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I 've Seen the Darkness

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    And It Once Was Within Me

    The Darkness once resided within me. It taunted me, and ate away at my soul. Its inky black shadows swirled throughout me, chilling me to my very core, no amount of sunshine could warm me, for the ice was from the inside. Although It tortured me, created nightmares beyond your...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15, 2011

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    The Darkness

    I live in a life of fear that my beast will take over me. He is the darkness in my life. everytime I start to go crazy he comes out to play. I try to stop him but he take over me. The only way I can stop him is by starting fires so he can leave me alone.
    BeastWithFire BeastWithFire 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2009

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    Yes, I've seen the darkness

    and fought to keep it from completely consuming my soul. I've experienced it in my dreams even; I have a recurrent nightmare where I am running and something is chasing me. Sometimes the "something" is disguised as a person, but I know it's not because the face is always a blur...
    ItsInAllofUs ItsInAllofUs 22-25 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    ..And I've Clawed My Way Back From The Abyss...Alone...

    Last night I experienced a strange sense of Deja Vu. I was alone for the evening and my depression over the loss of my latest love relationship reached a new level of despair. I was glad when my house-mate left to take his girlfriend home. Having had all their sappy canoodling I...
    Anonymouself Anonymouself 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    When I'm trying to sleep in my bed

    and I'm alone in my house or the only one awake I feel like the dark is alive and sucking me in or something moves above me
    ASHAPOO ASHAPOO 16-17, F Apr 21, 2014

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    She dragged the knife along her skin

    and she rolled her head back lay down pretty angel for you are now done
    Harryisalliesgurl1234567891 Harryisalliesgurl1234567891 18-21 Feb 25, 2014

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    I shaved my soul as the darkness beckoned

    and blatantly strolled. Waving away crescents as I fell into lonely descents. Beautifully consuming, striking my will my fire again fuming.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F Dec 12, 2013

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    Dark Nignt of the Soul When someone goes on a

    journey, this is to overcome one's greatest fear. To experience the dark night of the soul means dealing with stuff from the past or uncertainty of the future. You come to realize foremost, that you are a broken soul. You find yourself in hopeless painful dead end circumstances...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 23

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    The Long Dark Tunnel

    Ive walked the darkness - I know how hard it is. I too, have breached the entrance to that tunnel - that long dark tunnel. And yes, its very dark- no light. At all. Pitch. Black. Darkness. But after much assistance, from my councilor, Sue, she lead my mind, body, and soul...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M Jan 16, 2013

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    I used to be full of light,

    but darkness seems to consume me. This is the worst I have felt. I have been enveloped in it's empty arms and I'm losing my will to fight it. I am afraid. Afraid that this broken feeling is all I have left. I miss the light. I miss being surrounded by people and not feeling...
    ClaireyLou ClaireyLou 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    It's always there. Whispering in my head.

    Wrapped around my soul. Clenching my heart. I was alone when it made it's promises. I believed it, and a part of me still does. It makes me think things I don't want to know. It's been comforting me lately. Wrapping it's shadow around me protecting me. When everything else is...
    DarknessWolf DarknessWolf 22-25, M 5 Responses May 20, 2014

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    Every Time I Look In The Mirror

    There it is, scratching at the surface, begging, pleading for release.  But, I stomp it down, smother it until it's quiet and still.I wonder how long will I be able to keep it at bay before it breaks free?How much longer will I have this peace in my life before all hell breaks...
    ImNotGood ImNotGood 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2012

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    And It Once Was Within Me

    The Darkness once resided within me. It taunted me, and ate away at my soul. Its inky black shadows swirled throughout me, chilling me to my very core, no amount of sunshine could warm me, for the ice was from the inside. Although It tortured me, created nightmares beyond your...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2011

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    Darkness Sanguine.

    I've seen the end before my very eyes. I've seen blood flowing across my temple, blocking out the light, and blinding me. I don't know, or care to know, how I survived that attack. I had resigned myself to what seemed like the inevitable. I was going to die, on a dark street...
    SocialFuckingParasite SocialFuckingParasite 18-21, M Apr 14, 2013

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    I almost died once. My life flashed

    before my eyes. It was very dark and quiet. I suddenly heard a leakage coming from my car where I had my accident. I knew I had to get out because something bad was going to happen. I crawled out through the shattered glass window and then my car exploded. My car was on fire...
    jojophomma jojophomma 22-25, F Jun 28, 2014

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    8tattoos 8tattoos 70+, M Aug 3, 2014

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    Oh my God, the darkness is coming on

    so strong. So many days coming up that should be special. But they are not. They are days of just the darkness trying to swallow me whole. Its like the noonday sun is just as black as midnight. I call out and no one is there. I stumble and search in the dark, only to find...
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    Im enveloped in this dark aura.

    I feel nothing. I feel only numbness. I wasn't always like this.. i used to be so happy, full of life, but after all the betrayals, and dealing with people that have only brought me pain... I woke up one day feeling empty, hollow. A part of me is glad i don't get to feel the...
    AntonyRyan AntonyRyan 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    In Many Forms

    The darkness that takes over someone's soul when they let hatred and vindictiveness control their life... Then there is the real darkness - the place from where monsters and demons come. Yes, I have looked into the darkness - sometimes it looks back. If it trys to snuff out...
    VincentValentine VincentValentine 31-35, M 6 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Darkness is a friend of mine.

