I Want to Be Happy Again

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    Well this has been a challenging year

    for me. My old comfortable and familiar way of life met a series of extinction events in the spring and now I'm living in an aftermath void of all the things I held dear. I'm also not sure that I like who I've become in order to cope with these realities. Now my time is just a...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    Or have I ever been happy?

    Or was I just fooling myself this whole time Justifying my pain at the expenses of someone else? How can I learn to be happy when the only thing I've ever felt and known is pain? My comfort is in the emptiness. How pitiful.
    Lhokw Lhokw
    22-25, F
    Sep 28, 2015

    After my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me due to

    him finding me "not pretty enough to be (his) girlfriend." I have been struggling with issues within myself. There are days when I will be fine and there are some days when I would feel as if I am missing him. It is true that I miss him, but I know deep inside that I am also...
    emptypromises22 emptypromises22
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2014

    My heart has harden and I can't live like I

    should. It no longer gives emotion when it should and drains any other heart for that which it can't give.
    ridge1776 ridge1776
    26-30, M
    Feb 12

    Just A Little Happy

    Happiness is something I remember feeling long ago...but what it actually feels like...I can no longer remember. I think it felt good & pleasurable but it's been so long I couldn't say for sure. My life forever changed 8 months ago. It was during a phone conversation that...
    hadyourchance hadyourchance
    36-40, F
    57 Responses Oct 23, 2012

    I feel like I'm almost breathing properly again.

    I can sleep like a baby again and wake up without feeling like my life is crushing down on me the minute I wake up. And if I haven't been speaking to any of you on here, I've just been trying to focus on myself, focusing on loving myself. I'm sick of feeling like I'm invaluable...
    Miriamjen Miriamjen
    18-21, F
    Jul 24, 2015

    And then I read an excerpt from a book on

    Buddhism turns out misery and happiness are the same, everything is suffering but the only difference is happiness occurs when there's an absence of suffering. Comparison: Happiness is a snake's tail, misery is a snake's head. Conclusion it's both part of the snake.
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    1 Response Jun 24, 2015

    People have been asking

    so i will tell you. My profile picture is a picture of me and my boyfriends King and Queen tattoos that we got for my birthday. We were so obsessed with them. We went to a tattoo shop in Louisiana to have them done. it is hands down my favorite tattoo. after he passed i found a...
    forevermyalways forevermyalways
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 9, 2015

    A letter I wrote to my boyfriend : I wish

    things were the way they used to be when we first met or just in the beginning of our relationship... I remember when I first started to stay with u at Walker st I was so happy wow and u were to... Us being together every day and we actually enjoyed each others company and we...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015

    do you trust your gut feeling ?

    like when a person hates you, do u think its true ?
    flipinagirl flipinagirl
    22-25, F
    Sep 8, 2015

    I have just spent the best part of 2 hours

    finding the courage to send the message I've been writing all morning. I know I will be unhappy but in the long run it might be for the best. I need to start and build a life for me and my daughter and no matter how much my decision is going to kill me, I need to put her needs...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    A Wonderful Life.

    Just over a year ago I was at a craft market when I stopped to admire some beautifully hand crafted fabric dolls.Not “cute” or baby dolls, but whimsical, each with its own unique fanciful character.The maker of the dolls was a short, overweight woman in her late fifties...
    Shadow7 Shadow7
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 24, 2012
    Lambentskull Lambentskull
    26-30, M
    Sep 11, 2015

    Racist Against My Own Kind

    Sometime I sit back and think about how african american people treated me over the years. I know that its not good to be racist but the crazy thing is that I am racist against my own kind. I remember growing up as a little girl having only few blacks that accepted me for who I...
    hiddenemotions hiddenemotions
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 1, 2011

    All I have always wanted is to be happy again

    like I used to be.I am so broken hearted,I am tired of crying,feeling hopeless.And I know the one who can make myself better is myself.
    des3low des3low
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2015

    I Miss the Bubbly Me......

    I used to feel the excitement of facing everyday with a challenge... Happier me because I finally pull myself together and told my ex hubby 'Please leave me, I can't accept you having an affair and your lies after lies'.  It was with great pain when I send him off the...
    Eternal Eternal
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2009

    I want to see rainbows

    and butterflies Every time I close my eyes And reserve the right to be mesmerised, By the pure delight that awaits me every night; Waking up in the morning Ready to put the world to rights. No more fights or frights. I want to feel alive. I want to be happy again. I want to...
    nivanvc nivanvc
    36-40, M
    Feb 1

    The Smile Of A Tortured Soul

    happiness: when you feel a complete sense of satisfaction, when you can sit back, smile, and have no worries on your mind. when you feel whole and at peace with not just yourself, but also with your surroundings, and the people you love. when the 1st thing on your face in the...
    WhoIAmMeantToBe WhoIAmMeantToBe
    Nov 15, 2011

    I would like to life simple,

    I feel like a prisoner living in a cage of rules and monkeybussines. I can't stand college, it's all an image, showing how rich you are, how much money you have and zero happiness. This is not what freedom is like. We're living a protocol. Just send me to an island with alote of...
    Spacekeez Spacekeez
    18-21, F
    Jan 31

    meet this girl she needs me *** i need her shes

    the one ho is goin to make me happy again
    yollo123 yollo123
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jan 10

    OMG I can't even handle anything right now!

    !! I feel like I'm gonna have a dam panic attack I'm surprised I haven't! I am in the kind if mood where I don't even want to be around people at all no one at all I just want to lock myself in my room and watch TV and be alone... I'm so annoyed and so miserable ugh I hate it and...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul
    26-30, F
    Feb 25

    I'm not sure when the last time is

    that I was truly happy. I have gotten so used to faking it that I'm always "happy". Reflecting back on my life, I think the last time I was happy was when I was three... then my life started going downhill. People always tell me that, "Everyone deserves to be happy," but nobody...
    EuphoricSigh EuphoricSigh
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    I haven't been feeling myself lately.

