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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,932 People

    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I was a stupid teenager

    who cut her arm open in a place where the whole world could see. Looking back, I'm so glad I stopped when I did. Its been about 3 years since the last cut. I hate that I have to cover it around my family, I hated having to hide it at work, and I hate seeing it. To this day it...
    betsyellens betsyellens 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I'm six months clean(:

    even though I'm still tempted to almost everyday, I'm proud I've made it these few months
    toxiccpastelss toxiccpastelss 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Imjustateen16 Imjustateen16 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4, 2015

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    Sometimes I can be my worst enemy.

    I can be so self destructive. I've cut myself in the past, yes, but more than that I have so much self hatred that I have yet to work through. Sometimes I feel like the bliss of nothingness would be better than the emotional torment I subject myself to. It's tough to say that I...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 3 Responses May 22, 2013

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    stopped cutting 1 yr ago,

    started taking drugs, started drinking and relapsed just last night.
    dreamsphere dreamsphere 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    I was 2 months clean,

    but my best friend in the world started cutting again and it makes me sad to just see that someone I care about is cutting themselves
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 25

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    I've never been so tempted to relapse.

    It wasn't even a bad day. Idk what's wrong.
    Nyx5 Nyx5 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 18, 2015

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    So today I was getting my blood drawn

    and the lady doing it saw my old scars. She said, "It's a good thing those are scars, you better not be doing that anymore." I told her I wasn't and that it's been 10 months. She was so happy for me and she gave me candy. The world needs more people like her.
    PaigeLawley PaigeLawley 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 15, 2015

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    Burn, Cut, Choke, Mentally harming myself

    and I had enough lucky I stopped doing that but it was like a relief for me but now I'm worrying about trying to figure out how to be spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally positive and healthy for myself.
    tangie00 tangie00 18-21, F Jan 9

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I'm trying really hard to stop

    for someone I really love and its hard but so far I'm clean. I may relapse like I have many times before but this time I'm really trying.
    BeautifulChaos512 BeautifulChaos512 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 16, 2015

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    I thought I had stopped

    for good. It had been a year but then last week I cracked. Honestly the worst thing about this is I didn't have a real reason to do it.
    JaneRezubian JaneRezubian 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I'm officially 14 days clean today.

    Although two weeks isn't too long, it's a huge improvement. I'm really, really proud of myself, because these past couple of weeks have been tempting. My biggest issue is my scars. They'll be there forever, but they'll somewhat fade. I've learned to accept them, I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Sep 19, 2015

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    i never really physically self harmed myself.

    it was mainly emotionally. there were times when i would publicly humiliate myself on purpose. every time i felt depressed , i would draw negative attention to myself. i would go to school looking like a clown pretty much. i had on so much makeup of different colors that didn't...
    EastAfricanQueen EastAfricanQueen 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I still do, but not as bad.

    I haven't done it in about a month. I think about it, but I haven't broke yet
    PopulaceInOne PopulaceInOne 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 27

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 28, 2015

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    Still do everyday "If you wanna kill yourself

    cut vertically they can't stitch that up"
    SadLylaxx SadLylaxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 22, 2015

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    I relapsed which is really bad

    because Christmas is coming up and I will be expected to wear a short sleeved dress meaning my parents and everyone will see the cuts which is bad because no one knows about my mental struggles I don't know what to do!!
    loulou232 loulou232 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 21, 2015

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    I stopped self harming cause I didn't think my

    crush would like me anymore if I made more cuts so I stopped and when ever I think of doing it I hold their sweatshirt and cry it sounds pathetic but it helps
    EminemSavedMe EminemSavedMe 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 14. I'm 20 now. It's become so normal for me. I've been trying to stop since my boyfriend noticed the scars. He was so upset that I felt the need to do this to myself. I didn't think it was a big deal since I've been doing it for so long. I'm afraid I won't be able...
    Dtea15 Dtea15 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx 18-21, M Feb 21, 2015

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    I've started up again,

    I only did it again tonight as a one off because I'd had a really bad day...but then someone saw. Now they've told adults who've told my parents and everything's getting worse. I really want to do more but I can't because then they will know but there aren't any other ways to...
    Randompi Randompi 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have scars on my arms

    and legs, and a letter E that I burned onto my arm with a red-hot metal wire to punish myself for a terrible mistake that I made and to make sure that I never forget why it's there. Sometimes my joints ache where I used to crush them with vice grips. That was a long time ago...
    crossproduct crossproduct 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

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    It's been a long time

    since I last did this, I don't even remember when was the last time I did it anymore. But now, I started to think about it again and I'm confused right now. I want to do it but at the same time I don't want to do it...
    20ShadesOfBlue 20ShadesOfBlue 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    If you are suffering from depression,

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    driftingalone driftingalone 16-17, F Jan 24

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    Last year when I split up from my boyfriend,

    he left me in such a bad way and I was broken.. I was a different person to what I am now. I was weak back then and he broke me... I couldn't go out, eat or sleep.. I saw the blade one day and thought maybe just maybe that'll make the pain go away.. I'm left with a massive scar...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2015

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    So I don't usually do this

    but I'm desperate... I self harmed a few days ago.. I was just Invited to go out with some friends to this trampoline park where you wear shorts and short sleeves. Problem is they will see the scars on my legs and arms.. They don't know I do this... I don't know what to do. I...
    TaylorXXoX TaylorXXoX 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2015

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I self harm everyday I can't stand myself the

    person in the mirror I try n fight cause I don't like him I don't like me I need someone I have nobody I just want to die I'm all alone please don't let me wake up it looks like the vocies r to strong in the end this soul less person u say I am u made me a monster the time is...
    Weesm2016 Weesm2016 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 25

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    divergentone divergentone 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2015

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    I am currently 232 days self harm free

    which is the longest amount of time I've went without injuring myself in 8 year.
    Bitchnney Bitchnney 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2015

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    I used to. I used to think about death

    and I used to never smile. I used to be in a very very very dark place. Whether it's a month or a year or of you're me 4 years ... it's all great. Finding other ways to not hurt yourself whether it's just physical harm or even mental pain finding another route is amazing...
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe 16-17, F Sep 20, 2015

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    *inhale* I don't honestly know how long I've

    been "clean". Less than a year by a few months? 6, maybe 7 months? I don't know. I did it for control when it felt like my life was spiraling in ways I cannot control. Or when I was extremely angry. The only thing keeping me from doing it right now is I have a baby on the way. I...
    TunaLalion TunaLalion 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 16-17, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    I don't know if I'm quite at the point

    where I can say "used to" yet, but I think I'm going to get there. I am a recovering Self-harmer. I haven't cut in almost 4 1/2 months. I was really bad at one point, bad to the point I was cutting every day. I did it at school, at my friend's house, at my Aunt's house...
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446 13-15, T 4 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    It's so weird saying this BC in a way I don't

    feel like I've fully recovered. Sometimes I still think about and I don't know last time I did it BC I do different forms of SH. I guess I feel like the cutting part of it I've recovered from but I still find myself scratching, hitting, biting, pinching etc.... Idk I guess...
    wetepentz wetepentz 13-15, F Jan 12

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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