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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 3,394 People

    Would you date a girl with self harm scars?

    As in over 500 on whole body if they were all old and when would you expect her to tell you? Honest answers please 😄
    Kissedbyarose Kissedbyarose 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I used to cut myself.

    I haven't for about 2 years.
    IamtheTinMan IamtheTinMan 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    caradallas caradallas 13-15, F Mar 22

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    My Story Thus Far

    Fair warning: Maybe I needed to blab about this, but, regardless, this is pretty long, with probably too many specifics, but I'll keep it as is anyway, with a TL;DR at the end. If whoever reads this wants to skip to the part where I begin to fix myself, it's the third giant...
    BaconSpork BaconSpork 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 20, 2013

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    I used to use a curling iron.

    I would heat it up to.... 250? Maybe 300. I can't remember, it was a while since I've done it. I started in sixth grade and it ended at eighth when I finally felt a little okay again. If you've seen any of my other stories, then I believe you could probably figure out why I...
    gorillawarfare gorillawarfare 13-15, F Mar 2

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I'm scared I'm going to relapse

    but it's the only thing that will make me feel better
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 1

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    I started very young,

    with small scratches and it became progressively more severe. It was a release for the pain, frustration and fear I felt and it served a purpose at the time. I'm grateful that I found it within myself to stop for good, when I was around 19 or 20. I tried a lot of different ways...
    Chaosforthefly Chaosforthefly 22-25, F Jan 14

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    Wow so its the beginning of 2014 now

    and i was looking back on my past stories and i remember them so vividly. I spent a year without getting on EP. I went through a lot through that one year but thats way too much to type. Overall I got heartbroken several times, fell in love and deep in love, started my first...
    UnknownPoet UnknownPoet 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I use to cut, burn, binge,

    bruise, and I can honestly say I still do sometimes. But really, it's not worth it to not be able to wear short sleeves without people asking about it. If anyone wants to cut or burn please think about the aftermath, what if your children see it and think it's okay? It's not...
    alexahatesyou alexahatesyou 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 14

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    I used to be this big,

    before I got addicted to laxatives and binge eating/ self harm. I have fully recovered now but then, I was bullied for years and years until I lost weight.
    caminut caminut 13-15, F Mar 17

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    Today I realized that life goes on.

    I haven't done it for a while like 4 months and when my cuts healed and they were scars the mystery of the school was out. I shown everyone my arms. I wasn't proud, but I wasn't ashamed. I stopped so I could be who I was before, and that means wearing short sleeves in the summer...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    Is it worth it? Is it worth giving up two months

    so I can stop crying and be okay? I'm wondering this myself..
    ShainaNichole ShainaNichole 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    It's Only A Matter Of Time.

    I have the urge to cut again. It's almost been two years since I last cut. I just recently threw away all my razors too. But..things have been hard lately. I've been thinking about it a lot and I feel like I need to. My promises to myself and my others are the only thing...
    Thewastedyouth16 Thewastedyouth16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    It's been over 2 years

    since I've cut. I still miss it some days.
    octopieyes octopieyes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Being Free Since 2006...

    There was a stage in my life where i used to self mutilate. It started in my teens, I had a lot of anger. I was living with my father who was abusive and controlling. He was very emotionally abusive. He would call me stupid, say i had no common sense. I remember getting into...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    I am in the middle of dealing with the issue of

    cutting up my feet or taking a lot of anger out on my stomach, I was fine a while ago, and I know that in being grateful when I'm feeling good and trying to be as graceful as I can be when I'm not, that this mood like all things shall pass. But I want to cut lets be honest...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M Apr 1

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    ...there was once a human

    who spent the better part of two overly depressed days knitting himself a proper knotted cat-o-nine tails...that turned out to have more volume when put into use than anticipated... http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Cat-o'-nine-tails_(PSF).jpg
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M Apr 1

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    Things Will Get Better With Time.

    I used to live in a big house, I had a very supporting and loving family, I had very high grades, the latest tech gadgets, great clothes and decent enough looks to match (save for being overweight and having frizzy hair), at the same time I was sheltered and naive, and a so...
    marionhan marionhan 22-25, F Oct 13, 2013

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    I have an addictive personality,

    everyone in my family does. So getting addicted to cutting was very easy, i started when i was twelve years old, to say i no long cut would be a lie, i do slip up once in a while, but i finally found a new outlet for my awful addiction. i now when i get in my deep state of...
    bapierce9513 bapierce9513 18-21, F Mar 4

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    It's been almost 10 months

    since the last time I cut. I'm pretty proud of myself. It did take a lot of work and I relapsed quite a few times. The scars on my arms are pretty much gone too. ☺️
    daniefaye32346 daniefaye32346 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 3

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    Ive never shared my experience with anyone

    except my favorite book and pen. looking at me all you could ask to yourself is "Why is she what she is?" "Why does she do what she does?" "Why? she looks so happy" well i was raised with a mom and a dad my life was pleasing i got everything i wanted by a phone call, had...
    whenshesmiles whenshesmiles 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I used to cut 'HATE' on my wrist

    until my ma' found out and told me to stop or she'd send me away.... Although I didn't stop because I did it on my upper arms until she found out again, and I soon stopped afraid of what she was going to do... Although I still have the urge to cut today just to feel better.
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    The Battle To Remain A Former Self Harmer...

