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I Used to Self Harm

Pretty self-explanatory - a group for those who no longer self harm and wish to share their experiences 4,526 People

    The last time I self harmed was around 9 months

    ago. Today, my best friend (aka my dad) got into a huge fight, and he didn't understand at all. So, the person who I usually talk to about this is him, but we're in a fight. I haven't felt this huge of an urge sense 9 months ago. I really want to self harm. I want to get the new...
    kylieadams kylieadams 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I am one year without relapse today!

    I almost didn't even notice it till just now. This is so exciting for me. I managed to change my whole life around, around from the anxiety & depression. I haven't picked up a blade in so long.. It makes me so proud to look down at my faded thigh marks. I just have a few more...
    jaasmine jaasmine 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    I used to self harm, sometimes I still have

    urges. It's not something to joke about, it's a serious thing. If anyone self harms just know, that I love you, and you are a strong person.
    evansmarieanna evansmarieanna 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self

    harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's not fun to feel so horrible and hurt, and just beat down on the inside that you feel the need to hurt yourself on the outside. Self harm, is an...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post

    as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm. It wasn't like one of those things where you do it for attention, or do it for fun. I needed it. I was depressed. I felt like my world had turned...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    I haven't self harmed

    for year and half now. I stopped after I cut a 30 cm long, 1 cm wide and deep wound across my right thigh, with scissors. I bled so much and I can still feel the smell. My parents didn't know till then. I was 15. I started self harming at the age of 12. I had anorexia at the...
    lenna99 lenna99 16-17, F Jun 18

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    Self Harm: The Sad Truth

    alot of people dont understand it, most choose not to. but believe it or not, 1 in 10 of us do/have/will self harm, and thats the sad truth. The majority of people who self harm are young girls aged 13-17. Most of them suffer in silence. I am one of them, when we feel scared...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 29, 2012

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    Earlier today I went to a store

    and I was wearing a tee shirt. I just started wearing tee shirts about two weeks ago but I always used to wear long sleeve shirts or sweaters because of my cuts on my arms. Today was the first time in years that I wore shorts. I always used to wear long pants because of my cuts...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses May 24, 2014

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    Triggers. That's what I hate the most.

    I have been clean since last August :) but u still get major urges.
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F May 31

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    Ok so this topic is kind of upsetting

    but I feel like a need to talk about it. When I was younger I used to self harm. The reason was I was being terribly bullied. I never fit into school. I was the geeky, unpopular guy that was made fun of and laughed at. I could live with that. It was just teasing. But as I got...
    crazyguy101 crazyguy101 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    Tsukimi Tsukimi 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I've been clean for almost a year thanks to my

    dad but im still really sad a lot and my mom just makes it worse when I see her
    wishdish wishdish 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 6

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    my advice to everyone- the best thing you can do

    for yourself is never start. I'm 14 and i struggled with self harm for a year, i'll admit i loved it. the blood running down my legs, the sting of the peroxide when i cleaned them the bubbling the blade between my fingers, all of it. i had been clean for 2 months when i cracked...
    SamTornado SamTornado 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2014

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    I have a Condition call Trichitelmeanu I may

    have spelled IT wrong but AT LESS I try. IT IS were I pulls MY hair out ON Top OF MY head. I have had this issue for 30 years this year
    Nebmom2 Nebmom2 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    i'm happy to say that its been a month

    since i've cut myself. i'm proud of my self for stopping, and i'm happy that i have some incredible friends who care about me :)
    shawny97 shawny97 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 9, 2014

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    today my son saw the horrific scars on my legs

    and put his hand on my leg and said "its ok mummy" I looked up at him and he just smiled his little 3 year old smile and then said "i love you mummy" and those 6 words just made my day, I've not self harmed in 4 years, but yes sometimes I feel really low and look at a blade or a...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I Didn'T Know How To Deal With It..

    When I was 16, on May 2011, I was abducted by 3 guys and they sold me around, used me and abused me, and just left me like I was nothing. I didn't know what to do, I made people think I was okay, I always smiled and laughed at their jokes, my family didn't even know til my dad...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 5 Responses May 22, 2013

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    600 Days Cut Free.

    At the age of 16, I began to self harm. This was about 6 months after I started feeling suicidal. I continued cutting for a little over a year, and tried to give up many times. My parents kicked up a big stink, and there were a lot of problems. However, October 18th 2005 was the...
    kiltedmonkey kiltedmonkey 16-17, F 9 Responses Jun 18, 2007

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    Oh well.. I gave in..

