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I 've Seen the Darkness

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    Sometimes I can feel the beauty of life just

    for a while but it feels so good! When you constantly live in darkness and somehow you manage to hope again it´s the best feeling ever. Even if life is really hard sometimes, we can't give up and stop hoping. Yesterday, my 15 years old little sister tried to kill herself. She...
    assia25 assia25 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    What can else expect in this planet?

    But i can see also the creation which is better from darkness always!
    blackweirdcat blackweirdcat 46-50, F Mar 14

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    ..And I've Clawed My Way Back From The Abyss...Alone...

    Last night I experienced a strange sense of Deja Vu. I was alone for the evening and my depression over the loss of my latest love relationship reached a new level of despair. I was glad when my house-mate left to take his girlfriend home. Having had all their sappy canoodling I...
    Anonymouself Anonymouself 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    I have seen it, and I enjoy it.

    But that does not make me a bad person...you don't realize the little gift you got when you dabble in it, but when you do...its the most amazing feeling ever.
    MrDark666 MrDark666 18-21, M Feb 21

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    Every Time I Look In The Mirror

    There it is, scratching at the surface, begging, pleading for release.  But, I stomp it down, smother it until it's quiet and still.I wonder how long will I be able to keep it at bay before it breaks free?How much longer will I have this peace in my life before all hell breaks...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2012

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    Oh my God, the darkness is coming on

    so strong. So many days coming up that should be special. But they are not. They are days of just the darkness trying to swallow me whole. Its like the noonday sun is just as black as midnight. I call out and no one is there. I stumble and search in the dark, only to find...
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    It Came For Me..

    I have seen the darkness, Its drags you down,Pins you to the ground,Do not frown,I have been there,I nearly drowned,It tracked me down,Even when i shut down,It hunt me down.
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Isn't it good to be lost in the wood Isn't it

    bad so quiet there, in the wood? Meant even less to me than I thought With a honey plough of yellow prickly seeds Clover honey pots and mystic shining feed.
    Ashishishe Ashishishe 31-35, M Apr 12

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    and the darkness has seen me,

    it seeped into my soul and wont let me go
    maylane maylane 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Yes, I've seen the darkness

    and fought to keep it from completely consuming my soul. I've experienced it in my dreams even; I have a recurrent nightmare where I am running and something is chasing me. Sometimes the "something" is disguised as a person, but I know it's not because the face is always a blur...
    ItsInAllofUs ItsInAllofUs 22-25 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    I shaved my soul as the darkness beckoned

    and blatantly strolled. Waving away crescents as I fell into lonely descents. Beautifully consuming, striking my will my fire again fuming.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F Dec 12, 2013

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    The Dark I See

    I envy most people. I envy them for how they view the world, for most people see the light. Most people can find joy every day, whereas I see the dark all the time. No one could guess this upon seeing me, I have the perfect poker face to hide how I feel inside. My mask is...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    What makes it so dark is the fact no one knows

    about it. Shhh. Keep it quite no one needs to know. It only gets darker. Shhh. He didn't beat us. Shhh. They don't get drunk and fight. Shhh. She didn't cheat. Shhh. He doesn't do drugs. Shhh. He didn't cry in my arms. Shhh. We did't get evicted. Shhh. I did't cut. Shhh. You did...
    halfbroke halfbroke 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    And It Once Was Within Me

    The Darkness once resided within me. It taunted me, and ate away at my soul. Its inky black shadows swirled throughout me, chilling me to my very core, no amount of sunshine could warm me, for the ice was from the inside. Although It tortured me, created nightmares beyond your...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2011

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    In Many Forms

    The darkness that takes over someone's soul when they let hatred and vindictiveness control their life... Then there is the real darkness - the place from where monsters and demons come. Yes, I have looked into the darkness - sometimes it looks back. If it trys to snuff out...
    VincentValentine VincentValentine 31-35, M 6 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    She dragged the knife along her skin

    and she rolled her head back lay down pretty angel for you are now done
    Harryisalliesgurl1234567891 Harryisalliesgurl1234567891 18-21 Feb 25

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    It Lives Inside My Mind.

