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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,708 People

    its been 15 years and the scars show up just

    the same as half my life ago...
    Tstanley86 Tstanley86 26-30, F Jul 23

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    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    I used to self harm for a lot of reasons

    and in a lot of different ways. I self harmed because I was scared and angry. I did it because I was abused by one of my treatment centers for anorexia. I did it because I hated myself. The way I did it was by cutting. Scratching myself, biting myself and hitting myself. I...
    LateApology LateApology 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's 5 years since I've self harmed.

    When I look at my scars, I think of the pain, the memories, and knowing there wasn't a way out of my hard times. As years past, I grew wiser, I knew there isn't always a easy way out threw the BS in life. I knew, that cutting, burning and having suicidal thoughts was my way out...
    nicolebunn nicolebunn 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    I haven't self harmed 9 months now,

    it's been a struggle and a fight. But I'm making it
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23

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    I'm 2 months clean so far.

    It's really hard. I always think about going back to the blade. I feel like people don't understand and I can't talk to the people that I want to. They either say "get over it" or sown thing. I didn't know what I was feeling for the longest time , so at least with a blade , I...
    deannam8101 deannam8101 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    Your life doesn't mater

    unless u make it mater once I Learned that I stopped
    KasperK KasperK 13-15, M 4 Responses Jul 22

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I've spent around a grand doing up my arms in

    bright beautiful colours, artwork to hide the disaster I used to be. I'm like candy coated misery. There days I want to slice them to bits all the same. I won't. I'm still embarrassed of the one deep scar that is still showing after numerous treatments. I beat the eating...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 13

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    I use to self harm on a daily basis.

    My friends started to notice and they spread the rumor faster than anything. My family members ended up finding out and threatening with things if I didn't stop. My dad is afraid he can't even punish me because of it. He says I use my depression as a crutch. Having my own dad be...
    Interruption Interruption 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 18

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 4 Responses May 22, 2013

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    craigslist504 craigslist504 36-40 Aug 18

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    Back then, I always let out my anger by cutting

    up old stuffed animals, or pillows. I was stabbing into my sister's teddy bear, and I missed the toy and drove the pocket knife into my own hand. At first, I winced and groaned in pain. Then I dragged from the original cut down my hand, to my wrist. It hurt so badly, but the...
    Franse Franse 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    and I often think of doing it again.

    The "switch" has gone off maybe three times since I stopped years ago, and I have to immediately shut my brain down from proceeding. You know the switch? The one that goes "Yes, I need to do this, I need to self harm. That is the answer right now." It is still there and I have...
    hexgrl2k hexgrl2k 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    People always wonder what's the gain out of

    self harming.. And I was like "I feel so much better" but I was wrong. There is no gain. Glad I stopped. I actually feel pretty lame that I self harmed, so stupid.. Please if you still do, stop it immediately there is really no gain out of it.
    Alltimefreak Alltimefreak 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    U & Me forever this way www.

    nidhisuraj.com There are so many Love Stories in this world. Few stories become so famous but few are unsaid and been buried with time. Few others share their love stories with their friends, while some leave them as sweet memories for themselves within their hearts and few...
    evan003 evan003 18-21, F Jul 23

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    I feel pretty lame that I self harmed.

    my dad is emotionally, verbally, and mentally abusive towards me. I guess anytime he was abusive towards me that's when I'd self harm. I can deal with physical pain better than emotional. I started doing it this year and stopped a few months ago. there has been two times...
    haleymc haleymc 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx 16-17, M Feb 21

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    I hate the fact that i have scars on my arms

    and people are going to be looking at them and judging me about how i look and wont want to go out with me
    lisa1dixon lisa1dixon 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    I used to cut and it sucks

    because now everytime I wear a short sleeve shirt and shorts people ask uncomfortable questions and I just wish they would go away
    melissaosieja melissaosieja 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 29

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    Last year when I split up from my boyfriend,

    he left me in such a bad way and I was broken.. I was a different person to what I am now. I was weak back then and he broke me... I couldn't go out, eat or sleep.. I saw the blade one day and thought maybe just maybe that'll make the pain go away.. I'm left with a massive scar...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    Perhaps I might do it again.

    Now to everyone in recovery or already recovered. Good. Do not be ashamed of your scars. If you're brave enough to take up the business of living you ought to be brave enough to look at the future instead of being afraid of your own past. It's shallow minded and offensive to...
    MeadowLark4 MeadowLark4 18-21 Aug 8

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    So self harm was something I struggled with

    for quite a while. It got pretty bad at one point and recently I have decided I can't do that anymore. I no longer want to do it and I have to stop it! So today at work some people were being miserable and I didn't know what to do, I grabbed some paper and started drawing. Which...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    I will be a year clean next month!

    Love to everyone still hurting, it does get better ♡
    Thesupremewitch Thesupremewitch 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I think I've self harmed off

    and on from 6th grade to about a month or so ago. I've done plenty of things just to feel pain cutting, branding, needles, hitting myself and solid objects, and eraser burns. I really just want to feel it again, the pain and endorphin rush that feels good.
    thatonedudecaleb thatonedudecaleb 16-17, M Aug 16

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    I used to cut myself constantly,

    carving at my leg then always wearing pants so no one would know. It was a form of release, I always loved to see the blood flow, the more the better. I was always methodical about cleaning the wounds and bandaging them so they wouldn't get infected, probably needed stitches...
    Iscarpia87 Iscarpia87 26-30, M Aug 4

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I remember when I would cut my wrist ,

    thighs ,really any where possible. That time In my life was so sad and out of control. It took me 3 years to gain control of me. Gaining self respect and acceptance is and always be something I value. No matter what life throws at me I will never travel down that road again...
    cherryshelby cherryshelby 18-21, F Jul 27

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneGeorgiouAndrea CemoneGeorgiouAndrea 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    Has anyone here ever gone through a relapse

    after being clean for a really long time? I just did... I don't know what I was thinking. Can someone message me? I hate this. I feel so pathetic.
    suddenliberty suddenliberty 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 16

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    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 22

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I used to cut myself a lot more often

    than I do now. Nothing can ever replace that kind of satisfaction in my life. When I finally decided to try to stop, it was only because I didn't want anymore scars. Vanity of course. It wasn't because I got better. My therapist thinks it's progress but I've only gone on to...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    Im at 159 days clean

    and so proud of me 💪🏼 its hard to stop and to be at 100 days clean was the most hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. Thanks to all of my friends and especially to my boyfriend who gave me so much help when all i asked was a bit of love... xox <3
    lailalessard lailalessard 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    The scars will never go away

    but my daughter is the reminder of why i stopped. Nothing will keep me from being there for her.
    UkuladyPDX UkuladyPDX 22-25, F Jul 22

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    Sometimes.. I still feel the urges to self harm.

    . I never feel like I'm enough anymore.. I feel like I'm worthless.. I hate it tbh.. I hate this. I hate feeling this way.. But, I'll put up a battle with self harm.. I'm 6 months clean.. I don't wanna start over but at the same time I want to.. 💔
    ThatOneSadTeen ThatOneSadTeen 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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