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I Want My First Love Back

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    I know it's wrong. I have a boyfriend.

    I have only loved 2 people. My lewy and my James. I love James. He's my boyfriend and he means the world to me. But Lewis. There's just. Something. I don't know what. When I see him it makes my heart beat faster. But it hurts. I look for him everywhere. If James knew. He would...
    ellabruce ellabruce 16-17, F Dec 26, 2013

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    Another Shot...

    i've started a blog as a pep talk to myself about my attempt at weight loss, among other things, but dont yet have any followers/supporters. if this sounds interesting to you: "I'm on a quest to stop saying "Tomorrow I will..." and actually start my "tomorrow...
    2morrowiwill 2morrowiwill 26-30, F Oct 6, 2009

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    My Broken Fairytale

    I was 14 years old when we met, and throug my young eyes it became the perfect modern fairytale. He lived across the street from me, but we didn't untill he began working for my father, mowing the lawn, cleaning the pool our and such. One day while my dad was asleep on the couch...
    Ksmith625 Ksmith625 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11, 2009

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    It was not my first relationship, but he is always known as my first love. We met while we were working together in high school. He took my friend to the prom, but from there, we...
    mysterywoman69 mysterywoman69 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    My first love, my first everything, was 35 years ago. We were best friends for three years and then dated exclusive for 5 years. He was five years older than I was. He was...
    SpringOwl SpringOwl 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    Even though it was over 2 years ago, and I have another man that I love very much, I still think about my first love all the time. He was emotionally and physically abusive but I...
    Kaylamarie9413 Kaylamarie9413 16-17, F Jul 6

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    I don't know if he was my first "love" love. I know I loved him, I know he loved me. It's just, maybe in a brotherly and sisterly way. I don't know a lot of things, but I miss the...
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I think of her each day and night. I miss her soo much. Ever been in love and knew that this person was the one?? Well she was the one for me and I was the one for her. We were in...
    allencam05 allencam05 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    What would it be like to gaze into your honey glazed eyes and feel your hands press on my back as I taste your lips? What would it feel like to be injected deeply by you and feel...
    honestyreality honestyreality 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I first joined experience project in 2004 or 2005. Initially i found this site after searching for a forum i could post a question on, that i had at the time. A few sites came up...
    Bonnienz Bonnienz 31-35, F Jul 7

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    I haven't been on here for a while, but I feel the need to really write out my feelings. Two weeks ago I came back home to the Bahamas for a year. I was pretty excited on coming...
    rainee12 rainee12 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    It has been a while since i wrote about what i do in this life. You see as i love all people around me at ep or around the world. they don't love me and i am not like need to have...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    You were my very first love. You came to me during a bad period of my life, and changed me forever. You showed me that I need to have respect for myself, and to not put others on a...
    blossomforth blossomforth 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    I still love that person.i wrote a post last month or something.got loads of help and advice.and my craving to hear his voice or see him has reduced.but still I can't forget him...
    Naina94 Naina94 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I'm with my first love, but we are in such a rocky stage. I don't know if I should continue being with him. But right now I love him so much. He is my best friend. I don't WANT to...
    misshaley7 misshaley7 18-21, F a week ago

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    I remember him. I was in sixth grade. I was stupid. Too naΓ―ve. He moved away in seventh grade. But I remember him. I always will. "My first love broke my heart for the first time...
    PartyingWithEllie PartyingWithEllie 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    😭😭😭😭I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY FRIENDS !!! AND GUY FRIENDS THAT ARE SMALLER THAN ME AND ANNOY ME CUZ ONE HASNET CALLED AND I MISS HIM AND I WANT HIM TO BE I. MY 5th GRADE...
    bela5562 bela5562 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    Where do I begin? I miss him everyday. My first love was in high school. We truly loved each other but we were to young to figure out how to make love work. After 5 years I drove...
    KissesA KissesA 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    What's wrong with me? I try and I try but my best just isn't good enough. I tried to be one of those guys that used women but it just wasn't me. It ate up inside to behave like...
    SignalSarge SignalSarge 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am at a point in my life where I think I'm finally ready for a serious relationship. I've always fancied the idea of being with someone and have dated a lot of guys but nothing...
    steffr23 steffr23 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    I do think first love is the deepest... it resides deep in the brain far away from the things that destroy the memories later in life.
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71 41-45, M 4 Responses Jul 3

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    Everybody misses their first love! They are the ones who hold all your insecurities. They are the ones who you told your deepest thoughts to. They are the ones who saw you at your...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 3 Responses Jul 9

