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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 3,801 People

    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30

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    ok so I started cutting in 9th grade

    and I just graduated but for the past 2 months I have been wanting to cut really bad and I cant because my boyfriend will blame himself and say that he's not doing his job when he is. I just idk whats work with me.. I really want to because it helps me but I cant have him...
    quietangel101 quietangel101 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 19

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    I wish this scars would go away.

    I hate that I always have to worry about covering them up.
    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    I got over it or so I thought I've not cut in

    about 2 months but recently I've not been able to get it off my mind, I don't see the point in even being here; no one appreciates me and I'm always getting all the abuse and cutting just took the edge off of it a bit, :/
    p5ych0k1d97 p5ych0k1d97 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    My brother is a cutter,

    so for a long time, i saw that as the only version of self harm, the extreme version. It wasnt until talking with someone that i realized that things i had done were also characterized as self harm. I stabbed my fingers with the backs of my earrings until they bled. I grabbed...
    mairesequin mairesequin 16-17, F Jul 16

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    I have scars that I wish would go away.

    . I'm going to get a tattoo over them but not for 3 years.
    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F a week ago

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    Looking through old notes on my phone,

    found one that said "It was the only pain I could control." Obviously I was referring to the pain I used to inflict on myself when I was battling severe depression. I hate that I used to do this to myself. I really regret it and I'm glad I can finally see myself as amazing, and...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    I've been using mederma & coco butter & it

    seems to be fading the scars
    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 13

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I used hurt myself a few years ago,

    I've stopped last year but i'm scared to start again, every time I get into the shower, i'm scared to turn the water to hot and boil myself. Each time I put my hand on the handle and when i am about to turn it to hot I hear a voice saying "don't". But for the past few weeks, it...
    shawnqueen shawnqueen 22-25, M Jul 6

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Why am I admitting this?

    Oh right I wanna tell everyone I know how I haven't done it in two years, it's tough and I'm still trying not to cut anymore cuz I am really hoping to be someone who is respected and, you're not the only one who doubts themselves, I always think I'm gonna quit stealing but I...
    foxytiffany foxytiffany 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I started very young,

    with small scratches and it became progressively more severe. It was a release for the pain, frustration and fear I felt and it served a purpose at the time. I'm grateful that I found it within myself to stop for good, when I was around 19 or 20. I tried a lot of different ways...
    Chaosforthefly Chaosforthefly 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    i have cut so deep i have needed stitches,

    pulled my hair till the point where i have had a huge bald patch, i have bruised till where i almost needed an X -Ray, I have smoked till i almost had an asthma attack. i started when i was 11 and i finished at 15. those years were dark, but now my life is bright. my future is...
    joceyxxxx joceyxxxx 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    I was clean for 4 months

    but had a slip up a couple of nights ago, but it wasn't bad and I'm more determined to get over the nasty addiction!! I won't let this over come my life!! And neither should anyone else!!
    gingerlau gingerlau 18-21, F Jul 5

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    husoldier13 husoldier13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-18, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    Being Free Since 2006...

    There was a stage in my life where i used to self mutilate. It started in my teens, I had a lot of anger. I was living with my father who was abusive and controlling. He was very emotionally abusive. He would call me stupid, say i had no common sense. I remember getting into...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I'm scared I'm going to relapse

    but it's the only thing that will make me feel better
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 1

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    wait0what wait0what 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I self harm Not a lot ok just a little it

    rarely happens I am like a week clean I don't have a lot of scars just like 4 I started last year all my scars go away I made a promise to never hurt myself again n it's hurt but I am KEEPING MY PROMISE 😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋
    Hiddenamoungus Hiddenamoungus 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 5

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    Anyone else like me? I relapsed earlier this

    year and regret it. I just hope I'm not alone on this
    palant palant 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    I just had a rough school year last year.

    Um it was tough to go to a school with so much drama and it was a pretty big school. My grades dropped that year too I just wasn't motivated to do anything anymore. I had basically given up on the one thing that was one of the most important. I made if up this year. Ended my...
    weyheyitstori weyheyitstori 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    I been fighting the urge

    for days now, its niggling away at me but there is nothing i can do because i am being watched like a hawk. I see the vision's in my head, I feel the sharpness against my skin. I feel the release it gives me and it makes me want it even more. My heart pounds away, its like a...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 30

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    I started in December of 2011.

