it makes me feel sick.. I always wonder how people are in relationships. I even feel strange saying happy birthday to my brother.. I think I feel as though they don't deserve it and i usually am only shown anger by others..
I would like to experience the ability of being devoid of any kind of feelings or emotion. When I wake up, never again I want to feel sleepy or tired. When someone insults me, I don't want to feel angry, not even feel like I have to reply to him/her. I don't want to have any more...
it would be good they said..
Be in love they said, it would be sweet they said..
Be nice they said, you would find good friends they said..
Well, guess what???
I don't have any good friends.. I did all of those things.. :,(