I Want The Bad Memories To Go Away

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    Chasing Them Away

    They aren't all bad but some I don't want reminded of. They hurt to bad even if they are good memories.
    Openrange Openrange
    41-45, M
    Oct 9, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 14, 2015

    Having a memory like mine is sort of a gift I

    guess, but when you remember all the big **** ups in vivid detail it doesn't make for a good time. My ocd also helps with me obsessing over every detail for every mistake for hours at a time, judging myself for everything I've ever done. Never being to shake the thought that...
    theycallmetk theycallmetk
    18-21, M
    Aug 9, 2015
    LOSTlo0ve LOSTlo0ve
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    And Yet . . .

    I don't like dwelling on bad memories as much as anyone else, but I still need to learn from them. Otherwise, I might make the same mistakes over again.
    Rookie009 Rookie009
    22-25, M
    Jan 21, 2013

    When all those ****** memories come flooding

    back and you can't stop crying because they are all you can think of. And they just stay there, ******* with your head. They will always be there. They never go away, ******* with your mind. Flash backs, nightmares, unable to sleep at night, suddenly crying and not being able...
    tltlc tltlc
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2014

    I see him at the end of the room knowing

    that I should avoid him I know he is a trespasser on the morning dew his face the palest of snow, hair the color of midnight eyes with a super natural glow and a cruel smile as we danced prettily across the floor come I will take you away are you willing to die for me you...
    Brooklynnkelly Brooklynnkelly
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2015
    JBStoner JBStoner
    41-45
    Nov 27, 2014

    You can lock them away

    but you know it's always there, unable to escape the past. So many ways to tell it. But what's the point when all your doing is awaking it from its slumber. Best to just move on and try not to think about it.
    Mixedemotions2k Mixedemotions2k
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2014
    wherethewildthingswere wherethewildthingswere
    31-35, F
    Nov 27, 2014

    Do the flashbacks ever leave?

    That's the one problem I still have from my previous relationship. I hear, see, smell, or taste something that reminds me of it all and then, it's like I'm there again, and I feel all the pain I felt and all the disgrace and the humiliation. I'm happy now, but these flashbacks...
    Lilyhammer420 Lilyhammer420
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    In my past life I used to work with my sister's

    husband (I was shop assistant) we did business but it was not so easy we had lots of scandals, difficult times but I don't know why but it couldn't be cause for stopping my deal with him I had to be perfect: sometimes kind for costumers sometimes lier like fox. It wasn't that...
    Stevejons Stevejons
    22-25, M
    Nov 28, 2014

    If you think about it,

    to have the unwanted memories removed would be great. No more instances when you remember something awful and all the hurt and fear comes rushing back in again. ....or would having them removed mean that we might fail to appreciate the little moments we have?
    nicoleACA nicoleACA
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 5, 2014

    I'm so tired of remembering all of the stuff I

    tried so hard to forget, I can't do this anymore, I complain I need someone to talk to but then I just push them away. I don't trust anyone to know what I really think
    IwillBePretty4U IwillBePretty4U
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Jul 21, 2015

    I want them to go away

    but they keep closing in on me And when I try to fight them they take me down and I cut my self
    jeniffer200 jeniffer200
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 14, 2015

    I doubt they ever will,

    but I can keep trying to bury them as best I can.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Oct 29, 2015

    I just want to forget all those memories

    and finally move on. If there's any short cut to this I will take it.
    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2014

    I want them to go away

    and never come back
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 14, 2015

    I have a bad memory that happened

    when I was a kid. I still remember when mom left me at home with a maid to work. The maid was nursing me harshly. I still remember the taste watered by very cold water. I also still remember the feeling when my back was hit by a broom stick, the scar is still there to this day...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

    Not as bad with alcohol

    but not so much like to drink but not so bad
    Becky555 Becky555
    22-25, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    I wish they never came back.

    ..They were repressed for a reason... The most...Disturbing one tho...I finally told my best friend. After remembering for 2 months. I was 7 at the time, my dad is a boy scout leader and a bunch of the scouts were staying at my house before going on a campout. And one scout...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    I hate this. I struggle with depression

    but I don't have any medicine because I know I'm strong enough. But I'm not. I try to make it all better but the memories knock me down. The constant screaming in my head. The flash backs. The blown up relationships. My constant isolation. My anorexia problem. I'm nothing but...
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    So i played a game called "Alice madness

    returns" and so yes i want the memories gone, but after that game i will live with them. it taught me that much.
    fallenzero fallenzero
    22-25, M
    Aug 9, 2015

    some one help me cause the memory convinced

    itself to tear me apart. and it's gonna succeed before long.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 27, 2014

    But they never really fade,

    do they? Everything I want to forget I remember, and everything I need to remember, I forget. The memories never actually go away, the nightmares never actually cease...they only slow down. Which is okay, but the problem is that every day is just another bad memory.
    KyrBella KyrBella
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jul 13, 2015

    They Made Me

    No I do not want the bad memories go away, They made me who I am today, I like to remember to know where I came from, To evaluate myself from then to now... To understand and go over my weakness and strengths... From then to now... And how I overcome my weaknesses, They are scars...
    indigowitch indigowitch
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2012

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