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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,705 People

    craigslist504 craigslist504 36-40 Aug 18

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I used to self harm for a lot of reasons

    and in a lot of different ways. I self harmed because I was scared and angry. I did it because I was abused by one of my treatment centers for anorexia. I did it because I hated myself. The way I did it was by cutting. Scratching myself, biting myself and hitting myself. I...
    LateApology LateApology 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The scars will never go away

    but my daughter is the reminder of why i stopped. Nothing will keep me from being there for her.
    UkuladyPDX UkuladyPDX 22-25, F Jul 22

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    Last year when I split up from my boyfriend,

    he left me in such a bad way and I was broken.. I was a different person to what I am now. I was weak back then and he broke me... I couldn't go out, eat or sleep.. I saw the blade one day and thought maybe just maybe that'll make the pain go away.. I'm left with a massive scar...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    and I often think of doing it again.

    The "switch" has gone off maybe three times since I stopped years ago, and I have to immediately shut my brain down from proceeding. You know the switch? The one that goes "Yes, I need to do this, I need to self harm. That is the answer right now." It is still there and I have...
    hexgrl2k hexgrl2k 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    lizc99 lizc99 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    I've spent around a grand doing up my arms in

    bright beautiful colours, artwork to hide the disaster I used to be. I'm like candy coated misery. There days I want to slice them to bits all the same. I won't. I'm still embarrassed of the one deep scar that is still showing after numerous treatments. I beat the eating...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 13

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    Has anyone here ever gone through a relapse

    after being clean for a really long time? I just did... I don't know what I was thinking. Can someone message me? I hate this. I feel so pathetic.
    suddenliberty suddenliberty 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 16

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    its been 15 years and the scars show up just

    the same as half my life ago...
    Tstanley86 Tstanley86 26-30, F Jul 23

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Sometimes I want to do it again,

    but my parents caught me Andrade me go to counciling for months. I had a long talking to and now my parents still sometimes do random arm checks. Anyway he taught me there are different ways to control your emotions and troubles, there's an alternate way for everybody it just...
    Randompi Randompi 13-15, F Aug 14

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    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 22

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I'm 2 months clean so far.

    It's really hard. I always think about going back to the blade. I feel like people don't understand and I can't talk to the people that I want to. They either say "get over it" or sown thing. I didn't know what I was feeling for the longest time , so at least with a blade , I...
    deannam8101 deannam8101 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    I used to cut myself a lot more often

    than I do now. Nothing can ever replace that kind of satisfaction in my life. When I finally decided to try to stop, it was only because I didn't want anymore scars. Vanity of course. It wasn't because I got better. My therapist thinks it's progress but I've only gone on to...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 18

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    I used to self harm a few months back

    but then I did it again last night. It's been so hard because my girlfriend has been all depressed and I've made her feel better but I've gone down in the process. I self harmed last night again and I'm scared I will continue doing it and I don't want to tell her because then...
    JoshKilbride2 JoshKilbride2 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneGeorgiouAndrea CemoneGeorgiouAndrea 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    I think I've self harmed off

    and on from 6th grade to about a month or so ago. I've done plenty of things just to feel pain cutting, branding, needles, hitting myself and solid objects, and eraser burns. I really just want to feel it again, the pain and endorphin rush that feels good.
    thatonedudecaleb thatonedudecaleb 16-17, M Aug 16

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    Sometimes.. I still feel the urges to self harm.

    . I never feel like I'm enough anymore.. I feel like I'm worthless.. I hate it tbh.. I hate this. I hate feeling this way.. But, I'll put up a battle with self harm.. I'm 6 months clean.. I don't wanna start over but at the same time I want to.. 💔
    ThatOneSadTeen ThatOneSadTeen 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    A lot, everyday. I'm thankful my scars have

    disappeared and only one is noticeable, and no one asks me about it. Used to self harm for 5-6 years till I found my husband. Its been 8 years since I've picked up a blade. I know what I need to teach my children so they don't go down the same road. it was a teaching experience...
    MidnightKiss082 MidnightKiss082 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    I use to self harm on a daily basis.

    My friends started to notice and they spread the rumor faster than anything. My family members ended up finding out and threatening with things if I didn't stop. My dad is afraid he can't even punish me because of it. He says I use my depression as a crutch. Having my own dad be...
    Interruption Interruption 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I stopped cutting about a month ago,

    and now whenever I look at my arm I see the scars that were to deep. And when people look at my arm, they ask me what happens and stuff like that
    ImInLoveWithBands ImInLoveWithBands 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    People always wonder what's the gain out of

    self harming.. And I was like "I feel so much better" but I was wrong. There is no gain. Glad I stopped. I actually feel pretty lame that I self harmed, so stupid.. Please if you still do, stop it immediately there is really no gain out of it.
    Alltimefreak Alltimefreak 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I used to cut and it sucks

    because now everytime I wear a short sleeve shirt and shorts people ask uncomfortable questions and I just wish they would go away
    melissaosieja melissaosieja 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 29

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    I hate the fact that i have scars on my arms

    and people are going to be looking at them and judging me about how i look and wont want to go out with me
    lisa1dixon lisa1dixon 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I haven't self harmed 9 months now,

    it's been a struggle and a fight. But I'm making it
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23

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    Im at 159 days clean

    and so proud of me 💪🏼 its hard to stop and to be at 100 days clean was the most hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. Thanks to all of my friends and especially to my boyfriend who gave me so much help when all i asked was a bit of love... xox <3
    lailalessard lailalessard 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    U & Me forever this way www.

    nidhisuraj.com There are so many Love Stories in this world. Few stories become so famous but few are unsaid and been buried with time. Few others share their love stories with their friends, while some leave them as sweet memories for themselves within their hearts and few...
    evan003 evan003 18-21, F Jul 23

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    It's been a couple months,

    but all my self harmers , and people that are clean , it feels good to have that control, right? I mean even if you don't want to any more, your life feels different, you know? Idk.
    everythursday everythursday 13-15, F Jul 26

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    I used to cut myself constantly,

    carving at my leg then always wearing pants so no one would know. It was a form of release, I always loved to see the blood flow, the more the better. I was always methodical about cleaning the wounds and bandaging them so they wouldn't get infected, probably needed stitches...
    Iscarpia87 Iscarpia87 26-30, M Aug 4

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    Perhaps I might do it again.

    Now to everyone in recovery or already recovered. Good. Do not be ashamed of your scars. If you're brave enough to take up the business of living you ought to be brave enough to look at the future instead of being afraid of your own past. It's shallow minded and offensive to...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 Aug 8

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007