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I Want My First Love Back

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    I know it's wrong. I have a boyfriend.

    I have only loved 2 people. My lewy and my James. I love James. He's my boyfriend and he means the world to me. But Lewis. There's just. Something. I don't know what. When I see him it makes my heart beat faster. But it hurts. I look for him everywhere. If James knew. He would...
    ellabruce ellabruce 16-17, F Dec 26, 2013

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    Another Shot...

    i've started a blog as a pep talk to myself about my attempt at weight loss, among other things, but dont yet have any followers/supporters. if this sounds interesting to you: "I'm on a quest to stop saying "Tomorrow I will..." and actually start my "tomorrow...
    2morrowiwill 2morrowiwill 26-30, F Oct 6, 2009

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    My Broken Fairytale

    I was 14 years old when we met, and throug my young eyes it became the perfect modern fairytale. He lived across the street from me, but we didn't untill he began working for my father, mowing the lawn, cleaning the pool our and such. One day while my dad was asleep on the couch...
    Ksmith625 Ksmith625 18-21, F 5 Responses May 11, 2009

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    I miss him. I wish I hadnt broken up with him. I mean hes changed. We had ONE fight that we couldnt make through like damn. He said I was the first one he actually loved. The first...
    ILavIt ILavIt 13-15, F Mar 16

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    I wonder if he thinks of me as often as he seems to cross my mind. I know I remember who he was and not who he probably is today. But I hope he still thinks of me. We were each...
    Iwalwjv Iwalwjv 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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    I want a Lover that won't drive me crazy,..... Well first things first, divorce,..( due to a series of very, very unfortunate events, the marriage that is) .......then I...
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul 41-45, F 16 Responses 6 days ago

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    6 years ago, I was in a relationship with a man who had been with me since high school and for once I felt like I was human. Like I had a person who loved me, flaws and all. We...
    LunarStone LunarStone 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    What is it about your first love? Why do they occupy a permanent corner of your mind and another permanent corner of your heart? I still sometimes fondly remember my WJV. He comes...
    Iwalwjv Iwalwjv 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Don't get me wrong, my husband is my world... My here, now and my future... But I can't stop having either dreams about my first true, long term love. Why is that? I know up and...
    laurenb229 laurenb229 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    Want to Avoid Back Pain? Then Never Wear These Shoes (http://luv2sex.theblogpress.com/?p=4173) Want to avoid back pain? Could your shoes be the reason you have back pain? Read...
    how2stayyoung how2stayyoung 51-55, M Mar 20

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    When you're young and just discovering your sexuality it's mostly about the thrill. As you mature you fall in love, but your first love is often not your best or even truly a...
    Jonny1959 Jonny1959 51-55, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    I'm wanting to go back to school for EMS. I want to be a paramedic then bridge over to RN hopefully
    Kenworthy1980 Kenworthy1980 31-35, M Mar 12

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    It has Been 3 years that we didn't see each other.. I'll meet him tomorrow! My first Love :) miss him a lot! i Hope that all goes right.
    NawelClarck NawelClarck 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    i want a lover who is also my best friend but all the time i found people who just want sex n horny ... i want polite people but wat i get are rude people .... i am sad no one love...
    HalleluiaIauwe777777777777 HalleluiaIauwe777777777777 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 10

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    These things may have many things in common and many differences, but I have to agree that these beautiful things have a similar end. It may end as "Happily Ever After" but what...
    sunlight61 sunlight61 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I really miss this feeling right now. I want to love passionately and be loved in return. I want to be held in a man's arms. I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about this...
    freckles45 freckles45 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    Am tried of being let down or hurt by my partner am at that point were i want to love me an built strength in my heart but don't know where to start. help
    andreaAnna andreaAnna 26-30 1 Response Mar 3

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    I have never had true love in my life. I want true love!
    munka111 munka111 26-30, F Mar 10

