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I 've Seen the Darkness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 338 People

    ..And I've Clawed My Way Back From The Abyss...Alone...

    Last night I experienced a strange sense of Deja Vu. I was alone for the evening and my depression over the loss of my latest love relationship reached a new level of despair. I was glad when my house-mate left to take his girlfriend home. Having had all their sappy canoodling I...
    Anonymouself Anonymouself 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    It Tries To Consume Me

    At some point in my life a switch was flipped and the darkness looked for me. I became its target. It seeks me out and tries to destroy my hope and my soul. I went from a kid spending summers with friends to a kid who spent the whole summer alone in isolation. It never goes...
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    What can else expect in this planet?

    But i can see also the creation which is better from darkness always!
    blackweirdcat blackweirdcat 46-50, F Mar 14

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    What Sleeps There...

    I suppose the 'Darkness' could be thought of as several things. It's open to interpretation. But i'm guessing on this site it means the metaphorical emotional darkness. And the darkness surrounding humanity... The darkness that coats the most bitter souls and that lingers in the...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    The Dark I See

    I envy most people. I envy them for how they view the world, for most people see the light. Most people can find joy every day, whereas I see the dark all the time. No one could guess this upon seeing me, I have the perfect poker face to hide how I feel inside. My mask is...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Yes, I've seen the darkness

    and fought to keep it from completely consuming my soul. I've experienced it in my dreams even; I have a recurrent nightmare where I am running and something is chasing me. Sometimes the "something" is disguised as a person, but I know it's not because the face is always a blur...
    ItsInAllofUs ItsInAllofUs 22-25 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    It's always there. Whispering in my head.

    Wrapped around my soul. Clenching my heart. I was alone when it made it's promises. I believed it, and a part of me still does. It makes me think things I don't want to know. It's been comforting me lately. Wrapping it's shadow around me protecting me. When everything else is...
    DarknessWolf DarknessWolf 22-25, M 5 Responses May 20

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    Every Time I Look In The Mirror

    There it is, scratching at the surface, begging, pleading for release.  But, I stomp it down, smother it until it's quiet and still.I wonder how long will I be able to keep it at bay before it breaks free?How much longer will I have this peace in my life before all hell breaks...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2012

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    And It Once Was Within Me

    The Darkness once resided within me. It taunted me, and ate away at my soul. Its inky black shadows swirled throughout me, chilling me to my very core, no amount of sunshine could warm me, for the ice was from the inside. Although It tortured me, created nightmares beyond your...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2011

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    Oh my God, the darkness is coming on

    so strong. So many days coming up that should be special. But they are not. They are days of just the darkness trying to swallow me whole. Its like the noonday sun is just as black as midnight. I call out and no one is there. I stumble and search in the dark, only to find...
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    Darkness Is My Strength

    Hate leads me to better that which I hate, this world as it is now, too much unnecessary suffering. Knowledge leads me to create solutions. True darkness will lead the way through blinding light. The balance will prevail! "True darkness is that which you can look through to...
    ProeliatorOrdo ProeliatorOrdo 16-17 Dec 13, 2012

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    The Darkness

    I live in a life of fear that my beast will take over me. He is the darkness in my life. everytime I start to go crazy he comes out to play. I try to stop him but he take over me. The only way I can stop him is by starting fires so he can leave me alone.
    BeastWithFire BeastWithFire 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2009

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    I have seen it, and I enjoy it.

