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I 've Journeyed Into My Dark Past

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 73 People

    To Find Forgiveness

    Recently I started a book written by a friend. Part of the title contains the term 'Child Sacrifice" and it deals with family structures in heavily religious families of the UK and Ireland. It is hard reading as it brings to the forefront difficult aspects of my own family...
    yukon yukon 46-50, M Mar 10, 2008

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    It's a Nice Place to Vacation, But I Don't Want to Live There

    I, too, in a sense was the child that was sacrificed in my family.    Both my brother and I are mentally ill and my parents had their hands full dealing with him.  I was always the strong one, the one that could handle things on my own, so on my own I was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 14, 2008

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    No Regrets

    It is not so much of taking a journey into my past. I'm just one of those people out there who can remember it very well. I have a much better long term memory than a short term memory. I have learned a lot while growing up. I took chances and made mistakes. I do not regret any...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 3, 2012

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    It Hurts

    i have journey back through my dark past, sometimes its really heart sometimes it feels really good but i always learn something
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Apr 1, 2008

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    I hold onto it like a cherished memory... I couldn't let go of the pain if my life depended on it, and my life DOES depend on it! If I don't let go, I'll end up in a living death...
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    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I think we all have one inside of us. I don't actually have a lot of experience with my "dark side." What I know is that it's an instinctive side of me that only surfaces when...
    AliasSapien AliasSapien 18-21, M Jan 29

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    How can you see into my eyes Like open doors? Leading you down into my core Where I've become so numb Without a soul My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold Until you find it there...
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    Yeah I get that the past is the past and all is forgiven.... but don't tell me to forget it because I believe that is a big mistake because if you forget then you can't learn from...
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