I Want To Be Free From This Pain

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    Pain

    i am trying to stay strong but i have been through so much emotional and phyisical pain. i do not know what to do and how long i can stay fighting this.especially when i am ill and the pain reminds me.
    freeangel freeangel
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Apr 27, 2010

    Pain

    Since I have been on E P I have been working thru alot of emotional baggage I have been carrying around for most of my life.As I work thru this I am becoming more calm and at peace.My physical pain is another story.With the weather the way it is here right now, I have been in a...
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow
    51-55, M
    Apr 17, 2011

    I Want To Disappear..

    I cannot stand hearing any more words you want to say. Knowing that I am not part of your plan. I must go in order to save myself from drowning into this forbidden love we shared. I am sorry for loving you more than anything in this world.
    UnderMyPillow UnderMyPillow
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 16, 2013

    When will it end? I can hardly take the pain

    anymore... it's just so hard..
    saigebeck101 saigebeck101
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    Pain

    Haha, the pain of the past, it never truly leaves. Anyone knows that. Though I do want to be free from it. Who doesn't? Pain of the past, present, and future. It never leaves you... I want to be free, but I know that's impossible.  Can't complain to much though. I have...
    Sasaire Sasaire
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 3, 2010

    This shell I'm trapped in,

    I need out, I need to escape this hideous shell.
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    Sep 23, 2014

    I am 75 years old, have been diagnosed with

    Temporal arteritis and have been under doctors care on prednisone steriods for 18 months. The side effects of the meds are as bad as the disease and I have been in constant pain from one or the other for 18 months; and have become almost totally disabled. I would do ANYTHING...
    jamesmgray1 jamesmgray1
    70+, M
    Mar 16, 2014

    A year ago I probably would of been too coward

    to come out to anyone. Today I came out to a dear friend, I've only known you for a few months but I see good in you.. Today tears seeped out from our souls filled with pain.. No matter if your gay or straight we all have a heart, it breaks, when it does we try to dispose of it...
    eternalove293 eternalove293
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015
    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol
    18-21, F
    Mar 22, 2014

    I Want To Live In Happiness

    i want to live but my life not so ease i have stuff going on in my head i cant explain i find it hard to express myself tell others what planing my dream go sleep never wake up unless someone take these feelings away from me make me normal but i cant be i have illness were there...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 1, 2011

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