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I Want To Be Free From This Pain

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    I am 75 years old, have been diagnosed with

    Temporal arteritis and have been under doctors care on prednisone steriods for 18 months. The side effects of the meds are as bad as the disease and I have been in constant pain from one or the other for 18 months; and have become almost totally disabled. I would do ANYTHING...
    jamesmgray1 jamesmgray1 70+, M 1 Response Mar 16, 2014

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    Maybe One Day....

    I wish I could go back in time, to when I was 8 years old.  That's the last time that I was truly free and happy.  To my stepdad who loved me so much before little brother was born, only to toss me aside.  I wasn't an old doll that a child gets tired...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2010

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    I Want To Live In Happiness

    i want to live but my life not so ease i have stuff going on in my head i cant explain i find it hard to express myself tell others what planing my dream go sleep never wake up unless someone take these feelings away from me make me normal but i cant be i have illness were there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 1, 2011

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    Pain

    Since I have been on E P I have been working thru alot of emotional baggage I have been carrying around for most of my life.As I work thru this I am becoming more calm and at peace.My physical pain is another story.With the weather the way it is here right now, I have been in a...
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M Apr 17, 2011

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    Pain

    i am trying to stay strong but i have been through so much emotional and phyisical pain. i do not know what to do and how long i can stay fighting this.especially when i am ill and the pain reminds me.
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 8 Responses Apr 27, 2010

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    Spinningoutofcontrol Spinningoutofcontrol 18-21, F Mar 22, 2014

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    This shell I'm trapped in,

    I need out, I need to escape this hideous shell.
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M Sep 23, 2014

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    I Want To Disappear..

    I cannot stand hearing any more words you want to say. Knowing that I am not part of your plan. I must go in order to save myself from drowning into this forbidden love we shared. I am sorry for loving you more than anything in this world.
    UnderMyPillow UnderMyPillow 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 16, 2013

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    Its Why I Consider...

    SUICIDE Death seems like the only option to be truly free from this pain. I have struggled with this for years and I am reaching my breaking point. I hope to overcome it but its so hard. I dont know if I would just give up. 
    reset reset 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    Pain

    Haha, the pain of the past, it never truly leaves. Anyone knows that. Though I do want to be free from it. Who doesn't? Pain of the past, present, and future. It never leaves you... I want to be free, but I know that's impossible.  Can't complain to much though. I have...
    Sasaire Sasaire 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2010

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