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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,523 People

    September will mark a year without any

    self-harm. No scratching, no cutting, no eraser burns, no biting, no hitting, no hair pulling. No form of self-harm whatsoever (other than cigarettes, but I've gone eleven days now and it's only getting easier). Here lately, though, I've had a lot going on in my life. I also...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 1 Response May 17

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    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx 16-17, M Feb 21

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    I've been clean for almost a year thanks to my

    dad but im still really sad a lot and my mom just makes it worse when I see her
    wishdish wishdish 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 6

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    XxSuicidalKissesxX XxSuicidalKissesxX 13-15, F Jun 4

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I haven't self-harmed in a month

    but the urges are strong this time.. I don't know what to do . I might actually give in /.
    anagapesis anagapesis 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I use to be extremely addicted to self harm I

    wanted nothing more then to feel a blade cut through my flesh. it was more when I was losing control in my personal life that I began to cut myself.it was a release from everything I could control how much pain I wanted to feel and how deep I wanted to go. its now been 4 years...
    emovamp emovamp 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    All of my past disorders mainly started from

    self harm. My anorexia, started with me refusing to eat, because it was physically painful, and if felt right. But later it became an addiction. My trichotillomania, trich is a hair pulling disorder, it's extremely rare, and there's no cure for it, it happens just like it...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    Today I decided to go

    for a swim, and as always I caught a few people staring at my scars. I used to be really insecure about them, but now I realize that there is absolutely nothing that I can do about them, except accept them and move on from my life. My scars show that I was once in pain, but I...
    nycgirl19 nycgirl19 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneGeorgiouAndrea CemoneGeorgiouAndrea 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I know if I killed myself right

    now no one would care. I'm so alone.
    kylieadams kylieadams 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    I just want to let all the people

    who say self harming is "dumb" and "pointless", know that they are very ignorant about the situation and they should just shut up. I used to self harm. I didn't do it for attention. I did it for release. If things fort way too overwhelming, I cut. That was my way of coping. So...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    I've done it again...

    tonight. I couldn't help myself, my councillor nashed off somewhere and today has been awful. Bullies at school have been touching me and throwing things off me and touch info my stuff, my brother is being horrible and my dad isn't understanding or lettin me talk, for everytime...
    thedimone thedimone 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    Triggers. That's what I hate the most.

    I have been clean since last August :) but u still get major urges.
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F May 31

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I want to start again,

    but the reason I did it makes me feel like doing it would be extremely disrespectful to those who actually self-harm as a coping skill against depression, anxiety, and stress.
    2l4t 2l4t 13-15, M Jun 20

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    It took me a while to get over it.

    .. I still do it every once in a while now.... But I'm getting close to full recovery..... I hope
    skysalterego skysalterego 13-15, F 1 Response May 17

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    Self harm is like ripping pages out of the book

    of your own life story. It slowly chips away at your soul. I used to hurt myself on the outside to kill the thing on the inside. That is not the way to do it as I know now.
    Hopefu1 Hopefu1 13-15, F 1 Response May 31

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    I still have my scars,

    and I get tempted every once in a while, but I'm about a month clean and I don't plan to ever return to my old habits. seeing the marks on my wrist just reminded me how sad I was and I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. I hope that everyone who cuts finds an...
    Kensie13 Kensie13 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    last time i cutted was on 5/6/15

    but the sadness is still here w/me. it has never went away. & it sucks.
    yxngmamii yxngmamii 18-21, F Jun 9

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    "Your arm." My father noticed over dinner.

    "What happened?" I was about 12 and had had a rough day so I sort of took the thumbtack holding a poster on my bedroom and stabbed my right arm(I'm left handed) as well as dragging cuts into my arm. Now I kept that arm in my lap and pretended it didn't ache. I also pretended not...
    sagate sagate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    my family and friends still think Im self

    harming, and are threatening me to go to a provincial councelor, and I HATE counseling :'(
    xXNeverGoodEnoughXx xXNeverGoodEnoughXx 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    I've spent around a grand doing up my arms in

    bright beautiful colours, artwork to hide the disaster I used to be. I'm like candy coated misery. There days I want to slice them to bits all the same. I won't. I'm still embarrassed of the one deep scar that is still showing after numerous treatments. I beat the eating...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F Dec 19, 2013

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    I haven't felt this down in so,

    so long. I've been called such terrible things and felt so awful today. I literally am trapped here. I don't know what to do. I honestly just have the urge to self harm so STRONG. But I can't do it, I can't. I've gone so far without doing it. I just feels so needed right now...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    The last time I self harmed was around 9 months

    ago. Today, my best friend (aka my dad) got into a huge fight, and he didn't understand at all. So, the person who I usually talk to about this is him, but we're in a fight. I haven't felt this huge of an urge sense 9 months ago. I really want to self harm. I want to get the new...
    kylieadams kylieadams 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Is it weird that I miss my scars?

    That I miss seeing my blood drip? That I miss the pain? Everyday I get tempted, everyday I resist. But everyday I can feel my resolve becoming weaker. I don't want to return to self-harm, but at the same time, I do. I don't understand what's going on around me, neither do I...
    Anita467 Anita467 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 4

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    This Fall will be 30 Years

    since I started pulling my hair on top and yes I do still do it! it is a way I deal with stress.
    Nebmom2 Nebmom2 41-45, F May 17

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