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I Want The Bad Memories To Go Away

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    Boiling a pan of water may seem like the most

    innocuous activity and in fact it's something I do every day but there is the rush of bad memories that came from that. Sometimes I place my hand above the pot and get as close as I can before the hot steam of the air burns enough to make me pull my hand immediately away. It's...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    When Will I Let It Go?

    I still have resentment. I don't miss him. I don't want him back. I am positive that I made the right decision. It's the flashbacks of all the terrible fights. The awful feelings of dread. The sick feeling in my stomach when he lied. He turned into a monster when he was mad. He...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F Apr 2, 2013

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    They Made Me

    No I do not want the bad memories go away, They made me who I am today, I like to remember to know where I came from, To evaluate myself from then to now... To understand and go over my weakness and strengths... From then to now... And how I overcome my weaknesses, They are scars...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jul 30, 2012

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    And Yet . . .

    I don't like dwelling on bad memories as much as anyone else, but I still need to learn from them. Otherwise, I might make the same mistakes over again.
    Rookie009 Rookie009 22-25, M Jan 21, 2013

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    Chasing Them Away

    They aren't all bad but some I don't want reminded of. They hurt to bad even if they are good memories.
    Openrange Openrange 41-45, M Oct 9, 2012

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    Nightmares

    I want to get some bad memories out, because they haunt me and sometimes cause nightmares. So, I may try to write a little about some. I hope they don't change the way my ep friends feel about me. Please feel free to disregard them, because I am writing them as a way to heal for...
    veralynn veralynn 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 7, 2012

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    I have a bad memory that happened

    when I was a kid. I still remember when mom left me at home with a maid to work. The maid was nursing me harshly. I still remember the taste watered by very cold water. I also still remember the feeling when my back was hit by a broom stick, the scar is still there to this day...
    chitrawlndary chitrawlndary 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    I Have An Eidetic Auditory Memory...and Ptsd. Not A Good Combination.

    I really just want to forget the things that caused the PTSD, so those triggers won't exist anymore. I have a very sensory memory, and when I hear certian voices or songs I remember things that caused me great suffering. I don't want these memories and I don't want PTSD to cloud...
    wtfimik wtfimik 26-30, F Oct 4, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I just want to stop worrying 24/7 and just be happy. I want to get away from my parents and move away to a different state so I can just live my dreams. Nobody gets that I want to...
    BriannaMack BriannaMack 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    I want to run away from this life now. My divorce is eating away my soul. I'm scared, I'm depressed. I miss him. I know the divorce is a mistake. But now I just want to runaway...
    LRMommyof3 LRMommyof3 36-40, F Jun 30

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    Hi. My name is Kennedy. I am 13. I want to run away to NYC. When I come back, if my life isn't better, I'm leaaving again. This time, though, it's for good. I can't do it alone...
    kitkat923 kitkat923 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I want to run away to travel the world. No partner in crime to enjoy the experience with me though :(
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 10

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    I hate my home. My adoptive parents hate me. I want to run away, but I'm afraid to go alone and I have no one to do it with. If anyone lives in Ontario and wants to join me...
    100PercentMe 100PercentMe 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    does anyone want to run away? anyon near california or Michigan? anyone have a car or can drive? (we have money)
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    I want to run away and come back when I turn eighteen. I can't take the criticism that I get from family. I hate them. I don't want to stay here.
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Is there anyone who wants to run away? anyone near california or michigan? anyone who has a car or can drive?
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 2 days ago

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    This is for for real!! Whenever I enter a meeting I want to run away from it! I mean can't you just get on with it! Sitting in the same place for hours and yet not reaching...
    kumarawijeet kumarawijeet 18-21, M 12 hrs ago

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    and I hate myself for it. My parents have been pretty violent in the latest couple of months but it's been calm for some time now but I still don't want to be here. I love my mum...
    Lizzy96 Lizzy96 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I hate life. I hate emotion, I hate logic. I feel like I am insignificant, especially to those who say they love me. I try to be happy and yet that just doesn't fit into their...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    RUN AWAY GROUP we are runaways who formed a group to run away together. We have plenty of money and can help anyone who wants to join us.We saved about $90k and we can travel...
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 6 Responses Jun 29

