I Want to Allow Myself to Be Loved

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 68 People

    I'm Getting Stronger

    Well my boss left the office.  I guess yesterday was his birthday.  I would say something.  I swear I would try and be nice but I feel like if I do then he'll take it the wrong way. My boss is a nice guy.  I think he thought being a business...
    nique26 nique26
    36-40, F
    Jan 18, 2009

    Sometimes I Wish I Understood....

    Love makes people weird, they act weird, they forget what's even going on sometimes. They go along thinking they like someone and they like someone else. It is hard to understand. I hope that in the future I can understand what love should be. I am confused a bit. I have an...
    pearls37 pearls37
    22-25, F
    Oct 31, 2012

    Made a Lotta Progress

    A LOT!  I mean, if you had told me 5 years ago I'd be with an amazing man and letting him explore the depths of my heart, I would have laughed in your face because there was no way I was gonna let somebody come that close to me.
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 13, 2009

    To Love Or Not to Love

    Hi, through life I have made friends ,lost friends, and not have any friends at all calling to ask me to do things. I loose friends because they ether move away or die. Right now my friends live to far away and are to busy for me. My social life consist of when I see people at...
    Luv4SouthAfrica Luv4SouthAfrica
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 9, 2007

    Me And Love Don't Mix Well

    I never feel loved by myself, my god, by my friends or family or whatever. I can never feel love, it's so weird. It's like I am immune to love
    HeavenHearts HeavenHearts
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2011

    Allow Myself To Be Loved...

    Maybe that's why most people who I allow to love me, end up back-stabbing me.and maybe, that's why I back-stab some people. and maybe, it's because they allow my love, that they get back-stabbed by me.Love...such an interesting feeling, it can make you want to die, laugh, be...
    PuppetArtist PuppetArtist
    13-15, M
    Feb 1, 2011

    Pizazz

    I think I'm too romantic. Without the pizazz of a fairytale romance I won't let myself fall in love. I need the stability and assurance that comes with the unconditional love of love at first sight in nearly all romance movies.
    CleoShilu CleoShilu
    18-21, F
    Jan 17, 2009

    Me

    give  me the love ..im always pushing people away
    HeLpLeSsPiXiE HeLpLeSsPiXiE
    13-15, F
    Apr 27, 2009

