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I Want The Bad Memories To Go Away

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    Boiling a pan of water may seem like the most

    innocuous activity and in fact it's something I do every day but there is the rush of bad memories that came from that. Sometimes I place my hand above the pot and get as close as I can before the hot steam of the air burns enough to make me pull my hand immediately away. It's...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F Jul 24

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    Chasing Them Away

    They aren't all bad but some I don't want reminded of. They hurt to bad even if they are good memories.
    Openrange Openrange 41-45, M Oct 9, 2012

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    I Have An Eidetic Auditory Memory...and Ptsd. Not A Good Combination.

    I really just want to forget the things that caused the PTSD, so those triggers won't exist anymore. I have a very sensory memory, and when I hear certian voices or songs I remember things that caused me great suffering. I don't want these memories and I don't want PTSD to cloud...
    wtfimik wtfimik 26-30, F Oct 4, 2012

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    And Yet . . .

    I don't like dwelling on bad memories as much as anyone else, but I still need to learn from them. Otherwise, I might make the same mistakes over again.
    Rookie009 Rookie009 22-25, M Jan 21, 2013

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    When Will I Let It Go?

    I still have resentment. I don't miss him. I don't want him back. I am positive that I made the right decision. It's the flashbacks of all the terrible fights. The awful feelings of dread. The sick feeling in my stomach when he lied. He turned into a monster when he was mad. He...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F Apr 2, 2013

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    If you think about it,

    to have the unwanted memories removed would be great. No more instances when you remember something awful and all the hurt and fear comes rushing back in again. ....or would having them removed mean that we might fail to appreciate the little moments we have?
    nicoleACA nicoleACA 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 5

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    Nightmares

    I want to get some bad memories out, because they haunt me and sometimes cause nightmares. So, I may try to write a little about some. I hope they don't change the way my ep friends feel about me. Please feel free to disregard them, because I am writing them as a way to heal for...
    veralynn veralynn 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 7, 2012

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    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I have a bad memory that happened

    when I was a kid. I still remember when mom left me at home with a maid to work. The maid was nursing me harshly. I still remember the taste watered by very cold water. I also still remember the feeling when my back was hit by a broom stick, the scar is still there to this day...
    chitrawlndary chitrawlndary 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    When all those ****** memories come flooding

    back and you can't stop crying because they are all you can think of. And they just stay there, ******* with your head. They will always be there. They never go away, ******* with your mind. Flash backs, nightmares, unable to sleep at night, suddenly crying and not being able...
    tltlc tltlc 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    They Made Me

    No I do not want the bad memories go away, They made me who I am today, I like to remember to know where I came from, To evaluate myself from then to now... To understand and go over my weakness and strengths... From then to now... And how I overcome my weaknesses, They are scars...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jul 30, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Run away from myself of course... It's like I have amnesia...when it comes to people I like...it's like I forget about all the comforts and all the caring that's how it all become...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F Nov 6

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    I am 20 and from Dublin Ireland. I want to run away too. This place is so dull, cold and grey, I haven't seen the sun in days. I walk past the same shops through the same streets...
    moongirl03 moongirl03 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    so it all started when I was 9, things got bad, elementary school started and I was being severly bullied because I had eczema and asthma and I was different. kids used to single...
    rawrsage rawrsage 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 7

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    I want to run away with someone so flippen bad but my family couldn't handle it and I need someone who will go with me
    ghostbeautiy ghostbeautiy 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    No one wants us together.. So my boyfriend and I.. We want to run away together, somewhere faaaar away!šŸ˜‹ But, we haven't exactly worked up the nerve yet.
    miconstancia miconstancia 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 11

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    I live in Fayetteville North Carolina and I really just want to run away from this town and these people. I want to go somewhere where no one knows me. I want to run away to big...
    AlaskanBeautyQueen AlaskanBeautyQueen 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    I want to run away and leave everything behind. I want to forget everything and have a new beginning. It's always about families, isn't it? My dad, well I've always thought that my...
    oliviapalm oliviapalm 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want to run away and be with that special someone
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26

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    Anybody aged 10-16 want to run away with me and my friend? Im 14 male from England and I need people that are serious and won't back out. We've got about 200 GBP between us and...
    TomFring TomFring 13-15, M Oct 29

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    I am tired of where I live. I want to run away and find love, a great place to live, and happiness
    rockyboo rockyboo 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    Im 16 From london - want to run away to America, need someone who I could meet when I get there? Want to start my life a fresh.
    NadiaDavies98 NadiaDavies98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9

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    Want to run away very soon, need someone to come with me?
    NadiaDavies98 NadiaDavies98 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    I want to run away by myself and just go wherever I want to go. If only I have money and don't have to worry about bills, I'll go.
    maryengelbreitfan maryengelbreitfan 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    last chance for anyone in california that wants to run away i might leave this saturday. message me if you want to come.
    Musicgamer14 Musicgamer14 13-15, M Nov 11

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    last chance for anyone in california that wants to run away i might leave this saturday. message me if you want to come.
    Musicgamer14 Musicgamer14 13-15, M Nov 11

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    is there anyone in california who wants to run away? message me if interested
    Psdude15 Psdude15 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 15

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    I am a 16 year old girl. I want to run away because my step dad is abussive and I want to start a new life and get out of here. DCF doesnt help. I live in florida anyone up for...
    cassidyduffyyy cassidyduffyyy 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    Everyone Says I'm Running Away by Nomadic Matt My dad always asks what Iā€™m running away from with my travels. A few weeks ago, a commenter told me to stop running away and live...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 28

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    leaving reality behind, leaving the past behind, making memories and learning about myself and you. I wish truely we could just go. no packing, no goodbyes, no plans. lets just go
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman 22-25, F Nov 18

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    Not because the people in my life are bad (they're quite wonderful all things considered) or even because my life is bad... I just want to be alone with no communication to my...
    PerturbedBrain PerturbedBrain 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    Hey. So I'm 13 and pretty much sick of my life. My "family" couldn't care less about me so I'm hoping to run away. But I need a partner or preferably a group to join. I'm in London...
    getawaygirll getawaygirll 13-15, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I want run away from the monsters inside my head that tell me that I'm not good enough, thin enough, smart enough, great enough, or pretty enough. But those monsters inside my head...
    Vickypearl Vickypearl 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    Plz anyone from canada help me run away i dont want to be alone im 13 and running away in the summer
    me343434 me343434 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Im from England and i'm running away in late November. I've already found one person to go with me but I want to form a group. Please message me if your interested.
    TomFring TomFring 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 29

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    This past year and a half have been a bit rough on me considering my grandfather being diagnosed with cancer. I have a hard time focusing with school, my eating habits have changed...
    justanothersteph justanothersteph 22-25, F Nov 16

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    Tonight is one of those nights that really opened my eyes and made me realize I need to make some changes in my life. I just wish I could escape from everything, even just for a...
    lesliemonster lesliemonster 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    Sometimes if it weren't for my dogs I'd walk right to my car & drive away. I'd come back if & when I missed being away.
    MiddleSister45 MiddleSister45 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    I need help Finding someone who is after an experience of a life time, next year I'm unsure where to go on holiday and I am unsure whom to go with. I am 17 and live in the North...
    LookingForExperiances LookingForExperiances 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Somewhere far away where not even my thoughts can get to me. I'd love to escape the constant bombardment my brain gets on a daily basis. The minute my brain gets a rest from any...
    friendlygent friendlygent 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    The world is such a beautiful place when you stop to realize maybe you're just surrounded by ugly things and people. That's what it is here. My mother feels nothing for me, I have...
    toxicsoul toxicsoul 13-15, F 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    I get this feeling all the time. Sometimes I just feel like I am not living my life to the fullest, and there is so much more out there. Like there is something big and awesome...
    lovingleila329 lovingleila329 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Let's Just Run Away. You and Me, Together. Escape this world with me
    hernandezj hernandezj 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 28

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    I'm about to run away, I'm done being with these people who all they have is hate for me, I can't stay in this house anymore i'm leaving bye.
    aileenfuri aileenfuri 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    I really need to get away. I'm going to die of depression in this house. Anyone in Florida that has a place I can stay?
    chikudontknow chikudontknow 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 4

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    Life has been difficult the past few months. I decided to continue my studies as an MSc in mechanical engineering. I feel though that it's useless to me. I'm not looking for much...
    RedScythe RedScythe 22-25, M Nov 16

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