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I 've Journeyed Into My Dark Past

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    It Hurts

    i have journey back through my dark past, sometimes its really heart sometimes it feels really good but i always learn something
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Apr 1, 2008

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    To Find Forgiveness

    Recently I started a book written by a friend. Part of the title contains the term 'Child Sacrifice" and it deals with family structures in heavily religious families of the UK and Ireland. It is hard reading as it brings to the forefront difficult aspects of my own family...
    yukon yukon 46-50, M Mar 10, 2008

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    No Regrets

    It is not so much of taking a journey into my past. I'm just one of those people out there who can remember it very well. I have a much better long term memory than a short term memory. I have learned a lot while growing up. I took chances and made mistakes. I do not regret any...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 3, 2012

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    It's a Nice Place to Vacation, But I Don't Want to Live There

    I, too, in a sense was the child that was sacrificed in my family.    Both my brother and I are mentally ill and my parents had their hands full dealing with him.  I was always the strong one, the one that could handle things on my own, so on my own I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 14, 2008

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    1kingdarkness 1kingdarkness 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    MidnightLaughter MidnightLaughter 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm not writing stories on here in hopes of gaining pity or "likes" or seeking attention for that matter. I'm truly just sharing stories with my feelings/thoughts about them that I...
    JustAGirLinAbaR JustAGirLinAbaR 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    AN76 AN76 36-40, F Jan 4

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    shur09 shur09 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    IstyBisty IstyBisty 31-35, F Jan 15

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    darkspace26 darkspace26 22-25, F a week ago

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    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 2 days ago

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