I 've Been Up All Night Thinking

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    I've been thinking about my future.

    . What I'm I going to do? Where am I going to go? Who am I going to keep in my life? I use to think I had it all planned out, but now all I know for certain is that, "I don't know what I want anymore"...
    trin2013 trin2013
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 22, 2015
    mark210 mark210
    41-45, M
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    I have two minds at once.

    .. Hundreds flying in and at.. I am a male and even more vital... I my other real , spearate and distinct person.. Jessie.. This picture was the first she was we both in the present.. No not crazy actually have 5 they call comorbids rather intelligent ... I have stay up all night...
    jessie121412 jessie121412
    41-45, T
    Sep 1, 2015

    I've been through it all Seen it all Heard it

    all But it's when your in that bliss between sad and mad is when your mind and heart fight each other Your heart says to be sad and to let everything go and let them be happy and your mind is screaming at you saying no you worked your *** off for them and then they do that to...
    flyguy3326 flyguy3326
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015

    About nothing in particular.

    Is this how time passes us by?
    novembermoon novembermoon
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 19, 2015

    Its frustrating sometimes

    when you feel like its just you against the world
    afroguy777 afroguy777
    22-25, M
    Jul 21, 2015

    I have been awake the entire night,

    despite the fact that I have to work a 12 hour shift today. Thank you thoughts.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 28, 2015

    I've been reading through quite a few of the

    mentally ill topics and I can't help but assume the worst when I see the posts from people who offered invaluable advice from their personal experience but haven't logged in for like 3 months to a year or 2. I hope they're doing well and I'm just being negative.
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    what I should do is just to enjoy the life

    as a teenager....that is probably what should I do....but that are so much things come across my mind.....that are so much things that are not under my control....I can't solve it...all the stuff....just feel sick of that.....God..pls help me.... I think I might get frustrated...
    christinelim819 christinelim819
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 8, 2015

    I think about my man late at night

    because I miss him and I want to be in bed next to him; to cuddle with him, to sleep next to him. I will think about the memories and how happy I am with him. The negative part of thinking late at night is losing him and the effects that it would have on me. That's the last...
    SamCartier SamCartier
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    I dunno whether to have a break with my bf

    for a while or just make up and be normal he did shout at me on my street with my neighbours around...
    sabzzzz sabzzzz
    18-21, F
    Mar 10, 2016

    tonight i am laying here with the extreme

    desire to say I love you to him as he walks in at 6:45. I've been wanting to. neither want a piece of paper but want a commitment. am I foolish? he treats me well. I'm 49 he is 45.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    It is 1:04am which is way past my bedtime.

    .. I usually sleep before 12 due to college etc. However, I always tend to repent situations that I have no control of. It's mostly from my mistakes, you know the past and what not. It really bothers me that till this day I still think about the things that I should have done...
    meeeemzi meeeemzi
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2016

    The challenges in front of you are not

    as strong as the gods that stand behind you.
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits
    22-25, M
    Aug 9, 2015
    monkiman22 monkiman22
    16-17, F
    Aug 11, 2015

    My eyes are puffy and red.

    Stupid thoughts run through my head. I wish I was dead. That's what they all said.
    beautifuldisaster4 beautifuldisaster4
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2015

    About the meaning of life.

    I know it's cliche, but seriously what is it all for?
    Ashera22 Ashera22
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2014

    I have just been to court.

    the guy who raped me didnt show up and im kicking myself. the defense was so horrible to me and i was on the verge of just leaving because i couldnt take it. there was so much the i forgot to say and now its over so i wont be able to say it and instead i just have to wait to see...
    livelaughlove0987 livelaughlove0987
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 23, 2015

    How someone so close to you could be gone in a

    flash. It sucks when the one u cared about and had so many great memories is gone in 1 2 3. I just wish I could of helped my best friend. He was bullied so badly that he couldn't take it anymore. Everyone thought he was bulletproof. He was so happy or so he seemed. I...
    TannerOscar TannerOscar
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    I have been thinking.

    The world is not a movie or a play. We are not the protagonists of that story. There are no heroes and villains or background characters here. The millions we pass by don't disappear the moment they passed by never to be seen again. They have their own lives, their own dreams...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 30, 2015

    Mz A invited me to her Tue women empowerment

    hour. Tonight she spoke about Jesus came for the lost sheep.And the way to be free is to forgive. She spent a few mins speaking about her personal victories, over coming addiction cigarettes and alcohol it was instantaneous. God healed her she had no taste for either. because it...
    Omusic11 Omusic11
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 28, 2015

    im losing the strand of hope with myself.

    ive been thinking too much about the work i applied either i am accepted or not. Thinking about my current work which gave me nothing special. Ive been stupidly there for 8 years and nothing brought me in goodness. im trying to be patience but im loosing it.
    Eureka85 Eureka85
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    So I've found it interesting

    that when my father talks about the economy, hopelessness, and stress that people face he talks like I don't know and do not experience...maybe I'm misreading him but I feel that vibe. When my body was going through major pains, chills, energy loss, and headaches from stress and...
    XxRazorbladeRomancexX XxRazorbladeRomancexX
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 1, 2015

    When something is going to happen in my life.

