I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,946 People

    KulthumC KulthumC
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 25

    I managed to stay clean

    for a year. During that year I changed myself, forced myself to be more talkative in a new school, got myself in the top class, became the president of my club, fell in love with a boy who's sweet and loves me. And now I've ruined everything. With this new me, came stress and...
    Tranc764 Tranc764
    16-17, F
    Mar 10
    Tsukimi Tsukimi
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

    I was having so many urges today

    but I didn't cut because I got distracted with how work I'm so proud of myself :)
    jess965 jess965
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 29

    useless when you cant feel anymore.

    gotta love nerve damage. wish it worked to numb emotions.
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Mar 14
    RedMarcher RedMarcher
    18-21, M
    7 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    I'm officially 14 days clean today.

    Although two weeks isn't too long, it's a huge improvement. I'm really, really proud of myself, because these past couple of weeks have been tempting. My biggest issue is my scars. They'll be there forever, but they'll somewhat fade. I've learned to accept them, I'm...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    12 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    I'm trying really hard to stop

    for someone I really love and its hard but so far I'm clean. I may relapse like I have many times before but this time I'm really trying.
    BeautifulChaos512 BeautifulChaos512
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2015

    If it wasn't for the school teachers

    and the counselors at school or for my friends i'd never have overcome self harm. I've got a good solution. Get a rubber band and put it around your wrist and when you feel the urge to cut or harm yourself in anyway then pull that rubber band and i promise you wont cut. :)
    KulthumC KulthumC
    16-17, F
    Mar 25

    So today I was getting my blood drawn

    and the lady doing it saw my old scars. She said, "It's a good thing those are scars, you better not be doing that anymore." I told her I wasn't and that it's been 10 months. She was so happy for me and she gave me candy. The world needs more people like her.
    PaigeLawley PaigeLawley
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Dec 15, 2015

    when you were a week

    and a half clean and you messed it all up 💔😭
    xBrokenLittleGirlx xBrokenLittleGirlx
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 27

    I was a cutter since Jr.

    High up until freshmen year of college. Some of the people who knew about me cutting (only some knew, since i didn't advertise it) always said that I would cut for attention, but I never cut where it could be seen (upper legs, hidden under my shorts leg), so I didn't see how...
    ShadowCatt ShadowCatt
    22-25, M
    Mar 7

    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 30, 2014

    Has anybody has any experience with derma blend

    to cover up scars ? I'm going to be in a wedding and I've heard that a lot of people use it. Also I'm worried about it blending into my skin tone. Also any scar creams you recommend ? I'm currently using mederma intensive over night cream.
    Annababy188 Annababy188
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 16

    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

    It's been 176 days and I'm

    so proud of myself I still get depressed sometimes but I think about good moments instead of the bad
    Maria134747 Maria134747
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 26

    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx
    18-21, M
    Feb 21, 2015

    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

    I haven't self harmed in almost a year,

    I used to think that i was worthless because that's what people would tell me, but then I became friends with new people and started feeling better
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 6

    i feel it again...i cant go back to it

    but i feel it. inside is a fist of ice grabbing my heart. crushing the life out of me. i cant stop thos horrible feeling. i want that sting of a blade again. to see the bright red blood so i know im still human. i need the pain to focus..to stop this i feel inside. it wont...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Feb 11

    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Aug 26, 2014

    Relapsed tonight :/ And I'm not sorry about

    it I've been eating like **** and it's effecting my body image
    ClinNN ClinNN
    18-21, F
    Feb 10

    I know my mistakes and

    that was one of them. 2015 is ******* over and 2016 is already looking a lot better then last year..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 28

    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 28, 2015

    Last year when I split up from my boyfriend,

    he left me in such a bad way and I was broken.. I was a different person to what I am now. I was weak back then and he broke me... I couldn't go out, eat or sleep.. I saw the blade one day and thought maybe just maybe that'll make the pain go away.. I'm left with a massive scar...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    I realize last night

    that self harm IS an addiction. If it weren't, I wouldn't have been panicking. My chest was pounding and I was screaming inside--all because I wanted to slice my skin. I always cut deep: deep enough for stitches yet I never get them. But last night I wanted to hurt myself...
    cconstellations cconstellations
    18-21, F
    Feb 18

