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I Want Something That I Know I Will Never Have

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    Risk

    Ah, I remember, remember, that subtle, fleeting glance, Those confident demure eyes that first drew me in, I don't think I could ever forget, The feeling that stirred inside me, within. I often wonder whatever would happen, should I ever endeavor for your affection, But...
    KeasbeyNights KeasbeyNights 22-25, M Nov 17, 2010

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    I Want Him

    Its true I want him but he will never leave her so I have to have him in small amounts every so often which currently I find really hard at times.
    shall13 shall13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2012

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    Stupid Lust

    I want it, but it's just stupid lust. It'll ruin my life. Not worth it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2010

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    Im someone whos mostly dead inside

    but still has a little hope for something extraordinary, which, as I said, is the worst breed of human, because it means I know everything is bullshit, but that I secretly hope for the day when it might not be.
    Disobey247 Disobey247 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    That Rare Woman Who Can See The Inner Me

    I long for an intense relationship with a confident, strong-willed woman who won't rely on me to lead the way but will instead take control and awaken the inner me to her passionate personality.
    introspectiveguy introspectiveguy 51-55, M 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    Her Hands

    I am a married guy with a wife who has decided sex is not important.  I work in retail and get flirted with all day long.  I am not ugly, I'm fit and I have tons of self confidence. Now while I love my wife, the lack of intimacy for no apparent reason has left me feeling like I...
    NMBtruth1 NMBtruth1 41-45, M 6 Responses May 18, 2011

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    This experience is like no other.

    It's a bit scary and it has a mark close to home. Dare I go forward or shy away. I'm enjoying the ride though there have been several bumps along the way. When its on its exciting new hot refreshing alive. When it's not it's lonely sadness and full of self doubt. I want to give...
    quietgirl36 quietgirl36 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    My Dreams Tell Me I Do Have Him.

    Whenever i close my eyes and dream of the young man i would fall deeply inlove with,disapears when i open my eyes.The strength of his arms wraped around me and looking downwards upon me and kissing my forhead saying "It'll be alright"But the chances to find this guy is very low...
    srosenfe0938 srosenfe0938 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2012

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    Never Felt Like This Before...

    I have been in a relationship aka dating the same man for 6 years, Yeah its a long time, And with that I have recently started to think that maybe this is not as met to be as I thought it was. We have been living together for several years and I am learning just how...
    dvasquez1987 dvasquez1987 22-25 Dec 27, 2011

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    Trying to be happy, trying to be strong,

    don't think my life will ever make sense
    coco72 coco72 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17

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    I Try To Hold On To What I Have Left

    I am done and tired of having people say things like: "she's completely insane, she needs to be locked up" "she's not your friend, she will only **** you over later" and so on and so forth. The hardest thing for me is the fact that I have successfully destroyed every...
    serenitykat serenitykat 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16, 2011

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    A Sad Story Indeed.

    These things seem completely unattainable: Peace of mind. A boy I've liked since I was 10 (he's now a young man). My best friend back. My father back. Someone that will love me as much as I love them. Amongst a multitude of other things that I am too tired and now...
    PseudoNymph PseudoNymph 22-25, F Dec 5, 2011

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    A Letter To Him That He'll Never See.

    I am prideful. Stubborn. Picky. Difficult. Argumentative. Strong-willed. A hard nut to crack.But once you get past my mouthy exterior, I'm the most loving, caring, understanding person you could imagine. It just takes a good man who is willing to get past my walls.I had a guy...
    GwenRose GwenRose 22-25, F Dec 4, 2011

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    Love?

    I'm a guy. 29, 300+ lbs, single, uncomfortable around people, trouble with anything socially related. I keep on thinking of what it would be like to be a beautiful, petite girl. To have a boyfriend/husband that will take me in his arms when he comes home. That will hug me and...
    0rang3 0rang3 26-30 1 Response Apr 5, 2012

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    Unhappily Ever After

    This is how I can hate you, and how I used to hate you, every single day, to keep myself from talking to you. If I ever wanted to stop talking to you this is what I would do: I would start convincing myself that everything you were saying to me was a total lie. Just because I...
    LostinLustandLove LostinLustandLove 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 11, 2013

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    How Could This Possibly Work? A Letter To Him.

