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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,714 People

    I feel pretty lame that I self harmed.

    my dad is emotionally, verbally, and mentally abusive towards me. I guess anytime he was abusive towards me that's when I'd self harm. I can deal with physical pain better than emotional. I started doing it this year and stopped a few months ago. there has been two times...
    haleymc haleymc 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    lizc99 lizc99 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    Has anyone here ever gone through a relapse

    after being clean for a really long time? I just did... I don't know what I was thinking. Can someone message me? I hate this. I feel so pathetic.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Aug 16

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    I think I've self harmed off

    and on from 6th grade to about a month or so ago. I've done plenty of things just to feel pain cutting, branding, needles, hitting myself and solid objects, and eraser burns. I really just want to feel it again, the pain and endorphin rush that feels good.
    thatonedudecaleb thatonedudecaleb 16-17, M Aug 16

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I'm 2 months clean so far.

    It's really hard. I always think about going back to the blade. I feel like people don't understand and I can't talk to the people that I want to. They either say "get over it" or sown thing. I didn't know what I was feeling for the longest time , so at least with a blade , I...
    deannam8101 deannam8101 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    I stopped cutting about a month ago,

    and now whenever I look at my arm I see the scars that were to deep. And when people look at my arm, they ask me what happens and stuff like that
    LuvAlexis LuvAlexis 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    So self harm was something I struggled with

    for quite a while. It got pretty bad at one point and recently I have decided I can't do that anymore. I no longer want to do it and I have to stop it! So today at work some people were being miserable and I didn't know what to do, I grabbed some paper and started drawing. Which...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    its been 15 years and the scars show up just

    the same as half my life ago...
    Tstanley86 Tstanley86 26-30, F Jul 23

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    I used to cut myself constantly,

    carving at my leg then always wearing pants so no one would know. It was a form of release, I always loved to see the blood flow, the more the better. I was always methodical about cleaning the wounds and bandaging them so they wouldn't get infected, probably needed stitches...
    Iscarpia87 Iscarpia87 26-30, M Aug 4

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    Sometimes I want to do it again,

    but my parents caught me Andrade me go to counciling for months. I had a long talking to and now my parents still sometimes do random arm checks. Anyway he taught me there are different ways to control your emotions and troubles, there's an alternate way for everybody it just...
    Randompi Randompi 13-15, F Aug 14

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    I used to cut myself a lot more often

    than I do now. Nothing can ever replace that kind of satisfaction in my life. When I finally decided to try to stop, it was only because I didn't want anymore scars. Vanity of course. It wasn't because I got better. My therapist thinks it's progress but I've only gone on to...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Im at 159 days clean

    and so proud of me 💪🏼 its hard to stop and to be at 100 days clean was the most hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. Thanks to all of my friends and especially to my boyfriend who gave me so much help when all i asked was a bit of love... xox <3
    lailalessard lailalessard 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 18

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    I used to cut and it sucks

    because now everytime I wear a short sleeve shirt and shorts people ask uncomfortable questions and I just wish they would go away
    melissaosieja melissaosieja 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 29

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    It's 5 years since I've self harmed.

    When I look at my scars, I think of the pain, the memories, and knowing there wasn't a way out of my hard times. As years past, I grew wiser, I knew there isn't always a easy way out threw the BS in life. I knew, that cutting, burning and having suicidal thoughts was my way out...
    nicolebunn nicolebunn 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 22

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    and I often think of doing it again.

    The "switch" has gone off maybe three times since I stopped years ago, and I have to immediately shut my brain down from proceeding. You know the switch? The one that goes "Yes, I need to do this, I need to self harm. That is the answer right now." It is still there and I have...
    hexgrl2k hexgrl2k 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I used to cut myself

    and burn myself and just hurt myself in general to escape all the pain. I have not done it for three years and I'm proud to say that was a stupid thing I used to do. But lately the pain that triggers it has been knocking at the door and I'm scared it might break through. It...
    Trashboat1 Trashboat1 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 4 Responses May 22, 2013

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I hate the fact that i have scars on my arms

    and people are going to be looking at them and judging me about how i look and wont want to go out with me
    lisa1dixon lisa1dixon 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I used to self harm a few months back

    but then I did it again last night. It's been so hard because my girlfriend has been all depressed and I've made her feel better but I've gone down in the process. I self harmed last night again and I'm scared I will continue doing it and I don't want to tell her because then...
    JoshKilbride2 JoshKilbride2 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    I use to self harm on a daily basis.

    My friends started to notice and they spread the rumor faster than anything. My family members ended up finding out and threatening with things if I didn't stop. My dad is afraid he can't even punish me because of it. He says I use my depression as a crutch. Having my own dad be...
    Interruption Interruption 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I haven't self harmed 9 months now,

    it's been a struggle and a fight. But I'm making it
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23

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    Sometimes.. I still feel the urges to self harm.

    . I never feel like I'm enough anymore.. I feel like I'm worthless.. I hate it tbh.. I hate this. I hate feeling this way.. But, I'll put up a battle with self harm.. I'm 6 months clean.. I don't wanna start over but at the same time I want to.. 💔
    ThatOneSadTeen ThatOneSadTeen 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    I will be a year clean next month!

    Love to everyone still hurting, it does get better ♡
    Thesupremewitch Thesupremewitch 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    People always wonder what's the gain out of

    self harming.. And I was like "I feel so much better" but I was wrong. There is no gain. Glad I stopped. I actually feel pretty lame that I self harmed, so stupid.. Please if you still do, stop it immediately there is really no gain out of it.
    Alltimefreak Alltimefreak 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    Perhaps I might do it again.

    Now to everyone in recovery or already recovered. Good. Do not be ashamed of your scars. If you're brave enough to take up the business of living you ought to be brave enough to look at the future instead of being afraid of your own past. It's shallow minded and offensive to...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 Aug 8

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 18

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    I used to self harm for a lot of reasons

    and in a lot of different ways. I self harmed because I was scared and angry. I did it because I was abused by one of my treatment centers for anorexia. I did it because I hated myself. The way I did it was by cutting. Scratching myself, biting myself and hitting myself. I...
    LateApology LateApology 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    The scars will never go away

    but my daughter is the reminder of why i stopped. Nothing will keep me from being there for her.
    UkuladyPDX UkuladyPDX 22-25, F Jul 22

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    Last year when I split up from my boyfriend,

    he left me in such a bad way and I was broken.. I was a different person to what I am now. I was weak back then and he broke me... I couldn't go out, eat or sleep.. I saw the blade one day and thought maybe just maybe that'll make the pain go away.. I'm left with a massive scar...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 2