    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2015

    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 24, 2014

    I cut so I can feel something

    that is real everything else is just a blur
    hoffinator16 hoffinator16
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 7
    Maria134747 Maria134747
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 6

    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

    I get triggered but the smallest things it

    SUCKS. I have this computer class at school, we have been working on video projects. Well there's this tool in the program that I can do to cut a video or audio or whatever. Guess what it's called? A razor tool. Whenever my teacher says it, my mind goes crazy with urges. Other...
    jess965 jess965
    16-17, F
    Feb 22
    lizc99 lizc99
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Jul 22, 2015

    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 22, 2013

    I still self harm and trying my best to stop

    but it's seems to find its way back and I relapse all over again...
    Kristenandbaby2015 Kristenandbaby2015
    16-17
    3 Responses Feb 11

    So its been about a year

    since I last cut. This kid in P.E. class saw one of my scars on my leg. He wouldnt stop asking about it. So I finally told him I had it a break down and its none of your business. He went around the whole class and said that I am suicidal and I threated to cut again... Can I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 8

    im feeling those erges ive struggled

    for 8 years so far how do you escape
    tiffanyznf tiffanyznf
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 7

    It's been a couple months

    since I've done anything, and while that's good I'm latching onto other things to fill the hole. So yes, yay I'm not doing it or finding the urge to do it, but I'm substituting it with drugs and drinking. Ultimately I have used my self harm for so long as a way to cope, and just...
    Annababy188 Annababy188
    18-21, F
    Apr 16

    Sometimes I fantasize about being beat up

    because I feel like I deserve it. In a dark twisted way, I allowed my ex to hit me because of that. I'm not happy sometimes with who I am and the things I do. Specially to people but I've come to accept myself and loving who I am. I remember trying to suffocate myself here...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 5

    I don't know if I'm quite at the point

    where I can say "used to" yet, but I think I'm going to get there. I am a recovering Self-harmer. I haven't cut in almost 4 1/2 months. I was really bad at one point, bad to the point I was cutting every day. I did it at school, at my friend's house, at my Aunt's house...
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446
    16-17, T
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 22, 2015

    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey
    16-17, F
    9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

    i stooped for a while 5 months

    now . i'm afraid to do it again every time i be sad the idea comes in my head , i don't wanna ruin everything i did , ugh
    Taylorlife Taylorlife
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 21

    I'm falling in love with this man.

    He found my scars and I lied about how I got them. We can never be together and it hurts. As always when something hurts too much I want to cut about it. How will I explain these new cuts/scars?
    LookingForGuidance LookingForGuidance
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 25

    I used to selfharm until the day i found

    something to help me. it gets bad i hear but i it just gets worse before it gets better... hopefully that is right, because i would have missed my chance to commit suicide but i found something. Find yours. Now i think when i want to die, how many people would be sad? what kinda...
    LoneWolfLogan LoneWolfLogan
    13-15, M
    Apr 1

    I'm having issues with how I approach my mum

    with the issue, before this site gets closed down can someone tell me how to ask my mum for help because I rlly need help atm and I'm too riddled with social and general anxiety to do so
    rainndropx rainndropx
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 25
    madelinedowell madelinedowell
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jun 18, 2015
    trentwitherspoon trentwitherspoon
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 11

    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 8, 2013

    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2013

    I haven't cut for 200 days

    and I'm soo proud of myself I wouldn't have made it without my boyfriend tho My next big goal is to go for 300 days
    Maria134747 Maria134747
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Apr 19
    divergentone divergentone
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015

    It"s been 3 months since the last time i

    selfharm i hope i can stop completely ;) ;)
    sayakamiki sayakamiki
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 4

    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou
    22-25, F
    Jan 4, 2015

    Nearly a month clean

    and I've just messed it all up again, how can I stop??
    Randompi Randompi
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Feb 27

    I used to. I used to think about death

    and I used to never smile. I used to be in a very very very dark place. Whether it's a month or a year or of you're me 4 years ... it's all great. Finding other ways to not hurt yourself whether it's just physical harm or even mental pain finding another route is amazing...
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe
    18-21, F
    Sep 20, 2015

    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2014
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