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    My first love...for 10 years the thought of him used to make me melt but now when I think of him. He just someone I used to know
    Shawneeluv Shawneeluv 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 10

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    I have been with my first love and best friend for over 2 years now. We are in high school. He has broken my trust in 2 ways now and he has a lying issue. Ugh. I don't know if I...
    misshaley7 misshaley7 18-21, F a week ago

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    All our lives we've been believing in that when you're loved, you're loved unconditionally. Till we grow up. When realize that when you love, you're not loved back, you are used...
    Xyanii Xyanii 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    He loves us!πŸ˜­πŸ™ We need too love back! Who is a Christian and agrees!πŸ“–πŸ™
    Zebra123456 Zebra123456 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I am 29.. But until now, I cannot truly say that I have fallen madly in love with someone.. Yes, I am married and I may have loved him somewhere in between but I cannot really say...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    My marriage has finally broke what little self esteem that I had. I have always been a sad person. I have moments of happiness. I always felt different within my family. I was the...
    ShineAndRise ShineAndRise 31-35 3 Responses Jul 10

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    i wonder what it feels like to be with a guy who admires you for who you are..who looks at you from across the room and all he wants to do is pick u up and hug you.. i want to hold...
    Myah29 Myah29 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I have so much love to give and I just want to love with all I got. I want to love like there's a no tomorrow. Hope I will get the chance to love someone like that one day.
    wanderingheart237 wanderingheart237 26-30, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    i want a lover like my dream girl i love u very much but who is she i d'nt know if u so response me............
    vinayloveboy vinayloveboy 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    I was withy ex for over 3 years, out relationship was always on and off yes he will stop contacting me for no reason according to him he was going out of the country for work...
    babosa20 babosa20 26-30, F Jul 7

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    I remember the first time I fell in love with a guy instead of a girl. He was my first and only love. We broke up once but we got back together after 2 years and have been...
    Princessinmind Princessinmind 18-21, F Jul 7

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M Jul 22

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    I wouldnt say he was my boyfriend.. We never dated. But had been friends from little kids on. Always did everything together. We were each other's first kiss but then stayed just...
    Missmetomorrow Missmetomorrow 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    My Dearest Virginia, I realize that as I write this that the possibility of your ever reading it is virtually non-existent. Though I only knew you for a few short years when we...
    memdump memdump 70+, M Jul 11

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    Met a girl while I was near the end of my freshman year in high school, I was 15 and she was 12, didn't really know what love was then I just thought it was badass to have a...
    JoshLJustice JoshLJustice 18-21, M Jul 12

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    Sleep less nights, memories and tears flow through me. I miss you soon much :( I would give anything to have you back yet i know its far from possible :(
    WoundedSwan WoundedSwan 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Sorry I'm ranting so much about my feelings I just have moments of clarity that I like to share. Remember a time you got hurt? (I'm talking emotionally). Or embarrassed, let down...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    The thing that i've learned is that you will never forget your first true love.. Its like the first girl that the universe made for you a.k.a ''Soulmate'' and it went wrong , i...
    LuisPT LuisPT 18-21, M Jul 16

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    So I have a dilemma. It's a little nsfw though. I met this guy and we hit it off. He's my best friend in this tiny town that I live in. We joke all day and can spend hours nonstop...
    sylbi sylbi 18-21, F 10 Responses 2 days ago

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    I would LOVE to go back to college. I was looking at different options tonight with a friend of mine but he informed me that I may not be smart enough at this age to go back.I kind...
    Chicgeekgal Chicgeekgal 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Oh my first (true) love.....I was moving to another school in the middle of the fifth grade year n there he was. I was really smart n caught up with stuff really fast. I was even...
    intellinerdgirl intellinerdgirl 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I wish I could - "go home", I mean. *Like some days, I would just about sell the eyes out of my head to be able to get the hell out of here, and go back to the US. ( My husband...
    JusDifferent JusDifferent 41-45, F 4 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    It's late at night and I can't catch a wink, I am still wide awake but feeling numb. I miss her. I miss the way we were before. Our laughter and funny moments, our tears and...
    madlovelace madlovelace 26-30, F Jul 4

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    I would love for him to be my best friend first and then slowly overtime we fall madly in love. He would be my homie, my bestie, my lover. Our relationship would be far from boring...
    CheyenneScott CheyenneScott 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 6

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    Would love to go back to school for nursing. Too many kids and too broke!!!
    carebear1019 carebear1019 31-35, F Jul 7