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I Want To Be Everything I Am Not

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    most of all....i want to be pretty...thin...and happy....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 13, 2010

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    Almost Everything.

    I want to be the opposite. Change things i can't change. But I knos this won't happen it's impossible. If I chanegd my thinking it would help, but that'll thake some work also... :P
    LoveLindseyMusic420 LoveLindseyMusic420 18-21, F Nov 26, 2009

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    Too Much Want, Not Enough Am

    I want to be accepted.  I want to be straight. I want to be bubbly. I want to be happy. I want to be outgoing. I want to be interesting. I want to be a person with many friends... real, true friends. I want to be family-oriented. I want to be good enough...
    BBUDS BBUDS 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2010

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    That Is True.

    I'd like to be a lot of things that I am not, but at the same time, I like a lot of things about the way that I am. That's hard for a lot of people to believe, seeing as how my life is the way it is, but it's true. I could spend my life thinking of all the ways I could be...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 5, 2010

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    Just Everything I'm Not

    Everything I Want To Be &  Everything I Am Not = GOOD, THIN(ner), STRONG (emtionally/mentally), smart, successful, beautiful, talented.... a winner, committed, hopeful, confident, outgoing, deserving, faithful, peaceful, clear headed, physically/emotionally stable, helpful...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

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    I Want To Be Everything I Am Not

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    Mediocre Mediocre 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 23, 2010

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