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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,941 People

    Cut my thighs real bad today Can't believe I'm

    saying this but my legs look better with cuts on them Hate these cuts but I think they're pretty
    SadLylaxx SadLylaxx 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I used to. I used to think about death

    and I used to never smile. I used to be in a very very very dark place. Whether it's a month or a year or of you're me 4 years ... it's all great. Finding other ways to not hurt yourself whether it's just physical harm or even mental pain finding another route is amazing...
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe 16-17, F Sep 20, 2015

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    divergentone divergentone 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2015

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    Used to has turned into "currently self-harm".

    I relapsed 3 months ago on my birthday, depressed about my birthday. Done it twice since then. Thinking of buying some razors instead of using the old pair of scissors I have. I like to see a lot of blood, but I don't like cleaning it up and healing afterwards. It's a coping...
    Iscarpia87 Iscarpia87 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    i never really physically self harmed myself.

    it was mainly emotionally. there were times when i would publicly humiliate myself on purpose. every time i felt depressed , i would draw negative attention to myself. i would go to school looking like a clown pretty much. i had on so much makeup of different colors that didn't...
    HeySafaaJust HeySafaaJust 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    Used to is a joke I struggle with self harm

    But it's gotten so so so much better
    ClinNN ClinNN 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    i feel it again...i cant go back to it

    but i feel it. inside is a fist of ice grabbing my heart. crushing the life out of me. i cant stop thos horrible feeling. i want that sting of a blade again. to see the bright red blood so i know im still human. i need the pain to focus..to stop this i feel inside. it wont...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 4 hrs ago

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4, 2015

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    I am currently 232 days self harm free

    which is the longest amount of time I've went without injuring myself in 8 year.
    Bitchnney Bitchnney 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    If you are suffering from depression,

    self-harm etc. Join http://live-another-day.boards.net/
    driftingalone driftingalone 16-17, F Jan 24

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 18, 2015

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    I was 2 months clean,

    but my best friend in the world started cutting again and it makes me sad to just see that someone I care about is cutting themselves
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 25

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    I don't know if I'm quite at the point

    where I can say "used to" yet, but I think I'm going to get there. I am a recovering Self-harmer. I haven't cut in almost 4 1/2 months. I was really bad at one point, bad to the point I was cutting every day. I did it at school, at my friend's house, at my Aunt's house...
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446 13-15, T 3 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    lizc99 lizc99 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 22, 2015

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 16-17, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    It's so weird saying this BC in a way I don't

    feel like I've fully recovered. Sometimes I still think about and I don't know last time I did it BC I do different forms of SH. I guess I feel like the cutting part of it I've recovered from but I still find myself scratching, hitting, biting, pinching etc.... Idk I guess...
    wetepentz wetepentz 13-15, F Jan 12

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    It's been almost a year

    since I self harmed, and with Christmas approaching I'm fighting off the demons with everything I've got. I really wish I would have thought to pick up this childhood hobby last year instead of looking to my inner thigh for "relief". Live and learn.
    MsJessicaRabbit MsJessicaRabbit 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 13, 2015

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    yo okay I'm almost a year clean

    and I'm so freaking rwmoted to just throw that away and cut again ahahahah help me
    anakinskenobis anakinskenobis 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2015

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    Still do everyday "If you wanna kill yourself

    cut vertically they can't stitch that up"
    SadLylaxx SadLylaxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 14. I'm 20 now. It's become so normal for me. I've been trying to stop since my boyfriend noticed the scars. He was so upset that I felt the need to do this to myself. I didn't think it was a big deal since I've been doing it for so long. I'm afraid I won't be able...
    Dtea15 Dtea15 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    stopped cutting 1 yr ago,

    started taking drugs, started drinking and relapsed just last night.
    dreamsphere dreamsphere 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx 18-21, M Feb 21, 2015

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    How do you stop please

    because I can't xc
    icantstandme icantstandme 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've started up again,

    I only did it again tonight as a one off because I'd had a really bad day...but then someone saw. Now they've told adults who've told my parents and everything's getting worse. I really want to do more but I can't because then they will know but there aren't any other ways to...
    Randompi Randompi 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26, 2015

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    I know that I've already said my story,

    but I felt that I needed to briefly talk about this again, being that there are many people on here mentioning that they're currently and purposely harming themselves. I'll tell you why I quit. I quit because it wasn't doing anything for me. Sure, I felt a little better after...
    Dereth Dereth 26-30, M Jan 10

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    I'm trying really hard to stop

    for someone I really love and its hard but so far I'm clean. I may relapse like I have many times before but this time I'm really trying.
    BeautifulChaos512 BeautifulChaos512 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 16, 2015

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    I self harm everyday I can't stand myself the

    person in the mirror I try n fight cause I don't like him I don't like me I need someone I have nobody I just want to die I'm all alone please don't let me wake up it looks like the vocies r to strong in the end this soul less person u say I am u made me a monster the time is...
    Weesm2016 Weesm2016 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 25

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    I stopped self harming cause I didn't think my

    crush would like me anymore if I made more cuts so I stopped and when ever I think of doing it I hold their sweatshirt and cry it sounds pathetic but it helps
    EminemSavedMe EminemSavedMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Hey all, I wanted to take a minute to encourage

    you that freedom is possible. It’s been ten years since I last cut myself. When I was in 8th grade some of my friends where struggling with it and I was concerned, little did I know that next year I’d have that very same struggle. Low self-image, not having a lot of friends...
    travelgal8605 travelgal8605 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 18-21, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    I'm officially 14 days clean today.

    Although two weeks isn't too long, it's a huge improvement. I'm really, really proud of myself, because these past couple of weeks have been tempting. My biggest issue is my scars. They'll be there forever, but they'll somewhat fade. I've learned to accept them, I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Sep 19, 2015

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    I wish I didn't care sometimes.

    ..I really do. There'd be less pain in my world if I simply stopped caring. But to live a life filled with apathy comes the lack of feeling love and connecting with others that have the incredible ability to breathe life into you with a simple smile. The world lost another...
    MsJessicaRabbit MsJessicaRabbit 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    Sometimes I can be my worst enemy.

    I can be so self destructive. I've cut myself in the past, yes, but more than that I have so much self hatred that I have yet to work through. Sometimes I feel like the bliss of nothingness would be better than the emotional torment I subject myself to. It's tough to say that I...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 22, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've never been so tempted to relapse.

    It wasn't even a bad day. Idk what's wrong.
    Nyx5 Nyx5 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I thought I had stopped

    for good. It had been a year but then last week I cracked. Honestly the worst thing about this is I didn't have a real reason to do it.
    JaneRezubian JaneRezubian 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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