    My mind is a dark, fearful place. I don't like to be there for long periods of time as I find it triggers my own darkness. It feeds off my fears, insecurities, & on the voices from my past. Their words, actions replay inside my head every minute of everyday. I don't get a...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    And It Once Was Within Me

    The Darkness once resided within me. It taunted me, and ate away at my soul. Its inky black shadows swirled throughout me, chilling me to my very core, no amount of sunshine could warm me, for the ice was from the inside. Although It tortured me, created nightmares beyond your...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15, 2011

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    Darkness Sanguine.

    I've seen the end before my very eyes. I've seen blood flowing across my temple, blocking out the light, and blinding me. I don't know, or care to know, how I survived that attack. I had resigned myself to what seemed like the inevitable. I was going to die, on a dark street...
    TheMaskedPuppeteer TheMaskedPuppeteer 18-21, M Apr 14, 2013

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    Darkness Is My Strength

    Hate leads me to better that which I hate, this world as it is now, too much unnecessary suffering. Knowledge leads me to create solutions. True darkness will lead the way through blinding light. The balance will prevail! "True darkness is that which you can look through to...
    ProeliatorOrdo ProeliatorOrdo 16-17 Dec 13, 2012

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    The Darkness

    I live in a life of fear that my beast will take over me. He is the darkness in my life. everytime I start to go crazy he comes out to play. I try to stop him but he take over me. The only way I can stop him is by starting fires so he can leave me alone.
    BeastWithFire BeastWithFire 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2009

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    It Tries To Consume Me

    At some point in my life a switch was flipped and the darkness looked for me. I became its target. It seeks me out and tries to destroy my hope and my soul. I went from a kid spending summers with friends to a kid who spent the whole summer alone in isolation. It never goes...
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    Inside Me Is Where It Lives.....

    The darkness lives inside me, breathes death into me. Death of the light that is me. Some days I can pretend it doesn't, but I can feel it winning the battle. Wanting me to give in & end it all. The pain, the fear, the horror of reliving past events as if they're happening...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Here's my list, with somewhat detailed answers: Smoked A Cigarette: Yes, many times Smoked A Cigar: Also many times Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex: No, I and I don't plan to...
    Hatebreeder59 Hatebreeder59 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I've never been the most handsome person, or maybe I'm the most handsome person, I truly couldn't tell you. None of that ever mattered though because low-self esteem had me in the...
    Indari Indari 31-35, M Apr 11

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    I'm watching Star Trek XII aka Star Trek Into Darkness, for the umpteenth time and felt like sharing my thoughts. Star Trek has been around since 1966, covering half a dozen shows...
    orincowboy orincowboy 26-30 Mar 25

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    When I was 10 my parents and I visited the concentration camps from WW2 in Poland and I have seen things that have affected me that night. As I was lying down in the darkness, my...
    HeyRainbow HeyRainbow 16-17, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I saw my best friend take suicide in front of me. He was 16 and handsome. Suicide doesn't kill someone, its sadness. Being judged Feeling like you have no one Suicide is being...
    ILYBlackVeilBrides ILYBlackVeilBrides 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I love watching the sky at night from my window its like the darkness and peace of the sky calms me and makes me happy. makes it easy to drift off to sleep
    Dreamsarepoison Dreamsarepoison 16-17, F Mar 27

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    I Want to Know If You've Ever Done Any of These Things [] Smoked A Cigarette [] Smoked A Cigar [] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex- nope, but it's never too late ;) [X] Are / Been...
    redhotridinghood redhotridinghood 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    My head is twisting up dissolving itself in a darkness all around me. The light at the end of the tunnel seems to always blind me. Now why this happens i havent got an idea but it...
    princessxk96 princessxk96 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I have seen and experienced my fair share of things in life. Paranormal things has always been an interest and is inherently in the family. I also trained at my uncles development...
    Valtielislord Valtielislord 18-21, M Mar 27

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    So about 2 years old I have a weird experience I have my first dream of this girl she is the same age as me I can describe her if u want. But anyway I'm 22 now and every year I age...
    gohio123 gohio123 22-25, M Apr 1

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    X smoked a cigarette O smoked a cigar O kissed same sex X been in love X dumped someone X been fired X been in a fist fight X had a crush on older person X skipped class...
    largemuscledmale largemuscledmale 36-40, M Apr 5

