-year-old girl going on 19 next Sunday and i'd really appreciate some advice on DPD. I...
    kellythewolf kellythewolf 18-21, F 6 days ago

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