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    I want a lover who can be here for me forever,understand me,like my best friend.who will never let me worry about being abandoned.it is such a romantic and beautiful dream.
    lesliechen lesliechen 22-25, F 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was in the third grade when I met her. Her name was shauntel and she was really pretty, but really quiet. I was part of this dumb group of fake friends at the time also who kinda...
    TokioDoll TokioDoll 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    If I could have my wishes If wishes did come true.. I would wish for happiness and long full life for you... I would wish for laughter And fill your life with songs Then ask for...
    rogi123 rogi123 36-40, M 13 hrs ago

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    Shauntel was quiet, kinda depressing tbh. She always looked so fragile and anorexic looking too, which is why I always worried about her because she RARELY smiled and always looked...
    TokioDoll TokioDoll 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    I wanna just breakdown so bad. every time I see you I cry. my parents wanna check me into a long term facility because I tried to hang myself and I cut my arms a lot. I'm sorry for...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 13-15, M 6 hrs ago

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    I've told this to only one other person, so putting it here on EP for everyone to see is quite a step for me, but I want to get it off my chest. There's a piece of information in...
    callmejohann callmejohann 41-45, M Mar 12

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    Jana, Twenty-seven and a half years is a long time, a very long time, but that's how long it has been since I made the stupidest mistake of my life. That's how long it has been...
    callmejohann callmejohann 41-45, M 4 Responses Mar 1

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    I originally shared this story in response to an EP question but I think it needs to be added t my stories because it's the saddest story of my life... I lost my father at the age...
    stillinlove2 stillinlove2 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 10

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    I met my soul mate in college and the bond and love between us was incrediable. We both were madly in love and were inseparable. We both are middle eastern I had lots of Suitor ad...
    MelodyMoon MelodyMoon 46-50, F 6 days ago

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    Whenever I'm anywhere..I can't help looking at beautiful couples... I just set down,looking at them and admiring them... I don't want a relationship that lasts a month or a year...
    FazyH FazyH 18-21, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I keep thinking of my boyfriend. He and I have been together for 4 years. We started dating our junior year of high school. Our relationship hasn’t grown much since we began...
    DreamCloud17 DreamCloud17 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Don't Wake Me I went to bed I was thinking about you Ain't the same since I'm living without you All the memories are getting colder All the things that I wanna do over I went to...
    callmejohann callmejohann 41-45, M Mar 6

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    I met my 1st love when I was 17 and he was 21. It was intense from the start. He was Muslim so we had some cultural differences which caused problems between us. We dated for 3...
    Tigga1975 Tigga1975 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    ??"love will lead you back, someday i just know that love will lead you back to my arms...where you belong..."??- it happened when i got separated and he just got married...
    sexydivide sexydivide 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Well what can I say... :( So, there was this one girl that i fell madly in love with. We even shared Whatsapp numbers to keep in touch. She was my dream girl... We did everything...
    ossiboy ossiboy 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I'm so so close to this... But it seems even with these things, we won't be in a relationship for some time. But this week, we're together. He flew me thousands of miles to him...
    prettyprude prettyprude 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    It's not one thing... It's so many things there is not a number to describe. It's the way her eyes twinkle and shine when she looks at me... It's the way my heart flutters every...
    midagehippie midagehippie 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 9

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    My mind wanders through my 17th year and the two happy ones that followed when we were together. You taught me what it was to love, you were my first flame that's never been...
    GoddessBluefox GoddessBluefox 36-40, F Mar 6

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    I did a ***** tease for him... tonight, after a lot of practice, I was finally ready to give him an early birthday present. Needless to say, I was very shy at first, so I decided...
    sexijai sexijai 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 10

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    It's been about 2 years since I've talked to him last. Even 2 years ago when we talked, it was just polite dribble. Anyway, I'm not sure if I ever loved him. I do know that he is...
    cowellowl cowellowl 22-25 a week ago

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    we met online and talked on and off for a year, dated about four months. stopped dating January 2014 but talked maybe once a month after that. June 2014 we talked a few times and...
    degavsser degavsser 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    My best friend and I actually did fall in love with each other over the summer, and it was awesome to know that someone feels that way about you, but the situation was terrible...
    QueenTea QueenTea 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 5