    You know, its not just being aggravated by today... Its a realization. And hopefully maybe for you too, because its not something new to me. I figured this out a long time ago, even before he was born, before we ended things for the first time. Its that, you will always have...
    LostinLustandLove LostinLustandLove 26-30, F Apr 10, 2013

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    Some kind of food

    I know I'll never have the other half (or maybe third?) of my CAKE. Someone else already took it. But that's ok, as long as it's happy :)
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 17, 2009

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    and it is breaking my heart each time i think

    about it... it just makes me cry.
    ayamesan16 ayamesan16 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    My Cake & Eat It Too

    Im in love with two men. Why can't I have my husband and my boyfriend and everybody be happy? sighhh
    TodayImMe TodayImMe 18-21 1 Response Jan 11, 2012

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    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I Cant Have Him But Cant Let Him Go

    This man is like an addiction. I can not give him up. He is with someonne new and im so hurt. I am with my husband.....things are Ok.....but im not happy with ok. This man made me feel so alive, sexy, wanted..and i need so badly to feel that way. I miss him...and those feelings...
    sillysoo sillysoo 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2013

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    The Opportunity Has Passed

    I am not going to rehash the long saga between HIM and me, gracious readers if this interests you, please check out my other stories and confessions. We finally talked, briefly, but bluntly, which is what I prefer.  He has texted and called me every day and asked me...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 21, 2009

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    annamariebeck annamariebeck 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Oh Dear

    There is only one word that I feel I will never really have:LOVE.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 12, 2010

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    wdrngSoul wdrngSoul 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I am not a pessimist

    so much as a realist, there are so many things that I want in life that most say isnt much to ask for. But in my gut I know it will not come to pass. A place to belong and accepted, find my other half and have kids. Thats not going to be reality for me. Yet I cant stop hoping...
    Disobey247 Disobey247 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    Only When I'm Lonely

    Most of the time I like me, I like my life. But every now and then I wish I someone who would take me in his arms and kiss my forehead and hold me close and promise to never let me go.  And say, "It's gonna be alright." 
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Someone I Could Never Have

    throughout my life i wasnted to be loved  by a man and i was in love with him at a very young age, to find out later i could never have him for my own.i lived with the wanting for him all my life,this stopped me from loving another man.
    sybilgallant35 sybilgallant35 51-55 1 Response Jan 12, 2012

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    Good Bye.

    I'm sitting here now looking out at the water by the bench where we shared our magical and earth shattering first kiss. Sometimes, if I'm upset, and missing you, I think about that. If it never happened imagine... we would have just continued the rest of our lives as they were...
    LostinLustandLove LostinLustandLove 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 10, 2013

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    Pure Love

    I think growing up, especially through my teenage years i just wanted someone to love me the way i was capable of loving. I wasn't into one night stands and i wasn't into short little flings. I wanted something strong and meaningful ... something that was real and life long. I...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 28, 2013

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    True Happiness.

    I don't know why, but I have begun to feel that I might not be able to be happy ever. All my plans and all my dreams keep shattering at every step. Yet, I try and mend only to see them break into pieces again. Anything and everything that makes me smile or happy, slips away. I...
    bluie19 bluie19 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 28, 2011

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    I want a text that says I forgive you.

    I realize that everyone did something wrong to make this mess and I'm sorry too. We can go to being friends again but I have conditions. To that I say I'll do anything haha.
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990 22-25, M Nov 24, 2014

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    Don't We All?

    Mostly what I want from life is to know what to expect, but I know I won't get that. Thats not how it works at all. We all want to know what to expect every now and then but do we really get it? Most likely not unless we are psychic. So anyway thats what I want; to know what...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 18, 2009

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    I use to have you, I use be glowing with hope

    for everything and I use to feel refresh having able to talk to u but now everything seems impossible because u will not turn back and I hope u find happiness again because u deserve it and yes maybe I don't deserve u .
    minniekoala minniekoala 26-30, F Nov 25, 2014

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    Its For The Best

    There was a man I was passionatly in love with. Just like many of you I have had my share of heartache. This story is old and been told too many times. i have come to the conclusion that sometimes we want things that just arent good for us. Like too much junkfood, alchohol, ect...
    lolasmiles lolasmiles 31-35 May 4, 2011

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    Love...

    I don't believe in romantic love anymore. I've spent too many years believing people when they said they loved me. It's a fictional concept, in my opinion. I believe in platonic love, yes. But not romantic. I think everyone is looking for the next big thing when in a...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Oct 8, 2010

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    Incomplete

    There are several things in my life that I always wanted since I was little, but by now I believe that I will never fulfill them. As painful as that is, I realize that somethings are just not meant to be.
    MySweetLord MySweetLord 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    The Rockstar And The Rapper

    im the rockstar. your the rapper. opposites attract. but we were a wild stretch. i listen to all time low, 3oh!3, metro station<3 and your idols are lil wayne drake and cudi lol. i write poems about meaninful things.. and you blog on twitter about your EVERY MOVE. its ironic...
    mistakenlycorrected mistakenlycorrected 16-17, F Aug 10, 2010

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    makes you depressed, seeing what you want

    and not being able grab it. knowing who you want to be, but you have you be someone else. taking a right turn when you should have turned left. acting full, when in reality, your empty.
    alexxvaunlennon101 alexxvaunlennon101 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    rejectedhighly rejectedhighly 22-25, M Jun 14

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