    Three months.. Wasted.
    XxSuicidalKissesxX XxSuicidalKissesxX 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 11

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    I'm six months clean

    and although cutting is always at the back of my mind, I'm confident I won't relapse.
    thegirlonfiyaa thegirlonfiyaa 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    madelinedowell madelinedowell 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I want to start again,

    but the reason I did it makes me feel like doing it would be extremely disrespectful to those who actually self-harm as a coping skill against depression, anxiety, and stress.
    2l4t 2l4t 13-15, M Jun 20

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    Can I say used to? I've been clean

    for a few months.. I just hit a really low point and ended up cutting over 40 times.. And now I refuse to even use use a knife or blade (I don't count my razor I shave with that's just gross) because I'm really going to try to not cut again, ever.. I will eventually trust...
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I just want to let all the people

    who say self harming is "dumb" and "pointless", know that they are very ignorant about the situation and they should just shut up. I used to self harm. I didn't do it for attention. I did it for release. If things fort way too overwhelming, I cut. That was my way of coping. So...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    This Fall will be 30 Years

    since I started pulling my hair on top and yes I do still do it! it is a way I deal with stress.
    Nebmom2 Nebmom2 41-45, F May 17

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    I've been trying to write a post

    that I was going to call a History Of Violence but I've been finding it very difficult to get right. I've been seeing a couple of therapists because I've been very unwell for a while now and I was self harming again. The first time in over 10 years. Cutting and burning myself...
    ReubyOneKenobi ReubyOneKenobi 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    RedMarcher RedMarcher 18-21, M 7 Responses Feb 18

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    Every Scar I Have Makes Me Who Iam :)

    So I am 21 years old and finally I think it's time for me to share my story and hopefully I can help you young ones to seek help.... The word seek help can be very scary because you don't want to tell people as you feel judge and maybe the person will tell people that you don't...
    whatdoesntkillumakesustronger whatdoesntkillumakesustronger 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2013

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    last time i cutted was on 5/6/15

    but the sadness is still here w/me. it has never went away. & it sucks.
    yxngmamii yxngmamii 18-21, F Jun 9

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    I still have my scars,

    and I get tempted every once in a while, but I'm about a month clean and I don't plan to ever return to my old habits. seeing the marks on my wrist just reminded me how sad I was and I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. I hope that everyone who cuts finds an...
    Kensie13 Kensie13 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    For many years I've used self destructive

    behavior to cope with daily life.
    azigzaggylyss azigzaggylyss 18-21, F Dec 19, 2013

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    If you're reading this

    and you self harm .. Just know you're put here for a reason . I've been thru some bad stuff (haven't we all?) and I used to struggle with self harm . Looking back on it now I regret it so much !!! Please don't put yourself thru that because you're beautiful . And everything is...
    noell123 noell123 16-17, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    I have been clean since September 2014,

    can't wait to get these buggers covered up with tattoos when I am old enough.
    BlueBird26 BlueBird26 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 1

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    I use to be extremely addicted to self harm I

    wanted nothing more then to feel a blade cut through my flesh. it was more when I was losing control in my personal life that I began to cut myself.it was a release from everything I could control how much pain I wanted to feel and how deep I wanted to go. its now been 4 years...
    emovamp emovamp 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    "Your arm." My father noticed over dinner.

    "What happened?" I was about 12 and had had a rough day so I sort of took the thumbtack holding a poster on my bedroom and stabbed my right arm(I'm left handed) as well as dragging cuts into my arm. Now I kept that arm in my lap and pretended it didn't ache. I also pretended not...
    sagate sagate 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    I've spent around a grand doing up my arms in

    bright beautiful colours, artwork to hide the disaster I used to be. I'm like candy coated misery. There days I want to slice them to bits all the same. I won't. I'm still embarrassed of the one deep scar that is still showing after numerous treatments. I beat the eating...
    lonelybrandi lonelybrandi 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    Here's to the boys. The ones

    who self harm, the ones who have eating disorders, the ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. Your perfect prince or princess will come along soon. Boys suffer too, why does everyone forget that?
    JamieLongfield JamieLongfield 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming

    when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a divorce, I lost my best friend to cancer & I was going through a rough time at school. The only way I knew how to deal with it was to turn back...
    CemoneGeorgiouAndrea CemoneGeorgiouAndrea 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    My Story

    I sort of wanted to put this story on here somewhere, as a reminder of the person I was and the horrible things I did ._. My story never began with a bad family because I had the most amazing family, but they never knew the sadness I felt. It started when I was 12 years old and...
    The2ndLaw The2ndLaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    I haven't felt this down in so,

    so long. I've been called such terrible things and felt so awful today. I literally am trapped here. I don't know what to do. I honestly just have the urge to self harm so STRONG. But I can't do it, I can't. I've gone so far without doing it. I just feels so needed right now...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So yeah, this is a part of my life I rarely

    talk about. But hey, this is EP, so what the hell. I started cutting myself way back when I was about 11 or so. Way back before it was a "trend". I did other things to harm myself too, but cutting was my thing. Something about seeing it made me feel "alive", like I had...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    Self harm is like ripping pages out of the book

    of your own life story. It slowly chips away at your soul. I used to hurt myself on the outside to kill the thing on the inside. That is not the way to do it as I know now.
    Hopefu1 Hopefu1 13-15, F 1 Response May 31

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    Today I decided to go

    for a swim, and as always I caught a few people staring at my scars. I used to be really insecure about them, but now I realize that there is absolutely nothing that I can do about them, except accept them and move on from my life. My scars show that I was once in pain, but I...
    nycgirl19 nycgirl19 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have Bipolar disorder

    and I used to cut and burn myself to cope with my depression and erratic mood swings. I used to carry a cigarette lighter around everywhere and carried and empty cigarette carton. Everyone just assumed I smoked, even my parents when they found it. No one knew that I hid my...
    ThatAwkwardGuy ThatAwkwardGuy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2014

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