I 've Done Things That I Told Myself I Would Never Do

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    So many things, in fact.

    Some sexual. Some just run of the mill things. Every time I do, I am amazed at myself, almost like it's someone else.
    pinkcorsetgirl pinkcorsetgirl
    46-50, F
    5 Responses May 15, 2015

    I'm lying here next to a man

    who says I mean the world to him. I'm lying here quietly, tears streaking down the sides of my face. I'm lying here thinking of buying those razors tomorrow. If I wouldn't get put back in the hospital for it, I would use those razors right down the sides of my eyes where the...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    told myself that I would never like skirts

    and dresses and that I would never wear a lot of makeup .. and of course my style changed and I mostly have skirts now a days
    bloodyzombie19 bloodyzombie19
    18-21, F
    Oct 1, 2015

    I have done several things I thought I never

    would, all because it pleased some guy and I aim to please!
    bd693 bd693
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 17, 2015

    I've always told myself

    that I'll never do drugs, but that changed all in high school. I switched out from French to cooking (wanted to focus on Japanese more). Two of the students in that class were druggies and basically pulled me into buying a bunch of drugs. Funny thing is my parents don't know...
    Beyond13Birthday Beyond13Birthday
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    I've used needles to get my high before.

    And the sad part is, after doing it once, I thought to myself "this actually isn't even that bad, what's the big deal?" Haha. Never in a millions years would I think I'd even touch a needle.
    skunkpunk skunkpunk
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    Never say never.... That's what I have learned

    in life. The reason we end up doing things we said we'd never do is because the person you are at 18 is not who you are at 30. Life changes us, beats us up, opens our eyes, changes our direction.
    deleted deleted
    14 Responses Feb 17, 2015

    I've done many things

    that I told myself I'd never do all very different things but never have I drunk too much to the point I actually vomit and let it affect my personality. Yesterday, me and my mate went on a bus ride. Now she's a heavy smoker, and drinker. So when we were waiting for the bus...
    taytay1401 taytay1401
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2015
    ErikaT5 ErikaT5
    18-21, F
    May 19, 2014

    you can never fully under estimate the feeling

    of anger and rage. it makes you think about the most extreme things you want to do and carry out. but when it becomes your family it takes it to a whole knew level, it gets to a point where you dont even care what happens to you as long as you see that person gets !
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2016

    I guess moving in with my Heroin dealer wasn't

    on the top of my list of things to do....but I fell in love with him
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

    I just had sex with my ex in the park.

    .. two things I never thought I'd do...Fark EP has changed me
    BarelyAdulterated BarelyAdulterated
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 23, 2015

    Well let's see, I said I would never get a

    tattoo and now I have 5. I said I would never leave my husband, but then he cheated on me with my best friend. I said I would never go down on a girl, but now I'd stay down there all day if my girlfriend would let me. ?
    ihearthedgies ihearthedgies
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2015

    Yeah I've said that a million times

    but I've done so many thing that I never thought ill do, and now I just look at all the things that I thought I wouldn't have done, I mean we all learn from certain mistakes and it helps us grow and know that it's not the right thing necessarily to do, we'll it all depends on...
    talaunanna talaunanna
    18-21, F
    Jul 31, 2015
    thatonegirl156 thatonegirl156
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2014

    Even though I may have thought about naughty

    things in my 20's and 30's.....I would never have let anyone know, not even my husband. I had to be the "good-girl". I finally reached a point to where I was like "I'm so tired of not being myself" and living without the passion I so desperately needed. I finally feel for the...
    deleted deleted
    21 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    I use drugs occasionally I use alcohol I've had

    sex with guys I've never loved but I don't regret any of these things sure I regret some things I've done while drunk or on drugs, but those experiences have taught me things about myself, as well as what my limits are. as for the sex, ya girl gets horny & sex is great, but I...
    rhinowhino rhinowhino
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    I told myself I'd wait

    for marrige. I ended up having sex with my first and only boyfriend....he ended up cheating on me.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    Hmm yes I have n I'm quite ashamed of it well

    we learn actually I learned alot from my mistakes.
    deleted deleted
    Oct 2, 2015

    What is the best/worst things you've done

    that you thought you'd never do?
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    Is it normal to be so totally angry at your

    husband but want to **** the **** out of them??? We fought/didn't speak for a week, had angry sex and now have been doing it one to two times a day since Sunday. (We usually only have sex 2 or 3 times a week) I seriously want him, but am Still so mad at him. What's wrong with me...
    Wifeneedingimprovements Wifeneedingimprovements
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Aug 20, 2014

    I've always made the "rules"

    for myself. Like... if I eat chocolate cake today I can't have it for another 3 weeks. Or if I really like a guy I have to wait for at least 3 dates before we make out. Stupid crap like that. Have I broken this stupid rules? Yes. Although discipline and having standards are...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    I've cheated, I've lied,

    I've wronged, I've stolen, I've regretted... but I've also loved, I've listened, I've wept, I've jumped in feet first. ..I've lived
    MLGecko MLGecko
    41-45, M
    Nov 17, 2014

    Have sex. Nobody took interest,

    so what the hell. I wanted to be asexual
    ImNiceASF ImNiceASF
    18-21, M
    Nov 12, 2015

    It happens, and it doesn't matter - will be

    turning to dust sooner or later.
    crazytank crazytank
    26-30, M
    Jul 31, 2015

    I once told myself I wouldn't have sex

    until I got married. I ended up having gay sex with a guy a year younger than me when I was 14
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    I bought a Taylor Swift CD.