    But that does not make me a bad person...you don't realize the little gift you got when you dabble in it, but when you do...its the most amazing feeling ever.
    MrDark666 MrDark666 18-21, M Feb 21

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    I've tried to kill myself

    so many times, I don't see suicide or self harm as a big deal anymore. I just see it as an everyday thing that we deal with. I don't understand why people say, "I can't believe you've tried to kill yourself" or, "I've even tried to take my own life" like it's such a severe thing...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F Aug 1

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    And It Once Was Within Me

    The Darkness once resided within me. It taunted me, and ate away at my soul. Its inky black shadows swirled throughout me, chilling me to my very core, no amount of sunshine could warm me, for the ice was from the inside. Although It tortured me, created nightmares beyond your...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15, 2011

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    and the darkness has seen me,

    it seeped into my soul and wont let me go
    maylane maylane 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    She dragged the knife along her skin

    and she rolled her head back lay down pretty angel for you are now done
    Harryisalliesgurl1234567891 Harryisalliesgurl1234567891 18-21 Feb 25

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    When I'm trying to sleep in my bed

    and I'm alone in my house or the only one awake I feel like the dark is alive and sucking me in or something moves above me
    ASHAPOO ASHAPOO 13-15, F Apr 21

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    The Long Dark Tunnel

    Ive walked the darkness - I know how hard it is. I too, have breached the entrance to that tunnel - that long dark tunnel. And yes, its very dark- no light. At all. Pitch. Black. Darkness. But after much assistance, from my councilor, Sue, she lead my mind, body, and soul...
    marklovescoffee marklovescoffee 46-50, M Jan 16, 2013

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    What makes it so dark is the fact no one knows

    about it. Shhh. Keep it quite no one needs to know. It only gets darker. Shhh. He didn't beat us. Shhh. They don't get drunk and fight. Shhh. She didn't cheat. Shhh. He doesn't do drugs. Shhh. He didn't cry in my arms. Shhh. We did't get evicted. Shhh. I did't cut. Shhh. You did...
    halfbroke halfbroke 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I shaved my soul as the darkness beckoned

    and blatantly strolled. Waving away crescents as I fell into lonely descents. Beautifully consuming, striking my will my fire again fuming.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F Dec 12, 2013

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    "Knowing your own darkness is the best method

    for dealing with the darknesses of other people." C.G. Jung
    StraCat StraCat 31-35, M Jul 4

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    I almost died once. My life flashed

    before my eyes. It was very dark and quiet. I suddenly heard a leakage coming from my car where I had my accident. I knew I had to get out because something bad was going to happen. I crawled out through the shattered glass window and then my car exploded. My car was on fire...
    jojophomma jojophomma 22-25, F Jun 28

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    Darkness Sanguine.

    I've seen the end before my very eyes. I've seen blood flowing across my temple, blocking out the light, and blinding me. I don't know, or care to know, how I survived that attack. I had resigned myself to what seemed like the inevitable. I was going to die, on a dark street...
    IntoTheFuckingFloodAgain IntoTheFuckingFloodAgain 18-21, M Apr 14, 2013

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    Darkness is me iv seen

    and live it we are 1 into the night
    KINGDARKNESS1 KINGDARKNESS1 26-30, M Jul 4

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    In Many Forms

    The darkness that takes over someone's soul when they let hatred and vindictiveness control their life... Then there is the real darkness - the place from where monsters and demons come. Yes, I have looked into the darkness - sometimes it looks back. If it trys to snuff out...
    VincentValentine VincentValentine 31-35, M 6 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Im enveloped in this dark aura.

    I feel nothing. I feel only numbness. I wasn't always like this.. i used to be so happy, full of life, but after all the betrayals, and dealing with people that have only brought me pain... I woke up one day feeling empty, hollow. A part of me is glad i don't get to feel the...
    AntonyRyan AntonyRyan 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1

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    Inside Me Is Where It Lives.....

    The darkness lives inside me, breathes death into me. Death of the light that is me. Some days I can pretend it doesn't, but I can feel it winning the battle. Wanting me to give in & end it all. The pain, the fear, the horror of reliving past events as if they're happening...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    It Lives Inside My Mind.