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    I Want to Know If You've Ever Done Any of These Things [X] Smoked A Cigarette [X ] Smoked A Cigar [ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X ] Are / Been In Love [X] Dumped...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Because I'm a sucker for lists..... I Want to Know If You've Ever Done Any of These Things [ ] Smoked A Cigarette [ ] Smoked A Cigar [X] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X...
    aurora11 aurora11 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I Want to Know If You've Ever Done Any of These Things [X] Smoked A Cigarette [X] Smoked A Cigar [ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [X] Dumped someone...
    Batboy69 Batboy69 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I don't like depressing people, but I've figured out that I'm one of them. People call me a genius, which I believe I am. But I don't think people has seen the true genius in which...
    kodatimes kodatimes 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I Want to Know If You've Ever Done Any of These Things [X] Smoked A Cigarette (once...DISGUSTING) [ ] Smoked A Cigar [X] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love...
    cpoppins cpoppins 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Have [X] Skipped Class [X] Smoked A Cigarette [] Smoked A Cigar [X] Seen Someone / Something Die [x] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [X...
    TexasGrandpa TexasGrandpa 51-55, M Mar 21

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    [ ] Smoked A Cigarette [ ] Smoked A Cigar [ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [ ] Dumped someone [X] Been Fired (laid off, not fired for cause...
    Pyramania Pyramania 51-55, M 2 Responses Mar 21

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    My boyfriend rifles through my things. He comes across a box of random things, pictures, memos, trinkets. He lifts up a laminated funeral program. 'Who is this, Who?' The program...
    WhoAmI613 WhoAmI613 22-25, F Mar 24

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    Sure, why not? OK, this looks fun! [ ] Smoked A Cigarette [ ] Smoked A Cigar [X] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [X] Dumped someone [ ] Been Fired [ ] Been...
    QuietGirl93 QuietGirl93 18-21, F Mar 24

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    My life is pretty boring wow [ ] Smoked A Cigarette [ ] Smoked A Cigar [] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [] Are / Been In Love [] Dumped someone [ ] Been Fired [ ] Been In A...
    hebr0 hebr0 16-17, F Mar 24

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    ....... [] Smoked A Cigarette [] Smoked A Cigar [X ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [] Are / Been In Love [] Dumped someone [] Been Fired [] Been In A Fist Fight [] Had A Crush On...
    Idiot141 Idiot141 18-21 Apr 2

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    [x] Smoked A Cigarette [x] Smoked A Cigar [x] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [x] Are / Been In Love [x] Dumped someone [ ] Been Fired [x] Been In A Fist Fight [x] Had A Crush On...
    xoMegan xoMegan 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    [x] Smoked A Cigarette [ ] Smoked A Cigar [ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [x] Are / Been In Love [x] Dumped someone [ ] Been Fired [ ] Been In A Fist Fight [x] Had A Crush On...
    BSTisapain BSTisapain 51-55, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    [x] Smoked A Cigarette [ ] Smoked A Cigar [x] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [x] Are / Been In Love [x] Dumped someone [ ] Been Fired [x] Been In A Fist Fight [x] Had A Crush On...
    ruthlala ruthlala 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    [X] Smoked A Cigar [X] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [ ] Are / Been In Love [X] Dumped someone [ ] Been Fired [ ] Been In A Fist Fight [X] Had A Crush On An Older Person...
    Ally95xx Ally95xx 18-21, F Apr 8

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    [X] Smoked A Cigarette [X] Smoked A Cigar [X] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [ ] Dumped someone [X] Been Fired [ ] Been In A Fist Fight [X] Had A Crush On...
    Willowtree78 Willowtree78 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    [] Smoked A Cigarette [] Smoked A Cigar [] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [X] Dumped someone [X] Been Fired [X] Been In A Fist Fight [X] Had A Crush On An...
    ImBatmanNow ImBatmanNow 51-55, M 6 days ago

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    [X] Smoked A Cigarette [] Smoked A Cigar [x] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex [X] Are / Been In Love [X] Dumped someone [] Been Fired [X] Been In A Fist Fight [X] Had A Crush On An...
    Besch Besch 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    [ ] Smoked A Cigarette [x] Smoked A Cigar [x] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (*shrugs* Geez, have girl friends and female family.) [x] Are / Been In Love [x ] Dumped someone...
    LameyC LameyC 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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