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I Used To Have An Eating Disorder

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    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall

    and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict what I eat and try to make sure that I eat. On a good day I'll have two meals. I try my hardest to even keep my food...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 2, 2014

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    I can now honestly say I'm fully recovered from

    anorexia, bulimia and selfharm. I have had these problems since I was in P6 at school so around 10 years old. I'm now 17, the last 7 years have been tough. In and out of hospitals, suicide attempts, scars that will be there forever. I set up my Instagram and twitter last summer...
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    The thought of what I used to look like

    and be like bother me everyday. I am in therapy for it and I don't think anything will help. I look normal again but it's weird remembering how things used to fit me and how I used to look back then
    Happybri123 Happybri123 18-21, F Mar 16

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a

    period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went through puberty and became borderline overweight. I was so miserable that I took measures that became drastic by age 11. Until age 14...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3, 2014

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    When I think back on it,

    my eating wasn't normal even as a child. I was an emotional eater, like my mom. When I was 14 my life in general was pretty crappy and I took a turn for the worst and became anorexic. Eventually it got to the point where I knew that I either had to let my ED go or I was going...
    FreedomtoFly FreedomtoFly 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2014

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    Can you ask me stuff on ask.

    fm my username is skinnydream_123. The link is http://ask.fm/skinnydream_123 thankyou. Preferably eating disorder related questions
    oliviiaxo oliviiaxo 18-21, F Sep 7, 2014

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    Aneorexia Nervosa

    I had aneorexia to the point that i weighed 7st at 6'tall and was emaciated, extremely physically ill, but much worse i was trapped in a calorie counting, self loathing hateful world of misery, and paranoia, truly walking alone in the depths of suffering and mental torture. this...
    trev23 trev23 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Except for I do not have the eating disorder that most of you have. I have binge eating disorder. Binge Eating Disorder, for those of you who do not know, is kind of like Bulimia...
    brriittttaannyy brriittttaannyy 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I had an eating disorder for almost 4 years. it started with the fact that I hate eating around people and I don't like chewing noises and then progressed to not just avoiding...
    shannonjade shannonjade 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Like many mental health issues, eating disorders are simply not recognized as severe public health problems and carries a great stigma. But there is POWER in collective...
    MSWatUSC MSWatUSC 22-25, F Apr 13

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    Sometimes I eat a lot and still hungry...sometimes I don't want to eat at all...and sometimes I feel hungry but I also feel like if I eat something I'll throw up for sure...sigh...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M Apr 21

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    My eating disorder was yesterday diagnosed as anorexia. I've fought against this horrible mental illness for half a year, which is way too long. I want to live a normal life again...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    my bulimia isnt what defines me. It took me awhile to recognize that "hey i have a problem" but i kept quite for a long time. Not just my eating disorder but other things as well...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    been having it for all my life really but it manifested itself truly little over a year ago and my weight has just been one big yoyo one minute im skin and bones and the next im...
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I don't want to be skinny. I don't want to be called "skinny". I just want to be healthy. And I am healthy. I am recovered. 7 years without an eating disorder is wonderful. I look...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 23

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    I've decided today, that im going to fight this eating disorder... I'm not gonna let it win... I've talked with my sister and she's gonna help plan healthy meals for me. Taking...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was thinking to get a job at Starbucks to gain experience (because i never do any work before) but i have panic disorder with agoraphobia. I am feeling a little bit scared and...
    qijae qijae 18-21, F Apr 20

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    Hi, I have Schizoaffective Disorder, and I feel like I have split personalities, one is the Schizoaffective part of me, the one who talks about angels and demons, light and...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I believe i have... I am struggelning with these thoughts... Impulses. I could just end it, jump infront of that train.... Or it would feel so good to cut... To feel something...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm not sure what to think right now. I've gained about five unwanted pounds this year. Nothing major, still thin. Just a little bit of excess fat that I recently gained. I wanted...
    Justventingg Justventingg 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 26

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    I still struggle on eating much or enough but hey I'm proud to say that atleast I haven't starve in like two weeks. I've been eating all three meals and some snacks. A few times I...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    This nonesense of not wanting to eat and starve myself is getting old. The lost of complete appetite is ridiculous. I'm hiplogucemic I NEED to have my meals and my snacks and yet I...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I'm really scared. I tried to eat a few hours ago and bite after bite I just felt so disgusted big time (but I kept forcing me to eat. I couldn't manage to eat the whole plate...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F Apr 23

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    I started eating a little again now Im not eating at all I don't deserve to I deserve to did from starvation
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 11

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    IF YOUR NAME IS ALEXA OR MATTHEW DONT READ: YAY!!! I haven't ate today I hope my pro ana buddy is proud of me u know who u are lol I'm proud of myself for not eating at all now I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I hate it. I really do. I always relapse back into restricting/fasting for up to a month, then I'll go back to normal. Why this ******* constant up and down thing? I am so...
    SilencesLullaby SilencesLullaby 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    For a long time in my youth I struggled with food. I was painfully conscious of others and craved the approval of my peers. I became obsessive about what stared back at me from the...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Skip dinner? I think so. I'd rather feel hungry than feel sick after eating and angry with myself that I'm gaining weight.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I tend to eat very tiny portions and I always chew and spit without swallowing most of my food. Yesterday my parents and I were out and we picked up dinner on the go. They kept...
    imasweetheart imasweetheart 13-15, F Apr 18

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    I, Caylee, had delayed 2 weeks of my life stuck in that hellish hospital, but today is my release date. So I guess I’m sort of happy. Either way I actually missed Anna and Miah...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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    Eating nothing today... I want to be skinny. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 21

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    Going to start dieting... Forcing myself to exercise.. Stick to mostly liquids rather than food. I've started to put on weight and that makes me unhappy... I feel sick after...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me...
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    It's day 4 of the ABC diet and my collar bones are showing more. I can't wait for my huge *** stomach to go away :/ I just love the feeling of mastery over my body. It's soothing...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    i hide food. lots of junk. i binge. i purge. i lie. i cover. i push away. and now? im tired. im sick. and im so lonely. even with Ana constantly by my side. I know I've said this...
    LostGirl1029 LostGirl1029 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    i have been diaognised with bulime but now have tency owrds anxerixa not coping at all feell down
    earthquakegirl earthquakegirl 26-30, F Apr 16

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    I am currently in recovery from starving. I have always wanted to be a model and I always viewed my self as to large. These pictures are me. I feel uneasy posting them but what do...
    kelseyw0616 kelseyw0616 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    I haven't eaten today and don't plan on it for two weeks. In a manic decision this morning, I took 4 times the normal dose of ADHD meds (which I had forgotten dull appetite). Idk I...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 21

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    I have no appetite and I'm being force fed... All I seem to be doing is sleep and no one seems to care about me... At least one good thing has happened today, I managed to get rid...
    philex2014 philex2014 13-15, F Apr 25

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    I have to go to my grandmas for dinner tomorrow and I haven't seen this grandma since thanksgiving I haven't ate in a long time and I've been really dizzy and haven't felt well I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 25

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    I have never really talked about it but every time someone very stressful happens I get my old habits back. all this year has been hard and this death in my family really triggered...
    zoeyB zoeyB 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I haven't ate in so many days I'm so proud of myself
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 26

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