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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,659 People

    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2014

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    I used to cut myself all over with razors.

    . I haven't done it in two years :) (yay??)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123 16-17, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    I'm almost 3 months clean

    and I couldn't have made it this far had I not met one special person on here. I made a promise to her that I'd never do it again. I recently threw out my blade. I feel so accomplished. I'm actually beating this. And she has no idea how grateful I am to have her in my life. I...
    Protonyx Protonyx 16-17, M Feb 21

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    So self harm was something I struggled with

    for quite a while. It got pretty bad at one point and recently I have decided I can't do that anymore. I no longer want to do it and I have to stop it! So today at work some people were being miserable and I didn't know what to do, I grabbed some paper and started drawing. Which...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I know if I killed myself right

    now no one would care. I'm so alone.
    kylieadams kylieadams 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Can I say used to? I've been clean

    for a few months.. I just hit a really low point and ended up cutting over 40 times.. And now I refuse to even use use a knife or blade (I don't count my razor I shave with that's just gross) because I'm really going to try to not cut again, ever.. I will eventually trust...
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    Im at 159 days clean

    and so proud of me 💪🏼 its hard to stop and to be at 100 days clean was the most hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. Thanks to all of my friends and especially to my boyfriend who gave me so much help when all i asked was a bit of love... xox <3
    lailalessard lailalessard 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I used to cut myself

    but then I realized there was no need cause it wasn't going to solve any problems and it's just an addiction and we are all worth it somehow. It was a hard process and I did it but now I need some advice. My friend started cutting not too long ago and she showed me a picture of...
    Emsickles Emsickles 13-15, F Jul 10

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    I have a Condition call Trichitelmeanu I may

    have spelled IT wrong but AT LESS I try. IT IS were I pulls MY hair out ON Top OF MY head. I have had this issue for 30 years this year
    Nebmom2 Nebmom2 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    I want to start again,

    but the reason I did it makes me feel like doing it would be extremely disrespectful to those who actually self-harm as a coping skill against depression, anxiety, and stress.
    2l4t 2l4t 13-15, M Jun 20

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    I haven't self-harmed in a month

    but the urges are strong this time.. I don't know what to do . I might actually give in /.
    anagapesis anagapesis 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I haven't self harmed

    for year and half now. I stopped after I cut a 30 cm long, 1 cm wide and deep wound across my right thigh, with scissors. I bled so much and I can still feel the smell. My parents didn't know till then. I was 15. I started self harming at the age of 12. I had anorexia at the...
    lenna99 lenna99 16-17, F Jun 18

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    Yeah i always idea to kind of fold my phone

    charger and then i would kind of whip my wrist. I always got left with little bruised scars. But once i went to the point where they started to bleed. But now i am clean for 7 months! Yay me!
    BooksAreMyComfort BooksAreMyComfort 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    I haven't self harmed 9 months now,

    it's been a struggle and a fight. But I'm making it
    Syyyyyyy14 Syyyyyyy14 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    The last time I self harmed was around 9 months

    ago. Today, my best friend (aka my dad) got into a huge fight, and he didn't understand at all. So, the person who I usually talk to about this is him, but we're in a fight. I haven't felt this huge of an urge sense 9 months ago. I really want to self harm. I want to get the new...
    kylieadams kylieadams 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I've spent around a grand doing up my arms in

    bright beautiful colours, artwork to hide the disaster I used to be. I'm like candy coated misery. There days I want to slice them to bits all the same. I won't. I'm still embarrassed of the one deep scar that is still showing after numerous treatments. I beat the eating...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 13

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    I will be a year clean next month!

    Love to everyone still hurting, it does get better ♡
    Thesupremewitch Thesupremewitch 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    its been 15 years and the scars show up just

    the same as half my life ago...
    Tstanley86 Tstanley86 26-30, F a week ago

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    All of my past disorders mainly started from

    self harm. My anorexia, started with me refusing to eat, because it was physically painful, and if felt right. But later it became an addiction. My trichotillomania, trich is a hair pulling disorder, it's extremely rare, and there's no cure for it, it happens just like it...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I haven't felt this down in so,

    so long. I've been called such terrible things and felt so awful today. I literally am trapped here. I don't know what to do. I honestly just have the urge to self harm so STRONG. But I can't do it, I can't. I've gone so far without doing it. I just feels so needed right now...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    I use to be extremely addicted to self harm I

    wanted nothing more then to feel a blade cut through my flesh. it was more when I was losing control in my personal life that I began to cut myself.it was a release from everything I could control how much pain I wanted to feel and how deep I wanted to go. its now been 4 years...
    emovamp emovamp 18-21, M Jun 29

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    I remember when I would cut my wrist ,

    thighs ,really any where possible. That time In my life was so sad and out of control. It took me 3 years to gain control of me. Gaining self respect and acceptance is and always be something I value. No matter what life throws at me I will never travel down that road again...
    cherryshelby cherryshelby 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneGeorgiouAndrea CemoneGeorgiouAndrea 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    It's been a couple months,

    but all my self harmers , and people that are clean , it feels good to have that control, right? I mean even if you don't want to any more, your life feels different, you know? Idk.
    everythursday everythursday 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Not all self-harmers start

    because they've seen pictures. Not all get addicted. Not all think it's glamorous. Not all cut. I was talking to a friend recently, and he told me that he used to self-harm. But along with that he told me that he hated all the people who brag about it and post pictures online...
    PrettyBunny PrettyBunny 18-21, T 2 Responses Jul 5

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    Your life doesn't mater

    unless u make it mater once I Learned that I stopped
    KasperK KasperK 13-15, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    I used to cut and it sucks

    because now everytime I wear a short sleeve shirt and shorts people ask uncomfortable questions and I just wish they would go away
    melissaosieja melissaosieja 16-17, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    unidentiffied unidentiffied 16-17, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    lizc99 lizc99 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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