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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 3,959 People

    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F Dec 19, 2013

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 13

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    I wasn't alone. I was just fighting depression.

    This girl, lets call her "Y" told me that cutting was the key to everything. I was confused because she used to be my bes friend. Then, she starting bullying me and all and I started cutting. I felt alone and I only had my friend "M" and "J" the were by me 24/7 and still are.
    luv4ever24 luv4ever24 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    Have you ever loved someone

    so much but that person wasn't your boyfriend or a part of your family. You spend each day thinking about them, even if its just something as simple as their name and then by the time you've stopped thinking the day is practically over. Everyday day is the same and it just...
    wishitwouldend wishitwouldend 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    i have cut so deep i have needed stitches,

    pulled my hair till the point where i have had a huge bald patch, i have bruised till where i almost needed an X -Ray, I have smoked till i almost had an asthma attack. i started when i was 11 and i finished at 15. those years were dark, but now my life is bright. my future is...
    joceyxxxx joceyxxxx 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    superlonelygal superlonelygal 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    She was never in the form of perfection,

    So she became the best example of neglection //SharpieTattooSwag//
    WhatOnceWas WhatOnceWas 16-17, F 1 Response May 19

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    Being Free Since 2006...

    There was a stage in my life where i used to self mutilate. It started in my teens, I had a lot of anger. I was living with my father who was abusive and controlling. He was very emotionally abusive. He would call me stupid, say i had no common sense. I remember getting into...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I have to be addicted to something.

    I stopped cutting a couple of years ago now. But since then iv been addicted to not eating then i moved to alcohol. Im over all these now (mostly) and im really happy. Then i started smoking. My girlfriend wants us to stop smoking together. And i know its a good thing to do but...
    Zashwallflower Zashwallflower 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I never cut myself. I thought I was strong

    because of this. But I realised I self-harmed in other ways. I would deny myself good things to punish myself for something. I would call myself names. I would tell myself I was ugly and disgusting and the world would be better off if I died. I have come to learn that cutting...
    kalila37 kalila37 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I cant really say used to.

    Im still recovering and am only around 12-14 weeks clean. I just really wish I had someone to talk to about this stuff. That maybe recovering would be easier if I had someone to talk to when I feel the urge to harm myself in any way. The problem is that not many people actually...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 1

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I started very young,

    with small scratches and it became progressively more severe. It was a release for the pain, frustration and fear I felt and it served a purpose at the time. I'm grateful that I found it within myself to stop for good, when I was around 19 or 20. I tried a lot of different ways...
    Chaosforthefly Chaosforthefly 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    Self harmed for 4 years.

    .. Stopped about three months ago because of my wonderful boyfriend Mark. He has helped me so much and Is there for me all the time. I no longer feel the need to cry at night or to hurt myself because I have an amazing person to talk to. I only have therapy once a month now (:
    gorgeoushobo gorgeoushobo 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    It's Only A Matter Of Time.

    I have the urge to cut again. It's almost been two years since I last cut. I just recently threw away all my razors too. But..things have been hard lately. I've been thinking about it a lot and I feel like I need to. My promises to myself and my others are the only thing...
    Thewastedyouth16 Thewastedyouth16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    leftovernachos14 leftovernachos14 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I'm scared I'm going to relapse

    but it's the only thing that will make me feel better
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 1

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    I used to **** myself up bad

    for over a month and a half over how I felt about myself and a petty relationship. I haven't done it for at least nine months now. but a week ago I guess you could say I relapsed. I was crying over some **** my friend said to me and it just felt right. I cant talk to anybody...
    SailorGoon SailorGoon 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    It's been a while since I thought about self

    harm , but the urge is back once again.
    mimilsu mimilsu 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24

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    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 19

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9

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    I almost cut one time,

    but I was very very very scared and I just held the blade to my wrist and stared at it crying. So instead I decided to use my curling iron to burn myself. And I did that a lot. A lot of people say they harm because they feel worthless. I harmed because I needed people close to...
    Noel138 Noel138 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    Anyone else like me? I relapsed earlier this

    year and regret it. I just hope I'm not alone on this
    palant palant 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I used to cut my arm with a knife.

    It felt good at the time. It was nice to be able to see that part of me that could heal after getting hurt so quickly. As I watched I learned. Now I feel like nothing can hurt me deep enough to not heal just as quickly.
    tumty tumty 18-21, M Sep 4

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    My life would have been already done

    if it wasn't for the fear of what might happen afterwards.
    hebrokemyheart99 hebrokemyheart99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    Cutting is one of the most misunderstood human

    behaviors. And like any addiction, cutting is an extremely difficult thing to stop. We can become addicted to the chemicals that our own body produces in response to certain things with the same veracity that we become addicted to a street drug. And as soon as we associate the...
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, T 1 Response Sep 8

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    2Years later and I still think about it.

    .. I didn't start until I was 13 and had never even heard about it my childhood was a very painful one filled with abuse and neglect as much as I tried to roll with the punches of life like everyone else I couldn't at home things were horrible and at school I was bullied so...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneDC CemoneDC 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    "Your arm." My father noticed over dinner.

    "What happened?" I was about 12 and had had a rough day so I sort of took the thumbtack holding a poster on my bedroom and stabbed my right arm(I'm left handed) as well as dragging cuts into my arm. Now I kept that arm in my lap and pretended it didn't ache. I also pretended not...
    sagate sagate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    This kind of sh*t is just ridiculous.

    EP Link Romanticising self harm is just bloody stupid; it's not cute, lovely, 'tragically beautiful' or any of that bullsh*t. It's just a gross downplay of the seriousness of self mutilation, something that can wreck havoc with people's lives and those around them. Jesus f...
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    I still have my scars,

    and I get tempted every once in a while, but I'm about a month clean and I don't plan to ever return to my old habits. seeing the marks on my wrist just reminded me how sad I was and I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. I hope that everyone who cuts finds an...
    Kensie13 Kensie13 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Now that the scars fading I feel lost & the

    urge to cut again are getting stronger and stronger.
    JeSt0099 JeSt0099 13-15, F Aug 21

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    I used self harm for attention,

    and then it soon became more like an addiction so I started keeping it to myself. I now have stopped and Im almost a year clean :) I'm so glad I got out of it, but I was already self harming for a year when I realized there were other ways of getting attention. Then I couldn't...
    zennarts zennarts 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30

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    lindsaypaige96 lindsaypaige96 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    I relapsed tonight. It's been 4 years.

    I'm a nude model and have a photoshoot in 2 weeks and now have 20+ cuts on my thigh.
    indicat indicat 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    If you used to self-harm,

    what are the strategies you used that helped you stop?
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Yes this is something i suffered with

    for a few years of my life going through difficult times but i am thankful to say i have recovered from it and put it in the past. I didn't go to anything like going to therapy and my parents barely knew i suffered and mostly i wouldn't of gotten through it if i didn't have...
    oxzymoron oxzymoron 18-21, M Aug 24

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    You know why people cut?

    Because it's a distraction. For one moment you don't feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is that razor going into your skin. The blood dripping down your arm, leg, stomach. You don't think about the way people talk about how you feel about yourself and about how...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 3

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    I want to cut so bad right now.

    There's no reason to feel this way and I'm on a good clean streak, that doesn't lessen the urge though. Good thing I threw out my blade I guess.
    PrettyEyesBrokenSmile PrettyEyesBrokenSmile 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I used to cut quite frequently.

    now I've moved on to Advil Cold & Flu pills. sigh, I guess we're all addicted to something that takes the pain away.
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 5

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