I Want This To Be Real And Lasting

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    I Do.....

    I am tired...... Sooo tired of the hurt..... I just want something real..... To feel something again..... And I'm scared.....
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
    26-30, M
    Mar 6, 2010

    Looking For ''real''.....

    I've been through several relationships in the past few years. Most of them we met online, seemed to have a great connection...at first, then it seemed to me that little fibs started showing up as we started getting closer to meeting, and most were flying in from another state...
    MusicMouse MusicMouse
    56-60, M
    16 Responses Mar 6, 2010

    I Want To Love...

    I once had a BF who was patient with me..who took time to love me...but he left...Now i wish I can find someone who would treat me like he did..and for whom I would feel total love and trust...because now I find I cannot trust people...When I heard BFs who afterward came say they...
    awk7hd awk7hd
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 5, 2011

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