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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,027 People

    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 13

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30

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    It's been about a year

    since I cut myself for the last time but I can't help but think about it today because I'm feeling so sad and guilty...i used to scratch the hell out of my wrists with a safety pin and then when that didn't help I started cutting with shaving razor blades...the best part was...
    MarissaDreams MarissaDreams 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    I used self harm for attention,

    and then it soon became more like an addiction so I started keeping it to myself. I now have stopped and Im almost a year clean :) I'm so glad I got out of it, but I was already self harming for a year when I realized there were other ways of getting attention. Then I couldn't...
    zennarts zennarts 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Almost over doing this to myself.

    When will everyone realize that the only reason some even cut themselves is because the physical pain gets rid of the mental pain. Even though its only for a short period of time, that one moment of forgetting whats happening is worth it and eventually you keep doing it so you...
    leavinginjuly leavinginjuly 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    It takes 21days straight to break a habit.

    Keep on fighting my loves <3 the urge is so little for me, I'm a month and a half clean c:
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15 3 Responses Sep 8

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I'm scared I'm going to relapse

    but it's the only thing that will make me feel better
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 1

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    If you used to self-harm,

    what are the strategies you used that helped you stop?
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I never cut myself. I thought I was strong

    because of this. But I realised I self-harmed in other ways. I would deny myself good things to punish myself for something. I would call myself names. I would tell myself I was ugly and disgusting and the world would be better off if I died. I have come to learn that cutting...
    kalila37 kalila37 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    superlonelygal superlonelygal 18-21, F Sep 10

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I really wish I had the attention span to give

    a full explanation. I haven't regularly harmed myself since high school. It's been 13 years since then. I wish I would have gotten the help and wisdom I have now when I was younger. THE SCARS DO NOT GO AWAY. I was just a confused and lonely girl who didn't know what to do with...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    You know the feeling

    when you haven't cut in so long that it's scary to think that you ever did... Then there's the feeling when you haven't in a long time and you're sitting there, old blade in hand, shaking and having the urge to cut, deep. God help me I haven't cut since my last suicide attempt...
    ttn159 ttn159 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Self harmed for 4 years.

    .. Stopped about three months ago because of my wonderful boyfriend Mark. He has helped me so much and Is there for me all the time. I no longer feel the need to cry at night or to hurt myself because I have an amazing person to talk to. I only have therapy once a month now (:
    gorgeoushobo gorgeoushobo 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I started very young,

    with small scratches and it became progressively more severe. It was a release for the pain, frustration and fear I felt and it served a purpose at the time. I'm grateful that I found it within myself to stop for good, when I was around 19 or 20. I tried a lot of different ways...
    Chaosforthefly Chaosforthefly 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    I relapsed tonight. It's been 4 years.

    I'm a nude model and have a photoshoot in 2 weeks and now have 20+ cuts on my thigh.
    indicat indicat 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    This kind of sh*t is just ridiculous.

    EP Link Romanticising self harm is just bloody stupid; it's not cute, lovely, 'tragically beautiful' or any of that bullsh*t. It's just a gross downplay of the seriousness of self mutilation, something that can wreck havoc with people's lives and those around them. Jesus f...
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-18, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    It's been a while since I thought about self

    harm , but the urge is back once again.
    mimilsu mimilsu 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    I still have my scars,

    and I get tempted every once in a while, but I'm about a month clean and I don't plan to ever return to my old habits. seeing the marks on my wrist just reminded me how sad I was and I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. I hope that everyone who cuts finds an...
    Kensie13 Kensie13 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    You know why people cut?

    Because it's a distraction. For one moment you don't feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is that razor going into your skin. The blood dripping down your arm, leg, stomach. You don't think about the way people talk about how you feel about yourself and about how...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 3

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    I can't even remember my last relapse.

    Such a great feeling. :)
    d0vahkiin d0vahkiin 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    Cutting is one of the most misunderstood human

    behaviors. And like any addiction, cutting is an extremely difficult thing to stop. We can become addicted to the chemicals that our own body produces in response to certain things with the same veracity that we become addicted to a street drug. And as soon as we associate the...
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 3 Responses Sep 16

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    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 19

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    There was a time when I used to self harm,

    yes. I looked at a blade as a distraction from the hell we call a mind, but all it seemed to do was cause drama among friends, family, even teachers at school. I tried my best to keep the scars hidden, but eventually I was found out. Since then i have never put another blade to...
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F Dec 19, 2013

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    My life would have been already done

    if it wasn't for the fear of what might happen afterwards.
    hebrokemyheart99 hebrokemyheart99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2

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    I used to cut my arm with a knife.

    It felt good at the time. It was nice to be able to see that part of me that could heal after getting hurt so quickly. As I watched I learned. Now I feel like nothing can hurt me deep enough to not heal just as quickly.
    tumty tumty 18-21, M Sep 4

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    leftovernachos14 leftovernachos14 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    I've recently found a way to cope by writing

    small poems in my notes section on my phone. I'm not kidding I have at least 50 poems on my phone dating from six months ago that have been written when I want to abuse myself in any way. Whenever I type (or write) something out, I feel like I'm speaking to someone that won't...
    katherinejaneee katherinejaneee 16-17, F Oct 18

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    She was never in the form of perfection,

    So she became the best example of neglection //SharpieTattooSwag//
    WhatOnceWas WhatOnceWas 16-17, F May 19

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneDC CemoneDC 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    I'm two months clean of self harm.

    . Yet I've always wanted to find a guy who does/ is recovering from self harm.. So we can help each other and get stronger together..
    xxshishixx xxshishixx 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 20

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    It's been over 4 years

    since the last time I cut myself. It was an addiction that I was only able to stop because I knew it hurt the man I love, and that hurt me more than anything that ever made me want to cut. But addiction is strong. Four years later, even looking at the scars from a suicide...
    Leannaix Leannaix 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    it's been 9 years and due to recent events

    that urge is back. So much has been happening that I couldn't even begin to explain but the urge is what is upsetting me. I've haven't thought about cutting in so long and lately I'm just not myself. I need to find me again.. I feel so lost :/
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    akaKitten akaKitten 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    Anyone else like me? I relapsed earlier this

    year and regret it. I just hope I'm not alone on this
    palant palant 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    I used to self harm..

    It was bad. For a long time I felt and still feel as if I ruined my self. My boyfriend taught me how to love myself again the way I used to when I was little. But now he's in jail for reasons id rather not discuss, and without him it's getting hard to love and care about myself...
    chrissyp7 chrissyp7 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Before i met my girlfriend i was depressed amd

    would cut myself does that scare people?
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    It's Only A Matter Of Time.

    I have the urge to cut again. It's almost been two years since I last cut. I just recently threw away all my razors too. But..things have been hard lately. I've been thinking about it a lot and I feel like I need to. My promises to myself and my others are the only thing...
    Thewastedyouth16 Thewastedyouth16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    I almost cut one time,

    but I was very very very scared and I just held the blade to my wrist and stared at it crying. So instead I decided to use my curling iron to burn myself. And I did that a lot. A lot of people say they harm because they feel worthless. I harmed because I needed people close to...
    Noel138 Noel138 13-15, F Aug 29

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    Being Free Since 2006...

    There was a stage in my life where i used to self mutilate. It started in my teens, I had a lot of anger. I was living with my father who was abusive and controlling. He was very emotionally abusive. He would call me stupid, say i had no common sense. I remember getting into...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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