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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,091 People

    Cutting is one of the most misunderstood human

    behaviors. And like any addiction, cutting is an extremely difficult thing to stop. We can become addicted to the chemicals that our own body produces in response to certain things with the same veracity that we become addicted to a street drug. And as soon as we associate the...
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 3 Responses Sep 16

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    It's Only A Matter Of Time.

    I have the urge to cut again. It's almost been two years since I last cut. I just recently threw away all my razors too. But..things have been hard lately. I've been thinking about it a lot and I feel like I need to. My promises to myself and my others are the only thing...
    Thewastedyouth16 Thewastedyouth16 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    I'm scared I'm going to relapse

    but it's the only thing that will make me feel better
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 1

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    I can't even remember my last relapse.

    Such a great feeling. :)
    roguish roguish 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 3

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    You know the feeling

    when you haven't cut in so long that it's scary to think that you ever did... Then there's the feeling when you haven't in a long time and you're sitting there, old blade in hand, shaking and having the urge to cut, deep. God help me I haven't cut since my last suicide attempt...
    ttn159 ttn159 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 26

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    Being Free Since 2006...

    There was a stage in my life where i used to self mutilate. It started in my teens, I had a lot of anger. I was living with my father who was abusive and controlling. He was very emotionally abusive. He would call me stupid, say i had no common sense. I remember getting into...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    I started cutting cause of how my mother treated

    and made me feel and I also got bullied at school and didnt feel like anyone gave a **** about me except my best friend and I still feel that way but I am doing better now thst I was able to get away from my mother..
    kanashimi93 kanashimi93 18-21, F Nov 9

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    You know why people cut?

    Because it's a distraction. For one moment you don't feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is that razor going into your skin. The blood dripping down your arm, leg, stomach. You don't think about the way people talk about how you feel about yourself and about how...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 3

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    kittykittyoxc kittykittyoxc 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    Yes for a good 2 years (2011-2012),

    Cutting, Splitting my knuckles and knees and well the obvious beating myself down with banter, I've done it and I regret it( The only thing I regret), So now turning 22 next week I'm happy that i have overcome a Disease that a majority of people call a disorder, 2 years of...
    Arizv11 Arizv11 18-21, M Nov 19

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    Anyone else like me? I relapsed earlier this

    year and regret it. I just hope I'm not alone on this
    palant palant 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 23

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24

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    I still have my scars,

    and I get tempted every once in a while, but I'm about a month clean and I don't plan to ever return to my old habits. seeing the marks on my wrist just reminded me how sad I was and I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. I hope that everyone who cuts finds an...
    Kensie13 Kensie13 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    superlonelygal superlonelygal 18-21, F Sep 10

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    im finally starting to accept myself

    for who i am scars and all.... Yet i must admit , I hate to see my scars in the mirror they bring up a lot of terrible memories.
    JustKeepSwimmingg JustKeepSwimmingg 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 16

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    She was never in the form of perfection,

    So she became the best example of neglection //SharpieTattooSwag//
    WhatOnceWas WhatOnceWas 16-17, F May 19

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    "Your arm." My father noticed over dinner.

    "What happened?" I was about 12 and had had a rough day so I sort of took the thumbtack holding a poster on my bedroom and stabbed my right arm(I'm left handed) as well as dragging cuts into my arm. Now I kept that arm in my lap and pretended it didn't ache. I also pretended not...
    sagate sagate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    Almost over doing this to myself.

    When will everyone realize that the only reason some even cut themselves is because the physical pain gets rid of the mental pain. Even though its only for a short period of time, that one moment of forgetting whats happening is worth it and eventually you keep doing it so you...
    leavinginjuly leavinginjuly 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    There was a time when I used to self harm,

    yes. I looked at a blade as a distraction from the hell we call a mind, but all it seemed to do was cause drama among friends, family, even teachers at school. I tried my best to keep the scars hidden, but eventually I was found out. Since then i have never put another blade to...
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    My life would have been already done

    if it wasn't for the fear of what might happen afterwards.
    hebrokemyheart99 hebrokemyheart99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I used to self harm..

    It was bad. For a long time I felt and still feel as if I ruined my self. My boyfriend taught me how to love myself again the way I used to when I was little. But now he's in jail for reasons id rather not discuss, and without him it's getting hard to love and care about myself...
    chrissyp7 chrissyp7 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    I haven't self harmed in a long time

    but sometimes I get the urge and I don't know why.
    Itwasbeautiful Itwasbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 18

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    It takes 21days straight to break a habit.

    Keep on fighting my loves <3 the urge is so little for me, I'm a month and a half clean c:
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 19

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneDC CemoneDC 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 16

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    it's been a little over a week

    and my friend wants me to stop but it's just too hard..
    cloudslmao cloudslmao 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 15

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2

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    I've recently found a way to cope by writing

    small poems in my notes section on my phone. I'm not kidding I have at least 50 poems on my phone dating from six months ago that have been written when I want to abuse myself in any way. Whenever I type (or write) something out, I feel like I'm speaking to someone that won't...
    katherinejaneee katherinejaneee 16-17, F Oct 18

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    Before i met my girlfriend i was depressed amd

    would cut myself does that scare people?
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    A few years go, my parents go in to HUGE

    arguments. I hated it. There were some that were just like ehhh and just some that were OMG just stop. I cry every time that my parents argue..... My mom and dad would get drunk every now and then and I hated it! I couldn't help myself... There was just too many things going on...
    cantsaymynamesorry cantsaymynamesorry 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24

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    Now realizing all the reasons I started cutting.

    .. A lot of them... Most are because of my dad, how he treats me
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F Nov 3

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    I don't belong in this group

    as I haven't completely given it up, but I have cut less than usual lately. Praying this is the start of recovery and that I can stay clean this time.
    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 13

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    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F Dec 19, 2013

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    I never cut myself. I thought I was strong

    because of this. But I realised I self-harmed in other ways. I would deny myself good things to punish myself for something. I would call myself names. I would tell myself I was ugly and disgusting and the world would be better off if I died. I have come to learn that cutting...
    kalila37 kalila37 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    I wish I could promise myself

    that I won't do it again. But we always tell the best and most convincing lies to ourselves. Simply cutting was unsatisfactory for the depth of my aches, brutal body contact , such as head bashing, purposely falling, gouging and ripping flesh with semi sharp objects ( see about...
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 15

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    Wednesday marked me being six weeks clean.

    I have never stopped hurting myself for this long before but I feel amazing and like a better person (: there might be slip ups in the future but I know I'm never going back to how I was before :D
    turntherecordover turntherecordover 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 19

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I'm two months clean of self harm.

    . Yet I've always wanted to find a guy who does/ is recovering from self harm.. So we can help each other and get stronger together..
    xxshishixx xxshishixx 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 20

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-18, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    it's been 9 years and due to recent events

    that urge is back. So much has been happening that I couldn't even begin to explain but the urge is what is upsetting me. I've haven't thought about cutting in so long and lately I'm just not myself. I need to find me again.. I feel so lost :/
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    When I was 15, I started cutting myself.

    After a few months, I confided in my boyfriend at the time and promised him I wouldn't do it again. It was difficult, but I managed to do it, and even after having broken up I still honour that promise I made him. It's been almost six years now since I last cut myself and...
    shadowgirl4 shadowgirl4 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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