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    poetz13 poetz13
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    When i was in high school, I thought I loved some one but he did not love me as he said he did. He just wanted to get into my pants and then shoot his load into my vagina. I gave...
    maryhenderson69 maryhenderson69
    66-70, F
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    conceptualclarity conceptualclarity
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 21
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    51-55, M
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    I I love her but she didn't love me back. I think of her consistently and not just when I'm lonely, even when I'm busy midday. I try my best to stop or hinder how I feel, but I can...
    LostHaze LostHaze
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Hey guys if you want to stay in touch with me pls hit me up at my snap chat. (Wallypup)
    claytonharris235 claytonharris235
    13-15, M
    Apr 20
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    JordanTheLost6 JordanTheLost6
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 20
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    LozzyFromRome LozzyFromRome
    46-50, M
    Apr 20
    I wrote something long and detailed but i messed it up. So here is a short version because I can't bare writing another one. I loved a boy. We broke up... it was mutual, I didn't...
    sillykittycat sillykittycat
    18-21, F
    Apr 19
    I want a guy who'll love me not just in secret but is also grateful and proud to have me in his life. I'm a treasure that should be protected, true! and I understand if he just...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 19
    No. I know i'm still young (21) but I hope I dont have one because I just dont see myself caring for them. Plus im not irresponsible as to bring a person in this unsustainable...
    XXLovelyPoisonXX XXLovelyPoisonXX
    22-25, F
    Apr 19
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    Nick8876 Nick8876
    18-21, M
    Apr 18
    Unworthiness is the inmost frightening thought that you do not belong, no matter how much you want to belong, that you are an outsider and will always be an outsider. It is the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 17
    Do you have this on your mind? That you don't deserve happiness, That everyone deserves someone better than you, How to deal with this?how to get my self confidence back?
    Ciflo Ciflo
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    in order.... the girl in kindergarten...i cannot remember your name but i can still see you. im sorry i was so shy i did not tell you how i liked you. as im older i can see you...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Apr 16
    From mid-2012 EP management dismantled piece by piece the great website it had previously built. Why? Long before the end of EP I figured it would have a halt, but I was not...
    conceptualclarity conceptualclarity
    51-55, M
    7 Responses Apr 15
    I'm very sad and I really hate myself. Everyday I wake up and I don't have a purpose. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't really have friend's and even when I'm with...
    tlmboo tlmboo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15
    I've been crying my eyes out because in this 2yr relationship I fell in love. I have never loved anyone like that. I didn't care about his background, I didn't care that everyone...
    linzzy linzzy
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 15
    I crave love from someone else meanwhile the love I have for myself is nonexistent. this is literally an equation of 2+2=5 like it makes no sense
    NogoodElizabeth NogoodElizabeth
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 15
    I got a new tattoo today, it's says "love yourself first" in Arabic. to me it means that I should stop allowing myself to get hurt by the 'love' I have for certain people and that...
    jaslovely jaslovely
    70+, F
    4 Responses Apr 14
    You Never Allow Me To Express My Sadness When You Betrayed Me I'm sorry if you think that I am selfish even my friends didn't knew about this relationship I hope you can see what...
    SnowOnFleek SnowOnFleek
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 14
    I love my friends and family
    cadine123 cadine123
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    I am a 20 year old girl, that is soon to be 21, and my parents give me no freedom whatsoever. This stresses me out to no end. So let's start from the beginning. In January 2009, my...
    fallenangelxo fallenangelxo
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 12
    Remember Dad , you left on purpose when I was a baby . Remember you said you never wanted a daughter I've never met u but I know u have other kids and I know u don't want to meet...
    Dessily Dessily
    13-15, F
    8 Responses Apr 12
    When you let someone have the power of your state of mind, that’s when you realise you’re in such a dangerous space. Letting them protrude every corridor of your mind to the...
    trying2forgetyou trying2forgetyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 12
    How did I do it. I wasn't in love with you for first few months but the way you loved me and care for me I fall in love with you. As I start falling in love with you. You was...
    rosecr rosecr
    36-40, F
    Apr 12
    Why do I always go through this. You know when you really care about someone and they mean everything to you. Those people who impact your life unexpectedly. I fell in love with...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope
    13-15, F
    Apr 12
    When I was 14. I had my first boyfriend. He was 4 years older than me. I was deeply attached to him and losing him felt as losing my self. We had a two year relationship where he...
    AConfusedLeo AConfusedLeo
    70+, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    Anger You have probably felt this emotion some time during your Life. If not, you are on way too many drugs or you are a sociopath about to burst out. Truth is, I get angry too...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont
    26-30, M
    Apr 11
    since it's been a few days since my last update, i may as well post something to let everyone know i'm still alive. i've arrived back in CA, Kaito and i are still engaged. i...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    i always wonder if i am ever gonna be loved back :(
    bimvim bimvim
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 10
    as I look around and see all the people who are truly in love with each other ,sometimes I get kind of jealous I miss the feeling of loving someone but never really felt a true...
    highonheels45 highonheels45
    46-50, M
    Apr 9
    Another weekend of hell is upon me and I honestly don't think I can take one more day. It is now 630am and I got 2 hours of sleep last night. I was rudely awoke at 330am because my...
    princesskitu princesskitu
    51-55, F
    Apr 9
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    HomelessSoul HomelessSoul
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 9
    The one person who is always a constant denominator in my life, is my brother. We have basically grown up as twins despite our two year age difference. When we were younger we...
    lbokete lbokete
    18-21, M
    Apr 8
    I was in love with a girl who I loved so much and she loved me madly.. An orphan who lost her mom and brother, but I came to fill that emptiness inside her heart. Two years...
    MessyGlaze MessyGlaze
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 8
    I have never felt that experience in my life.
    tinygirlz tinygirlz
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 8
    We look for people we've lost in a sea of unknown faces We hear them in the voices of strangers We look at everyday objects and remember the memories The ones we've loved The...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 8
    I am nobody's. Every once in awhile I wish I could be loved. That I could be somebody's, but I have understood for a very long time now that I am the "unforgiven ". All of people's...
    Ancientphoenix78 Ancientphoenix78
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 8
    So many times I feel unloved and pushed away, when I try to help. Loving someone with a Border Line Personality Disorder is heartbreaking the at times, and can be very lonely.
    InterestedMe123 InterestedMe123
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 8
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    malibulang malibulang
    31-35, F
    Apr 8
    Wish I had someone who can be brave enough and tell me, "I'm here for you..."
    LunaKruna LunaKruna
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 7
    Is this too much to ask? To be loved but even better would be to be shown love! *sigh* :(
    angelpumpkin36 angelpumpkin36
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Apr 7
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    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 7
    Love does not exist. It never has and never will. Or perhaps, this only applies to me.
    sadlyalone2 sadlyalone2
    46-50, F
    10 Responses Apr 7
    I don't feel that I am important enough for any man to love. As it is, every guy I've tried to give a chance, wanted nothing more then sex. I lost my virginity a few weeks ago...
    Booklover143 Booklover143
    13-15
    1 Response Apr 7
    Like many, I came across Experience Project when I needed it most. It was a time in my life when everything had been going wrong and I felt completely alienated from everyone in my...
    KnightBlade KnightBlade
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 7
    First i have to admit , i'm very complicated , even i don't understand myself , and what i want from a person , i have friends and i had girlfriends , but none of them sees, know...
    Poxulis Poxulis
    18-21
    2 Responses Apr 7
    I'm a newie to this and honestly wasnt sure which group to write in....I supposed this was best as it is abit of everything...all random thoughts and feelings in my head. Dont even...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 7
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