    ...... and enjoy it...... OH THE SHAME
    csouls csouls
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2015

    it seems kinda silly

    now thinking back to all the things I said I would never do and then ended up doing. now I try to go about not setting restrictions for myself, and just doing whatever feels right.
    nicolieflowergirlie nicolieflowergirlie
    18-21, F
    Jul 31, 2015

    And for the most part I am glad I have.

    I am a lot more open then I used to be.
    funluvnangel funluvnangel
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2016

    It seems like somewhere done the road we lose

    sight of who we are. At what point do we become so weak that we do the things we hate most???
    JJjones0 JJjones0
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 20, 2014

    Guilty. Many things too.

    ... Funny things like "I'm not going to have seconds" or "I'm not going to ever eat that last donut." But then there's the heavy stuff... Life changing stuff.. Have affairs, sleep with a coworker, cry myself to sleep, stay in an abusive marriage, go to bed angry, drink to feel...
    Anemoneblande Anemoneblande
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2016

    I remember I used to pride myself in the fact

    that I was 17, still a virgin, never drank, never smoked, never did any sort of drugs, that is...until I moved to where I am currently. Now, at newly 18, I lost my virginity, got hella drunk before, smoked before, and have been smoking hella weed, along with my bf wanting to try...
    newsqirshyfuzzball newsqirshyfuzzball
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 1, 2015

    I have, but I wouldn't trade those experiences

    for the world. They have molded me into who I am... And I kinda like her ;)
    Lucca9 Lucca9
    41-45, F
    Jun 21, 2015

    Not really anything bad,

    but I am pushing myself beyond my boundaries and sometimes that can be a good thing.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    I left my wife for her best friend.

    Holy ****. I AM that guy. Worth it, and I can justify it for myself, but now when my circle of friends and family look at me that is what they see.
    Mdoer87 Mdoer87
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    like eating vegetables willingly between meals

    or as a snack. Then telling someone that I"like this vegetable"
    sofakingEZ sofakingEZ
    36-40, M
    Oct 31, 2015

    I need someone who carry

    and love with me..
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 23, 2016

    I have been physically abusive to the one I

    love. It's extremely hard for me to say this even on an anonymous site. I fear his love for me is so weak, I don't know if I can fix what's been done. I've tried to forcefully keep him from leaving me when he's angry too many times to count. I have kicked and pushed. I broke the...
    WanderingEcoFaerie WanderingEcoFaerie
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 23, 2015
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2016

    In the last 2 years I’ve done

    and gone through things I never thought I would! Until you actually experience it you never know what you really, truly will do. I managed to push myself, control some of my fears, speak out on important and life changing situations… I didn’t realize at the time, but in...
    JadeKnight JadeKnight
    26-30, T
    Jul 31, 2015

    I had never done anything with anyone before,

    and I decided to hook up with a guy, he ended up blowing me and that was it. It was a weird experience and I feel really strange about it. I know that I definetly am not gay, but I thought I'd be happy once I tried it, and I just feel weird now.
    zholland55 zholland55
    18-21, M
    Dec 23, 2015

    never do....this week I had a date with two men

    on the same day. oh well, my boyfriend didn't seem to mind.
    tennisprincess1975 tennisprincess1975
    41-45, F
    Jul 31, 2015

    Told myself I would never shave down there

    but I did yesterday and it's okay but hurts like hell but apparently that's normal so I guess I will see I think I might just let it grow back out all tho it's kinda nice idk lol
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Oct 8, 2014

    I always told myself I would NEVER send any

    'ehem' specific photos, but about last year i was having quite a sexy conversation with this really fit guy I knew (and had a huge crush on at that time) and he ended up sending me a naked photo, so I was stupid and thought I would return the favour (not naked, just in underwear...
    daintyduck daintyduck
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 3, 2014

    and that's what crosses my mind

    when people judge others choices, until you are standing there in that persons life, with that persons options and experiences in your mind then you have no idea what it's like for them and as humans we are VERY bad at predicting out own behaviour in imagined scenarios...In the...
    kuronekko kuronekko
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    I do it for the love,

    I do it for the rain, I do it for the passion, I do it for the pain I do it for the rush, I do it for the doubt... I do it for my daughter, man, 'cause she's what I'm about I do it for my mom, I do it for my dad Do it for my sanity, it's hanging from a thread I do it for the...
    deleted deleted
    May 15, 2015

    A lot In elementary we used to watch all of

    these videos about how bad drug and alcohol were and I remember I would always tell myself and my friend "I would never do that, it's so gross, and why do people do that?" Now I smoke weed, I've done shrooms, salvia, hydrocodone, promethazine, tramadol, oxycodone, extasy, LSD...
    tootaloo tootaloo
    18-21, F
    Aug 4, 2014

    I was always thoroughly convinced

    that I would be the nicest most patient and loving mother. .......And then I had a two year old. What a shock to the system that was! During college, I took several child development classes, worked with a preschool class for several assignments, and spent a semester as a...
    donotforget donotforget
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 12, 2015

    I'd never succumb to these lowly vices of the

    physical world. Not after seeing it rip my family from the seams and make a mockery of love as it morphed into codependence. This is sick and they are sick and I am sick and I want someone to cast down their hand and pull me from this; please, God, please. I'm on my third pill...
    Godlevel Godlevel
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    I swore up and down as a young adult

    that I would never let my children watch Barney or play too many video games.....well little did I know how much Video games would play into my autistic son's learning to master reading so he could play the games....however, I never imagined how long it would take to rid my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2015
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