I have a cold, I hate colds. I wish I could just be put into a chemical coma until this cold goes away. Woke up at 4am and the first thing I thought was "my throat hurts more today than yesterday" sung to the tune of I Love You More Today Than Yesterday by Spiral Staircase.
Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go I wanna be sedated
Nothin' to do and no where to go-o-oh I wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can't control my fingers I can't control my brain
Oh no no no no no
.... and go crazy..... and cry...... I want to kill myself.... but I am fighting all of these things very hard.... I drew on my hand to prevent me from cutting..... but it's not helping very much......