    .. I've changed some how some way. I feel a grotesque amount of animosity towards my husband. I find that I don't do anything that makes me happy. I want to drive into walls off roads over guard rails... Scream, just scream... I know that these things are not good and I know I...
    brooklynnejones brooklynnejones
    46-50, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2015

    I want to be happy again I want to get rid of

    this pain people may think i am lame but they are the one i would blame. Why do they come to your life? Why do they just speak the lie? Why don't they think, it hurts? I am tired of such a curse. Being sad is what i hate, But i guess that's my fate. I want to be happy again...
    uniqueguy91 uniqueguy91
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jan 24

    The conflicting emotions of seeing someone else

    living your dream ( •́ ∧ •̀ )७ Happy for their joy Motivated and hopeful for the future Downcast for not being there yet
    MidnightMeraki MidnightMeraki
    16-17, F
    Dec 13, 2015

    Stress is an alarm clock

    that lets you know you're attached to something that's not true for you ;(
    aus98765 aus98765
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jun 14, 2015

    When you realize you are always waiting around

    for someone to enjoy some happiness with you. #wakeup When you realize that people will not sacrifice as much as you. #openyoureyes When you realize you know love and sacrifice, but when you have to ask does love or sacrifice know you? #moveon I'm just saying. I have to start to...
    Krazycool Krazycool
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2015

    Some point in life where you are put aside by

    someone you thought you deserve more than what you got. You treat someone as priority while they put you as an option. This is the time where your heart starts to weaken and tear by realizing you are not that important after all, that hurts. Ouch. Whatever it is, I hope I can...
    Jaqque23 Jaqque23
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 12, 2014

    I was doing better for a few months,

    but some days the past creeps back into my mind. I can't remember the last time a smile reached my eyes, and I truly felt glad to be alive. Most days I'm hoping for the end.
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    3 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    I deserve better. I am always too nice

    and it never works out for me in the end. I have a hard time sharing my feelings and when I finally do it's always a joke. I just want someone to understand me and realize that I deserve better.
    ComeClarity33 ComeClarity33
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 5, 2015

    I've been depressed since my dad died suddenly

    in November at 58. After finally becoming sober and getting a job.
    mkd152 mkd152
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2015

    Wrote up my new schedule,

    am finally organised and getting back on track.
    NADAdma NADAdma
    31-35, M
    Sep 11, 2015

    You say such sweet things to me sometimes.

    .my reaction should be to smile...but instead it makes tears fill my eyes..it's like I'm looking at myself from a distance..i've forgotten how to take things on their own merits...all I know how to do now is to compare...and that steals the joy right out of things.
    kuronekko kuronekko
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 23, 2015

    Just Want To Get Over It All!

    I would say it all started when I moved away to college when I was 26. I moved to this beautiful and yet terrible place in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan, a little city known as Marquette in order to attend Northern Michigan University. Then in my 3rd year at NMU I decided to...
    pennylessguitarplayer pennylessguitarplayer
    4 Responses Nov 23, 2011

    if you need to vent and let out your emotions,

    just message me im just here to help.
    flipinagirl flipinagirl
    22-25, F
    Jan 8

    Depression Almost Killed Me.

    Day before yesterday I was so much depressed I did hurt myself a lot,I needed medical attention but I didn't go to hospital because I was scared to tell my parents what I did. But somehow I managed to keep myself okay. I told Mom what i did and after looking at my wrist she just...
    CrushednBroken CrushednBroken
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Oct 10, 2013
    flipinagirl flipinagirl
    22-25, F
    Jan 20

    is it right for me to break up with my bf?

    cos most of the time we dont get along. i think hes with me bcos of our daugther, bcos i dont feel love by him,he always says stuff to bring me down. im so confuse. i just dont know what to do. hes a good man,but i feel like im just a bad luck n hes life.
    flipinagirl flipinagirl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 1
    Krazycool Krazycool
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2015

    It is definetly too much

    for me to ask. My problem is that i can't seem to find the most basic question of all: what will make me happy? I can't answer it at all. This is very confusing to me
    Potchii Potchii
    22-25, M
    Jan 8

    I crave the feeling. But at the same time,

    if I'm happy for too long I feel annoyed and exhausted. It's quite the tiring cycle.
    FlowerWarrior FlowerWarrior
    13-15, T
    1 Response Jan 24

    Ok this statement couldn't be more true.

    My post is going to be a confusing one.. As some of you have read my past posts I seem to still love someone who clearly doesn't want me anymore. For whatever reason.. Yes he is a good man. But it was just his security about marriage that got in his way I think. Also worried...
    Beanbella Beanbella
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 1

    I wanna feel something.

    .. I wanna feel something..... I feel something... ****.
    kuronekko kuronekko
    31-35, F
    9 Responses Jan 23

    It's been 2 months since I last saw her

    but still can't stop thinking of her even though I know she betrayed me
    insecurelad insecurelad
    31-35, M
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    Does anyone else ever feel

    as if they will never find true love and get married? :(
    NADAdma NADAdma
    31-35, M
    Sep 9, 2015

    i wish when i'd never let them in,

    i wish i didn't let them **** with my head
    brookecarter brookecarter
    13-15, M
    Jan 23

    I act happy in front

    if my friends and family I know I'm not but they don't... I've tried and tired to be happy I just can't I'm sick of always been miserably and mood and grumpy:/
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    2 Responses Mar 11, 2014
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