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I Want To Be Dead As Soon As Possible

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    I think about crashing my car into a highway

    divider. I would only do it in the middle of the night because I don't want to endanger innocent people. I don't wear my seatbelt anymore (it's been almost 2 years) because if I get into an accident I don't want to survive it. It's so twisted. I know it is. I'm just so...
    absolom absolom 36-40 3 Responses Apr 27

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    Felt That Way Many Years Ago

    i wanted to be dead so i could join the ones i loved very much i wanted it so bad i took jobs all over the world hunting death i have always felt cheated by GOD as he told me it was not my time yet and i had to go back to a body that was all broken to tell from a plane crash...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Feb 26, 2012

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