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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,371 People

    I'm 56 days clean today,

    this is the longest I've ever been clean since I started, hoping to make it to 2 months
    anoninrecovery anoninrecovery 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I self harmed for about 4 years.

    I haven't cut in a year. I'm actually very proud of myself for that. But there are times i think about, when i have wondering thoughts. or when I get depressed I think about self harming again. I haven't exactly figured out whats been able to keep me from doing it for so long...
    AfraidOfMyOwnMind AfraidOfMyOwnMind 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    Yes. and l`m so clean in this year.

    .. gosh... someone please hug me i don't need any advices or words i don't need someone to fix me 'cos i'm not broken you just don't know real me..
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I'm hearing voices telling to me to get the

    sharpest knife and cut myself it's so loud must resist voices
    SpiritOfIzanagi SpiritOfIzanagi 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 25

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    "Your arm." My father noticed over dinner.

    "What happened?" I was about 12 and had had a rough day so I sort of took the thumbtack holding a poster on my bedroom and stabbed my right arm(I'm left handed) as well as dragging cuts into my arm. Now I kept that arm in my lap and pretended it didn't ache. I also pretended not...
    sagate sagate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    i almost relapsed today

    after over a year
    spacey0angela spacey0angela 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    Just last year I had a really bad depression

    where I ended up self harming... & the depression is starting again . But this time I promised myself that I won't self harm. I will regret the scars that I've done to myself because I was stupid to do it. If you self harm , trust things will get better , & if you start...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx 16-17, M Feb 21

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    I used to cut a lot in my high school years.

    One time it was so bad I had to wear gauze and duct tape, it bled for 3 days, I was very lucky it healed without having to tell my mother. I have many leg scars and some wrist and arm scars.. They are somewhat faded but the deeper ones and the ones i had in sections are there...
    XsOfTheSoul XsOfTheSoul 18-21, F Mar 12

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    My body was once used

    as a canvas to paint my pain away. Now my skin is nothing but a fragile scar that will forever be a reminder of how broken I once was. It's not something I look proudly at, I look at it with disappointment because I now know what type of darkness lays beneath my beating heart...
    hayleecharms hayleecharms 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I am ashamed of it because it never helped any,

    I just thought it did. For me it was punishment for allowing myself to get in certain situations, letting things fall apart, or feeling so sad. I never thought I was good enough; the ugly and the bad was always all too visible. For two years I was like this. I felt isolated and...
    DaffodilDeary95 DaffodilDeary95 18-21, F Feb 27

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    I used to cut myself

    but now I don`t. I used to be sad but now i`m not I used to want to die but now I don`t I used to think my life couldn`t get any worse and it did but Life does get better, I promise. I would love to hear what you guys think
    loveryley15 loveryley15 13-15 1 Response Mar 9

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    I want to cut.... Kind of have all day

    but now I want to so bad
    bigca1697 bigca1697 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    I just want to let all the people

    who say self harming is "dumb" and "pointless", know that they are very ignorant about the situation and they should just shut up. I used to self harm. I didn't do it for attention. I did it for release. If things fort way too overwhelming, I cut. That was my way of coping. So...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F Dec 19, 2013

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    I've never really said it

    but I now I think about it, it might be helpful. Until last year I used to cut. A broken piece of pen was my sharpie but I would do it everywhere and I'd hide it, I'd pretend it was car scratchy or eczema and I'd be forever fearful of taking my jacket off. I had many reasons...
    thedimone thedimone 13-15, F Feb 25

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneDC CemoneDC 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    It's Only A Matter Of Time.

    I have the urge to cut again. It's almost been two years since I last cut. I just recently threw away all my razors too. But..things have been hard lately. I've been thinking about it a lot and I feel like I need to. My promises to myself and my others are the only thing...
    Thewastedyouth16 Thewastedyouth16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    when I grew up, I was never the picked on kid

    or the had trouble with my parents. in fact, everyone liked me and I grew up without a single problem in the world but because of that, I never learned how to cope with rough situations or stress in general. I know others have rougher situations than me but to me, this **** is...
    Joeyschnepel Joeyschnepel 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    The song 'F***ing Perfect' by P!

    nk is an amazing song but it is not one I listen to often. I just watched the music video for the first time in forever and I'm in tears. For my own reasons. I cry for the person that I lost three years ago. That person was the real me, and I lost her. I cry for the lost year of...
    natalya4pg natalya4pg 13-15, F Mar 29

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    I can't tell which scars came from what anymore,

    from being bullied or self-harm or suicide.
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    For all the suicidal

    and self harming people out there. Stay strong please stay strong, life is full of ups and downs so some day life will give you all an up and you all will be happy. I'd love to promise you life is going to get easier and stay easy but I can't promise that cause then I'd just be...
    demonswithin demonswithin 18-21, M Mar 26

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    Someone once said to me "If you self harm,

    what makes you any better than the people that drove you too it? Your doing the same thing.."
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 8 Responses Feb 18

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    I relapsed last week.

    .. I had a really bad flashback, which caused me to black out. When I came back to reality, I had one cut on my arm and I was bleeding quite a bit. I've gone so long without cutting, and I hate that I gave in to the urge. I know I wasn't fully with it , but I still feel terrible...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    I was clean of self harming

    for 4 months... That is... If I didnt do it today...
    milliejoe milliejoe 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4

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    rtprt rtprt 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response