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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a

    period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went through puberty and became borderline overweight. I was so miserable that I took measures that became drastic by age 11. Until age 14...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.

    fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 16-17, F Sep 7

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    The worst aspect of them is that even in recovery, you never entirely let go of the thought-patterns and emotions that link so deeply with the behaviours that drove you there...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    PART 1 Went through other posts on Binge Eating Disorder, glad I'm not alone. However, its still not a good thing. I've been binging for a while now, and if counting calories work...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F Dec 8

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    When I was younger I never ate. Not because I was scared to gain, but because when I was hungry I never felt like actually eating. The thought of it even made me nauseous at times...
    MiniMe57 MiniMe57 13-15, F Dec 6

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    I've been eating a lot to gain because my clothes are loose but it's not working! I think I just want to gain weight to tell my eating disorder "You don't control me!"but i still...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I don't think I could say that I "had" an eating disorder. I think it's like being an alcoholic. You're just constantly in recovery. I relapsed this week. Mentally and physically...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I last puked from my bulimia a week ago (I'm trying so hard to curb My eating disorder and not make it worse) And now My food still doesn't want to stay down. I never purged daily...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I struggle with eating disorders. I chew and spit, I starve myself and sometimes I overeat junk food and then sometimes take diet pills and laxatives. Please someone message me and...
    kristen18p kristen18p 18-21, F Dec 9

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M Nov 21

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    I have schizoaffective disorder. I'm sitting at home on a friday night by myself. First of all I didn't have the energy to go out, secondly, I just never seem to have plans...
    krome13 krome13 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Purged last night. Saw so much blood but I'm so used to seeing blood when I purge it doesn't scare me. I know I should be more worried but I just don't care. I'm feeled with apathy...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 27

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Idk, i guess i've always been this way...it simply got worse with time. I'm not anorexic, or bulimic or a binge eater or anything along those lines. I don't have issues with my...
    IAmOptimusPrime IAmOptimusPrime 22-25, F Nov 30

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    I hate myself... In every single way... I used to eat 1 or 2 meals a day... But I think I'm ready to take it to the next level... Again.. Maybe when I'm thin I can feel better...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Seeing the posts on this page makes me so sad... :( I used to struggle with anorexia and bulimia daily, and sometimes I still fall into old mindsets. But this is NOT the way to be...
    CountryQueen623 CountryQueen623 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    I had been doing so well with my eating, and I just relapsed. I feel like such failure.
    Rmarie17 Rmarie17 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    Day 4 not eating. where tf is my appetite. I licked a spoon with tomato soup on it earlier today and that's the closest I've gotten to food. My body rejects even the thought of...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F Nov 24

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    I want to stop eating again.
    reverofniht reverofniht 16-17, F Nov 24

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    Hi. A few weeks ago i started this 'diet'..which isn't a diet..it's my way to death...i know that. I have a really good breakfast everyday. My friends, my parents, my teachers...
    BeancaBiaa BeancaBiaa 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Never eating a ******* thing again!
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 6

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    I was 220 pounds.... my mom has depression and my dad always works so of course all I ate was fast food it was easy on my mom but twist I took ballets from age 2-13 now I'm 17 my...
    hsch212 hsch212 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Im falling back into my old ways i cant even eat dinner or anything else with out counting the calories or thinking how fat i am and hating my self for eating that i want to feel...
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    There was this one time I was going to make enough tuna to make sandwiches for a few days but i ended up just eating all the tuna probably within 15 seconds.
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Im losing weight... But still feel like **** at the end of the day... Though I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat... I end up forcing myself to... But I really don't want to... I'm...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I weighted myself today...the first role in months. I lost it. Guess who isn't eating tomorrow.?
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hi. I'm fifteen, 5'2", and I don't know how much I weigh. I know that four months ago I was 150 pounds. I skip breakfast ad lunch and sometimes I only have my snack after school...
    Lbh1999 Lbh1999 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    its co,e to the point, that i have panic attacks before or after eating small meals or sometimes a drink
    itsjustlucy123 itsjustlucy123 13-15, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I haven't update any experience with this statement in a really long time. 5'3, 84lbs I think that explains it. I finally succeeded^^ my goal has been reached. But I'm scared...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 2 Responses Nov 26

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    They want and make me eat so I have to... Sadly I don't want to so I'm sitting here crying... I'm sorry I'm not perfect for you two..
    vyrlox vyrlox 18-21, F Dec 6

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    I'm really struggling lately. I managed to go nearly a year with very few slip ups. I gained two stone and felt very happy. But over the past month or two I have relapsed. I feel...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Feels like I'm going through purging withdrawals! I NEED to PURGE!!! Had a stressful day and I just NEED that feeling of discomfort when I binge because that's how I feel now. Then...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    I have been recovering from an ed for over half a year. I am getting worried because I've missed my period for a while year. What should I do?????
    comfortablynumb9 comfortablynumb9 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I love thanksgiving! It's my favorite holiday. It's the ultimate test of my self control. I am faced with lots of food and I don't eat it. I fast 2 days before thanksgiving dinner...
    laxprincess laxprincess 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I don't want to be bulimic anymore. But I do. But I don't. Uggg. It's messing up my health. I have a constant sore throat even though I haven't purged in two days and it only gets...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 2

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    My mum found out that I have starved myself...it was getting better for a bit, but she hid the bathroom scale! And now I can't see how much weight I've gained back since up was...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    Part 2 This is a crazy vicious cycle. I dont know how to deal with all these crap. People judge. ALL THE TIME. People do not look up to me, and i want to prove them wrong. I can be...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F Dec 8

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    Living I'm Australia made my anorexia sorest because not only did I research that we as a country came third on the scales but also because most of our food is take away, full of...
    Puck4Eva Puck4Eva 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I have days when I eat normal but then I will have days where I eat so much food its crazy.... usually i start my day fine and then at the end of the day i just stuff my face with...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 5 days ago

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