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I Want to Be By Myself

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    I Want To Be By Myself God Dammit

    24 yr old male, born introvert here... asher roth's song, 'be by myself'  basically sums up my story.    silence is golden, loose lips sink ships. introverts unite.   pzzz
    deiniolexos12 deiniolexos12 22-25, M Apr 10, 2010

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    I Want to Be Left Alone, and I Have No Idea Why!

    So I am a 34 year old male. I had a good life by most standards. I had a beautiful wife and daughter. I had a nice house and my wife and I made pretty good money. All of the sudden about 3 years ago, I developed some sort of deppresion. I wanted nothing to do with anything...
    jg0093dcs jg0093dcs 31-35 2 Responses Jun 8, 2009

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    Will I Ever Surrender And Accept That Life Is Good?

    A few nights ago, after watching a play performed by my college mates in campus, I decided I wanted to go home on foot because the night look so beautiful and the dark sky was so clear.... and because I just didnt feel like talking to anyone or be surrounded by people, not that I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2011

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