    My name is The Real Woman, and I last self harmed on July 2nd 2009. Tonight I face a battle and I will win....but it is hard. I am worthy, I am strong, but the temptation calls. Let's all be strong together....so we do not fall into the arms of false warmth again.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 10 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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    Can anyone give me advice on how to get rid of

    self harm scars are there any creams lotions out there that actually work? I don't self harm anymore but I have a line of ten very deep cuts along my thigh done with a Stanley blade, there a year old now and I'm sick of people asking me what happend to my leg when I'm wearing...
    darkdollie darkdollie 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 6

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    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2013

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    i have cut so deep i have needed stitches,

    pulled my hair till the point where i have had a huge bald patch, i have bruised till where i almost needed an X -Ray, I have smoked till i almost had an asthma attack. i started when i was 11 and i finished at 15. those years were dark, but now my life is bright. my future is...
    joceyxxxx joceyxxxx 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Long Time, No See

    I started self-harming when I was 16 I believe. I would cut under my panty line so no one could see it, and I didn't cut deep enough to bleed, just hurt and make a red line... I guess I was a wimp? But, believe it or not, it made me feel better about everything that was going on...
    laDamedeFer laDamedeFer 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I Finally Am Done.

    I just threw away my glass shards. After three years, I am finally done with self-harm. Never again. Goodbye and good riddance. I am strong. I am stable.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Apr 8, 2012

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 16-17, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-18, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    you have to be pretty,

    you have to be skinny, you have to be smart, you have to be perfect. Failing a class, not being pretty enough, not skinny enough though you starve yourself, far from perfect. a quiet moment as you hold the lighter under the knife watching it turning black knowing that in a...
    confused623 confused623 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Nothing Better

    There's no feeling better than having overcome self harm. The satisfaction of having fought and won against something so hard gives me courage everyday.
    Kerrian Kerrian 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2012

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    I'm a survivor of self harming.

    .. Yet in not fully recovered... I first started a few years ago. I tried stop but soon came addicted to it. I felt like that was the only thing that could make me feel alive yet it is still. I have scars, and I'm not proud of them. One day in math, someone pointed them out in...
    SleepyTime1620 SleepyTime1620 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    The Scars Tell Stories.

    I remember the rush I use to get from seeing the blood gush out as the blade entered deeply into my cold flesh, the sigh I would let out knowing that just for that instant my sadness was gone. It helped for a while, but knowing that people would say things and that I would do it...
    distanceandspace distanceandspace 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 4 Responses Feb 9

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    It Doesn't Just Stop ...

    I started cutting around he age of 12 and it became my addiction... I had cut for 2 years straight, everyday. Then i met a good friend of mine he helped me through it and i stopped for about 3 months and i would go through horrible withdrawal I would have panic attacks and cry...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 19, 2013

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    I'm not going to go into much of the background,

    but the experience is something I've kept inside of me and is dying for a release. It began when everyone around me became so fed up with my attitude. Nothing really affected me too much until my parents decided it was enough, they stopped trying. I guess this is how it felt...
    borderlinesymmetry borderlinesymmetry 13-15, F Apr 11

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    I stopped self harming.

    I've cut in multiple places and I regret it. If any of you ever feel like you need to self harm, don't. It isn't worth the scars and self pity that it brings. If you ever need help, come to me and I will do my best.
    Driftyftw Driftyftw 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    When I was about ten,

    that's when I started my post-depression. I used to take sleeping pills, and I used to harm myself. It was awful, I only knew how to do these things because my mother did it in front if me when I was a child. She's an alcoholic, and she's also suffered a lot in her time. So she...
    smallfriesbaby smallfriesbaby 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    Anyone else like me? I relapsed earlier this

    year and regret it. I just hope I'm not alone on this
    palant palant 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    My Story

    When I was younger in Elementary school I was bullied every day I was called fat and ugly all the time an I would go home and cry myself to sleep. My mom noticed I was sad but when she asked me why I never wanted to talk about it. But there was this one day that was different...
    BugsBunnyBabe BugsBunnyBabe 13-15 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    I had a minor slip up about a week ago.

    It had been a year without cutting, but a week ago... I just couldn't control myself. It's not a failure. It's a setback. Turn a setback into a comeback. I will get rid of self-harm. For good. One day. Each day without self-harming is a victory, as only a year ago I used to s-h...
    liekinvarsi liekinvarsi 22-25 2 Responses Feb 28

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    Used To...

    Things are getting to me a lot lately, I'm not coping well and the urges are back. Though controllable, they're definitely not needed. I made myself a promise, I'm stupidly close to breaking that promise. I don't know what to do or who to talk to about this. Being in constant...
    YellowLilyPad YellowLilyPad 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 13, 2013

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    I'm terrified that no one will ever love me.

    Who would love a girl with a giant scar on her forearm and scars all over her legs? It scares the hell out of me. Everyone deserves love but I'm afraid that no one will be able to accept me because of my scars.
    haleyybearr haleyybearr 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 4

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    I stopped about a year

    and a half ago. After I nearly committed suicide. I've had a few slip ups since stopping but that's to be expected. I slipped up again last night. I try hard not to but sometimes I feel I deserve it. I punish myself for disappointing people, accidentally hurting people's...
    SkyliteRouge SkyliteRouge 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    So this is supposed to be a place

    where I can be myself so here goes. I did used to self harm, I don't anymore. I haven't in almost a month. I was bullied really bad and people were just so cruel to me. I was diagnosed with depression and went on medication and I feel a lot better now. I'm homeschooled as of...
    TrishaUndefined TrishaUndefined 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    Hi, my name's Andreia

    and i struggle everyday to not do mistakes again.
    andreiarbo andreiarbo 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    Related Experiences

    #day7 So I may have touched on this before but today (in dept) I'm going to explain self harm because nobody really gets it unless you do it and its not something I want anybody...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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