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I Want The Bad Memories To Go Away

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    And Yet . . .

    I don't like dwelling on bad memories as much as anyone else, but I still need to learn from them. Otherwise, I might make the same mistakes over again.
    Rookie009 Rookie009 22-25, M Jan 21, 2013

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    Nightmares

    I want to get some bad memories out, because they haunt me and sometimes cause nightmares. So, I may try to write a little about some. I hope they don't change the way my ep friends feel about me. Please feel free to disregard them, because I am writing them as a way to heal for...
    veralynn veralynn 26-30, F 9 Responses Jul 7, 2012

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    I Have An Eidetic Auditory Memory...and Ptsd. Not A Good Combination.

    I really just want to forget the things that caused the PTSD, so those triggers won't exist anymore. I have a very sensory memory, and when I hear certian voices or songs I remember things that caused me great suffering. I don't want these memories and I don't want PTSD to cloud...
    wtfimik wtfimik 26-30, F Oct 4, 2012

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    When Will I Let It Go?

    I still have resentment. I don't miss him. I don't want him back. I am positive that I made the right decision. It's the flashbacks of all the terrible fights. The awful feelings of dread. The sick feeling in my stomach when he lied. He turned into a monster when he was mad. He...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F Apr 2, 2013

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    Chasing Them Away

    They aren't all bad but some I don't want reminded of. They hurt to bad even if they are good memories.
    Openrange Openrange 41-45, M Oct 9, 2012

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    I have a bad memory that happened

    when I was a kid. I still remember when mom left me at home with a maid to work. The maid was nursing me harshly. I still remember the taste watered by very cold water. I also still remember the feeling when my back was hit by a broom stick, the scar is still there to this day...
    chitrawlndary chitrawlndary 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    They Made Me

    No I do not want the bad memories go away, They made me who I am today, I like to remember to know where I came from, To evaluate myself from then to now... To understand and go over my weakness and strengths... From then to now... And how I overcome my weaknesses, They are scars...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jul 30, 2012

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    Boiling a pan of water may seem like the most

    innocuous activity and in fact it's something I do every day but there is the rush of bad memories that came from that. Sometimes I place my hand above the pot and get as close as I can before the hot steam of the air burns enough to make me pull my hand immediately away. It's...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F a week ago

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    Related Experiences

    I just want to stop worrying 24/7 and just be happy. I want to get away from my parents and move away to a different state so I can just live my dreams. Nobody gets that I want to...
    BriannaMack BriannaMack 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Hi. My name is Kennedy. I am 13. I want to run away to NYC. When I come back, if my life isn't better, I'm leaaving again. This time, though, it's for good. I can't do it alone...
    kitkat923 kitkat923 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Any one with driver license? I want to run away because I'm tired of my pain. I tried to kill myself but the didn't work please is their someone who is willing to help me run away...
    brandi0421 brandi0421 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have been wanting to run away for over a year and a half now. I am practically alone, I am depressed, my life is terroble, I'm scared of someone I have to see, and I have this...
    Teenager1421 Teenager1421 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I want to run away to travel the world. No partner in crime to enjoy the experience with me though :(
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 10

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    I hate my home. My adoptive parents hate me. I want to run away, but I'm afraid to go alone and I have no one to do it with. If anyone lives in Ontario and wants to join me...
    100PercentMe 100PercentMe 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 10

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    does anyone want to run away? anyon near california or Michigan? anyone have a car or can drive? (we have money)
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    I want to run away and come back when I turn eighteen. I can't take the criticism that I get from family. I hate them. I don't want to stay here.
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Is there anyone who wants to run away? anyone near california or michigan? anyone who has a car or can drive?
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M Jul 22

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    This is for for real!! Whenever I enter a meeting I want to run away from it! I mean can't you just get on with it! Sitting in the same place for hours and yet not reaching...
    kumarawijeet kumarawijeet 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    and I hate myself for it. My parents have been pretty violent in the latest couple of months but it's been calm for some time now but I still don't want to be here. I love my mum...
    Lizzy96 Lizzy96 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I hate life. I hate emotion, I hate logic. I feel like I am insignificant, especially to those who say they love me. I try to be happy and yet that just doesn't fit into their...
    Icarus1228 Icarus1228 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I seriously need to run away. I can't go on living in this household much longer, but I know it's dangerous out in the world. Especially in a city like Chicago. I would like to...
    shadowman22 shadowman22 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    i need time to myself. to evaluate life. to just think long and hard about it. and about everyone. to know whether any of its really worth it. if any of the people are. im gonna...
    ThatOtherGuy17 ThatOtherGuy17 16-17, M Jul 14