    It got pretty bad for a while, then I stopped while I was in the hospital. But when I was released I started again a few days later. Then there was my first suicide attempt. I continued to self harm for a month or so when I tried again to kill myself. Then three months later I...
    wonderwomancats wonderwomancats 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I used to throw huge stone on my abs ( picture

    inserted-3 years ago) just to train my body to absorb the impact. Really good for tournaments, won medal but no money errr. So I quit the stone throwing for 3 years now but it still have its effect because who ever punch me, I feel nothing. Please don't punch me in the face tho...
    LoverBoyMike LoverBoyMike 18-21, M Jul 17

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    Personally I have never self harmed however

    people are too quick to judge these days. There is always a reason why humans do things that seem odd or unexplainable whether it's not in the right frame of mind or know the persons circumstances. Yes I agree people who do self harm should come forward and talk to people but...
    jamiemakepeace jamiemakepeace 22-25, M a week ago

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    I haven't in a month

    or two but idk these days it just seems to be getting harder and harder
    ImAWorkInProgress ImAWorkInProgress 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    It's getting harder and harder to not self harm

    it's been like 10 weeks ( I don't know ) but these past two weeks have pushed me to the edge, though obviously part of me wants to cut I also don't wantto go back to that sort of a life :/
    p5ych0k1d97 p5ych0k1d97 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    You know why people cut?

    Because it's a distraction. For one moment you don't feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is that razor going into your skin. The blood dripping down your arm, leg, stomach. You don't think about the way people talk about how you feel about yourself and about how...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 3

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    I was a year and a half clean

    until a few weeks ago, and now I want to cut constantly. I was doing so well :/
    PrettyEyesBrokenSmile PrettyEyesBrokenSmile 18-21, F Jun 28

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    The only reason I stopped is

    because I was afraid my girlfriend would leave me of I started again. Cutting actually kept me from committing suicide. So being in a crap relationship, no cutting, no help, I tried suicide I ended up so very sick. Ah, life sucks and so does depression.
    LezzieRose LezzieRose 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    I stopped self harming

    but I'm pretty sure I will again if I have to. I still have scars too even though I don't like them or self harm.
    HaddyT HaddyT 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    httpvam httpvam 16-17, F 1 Response May 2

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    Haven't cut since sophomore year of college (4+

    years ago), and recently the urge has been coming back. My therapist advised me that I should wear a rubber band on my wrist and snap it whenever I have an urge to do so, to kinda distract me and also as another outlet for "pain" ... I haven't tried it yet, but thought I should...
    blazeee blazeee 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    She was never in the form of perfection,

    So she became the best example of neglection //SharpieTattooSwag//
    WhatOnceWas WhatOnceWas 16-17, F 1 Response May 19

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9

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    It's Only A Matter Of Time.

    I have the urge to cut again. It's almost been two years since I last cut. I just recently threw away all my razors too. But..things have been hard lately. I've been thinking about it a lot and I feel like I need to. My promises to myself and my others are the only thing...
    Thewastedyouth16 Thewastedyouth16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    I've recently stopped

    and hoping I won't ever relapse. 1 week clean
    ihazbattlescars ihazbattlescars 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    The Battle To Remain A Former Self Harmer...

    My name is The Real Woman, and I last self harmed on July 2nd 2009. Tonight I face a battle and I will win....but it is hard. I am worthy, I am strong, but the temptation calls. Let's all be strong together....so we do not fall into the arms of false warmth again.
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 10 Responses Oct 21, 2009

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    "Your arm." My father noticed over dinner.

    "What happened?" I was about 12 and had had a rough day so I sort of took the thumbtack holding a poster on my bedroom and stabbed my right arm(I'm left handed) as well as dragging cuts into my arm. Now I kept that arm in my lap and pretended it didn't ache. I also pretended not...
    sagate sagate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    FindingDiana FindingDiana 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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