    My mind is a dark, fearful place. I don't like to be there for long periods of time as I find it triggers my own darkness. It feeds off my fears, insecurities, & on the voices from my past. Their words, actions replay inside my head every minute of everyday. I don't get a...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    I used to be full of light,

    but darkness seems to consume me. This is the worst I have felt. I have been enveloped in it's empty arms and I'm losing my will to fight it. I am afraid. Afraid that this broken feeling is all I have left. I miss the light. I miss being surrounded by people and not feeling...
    ClaireyLou ClaireyLou 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    Isn't it good to be lost in the wood Isn't it

    bad so quiet there, in the wood? Meant even less to me than I thought With a honey plough of yellow prickly seeds Clover honey pots and mystic shining feed.
    Ashishishe Ashishishe 31-35, M Apr 12

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    About 8 years ago, my wife had just finished breastfeeding our son (he was a few months at the time) and I was holding him above me and all of a sudden he released some of the...
    IZZYNUDIST IZZYNUDIST 41-45, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Ok so I don't know what to think about this, I hope somebody that knows more about this stuff can help me. Since I was a kid weird stuff has happened, at 18 I got my first sleep...
    Skymoon8 Skymoon8 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Darkness only some no what true darkness is struggles lonely roads alone passing waiting
    KINGofclowns KINGofclowns 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 28

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    When you're alone. It doesn’t matter if you have a lot to think about or nothing to think about. You can just simply cry and feel pathetic. It's what you feel, not think. Those...
    ciel472 ciel472 16-17 Jul 29

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    Darkness days weeks. Nights strong am a beast all ready gone
    KINGofclowns KINGofclowns 26-30, M Jul 28

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    I'm gonna except my inner darkness and just given cause that's all I can basically do Instead of enouring it when my friends and cousin ask me me if I'm going dark When I say yes...
    killerinstinke killerinstinke 13-15, F Jul 30

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    "know your own darkness so you can see: you are born in your ruin. you are so terribly beautiful, so unbearably human."
    000SadisticBitch000 000SadisticBitch000 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I will never give up on my dreams, never let myself give up on the slightest chance that life will turn toward the path I crave to create. Nothing will cease my determination to...
    EyeOfLight EyeOfLight 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    I love darkness and silence.
    infinitygirl98 infinitygirl98 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Dark Night of the Soul: An excruciating and intensely distressing journey in which the fragility of our beliefs about the meaning and purpose of our lives become uncomfortably...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F Aug 11

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    "I wish you would stop that." "It's the only fun I have." "Keep going." "I think you've had enough." "It's not exactly 'fair'... "but you brought it upon yourself, after all...
    Visola Visola 22-25, F Aug 11

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    [Someone I once loved gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this, too, was a gift. ~ Mary Oliver] If I should meet thee after long years, How should...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F Aug 11

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    The longest road you will ever have to walk is the sacred journey from your head to your heart. ~ Chief Phil Lane Jr. I lost myself somewhere in the darkness.
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I do this a lot in the summer time particularly. I love walking on paths at night with only the moon to light the way. To me it is one of the most peaceful things to do. Provided I...
    SolitarySummer SolitarySummer 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I had suffered relatively little of life's loses. I had thought I was in control of my life until my husband passed away. Then I knew I most certainly was not. I was down on my...
    samemay54 samemay54 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    "I'll be back." I have seen The Terminator movies part one, two and three. But I must say the first two are the best ones, the other ones kinda sucked to me..lol.I remember a guy...
    texaschic35 texaschic35 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Ever since i didn't make it with college,i was very dissapointed and i wanted to die.Actually i criticise myself in all that i do..I don't have many friends,i do a meniale job...
    costyk67 costyk67 22-25, M Aug 10

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    I've only been seen by one guy naked! In person anyways! Skinny Dipping in Panama!
    tsg96 tsg96 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 10

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    I've been seen naked hundreds of times. Now it's not a big deal for me, but it was a really big deal, when I was a teenager. I was shy, and I didn't like to show off my body. When...
    Atko79 Atko79 31-35, M 4 Responses 3 days ago