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    You all say it's because you love me, holding my head under water. Locking me away, to shelter me you say. Keep telling yourself that. Believe that you're right, cause I no longer...
    walker13sl walker13sl 22-25, F Jul 19

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    Not because I'm sad or angry, but because of the freedom I could gain! Right now I am set on living a navy life and having everything in my life planned out and ordered by higher...
    Deviance7 Deviance7 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    Anything would be better than what I have right now. I would run away but i need someone to runaway with me, Someone who wants to start over. I'm 15 in N.J Iselin
    Viktoriya1998 Viktoriya1998 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 9

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    I am a california runaway and i want someone to run away with
    NikhilWolf NikhilWolf 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    I want to leave where I am. I am miserable here and want a new start. I would like to gather a group of people who also wish to leave. I think this will make it easier and better...
    Donnelly2 Donnelly2 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I want to leave where I am. I am miserable here and want a new start. I would like to gather a group of people who also wish to leave. I think this will make it easier and better...
    Donnelly2 Donnelly2 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    If it wasn't for my mum and boyfriend I would have moved far far away by now. I cannot stand it here. It is an impossible place to live. There's no chance to meet new people. It's...
    amyvictoriaaa amyvictoriaaa 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I'm the type of person who likes to feel independent, I love doing everything by myself and just having my own space. It helps me appreciate and understand myself a lot more. Which...
    sararabie sararabie 16-17, F Jul 6

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    When I get the chance I intend moving somewhere cold beautiful and remote. The more remote the better it will be for me. I want to be as far away from people as possible and be...
    elegantstorms elegantstorms 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Whenever I move to a new place, I feel forgotten in the place that I moved from. But right now, I feel more distant with people where I live than people that live far away...
    sammichs sammichs 16-17, F Jul 8

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    I need to get away from this area! I don't have anything keeping me here anymore except my brother but idk whether I'm goo for him or not. If I had someone to get out of here with...
    RealJ92 RealJ92 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I would if I could... But the one I wanna run away with has other obligations....
    Brokenglassapple Brokenglassapple 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Hello I would like to run away from my life I am stuck in ( blackmail and forced into things ) I could do it on my own but it would be nice to have some company. I have not...
    DJMatthews DJMatthews 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    can anyone please help us run away? does anyone have a vehicle? i am in CA and my gf in NC we need help running together
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't hate anyone, I don't hate myself, I just feel like I've made many mistake already at a young age and I want to start everything over in a place where no one knows my name...
    Dancedancedance Dancedancedance 18-21, F Jul 2

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    21 and I live in South Australia. I need to get out. I resist this society structure and I hate it so much. I want to leave but I can't do it alone. Is there anyone else in...
    macabrEnigma macabrEnigma 18-21, T 4 Responses Jul 9

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    I am a lonely runaway and homeless, my ex had me run to her then she dumped me for another now im stranded and lost but im not going back home i just need help i want to join other...
    NikhilWolf NikhilWolf 13-15, M Jul 20

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    I've got someone in mind, not sure if they'd be put to it tho. One thing is for certain tho, I'm not sticking around after college, and we've talked about wanting to explore...
    Rachlm214 Rachlm214 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    Lots and lots of times I did seriously just want to leave my house. But I was broke so, ehhhhh, not anymore... :)
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I want to leave, travel. I want ti be alone. I want to forget all thing
    kamalmoussa kamalmoussa 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    and they keep disturbing, coming back to me. no matter how hard i try to forget..
    indian3677 indian3677 22-25, M Jul 20

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    I live in Maryland I'm 14 anyone from Maryland or close plz msg me!
    J5227 J5227 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    If there was someone in Indiana to do it with I would do it :/
    Shadowthepony Shadowthepony 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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    Anybody I'm not joking I really really really really need to get out of this place
    Vammy1d Vammy1d 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 10

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    anyone with car and lisence? please we need urgent help running
    NikhilWolf NikhilWolf 13-15, M a week ago

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    Anybody 12-15 from Pennsylvania?
    FuckLifeJustKillMe FuckLifeJustKillMe 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago