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I Want The Bad Memories To Go Away

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    I have a bad memory that happened

    when I was a kid. I still remember when mom left me at home with a maid to work. The maid was nursing me harshly. I still remember the taste watered by very cold water. I also still remember the feeling when my back was hit by a broom stick, the scar is still there to this day...
    chitrawlndary chitrawlndary 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    If you think about it,

    to have the unwanted memories removed would be great. No more instances when you remember something awful and all the hurt and fear comes rushing back in again. ....or would having them removed mean that we might fail to appreciate the little moments we have?
    nicoleACA nicoleACA 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 5

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    And Yet . . .

    I don't like dwelling on bad memories as much as anyone else, but I still need to learn from them. Otherwise, I might make the same mistakes over again.
    Rookie009 Rookie009 22-25, M Jan 21, 2013

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    In my past life I used to work with my sister's

    husband (I was shop assistant) we did business but it was not so easy we had lots of scandals, difficult times but I don't know why but it couldn't be cause for stopping my deal with him I had to be perfect: sometimes kind for costumers sometimes lier like fox. It wasn't that...
    Stevejons Stevejons 22-25, M Nov 28

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    wherethewildthingswere wherethewildthingswere 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    wherethewildthingswere wherethewildthingswere 26-30, F Nov 27

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    JBStoner JBStoner 41-45 Nov 27

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    When Will I Let It Go?

    I still have resentment. I don't miss him. I don't want him back. I am positive that I made the right decision. It's the flashbacks of all the terrible fights. The awful feelings of dread. The sick feeling in my stomach when he lied. He turned into a monster when he was mad. He...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F Apr 2, 2013

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    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I Have An Eidetic Auditory Memory...and Ptsd. Not A Good Combination.

    I really just want to forget the things that caused the PTSD, so those triggers won't exist anymore. I have a very sensory memory, and when I hear certian voices or songs I remember things that caused me great suffering. I don't want these memories and I don't want PTSD to cloud...
    wtfimik wtfimik 26-30, F Oct 4, 2012

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    When all those ****** memories come flooding

    back and you can't stop crying because they are all you can think of. And they just stay there, ******* with your head. They will always be there. They never go away, ******* with your mind. Flash backs, nightmares, unable to sleep at night, suddenly crying and not being able...
    tltlc tltlc 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    Chasing Them Away

    They aren't all bad but some I don't want reminded of. They hurt to bad even if they are good memories.
    Openrange Openrange 41-45, M Oct 9, 2012

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    Nightmares

    I want to get some bad memories out, because they haunt me and sometimes cause nightmares. So, I may try to write a little about some. I hope they don't change the way my ep friends feel about me. Please feel free to disregard them, because I am writing them as a way to heal for...
    veralynn veralynn 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 7, 2012

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    They Made Me

    No I do not want the bad memories go away, They made me who I am today, I like to remember to know where I came from, To evaluate myself from then to now... To understand and go over my weakness and strengths... From then to now... And how I overcome my weaknesses, They are scars...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jul 30, 2012

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    Boiling a pan of water may seem like the most

    innocuous activity and in fact it's something I do every day but there is the rush of bad memories that came from that. Sometimes I place my hand above the pot and get as close as I can before the hot steam of the air burns enough to make me pull my hand immediately away. It's...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    You can lock them away

    but you know it's always there, unable to escape the past. So many ways to tell it. But what's the point when all your doing is awaking it from its slumber. Best to just move on and try not to think about it.
    Mixedemotions2k Mixedemotions2k 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    some one help me cause the memory convinced

    itself to tear me apart. and it's gonna succeed before long.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 27

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