I Want So Desperately For Things To Be Different

For all those striving for perfection in their life and with their selves. 69 People

    when hell is a place burning inside you.

    .but you long for the calm heaven which no where to be seen.. dear my Lord, I am desperately in need, for whatever mercy and kindness you could give me.
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i
    70+, M
    1 Response Apr 27, 2015

    I Want Things To Change

    I will admit that there have been times where significant change has come in my life. Still, I want so much more to occur (good, not bad). I know in the back of my mind that in order for that to happen, I have to get out of the comfort zone and take risks. There are times when I...
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Jul 24, 2012

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