    ..i usually think and be stressed out from this unhealthy actio !!!
    Eureka85 Eureka85
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    I been all night thinking if,

    I should get up early tmr or na to hit the gym early
    theThunder1123 theThunder1123
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    I thought too much about something

    that isn't my problem and it led me to other thoughts about myself and it caused me to get so exhausted. Lately I've been thinking too much about school, my grades, my future, my partner, my best friend and myself. I keep worrying about things I shouldn't.
    carazami carazami
    Oct 22, 2015

    I actually have not slept yet.

    I have a lot on my plate right now and my mind will not let me rest. I know things will turn around it is the waiting that keeps me most anxious.
    ladylioness816 ladylioness816
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Aug 8, 2015

    including tonight my head hurts from thinking

    my eyes hurt from crying and my heart hurts from smiling on the outside knowing that I'm dying on the inside but my mom doesn't care to notice
    skyisthelimit32 skyisthelimit32
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Apr 7, 2015

    I never thought it would get to this.

    The feeling of hurt and disappointment. I suppose I deserve it after the way I have been these last few days.
    SailorsAngel SailorsAngel
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2015
    BradleytheBeast BradleytheBeast
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    ok so i know this guy from my art classs

    for two years n i never spoke to him but all of a sudden when college is over we start talking on insta n met up and kinda got intimate no sex lol we also got high im confused as to what we are n i dunno its weird
    18-21, F
    Aug 11, 2015

    Every night I close my eyes

    and recall what I did during the day and I am mostly not proud of what I did. I looked so stupid,immature .reckless. It's feel like that's not the real me. I just can't sleep and keep thinking what should I've done instead.
    thomascalvinn thomascalvinn
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jun 24, 2014

    I really hate sleeping alone.

    I feel so rejected when my boyfriend doesn't want to spend the night. He works night shift and I'm lucky if I get to see him more then once a week. So I don't understand why he won't spend the night with me and enjoy our little time together.
    beautifuldisaster4 beautifuldisaster4
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    There are times I have felt myself quite lost.

    I'm not doing what I want to be doing. Thoughts strangle my sleep and I lie awake thinking. There are so many things to ponder, so many things to process and survive.
    Skjeggstad Skjeggstad
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2014

    I always have such high expectations

    for temporary people, and right now. I don't have many friends that I fully trust or rely on. I also don't have a best friend, which really makes me sad....
    Sunshineh13 Sunshineh13
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2015

    I'm always up all night every night thinking

    about who's really here for me in life and who isn't..
    Born2Inspire Born2Inspire
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 8, 2015

    Life is changing so quickly

    and its kinda difficult to adjust
    afroguy777 afroguy777
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2015

    I can't sleep anymore.

    I have been awake for an hour or so. My brain keeps wandering to the same thought. All I can say is... Get out! Get out! Get out!
    SailorsAngel SailorsAngel
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jul 10, 2015

    Am I lying to myself by staying positive

    even in the face of my prese t situation? Being depressed has enhanced my creative thinking. Because it sure takes a skilled mental magician to spew the lies I try to sell myself. Lie 1: It will get better. Truth: I've said this damn thing so many times and yet .... I'm still...
    Omusic11 Omusic11
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015

    ive been up all night thinking about stuff.

    interesting stuff. deep stuff. naughty stuff. hopeful stuff. life is such a complex and humurous thing. such an impossibly arduous journey.
    naomiXO naomiXO
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 24, 2015
    SilentNight23 SilentNight23
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2014

    I am a strong person.

    But every once in a while I would like someone to hold my hand and tell me things are going to be OK.
    Shygirl917 Shygirl917
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2014

    I'm up thinking about things every single night.

    .. For hours... My mind just goes on and on... From things I'm worried about, to the things I'm happy about, to the things o fear, to the things I wonder about, to the things that are totally random and weird... Fantasies... Yeah..
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2014

    Yr relationship status should not change the

    love you had inside. The love, the light, the longing should always be there. You owned them, not the other way around..
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    1 Response Feb 26, 2015

    Couple of weeks ago my boyfriend asked me

    if she wanted to go hiking with this girl. She's really preety.. And I just recently found out she has a boyfriend too. Here's the thing, when me and my boyfriend broke up. he slept with a friend that me and him were cool with. (He was even cool with our friend's boyfriend.)So...
    Katieex4 Katieex4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    I could tell you a million lies to make you

    smile. But it would kill me a million times in a million ways. Because even the fairest lie of all is nothing to the rotten ugliest truth. We are all naturally attracted to art. Even demon is a masterpiece. And people are in awe of it. Maybe that's why I love distance. I don't...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015
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