    I accept, I talk to it (Not literally.) Fear clouds some people's view of the darkness, but not mine. "People who fear the darkness have no idea what the light can do." is an amazing quote, yet I don't have any idea what the light can do even though I'm not afraid of the...
    StormianaGraymane14 StormianaGraymane14 16-17, F Nov 2, 2014

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    Darkness Is My Strength

    Hate leads me to better that which I hate, this world as it is now, too much unnecessary suffering. Knowledge leads me to create solutions. True darkness will lead the way through blinding light. The balance will prevail! "True darkness is that which you can look through to...
    ProeliatorOrdo ProeliatorOrdo 16-17 Dec 13, 2012

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    What Sleeps There...

    I suppose the 'Darkness' could be thought of as several things. It's open to interpretation. But i'm guessing on this site it means the metaphorical emotional darkness. And the darkness surrounding humanity... The darkness that coats the most bitter souls and that lingers in the...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    and the darkness has seen me,

    it seeped into my soul and wont let me go
    maylane maylane 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2014

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    The Dark I See

    I envy most people. I envy them for how they view the world, for most people see the light. Most people can find joy every day, whereas I see the dark all the time. No one could guess this upon seeing me, I have the perfect poker face to hide how I feel inside. My mask is...
    Swanfirefly Swanfirefly 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Such waste of life bereft of peace of chances

    lost in the dark of night of spent energy, misguided certainty through shutting out the light. Until one finds oneself the other side of life's once rigid stance. Then heart, it yearns its pain so deep for mercy's saving chance. And darkness recedes night turns and flees and...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Mar 7

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    Hella's face is both white

    and black. She reigns in the darkness beneath the roots. She longs for the sick and the old to join her in her realm. Never the place for the brave, or for warriors. Yet Baldur lives there and draws from her minions his tribe to survive the darkness of the Ragnarök.
    Skjeggstad Skjeggstad 22-25, F Dec 1, 2014

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    Inside Me Is Where It Lives.....

    The darkness lives inside me, breathes death into me. Death of the light that is me. Some days I can pretend it doesn't, but I can feel it winning the battle. Wanting me to give in & end it all. The pain, the fear, the horror of reliving past events as if they're happening...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Darkness is me iv seen

    and live it we are 1 into the night
    KINGDARKNESS1 KINGDARKNESS1 26-30, M Jul 4, 2014

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    1kingdarkness 1kingdarkness 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I have seen the true evil

    and darkness that walk this earth and humans this is a warning for you and the warning is that earth is falling apart and the battle between evil and good has already started so humans this is your last chance to worship lord Satan and if you don't worship lord Satan you will be...
    PrinceofEvil666 PrinceofEvil666 18-21, M Sep 14, 2014

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    It Lives Inside My Mind.

    My mind is a dark, fearful place. I don't like to be there for long periods of time as I find it triggers my own darkness. It feeds off my fears, insecurities, & on the voices from my past. Their words, actions replay inside my head every minute of everyday. I don't get a...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 27, 2009

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    We are all about darkness we worship lord Satan

    and if you want to join the sons of Darkness message me. The sons of Darkness is a coven that will help Satanists transform there life into darkness and the sons of darkness do not like traitors so if you join the sons of darkness and if you betray us you are betraying lord...
    PrinceofEvil666 PrinceofEvil666 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 29, 2014

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    God is teaching patience

    and perseverance in the dark. Others can only do so much to help, but in the end, it's only between you and Him. Spiritual and emotional healing takes months or even years. But as you keep trusting and resting in Him, walking with faith in Him, eventually, "His love will light...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    It Tries To Consume Me

    At some point in my life a switch was flipped and the darkness looked for me. I became its target. It seeks me out and tries to destroy my hope and my soul. I went from a kid spending summers with friends to a kid who spent the whole summer alone in isolation. It never goes...
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    What makes it so dark is the fact no one knows

    about it. Shhh. Keep it quite no one needs to know. It only gets darker. Shhh. He didn't beat us. Shhh. They don't get drunk and fight. Shhh. She didn't cheat. Shhh. He doesn't do drugs. Shhh. He didn't cry in my arms. Shhh. We did't get evicted. Shhh. I did't cut. Shhh. You did...
    halfbroke halfbroke 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2014

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    "Knowing your own darkness is the best method

    for dealing with the darknesses of other people." C.G. Jung
    StraCat StraCat 31-35, M Jul 4, 2014

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    Isn't it good to be lost in the wood Isn't it

    bad so quiet there, in the wood? Meant even less to me than I thought With a honey plough of yellow prickly seeds Clover honey pots and mystic shining feed.
    Ashishishe Ashishishe 31-35, M Apr 12, 2014

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    I have seen it, and I enjoy it.

    But that does not make me a bad person...you don't realize the little gift you got when you dabble in it, but when you do...its the most amazing feeling ever.
    MrDark666 MrDark666 22-25, M Feb 21, 2014

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    Dark night of the soul, I have been here before actually all my life. I've had very small bouts of relief then plunged back into the gut wrenching pain. Each time being worse...
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    So exciting to be seen or "caught" by strangers.
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    We all have been seen naked. I mean unless you spent your 9 months in the womb knitting a pair of knickers. We're all born quite naked.
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