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    I seriously need to run away. I can't go on living in this household much longer, but I know it's dangerous out in the world. Especially in a city like Chicago. I would like to...
    shadowman22 shadowman22 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    i need time to myself. to evaluate life. to just think long and hard about it. and about everyone. to know whether any of its really worth it. if any of the people are. im gonna...
    ThatOtherGuy17 ThatOtherGuy17 16-17, M Jul 14

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    You all say it's because you love me, holding my head under water. Locking me away, to shelter me you say. Keep telling yourself that. Believe that you're right, cause I no longer...
    walker13sl walker13sl 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Anything would be better than what I have right now. I would run away but i need someone to runaway with me, Someone who wants to start over. I'm 15 in N.J Iselin
    Viktoriya1998 Viktoriya1998 13-15, F 7 Responses Jul 9

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    I am a california runaway and i want someone to run away with
    NikhilWolf NikhilWolf 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My name is Charlotte I'm 13 years old and im from the U.K, I'm running away and I don't care where your from as long as your 13-15 maybe 16 and your willing to travel around the...
    wolfgirl4101 wolfgirl4101 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 25

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    Anyone message me I don't care what age your are I need a run away buddy :)
    Stayfreesailor Stayfreesailor 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    I just wanna move away from here. I am sick of my alcoholic uncle next door ruining our lives. We never have any peace or alone time. Nobody even visits us anymore because he...
    edemylove edemylove 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I really wanna run away with an older man I just wanna do something fun in my life
    idontknow72 idontknow72 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 27

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    I just wanna get away from here
    idontknow72 idontknow72 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    Any one in Georgia. I need somebody to run away with. But they need to be near fox chase in Nicholson. You have to be near my age.
    nobodyghost nobodyghost 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    Personally, I think it would make my life a little better. It would help me get away from my emotionally abusive mother. Plus, I don't think most of my friends would even care. I...
    lilykitten1998 lilykitten1998 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 30

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    I'm the type of person who likes to feel independent, I love doing everything by myself and just having my own space. It helps me appreciate and understand myself a lot more. Which...
    sararabie sararabie 16-17, F Jul 6

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    When I get the chance I intend moving somewhere cold beautiful and remote. The more remote the better it will be for me. I want to be as far away from people as possible and be...
    elegantstorms elegantstorms 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Whenever I move to a new place, I feel forgotten in the place that I moved from. But right now, I feel more distant with people where I live than people that live far away...
    sammichs sammichs 16-17, F Jul 8

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    I need to get away from this area! I don't have anything keeping me here anymore except my brother but idk whether I'm goo for him or not. If I had someone to get out of here with...
    RealJ92 RealJ92 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I would if I could... But the one I wanna run away with has other obligations....
    Brokenglassapple Brokenglassapple 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hello I would like to run away from my life I am stuck in ( blackmail and forced into things ) I could do it on my own but it would be nice to have some company. I have not...
    DJMatthews DJMatthews 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    21 and I live in South Australia. I need to get out. I resist this society structure and I hate it so much. I want to leave but I can't do it alone. Is there anyone else in...
    macabrEnigma macabrEnigma 18-21, T 4 Responses Jul 9

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    I've got someone in mind, not sure if they'd be put to it tho. One thing is for certain tho, I'm not sticking around after college, and we've talked about wanting to explore...
    Rachlm214 Rachlm214 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Ugh. Live my parents, have a friend, gotta roof yet I want to hit the road.🙊
    Coffeat5am Coffeat5am 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 29

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    to be completely honest, i want to runaway for like a night or too. but i don't wanna do it alone D:
    roarnom roarnom 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    I don't hate anyone, I don't hate myself, I just feel like I've made many mistake already at a young age and I want to start everything over in a place where no one knows my name...
    Dancedancedance Dancedancedance 16-17, F Jul 2

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    I am a lonely runaway and homeless, my ex had me run to her then she dumped me for another now im stranded and lost but im not going back home i just need help i want to join other...
    NikhilWolf NikhilWolf 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    and they keep disturbing, coming back to me. no matter how hard i try to forget..
    indian3677 indian3677 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Anyone from Michigan message me
    Stayfreesailor Stayfreesailor 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    That place is in Heaven where my God and angel lives.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29

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